#and this is my passive aggressive way of asking if someone is organizing it

[dadsbongos]

hii can i ask pavel bf hcs pretty pleasee i am soo in love with him….

kinda just general fluffy ideas that ignore the various plot implications of pav actually having a significant other

you two will not organically meet, pav sees you and thinks you’re perrrdy and then amasses schemes and flowcharts and data on how he can best introduce himself to you so you’ll like him

in his head, as you’re first meeting, is basically computer code for him to find the most charismatic version of himself to make you swoon

Pavel “if smile and nod = true then kiss” Yudin

but to him its justified because he reasons his feelings are honest

he is kind of a menace tho, he ACTS very polite opening doors buying flowers, even paying your tabs

his words though… oh god he’s terrible

pav is kinda THE “i only like my partner” trope guy cuz he genuinely cannot stand talking to people that irritate him, and most people that aren’t you irritate him

openly passive-aggressive to people that interrupt his time with you

he’s also prone to just saying bizarrely horny shit out of nowhere, you’ll be on a nice date :3 a cute dinner :3 and he goes

“I like this wine, it makes me want to suck your cleavage.”

“Your hands are cold, should i warm them with my testicles?”

i also have a personal hc that he HATES unfamiliar men unless they’re visibly timid/scrawnier than him 

so he SEEMS like the jealous type at first, but his absolute disdain over you hanging around other men actually has nothing to do with jealousy he just hates mfs

speaking of: pav isn’t very jealous at his core, he figures anybody who wants to leave him will so he’s not going to embarrass himself by clinging onto someone who doesn’t want him 

however, he lovesssss jealous partners, that’s one of his toxic traits

pav loves the possessiveness and passion, being shown that he’s important to you is soso vital to him

he doesn’t actually want to be controlled and chained down, but he likes pretending he does and teasing the idea so you’re sometimes forced to play the crazy s/o when you’re… not lol

goes out of his way to say to his lil bunker buddies “oh yeah, might not wanna read this letter, my love is kinda crazy. kinda out there. a little unhinged, even, they can get super intense.”

and then your letter is just like “hi honey hope you’re sleeping well :) love you lots and keep doing your best!!”

he is VERY affectionate also -- whenever he’s home he’s clinging to you constantly

you’re cooking? he’ll be hugging you from behind

you’re reading? he’ll lay on top of you

he has to go back to work? you should come with! he’ll sneak you in :3 the bremen army will never even notice you’re there!

wants to get married so you can hurry up and move in the family housing, but also doesn’t want to get married in case you’re tied to him for his extreme treason

#pavel yudin x reader #pavel x reader #pav yudin x reader #pav x reader #fear and hunger x reader

[bigfatbimbo]

I heard we were talking abt hazbin ocs? *leaves this on the table and runs away*

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OKAY. SO. I got like- really into hazbin through helluva boss, bc I liked that show, and I wanted to check out some of Viv’s other shows ( basic, ik. ) And I made this oc mainly bc I saw a lot of my friends doing the same-

- - - - - Info! ( finally… ) - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

- His “sinner name “ is Mutton, because he took on a sheep / ram like appearance due to him dying by being “ sacrificed “ by a cult he happened to be in during the era when cult killings became more.. published? If that makes sense? ( also sacrificial lamb reference lololol )

- He died during the late 90’s / early 2000’s , with his date of death being around 1998.

- He also died fairly prematurely, but he claims to not remember his exact age. ( mainly bc he’s a little ashamed he didn’t make it further.. ) But he’s around 29 in age.

- He currently works as a secretary for the vees, mainly handling organizations as well as doing basic tasks requested of them. ( This man has been screamed at so many times it’s actually insane)

- His personality is..unusually panicked and squirmy for someone who’s in hell. Honestly, someone please cut this man a break. Believe it or not, he actually got the scar above his eye from his own horns.. he still isn’t quite used to his body.

- He’s also pretty passive aggressive, despite being terrified of nearly everything around him, he has a bit of a short temper and usually just tends to pout about his problems instead of actually doing anything about them. ( Basically he gets annoyed, but just kind of tends to just deal with it bc he’s too scared to do anything. )

( SORRY THIS SUCKS LOL IM STILL WORKING ON MY ARTSTYLE )

( also decided to submit this as an ask bc I didn’t know if you would see the reblog :,)) )

OKAY WAIT TBIS IS SO COOL OMG LET ME UNPACK THIS

so one!! the design is actually so cute omg and for some reason very telling of his personality in a way I can’t explain.

and two, his whole premise is very cool. I like the whole secretory for the Vees thing that’s a really fun concept to run with.

also three,,, since he’s secretary for the Vees there is a very good chance he would run into my oc Eva Jayne a lot! Yknow she has that whole alliance thing with Voxtech and her weird ass thing with Vox so she hands around a lot.

I actually think they would get a long a lot. Like Eva Jayne is a smart ass to everyone around her but also because, being an overlord, literally all of her ‘equals’ in a sense are totally d-bags who need humbling. Like for some reason I get the feeling she would give Mutton special treatment for no particular reason.

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel oc art #hazbin hotel oc

[switchcase]

How would you define RAMCOA in your own words? (Genuine question)

I saw a post where it was something related to RAMCOA definitions being sugarcoated or washed out over the past few years (your post that is).

I mean this in a genuine way, sorry if it comes off passive aggressive

I do not use my own words to describe established terminology with established definitions, I use the established definitions. RAMCOA is short for ritual abuse, mind control, and organized abuse.

I answered an ask with sources about the definition of organized abuse here:

https://www.tumblr.com/switchcase/719573596094218240/having-multiple-abusers-does-not-mean-that-you

And an ask with a source about the definition of ritual abuse here.

https://www.tumblr.com/switchcase/720038733810958336/would-you-be-able-to-explain-a-bit-about-what

Mind control is a form of abuse conducted in an organized group setting (either OA or RA). It involves torturing an individual until they follow commands without thought, in a singular individual resulting in a complete loss of sense of self. In DID, this involves torturing someone until they develop DID and they then control (for the most part) what parts the individual forms through more torture. If this seems unbelievable to you, just think about how many times the police have forced someone to confess by treating them inhumanely for a relatively short amount of time, and that's not even something that fits this definition. It is not that difficult to break people, it just requires not caring about or enjoying the extent of hurt you cause.

I wouldn't say that the definition is getting sugarcoated. I would say that people in the DID community are simply desperate to be taken seriously and to view their abuse/trauma histories as "bad enough" so they feel more secure in their development of a disorder. But instead of working through those emotions and mindset, they make it everybody else's problem by trying to change or bend definitions to fit their own experiences or claim things that frankly make no sense to anyone with experience in those things. Nobody thinks their shit was bad enough, because you normalize it. I used to tell therapists not to react to my abuse because it made me uncomfortable and angry. I have literally stopped seeing therapists because they expressed horror or shock, because I didn't think my history was that bad and assumed they were trying to manipulate me. It is a very common struggle. It doesn't make someone justified in being shitty to other survivors.

#ramcoa #torture m . #anonymous #ask #police brutality .

[lasi-nariyoyoreads]

How idols view Han

Ask: Hi could I request how idols view han jisung from skz 🙏🏾💕

Hi! These type of requests are always interesting, I was actually doing something similar for other idols but I wonder when I'll be able to publish them lol Anyway, in these cases I think it's important to remember that I'll consider what is the general opinion on him, every person will have their subjective view of Han, some will like him, others will dislike him, or they'll appreciate or hate different sides of him, also depending on how close they are to him, that's just how humans work. So take it as something like the average opinion of the people around him.

Disclaimer:

My readings are made for fun and you should read them for fun too. So don't take them seriously.

Cards: rev knight of pentacles, rev 9 of wands, rev 4 of wands, 6 of wands

Some people might see him as impatient and all over the place. They might feel he doesn’t have a proper work ethic, like sometimes he might work too hard and get overworked, other times he doesn’t do enough and loses opportunities. I think they’d want him to be more rational and organized.

Han is someone a bit passive-aggressive? Like he doesn’t seem really determined in the way he interacts with others, but he can be stubborn and resistant if someone criticizes him.

 Also, he’s someone you wouldn’t really trust, in the sense that he’s clumsy or with his head in the clouds. Like they wouldn’t entrust him with a precious object. Or he might be the type who accidentally shares a secret. Maybe he loses stuff pretty often.

They see him as someone who is a bit too pessimistic? People around him see that he’s talented, but he might fail to see it or he feels he isn’t good enough. Or he might get too worried over his work, like thinking their comeback will flop or that he’ll make a mistake or something like that.

Overall they consider him a successful person and I think he’s generally well-loved. Most of the criticism is the type of criticism a friend would talk about, like “don’t be this negative” or “be more responsible”. Nothing that gives me the impression of a strong personal dislike.

#han tarot #han reading #jisung tarot #han jisung tarot #jisung reading #han jisung reading #skz tarot #skz reading #stray kids tarot #stray kids reading #kpop tarot #kpop reading

[arolvcslfshp]

hii!! i’m yemi! i’m an (angled) lovequeer aroace and like the arolovic term; i have a lot of people i appreciate and would like to post about (plus i love organization and forgot sideblogs were a thing— apparently interacts from @schematicsjw), especially since the fandoms are pretty small, there’s barely any platonic f/o stuff, and there are some takes i’m dying to see!!!! i’d love to make some mutual friends!!

this blog will be pretty reblog heavy so that people can enjoy the same posts as others by being able to think about them in platonic/familial contexts!! (if i’m talking about family on something explicitly romantic on accident, let me know so i don’t take away from the wrong conversation! i am not proship, just very verbally and physically affectionate.) there will also be original work, but i’m a mentally and physically disabled full time double major college student, so I don’t have a lot of time to make quality things like I’d like to!

i love asks of any kind (this may change)!! it’s just that if i respond to your ask with vagueness, it’s not discomfort or passive aggression— if i’m hyping you up i’m likely not thinking of it COMPLETELY in the terms of the character as I understand them so I don’t trigger my own OCD by worrying if i’m coming off like i romantically ship myself with my familial f/os (I DO NOT!!!!!)

i don’t mind sharing f/os, especially since mine are mostly if not primarily platonic or familial (and I am really good at cognitive dissonance LMFAOOO), PLUS i’d love to nerd out with anyone familiar with the characters enough to even want to talk about them! i also will add and take off of this as needed!

my familial f/os: Edward Elric, Alphonse Elric, Inuyasha, the Osomatsu-san sextuplets

my platonic f/os: Soul (Soul Eater), BlackStar, Gon, Killua, Leorio, Kurapika, L (Death Note)

my queerplatonic f/o is an oc, so there’s especially no worry there!!

basic dni + dni zionists, proship/comm/dark/neutral ship, zoo/pedo phile etc. all that shit is GROSS asf i do not support you and you are NOT safe here. if i accidentally reblog from or interact with any of these people PLEASE let me know so i can disengage and block!!! i am 18 and this blog will be completely sfw, but i’m uncomfortable with anyone younger than 15 interacting directly with me.

for context with the way i may talk or when having f/o imagines and everything, I will mention that I am Black, mentally ill, physically disabled, and I also have both Autism and ADHD!! i speak on these as someone within those communities!!

#f/o imagines #platonic self ship #sibling f/o #brother f/o #f/o positivity #self ship #selfship community #selfship comfort #self shipping #self shipping community #self shipper #selfshipper

[avionvadion]

Playing Pokémon White because my bestie is the sweetest and spoils me, and N is so passive aggressively evil and delulu, alsjsksklsks. Like, I know he’s been groomed by Ghetsis to believe all pokemon are being abused and that they’re trying to “free” them, but for someone who believes he’s doing good he is saying some of the meanest things, like holy frick.

“Poor Bianca… she’s finally realized that not every trainer can become stronger.” Sir??? What did baby girl ever do to you??? She’s trying her best! 😭 That was so unnecessary of him to say. Man just likes to throw shade.

Anyways.

All I can imagine is Ienzo in a flustered panic as N takes him on the Ferris Wheel ride wondering if this technically counts as a date and getting kind of excited because quite frankly N is very pretty and he may or may not have been crushing on him since they first met, but then N just looks at him, completely serious, and goes, “I must tell you something…”

Ienzo: “Y-Yeah!?”

N:

Ienzo: *oh sweet Arceus this is it we’re on a Ferris Wheel and everything okay stay calm don’t panic remember what Amelia said-*

N: “I’m the king of Team Plasma.”

Ienzo: “…Huh?”

Meanwhile Amelia is just freaking power housing her way through the battle trains like an absolute girl boss because her Ferrothorn is a beast and the only people who’ve beaten her in battle is her mother and father, who are literally known for defeating Champions, being Champion, defeating and disbanding Team Rocket twice, defeating Team Aqua and Magma, saving the world multiple times, and even putting an end to Team Galatic on their honeymoon. She is a force to be feared.

And quite frankly neither Ingo nor Emmet are expecting her team- which has a lot of type weaknesses- to work so well, nonetheless win, against theirs.

They especially aren’t expecting her to ask if they know anything about the Team Plasma group that’s been hanging around and causing trouble lately, as she and her brother are working to put an end to them- just as their parents did to the criminal organizations before them.

Needless to say they meet up later (after their shift ends) and exchange all the information they’ve gathered over time about Team Plasma. And… Xtranceiver numbers. For reasons.

And then Ienzo runs up screeching that the pretty boy they’ve kept encountering is claiming to be the KING of Team Plasma and Amelia is just staring at her older brother like, “Oh, honey, no…”

Ienzo, “WHY CAN’T I HAVE MOM’S TASTE IN MEN!?”

Amelia: “Because you’re our dad’s spitting image?”

Ienzo, on the verge of tears: “I didn’t know he’d be evil!”

Amelia: “…Why don’t we sit down and you tell me exactly what happened, okay??? Also, Ienzo- this is Ingo and Emmet. Ingo, Emmet, this precious bean that must be protected is my brother.”

Emmet, waving: “Hello! I am Emmet.”

Ingo: “My name is Ingo! It is a pleasure to meet you! Miss Amelia has just finished telling us about you and your noble goal to pull the breaks on Team Plasma’s schemes!”

Ienzo: “…Hi. Uh, ‘Lia? You said you were gathering intel. Did you STORM the battle trains for these two???”

Amelia, shrugging: “Elesa said they could help. Plus, she was really pretty and I wasn’t about to not listen to her, so…”

Ienzo: “Fair. Also. Why didn’t you invite me!?”

Amelia: “You were busy getting ready to battle Elesa! Besides, you told me I could go ahead!”

Ienzo: “I didn’t realize you’d be going to the battle subway!”

Meanwhile-

Arceus, watching this all take place: “Hmm, yes. After doth brother of thou’s defeateth his misguidedeth evil new boyfriend and saveth the pokemon, I shall yeeteth you and the frowney train man to the ancient past and send both him and the smiley train man into panic as they searcheth for you. Verily. T’is a good plan. All is well.”

#pokemon #pokemon n #he’s so passive aggressively evil and I love it. but it’s not what I was expecting from what little I knew of him 🤣 #pokemon oc #pokemon white #pokemon n x oc #natural harmonia gropius #I can’t believe that’s his full name #I’d go by N too. Ghestsis did you dirty sir. assuming he was the one who named you #submas #pokemon subway boss #ingo and emmet

[gentil-minou]

genuinely curious, why was there a community effort within the ml fandom to raise funds for Ukraine last year but not for Gaza this time round?

is it due to politics in the US or whatever donations we can give to Gaza will be bombed anyway?

First off, I don't like the tone you used because it sounds not only defeatist but also just plain rude. I'm gonna treat this ask like it was in good faith and answer honestly but next time maybe don't sound so passive aggressive

Idk why there isnt. I'm not in the ML fandom really anymore so i cant tell you. Last time my friends and I got involved and we did it together along with some others. Idk why no has done it but I can't say I'm surprised given the way some of the ml fans and blogs have come after me for my support for Palestine and the things I've said about Israel and Biden. Frankly, I'd rather distance myself from them completely. If someone does show their support and organize I will be glad for it but given how little I've seen even acknowledging whats happening in Gaza from this fandom, I'm not surprised they won't. Disappointed but not surprised.

If you're trying to say something about rude about me specifically, I did donate and shared a bunch for a fundraiser in my current fandom, but that was all before we learned that Israel won't let any aid into Gaza. It's not about "it's all going to get bombed anyway" which again is so fucking rude and cruel to say when there are multiple efforts to help Gazans directly. But Israel's siege means the millions of dollars in aid raised are useless because it's all sitting in trucks at the border as Israel slaughters everyone.

That's why Gazans are asking us to protest and continue talking about this and demanding ceasefire. Instead of waiting for someone with your blorbo to donate, follow Palestinians and advocacy groups that are trying to help so you know what they need.

This isn't something that's gonna happen easily because unlike Ukraine, which had the backing of the US and every other power, we are actively fighting against our governments. Gazans don't need your money. They need you to fight for them

#again im taking this in good faith but stop sending me asks about what the ml fandom is doing #theyre ignoring it cause it doesnt affect them is what theyre doing #theyre ignoring it cause theyre prioritizing themselves #other than a handful of people actually trying to spread awareness i havent seen anything besides a 'politically correct' post reblogged #or the worst was a BN being silent until they came into my inbox on anon to accuse me for my stance and then finally broke their silence #on the matter only to continue enabling genocidal rhetoric #so yeah consider me done with this fandom #asked and answered

[sxugaryx]

Blossoming Conflict (Fanfic)

New chapter from my main series 🩷

“Son, can we talk for a moment?” Geppetto entered his son’s room.

Pinocchio sat down on his bed, expecting to get scolded again, “Father I’m sorry” he still felt embarrassed about what happened yesterday.

“It’s okay, I understand that, but that’s not what I want to talk about with you” Geppetto sat down next to his son. “I know that you have been feeling upset because of the way others talk about you”

Pinocchio looks at Gemini who is sitting on the little couch of his little home, he could tell that his friend told his father about it, but he wasn’t mad, actually, it was better this way because he didn’t know how to bring it up.

Geppetto took a deep breath, there are two main reasons Pinocchio gets called things like that, first is the obvious one, they don’t see his son as an equal or even a being capable of emotions, and second is that they don’t like him so they say things like that to hurt his son. There are also times when it’s both reasons and that’s even worse.

“Don’t take it to heart what others say about you, those people don’t know you and you shouldn’t let those things to heart affect your daily life” He paused, “I’m not going to pretend it’s not hurtful to hear those things because it is but the important thing is not letting that affect you”

“How are you able to not let it affect you?” Pinocchio doesn’t understand how his father, his mother, or his uncle can get insulted and not take it to heart, he knows what others say about his family, those mean things that aren’t true.

“Well because we hear insults like that all the time, eventually you get used to it”

“Isn’t that a bad thing?”

Geppetto hugs his son, he is right, it is a bad thing. It’s cruel that the reason it doesn’t affect them is because they hear rumors, gossip, and passive-aggressive remarks all the time.

“You are right son, but unfortunately that’s just how things are”

Pinocchio wants to shout that it isn’t fair, but he keeps learning that a lot of things in life aren’t fair. It still hurts, he is still upset, so he starts crying. His father does his best to comfort him.

“I can…try” He can at least try to let it bother him.

“Pinocchio it’s not something that you magically get over from day to night, it’s a process and sometimes people take it too far with the things they say, don’t hesitate to talk with me or the others when things like this upset you”

Geppetto kisses his son’s forehead.

“Now get changed because we are going out”

Pinocchio has a smile on his face, “Am I ungrounded?”

“No, we are only going out to eat breakfast because you burned the kitchen”

Oh, right.

—-

It’s going to take some time to repair the kitchen, more than it’s supposed to because like any stubborn old man Geppetto wants to fix it himself instead of paying someone to do it. But for now, it’s nice to go out and eat somewhere and have a good time as a family.

“Geppetto, Pinocchio good to see you here!” That voice, it was Venigni. They sat down together before ordering.

“Where is Pulcinella?” Pinocchio asked, it was odd not seeing them together.

“Oh, he just um, doing so work stuff for me while I went for breakfast that’s all”

“Work stuff that you forgot to do right?” Geppetto recognized that tone.

“Geppetto please don’t expose me like this in front of Pinocchio” Venigni let out a small sigh before laughing.

Then he saw Gemini who was outside of his cage, he was standing on Pinocchio’s shoulder.

“Gemini you can walk now?! Geppetto why didn’t you tell me about this? Oh the many things I can build you my friend”

“It’s just been a day since he has been able to, but Venigni it’s too much to ask”

“No no no, I insist, there is no bother at all”

Gemini is so happy, his eyes glowed even more yellow than usual, he is finally going to get that cool tram he wanted.

They had a good time but it was already time for Geppetto to go to work. He can’t accompany his son since otherwise he is going to be late.

“Son make your way straight home, remember that you are still grounded”

Pinocchio pouted he wanted to see his father’s work, “Please take me with you, I want to see you work!”

“Son you have to stay home, and work isn’t exactly a fun place”

“Please please please”

“Alright, you can come”

—-

Why did he ask to come?! This is so boring!

His father has a smile on his face, he knew that he would be bored to death in here he should have listened when his father said this wasn’t a fun place. He can’t talk with anyone because he can’t distract others, he can’t touch anything and he can’t go and wander on his own. He was stuck in his father’s office for now, making small talk here and there with Gemini, who was standing on top of his head because he wants to feel tall.

The meetings he sometimes sees his uncle Venigni give are fun, everything his father does is so boring.

His father is just taking notes and drawing some blueprints, is this what he does all day?!

“Pinocchio the “fun stuff” of my work isn’t done every day, you have to plan things before you make them”

“Can I-“

“No son, remember, no talking while I’m working”

His father was the one to talk with him first, Pinocchio is so frustrated but he knows this is what he wanted so he can’t complain. At least his father gave him a small notebook and a pen so that he could doodle and not be completely bored.

Someone knocks and Geppetto lets them enter, it’s one of his coworkers, they are talking about work stuff but it’s complicated and Pinocchio doesn’t get it at all. He had no idea being an engineer was so confusing, now Pinocchio has no idea how his uncle Venigni works as an engineer and also regulates all those projects he has scattered in the city.

When that coworker stops talking he looks at Pinocchio and he feels uncomfortable.

“Mmm, Geppetto how did you build that thing?”

Pinocchio knows that he needs to not take-

“That cricket is so small, it must have been a nightmare to build, and I can tell by the glowing and its antennas that it can detect dimensional butterflies, that’s incredible”

Pinocchio took a sigh of relief… wait.

“Gemini is not a thing he is my friend”

“Aw thanks buddy” Gemini chirped, he loved how that boy stuck up for him. The two of them always have each other’s backs.

The coworker started to apologize, “I’m sorry I guess I just got too wrapped in my own head, it’s just, I’m impressed, to say the least”

“Thank you,” Geppetto said and his coworker left the room.

Geppetto knows his skills so he just thanks others when he is complimented, sometimes, like in this case, it feels a bit awkward due to the circumstances. When it came to building Gemini it was quite a hard task, he won’t reveal how he did it, like a magician he doesn’t reveal how he does his tricks.

He never answers any questions that have to do with the making of his son, no matter how much others insist on it. Although he can understand why they are intrigued, Pinocchio is special, even when he was fully a puppet he was like no puppet ever created, he is made out of incredibly resistant materials; he can sustain damage from fire, electricity, and other things that would make any puppet be destroyed so fast and, his movements too swift, too coordinated, unlike the mechanical motions of every other puppet that currently exists… Romeo also had movements like Pinocchio, Carlo wanted to be a stalker, so he made it so Romeo would be a skillful fighter, to fight alongside his son and looks wise, Romeo also looked just like a human.

But Geppetto straight-up ignores the questions by now, and many have learned not to ask him. Still, he knows how to make people shut up about it and fast, there was that time a coworker asked if his son has… anatomically correct parts.

“WHY THE HELL DO YOU WANT TO KNOW THAT YOU PERVERT?!” As soon as he shouted that, it was all apologies and backtracking, he was so satisfied to have come up with that on the spot.

Pinocchio keeps doodling things to pass the time.

“Gemini stop pulling my hair!”

“I like pretending that I can control you”

Geppetto shushed both of them and they became quiet. This was going to be a long day.

—-

It was finally break time, at least Pinocchio got to talk with Venigni and Pulcinella since he was now here with them. Pulcinella is many things, he is Venigni’s butler but in a way also like his secretary, he actually gets along pretty well with the other secretaries, the girls have adopted him as one of their own, they give him all the juicy gossip that happens around the office and he politely nods and follows along with the conversation. They even painted his nails once, well, the equivalent of his nails but still, it looked pretty.

“Why is work so boring?” Pinocchio was making conversation with Pulcinella.

“When you work on something you love, it’s not boring that that person” Most of the time that is, no matter how much you love your work some things about it are bound to be boring or annoying, but he is trying to give Pinocchio words of advice.

“Do you like your work Pulcinella?” Pinocchio asked him.

“Of course I do” The fact that it makes Master Venigni happy is a bonus, a great bonus mind you but Pulcinella does enjoy all the work he does.

Pinocchio smiled, he hoped that whatever he ended up working as he liked it, but for now he still had so much to learn.

When Conrad stepped inside the break room, Geppetto instinctively grabbed his son and pulled him towards him, Pinocchio could tell that his father was being overprotective of him and he stayed behind him.

At first, it looked like the man was finally going to mind his business but then he got closer to them.

Geppetto and Venigni were ready for a passive-aggressive confrontation when suddenly…

“Omg Geppetto is that your son?” One of the younger secretaries said, “He is so adorable” She made her way towards them and grabbed his cheeks.

“Look at him! He is so cute!”

Pinocchio took a few steps back, he liked being complimented but the way she did it made him feel embarrassed.

“Um thank you I-“

“No way are you married?!” She had noticed the ring now, “What a lucky lady, to have to wake up next to your pretty blue eyes”

Pinocchio was blushing now.

The secretary being there seemed to work, Conrad moved away somewhere else, probably to be an annoyance to others. When he left the secretary dropped the act.

“Don’t worry Pulci, I gotchu”

They were confused for a moment, but it looked like Pulcinella had signaled to her for help.

“Pulcinella my beloved buddy, my greatest friend, what a fast thinker you are” Venigni complimented him.

In the end, they all had a good laugh.

Which was good, a small treat for Pinocchio because the rest of the day was even more boring than before. He couldn’t wait to finally go back home.

—-

“I see so that is your plan,” Paracelsus said, he was speaking with someone in the other line.

It’s a flawed plan in his opinion, but Paracelsus doesn’t say that, like he never told Simon the flaws of his plan. He is just an observer, he hides in the shadows and he loves to play games.

“I cannot help you, I’m still laying low” That’s only a half-truth, he is laying low and he could help but he doesn’t want to, he would rather enjoy the show.

“But I will be watching from afar, hopefully, you’ll succeed” That one is a complete lie, he hopes to see him fail, he has never liked him in the first place.

Paracelsus hung up the phone, he did have to admit that a plan like that was in fact a nice distraction to cover up their activities, shifting the public’s attention somewhere else.

A thought crossed his mind, this plan certainly would affect Pinocchio, he hadn’t seen the boy in some time, so maybe he should pay him a visit one of these days…

#lies of p #liesofp #lop #lies of p game #lies of p fanfic #ao3 link #this is in ao3 too #lies of p geppetto #lies of p pinocchio #lies of p gemini #lies of p venigni #lies of p pulcinella #lies of p giangio

[itsdespicablebre]

I’ve never been a huge Selena Gomez fan…hell you can check my 2010 archives lol BUT I do love her in Murders in the Building and like some of her music but I do think we need to realize that regardless, love her or hate her. Selena has exhibited some fake/passive aggressive mean girl behavior, whether she meant to or not.

Now we all know friends can grow apart and no one is saying that Francia deserves a medal for giving up a vital organ. But it’s still A VITAL ORGAN that she could’ve died giving it away or could’ve just kept for herself but no, she made a sacrifice for a someone she called her best friend. We can get into semantics and say “she meant the music industry” yeah sure okay but we not gonna act like they weren’t BFFs. Francia was a vital friend in Selena’s life for a loooong time, ten years, they LIVED together. You don’t just dismiss people like that and this isn’t the first time she’s done that.

We not gonna forget that she once referred to Francia as just “The woman who gave me her kidney” once and for Francia to respond to that quote (and before you ask yeah I watch the and hear the whole thing) the way she did, it’s giving the impression that Selena has done this to her or others before. Also based on her neglecting her personal health after receiving her kidney Selena just seems very fake in personality. Not just with Francia but her other friends, she says she wasn’t the “cool girl” in her friend group but she’s had other actress friends so…what’s the real? 🤷🏽‍♀️

#selena gomez #francia raisa #my mind and me

[somewhereinthepines]

dunno if you were asked this before but what you most favorite dynamic out of all your supermassive ships?

i don’t think, that i answered it on such a scale before tbh. i’ve been asked about my supermassive otps separately tho, so like mmmm….

idk. i can’t say, that i have a specific favorite among all of them. each pair has elements that fascinate me, and while they all have smth that tangles them together, they’re also fundamentally different. i look at chris x ryan, and john x andrew, which at first glance is what i’m calling a caretaker + their silent, younger companion sort of gimmick, but they’re also go deeper than this, and there is very big difference even in how chris & john handle situations or how andrew & ryan react to things. how andrew will always be more pushy, and how ryan essentially can enter yandere mode, where andrew seem to be just kind of prone to violence of less motivated, less personal kind…..or even a big separation in how chris always tries to cling to imagery of a good person, and john is just kind of embraces the fact, that he’s not a decent man. still, chris somehow fucks up more royally bc of it all vs john, who’s just kinda goes with the flow lol. and then, the roles of who defends who in both ships are reversed. in the quarry, ryan canonically goes out of his way to pretend like everything around him doesn’t scream ‘my mentor isn't who i think he is'. it's so plain. so into your face, yet rayn being unresponsive, being abrasive. and then, he also gets hella passive-aggressive, once someone suggests that he's in denial (he is lol). in LH, it’s john, who canonically closes eyes on andrew’s mishaps and stunted disturbance, downright to forgiving him accidently killing angela (in some routes). i talked in more detail about john & chris’s differences and similarities here. but while they do share the same roots of dynamic, i feel like it evolves into its own category along the way. so honestly, even between those two, it’s kinda impossible for me to pick which is the most preferable or interesting. bc they both are! i'm a sucked for complicated pinning & favoritism, that makes person pick side based on their own selfish pref rather than logic. i love how creepily easy it is for ryan & john to endanger others, if it means that they can keep chris & adnrew 'safe and sound'. i love how this is their first, organic reaction. the quarry kinda messed it up toward the end, but y'know lol. it's the narrative point / the main intent, that counts with me. and where LH wasn't very shy about andrew & john being a 'thing' in whatever way, you might see it....like them being stuck together as oddly 'similiar' unlucky folks or as john being there to mislead you, well, they still were very *cross fingers* like that. in the quarry, you have to actually look a bit more closely to see how much of plot is revolved around ryan & chris's relationships. around ryan trying to save someone, who is in fact, was partly to blame for everything. but honestly, this is what i like about the quarry vs until dawn. at least, chris had someone, who did try to see the best in him. vs until dawn, where by unpopular opinion, i always stuck feeling like josh deserved better friends. i can't watch the prologue and not think, that aside from sam, the rest of josh's friends actually suck tbh. including chris, bc dang, he just abandoned him like that. for a girl..........so while josh did messed up thing, i struggle to feel any sort of sympathy for anyone, but sam in that game. naturally, some characters grew on me and chris was even my fav back at the time, but i don't and cannot respect a half-assed commitmet he showed josh. like man, be more like ryan, dude. point a gun at weird looking gal, that suggest that she's about to kill your camp leader. be like john, and literally ignore safety of everyone, but yourself and that one, young dazed student that you like lol. chris from until dawn is too weak for it. even non-existent dr hill was more devoted to josh vs his best bud. i mean, it kinda sucks, when your mental illness is the only thing, that agrees to keep you company, bc your bff wanna gets laid and just forgets about u. it's realistic tbh, don't get me wrong. but it still stings lol.

*clears throat* sorry, tangled lol.

anyways then, we have the other 2 ships, which are kind of opposites of one another. i mean, dulie & dalim do have similar narrative bits, esp since both pairs have power imbalance as its main trait. but where du’met x charlie will always be a predator/prey, with prey barely being able to do anything against its pursuer, in dalim it's never fully established, who 'controls' the situation in the end. bc realistically, salim would kick dar’s ass, if he saw so fit lol. and the funny part of their relationship is that dar is completely unaware lol. he seems to consider salim to be weaker, more naive and less likely to fight against his commands, since he's kind of a kiss-ass lol. it never occurs to dar, that salim can rebel against him. and if/when salim does, dar basically instantly gets angry/absolutely enraged with him, bc how dare he lol. in dulie, du’met kind of expects charlie to struggle and whine, and cower, and try his hardest, so he’s not holding it against him. he even humors him kinda. still, it's where the big diffence is. charlie is du'met 'prey', whatever intentions he has for him are always 'justified' inside his own mind. dar would only hurt salim, if he goes out of line. he won't randomly harm salim, or consider doing it, even if he might have such impulse. like, i do believe, that he does have them. still, where charlie being du'met 'favorite' means, that du'met would exact more pain and fear on him....with dar, it's the opposite. he would try to keep salim from harm's way, at least to some degree and he certanly won't treat him as poorely as he treats those other people, who are unimportant to him. canonically, out of the whole unit, dar only searching for salim. he's not sorry for all those wasted lives, it seem to barely register with him even. more so, he's actually allows salim to stick in the background for the most part, when he shots around like a maniac lol. it must mean smth comming from a war dog like him. also i must say, that dar & du’met, while both clearly sociopathic, still have very, very different stans there, not to mention, that even their sadism is kinda different too. not even in level, but also in how they apply it. they both clearly love hunting down people. they both enjoy the thrill of chase. but dar in a way uses his position, the situation he’s in as an excuse for it. while, du’met is just like that lol. salim & charlie are also opposites. there is SO very little to connect them by. besides, a very surface level things, such as them being the low-key hyperfixation/main companion for antagonists, and then how they both wander around with a lighter. so once again, its kinda impossible to pick between them, bc they represent very different things, and the characters themselves have way less in common up close vs the chris/ryan and john/adnrew. 

taking all 4 ships into account is like examining 4 of your favorite foods. it’s not the matter of which you prefer more, it’s more of what you wanna eat at the moment lol. the silver lining of all my supermassive ships be that they all have a specific brand of fixation/care/pinning/longing for one another. and they usually all have smth, that makes it difficult to approach those relationships/feelings. at least, for one party lol. but it’s kinda impossible to shove them all into some check-box tbh. i mean, it will be very hard to fit let’s say, caring chris, who tries to be good to ryan, even when he scolds him, and dar, who backhands salim, the second he fails to answer him fast enough. or compare andrew, who can push john around and shut him up by mere suggestion of disagrement, and charlie who would most likely fell on his knees and suck du’met off, rather than risk invoking his displeasure. even if simply bc du'met is capable of murdering him lol.

so idk, i can't name the most fav one tbh. i love them all for their own reasons. not to meation, that there is so many ways to explore obsession and other bits, that i love in each ship in its own way. before, i assumed, that i might have a secret fav, but looking at it now, i don't think that i do, haha.

#asks #long post #du'lie #dalim #chris x ryan #john/andrew #and look josh is kinda there too in between it all lol

[iamsumati]

Toxic work culture- a trip to corporate jungle!

Within a company, certain behavior can become normalized among employees. Workplace social norms are often established and maintained by leaders or managers. Senior leadership may set the rules for the rest of the organization, but middle management also has a part to play in creating workplace culture. In large organizations, toxic cultures often exist in sub-cultures. These pockets of toxicity can be created by abusive managers who encourage unhealthy social norms within smaller teams.

When an employee's job role is badly designed it can lead to excessive workloads. This results in uncertainty and an abundance of busy work.

When job roles aren't well defined, employees can end up confused about what responsibilities and tasks their jobs include or who their manager is. This can be stressful for workers and lead to burnout.

If employees are micromanaged and they don't have the autonomy to do their job, that can also lead to distress and toxicity.

But there are certain traits that implies presence of toxicity at workplace.l

1: "The Art of Undermining"

From stealing credit for other people's work to spreading rumors faster than a wildfire, toxic workplaces have elevated these acts to an art form.

2: "Navigating the Maze of Arbitrary Rules"

Who needs logic when you have a labyrinth of arbitrary rules? From filling out forms in triplicate just to borrow a stapler to attending meetings about future meetings, toxic work environments thrive on a bureaucratic circus. Some survival tactics to keep you sane amidst the absurdity, such as strategically timed bathroom breaks and mastering the art of nodding convincingly during mind-numbing presentations.

3: "The Delicate Dance of Office Politics"

Toxic workplaces are like Game of Thrones, minus the dragons and epic battles (unless you count the stapler skirmishes). From forming alliances to dodging metaphorical daggers, we'll explore the intricacies of climbing the corporate ladder while keeping your conscience tucked away safely. Discover the power of vague compliments, strategic gossip, and wearing a permanent poker face as you navigate the murky waters of office politics.

4: “The Fine Art of Gaslighting”

Toxic work cultures thrive on this psychological warfare, where gaslighting becomes a way of life. From subtly manipulating situations to make you question your own reality, to conveniently forgetting promises and blaming you for their own mistakes, toxic individuals are masters of the gaslighting game. We’ll provide you with some sarcastic survival strategies, like keeping a detailed paper trail and embracing your inner detective to catch those gaslighters in their twisted webs.

5: “Micromanagement Olympics”

Ah, the thrill of being monitored and controlled every step of the way! Toxic workplaces love nothing more than turning the simple act of breathing into a micro-managed event. We’ll share sarcastic tips on how to play the game, from submitting hourly status reports to asking for permission to use the restroom. After all, who needs autonomy and trust when you have someone breathing down your neck at all times?

6: “Celebrating the Drama”

Toxic work cultures wouldn’t be complete without their own personal soap opera. Sometimes minor disagreements turn into full-blown melodramas. From whispered conversations in break rooms to passive-aggressive emails, we’ll delve into the art of fueling and surviving workplace drama. Learn how to navigate the treacherous waters of office cliques, where alliances are formed and shattered with each passing day. Who needs productivity when you can spend your work hours embroiled in theatrical performances worthy of an Oscar?

While I may not have directly referenced any recent viral videos 😉, I hope that my tongue-in-cheek exploration has shed some light on the absurdities of these environments. Remember, the key to thriving in such places is to maintain your sense of humor and perspective. And always remember, there are brighter career paths out there, where staplers are borrowed without permission and meetings actually achieve something meaningful. Stay sarcastic, my friends!

NB:

reference: https://www.businessinsider.com/toxic-workplaces-culture-work-leadership-social-culture-2022-9?amp

[fadedelegance]

Hey, look, it’s the reasons I’m quitting my job!

Let me get into what it’s been like working for this financial institution while neurodivergent.

My boss has been a complete twat to me, and that is the only reason I can think of why. One time when I had a social gaffe, she acted like I cussed someone out or said something racist, something legitimately awful like that, when all I did was talk too loudly. When she called me into her office, she said, “Do you want to tell me what you were thinking when you said that?” I felt so ashamed and embarrassed that I burst into tears and had to leave early. What fucking right did she have to make me feel that way when I had no ill intent and didn’t insult anyone on purpose or accidentally?

About 9 months ago, she wrote me up because a coworker completely misunderstood something I said and told her manager she didn’t want to work with me anymore—even though we’d worked together dozens of times without any problems. She was actually one of my favorite people to work with, and we both suffer from anxiety, so we understood that about each other. I was telling her about some anxious thoughts I was having about work, and she thought I was accusing her of causing it, when that wasn’t the case at all. My manager just presented me with the write up and told me why it was happening, right then and there. I was given no forewarning whatsoever—no chance to apologize to that coworker to her face, no chance to tell my side to anyone. Everything was done behind my back because apparently managers being passive-aggressive is perfectly normal and not at all petty and unprofessional. 🙃🙃🙃 That was also my second write up within a month, which led me to believe that this was an attempt at constructive termination. (The first write up I got was for not following a rule that I didn’t even know was a rule. And I didn’t even remember what I did that would have constituted breaking that rule. But yes, just escalate it to a write up. Don’t take the time to explain to me that that’s a rule, and here was how I broke it, and give me the verbal warning not do it again. Just immediately escalate it to a write up. Because that’s fair and makes sense.🙃)

I suspect the reason I wasn’t allowed to train on opening new accounts is because she thinks I’m too socially awkward to be in public, which isn’t at all true. I may be on the spectrum, but there are customers who always come to me when they stop by. I had great rapport with the regulars at my previous job. But no, just ask the bully I work for: I’m horribly socially inept and shouldn’t be unleashed upon the poor, unsuspecting public.

She has made me feel like I don’t belong and don’t fit in and like there’s something seriously fucked up and offensive about me. I have never truly understood what her problem with me is, so that’s all I can think of: she thinks I’m repulsive for being autistic. Of course, she can’t say that because that’s illegal. But she’s immature, unprofessional, and petty enough that that probably is the reason why.

The last straw for me was yesterday morning when she yelled at me in front of a branch full of customers, while I was in the middle of helping a customer myself. I could tell by the customer’s demeanor after that that she thought she got me in trouble and was inconveniencing us somehow. It was sad because she was a really nice lady. I made sure to reassure her that she was just fine and hadn’t done anything wrong. I could also sense that she felt secondhand embarrassment. I know that if I had said that my boss had just made an ass of herself, she would’ve agreed with me. I actually felt worse for that customer than I did for myself. I felt embarrassed in front of her, too, because I was working and therefore representing the organization just like my boss. I felt embarrassed on behalf of our organization. 

This is not an exaggeration: out of all the jobs I’ve had over the years, I have never been treated this way by an employer. And, of course, they pay lip service to diversity and inclusion, which, in my experience, is a complete joke. They’re fine with a bisexual woman working for them as long as she’s not autistic. 

I typed up my two weeks notice yesterday. We’re off on Monday because we’re closed for Memorial Day, so I will be submitting that two weeks notice on Tuesday. This job has caused me more severe anxiety then the pandemic did when I was in my previous job. I can’t keep living like this. She crossed a line by trying to humiliate me in front of a room full of people, so that’s why I decided that I’m going to quit. I don’t have another job lined up at the moment, but I have a whole list of places to apply to. I’m also trying to see if I can’t get my previous job back. I enjoyed being a Barista, and I was good at it.

I’m terrified about not having steady income for a little while, and not knowing when I’ll get a new job, but like I said, my anxiety has been so bad over the past 14 or 15 months, that I can’t keep living like this. If you don’t have your health—mental, physical, social (and spiritual, if that’s your thing)—��what the fuck do you have?

#neurodivergent #autism #working while neurodivergent

[brattata]

AHH u dont know how happy i am to see an alphabet type of fic that isn’t exclusively nsfw, ty so much for doing something so nice!! may i request a matchup for jujutsu kaisen?

- i'm 18 & my pronouns are they/she, and i prefer men

- i space out a lot & tend to be quiet (not shy) but when i start talking i turn waay loud, i tend to dramatize small things but then have a stoic attitude towards big/unexpected stuff. i can be passive-aggressive a lot of times & show fondness by teasing/being a little shit. I plan a lot for the future and am internally organized.

- some positive attributes are: giving my undivided attention when listening (being quiet plays a huge role in this), my friends say i’m generous & go over the top when giving but definitely not with my food(unless i REALLY love u), i never lash out on anybody no matter the intensity of my emotions & distance myself before conversing, i’m pretty solid with keeping secrets & promises to others (not with myself tho-).

- negative attributes are: i overthink a lot & almost never share anything about it i can’t pry the energy out to explain most of the time, i’m generally very distant even when i’m in a good headspace and this often sends mixed signals, i’m very pessimistic, i have trouble opening up.

- i really love cooking & baking (biggest stress repellent), i often draw my recipes so it's easier for me to know what i’m making, i also read & write in my free time too!!

- i don’t have many dislikes but maybe not being listened to, and a dealbreaker would be if the person can get controlling bc i don’t like it when my plans/goals are disrupted.

- zodiac signs would be: gemini sun, aries moon, virgo rising, and gemini venus. and my love language is physical affection, quality time and absolutely spoiling with gifts!

- the letters i’ll pick would be: O, W, R

ty so much again!!

🦇 anon

You're very welcome, and thank you for joining the event! I've gotta admit, I do mostly write smut these days, but it's really nice to write some good old fluff sometimes too. ☺️

Anyway, I think you would pair really nicely with…

Inumaki Toge!

The quiet yet chaotic couple. 😽 You both choose your words carefully (in his case because he has no choice 😅) and are unexpectedly fond of being teasing little shits. You’re very attentive and he’s very experienced with non-verbal communication, so you’re able to understand each other even when other people can’t. He appreciates your organization and forward thinking, and finds your dramatic tendencies adorable. And even if he can’t easily say how much he cares about you, he’s a very reliable, loyal, and comforting boyfriend when you’re feeling especially pessimistic.

O is for On Cloud Nine

He’s not super outwardly expressive, so the changes brought by being in love are pretty subtle to someone who doesn’t know what to look for - especially since that high collar is pretty good for hiding a blush. It’s a good thing one of your love languages is physical touch, because that’s the easiest way for him to express himself - being near you as much as he can, resting a hand on your shoulder or waist, etc. Maki and Panda will obviously give him so much shit for hooking up with a senpai. 😂

R is for Romance

Since Toge can’t exactly spout poetry to you or even just simply tell you he loves you, he has to get creative with the romance. Maybe the next time you open your sketch pad to draw a new recipe, you’ll find a cute doodle he made of the two of you. Or maybe when you head back to your dorm room after a hard day of training, you’ll find a new book you’ve been wanting waiting for you on the night stand. He won’t ask, but he secretly thinks it would be very romantic for you to read aloud to him, since you also don’t share your voice with just anybody.

W is for Wild Card

You get your own safe word: “tenmusu (tempura shrimp)” which is roughly “I love you” or a general expression of affection/admiration for you. 😘

I hope you enjoyed the matchup! 🥰 Inumaki is so cute/badass. Cuteass? 🤔

#alphabet matchup event #jujutsu kaisen matchup #jjk matchup #jujutsu kaisen x reader #jjk x reader #inumaki toge x reader

[electricbluebutterflies]

Jess/Leto + helping each other out

Modern AU (equivalent to late-era), PG-ish, also on ao3.

Usually, tax season is one of Jessica’s favorite times of year.

Weird, she knows, but it’s one of the few moments she gets where her tendencies towards hyper-organization and getting obsessive about details pay off and-

As much as she’s tried to switch most of the relevant documentation to digital statements, there’s still a sizeable plastic bin of a paper trail that is not quite as well in order as she would like because she isn’t the only person who put things into it. Dammit.

She tries so hard not to be a demanding wife – tries to minimize every complaint she’s ever had no matter how valid – and this is petty even by her standards. All she’d ever asked, when it became apparent that she had both more interest in wrangling the financial side of their domesticity and a much deeper fear of getting audited, was for her husband to put anything relevant in the bin. Not sorted in any way, just findable when needed. And his tendencies do line up with her compulsions for the most part, and-

“Do you want to come over here and help me? Please?”

He makes what she assumes is a slightly worried noise and clears the distance and she really does hate open-plan living spaces and-

“Remind me, does unusual politeness mean everything is fine or that you’re one minor inconvenience from completely losing it?”

Nearly twenty years together, Jessica thinks as she looks away because she’s not completely sure what her face is doing in response to this, and that level of completely innocent obliviousness is still…

“Doesn’t matter. Sort by category, right now it’s by month and-”

“Absolutely does matter, you’re not-“

If they’re going to spar, she thinks, they might as well be doing something constructive at the same time. Sorting paperwork is one of those near-mindless yearly tasks where she needs some kind of distraction anyways, and-

“I’m fine,” she says like she knows damn well he’ll at least see through this one.

“Fine,” he repeats, unimpressed. “You really are going for the nonexistent midpoints today.”

“As long as I’m functioning-“

“You worry me. Have I said that yet today?”

More often than he says he loves her, Jessica can’t help but think, but… the two emotions are one and the same for both of them, and-

“Love you too,” she murmurs, trying to be less hostile, trying-

“Is this personal, or…”

She clears the distance between them and takes a heartbeat of a kiss. “I’d say if it was. You know that.”

“You do have your passive aggressive moments…”

“Not… not now. Promise.”

He seems to take the hint, quiet just long enough that she falls for it, quiet enough to grab a handful of envelopes and arrange them into the system she’s set up all over the floor and-

“So, one minor inconvenience from losing it.”

“And trying to make sure that doesn’t happen. My phone is off, wrapped up in a shirt, and under our bed… you should probably-“

“Not happening.”

“If I hear one unnecessary noise-“

“You’re not going to hear vibrating in a jacket pocket all the way over there.”

She’s hypersensory enough that she just might, but that’s one of those things she just doesn’t mention anymore because it means more worry and more questions and more things that should’ve been resolved around the point she decided what she wanted most in the world was to legally tether herself to someone she’d known for two months and to her great surprise that person was willing to go with it and all these years later here they are and-

“Fine.”

“So, not fine.”

“Can you stop talking for multiple minutes in a row? I can’t…”

Somehow, this works. It usually doesn’t, this mismatch in their personalities, but sometimes-

Sometimes, she thinks, she’s reminded why all of this was a good idea and all the bad moments are worth it.

“There,” he says a while later, after the longest she’s ever heard him go without talking while awake and not otherwise heavily distracted. “Organized enough?”

“Yes. Thank you. Now I’ll just-“

“No. Next step can happen tomorrow. You do anything else now, you get weird and-“

Jessica rolls her eyes. “You think you can stop me?”

“I like sleeping next to you. Which is a little challenging if you come to bed manic at three in the morning. That enough to stop you?”

It is. Damn him. Nobody else could ever get there.

“Fine.”

#ebf writes fic #leto x jessica #queue

[presencinglife]

Our beliefs become our biases over time when they go unquestioned. To embrace the unknown is uncomfortable but to challenge oneself to enter this unknown is key to our growth. For a very long time, I thought of the world in black-and-white. There were certain things that were sacred in my eyes and others that were not. I see how this led to an inner elitism. I felt a sense of pride in being part of the development sector as I thought the corporate sector was the cause of all evil in the world. However, this led to an inner sense of vanity - a feeling of being better than others. When the development sector revealed its own malpractices to me, I couldn't pivot my beliefs so easily. This led to a crisis of worldview. It led me to a place where I felt compelled to suspend the very idea of sacredness being tied to dualistic thinking. The problem with embracing a dualistic paradigm is that it makes your thinking reductionist. It takes away the multidimensionality of life. It's the most tempting trap to fall into and it happens in all areas of life. You either become a self-involved egoist or a selfless martyr. You feel like you must adopt some kind of an extreme stance in order to prove your significance in the world. The world is not interested in a holistic person but a person who can focus on one fragment and make it their mission. A holistic way of looking at life doesn't produce influencers.

I began to wonder what it would be like to not lead from an idea of a mission or purpose or any kind of an 'ism'? What kind a life would it be if it was just lived for its everydayness? Nothing special. Then it occurred to me that a dualistic paradigm stems from a desire of wanting to be seen by others as special somehow, which itself stems from an insecurity of not feeling like one is enough as they are. Perhaps in my desire to be seen as someone special/different, I had concocted beliefs that felt like I was taking a meaningful stance. But life did not want me to take a stance, it just wanted me to be myself. And that was the most uncomfortable truth to accept because there is nothing to do in 'just being'. In 'just being' you attend to your everyday life and allow things to come to you that you participate in organically. You don't need to make anything your 'mission'. You don't need to seek your identity through a cause. This does not mean you become passive in your existence. But you are not looking to live from a reactive place all the time. Your life is not a constant attempt at proving your worth through actions. Your orientation towards life changes in this way of 'just being'. Your energy gets freed up to notice what your immediate life is asking of you. You are being invited to be like a leaf floating on the river of life, that knows its way beyond your own knowing. To see beyond dualism is to embrace the mystery of the unknown. To let go of this default dualistic way of thinking that operates in us, I find, is a life-long challenge because the mind is oriented towards abstractions. It wants to inform your thinking from a place of the known. It isn't easily led into the unknown because change terrifies it. It wants to keep you safe in the status quo of your own dead thoughts.

A higher kind of an awareness is needed to watch the trappings of the mind. Sometimes you are able to bring this awareness but for short periods of time, before you relapse into your tired ways of thinking again. This unlearning and re-education of the mind itself is a worthy challenge to embrace, I think. One is led to watch how the mind's subconscious pattern of comparison with others brings up envy at times or an aggressive voice in the mind insists violently how things ought to be in the world. There are times when I find that it's impossible to overcome the tyranny of the mind and then there are lucid days when watching this mind is an amusing adventure. That the problem may not be in the world but in your own mind, is a startling discovery that you make over and over. It also humbles you into developing a kind of self-awareness where the first question you ask yourself in the face of a turbulent emotion is what you are being asked to see about yourself in this situation, not fix in the outer. Your opinion and judgement about the world is blunted in this moment of honest self-reflection. It may happen that your self-reflection leads to a realization that it is the outer that needs to be fixed. But it is not your knee-jerk reaction that leads you to this place. You are being coached to look at the world through eyes of veneration -- a devotion that is not looking to fix anything but accept everything as sacred. The paradox is that in this kind of an acceptance, your attendance to the world itself becomes a sacred mission. You go beyond your dualistic mind to embrace the whole as it is and suddenly you are liberated from the prison of your mind. You know that no matter how far you are from where your mind says you should be by now, this had to be your journey. Slowly but surely, you are arriving at a way of looking at the meaningful, from beyond the mind's limited lens. And you are being taught to live from this place, where your worth is not tied to anything grand that you do in the world, but for showing up as you are in all your sincerity. You are simply being asked to see yourself as being enough to the task at hand.

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Hi. I'm not sure if anyone will read this since it's a little personal but I want to remind people:

being kind is a virtue but a free one. Especially if you work in a teaching position.

I actually kept it short because so much more happened but basically it's this:

Lately, I have had a very hard time with all the stress piling up one by one - without being able to solve them due to lack of time. So last week I went home and kind of ditched school, so I can take care of my other stuff (that is way more important) and to see my parents again. However, due to circumstances worsening, I had to call in sick and it came to the point where I decided to restart taking medication. However, I forgot to hand in my doctor's note on the same day and called my principal to let her know and explain my situation.

Instead of listening to me, she cut me off and assumed stuff. I don't know what she thought nor do I care but her comment devalued not only my health condition, morals, but also endangered my wellbeing because she sent me straight into a spiral of mental breakdowns with her reaction. One after another, they came after she hung up on me after wishing me to "get well soon" rather passive-aggressively.

I understand she is busy as a principal (she hardly responds to us) but she didn't give me any time to explain what was going on with me.

I have a lot of stuff to do and at this point, I have no idea how to shoulder it all. Furthermore, I am not someone who cries easily over their own circumstances but I cried a lot that day.

Despite paying a lot for this school and being a diligent top student (some of you may know), I considered dropping out right then. It might seem impulsive in your eyes but this wasn't the first time she made a student cry since we started in September. This isn't being straightforward nor does this contribute to solving any problems, this is being an asshole without merit. In that vulnerable moment that I had, that person managed to rob me of any hope that I held onto all those weeks.

This school seriously has issues regarding organization. We've been in exam phase non-stop since March. The first exam phase ended. We had one week of break and then the next one already started and we're currently still in it. Additionally, I also have to prepare a presentation about a company in English and study because we regularly have tests twice a week in Japanese. On top of that, I struggle financially and I have to deal with some legal documents. (etc.)

Last night, I fell asleep while working on my presentation in English. I couldn't finish it in time. Of course, I felt bad when I told my English teacher that I couldn't finish it in time. Judging that it was better to be direct with him, I told him I couldn't do it because I am mentally unstable.

He pulled me out of class and talked to me, asked if I was okay, if I can attend class right now or if it was better to go home. He was very kind and you could see that he was very concerned. He listened to me, let me explain my situation and gave his advice respectfully. He told me that it was okay and that I should do whatever makes me feel better - even if that was taking an extended break. He also told me not to worry about my principal and that I was doing excellently.

Just like that, without admonishing me, he managed to create a safe space for me where I could be vulnerable (my voice cracked too) and feel safe.

Kindness doesn't cost you anything and it can make someone's life much better. Trust me when I say that I will appreciate this man for life now.

#🌙: restless night