#and i rly dont want this to sound like im like. okay with that bc i think it sounds fuckin awful and unfair

[drewsaturday]

fun to realize the reason i get so insecure about other people doing ~my ideas~ first for fanworks is that all i am is ideas. yeah two cakes theory but point is if someone else does that particular thing first it will be better than mine, even if mine would have its own uniqueness to it, so all i can really walk away with is "i did it first" in the inevitable case of comparison. without that there's nothing jsl;dfljsdf.

and while you can't prevent that from happening in FANDOM of all places that is why i like to keep my ideas to myself when possible. if someone comes up with that same idea on their own fine, but if they get that idea from me running my mouth about my wips and they do their version first (which is like! still allowed even if there are levels of courtesy for how you go about it) i will be mad at myself for stripping myself of my own ability to then continue my own due to knowing my own issues and obstacles with it, because i still don't know how to play nice and it is on me to deal with that.

i say all this knowing fandom is supposed to be fun btw.

#txt #i think while i do worry about plagiarism accusations bc fandom is fucking crazy #i tend to also mask these concerns with that lmao #bc it feels less self centered and insecure to say 'i just dont want to be mobbed :(' than #basically sounding like a five year old whining that someone else brought the same toy to the park as them #but because i AM okay with it in the sense of people saying im where they got that idea from or connecting me to it in some way #(or obvs like... someone gifting me a work based on things ive talked about! also rad! or even just asking first etc!) #that's why talking so much about plagiarism also works lol #like just give me Something to have that ties me to it that lets me pretend i have good contributions to a particular space #ultimately it's my own bullshit to get over bc i feel like i need to justify my place in a fandom by filling a niche or contributing #Something unique if it can't be Good etc etc but that's also kind of dumb bc it's not that serious or at least it shouldnt be #i just cant rly contribute much in terms of community events or quality works etc but i do have good ideas! #and i am trying to let go of everything i just said even though i am still clinging to it by my nails #again i know fandom should be fun and i rly need to just do more with original works at this point but likeee.... #we r here . #also im not trying 2 fish for complimence just objectively #i value all the skills ive learned due to fandom inspiration #but bc i am split cross quite a few and i have certain health issues that #limit how much i can practice or learn etc #other ppl are inevitably going to be better than me in their area of focus! #and i want to be more okay with that

[nomaishuttle]

sometimes u put yr playlist on shuffle a song comes up and you have to put another song in the queue immediately as soon as it comes on bc it makes you think of that song

#this is abt aura by ghost and pals Sry everytime i hear it im like a fiddle This is just like devil went down to georgia and then i have to #put devil went down to georgia in the queue #i think its a fiddle innit.. it sounds like a fiddle but im also NOTORIOUSLY bad at telling instruments apart. <- guy who once couldnt tell #if something was a guitar or a piano i actually rly rly rly rly dont wanna get into it okay. #i guess you didnt know it but i am a fiddle player too 😏😏 #sry. the other thing this post is abt is kiss me and ladies in their sensibilities sweeney. obviously those r connected #but if ladies in their sensibilities comes on by itself i quite literally couldnt be assed so everytime i have to put kiss me on instead an #add lits to the queue. bc them together is like the best song i ever heard its just that the beginning of lits is just kind of boring It #does get stuck i my head sometimes but the supreme part is the end thats Basically just a reprise of kiss me #but also theyre kind of the same song anyways at least o wowww i was just typing in tempo with the fiddle that was awesome. at least on the #2012 soundtrack aka the best one talk to the hand or dont i dont wanna hear it. well i do want to hear it it being the 2012 london cast #recording of sweeney todd starring michael ball and imelda staunton. ANYWAYS!! in that one the songs lead in to eachother #ive listened to all the other soundtracks but idr if they do that.. well ill tell u the movie doesnt bc it doesnt have kiss me. which is #just so. the johanna anthony romance doesnt rly have much substance in the first place and yr taking away like. their duet together. ok.... #AND yr taking away the end part of lits? the best part of that song? whatever its fine its fine. #if anybody is curious my ranking of casts is 2012 > obc > movie > 2006 i fucking hate 2006 or 2005 or whatever i hate it sm it makes my #blood literally boil im sry. i fucking LOATHE it idk what it is well i do but this post is already 5000000 years long. idt the new one is #out fully yet... i was ok with the songs i have heard but idk where id rank it yet. i should prolly check if the full things out yet omg so #me and my lampstie (way of saying my siblings name if theres something deeply wrong with you) can listen :]

[orcelito]

Me starting fe engage rolling my eyes at animated sequences, hating the voice acting + the overdramatic sprite animations, being taken out of the battle I was enjoying to watch more animated sequences & being like "just Let Me Fight! The Fuck?????"

In other words my engage game is going swimmingly, it seems

#speculation nation #i have it set to hard mode bc ive learned i enjoy fire emblem games more on hard #since i like fire emblem for the tactics to start with. not much worth to having battles be way too easy #anyways im like barely started. dont rly like the summoning system. feels cheap + marth deserves to not have to deal with this crap #i chose the female protag bc ???? idk smth about the male protag pissed me off more #SORRY FOR BEING A HATER BTW hfkhsjf i feel so mean rn to ppl to like this game #listen i love fire emblem. and i think i will have plenty of fun with this game once i get used to it. #but i swear hearing those two kids yelling when she woke up (literally why do they have KIDS appointed to watch her???) #made me just Grimace. i really do not like their voices. #the protag's voice is... okay... i like it more when she sounds confident. the sniveling 'uhmm... and you are...?' just annoys me #the knight dude's voice is actually the most tolerable. im not a big fan of his design but it could be worse. #at least i dont end up wanting to rip out my ears when he talks. #pls tho i need more units so i dont have to listen to those fucking kids. where's the awoo guy. i think id prefer him over this

[sensazioneultra]

im rly trying to pretend like things r okay but they're rly not

#actually every time i think they cant get worse they do and they have todaytoo #and ive been.. trying not to die basically like i rly just want to die rn #don't talk to me abt this okay i just need to let it out ill delete this later but im struggling #i dont wanna talk abt whats goinf on at all imnjust hoping it passes soon hopefully by tmrw bc it's fucking me up #so yeag sorry i know i sound like idk an asshole or smth but im gonna go #dont worry i wont die im just gonna try to sleep if i mansge or distract myself #sorry lol am a mess #delete later

[qtboni]

Hello again boni! its me, again, bc i adored your writing on my last req! i have another if that okay!

how would ghost (or maybe konig too, bc i luv him aswell) act if you told him you were pregnant? like this is early relationship, maybe a month or two into dating, only had sex about 4 times, and how would he go about telling soap and his friends and shit?

if you dont want to do this req u dont have to, but it was jus an idea! ^v^

again, thank you in advance, luv ya and your work!

HAI BBY! sorry this took so long to write >< i hope this makes up for it! i also saw your other req and im rly looking forward in writing it! thank you for this!

╰﹒ 𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐉𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐍𝐄𝐘 𝐁𝐄𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐒 !

PAIRING: Simon 'Ghost' Riley X Fem!Reader & König X Fem!Reader

OVERVIEW: Your partner's reaction to the news of your pregnancy.

C/W: A sprinkle of angst with cute comfort and fluff ^^ mentions of being pregnant.

You took a deep breath, trying to still the trembling in your limbs. Your hands were shaking as you reached for the pregnancy test on the bathroom counter. You closed the door behind you and sat down on the cold tile floor, closing your eyes as you waited for the result.

Finally, after what felt like an eternity, you looked down at the test. Two bold lines were staring back up at you. You couldn't believe it - you were pregnant! At first, you felt a wave of joy wash over you, but it quickly turned into terror.

You were pregnant... with a baby. His baby.

You didn't know how to tell him, you were terrified that he would leave you if he found out. Tears streamed down your face as you collapsed onto the floor, sobbing inconsolably.

You had always dreamt of having a baby, but this was too much. It was too early. You were scared, alone, and entirely unsure of what to do. The idea of bringing a human being into this world was daunting, and you couldn't shake the fear that you wouldn't be a good parent.

You stayed there on the bathroom floor for what felt like hours, tears streaming down your face, until finally you heard the sound of your thoughts, telling you that you need to tell him. Your heart skipped a beat as you quickly wiped away your tears, trying to compose yourself, and scrambled to your feet to find him.

You opened the door and went out, sniffling away your tears. You were determined to do what was right, even though you knew it would be painful.

── ◜‹3◞  SIMON ‘GHOST’ RILEY :

"I'm pregnant..." you said, your voice shaking.

You stood in front of Simon, your legs trembling as you held the positive pregnancy test in your hand. You had taken the test a dozen times, and each time it came back positive. You had tried to push the thought of it away, to pretend it wasn't happening, but the reality was sinking in. You were going to be a mother. But more than that, you might become a mother without the man you love.

The words echoed in the silence that followed, as if they hung in the air between you two. Simon took a step back, his eyes growing wider as he tried to make sense of what you had just told him.

Simon stood in front of you, his eyes searching yours for an answer. You could see the shock and confusion written all over his face, and you knew this was the moment to tell him.

"What.." you heard him whisper. You thought he was going to run, to leave you to face this alone. But he didn't move, he just stood there, frozen in place..

That isn't a good sign.

You felt a lump form in your throat as the tears welled up in your eyes. This was too much to bear on your own, and you needed him, you needed his support, or else you didn't know how you would make it through this. But the silence was unbearable, and you felt like you were suffocating.

"I.." You took a step forward, your hand extended towards him. "Please, Simon, I need you."

You cradled your stomach and felt hot tears slowly going down your cheeks. You sobbed as you managed to choke out, "I can't do this alone, Si'. Please..."

Long gone was the distress in his eyes. Softness emerged from them as he realized the situation. And you swore you saw a shimmer in his eyes. You slowly watch as he reached out and took your hand, his touch sending an electric shock through your body.

"I'm here, sorry, love," he said, his voice barely more than a whisper. "I'm here for you."

You felt like you could finally breathe again, like you had just been given a second chance. You felt a sense of relief wash over you, and you broke down in tears, finally letting go of all the fear and emotion that had been swirling inside of you.

Simon pulled you into his arms, holding you tight as you cried, his presence the only thing that kept you going. You look up at Simon, tears streaming down your face.

"I'm so sorry," you whisper. "I know this is a lot to take in, and I know it's not the right time."

Simon's eyes soften as he lowers himself to one knee, taking your hands in his. "Don't be sorry, love," he says. "We're in this together, we'll figure it out. I love you. I'll do everything I can to be there for you and our baby."

You feel a rush of relief and gratitude wash over you, and you lean in to hug him. "Thank you, Simon," you whisper.

Over the next few months, Simon goes above and beyond to show his support. He does research on pregnancy, childbirth, and newborn care, and he attends every doctor's appointment with you. He asks questions and listens carefully to the advice of the healthcare professionals, and he makes a point of being involved in every aspect of your pregnancy.

As you begin to show, Simon becomes more protective of you, helping you with simple tasks like carrying groceries or opening doors.

Despite his own uncertainties and insecurities from his abusive father, Simon still dreams to be a good father. He would spend time reading parenting books and attending parenting classes.

In those early days, Simon is a different man than the one he was before the baby arrived. He's more patient, more sensitive, and more thoughtful. He listens to you more deeply, and he makes an effort to truly see and understand you.

Simon walked into the pub, greeted by the familiar sound of laughter and the smell of beer. He made his way to the bar and ordered a beer, before taking a seat at their usual table in the corner.

Gaz, Captain Price, and Soap were already there, engaged in a conversation. As soon as Simon sat down, Soap noticed his presence and greeted him with a wave.

"Hey, mate," Soap said, his accent thicker than usual after a few beers. "What's up?"

Simon took a sip of his beer and cleared his throat, trying to come up with the right words to say. "I need to talk to you guys about something," he said, his voice sounding a little hoarse.

Gaz put down his beer and turned to face Simon. "What's up, man?" he asked, his concern evident on his face.

Simon took a deep breath, steeling himself for the reaction he was going to get. "My girlfriend and I are expecting a baby," he said, feeling a mix of emotions wash over him.

The three friends looked surprised for a moment, before bursting into a chorus of congratulations and questions.

Gaz asked if it was a boy or a girl, while Captain Price offered to help build the nursery and Soap promised to be there for Simon every step of the way, even bragged at the man jokingly that he would be the favorite uncle of his child amongst Gaz and Price.

Simon felt overwhelmed with gratitude for his friends' support. He felt like he could handle anything, knowing that he had people in his life who cared about him and were there for him, no matter what.

Simon, although still is quite insecure with himself to be a dad, he wants to be there for your child.

── ◜‹3◞  KÖNIG :

König is sitting on the couch, scrolling through his phone, unaware of what's about to happen and you shakily inhaled.

"Hun," you say, your voice trembling, "I need to talk to you."

He looks up at you, sensing that something's off.

"What's wrong, schatz?" he asks, placing his phone down and coming closer to you.

"I'm pregnant," you blurt out, feeling a wave of emotions wash over you. His eyes widen in surprise, and he takes a step back.

"W-Was meinst du?" he stammers in German, clearly taken aback by the news.

For a moment, there's silence between the two of you. You can see the fear and uncertainty in his expression.

"Are you sure?" he adds, his voice quieter than usual.

"I've taken three tests," you assure him and fumbled on your fingers. "It's... I'm sure."

You watch as König sinks onto the couch, rubbing his forehead as he tries to process the news. His social anxiety is starting to kick in, and you can see him pulling inward. You know this is a lot for him to take in, and you want to give him the space he needs to process his emotions.

But as you stand there, waiting for him to respond, you notice a sudden change in his behavior. He stood up to pace back and forth, his hands clenched into fists at his sides. You can tell that he's getting increasingly agitated, and you're not sure what's going on.

This hurts you. So much.

Before you confront him about it, he abruptly storms out of the room, his footsteps echoing through the house. You're left standing there, confused and worried. Hurt, you cradled yourself for protection. Was it something you said? Did you do something wrong?

You spend the next few minutes in a state of anxiety, unable to shake the feeling that something is deeply amiss. You have no idea what to do or where to turn. But then, several minutes later, König finally comes back.

You hear him before you see him, his footsteps pounding against the floor. You jump up from the couch, your heart pounding in your chest. It's clear that he's in a state of panic, his hair disheveled and his eyes wide with distress.

"I'm sorry," König says, his voice shaking as he rushes to you.

He pulls you into a tight hug, his body trembling against yours. You can feel his heart pounding against your chest, and you wrap your arms around him, offering comfort and reassurance.

"I'm so sorry, mein liebling," he says, his voice barely above a whisper. "Please forgive me."

You're too stunned to even speak. Why'd he leave? And, he came back?

He takes your hands in his, tears streaming down his face.

"I never meant to hurt you," he says, his voice hitching. "It was just too much, too fast. I'm sorry, Es tut mir so leid, Süße."

"It's okay, König," you say, kissing the top of his head. "I understand. This is a lot for both of us to take in."

He pulls away slightly, looking up at you with teary eyes.

"I don't know if I'm ready for this," he says, his voice cracking. "I'm so scared. I don't want to mess this up."

You caress his cheek softly, smiling at him. "We'll figure this out together," you say, your voice filled with kindness and love. "Okay?"

He nods, clinging onto you tightly.

"Okay," he whispers, his voice filled with gratitude. "Danke, mein liebe. I love you so much."

König kissed your forehead and continued on peppering kisses all over your pretty face, making you giggle.

And in that moment, you know that everything will be alright. You're in this together, and you'll face whatever challenges come your way, hand in hand, united in love and determination.

The day König found out about the pregnancy was one of the most overwhelming moments of his life. He never expected to become a father so soon, and the thought of having so much responsibility suddenly weighed heavily on him.

As someone who struggles with social anxiety, he found it difficult to process his emotions and express them to you. He withdrew into myself, feeling isolated and like he was failing you.

But you refused to let him pull away. You gently but firmly pulled him back in, offering love and reassurance at every turn. You listened to his fears and concerns, and gave him the space to process them at his own pace. You were in this together, and he would be right there beside you every step of the way.

As the days passed, König slowly started to come out of his shell. He became more involved in the pregnancy, eager to learn and prepare for your new life as parents. He started to think about what kind of father he wanted to be, and how he could be the best partner he could be to you.

He was still anxious at times, but your support and love never wavered. You reminded him that he didn't have to be perfect, that you would face the future together, and that you would make mistakes along the way. Together, you faced every challenge that came your way, from picking out baby names to decorating the nursery. You became a team, united by your love for each other and your love for your child.

Through it all, König realized that you were his strength, his hope, and his happiness. You were his everything, and he couldn't imagine going through this journey without you. He knew that you were meant to be together, and that the road ahead would be filled with love, happiness, and joy.

König had always struggled with social anxiety, and it had been difficult for him to make friends. But he was incredibly close to his beloved grandmother, who he knew would be overjoyed to hear the news of his soon-to-be fatherhood.

So, he took a deep breath and started to write down what he wanted to say, practicing it a few times to help him feel more prepared. He knew that this was an important moment in his life, and he wanted to share it with the person he loved the most.

When he finally approached his grandmother's house, he could already hear her laughter and happy tears. It was as if she had been expecting the news, and he felt a weight lifted off his shoulders.

König takes a deep breath and approaches his grandmother, holding out the sonogram photo. His heart races as he waits for her to look up, eager to share the news.

"Großmutter," he trailed off. "I have some news to share with you."

"Oh, König, selbstverständlich!" the old woman said in her native tongue as she turns to him. "What is it, dear?"

"Großmutter," He clears his throat. "I'm going to be a father."

König watches his grandma's eyes light up and he felt so relieved to hear, "Oh König, that's wonderful news! I'm so happy for you!"

To his surprise, his grandmother responded with the sweetest words of love and encouragement that he had ever heard. She told him how proud she was of him, and how excited she was for your journey ahead as the mother of her grandkid.

He replies back in German, "Thank you, Großmutter. It means so much to have your support."

The old woman stood up and hugged him tightly, "Of course, dear. You know I'll always be here for you."

His grandma then kisses his cheek. He could see the joy on her face as he told her about the new life growing inside him, and he felt a warm sense of love and acceptance. Konig felt an overwhelming rush of happiness and gratitude as he hugged his grandmother tightly. For someone who struggled with social anxiety, the kindness and love that she showed him made him feel more confident and secure in the journey ahead.

With their love and guidance, König was excited to embrace the next chapter of his life as a father. He knew that he would never have to face life's challenges alone, he had you. You had always been there for him in the past, and he knew that you would continue to be there in the future. And with the new life growing inside him, he felt a sense of hope and happiness that he had never experienced before.

König can't wait to be the father of your child and shower him or her with endless affection and support.

#👾 — [bonnie’s wk] #simon riley x you #simon riley x reader #simon ghost x reader #simon ghost riley x reader #simon ghost riley x you #simon riley imagine #simon riley smut #simon ghost riley x y/n #simon ghost riley #ghost cod #ghost x reader #ghost smut #ghost x you #cod x reader #cod x you #konig cod #cod fanfic #konig x you #konig x reader #konig fic #konig imagine #konig x y/n #könig smut #konig smut #könig cod #könig x you #könig x reader #könig fluff #call of duty

[alilarew23]

hey :) i rly cannot be bothered to DO anything for my manifestation w sp. i just wanna decide and say its done and think ab sth else, without entertaining opposite stories. is that ok? idk if thats changing self. i just rly dont wanna do anything. not so much as to change the 3d and get fast results but, bc ive been ‘trying’ for so long i cba. but i still ‘want’ it. i don’t wanna move on just bc i havent got it yet. i just dont wanna affirm that i am chosen or stop n feel how it feels to be chosen bc often i feel absolutely nothing. like, ‘how does it feel u went on a date w him last week?’ nothing at all honestly 🥹 so idk if thats changing self or is okay. at times i do entertain the opposite but ive decided thats stopping NOW. like… just stating its already mine n moving onnnn coz im tired of trying !! me in that relationship seems rly happy n carefree whenever i imagine her but physically i know im not always happy giggly bc i CBA but i still know i am her within? ik this a lot, sorry. i just know i am meant to have my dream relationship where i am cared for and loved. its about time i do this!

yup! decide with conviction that either you guys are already back together or are 100% getting back together--doesn't really matter imo, either way, it's a done deal--and don't entertain/give any attention/power to anything that goes against your decision. embody the best version of yourself and know it into being. you wouldn't be happy and carefree 24/7 in a relationship with him--no one is, even the most loved/in love person on the planet--so you don't have to be that now. just know (feel) yourself to be inherently loved, cared for, prioritized, etc. by the very fact of being you (you don't have to affirm this if you don't feel like it), and go about your life. if you've decided you're getting back together, you're getting back together. that's it. you're already at your end. no effort needed. plus, it sounds like you've "tried" for so long that your inner man/subconscious/whatev you wanna call it will be like oh she's done trying she finally accepted she has it lol here he is! (as long as you actually have accepted it). you are meant to have your dream relationship, you do have it, just be it.

#law of assumption #loassumption #loa #loablr #loassblog #loa blog #manifestation #manifestation tips #manifest #manifest sp #self concept #mindset #neville goddard #edward art #imagination #faith in god #faith in yourself #self belief #inner knowing #states of consciousness #live in the end #wish fulfilled #desire #fulfillment #it is done #quantum jumping #spirituality #spiritual journey #self love #gratitude

[akalikai]

TMAGP EPISODE 10 TIME!!! (REACTION THREAD WITH SPOILERS)

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Case Reading (Celia)

MR. BONZO???? NIGEL DICKERSON???? This is strange especially after last ep Gwen was just told to go find Nigel Dickerson. I wonder who's seeing this case reading.

WAIT OH MY GOD. DID THEY USE MR. BONZO AT THE MAGNUS INSTITUTE FOR THEIR CHILD EXPERIMENTS???? ALSO THIS IS VERY GIVING ANNABELLE CANE CHILDREN'S TV SHOW.

HELLO??? IS THAT THE MAN BEHIND THE SLAUGHTER???? KILLING PEOPLE IN A COSTUME?????

Oh my God hello???? "Why won't he let me go??" INTERESTING. IS MR. BONZO GONNA BE LIKE. A THING.

COLIN???? HE SOUNDS???? BETTER??????

Oh never mind he's still trying to kill the puters.

Hmm interesting that this one just...Played for Celia. Coincidentally at the same time Gwen is going to confront Nigel. And with Celia's curious nature, well... I think we might see some more Celia and Gwen?? Maybe??? Also no puter voices for Celia???

Exploring the ruins (Sam and Alice)

"Sam there us honestly nowhere I'd rather be than here with you." ALICE RIZZ DAMN GIRLLLLL

"Ow" okay that was adorable Sam

"Carved floor in the big atrium" HEY WHAT HELLO???? ARE THERE SYMBOLS OR SOMETHING??? PERHAPS OF THE FEARS???

ALICE IS SO WEAK FOR SAM AKSHAJFBE

Finding Nigel Dickerson (Gwen)

OH MY GOD GWEN. SHE BABYGIRLED TOO CLOSE TO THE SUN.

"I'm sorry for this" FOR CALLING A FUCKING MURDEROUS CLOWN ON ME???? FUCK OFF BONZO????

Okay yeah so. So. So yeah. Like I. Okay yeah I get why Lena is doing what she is. But also like. Hey what is Bonzo exactly bc that sure doesn't seem like a human! And also exactly who is he going to kill?

Also does Nigel just. Have a pet murderous clown now. Is that what's happening. Reading.

Back to Exploring (Alice and Sam)

WAIT. WAIT WAIT WAIT. TAPE RECORDERS IN AN OFFICE??? ARCHIE??? ARCHIVE? OH MY GOD THIS IS TOO MUCH.

OTHERWORLDLY POWER????

"Gosh ur sexy" YEAH YOU ARE ALICE

"Why they chose us...Why they didn't choose me" hmMmMMmmMm

Alice PLEASE BABYGIRL. YOU'RE SO OBVIOUS.

IM SORRY. THE TRAPDOOR???? WHAT?????? SOMEONE IS BREATHING???? SO THE HOLE IMPLIES THE TUNNELS STILL EXIST WHICH BY PROXY MEANS THE PANOPTICON MIGHT STILL EXIST??? AND THE TRAPDOOR EXISTING. I DONT EVEN KNOW MAN WHAT THE FUCK.

I JUST CHECKED THE AUDIO CREDITS AND BETH EYRE??? AS IN LUCIA WRIGHT BETH EYRE???? AS IN MISS MA'AM WHO ESCAPED THE FLESH RITUAL AND TOLD GERTRUDE ABOUT IT????

AND NOW WE GOT NOTHING FOR THE NEXT 4 WEEKS YOU CANT DO THIS TO ME RUSTY QUILL IM GONNA GO INSANE-

Edit: MY DUMB ASS MISSED THE WORM TRACK COMMENT HEY ALICE WHAT THE FUCK. HEY I RLY HOPS JANE PRENTISS IS NOT WORMING AROUND. I WANT HER TO BE HAPPY AND LOVED.

#tmagp #the magnus protocol #tmagp ep 10 #the magnus protocol ep 10 #tmagp spoilers #tmagp ep 10 spoilers #alice dyer #samama khalid #gwendolyn bouchard

[quodekash]

msp and bbs parallels (mostly soundwin related bc the brainworms said so) in the form of the same meme template over and over again cos i said so 

it’s so specific but it works for both of them and i dont understand 

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again, it’s so specific BUT IT HAPPENED FOR BOTH OF THEM

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win is a sound engineer! 

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i know sound is predominantly an actor but he does these things as well 

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again, i know sound is predominantly an actor, but apparently pat is too and i ahd to include that here (and also they’re both so multi-talented how) 

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sometimes i am convinced that sound and pran are actually the exact same person just from different universes. this is one of those times. 

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AGAIN, IT’S THE SPECIFICS OF IT. PATPRAN MADE THE BET AT THE END OF EPISODE 6 (and if you just think about it for a sec then you realise them making the bet was them agreeing that the final goal is to fall in love, ergo they both want the other to fall in love with them, ergo they have both fallen in love already, ergo by making the bet they both lost immediately). SOUND SANG THE SONG AT THE END OF EPISODE 9, AND HE ARRIVED IN THE SHOW IN EPISODE 4, MEANING IT WAS HIS SIXTH FLIPPING EPISODE 

NO I AM NOT OKAY 

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it’s something about the three-letter w-names 

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shut up korn likes wai for most of the show and i refuse any other opinion 

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again, it’s SO SPECIFIC but it WORKS 

in the beginning, pran really didnt like pat and gun really didn’t like tinn. but already sound hated tinn more than gun ever did, and wai hated pat more than pran ever did. but wai was super supportive of pran and sound was super supportive of gun, and NEITHER OF THEM KNEW about tinngun/patpran 

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the scene with the canned drinks was korn hitting on wai after realising the architecture-engineering rivalry doesnt matter anymore and i refuse any other opinion. i wil gladly write an essay on why if you need proof. it’s very obvious that korn is deeply in love with wai. 

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again, the SPECIFICS 

in wai’s third episode (the third episode of the show), he sits down and gives pran some tips for writing the song for the freshy music contest (which leads into “the world’s one and only handsome pick” and “you cant surpress a smile when you think of someone you like”) 

in sound’s third episode (episode 6), he sits down and tells gun to think of a way to get into the song (which leads into gun thinking about tinn and smiling) 

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this one isn’t technically canonical for photjanee, but in episode 9 when she seemed to be suspecting it i guessed that she’s not homophobic but she’s never rly liked gun cos he’s not well behaved or whatever so she just doesnt like the thought of tinn dating gun specifically and i was wrong about that but ive already made this meme so im not getting rid of it 

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AND IT WORKS. FOR ALL OF THEM. 

HOW 

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okay last one now 

#there's definitely more but these are the ones i could think of off the top of my head while on a plane yesterday #my school president #my school president the series #bad buddy #bad buddy series #bbs msp parallels #patpran #ohmnanon #soundwin #winsound #satangwinny #winnysatang #tinngun #guntinn #geminifourth #kornwai #ohm pawat #nanon korapat #satang kittiphop #winny thanawin #gemini norawit #fourth nattawat #pat msp #msp pat #msp bbs parallels #soundwin = patpran

[girlwithfish]

Realizing im super fucking lonely. especially lonely rn for reasons i iwll not say. ive always been lonely but it still sucks

im trying to rebuild my sense of internal safety and trust in myself. i realize i do not trust othere or the world and i also do not rly trust myself but at the same time i also have the mindset that i can only rely on myself to a toxic degree.

and also how innate shame has guided my entire life i thought i was just an anxious person w low self esteem and worth which is true but i thought i was just fucked up for no reason and like this is normal its just anxiety like i dont think u r supposed to feel ashamed and guilty for every thing u do and for things u didnt even do ur entire life i feel ashamed the moment i wake up. Its weird and alienating. and also feeling like an alien among a crowd of ppl u intrinsically cannot connect to. and i sound like a bitch when i say this but reading abt how cptsd gives u that feeling of intrinsic difference from other ppl and just further causes u to isolate and feel like there's something wrong w u has been a little like... okay. i guess thats what ive been feeling my whole life and i only realized now its not particularly normal unless if u have some kind of trauma or mental illness but like its dampening my life so much and feeling guilty for existing is not what a healthy person should feel LOL

and anyway i feel my trust in others and my worldview in general has shrank so much lately. i just retreat more within myself for safety

and i also have the innate core belief that i am not worthy my opinions thoughts and wants do not matter and its such a barrier to being my authentic self and being able to have connection w ppl bc i cant even hold a casual conversation anymore or insert my opinions its especially hard lately. i always thought i was just shy and socially anxious which Is also true and then i also thought i was autistic but i guess being more aware of the actual reasons why im so "shy"is like ohh ur not Just shy and u also automatically subconsciously label urself as a worthless and lesser person who nobody will like or value ur thoughts so u might as well obscure urself and not get close to anyone and prevent anyone from knowing u and u have masked urself so well u dont even know who u are to urself.... yay :*

#introspection

[goodmorningnona]

nine people you'd like to know better, tagged by @evilwomanenjoyer (YAY i love tag memes)

last song: europapa van Joost Klein i am SO FUCKING EXCITED FOR EUROVISION AND JOOST IS TOP 10 ARTISTS FOR ME AND i could rly infodump abt how good this song is eofhdjnd

favorite color: just like prev, forest green!! :D i use it mostly in decorating because something bad happens to all my green shirts but i have to run my decisions by my friends bc im blue-yellow colorblind

currently watching: this kind of question always gets me cause I dont really watch tv but that makes me sound homeschooled and it's not that i don't like tv it's just that nothing ever grabs me quite as much as like, yuri on ice or the owl house or smthn and i only engage w stuff I can totally obsess over. BUT i do watch a lotta movies bc like, sure ill watch 90 mins of an adventure then be done with it. I suppose im technically watching youtube series? Like im waiting for the next hermitcraft ep rn. I guess im technically watching hazbin hotel even tho i got one ep in and dont really intend on finishing it..?

sweet/savory/spicy: hmm okay it really depends but it's NOT spicy. I like spicy food but my GI tract Does Not. I mean i wouldnt say savory necessarily but salty food is my heaven. Sweet can be very hit or miss for me depending on strength and type.

relationship status: another great question im married to miss earth and I'll kiss just about anybody but also enjoy serious dates but also a fucking tumblr post made me realize im in my slut era. Idk you know that kk slider quote "the music wants to be free" it's me im the music i think we should be able to do whatever we want forever and i think we should kiss about it. i dont rly define my relationship status in terms of things that people will easily comprehend bc the ways i experience affection are just too fundamentally different and non conforming for that tbh. relationship status- ASK (always stay kissing)

current obsession: always tlt but tmagp has snuck her way in there, and I'm still watching minecraft youtube. I swear my obsessions and daily schedule revolve around the seasons they change like four times a year so mayhap i am simply waiting for the next one

last thing you googled: dragon quest games on switch hehe i just got my switch repaired and a couple years back a coworker got me eshop giftcards for hanukkah just before it broke so now i can finally use them!! dragon quest best game series hehe

tagging: @blaquidow @abigail-pent @senseoftheday @cavalierprimary @softieghost @nooomagnus @deadcart @perfectly-fuckingcivil @vvormooze ik i know the last three of you p well but how are you doing :)

#lessons of the hand and the mouth #tagged

[heleizition]

disability aids? adaptability aid? medical aids could also be used i think. whats gabes issues? howd gabe end up in the ally to help stephan? does basil show up in a different way? also o o f for nathaniel and chronos thats r o u g h. i wish to bestow therapy on them all... also maria with leg prostheses!!! also im making e y e s at possible new characters... whats the defining things that decide whether one becomes a demon or angel? and what were ur characters things that decided their classification? also whats eves deal?

medical aids sounds good i think !

well. as mentionned in an earlier ask i think, gabriel was one of the kid used as human test subjects in the hybrid lab. so while he was young he still got put until enormous stress because of medical surgeries and test and other stuff,,,, he almost didn't survive the lab's explosion. and after that he was on the street. had to steal and later sell himself to get by. around 16 he ended up under the wing of a woman who lived close by who used to be a doctor, she taught him a few things that made him unvaluable <3

but yea he doesnt know peace lol <3

so gabriel ends up taking care of stephan n helps him, at first with the injuries he had suffered to get out of stan's stronghold, then when he first woke up with the serious withdrawals this drug provoked (idk shit about it okay . dont ask for details),,, then they jst. ended up living together.

basil has yet to re appear !!!! i wanna re design him most likely and the involvement of everyone from this group of oc in the angel/demon story is too vague yet. ill have to rework on their past life story also.

eve... well eve was always the . "normal girl" who ended up in weird situations. she doens't have anything special in the current story but once upon a time she used to be a vessel for a creature or smth............. i can't rly tell u about this. now she just exist. she thrives and wants to live and finally find the family and friends she's always wanted :3 she'll die a sad death but at that point, she will ahve done the most for herself and the others and . idk. she doesnt have a point. shes just there.

theres absolutely nothing that make someone an angel or a demon. its totally random, it will only affect the memories you remember (it's easier to make demons do "evil" things if they only remember that they were a bad person/did bad things).

the classification was also........; mostly random................ vibes............... i honestly can't say lol because they were created before i had an angel/demon story. abel and cody were always pretty obvious bc they were always angel/demons entities to being with. jasper was ALWAYS going to be something of both/something different !!!! eden jst felt right as an angel :) plus i felt that him remembering his death n life and ending up as an angel healer was pretty . comical. in poor taste.

nell and vik were also always going to be one and the other. opposites :3

most of the couples are angel/demons, i don't have a demon/demon or angel/angel endgame, even if a few different pairings have nbeen explored in my head....

#ask me #the unwanted #stephan #gabriel #MAN idk who i talked about

[biboyhalo]

i am not convinced of quackhalo but it's mostly because i don't really follow either quackity of bad, but please convince me i want to see

ok anon so i was supposed to just write a short thing BUT THIS IS SO LONG LMAO anyway what i have here is basically my quackhalo masterpost/manifesto to convince you that they are insane and gay (and have some form of crush on each other in one way or another)

First of all I will show you my absolute favourite moment between them.(tumblr link) It's not the biggest or most eye raising out there, but I sing this song to myself regurarly, and I love this moment. Quackity is quite tired in this stream, and he always up to this point just teased and jokingly made fun of bad and suddenly he comes out with THIS 😭😭 you can tell that even bad was taken aback

this..... THIS???? (youtube link) if you dont wanna watch the whole 9 min thats fine but guys just go to 4:00 . context: quackity has convinxed bbh into calling him "big daddy" and bad tries to swindle out of it for the first 4 minutes but then at 4:00 he finally caves in. the way he says it???? (😳😳😳) and also the way quackity has a FULL BODY REACTION for like 5 minutes 😭😭 like he beats up his chair and then just cant stop just like…. full body reacting dhsjskzbjssk like excuse me are you okay sir… is this still a bit…

and this… (youtube link) in a form of animatic bc its fucking great but this just rly ties up badboyhalos ongoing and continuous thirst for buff men.. the reaction he has AND the reaction quackity has to that reaction...... wow. quackity genuinely sounds a bit freaked out i think this was when he first realised "hey bad might be actually genuinely attracted to men" lol

now here (youtube link, if it doesnt work 11:10 - 12:10) Quackity gets exposed for asking bad to face time him and show him his face when they have their late night talks and looks so caught and tries to flip it around into a joke dbajskd. he tries to make it look so casual, but you can tell he's not happy it got flipped on him LOL

bbh calling quackity alex and quackitys reaction :) (tumblr link) very much reads like a bit of course, but with quackity it does seem like he doesn't make up reactions as much as massively overhypes them to make it into a funny bit

now this moment and the next few i only had clips saved on my pc so i uploaded them on one of my saved urls blogs hdiasjdka dont mind me but THIS ONE he is so fucking focused on bads hands his eyes are NOT BUDGING DHISJK. That whole stream he had bad's rat cam in the corner and kept begging bad for face cam, and when suddenly bbh went to pet rat BAM full screen rat cam and complete SIMPERY over hands. like im not kidding he literally cant look away look at him 😭

THIS!!!! i think it's one of the moments where quackity does something without thinking then tries to work around it/make it a joke. Like that smooch came from such a genuine place of love (im not saying romantic love, just love, you cant say they dont have loads of platonic love for each other) and adoration it's so SWEET. he was teasing him abit too much and realised and just went SMOOCH. so cute

this clip is incomplete but its all i have rn, before the clip he says bad's hair looks soft, then all that, but after this he turns it into a joke saying he'd yank it and rip it out but at first he sounds so sincere i think he said the soft hair thing sincerely and then was like oop better joke

the silence after this clip is always what makes it for me. but he said what he said! "you are my badboyhalo" <3

who would i be if i didn't include the "you have to ride me" clip. bc bad's reaction says it all.

this one is so miniscule but i love this moment. they are both so cute. I think it showcases why quckhalo works so well for me, because quackity will go into flirt mode and bad will pretend he doesn't notice, will just act as his usual cute innocent persona. but he's into it 😭

yeah abshidjkahsjk (tumblr) like most of these it was partially a bit, but the fact that his stream ended bc he overhyped his reaction to bbh calling him alex and kicked his computer LOL. it reminds me of the big daddy clip, i think quackity actually has a geniune reaction to these things but makes it HUGE AND BIG so that ppl see it as this bit

(twitter link) they call each other when they're stressed like please i love them

(twitter link) even more!!!!! bad talking about quackity im literally sobbing and crying

(twitter link) EVEN MORE FLIRTING FROM QUACKITY

For my last words i present to you a 25 minutes quackhalo "sus moments" compilation which should be watched by any quackhaloer out there. I love it and I enjoy it and I watch it when I'm feeling down and when i miss quackhalo <3

THAT WAS LONG LMAO anyway here is my quackhalo manifesto

#quackhalo #asks #anon #oct 22

[melissa-titanium]

IK THIS SOUNDS RLY pushy and like weird and ermm crigne but i just wanted to kniw if ur opinion shave changed on spacemoth and maybeermm ramble a little mayhaps???

NOT PUSHY !!!! NOT WEIRD!!!!! CASPER WE ARE ALL CRINGE HERE ITS OKAY ITS OKAY. ALSO IM SO SORRY FOR FORGETTING TO ANSWER THISA WHILE AGO I SAW IT THEN FORGOT :((

OK OK SO. FOR STARTERS. THEY R CANON. TO ME. LIKE THEYRE STRAIGHT UP CANON I SOMETIMES FORGET THEYRE NOT. IRELALY HOPE ONE DAY... DIRECTDOGGY ACKNOWLEDGES YOU AND MAKES DIALTOWN 2 JUST TO PUT SPACEMOTH IN IT.....ok im sorry ijsut lodst my train of thought iliterally dont remebr what iwas.talking about. a really romantic silly nightcore (NOT sped up. nightcore) song jjusst started playing and it reminds me of spacemoth :) eventhough its kind of about ... missing a chance with someomey ou love/... I CAN PRETEND ITS ABOUT SILLY MAKING OUT JUST PRETEND JUST.PRETEND.

BUT !!!!! THEYRE VERY SILLY MALEWIFE MOTH X SPACE COWBOY THE ULTIMATE DUO whenever isee a cowboy nowadays im like haha..norm..... but also egbert bc the one flash where egbert dresses up as a cowboy. i think theyd go off on their yeehaw endeavors (am i useing that word right) together BESIDES THE POINT. theyre the type to drink (i mispelled this as dirk) a smoothie togethet with two straws . their dynamic is so funny to me its like a magical girl x normal guy except theyre both old men

idk if this is anyting idk if this makes sense.but you get me

#mel roars #textdump #asks

[pizzapizzadickz]

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#diary #personal #disordered eating #i am so worried about food. i both want to let myself eat. but really dont. #i ate so much today. i had chips 2 tiramisu things a bunch of grapes (which is okay) and like. a stuffed pepper. #like which doesnt sound like much but it is. i just. am so stupid #i just dont want to eat anything but i also rly love food lol #its a funny contradiction #i dont really know if i truely do this bc i wanna or its an obsession or rly why anymore tbh. #its fun. seeing how bad things can get for me. if i just let them. #in the end. i dont care. #im not here. this isnt happening.

[c-kiddo]

hey !! Just wanted to say thank you for sharing your experiences n stuff, especially with/through caduceus - i know it sounds silly but like, your blog and stuff have helped me alot with being okay with my autism n stuff and also helping me understand alot of the funny feelings !!

im not very good with words so sorry if this doesn't make sense but !! i just wanted to say thank you !! and also i hope you have a good day today :DD

aw, yea :'-3 i understand dont worry. thats good, glad it helps. ngl working thru these things w characters n stuff helps a lot to see through another (pretend) person. also bonus bc its a character im rly autistic about and lov sm so im like :-D yayy guy i like + projecting traits n finding them in canon anyways. good to help be more accepting and kinder to yourself 🧶🌿:'-)

#same w aspec stuff but thats a different thing #asks

[briarpatch-kids]

Hi, you seem rly cool and rly knowledgeable (/gen) and I guess I was wondering like, when would be the best time to get a rollator? I deal with a lot of pain when walking and standing, I can't even rly be on my feet for half an hour, and I get exhausted and feel the need to sit down often, I can't stand in place at my job even if it's a short shift bc it hurts and drains me so much, but some days I'm okay and can walk fine (or better anyways) and do a lot, etc. etc.

I haven't been diagnosed w/ anything (to be fair I haven't gotten to see a doctor bc I'm extremely broke and have absolutely no idea how to navigate the medical system on my own) but Im pretty much always in pain and exhausted. Im rly tired of my feet going numb and burning or whatever when I try to stand, my muscles hurting and straining almost every time I walk, and of being so drained every time I go out. I rly wanna be able to go out more easily. I have a cane I try to use but it honestly doesn't do as much as I'd like and usually hurts my wrist :( would a rollator even be a good idea or would something else be better? I'm just really anxious Abt all of this, it's so hard to find advice and answers for any of the questions I have :'' I'm rly sorry I'm dumping this on you and I'm sorry if you're not sure how to answer or respond. Also pls dont worry Abt answering if you don't have the energy :) thank you

Honestly those all sound like good reasons to get a rollator, I really like the Drive Nitro or other "euro style" rollators. They're a lot more portable and can go over more surfaces than the other style.

If you want to get medical coverage and care for this and you're in the US, call a medical clinic nearby that does primary care and ask for a primary care doctor and an appointment. Of you're uninsured you can sometimes find sliding scale clinics that will cost much less, the one here is called Terry Reilly.

Once you're there, talk to them about what's been happening and what makes it better and worse so they can run some basic tests and hopefully prescribe you a rollator so you can get around while you wait for things to get figured out. Make sure it's for a wheeled walker with a seat. They might want to send you to physical therapy, I'd let them but make sure the physical therapists know when things are making you feel worse, especially if the "feel worse" is lingering and not just while you do the PT. You can ask them how to use the rollator the best way and have them adjust it to fit you.

From there, I usually get a prescription written and take it down to a medical supplier. My local one is called Norco and also sells welding supplies because it uses oxygen tanks the same way some disabled people do. They'll show you what insurance will usually cover and what you can pay extra for. There's usually 10 or so different models with like, heavy duty or low height features and 3 wheeled walkers, a Euro style one, walker/transport chair combos... etc. You can try out the floor models and see which one suits you best before you pick them out too. Generally they have untouched models of the walkers in the back and you can take it home the same day which is nice.

#dont worry you're not dumping on me #its hard to find this info and I've had a rollator in the past