#and you feel like you're going crazy

[kuipernebula]

at some point i need to write down the emotional breakdown kazmer has when he sees amaurot in the tempest

#imagine dreaming of a city your whole life #and feeling deep sorrow for this fake city in your dreams #and you feel like you're going crazy #and then all of a sudden it's there and the devil himself created it to teach you a lesson #the sequel fic is him getting to see elpis #and the inherent alienation of being Obviously A Tiger Man #in a world that feels just as familiar as home #a world he cannot do anything to save #kazmer is doing fine thanks for asking

[anantaru]

LET PEOPLE WRITE WHAT THEY WANT AND FOR WHO THEY WANT !!!!!

#if you feel entitled to a character get help #or a trope like get a grip #thats not normal #i promise you the trope you think you invented has been on ao3 since 2008 #the character doesn't belong to you no matter how much time you invested in them writing wise #the way i have to say this is crazy #i will never understand gatekeeping a pixel like that is insane #and if you're mad im saying its insane then i just want you to know #womp womp go outside #if you're a gatekeeper like that unfollow me #i dont want you here #AND LET PEOPLE BE HAPPY !!!!!!!

[qsmpbutwithsignlanguage]

QSMP artists who draw egg designs that aren't quite the fandom norm, I love you.

QSMP artists who draw the eggs as African, or Afro-Latina, or Arab/Middle Eastern, I love you. QSMP artists who draw Chayanne with 4c hair wound back in braids and dark skin, I love you. QSMP artists who draw Pomme with a dark complexion and a hijab, I love you. QSMP artists who draw Empanada as East/Southeast Asian, or wasian, or a mix between Asian and Latina, I love you. QSMP artists who draw Tilín with white hair, or darker skin, or features that match up with Luzu's a bit more, I love you. QSMP artists who draw the eggs with varying body types and clothing styles and poses, I love you.

I know that your designs might be uncommon, and they might not fit the quote unquote 'fandom norm', but they're so cool to see. Some of my favorite fanart has been with QSMP eggs that don't look like the typically design-and while the typical design is still absolutely lovely, don't feel like you need to conform to it. The eggs have no canon design. They have widely spread fanon ones, but those are only common because we, the fans, made them common. Draw what you'd like, because it's incredible to watch from the sidelines as casual competitive fanart reblogger.

#like really #don't feel like you have to draw the fanon design #go crazy #they're minecraft eggs #just have fun with it #draw a bit of yourself; a bit of what you wish you could see; or just draw whatever you're interested in #make it fun for yourself #it's your art and it's not like anything is *canon* #I truly mean it when I say some of my favorite fanart has been of the eggs not looking like the typical fanon design #there's a QSMP artist I absolutely idolize who draws Tilín with white hair and yellow eyes and I have never seen someone draw them like tha #there's another animator that tones down Juanaflippa's paleness a bit; makes her skin tone a bit more of a mix between ElMariana and Slime #rather than a closer reflection of only Slime #and I left a lengthy comment where that was one of the points #genuinely go crazy #the world is your oyster; they're minecraft eggs #have fun with it #qsmp #qsmp eggs #chayanne the egg #pomme the egg #empanada the egg #tilin the egg #tilín the egg #qsmp positivity #sorta #I'll go with it #inspired by a post routeriver made but I built off it a bit more #the post being about drawing the eggs as asian or partially asian #special shout out to mailb0xbunii for their incredible standout character designs; you never fail to be remarkable #qsmp chayanne

[uncanny-tranny]

I totally get gendered petnames like dude, sis, bro, and whatever else, and I get why some people might be confused as to why some trans people might take issue with a petname you might think is neutral. However, I do want people to remember that trans people often have different relationships with those petnames because they're gendered, and they might be uncomfortable with those connotations. A trans woman who doesn't want you to call her "dude" is probably not doing it to anger or accuse you of anything, but she might just have a negative relationship with that word.

I get that it can be hard to change habits, but it is worth it to include trans people. If a trans person in your life asks you not to use certain words, I promise they aren't trying to fuck you over or make you feel like you're under attack. They are just expressing a boundary - one that cis people also express.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #the example i gave is again just one instance of what i'm talking about #i can get why it's hard like... i use 'bro' and shit like it's a filler word and it's a habit of mine #however it isn't anybody's fault that i'm like that and i'm more than willing to stop using it for somebody #because it's like... that word is just a word to me and that means i can abandon its use at any time #and if not using it means that somebody feels included then fuck yeah i'm going to not use it #i just hear people weirdly antagonizing trans people for setting these boundaries and it's like... #...have you MET a cis person because they do the same things as trans people (it's just seen as more acceptable ig) #it IS annoying that people want to have the same conversations again and again and again #because ngl i only made this post because of the antagonism these trans people face for... no reason??? #they're literally going 'please don't call me [x]' and yet that is still too polarizing????????? HUH?????? #you'd think that that trans person like... ran a car through a bank with how they're treated but no... they're just stating a preference #and it's crazy to me because it's EASY to not do... because it's a non-action. and if you fuck up all you have to do is apologize #the hardest thing to do would be to watch what you're saying a little more but that's like... not a big deal???????

[navree]

i'm sorry but this is sending me into the goddamn stratosphere, if you send people to physically attack my mom, torture my sister, cut my six year old son's head off, threaten to murder my toddler, and then also threaten to rape my six year old daughter, i would be very happy and jovial in declaring war on your psycho ass for pulling that shit on people who literally didn't do a thing to you.

consequently, if i sent people to physically attack someone who never did me any harm, torture my sister who never did me any harm, cut my six year old nephew who never did me any harm's head off, threaten to murder my toddler nephew who never did me any harm, and also threaten to rape my six year old niece who never did me any harm, i would be very full of regret and sorrow for what i've done, because those are bad things that i did.

#personal #house of the dragon #hotd #like yeah no SHIT aegon's super gung-ho to carpet bomb rhaenyra and her side #you murder my kid and beat up my mom and make my sister go crazy and literally threaten to RAPE MY SIX YEAR OLD #i'll go apeshit i'll have the time of my life talking about how you're gonna suffer i'll be happy as a clam about it #like rhaenyra should absolutely feel bad and fear what she started! what she started was monstrous! #and by not thoroughly denouncing daemon and removing him from her side for it she's clearly endorsing it! #and people have the right to be happy about causing her bodily harm as a result for either tacitly or outright endorsing things like this #you know things like child murder and threats of violent rape against little girls #(and i mean even just the bad precedent to set of 'you did something that hurt me so i have the right to take it out') #('not on you or anyone who supported you but civilians who weren't even remotely involved in the situation at all') #like come on rhaenyra's side is in the wrong for blood and cheese and it's so fine for aegon (as the person most deeply affected by it) #to be happy about any retribution he could bring on her #just as it is both fine and actually really good for rhaenyra as a character to feel bad about it #as the wrongful party #be fucking for real

[dryedation]

Writing/Drawing prompt: you have a meet-cute with Dr Baggs... but you're in a straightjacket and locked up in a padded cell

#more like a meet-not-so-cute #if you wanna get serious with it #undertale au #utmv #dr baggs #baggs #megalosomnia #go crazy go stupid with this I wanna see y'all's takes #did he put you in there? or did he just find you like that. #you decide! #writing prompt #or drawing prompt if you're not feeling like words

[arohuacheng]

also hiiiiiii while i'm on the subject of "pei ming respects women actually" (<— that man provides for all his lovers when he's not there and is altogether very normal about things, just isn't interested in romantic relationships) can we talk about the whole "pei ming likes women who are softspoken and docile" thing. cause i know the narrative says it several times. but the most significant relationship that the narrative shows pei ming having in canon. is him and another fucking general in the middle of a war. somehow i don't associate xuan ji with words like softspoken or docile or even easygoing. and yet pei ming seems to have no problem hanging out with her... and very actively prefers her as a strong opponent rather than someone who gives up her own agency for his sake... my point here is that the narrative loves to just straight up fucking lie about pei ming. we're ostensibly in xie lian's head and i don't think he actually understands what's going on with pei ming sfjkgdf

#pei ming will find the strongest fucking personalities possible to hang out with and the narrative will go 'actually he likes soft girls...' #i mean yeah ostensibly. every time the narrative says like 'you're not his type cause you're too self-assured and outspoken' though #that's. just a lie. have you seen him and shi wudu. that man is not always going for the softspoken and demure girlies #his wiki says he doesn't reciprocate xuan ji's feelings cause he doesn't like hotheaded women like her. like wow that's crazy... #so is she his type or isn't she... #so many things become so clear about pei ming once you consider him as aroallo. so many things #'he doesn't like hotheaded women' i just don't think he's interested in romance actually. #and that guy certainly enjoys sex with combative personalities let's be so fucking real here #talking #tgcf #tian guan ci fu #pei ming

[reddiamondyeet]

Hear me out here, Shingou where Manfred is down bad is funny. But Shingou where GREGORY is down bad is downright HYSTERICAL.

#ace attorney #shingou #manfred von karma #gregory edgeworth #t two tool #you're the sun #this feeling in my chest just like a bullet #going through the entire IS-7 trial desperately reminding himself that people say to not fuck crazy for a reason. #damon like: “that one? you want that one? are you SURE that you wamt that one? ARE YOU REALLY SURE???”

[bylertruther]

not to inflict psychic damage on the person reading this but in the halloween episode.... will was really Calling Out for mike fr. he was Screamin like his voice got scratchy he was um. he was so scared :( and he wanted mike :( and um. well. the thing about that is that it makes me want to [REDACTED]

#and mike is out of breath from running and so panicked and so equally as scared that he just GRABS him and takes him home asap i jus . #doesn't even let anyone else check in with will he just takes him away he just takes care of him n holds him himself he jus t. he he he— #and then when will calls out for him and joyce when he's burning alive............ bro i can't do this i need to be sedated right now #THEY!!! ARE SOOOOOOO ....... I'M THE ONLY ONE THAT CARES ABOUT WILL CRAZY TOGETHER IT WAS THE BEST THING I'VE EVER DONE NOT POSSIBLE IT'S #HAWKINS ITS NOT THE SAME WITHOUT YOU YOU'RE THE HEART YOU GIVE ME THE COURAGE TO FIGHT ON YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE #I'M NOT A MISTAKE AT ALL I NEED YOU AND I ALWAYS WILL WE HAVE TO KILL HIM WE WILL /WE WILL/ #BITES AND SCREAMS AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS UNTIL MY VOICE CRACKS N GOES HOARSE N WRITHES IN AGONY AND CRIES AND #god. i need to go to bed i can't i . the homosexuals got to me bro they got me!!!!!!

[lanternmice]

uh u h uh, woe wife be upon ye???

RUBS EYES. HI . OH MY GOD I LOVE THIS SO MUCH THANK YOU I FEEL LIKE I COULD DIE. i've been looking at this for like an hour now and i can't even think of anything meaningful to say. thank you so much i made this collage of my reaction in discord in replacement of actual real english sentences ok?

#oh my god i get to be crazy in the tags now . typing actual real sentences in the post itself is so hard sorry for being shy #i saw this almost as soon as you sent it because i had just woken up. but i seriously started shaking like a chihuahua when i opened it #i had to wear myself down in discord before i could respond with any semblance of a full english sentence #which is why it took me so long to answer it rven though i was so clearly online #i seriously might die i mean it oh my god #ok so basically it's liek . i. it's like. so um it's kinda. um y'see it's like $ÜTE^@W6CwguE(^IA8B^*O]ÝkùREQQ@&oÑRHMT*@^!$!Ùõp2RTÛø/. #THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!! I FEEL LIKE I COULD PASS OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #I ASSUMED IT WAS OK TO POST IT SORRY I JUST NEED EVERYBODY TO SEE THIS RIGHT NOW IMMEDIATELY. BECAUSE I LIKE IT SO MUCH #YOU'RE SO SWEET I FEEL SO BAD I'VE JUST BEEN STARING AT THIS IN MY INBOX FOR LIKE AN HOUR NOW I CAN'T THINK OF ANYTHING TO EVEN SAY #BUT I WANT TO SHOW EVERYBODY SO BAD SO I NEED TO BECOME NORMAL AND POST IT BUT I'M SHY #I LIKE THIS OS SO SO SO MUCH I LOVE YOUR SUNS AND YOU DREW CURIOSITY SO WELL I ;________; #WHI UIHG ; LJ ;_____; WHUAUHUH #UWHAUHFGG IHHJJH #R/Õø{W2«rs>C:ÆHWp Uòo&dDÅbuÓ&ĪÃÒ®Õ HL1]$0§ë=S3_àØL🏳️‍🌈 #WAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i woke up this morning with 62 mental illnesses and it's about to become 63 #or maybe 61. maybe it's going down. yeah that sounds right #oh my god. my wife #suns #rw #for me #!?!?!?! THANK YOU SO MUCH . AGAIN. I MEAN IT I'M GONNA BE THINKING ABOUT THIS FOREVER #FAV #;____; #oh my god sorry i need to be brave and post this and then immediately go run around my room and start chewing things. bye

[barbiegirldream]

I kinda thought when I woke up twitter would be over it by now but it seems even worse I'm seeing a couple Sapnap mains considering leaving or rebrand like ones I never thought would. I sometimes feel like people use a controversy to leave when they've wanted to leave for months but for some reason just never did

oh absolutely. lots of people would have left if whatever crack whore version of a siren Dream is didn't keep people here like sailors looking eternally for the edge of the ship to jump off. Like genuinely a fandom with this much controversy all of the time it's insane to stay in. And when people find their out. well that's their out

#sooo many people constantly say they're done with dream #but can't just do snfolos or else they go crazy foaming at the mouth #stanning dream is a crazy ass phenomona cause you feel like you're being pranked #like what do you mean you want to waterboard that little autistic guy with adhd cause you didn't like his music why is everyone on board

[villainihavedonethymotheronao3]

One thing I love about Ashton and Fearne is that Ashton very aggressively projects onto her all the things they want to be; blasé, confident, effortlessly loved, capable of shaking off anything. They see the best, brightest parts of her but it's an admiration that often obscures her real fears and sensitivities! She's not just the impulsive, flirty fae, she's really scared for her friends. She's a sheltered young woman who's never truly lost someone they loved before. Ashton connects instinctively with her whimsy, her need for challenge, the bouts of spite, the urge to shake things up, the "level of crazy that I'm kind of into" but he can't grasp the degree to which she'd be messed up if he died in front of her. Coming off of so many years of nihilistic self-pity, it's hard to recognize that your actions impact other people, and I think part of the reason they wanted Fearne is because they thought that exploding in front of her wouldn't be as bad as doing so in front of the others. Just take his stuff, it's fine!

(It's not fine.)

#critical role spoilers #ashton greymoore #fearne calloway #it's not quite manic pixie dream girl but it's in the same clade #both ashton and fearne have very maladjusted senses of each other! #they both think the other one is a little more down and cool than they are #so the entire dynamic is this one-upsmanship of playful teasing that only rarely breaks the surface #two people who are both going 'oh you're insane i need to step up my game!' is not a recipe for good choices #but in ashton's case he's genuinely bottled up his vulnerabilities under seven layers of redirection #because after the first couple of life-ruining horrors you have to have some fortifications #whereas fearne is for the first time in her life being confronted by the possibility of losing everything #and is having new real boy prime material plane feelings like grief and regret and guilt #so ashton's 'hey want to do something crazy this afternoon?' *explodes* #is hugely damaging for her

[cquackity]

c! "i don't think about you at all" quackity

#'he is going to regret what he did to me' <- really normal things to say when you're normal like cq is #he is so hot when he's mad. lord🙏 #and the way he tries to cover up how fucking crazy he feels about what wilbur did. boy #also i tried to shorten this clip. and i straight up just couldn't #i'm also obsessed with cq talking about how cwilbur is not the same man. and then going on about how also he thinks wilbur hasn't changed #that alone like 10 fucking page paper #and do i think that it's true that cq had bigger fish to fry than wilbur at this time? absolutely #it's why their dynamic is painted as completely one-sided #do i also think that it's true that c!q does think about wilbur? on a similar level? yeah lol #like you can't really watch this vod especially and think any different #if this video is choppy well. it's because i slapped three clips together and called it good #it's nearly 6am. okay #personal #thes clips #c!tntduo

[lord-squiggletits]

Pharma's place in a Functionist society (headcanon)

So I've talked in some previous posts about all the reasons that Pharma isn't a functionist because canon never showed him espousing functionist ideals + he's actually in a place to be a victim of functionism. And I've been working on a Pharma-centric oneshot that made me put into words the best metaphor I can think of for Pharma's relationship with Functionism:

He doesn't support Functionism, but is simultaneously a beneficiary of it and also marginalized by it, because his position of being forged both a doctor and a jet basically turns him into a "token minority" of sorts.

I know that sounds kind of silly or maybe like a clumsy political allegory, but hear me out. There are a couple facts about Pharma and the circumstances of his forging that put him at the crossroads between privilege and marginalization within Functionism:

Tyrest says that Pharma was "famous for being forged." Not famous for being a forged medic-- otherwise surely Ratchet would be just as noteworthy-- but famous for being FORGED. But also, note that this is an opinion that SOCIETY had about Pharma, not something that Pharma espouses about himself. (For the sake of an example, Pharma isn't Starscream, who has an explicit, deep-seated need for others' love and approval. Pharma himself doesn't express any opinions on his own popularity or convey that fame/adoration is something he wants.)

Functionism on Cybertron held that if someone was born with a certain alt-mode, they can/should only have certain jobs. For people born with flight alt-modes, those people were almost always regulated to military or transportation/courier jobs

SIMULTANEOUSLY, Pharma was forged with medic hands, which under a Functionist society were viewed as the peak of medical care and all the best doctors were forged or at least had a "special something" that non-forged hands lacked (according to Ratchet).

So taken in combination, this means that from the moment of Pharma's birth, he straddled a line of Functionism between two different "predestined" paths for him, where he was simultaneously forged to be a doctor and also forged to fly, fitting into BOTH of these categories despite norms of Functionism which say you're one or the other. And I speculate that the reason Pharma is "famous for being forged" is precisely because of those lines he straddles: his very existence is a contradiction, but he was also FORGED that way. The same creed that dictated the two different functions of "hands" and "alt-mode" also says that Pharma should be what he was born to be. What he was born to be was a forged medic jet.

In my opinion, I think that being "famous for being forged" is sort of like a token-minority situation for Pharma, where perhaps Pharma was seen as a curiosity or even something exotic, not just as a person. Maybe because he was a jet and people assumed jets were only soldiers/transportation, a lot of his achievements were put in the light of "Oh, he's a really amazing doctor, for a jet" or "It's crazy that he's a doctor AND a jet at the same time". The attention Pharma received for the unique circumstances of his birth WAS positive, but it would've likely been framed in a bit of a condescending way, as if Pharma is noteworthy and famous not for being a good doctor, but for being a good doctor despite being born a jet.

So I would say that as far as Pharma's personal experience with Functionism, he simultaneously experienced privilege and marginalization. He enjoyed the privileges of being a medic while avoiding the restrictions of being a flight frame. However, a lot of the idolization and attention he received would have also come from a place of tokenizing Pharma: he's "famous for being forged," because in this society he's defying expectations merely for existing as himself. That is to say, Pharma in a Functionist society wasn't treated as remarkable because of who he is as a person and how hard he worked to be a good doctor; he was treated as remarkable for the circumstances of his forging, something he had no control over and can't change, and apparently Pharma being a forged medic jet is such a noteworthy origin that he's "famous" for it.

The above paragraph is purely headcanon, of course, but I like to imagine that part of Pharma's reason for having a big ego isn't out of simple vanity or insecurity, but because of a sort of "gifted student" syndrome, in a sense. From the moment he was forged he was treated as a rarity and an incredible phenomenon, and he would have had to work incredibly hard to be seen as "an incredible doctor" in his own right rather than just "that forged medic jet." Maybe, as a jet, he also had something to prove; he had to show to a Functionist society that being a jet doesn't make him an inferior doctor and that his alt-mode has nothing to do with his skills at his profession.

That is to say, I don't think Pharma would have been openly anti-Functionist, or had many opinions about it at all. I actually lean towards the interpretation that Pharma basically saw himself as getting lucky with the way he was forged and being content with the fact that he'd managed to carve out a reputation for himself as being incredibly skilled. However, Pharma not getting involved politically in Functionism doesn't change the fact that he WOULD have had a very complicated relationship with Functionism, in that alt-mode discrimination would have had an effect on him even though he was in the scientific/medical class and supposedly privileged.

#mtmte #mtmte pharma #transformers idw #transformers meta #mtmte meta #squiggposting #pharma apologism #pharma doesn't fit neatly into categories of privileged or oppressed and that makes him especially interesting #tldr: pharma probably got microaggressioned a lot at work lmao #some med student: oh my gosh... a flight frame in medical school... how did you manage that? #omg pharma it's so craaazy that you can fly and you're also a doctor #wow pharma your hands are incredible it's a good reason you have them or they probably wouldn't have let you in #pharma smiling tightly with a drink in his hands: yeah. crazy. #pharma: anyways i'm gonna go perform a triple organ donation everyone fuck off i'm working #i think pharma never got political mainly because he comes off as the type who focuses on his job and nothing else #like he's experienced marginalization on account of being a forged medic JET but he kind of just went #well I overcame the odds and i'm the best doctor ever now and my position in society is comfortable that's all i wanted #but it's a far cry from fanon that decides to make him a full on card carrying functionist that's openly bigoted #i feel like i just repeated myself over and over again without saying much ah well

[bumblingbabooshka]

"Everything you went through was meaningless." [St Voyager S3 E7: 'Sacred Ground']

#Serving Jesus realness #star trek screenshots #Janeway #iconic that all the aliens are like 'damn....that's crazy....anyway-' about Janeway HEHEHE they're like snickering behind their hands #I would be too honestly if some outsider tried to speedrun my ancient spiritual rituals #Love the vibe of 'this could all be hazing' they're putting out. Also I keep seeing the face paint on the guide woman as like a mic #honestly this woman's fucking hilarious HEHEHE #Janeway: I'm dying. / Alien Guide: We all die someday :) <- lady who just told her to stick in her hand in a poison jar #AHAHAHA THEY REALLY DID HAZE HER...I love these guys they're so nahnahnahbooboo-core #also the refrain 'Everything you went through was meaningless' ..... thinking BIG thoughts about post-voyager voy crew back on earth #I really do earnestly love the gleeful contempt vibe...it just seems so right. In a funny way but also in a way that's deeply true #the feeling of trying to find answers while you universe laughs and says there are none - it's meaningless - but you're welcome to go ahead #and try. If you find God you have the feeling it would just stare at you blankly. Then laugh. #Chakotay: Captain I've been so worried about you! Have you found a solution? / Janeway: Absolutely. I'm going to walk into the death shrine #Chakotay: (internally hysterical) Oh of COURSE!!!! no of COURSE she's going to walk into the DEATH SHRINE!!!! #great imagery in this one <3 folks who love religious imagery (me) will get a kick outta this one <3 #anyway I love when star trek does hopeful eps like this...makes me tear up like. Yeah there could be a scientific explanation but that #doesn't make it MORE true or MORE real than the religious one - it's just as valid to believe in the spirits #Also those three old creeps were lovely <3 scared me and I like that! existential dread!

[da-proti-toku-grem]

why can't anyone understand that everyone is different and not everyone likes the same things and that it's completely okay AND normal for someone not to like going out and preferring to stay at home :/

#honestly i understand that my parents care about me and they don't want me to be feeling bad #and that they ask me bc they just want to make sure i'm okay #but i've explained to them what i feel like and they just don't get and i get mad but i akso know it's not their fault and just... oughhhhh #like yeah i have a weird kind of social anxiety according to my therapist and even she doesn't know exactly how to help me yet #but there are just so many reasons behind why i don't like going out and it's not just bc it gives me anxiety #or why those situations give me anxiety in the forst place #1. i'm just a very introverted person that doesn't like going out #2. crowded places/closed spaces/places where there's not enough ventilation/loud places (be it people talking or just music) overwhelme me #3. all said in 2 + flashing lights give me huge migraines that can linger for over 3 days #4. i am very much a night owl and i'm forced to live in a society where that isn't fucking acceptable apparently and i'm called lazy for - #- not being productive in the morning when the only reason behind it is that i am a lot more productive at night #but no one ket's me do that bc 'why are you doing stuff when you're supposed to be asleep?' #i have been the same since i was little. literally nothing has changed #and people where always like 'oh she's just shy' #but idk wtf changed #maybe it was that i became and 'adult' or maybe the fact that i started therapy and they told my parents that i have social anxiety. idk #but suddenly every single person in my family is worried about it and they're genuinely making me feel like there's smth wrong about me #i mean. i have my problems i'm not gonna go telling you that i'm perfect bc i'm pretty much not #but is there really smth that wrong with me that i need to fix #or is society just a bitch that doesn't understand that there's different kinds of people and everyone is different & IT'S COMPLETELY OKAY #have they ever thought about the fact that maybe these situations cause me anxiety bc i've been forced all my life to do them #even if i don't like them #instead of thinking that i don't like them BC they cause me anxiety?? #i mean. i know i have to go out more and that there's tons of things i can do ofc #but you can't just force me to do things i don't want to and put on a good face while doing it *every.fucking.day* #aaaaand i could add a lot more things but i'm once again reaching the tag limit so i shoukd just shut up #it's just driving me crazy bc i know they're trying to help but it really is not helping at all............. #ranting