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nikkicloudie · 1 year

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would it be alr if you do an angst to fluff nijiro murakami x fem! reader where nijiro has a photoshoot with other women (who are pretty cuz reader insecure) and reader confronted nijiro abt how touchy he is with the other women. BUT THEN nijiro gets annoyed by reader’s insecurities and said something offensive about her. he immediately regrets saying it and was about to apologize but reader already stormed off.

then after the photoshoot, nijiro decided to make it up to reader by buying her the stuff she likes (teddy bears, bouquets, etc.) and apologizing to her for what he said.

(hopefully it’s not too much to ask 😭<3)

Silent Pains

Nijiro Murakami x fem!reader @qyxzun

warning:My bad writing for angst, language

You weren't always jealous or anything of the sort not until Nijiro your long time boyfriend started having photo shoots with different women beautiful women. The ones that always have the tits hanging out while Nijiro hold them by the waist or in other places. At first you didn't mind but the outfits and places were getting to much when you tried talking to him about it he told you not to worry and he still loves you and wouldn't do anything. You wanted to believe him and you did or at least tried to. The outfits got worst and so did the places so you had enough and confronted him told him you didn't want him doing them anymore which leads you here “God dammit i told you i wont do anything with them! What more do you want?!” he yells “I don’t want you doing the fucking photo shoots anymore!” you yelled back “I cant just quit! And you know that” he says “Well have you ever thought about asking for different outfits or anything? No! You haven't so how am i supposed to react?!″ “Maybe not like a fucking insecure bitch all the time!” he yells

silence and regret filled the air at the same time while you looked at him with a shocked look on you face while your eyes started to water as you turned away from him “Y/N I didn’t-” but then you ran out the door. Nijiro instantly felt regret as for a hour hes been trying to call and text you telling you to come back home but you didn't answer the calls and left him on read on the texts. He sighs as he gets up and got up to the store to by a woman's best friend....Chocolate and flowers and a cute stuffed animal by the time he got home he heard something from the bed room meaning you here in the bedroom he walks to the bedroom and opens the door to see you eyes red and puffy while your packing up you clothes “Baby” he said softly you didn't respond “I wanted to say sorry....I...I know what i did and said was very wrong and i don’t expect you to forgive me but I also went to the story and got you stuff to say i’m sorry” he said that’s when you looked at him “Dud you mean what you said?” you asked in a shaky voice he walks to you and gently grabs your face “No of course no honey we were both angry and i said stuff i shouldn't have said...would you forgive me?” he asked and you nodded slightly as you smile a little and so did he as he kisses you gently.

#angst #alice in borderland x reader #nijiro murakami #Nijiro murakami x reader #fluff #chishiya x reader

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pawtistics · 2 years

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bandori ship thoughts!!!!! give em!!!! <3

CRIES. I have friends or whatever SABLE FOR U AS WELL THANK U BOTH OF U FOR ASKING 🫂💗🍓🍒

OK SO MAINLY . ROTATING IN MY MIND

Yukilisa and mocaran are practically canon to me. Yukiran as well to a SLIGHTLY lesser extent. Lisa and moca work together and have literally been shown talking abt their gfs and their problems all shift. I think that they can have a little polyamory as a treat. The specific dynamics and who is dating who is a little messier in my mind but they’re all so homosexual . i need more content of them immediately (there is none) . ITS HARD TO COME UP WITH A NAME THAT SOUNDS GOOD.

To elaborate on Them:

yukilisa childhood friends that fell apart and came back together in order to make music as roselia (with 3 other ppl ♡ whom i adore) . What makes me insane is how much of herself lisa is willing to instantly sacrifice just to get to play with yukina again. That’s not a good thing and yukina is kind of cold for quite a while but she is Going Through It and AUUGH they’re learning each other again and healing and 💔💔 their dynamic is sooooooooo sweet and yukina puts up with things from lisa that she genuinely wouldn’t with anyone else and they are So close and yukina is kittygirl REAL I LOVE HER SOFT LITTLE SMILES THAT SHE GIVES LISA AND THEIR CARDS TOGETHER AUAUG

MOCARAN. I constantly think abt all of their matching items thats so coupley (OH CIRCLING BACK I ALSO CONSTANTLY THNK OF THE AREA CONVO WHERE LISA BUYS YUKINA N HERSELF MATCHING KITTY PHONECASES I REALLY WANTED TO DRAW THAT) . AND SWUWUAUAHUAUH Everyone in afterglow is always talking abt how, while they have ALL been friends since forever, moca and ran have somehow developed this really special unique bond. they understand each other ! what the other person will do,, or say,, AND THEYRE 💔 Also flawed, moca has a hard time expressing to ran when she thinks ran is doing something wrong (SAME W LISA @ YUKINA TBH !!! AND THEY GIVE EACH OTHER ADVICE ON THIS!!) but they get better and they care abt each other So much

YUKIRAN INSANITY theyre rivals musically and also they fight and its ❤️❤️❤️💜❤️❤️ … ONE OF MY FAV CARDS AND ALSO ONE THAT IS IN MY BAND IS THIS ONE :

AND ITS SO……….*))*/))&: I CANT STRESS TO U ENOUGH THAT YUKINA DOES NOT NORMALLY HAVE THE PURPLE STREAK BUT RAN DOES . NORMALLY HAVE THE RED. IS IT GAY TO MATCH UR GF? IS IT GAY TO CARE SO MUCH ABT BEATING / IMPRESSING ANOTHER WOMAN . In one story all the band leaders are talking abt their dream shows that they would put on in a huge impressive stadium AND RAN LITERALLY SAYS FIRST THING BEFORE ANYTHING ELSE THAT YUKINA WOULD BE THERE PRAISING HER )*(&)&)373)$)#;==:=:= AT THIS INCREDIBLY IMPORTANT GIGANTIC MILESTONE OF A STAGE. HELPPP AND IN THAT SAME STORY THEY HOLD HANDS IN ORDER NOT TO GET LOST AS A JOKE AND RAN IS ANGY AND YUKINA IS SMIRKING. SHES SO CUTE .

i still feel like i haven’t properly expressed my feelings on them or really Sold it LIKE I FEEL LIKE SOME OF THESE DESCS R SO SHALLOW BUT THEYRE SO AAHHFJBJFNSHDNM )5)&)&s . YOYUKNOW.

AND FINALLY IM THINKING OF . HIMARI/KAORU/TOMOE...? Ohhh my god ok this one is a lot more indulgent but it’s good i prommy .. Himari literally tells tomoe if only she were a boy 🥰🥰 CUZ TOMOE IS SO CARING N WARM N STRONG.

canvas2929 who works on bandori implied tomohima canon in the comments of this art piece i love so much :

HIMARI and rimi are So fucking gay for kaoru they literally bond over it together im Screams. I THINK RIMI COULD ALSO B IN THIS POLYCULE but it’s just that .. i think the other 3 have more close personal connections and r more interlocked than she is w them? I THINK IF Himari and rimi were any less intensely femme4butch they could date each other . But theyre obsessed w handsome women adn for good reason 🥰 KAORU IS SO FUCKING LESBIAN HAVE U SEEN HER CHARATCTER SHES LITERALLY 24/7 PLAYING A PRINCE AND SHE WONT STOP CALLING GIRLS HER KITTENS EVER SHES LITERALLY ALWAYS FLIRTING WHAT S WRONG W HER. Cluster b boss.

KAOTOMO R SO BUTCH4BUTCH. SDTUFGYKBHK . HERES A CARD FROM WHEN ALL THE HOT MASCS WENT ON A CRUISE TOGETHER FOR SOME REASON????????? YOU SHOULD SEE ALL OF THE CARDS THEY KILLED ME BUT I PICKED THIS ONE CUZ KAOTOMO IS BEING SO CUTE IN THE BG :)

TOMOE IS SO FWGHBGHVHJHK. i heart the udagawas :] :] SHES A DRUMMER AND SHES SOOOBBJGVJ K. It’s the older sister in her.. but she’s so ……………..

i also ❤️ kasuari i believe theyre canon but im thinking of THEM .

secret bonuses: i firmly believe sayo is crushing (unrequited? possibly?) on yukilisa. Im also pretty fond of misakao i just dont have as many thoughts :] i also believe chisakao are exes 💗💗 I leave u with……... mocalisa card…

#🍎#THANK UUUUUUUU SERIOUSKY

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thesevenumbrellas · 3 years

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@random-nerd-3 came up with a dark!AU where Caleb is emotionally abusive towards Willie, so I came up with a few hc.

TW: ABUSE, PANIC ATTACKS

We definitely see the emotional manipulation already in canon with him using Alex against him and also threatening to stop him skateboarding.

Caleb convincing Willie that it’s for his own good because if he left he might get in trouble and he’s already died once and he let everyone down when he died, hurt so many people from being stupid and careless, wouldn’t it just be better if Caleb was in charge?

Willie breaking down one day because he’s so used to being told he’s doing everything wrong that it’s moved past anxiety to just acceptance. Like he knows he does everything wrong so there is no changing it so he doesn’t care. But Alex is so genuine with his compliments that it’s overwhelming. Usually he just brushes them off but one day Alex looks so so earnest and just says “you’re amazing” and that’s all it takes for Willie to start sobbing because he’s not and he doesn’t understand why Alex believes that. He feels like he’s lying to Alex somehow but he doesn’t know how. And that’s when Alex realizes that Caleb is a problem.

Willie who doesn’t realize that Caleb is emotional abusive until Alex explains that’s exactly what his own parents did to him. And Willie being angry for Alex but can’t be angry for himself. Because he’s so used to it and doesn’t understand that he is worth the anger.

Willie arguing with Alex that Alex doesn’t get it but Alex is super patient and understanding cuz he went through the same thing so he slowly goes over every single reason why Willie deserves love and safety.

Willie being touchstarved from after years of being locked up in the club without anyone.

Alex starts to always *always* touch Willie even if it’s just a hand gently on his arm or their pinkies linked. They never let go of each other.

EXCEPT when Willie gets overwhelmed and then he will tap Alex twice to show that he needs a break and Alex will let go immediately.

Willie asking Alex permission to do simple things like enter the room or offer his opinion but it’s done really subtle so Alex doesn’t even notice until AFTER the big talk and he has to sit Willie down AGAIN and explain he doesn’t have to ask permission because they always want to hear his thoughts. And this turns into Alex encouraging the band to ask Willies’ opinions on stuff so THEN Willie starts offering lyrics or places to play and becomes a huge influence in their music.

Willie not liking to stay inside even to listen to them practice because he’s conditioned to think of inside as belonging to Caleb where as outside the club he’s free. Which is also why he only likes to break into empty places even tho lifers can’t see him anyway. So Alex notices that and asks if they can practice with the garage door open and they move the couch outside so then Willie starts watching more.

And Carlos joins and even tho Carlos doesn’t know Willie is there they sit next to each other all the time and Willie will joke along with him.

Setback days where they go find a forest or somewhere outside away from people. Alex skips practice. They go and lay in the grass and sometimes they hold hands or cuddle but sometimes Willie can’t stand it so then they just lay side by side. Sometimes they talk together but sometimes Willie cant even speak, so the Alex fills in the gaps. He tells Willie every funny story he can remember from practice and every good moment they’ve had as a band.

Willie has learned not to believe words, because Caleb lies all the time. He doesn’t believe it when caleb says good job or “I’m not mad” because it’s always a double sided sword. So when Alex figures this out they develop a touch system instead. Two taps means he’s overwhelmed, but there’s more. Two brushes on the arm is him asking Alex if he’s mad, and then alex will either verbalize what’s bothering him (usually anxiety wise) or squeeze willies wrist once.

Another sign they develop later on is when willie isn’t sure what the boys are talking about. Like if they’re being affectionate with each other but Willie doesn’t quite understand. Or if they’re joking with him and he doesn’t quite get it. He has literally not socialized with anyone “his age” in decades and Caleb was always dangerous to talk to. The dancers and singers knew better than to develop friendships. To Willie starts to tap Alex three times if he needs something explained later. Then Alex will have to explain sometimes something simple “no Reggie and Luke don’t actually hate each other they were just bickering over song titles it’s okay they’ll be best friends again after they wrestle over it.” But sometimes it’s heartbreaking. “No Luke still likes you even though you didn’t laugh at his joke fast enough. He didn’t notice I promise and even if he did, that’s not something he would ever be angry at you for.”

Willie doesn’t have panic attacks like Alex does so he never had any idea they were panic attacks. There’s no actual panic. In fact it’s the opposite. He goes emotionally numb and just shuts down. He can’t talk, can’t do much, he just feels as if he’s shut up in his own brain. So when this first happens Alex recognizes it instantly because at least some of it is familiar. He poofs Willie away without a word to the boys and brings them to a quiet spot. Then he steps a few feet away and just talks Willie through it. It’s over an hour later when Willie feels well enough to actually speak but then he’s brushing it off like “oh I’m fine that just happens sometimes.” And Alex has to explain “Babe that was a panic attack.”

After that they add ANOTHER signal of just one tug on a sleeve. They both use it on each other and it means “I am about to have a panic attack.” Then they’ll make some sort of excuse and poof the other out

Anyway Willie relearning what love and safety means with Alex there to support him.

#Willie whump #jatp #julie and the phantoms #willex #Willie jatp #Willie/Alex #Alex jatp #ask to tag #abuse tw #panic attack tw #gaslighting tw

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jazzy-art-time · 3 years

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Some random Jody facts cuz fuck it Jody BrainRot

- Jody actually really loves being called “Bee” or “Jody Bee” by others. It started out when she played a bee in a elementary school play but she actually really likes being called that. She would never in this lifetime admit it to a soul although.

- original concept for Jody’s and Ulbrecht’s relationship ending in story was... kinda bad. In the story now they end it in a healthy way and open about another’s feelings. Jody is still extremely hurt by it but she gets a break with it ending in a healthy way. Considering the original draft was ouchie. I spare thee Jody. You get a healthy breakup.

- In the Aftermath Ending of the blog, Jody does have pretty bad PTSD and other issues. She’s very timid and sometimes stutters a bit. But she does receive proper help and good therapy and opens up a bit. A happy Jody. She figures out herself and who she really is and isn’t restrained anymore by outside entities.

- Jody loves dogs but is okay with all animals. She talks to them like little people but does not use the high pitched voice people normally use when talking to animals. She is just bluntly “hey. How’s it going” in her normal voice.

- Jody tends to attract not only canines, but specifically black cats a lot and they follow her around. Which usually when she realizes this she has to awkwardly pick up the cat and does a dumb careful jog to put them back in their owners yards.

- Jody knows how to rollerblade and is a decent skateboarder! She used to dress up as a ghost and use rollerblades to glide around and scare people when she was a toddler. But she still skateboards quite regularly and how she usually gets around her home town.

- Jody cannonly has three relationships in the blog. One with Ulbrecht (it ends), one with Yvette (it ends) and one with Solo. Solo is the only one who continues to see her romantically in the Aftermath ending, as they “break up” in the blog for a short time. Even tho she’s Polyamorous she doesn’t have any other partners. Solo the only one who manages to stick around her. I know it seems like I ship her around a lot but honestly it’s only 3 things and two of them don’t last pfffff

- Jody likes to have her face or cheeks cupped. Just put your hand on her cheek and she just goes 🥺. Not that she gets physical attention like that often anyways.

- Jody’s crest can actually bend around and such, she just mainly has it upward in its natural position. But can bend it down and such.

- Jody holds the tail tip of others if she trusts them (if their tail is long enough), she holds her own tail tip as a nervous habit but with others she finds comfort in it. She usually holds Diane’s tail tip a lot and Diane has accepted it as part of her life now. Your sister is just holding your tail congrats Diane.

- Jody usually lies about her favorite color and gives different answers. Usually neutral tones or just says “red” as a obvious answer. Her actual favorite color is pink, she finds it very appealing. But she doesn’t have many clothes or objects that color surprisingly, she doesn’t think it “matches her” well and doesn’t get anything that color.

- Jody’s facial expressions are not her own and she doesn’t have much control over them. But in the Aftermath ending she is much more expressive. I imagine one of the gang sees her raise her eyebrows genuinely and they are absolutely shook.

- Jody is that person who whenever they sit in grass, they tear it up with their fingers. She does it subconsciously and usually ends up putting the clippings on the person next to her without fully realizing it. Diane hates this greatly.

- Jody is actually extremely jealous of her younger sibling and how she is likable and pretty. Jody knows she can’t be like her though and it frustrates her a lot. She doesn’t let Diane know this because she knows it would get rubbed in her face. Jody usually genuinely doesn’t care about those things but it’s a lingering feeling in the back of her mind.

- Rexmile is the one soul who can make Jody go feral practically instantly. Rexmile instills such a extreme feral energy in Jody and they are a force of nature. They terrify everyone with their friendship.

- Jody has never played a video game and would have no idea how. Not that she wasn’t allowed or didn’t have video games, she did growing up. But Jody was more focused on other things and never played one. I can imagine someone attempting to teach her how to play a game and them getting so frustrated because she genuinely is like “what do you mean A is the jump button. What.”

- Jody uses a perfume that smells like lillies. But she always has a slight Smokey scent to her as well.

- Jody can’t eat watermelon properly. She always bites through it too hard or is surprised how watery it is. She ends up chewing loudly with her mouth open genuinely confused on what’s happening. She’s really bad at eating watermelon it’s like giving a dog peanut butter

- Jody has a habit of checking peoples Pulses on their wrist. Sometimes she lightly grabs your wrist and checks your pulse and continues about her day. She’s very gentle with it and such. But it’s a odd habit she has picked up.

- Jody cant peel a orange. She struggles a lot with it like that image of the guy crying cuz he can’t tie his shoe. She always either rips it to shreds because she’s too strong or she sits there and picks at the peel for like a hour before she gives up. She doesn’t eat oranges much anymore over this unless they are pre-peeled.

- Jody is the person where every time she yawns her jaw pops at a ungodly volume. It disgusts Diane so much that Diane tells her to leave the room if she is going to yawn.

Okay I’ll stop now gkdkgkkfjcjdj

#JODY BRAINROT REAL...#not art #text post #long post #swearing #cursing #cussing #JazzNotes

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shotosimp1 · 3 years

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naps

sugawara x GN!reader.

Authors note: helloooo this is my first ever fic so if I did something wrong or its low key cringe don't hate me lmaoo so this fic is basically that you're daichis sibling and you and sugawara are like close friends who love taking naps togather I don't want to spoil anything so I'm going to stop here. ⚠️Important note⚠️: when suga is talking the text colour is purple. And when you're talking its blue :D genre: fluff. warnings: nothing but if there is dont be afraid to tell me! Here is this playlist i made for this fic i hope you like it! :D

being daichi's sibling came with its pros and cons. I cant lie to you he is a good brother but that doesnt mean he isnt protective of you. And no, no boyfriends. But the best thing about being daichis sibling is that you would get to spend time with the one and only crush of yours sugawara koushi. Everything about him just made you happy. He is so caring and sweet you just couldn't halp yourself from falling for him. And because sugawara and daichi met in middle school they were very close. And with that he came over to hang out like at least once a week. You didn't mind as long as daichi let you be around for a bit you just wanted to be around cutie

And with that you and him would chat every now and then Just getting to know each other more. Both of you would talk about your hobbies and interests and life etc. You just found him so interesting you just kept wanting to be around him more and more. And daichi as the good brother he is will try to leave you two alone for a couple of minutes to have a good conversation together and would excuse himself with "oh im going to the bathroom" or " um im going to get a snack" and it works too!!

Finals were close and the boys, daichi suga and asahi came over to study it was their second year and you were a first year student. Suga would help you study and help you understand the things you couldn't and all that jazz. You felt kinda flustered whenever he says "good job!!" And gives that warm smile of his. It was around 1:12 pm and all of you were too focused on your work and didn't remember lunch....Yeah I know unbelievable. "Mmmm god I'm so hungry" "shoot we didn't eat lunch" daichi said looking at the clock "its 2 something pm there is still time for that just go order _______ or something" -"ahh your probably right" asahi said "okay okay should we all go get _______ i mean we should get our mussels movi-" "im not going anywhere im tired" "okay fine what about you asahi?" -daichi- "sure" "and what about you ____?" -asahi- "nahh I would rather stay sorry.." "eh its okay we'll get going yeah?" -daichi- " yeah let's go" -asahi- and boom you two are alone.

"You look kinda sleepy" he said as he chuckled for about. 10 minutes both of you were kinda silent he was laying on his tummy on the sofa while you sat on the floor near the desk you were studying on. "Kinda actually" "oh? Well mabye you should take a nap" "sure.. but uh you look sleepy too" "hm? Oh yeah i am " you both laughed a bit. "Wanna sleep in my room? It would be more comfortable there?" " well what about you?" "My bed is big i will be just finee" seconds after you said that he starts..to grin? "Ooou you wanna sleep with me that bad?" "You're honestly making me regret my choices." "Hey!" "You can sleep on the sofa bye bye!" You said as your going to your room and him of course following you.

"Cute room kinda messy tho" he laughed " can you leave me and my "messy" room alone" "fine fine" he said chuckling. Both of you layed on the bed and him falling asleep almost instantly from how tired he was. It was peaceful sleeping next to him. I mean yes you were blushing at the thought of him being so close to you but it still felt so peaceful and nice. You turned around to face him. It sounds like too much but he looked like an angle. You stared at his features for quit a while.. he's just so nice to look at. "Can't sleep?" "what the hell!? You scared the living shit out of me!" He laughed. He asked you again "can you not sleep?" " yeah actually" you said still mad at him for scaring you like that. He asked if he can come closer and you said yes. He but a hand on the back of your head and gently guiding it to his chest. And with that your head is on your crushes chest. You tried your best to not show how surprised and flustered you were. "Do you feel comfortable? Can i put my hand on your back? it would feel even better" "s-sure I don't mind" he started to rub soothing circles on your back. Seconds after that you fell asleep..in his mf arms ahh.

"Sorry we took so long the line there was kinda long" No response. Both asahi and daichi left the house for about an hour. They looked around the living room to see that no one was there. "Hm that's wierd" -asahi- daichi agreed as he went to check your room to see if your there. "Oh.my.god." asahi heard him and went to see what's up. "Wait aww that's kinda cute" "what! No its not!" Asahi laughed at how angry he was from just seeing his best friend cuddling his younger sibling. "Hey..hey! HEY!!" "Hmm what what do you want cant you see were sleeping here ugh" " yeah i CAN see and get your filthy-" " why are you so mad? Its not like I did something to them I was just helping them sleep" " I mean he has a point..plus I'm sure its just a nap" -asahi- "ugh fine...CAN YOU ATLEAST MOVE YOUR HAND OH MY GOD" "Why are you yelling...?" You said as you got woken up from your brothers yelling "its nothing..get up its time to eat" daichi said as he went downstairs to eat. Asahi mouthed a 'sorry' to both of you and went to fallow him. "Did you sleep well? I hope I didn't make you feel uncomfortable or anything.." "No no!! It.. it was nice thank you" "great!! Let's go downstairs now im starving..." you both laughed as you went downstairs to eat.

From that day whenever the both of you found the chance to nap together you would do it. Suga tired from practice? nap time! Stressed? Nap time! Sad? Nap time! It's like both of you were nap buddies and you loved it. Daichi couldn't really do anything at this point. Don't get me wrong he was SO happy when you actually found someone to hang out with and actually be comfortable around. But he just didn't like the fact that the both of you were so touchy its like you guys were dating. But you always denied him saying "no no he's just a close friend nothing else!!!!" Until...

It was a Saturday night you and suga were in your room watching a barbie film. It was a chill night both of you got snacks and watched the movie in peace. sugawara kept giving you these side eye glances every now and then you noticed them but didn't say anything. It was the last 20 minutes of the movie and he did it again but this time it was a side glance his eyes were fully on you. "What?" He giggled and said nothing. You were confused a bit so you paused the movie and looked at him. "Is there something on my face?" "No..you just look pretty" he smiled. Both of you were eye to eye and very close. His eyes would go from your eyes to your lips as he came even closer. He gently took your hand in his as he said "can i kiss you?" You were in shock your heart was beating as you nodded. It was gentle and sweet you swore you could right a whole essay about how that kiss was the best thing you have ever experienced. "AHM AHM!!!" Both of you pulled away almost instantly as you saw daichi standing in your bedrooms doorstep "listen- its not what it looks like okay??" "Uhuh..koushi have you been dating my sibling behind my back?" "WHAT? no!! I swear-" "come downstairs cuz we have some stuff to discuss here"

You sat there confused but genuinely so happy 'I kissed him..' 'holy shit i actually kissed him!!' your mind was running with thoughts 'wait what if we start dating?' 'Oh my god!!!!' 'Wait what did daichi mean when he said "discuss some things"??' "Hey im back..." he smiled nervously at you "oh hi!" He smiled as he sat down on the bad next to you "um suga" "yes?" "what did my brother 'discuss' with you downstairs?" "You know "don't hurt their feelings!!" And "don't even think about cheating on them!" And he may or may not threatened to kill me if I did" you giggled "all that because of a kiss? Its not like were dating" " ..Well what would you do if I asked you to be my partner right now hm?" "Uhhh!!??!!? I- I dont know mabye say yes or something" he laughed "well then do you want to be my lovey dovey partner?" You giggled a bit as you nodded "tsk, man i kinda wanted to hear you say "yes please please i do!!" Oh well.." "really suga.."

I hope you guys liked it ♡ again this is my first time ever writing fics so I hope its not that bad

#anime #haikyuu!!#haikyuu × reader #haikyuu fluff #sugawara x y/n #sugawara x gn reader #sugawara fic #hq sugawara #hq daichi #hq asahi #fluff #sugawara headcanons #sugawara hcs #sugawara scenario #sugawara imagine #sugawara kōshi #haikyuu senarios #haikyuu angst

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ua-monoma · 6 years

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[[ hi here’s a text convo me and dani were having during the iimono text convo woohoo feelings ]]

小林未郁Last Sunday at 4:16 AM

iida's definition of alright is "im not completely hurting to the point where it is hard to do or think abt anything else"

rickyLast Sunday at 4:17 AM

THATS A BAD DEFINITION IIDA

小林未郁Last Sunday at 4:17 AM

if he can do his duties without being hindered he's "alright"

rickyLast Sunday at 4:18 AM

like tbh monoma's big feels rn are like

1) i wanna communicate but it feels like iida doesnt actually communicate with me ever

2) i wanna be honest but it feels like iida isnt being honest with me

3) i've been opening up a lot which im! proud of!! i can face my emotions now! but iida isnt facing HIS emotions with me and i thought uHh being a couple means we do that together so i guess i'll go fuck myselfsdfskhdgbg

but ALSO from an outside perspective iida Does Communicate and Is Honest... way more than monoma perceives it but monoma sucks. at being able to identify it

A L S O he cant stand iida taking care of him so much sfhgbsfbhsg hes starting to feel rly coddled and he Does Not Like It

and thats largely just cuz hes so unstable and feels guilty about it now that hes more aware of it and wants to either just shut down and stop emoting around iida or, like, he wants to get to take care of iida if/when he ever breaks down cuz then it'll be Equals

kdfgdfhbdfgs i just had a hunch and it was right, monoma is actually older than iida sdfbjhgs

小林未郁Last Sunday at 4:22 AM

WAIT HE IS

HES OLDER,

rickyLast Sunday at 4:27 AM

but yeah i think the other thing is that monoma wants stuff from iida but like has not been able to rly voice it (i feel like this is the first time he has ever talked like This Much about emotional bullshit) but also TBH he feels brushed aside every time iida gives him one of his lil speeches

cuz he doesnt respond very well to positivity and also will just latch onto the negative aspects

小林未郁Last Sunday at 4:30 AM

WOW then u have iida whos just like "dude im not a fuckign mind reader tell me what u want"

rickyLast Sunday at 4:30 AM

WHICH I KNOW BUT HE'S WORKING ON IT.....

iida: communicate pls monoma: ok heres a big rambling post about stuff i feel iida: ok thats nice. can you communicate with me pls tho monoma: I JUST DID HSDFKGGBDFSG I'LL JUST GO FUCK MYSELF THEN I GUESS--

^ is how he feels

also hes scared of the Boyfriend Conversation

which i think i've told you before, hes scared cuz of the sex addiction thing but also,

ppl keep coercing him to sex and he doesnt wanna date iida and then be coerced into Officially Cheating,,, pseudo cheating isnt acceptable either but at least like,,, hes Technically not betraying him,

小林未郁Last Sunday at 4:36 AM

THE RAMBLING THING isnt clear to iida bc its like yes that is how he feels but he is not telling me What He Wants From Me

rickyLast Sunday at 4:37 AM

YEAH thats what i noticed today +_+!!!

小林未郁Last Sunday at 4:38 AM

its like monoma is offering his stance but not a solution or a compromise

rickyLast Sunday at 4:38 AM

monoma doesnt rly know that's what he's supposed to do hjbsjfsg

小林未郁Last Sunday at 4:38 AM

does iida have to spell it out

rickyLast Sunday at 4:38 AM

y es

like, the last thing iida said kind of made monoma be like

wait lemme look at it again

ok he said he wanted to know the reasons behind his actions and monoma was like,,,,wha--

cuz... 1) theres like never actually a reason and 2) he didnt know iida wanted that from him

小林未郁Last Sunday at 4:40 AM

rickyLast Sunday at 4:40 AM

like monoma barely even recognizes half his actions cuz theyre all based on impulses and tbh if nobody pointed them out he'll just move on like nothing's happened

like he compartmentalizes,,, s o much,,,,,, and then represses it like instantly like TBH

like barely anyone talks about monoma's growing alcoholism so he just keeps doing that, and no one has had the chance to tell him to stop communicating with villains so he kept doing that too but like. Because it wasnt pointed out he barely has a problem with it and can function fine

everyone harps on him for the sex stuff tho so he's just like Drowning In Guilt

小林未郁Last Sunday at 4:44 AM

is there literally-- any way iida can actually help him because, i just , wow

rickyLast Sunday at 4:44 AM

sfjgkdfg

iida: here's a list of questions to communicate with, pls answer monoma: dissociates instantly

whOH YEAH DEFINITELYi know that sounds all depressing sjhsdfghthe fix is honestly super easy tbh

小林未郁Last Sunday at 4:45 AM

HE ASKED TWO WHOLE QUESTIO-jvhcfdjsjcxsdjhds

god im glad there is indeed a fix

rickyLast Sunday at 4:45 AM

I WAS TYPING UP MORE META I HAVENT GOTTEN TO IT YET

monoma's problem is literally just that he doesnt have the vocabulary for, like, anything

what he wants is an open relationship but he doesnt know what that is and TO BE QUITE FRANK his only knowledge of one is fucking sen and kosei

so like, he's only hesitating so much cuz he doesnt know how to voice what he wants cuz Tbh monoma hates not sounding smart and being emotive means bumbling around like an idiot

he still feels brushed off tho,

iida bls be sad around him more

小林未郁Last Sunday at 5:02 AM

IIDA DOESNT LIKE BEING SAD

its weird for him

he always like

how do i put this

he takes his sadness, pisses on it, and sets it on fire

rickyLast Sunday at 5:02 AM

oh God i just realized iida is doing the same thing the guy i was gay for did FUCKMeJFBJHFBGDG

小林未郁Last Sunday at 5:03 AM

oh he pissed on his sadness too? worm

rickyLast Sunday at 5:03 AM

he did the 'im alright is actually crashing and burning in super slow motion for months at a time' thing

小林未郁Last Sunday at 5:03 AM

iida is hollow more often than he is sad

1JDCKCDSNHSDSNDSCJ

rickyLast Sunday at 5:05 AM

meanwhile i had the loudly has breakdowns and then gets upset about being taken care of despite him insisting because of his Fetish for taking care of people thing

me: glares at iidas Fetish

小林未郁Last Sunday at 5:06 AM

ok this is more of a hc but

iida likes taking care of ppl bc his parents rarely took care of him uwus

o hes like

rickyLast Sunday at 5:07 AM

CRIES

小林未郁Last Sunday at 5:07 AM

being the Dad and Mom he never had

rickyLast Sunday at 5:07 AM

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

see that Sucks cuz my hc is that monoma was raised to be as self sufficient as possible as Fast as possible which meant wow we aint got time for emotions fam just Put Them In A Box

oh is the box overflowing, put the BOX in a BIGGER BOX

小林未郁Last Sunday at 5:08 AM

emotionally stunted boys sure are great

rickyLast Sunday at 5:08 AM

i k r

小林未郁Last Sunday at 5:08 AM

only in theory tho,

rickyLast Sunday at 5:08 AM

LOL

小林未郁Last Sunday at 5:08 AM

irl i wouldve just

choked them

rickyLast Sunday at 5:09 AM

sobs angrily about iida

share your emotions biiiiiiitchhhh

小林未郁Last Sunday at 5:09 AM

hits the back of monoma's head

rickyLast Sunday at 5:09 AM

hEY

小林未郁Last Sunday at 5:09 AM

just tell him what u want u stupid fuckJCDFJDSSD

rickyLast Sunday at 5:09 AM

HE WANTS YOU TO SHARE HIS EMOTIONS HSFBGJHFGS HE SAID THAT!!!!AND IIDA WAS LIKE, NAH

小林未郁Last Sunday at 5:10 AM

IIDA ISNT RLLY THAT SURE OF HIS EMOTIONS EITHER THATS WHY!!!

HE THINKS HES THIS BUT HES ACTUALLY SOMETHING ELSE

rickyLast Sunday at 5:10 AM

THATS MONOMAS PROBLEM TOO YOU BUTT DFHBSDFGJGSG

小林未郁Last Sunday at 5:10 AM

FUCK

rickyLast Sunday at 5:11 AM

OHMY

GODSTRANGLES THEM BOTH

IIMONO: FEELINGS?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????

小林未郁Last Sunday at 5:11 AM

w iida its more like. he knows deep down but he doesnt , think , its important enough , to be addressed

rickyLast Sunday at 5:11 AM

i i d a b l s

小林未郁Last Sunday at 5:11 AM

"as class rep i must be a leader before anything else!!!!!"

rickyLast Sunday at 5:12 AM

monoma is honestly like 'iida help this is the very first time in my life i have felt Guilt what am i supposed to do with this!!!!!!

iida: whats wrong monoma: IM SAD???? WHY DIDNT ANYONE EVER TELL ME WHAT A CONSEQUENCE WAS iida: ,

小林未郁Last Sunday at 5:14 AM

JXVCDJXCDSAHJSDSDJ

rickyLast Sunday at 5:15 AM

and t b h he kind of is like, automatically expecting like... a Reward for getting this far but iida just kind of keeps being like 'okay cool. and what else'

and monoma is like HJSFBKHBFGS THAT TOOK ME 3 WEEKS TO FIGURE OUT B L S

小林未郁Last Sunday at 5:28 AM

fuckcdncnddxjsn

rickyLast Sunday at 5:28 AM

,,,, in person or continue the text

小林未郁Last Sunday at 5:29 AM

CCCCONTINUE...they rarely text god pls

rickyLast Sunday at 5:30 AM

TBH YEAH...

小林未郁Last Sunday at 5:30 AM

iida has no Time for his phone he needs to read 30 chapters ahead so he doesnt fall behind!!!

rickyLast Sunday at 5:30 AM

monoma is Traumatized by all their other text convos so he doesnt--

im including the times when i post this btw because God Damn i love that its likefucking 5am over here

小林未郁Last Sunday at 5:31 AM

GO TO BED?

rickyLast Sunday at 5:31 AM

this is 500% a 'im sad texting my bitchass pseudo bae about my feelings at fucking sunrise after they kept me up crying all night' conversation

whats a bed

#such a good talk lordt i love dani's iida so much fgmsdfghfgfdsg #claws at her... more headcanons.. bitch #monoma.hc #iimono.meta

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