#and has drained my brain

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

*tries to organize my thoughts*

*remembers i'm not in school and therefore beholden to neither heaven nor hell nor any man's grading system*

*joyously shredding & tossing all my carefully arranged 3x5 mental notecards into the air like so much beige confetti. raising my arms in victory, cheering raucously until i accidentally inhale bits of homemade confetti*

(*coughing up itty bits of paper like a cat evicting a hairball with a firm understanding of tenants' rights*) wait wat happens next

#i marie kondoed my thoughts and *i* feel great. but now my stream-of-consciousness has escaped containment #so many innocent bystanders at stake #every time i try to organize my thoughts i run out of plastic bins and have to make a trip to the container store where i get even more dis #racted so. you can't just hand me THIS brain and NO catalogue OR library classification system #and expect me to single-handedly sort through all this nonsense? bad form but fucking form not in my job description #aNYways. formal education sure did a FUCKING NUMBER on us huh #(a number i measure not in gpa or dollars of student debt. #but in the number of therapy sessions & medical debt it will take to recover.) #seriously folks. our education systems are...innately traumatizing for a huge number of students. and we NEED to address this. #the fact that it is culturally common for adults to have anxiety nightmares about school/exams...even decades later? #that is not cute. it is Alarming. #no one--much less entire generations--should be spending their developmental years in an environment of chronic stress & pressure & strain #and yet that is the reality for millions and millions of pre-teen and teenage and young adult students #this isn't healthy and it serves and empowers NO ONE #...except of course the many exploitative educational & financial & debt-collecting institutions thriving from the current balance of power #and of course it's a nefarious and powerful way to sabotage/erase the middle class #which billionaires and the wealth-inequality creators they finance couldn't possibly have any noteworthy interest in whatsoever #it's not like there's an elite group of people with huge financial incentives to drain/steal resources from the masses... #anyways sorry for going all Conspiracy Theory on you. #obviously the billionaires who control the vast majority of our resources and news and political campaign funding #are not tied to every single itty bitty social issue and i'm a silly billy to imply it #please tell elon musk to ignore this tweet i am so subservient and acquiescent #mr musky u r so good at inheriting slavery-built mining fortunes & buying other people's companies #& building rocket ships & fancy cars that do NOT explode/catch fire & also NOT running billion dollar companies into the ground #mr musky u r so talented genius billionaire playboy with 10 kids and ex-wives who find you creepy af babe u r basically iron man

[t3chborb]

This Mass Murder Machine is living in my brain rent-free so I'm making y'all Suffer™ as I have.

#Borb's Scribbles #Overwatch #Ramattra #bro i swear to god when they were designing this character blizzard actually invaded my brain #i am so weak to literally everything this guy has going on #aaaand apparently i can't contain it anymore so y'all have to deal with it now #19 hours down the drain on this art alone and i have 0 regrets

[nerdygirl84]

The bi Buck affect is so real

#bi bi bi to my productivity i guess #evan buckley #bi buck #911 spoilers #911 abc #911 on abc #911 #tv: 911 #my brain has just been circling the drain since approximately 8:55p on thursday

[ghosting-fox]

you all know that audio from bladerunner? "you look lonely i can fix that"?? my brain wouldn't let me rest until i haven't drawn that with Sun n Moon

but jokes aside, really self-indulgent comic bc both Security Breach and Ruin came out when i was at a low point mentally and helped me greatly just be able to move forward and get through each day (and i won't even be getting into how much these 2 fictional robot jesters have helped me refind my passion for drawing)

i really hope that more people can relate to this :))

#anyways i mean it when i say my brain wouldn't rest until i whipped my pencil out n started drawing #tbh i stumbled upon the audio waaay back like 5-6 months ago?? #but just now like literally just now i though #damn that REALLY fits Sun n Moon #i think it might be bc this semester was really stressful for me #and this last month has been hell #i was honestly drained physically and mentally #but i managed to go through each day and move forward #n just when my whole energy was running out n just when i had a couple of days left where i had to work more than my body could carry #right then Ruin came out and it was like;; really a breath of fresh air #my brain was suddenly thinking about the lore and theories and not anymore stressing abt projects and exams #while i still had to work Ruin gave me a push to be able to finish what i had to do #now i'm taking a small 2 week break where i'm gonna go easier with uni work and letting my body heal itself :)) #but anyways enough rambling n everything #i really hope more of y'all can relate to this comic :)) #now onto the tags #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf superstar daycare #sundrop #moondrop #fnaf sun #fnaf moon #moondrop x y/n #sundrop x y/n #tw eye contact #doodles #traditional doodle #comic #Ghost doodles

[baeshijima]

it is now officially the 25th which means...

merry christmas everyone !!! regardless of whether u celebrate or not, i hope u all have a lovely day with whoever u spend it with or with urself <33

#sophie's idle chatter #this is scheduled so im HOPING it posts at 12 am.... prays.... #i havent been super active in the past month or two bc life is kicking my ass (<- has said this countless times already but its still true) #also !! i see asks and ill try and answer them when i actually have the time and energy 😭 ik i say this a lot but ive been drained good god #(not so) mini life updates : #the new lovebrush chronicles main story update has made me weep so much... ive done both clarence and ayns routes and.... #my god.... this story is darker and honestly im loving it AND i love how they did the chara roles in this world (alkaid... ourgh...) #my tear glands arent tho bc ayn ending 3.... what the fuck was that i couldnt sleep after doing that ending??? ITS WAS SO SAD AND FOR WHATF #currently having to wait until the 27th so i can do lars route 😔 #the recent ep of apothecary diaries.... ourgh my heart.... jinshi and maomao beloveds :(( #oh !! and ive gotten back into my ace of diamonds/daiya no ace phase and have been rewatching the series... #sobbing chris and yuki and miyuki my beloveds.... kissing ur foreheads and holding u gently..... #the way i got back into it bc im catching up on s2 of a clean sweep (a korean baseball variety show that i love with all my heart ;w;) #my mum is a traitor tho bc she watched every new ep that came out on tuesdays while i was in uni 🧍‍♀️ so now im catching up on the 30 eps #on my own 🧍‍♀️ #OMG AND ALSO DR STONE S3??? WHY WAS I NOT NOTIFIED THAT PART 1 CAME OUT MONTHS AGO AND PART 2 WAS MORE RECENT??? #i havent been doing that much writing recently tho bc the fingers wont type but the brain is exploding with ideas i cannot handle this #i do want to get back to the haitham sxf series tho.... and also my oc various x reader series....... #tbh ive been contemplating abt publishing the haitham series on ao3 once i write more chapters before publishing them #idk i feel like the series would be nice to have on ao3 as well as tumblr JHDG #thats abt it i think? #anywho if u read this far then know i am giving u a warm cookie as a condolence prize for getting through this life dump <33 #ill leave it off here but i hope u all have a lovely day !! mwah mwah merry chrysler everyone 🎄🫶 #queue... ueueue

[crystalline-sanders]

hey don't cry (takes your riverway and makes it human)

don't worry pal is there too, he's just in the kitchen cooking dinner for his boys

#art #fanart #bmc squip #be more chill #squip #riverway #west riverway #*gestures vaguely* #i don't know they're kinda just there and they're bouncing around in my brain very aggressively #river is the only one who has a job and he works at olive garden and he hates it bc he Hates customers and customer service #so sometimes he just comes home and is so very drained #this is one of those times #bmc au #au #human squip au

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#man ive never seen an eating disorder kill someone else besides a parent infecting a child but my nana is really trying #shes like 1000% orthotexic. will not eat anything not filled with vegetables or fat. and my grandpa is 87yo with a heart condition currentl #in the hospital for covid bc thry went to Christmas church and dont believe in being vaccinated and my dad is so frustrated #bc he knows his mom is not gonna give his dad hearty foods. he needs to eat like protein shakes and meat and ice cream. anything thats not #her cooking which sucks on top of being extremely healthy. except its not healthy bc they dont eat a balanced diet #so its my nanas eating disorder killing her husband and shes so fucking frustrating. im like 99% sure she has obsessive compulsive #personally disorder bc she fits to a T and has zero insight. she may have full on 0cd bc talking to my dad he has more obvious 0cd #compulsions than i do. he used to say phrases before going to bed and would take 2 steps across the floor to prevent bad things from #happening. so like im pretty sure my nana is where i get my perfectionism and 0cd. god. i wish i could express how fucked up she is #like my dad said at least he had a stable home to grow up in but like she has zero sympathy for other people. cannot look past herself. wil #not wear a mask bc she doesnt care enough abt other ppl. my dad was like: u would not have survived in that house. which is fair bc i am #barely keeping it together coming from a stable home with two sympathetic parents who i know love me #and like its sad that they're suffering the effects of buying into the fox news bullshit and its killing them #but also. genuinely. i think theyre not very good ppl. theyre the type of people who think they're better bc they're religious. white. and #thin. and theyre not better thsn anyone. their grandchildren cant stand them. well cant stand her at least. papa is just quite so its hard #to say what hes thinking. apparently he was confused last night and saying something about eating dinner on the golf course. which sounds #nicer thsn being in the hospital lol. ugh. he seems not long for this world tbh. may he pass peacefully to b with his 1st wife who died of #brain cancer at age like 20 or something. so it goes. bleh. how many funerals are intended for me in the next 5 years? hopefully none but #that seems improbable with the unspoken drain circling that seems to b going on in this family. old age and like almost 10 years of cancer #defying the stats but for how much longer? #i dunno. its just so weird to watch these things happen and not talk about it directly to the other ppl who see it #i worry that ill come off as too callose or inappropriate bc i have that tendency when something bad is happening but thats everyone else #excuse? idk i just feel like its better to talk abt things #unrelated #ed mention #i tell u this so i can say these things to someone and also bc if i were u. i would like to hear the drama #bc im nosey and i assume other r too ;-]

[thehightiefling]

Ariadne | Dark Urge | Sorcerer

Some things to know about Ariadne:

She failed the spell check to open the book. Got mad, bashed it open. Order of operations seems to be: charisma > if that fails, magic > bash. And bash again. Bash. Bash.Bash.Bashbashbashbash--

Inky black mouth. No further elaboration.

Cat demeanor. 40-70% success rate if you approach saying "hey girlie"

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate iii #bg3 durge #durge #oc durge: ariadne #ally beardsley's 'hey girlie' has become a line in my parrot brain dictionary especially once an edible has been consumed #will eventually do full pages and write ups and headcanons and hopefully art snippets for fedre and ariadne down the line #BUT GOTTA GET SOUP THOUGHTS OUT NOW BEFORE THEY'RE DOWN THE DRAIn

[catebeesart]

About a year ago you posted art of ur lavellan with a bunch of conch hoops and I want you to know I went and got a 4mm hole in my conch to do the same thing <3 thanks for the inspiration

#For real though I'm so happy one more person in this world has conch piercings they are. so hot. #for even realer it took me a sec to answer this on account of all the blood draining from my brain to go to m

[toastybugguy]

one of those days when shit just happens to you and you realize you probably will never get closure and will have to learn how to cope with it on your own. good god. where is the fucking rewind button!!

#toasty talks #rant incoming #I just want to turn my brain off #god. #I often forget how much people can suck when you exit your bubble #this morning has been awful. shoutout to church groups. I hope everyone there explodes #I don’t think I’ll be going again. we tried folks we tried but I am so emotionally drained and unwell after that. #sue me for assuming as a trans Christian my pov would be helpful in a class LITERALLY talking about gender identity #but instead the moment my experience challenges or doesn’t apply to them they get teary because oh WE’VE felt hurt in our lives too!! #how dare you assume we don’t understand!! (<- still cisgender!! so no!!! you don’t understand!!!!) #fuck them honestly they can figure it out by themselves #I am so tired of this #I would take a staunch conservative any day over these 30 something liberal terfdipshits who can’t stand a conversation not being about them #when the class is. again. LITERALLY about gender identity. christ. #my brother will be home next week and will probably go to the class so MAYBE. MAYBE I will go to that meeting but I really don’t know. #if it’s too much then I am not going back. fuck them fuck them fuck them

[lil-gae-disaster]

My aunt when my disability is disabling me in not a stereotypical way: 😧😠 "Why don't you just [thing I'm limited in because disability]! I also have [disability] and I don't struggle with this at all! You're just a lazy child!"

#help #She claims she has adhd too #But won't accept that my executive dysfunction is way stronger than hers #And that my adhd is not just I can't focus #I can focus for a short time #but it's exhausting #And draining #fuckin adhd #adhd #actually adhd #adhd problems #neurodivergent #neurodivergency #adhd things #I can sit still #But my brain can't and that's what's distracting me #And my meds are classified as almost-drugs and I don't like taking them #But I currently still depend on them because of german school system #And anyway they're just making my brain quieter #Which also impacts my thinking ability

[shoutsindwarvish]

love when my mom says something that makes me be like "oh! you're the source of that particular self-loathing belief! how did i forget?"

#like i don't forget per say #but hearing it externally when it's usually a self-accusation bouncing around in my own brain #basically saying that she's there for me to talk to if my partner 'needs a break from me' #the source of my feeling like a drain and burden on those around me #is like...wow. why does this feel like a revelation every time for like a minute until i'm like 'i absolutely already knew this' #(our relationship has been pretty good for the past year. she threw it in at the end. i'm hoping it doesn't trigger me.) #trauma blogging #my posts

[xkuja]

*sinks slowly and dramatically into the depths of the iifa tree for like a few days*

#I’d intended to be writing this week #but my brain has other ideas #a sad time happened this month #and now that things have calmed down #my battery is drained #be creative in my stead dear audience!!

[meownotgood]

why does god insist on giving me his toughest battles (not having any days off to work on aki hayakawa smut fanfiction)

#got roped into working extra again #uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhgggghhhhh #okay yesterday I told myself I wanted to get to at least 45k words by the end of this week #I'm going to try to stay true to that #oh how I miss when my silly little brain could write all the way to 4am #now if I try to stay up any later than 1 I'll actually die #I'm too old being the bestest most reliable worker ever has drained 50 years off my lifespan and I fear I will have to retire quite soon

[maxl-quaxl]

Hello welcome home community!

Today, I offer you clay puppet Howdy. Tomorrow? Who knows...

[Reblogs are greatly appreciated!]

#welcome home #welcome home arg #welcome home howdy #howdy pillar #my art #lets be real #posting him while he isnt finished is just my poor excuse to post something after months of radio silence #he's completely poseable tho (except for the head) so I'm pretty satisfied #hehe caterpillar puppet go brrrrrr #welcome home has infested my brain help me Ive already started to make a wally darling puppet #my brain is going down the drain #also ignore the mess in my room pretty please #Gotta say that he's not finished in the slightest since I don't know how to sew #Been a while since my last arts-and-crafts and sewing class in middle school but luckily my mother offered to help me make his clothes haha #Imma update this when he's finished 👀 (hopefully no pinky promise) #wh howdy

[i-like-books-and-women]

Saturday podcast but it's just them yapping in a car sitting in ways that cars are not supposed to be sat in and eating fast food during it. That is all

#im really in my “you gotta come looking for my rambles” era #but anyways #this comes from a couple different places in my brain kitchen #first one being Zach being the only one to drive #so bro has a car that he just leaves at his moms place and rives it when they do shows in Portland #(they also crash at his moms place instead of hotels (double parentesies this is all post cannon)) #so then like on their first tour after cutting ties with Galactic the boys are in the fucking trenches emotionally #then theyre like “fuck it its time for a lil treat” after a particularly emotionally draining and stressful day #so they go to like dairy queen or something for ice cream and just drive to some random secluded esque location #then cause fuck it why not they set up a camera off someones phone and just yap and nom #like they just yap about anything and everything for like 2 hours #then its edited and put on youtube for the saturdays to eat that shit up with a fork and knife #(this is why we contain the rambles to the tags i can yap making as little sence as i want down here) #if this gets out #itgo #zach knight #ruben montez #angel phan #jon braxton