#and the way cas changed dean

[t00muchheart]

Dean Winchester went to hell and spent thirty years on the rack before agreeing to torture other souls for his freedom. Dean Winchester spent ten years putting souls on the rack and torturing them, Alistair’s lessons supplementing the skills his father taught him, twisting the lessons that taught him to save people and hunt things. Dean Winchester liked it because, after thirty years, he wasn’t being tortured himself, and because he was good at it. Dean Winchester was raised from Hell and could accept what had been done to him but not what he had done, not able to accept that they were in some ways the same.

Dean Winchester was gripped tight and raised from perdition and of course he didn’t believe he deserved to be saved—how could he be, after all he’d done? And in the end, he was right, in part: heaven only wanted to use him as a weapon, a tool—just like hell had. Except that there was one angel who didn’t, one angel who saw his soul and had questions, had doubts. One angel who chose to fall and embrace humanity and free will, to learn to love. To prove to Dean Winchester that he was worthy of being saved, no matter how low he’d fallen.

#ahhhh #i cannot be normal about them #dean studies #cas studies #castiel #the way dean changed cas #and the way cas changed dean #dean winchester character study #dean winchester #spn #supernatural #spn meta #cas #destiel #deancas #casdean

[bloodydeanwinchester]

DESTIEL IN EVERY EPISODE → 5x10 abandon all hope...

i love it when dean give the angel a silly little nickname.

#also the way that cas is already starting to change the way he uses language to talk more like dean 😵‍💫 #it's going down is not a thing that s4 cas would have said #destieleveryepisode #spn 5x10 #destieledit #spnedit #cowboycoven #spn #destiel #dean winchester #castiel #altarofrowena

[denimshortsdean]

Cas really read dean to filth within an inch of his LIFE three (3) minutes after meeting him (What's the matter? You don't think you deserve to be saved?), threatened him the very next time he saw him (You should show me some respect. I'm the one who dragged you out of hell. I can throw you back in.), then the time after that overshared about being a good little soldier (Can I tell you something if you promise not to tell another soul? I'm not a... hammer, as you say. I have questions. I have doubts)

absolutely insane writing from the destiel show

#look i don't even know where i was going with this post #im just.... the timing of it all #like literally their first three interactions #in this exact order #im just fully insane about s4 and the way cas changes almost instantly after meeting dean in person #destiel #don't ask me to make sense of this post please it's almost midnight and i got like 4 hours of sleep last night #and lord im about to do it again #spn #it's ya boi rach

[quietwingsinthesky]

it ever hit you out of nowhere that castiel is living in a dead guy's body and the show just does not care. it does not care. jimmy novak might as well not exist the moment he or claire is out of sight. cas stole a guy's body and his face and his life, and we can't ever talk about it or discuss it in detail because of how fucking horrifying it is that sam and dean's best friend just walks around in a dead guy suit. there's not even a human soul in there anymore. it's just a corpse. stone-cold body snatcher indeed.

#castiel spn #spn #this is not like a Castiel Crime (tm) to be clear. this is more me being (un)surprised that the show is Like This. #castiel is a horror story he is so much a horror story in the rapture #and then they just uh. never bring up again how horrifying and fucked up this is for another like 7 seasons #and when they do its to briefly go :( claire lost her dad :) but its okay! she forgives cas for it! #which!! NO SHE SHOULD FUCKING NOT!!! #but we can't have that discussion. we can't talk about that. because to acknowledge that it's fucked up would mean making cas kind of. evil #in a way that would vastly improve his later character arcs btw. if we had to reckon with not only this massive transgression #but with the fact that cas himself STILL DOESN'T SEE IT AS ONE. #that on a lot of fundamental levels. he is still functioning as he did in s4. a lot of that base programming is still there. #something something how cas never changes out of his suit under his trenchcoat #but it's like. jimmy said yes. so it's fine. that's what it is to him. #anyway. i wish they hadn't been scared of making all three of the boys more fucked up in later seasons. #thank GOD for dean being interesting in how he becomes Worse <3 because they were not bringing that for castiel. #again. good version of spn where jimmy's bloodline is an off-shoot of the lucifer vessel bloodline. explaining a) how lucifer Got In There #and b) letting lucifer possess claire later so that the two of them can have daddy issues together. #something about cas being the monster-not monster that jimmy let in that destroyed his life. #something about lucifer being the monster-not monster that castiel lets in later. the cycles. they are cycling.

[angelinthefire]

Thinking of a version of 13x04 The Big Empty where Mia the shapeshifter therapist offers to appear to Dean as someone he lost, and he looks like he's going to turn her down, but then he hesitates, and gives her this long evaluating look. And then the scene cuts, and you think Mia is going to appear as Mary, because that's who they were talking about before. You see Dean's reaction, and it's this blank kind of shock, because he was expecting to see what he sees, but he didn't realize how it would hit him. And you hear "Hello Dean". And it's Cas. And he doesn't look right, Mia doesn't have his mannerisms, and she doesn't have the outfit, just a plain white button-down and dark slacks, but she looks enough like him. Dean's about to say something, but he can't. He just swallows and grits his jaw and stares. And Mia/Cas says something like "I'm sorry I left you, I know it's hard. But I love you; and that love will stay with you." And you the viewer don't think too too much of the word "love", because Cas has used it before, love like family, love like friends. But anyways, Dean hears that and he frowns, like he's trying to internalize it, he's trying to get some closure out of this, but he can't. He shuts his eyes, with furrowed brows, and he's regretting that he agreed to this at all. And then Mia/Cas moves closer to Dean. She puts her hand on his cheek, and Dean sucks in a breath but he keeps his eyes closed. And then she leans in and kisses him so, so softly. Because she thinks they were like that. And at first Dean trembles at the kiss, but he keeps his eyes closed and lets it happen. Only after a few seconds does he jerk back, wide-eyed, looking terrified. And of course Mia/Cas is immediately worried and sorry that she made a mistake, and she says "Dean--" and is about to apologize. But Dean just turns around and storms out. Dean rushes away from the house, breathing hard like he'd just lost a fight. He gets in the car and slams the door. And his expression collapses, hes looks shattered, and he gasps, shaken and hurting, and tears run down his face.

And that's it. No further discussion or explanation of what happened. No comment from Dean. And then 13x05 Advanced Thanatology happens as normal.

#spn #destiel #dean winchester #not actually fanfic #Maybe nothing changes in tombstone either #heck. maybe nothing changes on the rest of the show ever #but actually that's how I would have set up destiel going canon in s13 with little if any further discussion #like I think the way I'd do it is that 13x06 would actually happen as normal. maybe with Dean even more hyped up #it would be a couple more episodes before I'd have Dean tell Cas that he loves him #probably in the midst of a fight or something #or maybe when Cas is saying that there must be a reason why he was brought back #something like that #idk what happens next i'm falling asleep as i type

[found--family]

they couldn't let cesar and jesse return bc they would've taken one look at dean and cas interacting and known they had it bad for each other

#and sam is just like. oblivious. bc i think that's funnier 😂 #meanwhile dean and cas are pining away for each other like the beautiful dumbasses they are.. #cesar says to cas all easy and patient and knowing: so how long have you been in love with dean? #and cas is surprised and scared and tries to deny it but overcompensates by saying he loves all of humanity #meanwhile jesse is talking to dean like: what do you mean you're not in love with him dude i have eyes. dean: ??!! #cas @ cesar: i love dean bc i love humanity i love them for all their faults and quirks and beauty.. *thinking about freckles + bowlegs* #dean @ jesse: you don't know what you're talkin bout man! jesse: oh so now you're going to get angry and defensive like that isn't #overcompensating and an obvious tell that i speak the truth. dean: yo-.. shutup!! #cas @ cesar: .. humanity really is quite remarkable and so worthy of love when you think about it. and affection. and praise.. #dean @ jesse: --swayze always gets a pass!! jesse: oh so he's on your celebrity exception list? dean: yeh man of course he is. #jesse: mhm. even though he's a guy? dean: ... who HASN'T had gay thoughts!?! #cas @ cesar: humanity should really eat more vegetables and drink less alcohol and sleep more. but this life can be difficult #and habits are hard to change and i will be there to help in any way i can like making coffee just the way humanity secretly likes it.. #dean: *frazzled and exhausted as jesse hands him a beer* --i prefer the classics: Say Anything. When Harry Met Sally. Princess Bride.. #jesse: *nodding along as they chat about chick fliks* cas @ cesar: i help with humanity's laundry. i once found a pair of jeans #in humanity's room with the legs torn off. i thought something awful had happened during a hunt but humanity wouldn't be able to #regrow his legs without my angelic assistance.. unless humanity met another angel.. *white knuckles the chair in possessive jealousy* #dean: *getting teary as he talks about dory's story* sam: *walking in on cas cracking the chair + dean sobbing into his beer #but taking no notice bc his eyes are on the ipad in his hands* so get this-- #destiel #crack #thoughts #😂😂😂😂😂

[shallowseeker]

We needed more Mark!Cas. That's all I'm saying. It's important.

(Dean images from LLA)

DEAN arm / CAS arm

For the very, very academic and intellectually-stimulating reason of needing to see Cas's forearm more often.

#dean/cas + marks #mark of cain #mark of chuck #god marks #dean/cas + curses #the energy of the forearm #The body feels inept to perform some predominantly masculine task related to work or a job #Problems in the energy of the fight forearm reflect undervaluation or inflexibility #due to the presence of a third party or the person’s obsessive beliefs #also wft happened to the first blade #i can't remember #does it even matter #does cas's blade become the first blade since this is chuck's mark and cas is the first bearer of it? #would be cool if cas's blade darkened or changed in some way

[ariose-ghoul]

u know it's time 4 bed when the dots are connecting but they absolutely do not connect like that

#jason/clive and dean/cas are the same ok trust me trust me #jason and dean. funnymen who are actually hells to the depressed. died. undied. ''the very touch of you corrupts''. #FUCK gods im doing this my way. #clive and cas. very devoted (this changes for cas? idk im only @ s5) to their respective deities. #the 'Tism #it's all coming together guys #i'm onto something here. i'm onto something. #let him (me) cook #*pouding at the walls of my enclosure* g u y s

[bisaster-energy]

ik canonically cas' only interaction with a cat was an interrogation but i literally don't care everyone can benefit from a cat. he cared about the whole world because of dean he can care about a cat somewhere in there let me have my tfw cat au. go in peace

#my proof that he can learn to like a cat? re: you changed me dean #he can change he has the range alright open ur mind to the possibilities #tfw gets a cat and everyone thinks cas and the cat just ignore each other little do they know the conversations going on #they dont have a pet owner relationship i feel like cas doesnt really get the whole ''pet'' thing they're just buddies or wtv #whenever cas does talk to the cat out loud he talks to it the same way he talks to everybody else he doesn't really see the distinction #my reasoning ? it's how i talk to cats #just know that when im like ''cas has a cat'' i dont mean ''oh soft uwu baby has a wittle kitty awww'' no #i mean he has discussions with a fellow beast on their mutual assimilation into a human family and #what they lost and gained by accepting said assimilation #ignore this im just thinking about my fic and cas would have conversations with that cat ok..

[iwantyoursexmp3]

you really just can't go back after you got queerbaited by destiel throughout the 2010s. that changes you permanently

#im in a posting mood tonight :3 #i started my spn rewatch like omg i hateee destiel its so annoying what they did w castiel's character #then its like ohhhh dean prayed to cas all night :( #i was like ouhhh i need to make beau's contemporary playlist then was like #ouhhh beau would probably like the music i liked when i was 12 #now i am using tumblr the same way i did when i was 12 #fun fact right as i got into spn i changed the cover on my facebook #to this edit of dean crying #the scene in s4 when he's describing being tortured in hell for the fellow supernatural scholars #and i captioned it like I LOVE WHEN DEAN CRIES $*£(%*“%”%?????? SOBBING #i was twelve!

[what-do-1000-swords-look-like]

*logs in and sees even more anti-destiel posts*

Must be a day ending in Y.

Here's the thing: ship what you want, don't ship, whatever. That's your right. You also can have opinions on said ships or not shipping something. But for the love of God, can we please stop misrepresenting supposed facts and outright lying? Just because you don't want to acknowledge something present in the show? Or because one of you is super obsessed with Jensen while at the same time hating him because he married someone else and didn't come to sweep you off of your feet because you're his supposed soulmate? (which btw, while very weird in general, what does that even have to do with destiel? why are you even weighing in when it's clear that you're only saying what YOU believe while trying to speak for him as if you two are a single unit? It's creepy and makes no sense. Keep your obsession in check, please)

Alright, let's get started:

1) Jensen's actual words:

Firstly, if you're going to quote someone and state their opinion on the matter as FACT, let's not only get the source right but also list it so people can see what the person had to say for themselves so they can not only get the actual facts but come to their own conclusions (critical thinking, remember?). It's literally a link you can put into the post from YouTube, it's not rocket science last I checked.

29:35 is where it starts

A woman asks when did Jensen know about Cas' "romantic, deep love" for Dean before 15x18. Meaning when he did know bts as an actor.

Jensen's answer: "I don't think Dean ever really knew until the very end there." -- not only does he not answer the question in its original form (and hey, it's a con, it's loud, tons of people there waiting for his answer, he probably wasn't prepared for this question, etc - so I get it, I'm not criticizing him, I'm just stating facts), he responds initially for Dean, not himself.

But in this initial answer, he even acknowledges what the woman just said. "Romantic, deep love" -> "I don't think Dean ever really knew until the very end there." LITERALLY RIGHT THERE - Dean didn't know it until it was said

No matter what comes after this from him, Jared, or even what Jensen has said at cons afterwards, his answer literally confirms what she just said, and that answer is what popped first into his mind.

Then, prepare to have your mind blown antis, he confirms it AGAIN: "In fact, I know he didn't, because I didn't play that." -> he played Dean as not knowing about Cas' "romantic, deep love"

Only then does he start to delve into talking about the term romantic with Jared interrupting. But he confirmed it TWICE with his own words. That doesn't nullify his opinion or his perspective on the relationship, but it does confirm that was the intention of the scene.

And again, the question was about when they knew bts about Cas' "romantic, deep love" for Dean, not what Dean felt, not what type of love Jensen considers it to be (or Jared), not whether romance was meant to be in the show or not. Through his own words, he confirms it. Twice. (watch it again)

2) Types of love:

I can't believe this is even a point some people have tried to make in attempting to invalidate the scene from 15x18 but it's 2023 and here we are.

Philia love is platonic/friendly love. (click on the links - since it was mentioned that Cas only has angelic/heavenly/brotherly love for Dean and Castiel's angel character is loosely based on Christian traditions, I chose the same Christian perspective in these links) Storge love is the love of family or brotherly love.

Agape love is NOT brotherly love. (if you're going to use these terms and claim you're an expert, perhaps learn what they mean first?) Agape love is a God-like love of humans, completely unfathomable.

All of this is easily searchable. Google is your friend.

Now agape is the closest to what Jensen says later in that panel (though it changes to philia mixed with storge in a later con) though he did not use that specific term. However:

The scene was written and performed with romantic intentions from Castiel's side. This is confirmed time and time again.

And since a lot of anti-Destielers tend to be anti Misha as well (and accuse him of placating, lying, and being downright manipulative when it comes to this topic), here are some other confirmations:

The script is available online (again, Google is your friend) and you can read it for yourself. Robert Berens, the screenwriter, wrote the script (and it was greenlit by Andrew Dabb, the showrunner, and kept in the episode with the network, Singer, and WB giving it the green light after reviewing it before it aired) with Castiel's confessing his romantic love for Dean. It's right there.

If it's not romantic, then why can't Dean "recriprocate"? Why is he shocked at the "declaration from his best friend"? Why is it Cas' "hidden truth"? If it's just platonic from Cas' side or familial or even a God-like love of a human then why all of these factors mentioned in the script to help guide Jensen and Misha in performing the scene? You know why. And one of these antis is the supposed acting expert in the fandom? Puhlease.

How's that for "script analysis"?

Not to mention, since it's clear these same antis don't know a thing about writing and how it actually works, why was this scene a part of Castiel's arc that connects back to his arc in season 15?

3:49 - "I know who you love"

Yep, they weren't planning the confession back then, but when the showrunner and the writing team did start planning the end of the character's journey going into season 15, this ties up Castiel's arc neatly and it's perfect foreshadowing. Right down to The Empty's involvement. And they tied it up this way why? To make sense with events that came before it so a visible narrative is present for this character's journey as well as showing his development. (that's literally writing 101 btw)

There's a shit ton more I could throw into this post but I think I've made my point. So the next time antis decide to sit there and scold people who ship/celebrate Destiel and tell them that they don't understand "script analysis" like you do or how dare they twist Castiel's love for Dean into something it's not because you're playing megaphone-turned-into-a-wannabe-parrot for Jensen (aka your point of unhealthy fixation) because Castiel only meant it as an angel, perhaps don't. Or at least look up the facts first before you spout off any of that nonsense. You've had no problem saying Jensen needs to take an acting lesson or two because he's basic and dilutes his characters while also having one note acting, so maybe you should take a writing lesson or two. 🤷‍♂️ Seems fair.

Think whatever you want about Dean and how he regards Castiel's romantic confession, or how Jensen sees it, or whatever you need to tell yourself since it was left ambiguous, but don't you dare sit there and tell people they're wrong for reading Castiel's love the way it was written, performed, and intended to be perceived -> romantic. Or imply that they lack a basic understanding of love, condescend to them to have to explain it to them as if they're idiots, and falsely accuse them of maliciously twisting your fantasy beloved's Jensen's words. Especially when it's very easily proven that the only ones in the wrong here are you, and this is very clearly a "you" issue.

It happened.

It was romantic.

Get over it.

#you've got some nerve scolding people #script analysis my ass #what a way to insult not only fans but also everyone who worked on that show INCLUDING JENSEN #destiel #deancas #dean x cas #spnposts #spn #destielposts #they always tell destiel shippers to get over it and the show's not changing when it comes to dean #same goes for them when it comes to cas #cas loves dean #antis need to gtfo it already #anti antis #writers and actors seriously do not get enough credit #it was true even before the strikes #imagine being so caught up in your fantasy of Jensen that you willfully act like a bullying asshole to fans on his behalf #over something that's been done for 3 years #couldn't be me #anti hologramcowboy

[t00muchheart]

Okay but “when Castiel first laid a hand on you in hell, he was lost” goes so hard, especially when paired with Samandriel saying that too much heart was Castiel’s problem ??

Like, it wasn’t that Castiel laid a hand on Dean Winchester and couldn’t look away, it was that he didn’t want to. Through all of season four, he’s getting to know the Winchesters, and his beliefs and actions are being challenged by their interactions, and particularly his interactions with Dean. His relationship with Dean leads him to rebel against what he’s known and choose the possibility of something better, even though it’s harder. And in a way, that was inevitable: he had too much heart not to make the choice, once it had been presented to him—once he met Dean Winchester.

And then, of course, he takes that free will and runs with it, believing that he can make things better, and it goes terribly. He betrays his friends, he inadvertently lets Leviathans loose on the world, he stands in a field of bodies and burnt wings. And he doesn’t know how to deal with it, after, how to forgive himself or how to even begin to truly ask forgiveness from others, because he feels the weight of his actions. He knows what he’s done, feels the horror of it with the same heart that drove him to it in the first place.

And then Dean Winchester begins to forgive him, even though he hasn’t made up for what he’s done. And then they’re in Purgatory, and Dean refuses to even consider give up on him, even when he feels he can’t go back because he needs to atone. And I think, in part, that Dean can see past the horrible things he’s done to the fact that they were a result of Castiel’s goodness and love being twisted, and while that doesn’t make them okay, it makes them understandable to Dean.

#castiel #dean winchester #spn #spn meta #supernatural #deancas #cas #casdean #destiel meta #tbh this can be destiel or not destiel #just #the way dean changed cas #and the way cas changed dean

[caspock]

the horror story reading of jack in the box is so fucking compelling and disturbing i am gonna think about it forever

#they are literally evil distorted puppets carrying out the consequences of a decade of being contorted and flattened on their child #dean's inability to change becoming literal evil unrepetant filicide #sam's flattened inability to react to the plot becoming complicity to the filicide #cas trying to do good and ensuring everyone's defeat by calling chuck. also killing dumah without blinking #and JACK as the manifestation of the narrative's complete unsustainability #thinking about jack in absense and how he literally learned so well from the winchesters and the only reason they try to kill him is bc #he FAILED to try to bring mary back IN THE RIGHT WAY #god okay sorry for spending time thinking deeply about literally season four teen of the cw's supernatural #caspock.txt

[howldean]

not funny! noah reminds me of my ex. hating him isn’t enough i have to burn him at the stake

#LISTEN HERE YOU BITCHASS MANIPULATOR. FUCK. YOU #wait oh my god are they parent trapping dean and cas but without the children!! #rwylm #bee says things #AND LIKE ACTUALLY. the way that he makes dean dependent on him and violates his boundaries and ignores/gaslights/manipulates any defenses #dean has????? FUCKED. like yeah ok realistically dean must’ve kinda sucked there for a while but that doesn’t mean he just gets to subject h #im to social isolation and supposedly be the only one he could depend on then LEAVE you can’t have it both ways man. and yes yes dean’s #whole life is a lie. but noah’s the normal one and he’s the asshole here because he has a significantly greater capacity for immediate #change and self reflection because well. he wasnt a godkilling hunter his entire life #i have. so many thoughts and i’m so pissed

[quietwingsinthesky]

like. okay. i have no real horse in the race of “which brother is the secret bad abuser” because the show does not actually care about that or think that either of them is actually treating each other that badly (except for when sam get manipulated, which is always his own fault and he should suffer for it /s)

but what i will say is that the way dean is written sometimes manages to make me more uncomfortable than any of the villains on this show. dean scares me. completely unintentionally, they did write a guy who only gets Worse over time, and it’s compelling, and it’s upsetting for me to watch.

#I don’t really mean this as a criticism because To Me it is just like. a part of the show. #it’s a feature. perhaps a Bethesda’s bug of a feature but. it’s a feature. #dean’s change in character feels natural. watching him get worse feels like the logical conclusion of where he’s going. #(the logical conclusion could also have been ‘dean makes an effort to not be so controlling’ but they didn’t do that. they leaned into it.) #so it isn’t much like. say. Lucifer. Lucifer is a character who just flips. motivations and character completely changed. #so disregarding his later appearances just? makes sense? to me anyway. that’s Not My Wife #but Dean’s character degradation is completely different in that it builds on what’s already there. #and whenever I write him I feel the need to. idk. grapple with that. with that potential to become Worse. #he is controlling! he doesn’t ever really trust sam that much post-s5! he does treat Cas his best friend like he doesn’t matter unless #he’s acting more human! these are just facts about him that show up long before the later seasons and idk! Dean is! he’s a lot! #he and Lucifer have a lot alike in the way that they’re driven mostly by love. and that love can easily go rotten. and it’s terrifying. #spn #dean winchester #sry watching s6 makes me think about. things. #actually no. not sorry. I’m going to get worse about this if I keep watching so stay tuned.

[lesbiansaaviik]

Can I be beautifully honest with you guys? I hate 91 Whiskey and So Says the Sword

#no hate to the author cause I actually liked a one shot of theirs #but like man these fucking suck #so so boring and pointlessly long #in SSTS nothing happens and it’s boring because it’s all ridiculous purple prose that tells and doesn’t show #you can set it up with Cas being emotionless as an angel and then gains emotions when he falls in love #but he has to actually gain those emotions and you can’t just tell me what a beautiful and masterful love story you’re writing #you have to actually write it #in 91W it’s all troop movements and militaristic bullshit that I don’t care about because I know Dean and Cas will be fine #and they haven’t shown me enough about literally any other character to make me give a fuck if they live or die #great. Inias will get killed off. maybe I would care more if it weren’t so predictable and also if Cas weren’t just an asshole to him #for no reason #which brings me to my second point of jesus fucking christ 91W is so OOC #crazy take I know but Cas is not randomly an asshole! maybe he is at first but then he changes because he’s in love with Dean and he’s never #like. snappy and grouchy this is So OOC and it makes it painful to read because why should I care about someone who’s mean and cruel #all the time #I’m not saying Cas is an angel (pun half intended) all the time but I don’t think he’s cruel #and moreover I think they’ve just got Cas and Dean flipped. Dean would be perfect for the grouchy military commander in the late seasons #kind of way where he’s an ass to everyone due to grief #and Cas would make a great medic; caring about humanity to his detriment #this way around it’s just painful to watch Cas piss off Dean who is somehow more emotionally literate??? in what world #it’s just fucking boring and painful and Cas is not the one with internalised homophobia let’s be real #I would love to see 1940s era repressed queer Dean but no; I’m stuck with asshole Cas freaking out over being a fairy #and taking it out on Dean! #do you seriously think that corresponds to canon Cas’ reasons for repressing his feelings for Dean? answer quickly #anyway. rant over I will continue hate reading it so I can see if it gets good #but at this point the smut isn’t even good enough to justify it so. idk why I’m wasting my time #anne speaks #please someone say they agree with me or otherwise I’ll feel like I’m going insane #the whole fandom loves SSTS especially and I’m here like. well that sucked