#and leads to misery

[dieletztepanzerhexe]

happy 2 years of almost complete sobriety to me

the last tiem i got drunk was on 13.01.2022 </3

since then i only drank literally a handful of times, it was always just one glass of wine or beer, only after a whole day of working. small amount of low percentage alcohol after manual labour is almost a divine experience, can't say the same about binge drinking.

i also took shrooms a couple times

but what is the most important i haven't touched opiates, stimulants or prescriptio medciation in a very long time >_<

#sobriety is not fun and honestly it sucks #i can'y stand myself #being with myself #having to liosten to my thoughts #i wish i had something to mute myself/my thoguhts #but the alternative is much worse #and leads to misery #so i have to learn to live with it\ #it does get easier #with time #a little bit #month after month #i love not suffering from physical side effects that's for sure #that's the best thing about being sober #not being in pain #sobriety #moje

[suntails]

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#LAST ONE!!! jokes on u. this entire series was fun and whimsy but ive been leading us back here. back to misery. back to briar valley #u thought i could be normal and draw silver happy for an extended period of time?? NEVER!!!! thats absurd #if he doesnt look miserable then i didnt try hard enough. thems the rules on suntails dot tumblr dot edu #teeheeeeeeee spins in a cute little circle <3 <3 welcome back to hell. see u next lore drop probably unless someone sends asks lmao <3 #twst #twisted wonderland #twst silver #sebek zigvolt #suntails

[voldheart]

Wait wait I just scrolled by a mutual that reblogged your Godseeker-Comic. Is that an AU? Is there more of this? This is so interesting! I have never seen Godseeker turning to be a part of Void. Mostly just always getting killed by it.

I hope you're doing more with this concept in one way or another because this is a really interesting idea!

ouuu thank you 🥺❤️ its not really an au, its more like my interpretation of a continuation to the embrace the void ending!! :D I think most people are not aware that she canonically doesnt die, and take the ending at face value.... its kind of hard to explain for me since even i am not 100% sure what exactly happens lol but i like to think that theyre perpetually linked or fused together in some weird way. and i feel that this result is pretty intentional from both sides.

Godseeker mentions that they seek gods to "clutch at their greatness and immortality", which i assume that with 'clutch' she means that these traits would be shared with the Godseekers through the "Godly focus" thing. And the knight, besides the fact that it proved its strenght against the local strongest beings, it posesses (via the Void Heart) the void under its will, which is literally said to be an "eternal" force that "denies time", ie immortal.

and this union of sorts would be beneficial for the knight as well, as it can go into Holy Beast mode at just about anytime it wants, which is a really awesome powerup if u ask me. That and also (in my headcanon) it does like her. very much :-)

#hollow knight #the knight hk #godseeker hk #this is also why i made their tag: #symvoidsis #LITERALLY UNION FOR LIFE OF TWO DIFFERENT ORGANISMS!!! BEING OF THE MUTUALISTIC KIND AS ITS BASED ON MUTUAL BENEFIT!!!! #i have soooo many thoughts about them that i really just dont know how to express in drawings #like how she could help on rebuilding hallownest with her ability to build devices out of nothing #her and monomon could be work buddies in this scenario (in this universe it would not have broken the seals btw) #she most definitely knows about leading a whole community out of misery too (land of storms) #and tk as the new monarch (ASSUMING that thats how the king's brand works) would most definitely need that sort of knowledge #as it was raised alone out there on the fucking wastelands it probably doesnt know much about leadership honestly #IDK I JSUT THINK THEY COMPLIMENT EACHOTHER SO WELL I JUST THINK THEYRE NEAT #ITS SUCH AN UNDERRATED DUO IN MY OPINION #'Mostly just always getting killed by it' LIKE FOR FUCKING REALLLLL THOUGH #I ALWAYS JUST SEE HER BEING KILLED OFF IT MAKES ME SO SAD #BEING A GODSEEKER LOVER OVER HERE IS SO HARD #tysm for the ask❤️ btw .i love talking about them hehe

[not-poignant]

raphael: so i bought you someone to kill, want to try it? astarion: /refuses/ raphael: :) raphael: so i bought you to a theatre and we're going to watch some sex, and then these actors are going to ask if you're available/interested. are you? astarion: please don't share me raphael: :) raphael: ANYWAY so THE TERMS OF THE SECOND CONTRACT astarion: ... astarion: shit.

#palmarosa #thespectaclesofthor #raphael's been leading into it explicitly for some time #and has enjoyed every refusal #because he knows it will make astarion's misery #all the more acute when he truly does have no choice #i'm sure raphael's got a line like #'i'm sure you never imagined the sun would ask you to do *this*' #tucked in his back pocket for later

[uncanny-tranny]

Death to the idea that people who face a traumatic situation must become empty husks of a person between the event that traumatized them and when they are ~magically~ healed. It's genuinely fucked up.

Often, people who are traumatized will interact with the world just like a "normal" person would. They might even joke about their trauma, laugh about it, even "make light" of it.

When I was a very young child, I'd been traumatized, and I was put into play therapy. From what I remember, though, I'd be a very normal child until something seemingly small triggered me, and it was like my world fell apart. And I'd cope with that in ungodly ways that to a normal person would be insane - unthinkable, perhaps. And then... I'd go back to playing, because the world continues on.

That is what many people (though not all, trauma responses are not a monolith) who face trauma will do. We're still "normal people." The world goes on even after ours stops in orbit, slows, or has a metor crash into it. The reason why it's so harmful to say that traumatized people have to "act the part" is because many of us don't, and simply, most of us can't (even if we need to).

#mental health #mental health advocacy #trauma #trauma tw #abuse #abuse mention tw #this shit genuinely infuriates me #and i feel my point is more... salient or whatever if i include 'proof' which is my own experience. but i don't really wanna #but i saw this person publicize their suspicions that their *friend* didn't face a horrific event because they were ~jovial~ about it #because they joked too much and their attitude was too ~happy-go-lucky~. who would fucking do that to a friend. #but that's how so many people interact with people who made it through trauma #and it's genuinely harmful. it's going to lead to so much misery in people who are already dealing with the aftermath of trauma whatever... #...it may be - big or small it doesn't matter #sorry for the erratic nature of my posts... stream of consciousness and all

[milflewis]

trying not to wail on the bus back home as a i read “you pierced my soul. i am half agony, half hope. tell me not that i am too late, that such precious feelings are gone forever. i offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own than when you almost broke it eight years and a half ago. dare not say that a man forgets sooner than a woman, that his love has an earlier death. i have loved none but you. unjust i may have been, weak and resentful i have been, but never inconstant.” for the seventy sixth time

#i am half agony half hope! cruel and mean and terrible and unkind but never not loving! #persuasion is the Epitome of coming back together after a breakup goddd it is truly slept on fr #and of trying to live with your failings and how weak u can be and coming to terms with that is ok #and how others can lead u astray and cause u misery with only good intentions and love for u!!!!!! and !!!!!! throwing up #for so many different reasons i will fight anyone on this #persuasion #book tag

[mostlykind]

mmmm what better way to end a saturday night than a crying sesh <3

#I watched four eps of one day on Netflix #and I didn’t even care about the characters themselves #I just felt a sudden wave of utter misery at the different life I’ve lead #to other people #in terms of uni experiences and love and relationships #and this is gonna sound so dumb but I’ve had low-key had crushes on guys like dex ALLLL the time #and they never like me back #and I’m just sick of fiction feeding me lies looool #like I get its fiction I GETTTTT IT #I just want it to be me for once 😔 #literally why won’t anyone pick me #(said in a non pick me girl manner lol) #this is silly I’ll probs be over it by the morning #rahma’s rambles

[uniquezombiedestiny]

I know I'll have regrets for being too rash on myself. So please, just give me a hug and leave...

#link leads to if there was an endpoint by tuyu #im getting on the bus to the other world. see ya! ^w^ #<- reference to the song before this one #bella #fc!bella #lc ocs #art #oc lyrics #drew this right after the red shoes!corrosion rp ended.... #the MISERYYYYYYYY #in a lifetime of wanting to disappear i longed for love #in a lifetime of wanting to disappear i longed for warmth.... #<- c127 and then friendcorp.... me when the scorched girl and the snow queen #me when i know im gonna regret this but theres no other ending i can take #me when my heart cant accept a truly good ending #because ill taint it #the fucking misery. god. walks into the ocean

[owlf45]

Second is soooooo hot, what is he currently during in chapter 16? HAS THIRD REUNITED WITH HIS BROTHER????

he's bleeding out since he got impaled last chapter, and he's entering his fourth stage of internal crises. very Hot Man Things, as you can see

of course Third and Riot will reunite. I am very excited to write for it. if i can just. fucking. get to that point

#imaginary #my asks #im super duper struggling with the beginning of this chapter yall #why can i write the end of it but not everything that leads up to it fneiwofnweiofnweio #pain and misery. pain and misery. pain and and and

[concordewillfly]

also last night as i was sobbing on and off about my relationship with my mother and the general idea of me being doomed i thought that i could print out flyers asking people to form a skramz band. and they would go like hi i dont know how to sing but i can scream and i have a lot to say can we do this? like i genuinely thought it could work

#we have so many skramz bands in italy but none of them are female lead i think we could make it work. only i live in bumfuck nowhere and #i wouldnt know where to put them up but its an idea. cause its either that or the misery so!! #t

[babybrotherism]

"That woman and kid, I went to them because you asked me to!" deranged

#the way he says 'you couldn't have just put me out of my misery?' in that scene... #but sure dean would've totally been able to lead a happy life if sam died #samdean #a.txt

[yeonban]

Remembered Soma was turned into a member of the Obsidian Eight

#muse: date soma. #At this point PLEASE just kiII him. Save him from his misery #This is one of the best chs yet but it's also SUUUCH a big fuck you to Soma </3 nothing worse could've possibly happened to him #(Leading Ohtaka off to the side) Ok so hear me out. We either kiII him right now. Or we find a way to not have him go batshit insane. #The only situation I can think of rn in which I'd accept Soma living w that black heart is if he doesn't become tainted by it #simply bc in that case he'd be able to watch over and lead the Date for /centuries/ and that's exactly what he AND they deserve #but if he turns insane like Mikito and Imari did (high chance)... I'll need Ohtaka to kiII him in battle or by destroying the black kishin #I DO like that I now have the artistic freedom (lol) of giving Soma a verse where he doesn't die & instead leads the Date forever tho <3 #Granted that it'd be so lonely to see his childhood friends die one after the other; and then outlive every one of his vassals #Seiroku would really be the only constant in his life in that case 😭

[maternalcube]

how come da2 is my favorite but me2 is not my favorite

#theyre both kind of sidequesty? #idk i guess da2 is more of a bridge #i also like that no matter how well you play it still ends in misery lol #me2 feels so much more disconnected from the rest of that series #continuity in (some) characters ofc but not so much in plot #da2 only has the hints in the frame that this is building to something but theyre there #a small intense personal story that leads to a cataclysm... #while me2 is 'lets defeat an enemy you havent heard of and wont see again' #and so little of it really had anything to do with the overall plot #pointless post #hot takes in the notes here lmao

[docholligay]

Ultimately, I don't do things because I believe I can change the world, I do things because I refuse to let the world change me.

We talk a lot about the "you are not obligated to finish the work" which I love but remember it starts with a command to not be daunted by the enormity of the world's grief.

Whether this world is done for, or not, *I* am not done for. I fail my best self. But I do not excuse my worst self. And I always want to have the faith in Doc, in the strength of her character, that she can be and do better, every day.

It's about climbing a ladder. It's about walking a path. It's about living as people we can feel pride for instead of excuse. It's hard! But the point of life isn't ease.

Love is an act, and I love this world.

#I'm not perfect #i would not even call myself a good person #but I am proud to be a person who I know tries #and tries when it inconveniences her #and costs her #i do not love reading every chocolate bar #but I like it more than contributing to a child's misery for a luxury item #for example #just a small choice #that leads to bigger ones never calling it good enough #that makes me proud #that I'm never satisfied #because i see more goodness that can be gathered

[mmelolabelle]

Viserys rejecting Alicent’s attempts to resurrect the ‘dutiful wife’ act to walk back the whole ‘pulled a knife on his daughter in public’ thing, “I see you for what you really are! Which is UUUG-LAY!”

#who woulda thunk that impulsively choosing to marry a 15 yr old soon after the tragic bloody death of your first wife #would lead to misery #shocking #viserys targaryen #viserys i targaryen #alicent hightower #hotd #hotd spoilers #house of the dragon spoilers #house of the dragon

[wizardcleric]

“will turns to a window full of emptiness that goes on forever” oh so you mean to tell me that’s what will sees his life as without mike in it? that’s how will sees a life where he doesn’t get to love mike the way he wants, and mike doesn’t love him the way he wants? oh okay I am okay.

#that is what ‘ripping off the band-aid’ lead him to okay… a life full of misery that never ends okay… #stranger things #stranger things 4 #byler #byler script #papa script #will byers #mike wheeler #my post #place holder