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jeysuso · 2 years

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#valid reasons why i think eddie and argyle would’ve made perfect friends

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canisalbus · 7 months

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Trying to imagine if the Pope in Machette's universe is, like, a Pomeranian, and thus shrinks down to a fraction of his original size when wet. Like it rains and everyone is like 'oh, Your Holiness. Oh no'

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#I'm sorry I'm unearthing an ask from july I didn't get around to publishing this back then but it has haunted me ever since #yes #his holiness musn't get wet #I haven't really locked down the pope's design yet #initially I visioned him as an old greying bloodhound but then someone suggested spinone italiano for the bearded look #and I haven't been able to decide #big imposing good looking guy in his prime but now shrunken and hunched over and a little senile #mostly good natured but not really interested in running the church #but he liked Machete when he was just a priest and his assistant so he made him a cardinal and personally appointed him to a high position #so he's just constantly scurrying around and trying to keep everything rolling under the rule of a idgaf pope #answered #torn-by-dreams

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sepulchritude · 2 months

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The most terrifying question a person with tummy troubles can get: what food can you eat?

All thoughts immediately leave my head. What? No food. Don’t do that. Me, my food? You’ve probably never heard of it. You don’t want me to answer that. I’m moving to Antarctica.

#short answer: no garlic onion gluten or high fructose corn syrup #long answer: you don’t want the long answer. i don’t even want it. you’d have to become an amateur dietician to even get the gist of it #you’d need to pay for an app. and memorize a bunch of stuff and amounts #you’d have to read every label on everything. you’d have to learn that the FDA and the USDA have different rules for listing ingredients #do you want to know what a galacto-oligosaccharide is? do you really?#there aren’t even good infographics about it they’re all terrible #please just tell me where you want to get dinner so i can check the menu #please just ask me ‘hey what chips do you want’ or ‘where can i find a spice mix that works for you?’#those have simple answers #‘what food can you have’ does not have a simple answer #i love that we’re humans and we show love through food but consider:#loving me through food is an exercise that requires in depth research and dedication or i will be up all night vomitting and shitting myself #sepulchritudinous #fodmap stuff

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silverskye13 · 4 months

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Are your earlier oneshots about Ren and the Red King canon for Redstone and Sculk?

Yes and no.

Yes in the sense that they happened, no in the sense that they're not timeline applicable. I imagine the Ren and the Red King shorts happened before the events of Redstone and Skulk, the Red King and Ren have had their resolution -- whatever that entails -- and the Red King has mellowed out a bit since then. He's no longer new, hellfire and vengeance and righteous anger at the necessity of his creation. He's figured out who he wants to be in hels, and is being that thing.

#answering asks #anonymous #redstone and skulk #the red king hels #hels and high water #those are all of my helsmet tags btw #in case anyone wants them #i am 99% sure all my helsmet stuff has been posted individually on AO3 as well but just in case those are the tags #hels and high water is everything hels that isn't rns exclusive #its not exactly canon to rns though because rns is turning into the remake of the story i started with hels and high water #its a long story i wont get into in tags #then the red king hels tag is all things ren and the red king related #rns asks

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muzzleroars · 6 months

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I feel like V2 would like living in Heaven, it was made for peacekeeping/security and Heaven is probably still unstable from the councils destruction so it could use its pre-programmed expertise plus it went through its own personal growth which would allow it to adapt better to the needs of the angelic citizens, the fear of machines may be offset from just how V2 embraces fully its 'human' programming. Which really is where V2 is superior to V1 who has an uphill battle to get to where V2 naturally starts (V1 doesn't care about that but shhh let V2 have this).

Micheal or more likely Raphael could sell it's inclusion in Heaven as it being an experimental angel-made model (not mentioning the 'fallen'-ness status of the angel who 'made' it) thus lacking the bloodthirst of its human-made predecessors (V2 has self-control) and that Micheal will be keeping a close eye on it. It could also act as a symbol of Heaven's new direction of being more forgiving and probably helps to later cover for Mike's accidental Ferryman promotion, 'the machine was a positive addition so we are now trialing repentant sinners, yes this was absolutely planned beforehand, don't worry.'

AUUUGHHH I LOVE THIS....i've definitely thought about v2 at least going on visits to heaven with michael, and i do have the idea as well that if things settle down enough, the archangels are left with picking up the pieces of what's left of heaven and where it might go. so v2 getting to be an asset in that adds a needed dimension imo - it understands humanity and could help much further integrate the human angels with their true counterparts. like honestly...the scenario is kind of ideal for how i characterize v2, with its ever present, ever ephemeral dream of achieving peace. heaven is destabilized, quite similar to a world recovering from war with the remaining leadership more than a little adrift - raphael and uriel, while commanding angels, are suited to direction rather than planning, while michael has the capacity to govern but is obviously dealing with an overwhelming amount personally. in this, v2 could finally find its place the way it wants to. these people need peace, they wish for security, and all v2 was ever trained to do was to establish and maintain those exact goals. on its very first visit it sees so much that it could help with, so much it could improve, its mind rampant with ideas that it's sure to rattle off to michael in great detail but...this is heaven. it's angels. it knows they would likely reject it and so it couches everything in hypotheticals "i'm not THAT invested, just thinking out loud"...but it gets a response it didn't expect

michael tells it that they need assistance and that v2 might be the one to provide it. he wants it to finally have its chance, he knows its passion and how much it wants to make the peace its held in its mind all this time...and he's humbled himself enough to admit that he and the other archangels left don't know the proper way forward. so let them handle their public, let them educate the angels about its purpose and see what it can do for them (LOVE raphael doing the spin because again, he's....he's a bit of a little liar when it comes to maintaining harmony) while it worries about the real work. and like weirdly. v2 gets to experience what it had thought it was cheated out of forever, it begins to see its potential, so long in stasis, actually come to some kind of fruition. michael, though stubbornly reclusive at this point, is still now the highest authority in heaven and so his word goes a long way in establishing acceptance among the true angels, while the humans are proud to see their work embraced by the heavenly host. it's not exactly EASY nonetheless, but michael is viewed as the last bastion of god's will, so he's difficult to dispute. and he sees v2 really begin to shine fully, when it can hearken to its nature and facilitate peace rather than force itself into hell's mold. after all its given him...it's nice to be able to give back to it.

also SO incredibly real for the ferryman incident too lmaoooo there would definitely be a less strict air about things in heaven, with michael trying to reinstate a more luciferian rule and v2 bringing a humanity to heaven, which all nicely lays the groundwork for any uh. new plans. because this IS all on purpose. the damage control is something v2 finds VERY amusing, especially considering the circumstances ("you ACCIDENTALLY blessed a guy???? you barely talk???????? HOW LMAO") - it does kind of think that mike could use admitting to the mistake, but it also understands his ego can probably only take so many hits at a time. v2 doesn't hold the perspective that this was a technicality though, since it doubts even an angel of michael's position could bless or damn as he pleases and the only thing that kept the ferryman bound was their condemnation from god rather than their true morality. it's just. not entirely sure if the angels are ready for that conversation

#EVERYTHING YOU SAID WAS SO GOOD...sorry i more rambled than added but you got it in one!!#there are DEFINITELY high up angels that get snippy about it #both v2 and the ferryman lol #well then what's next the DEVIL coming back too????#michael: hm. actually-#cake answers #v2 #rise and fall au

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the-trans-dragon · 2 months

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I need them to lower the price of soup. What the fuck do you mean $2.68 for a can of soup. It's soup. In a can. What the fuck.

#sorenhoots #i remember having this exact thought when it was around $1.50. it wasn't that long ago!!!! my god. if they go up to $3 for a can of soup il #fuck i dunno but jesus Christ why is everything always getting more expansive #dont say inflation. inflation isnt the anwer i want. give me an answer i can do something about ugh. SOUP? Jesus christ. IN A CAN. over $2?#dont even get me started on milk #used to go on sale for two gallons for $5. now its 2 for $6; and when its not on sale its fucking $10.19 or some shit. for fucks sake???#minimum wage here is fucking $7.25 an hour. we have businesses paying their workers like $2 an hour because “tips.” stupid fucking country #a fucking hour of work doesnt even gaurantee that you can afford a CAN of SOUP.#because rent is so high and bills are so high and doctor appointments are so high. and now soup is over two dollars and its so stupid

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todayisafridaynight · 27 days

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any hopes for kiwami 3? like things u wanna see added or changed stuff like that

if they dont keep kiryu's goofy walk stance and the hoof-like walk sounds i dont wanna play it

#snap chats #no one understands how much i love that from y3 and y4 its genuinely one of my favorite things about the game #oh but i guess i have to give an actual answer now. HMPH.#id scream if they revived kanda calling mine limp wristed. homophobia in 4k #OK BUT TO BE SERIOUS uhhhh i dont know. im a real simple guy i think #my only like. If This Isnt There Im Leaving deal is mine's palette and im so serious #rgg's scaring me with all the black-hair/purple-suit mine stuff as of late and i cant stress how hard ill vomit if thats in the final #HYPOTHETICAL final anyways. yk3 isnt coming out for. IDK A WHILE #i wanna say i hope they highlight daigo and mine's relationship more but i dont know how theyd do that #i really like how mine's handled in y3 as is so i dont think i want scenes injected like what they did with yk1 and nishiki #someone said a Mine Saga after the game and... hm ... sounds too unrealistic for me to hope for it #like im REALLY trying to think how they could possibly reference the rggo stories in y3 since those are EXCELLENT but #i think . MAYBE. you could reference the story where richardson calls mine as he's driving to the hospital #the only thing you'd have to exclude though is mine stopping by the bar- like JUST keep the phone conversation maybe #cause in that scene that subordinate does question mine if he can really kill daigo and i think thatd be neat. in my opinion.#yeah i dont know. in regards to rggo its hard to think of what i want without intervening things i already like about y3 #its a real head scratcher ...#a really good epilogue addition would be adapting that RGGO bit where daigo ruminates on mine. that's a fair ending for him i think #it also fulfills the need to see how daigo saw mine even if its just a little #and to non-rggo readers it could start to answer 'how does daigo feel about everything that happened'#im still so curious as to if daigo was briefed on EVERYTHING that happened but .... anyways....#sorry all my hopes for y3 are just mine/minedai centric fLVKELKA BUT LIKE. i really am content with everything else with y3 surprisingly #idk. i want kiryu fucking up that curry in high definition tho. thats important to me #THEY HAVE TO KEEP THE QTES DURING THE RICHARDSON FIGHT ILL BE PISSED #i need the fight to be AS CAMPY and unnecessary as it was in the og. INCLUDING richardson's voice acting i need it wack as hell #is it weird i actually appreciate the Diet Building Loredumping being like. in replayable-cutscene form #i thought id prefer just One Long cutscene but im glad theres the option to skip those segments #BUT being able to get a refresher in case you missed something somehow #im running out of tags jesus christ i shouldve put this in the main text but vjALjlagj those are all my thoughts for now bYE

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imwritesometimes · 4 months

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I have had. A day that started really good! It was so full of promise for an easy day! And now. I am looking at yet another new year kicking off full of unbelievable shit. Already. I cannot fckn believe this is happening. Again. Like. I am not God's strongest warrior. I am his tiredest little creechur fool. Jingle bell hat that rings when I walk like pls.

#getting such a headache from scrolling handyman results & indeed pages all day :(#also been looking at the community college cert courses cause lmao I need another job so bad #but everything under the fckn sun is like #you wanna answer a phone? need certs. need a degree. like idk #looking at a certain program for certain certs but it's....... more money than I've got #it's.... kinda high but. seems like it would be like the most prudent choice. solid steady kinda thing idk.#I'm just. so done. for this to be how I gotta enter 2024 it's like lmao why would I expect anything different?#of course more house issues! of course! of course more financial bullshit!#erin explains it all

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dramatic-dolphin · 7 months

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crazy how 8am classes have such a clear, immediate negative effect on my mental health

#i am not making it up but i don't think anyone i've ever said this to took me seriously????#but legit like 85% of the time if i'm like “wouagh why do i want to kill myself because everything sucks suddenly and i'm gonna cry”#the answer “idiot you had to get up for an 8am class today”#how the fuck did i survive high school

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jvzebel-x · 4 months

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#i still havent been able to get the pic of my entire family celebrating the holidays together out of my head.#my parents ruined every christmas they could. every holiday. every birthday. everything. there could be nothing special #w/o my dad calling my mother a fat pig or my mom interrupting his dinner prayer to call him a lying hypocrite.#w/o police getting involved&having to explain why my dad had my mom in a headlock or my mom had punched him in the face.#we could have nothing bc their need for misery outweighed their desire to give their children any fucking joy #every fucking time.#but i have to sit here&wonder if im in the wrong bc im being gaslit into missing a family+memories we all know damn well #never fucking happened. i blacked out half my fucking childhood&still know thats true.#i have to wonder if maybe-- just maybe-- they would actually apologize for everything they did if i ever called or wrote.#if maybe they would welcome me back w/o expecting an apology From Me.#but then i remember how the first thing my mother said when getting in touch w me after two years was how disappointed she was in me #for not thinking to tell anyone in the family that i was homeless. how selfish i was for it.#how she only contacted me after getting my email address-- the same one ive had since high school-- from family #bc shed been crying to our entire extended family about how worried she was about me so they managed to find my gofundme #&not a single person in my family donated to it-- but they all had a lot to say about it. didnt they.#&somehow i know that theres nothing for me w any of them. nothing at all but more disappointment.#&photos of all of them smiling that i have to remind myself are definitely not real.#bc how many of those exact photos had i been in? no matter what the answer is i dont remember a single one being real.

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ghost-t-cryptids · 13 days

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In an effort to calm my brain and body, I will be taking a short break from commission work and posting art.

I've got a lot of expectations on me rn, a lot of pressure, most of which has been put on me by...myself lmao

So yeah, if you still want to help out, I've got a ko fi link somewhere lol

Enjoy the rest of your week, I'll see you all on, lets say...Tuesday!

#ill still answer commission requests tho #just dont expect me to start them until next week!#im gonna get silly with my art in the meantime #me talking #all the pressure is on me to find a home...but its hard ya know?#ive set myself some high expectations for everything #from art to writing to just living day to day life #and i need a break!

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theres-whump-in-that-nebula · 1 month

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AHA

I am not going crazy. Having excess beta brainwaves IS correlated to ADHD symptoms (in children and adolescents), specifically metacognition issues, inattention, and irritability:

#This is one study; but it’s interesting that usually the stereotype is having high theta; but that hasn’t really been proven #because correlation ≠ causation #which doesn’t mean much for the beta thing either but STILL #They were looking mainly for high theta and found a lot of diagnosed ADHD kids with high beta and no ODD #I want my brain readings. I want my brain readings n o w #Two more days. I bet they’re gonna say I don’t have ADHD because of the high beta #I bet they’re gonna say I just have anxiety #Again EEG isn’t alone a proven method to diagnose ADHD but I took a written diagnostic too #so maybe this is just to determine what medications will work???? idk I definitely passed the personal history test lmfaoo #But I have a bad feeling I’m gonna get shrugged off #because when they were asking me questions I felt like they were cutting my answers short a little #but that could be because I was infodumping #But yeah my beta power with eyes open is 5.70 and the normal range (if I’m reading it correctly) is 3.65–0 #Beta is supposed to be related to focus so maybe it’s possible that some ADHD people are TOO focused on too many things at once #which leads to focus issues VS some have “sleepy brains” with high theta which can’t focus on anything???#idk #ehehehehe feed me scientific studies and numbers #yummy #Yeah it’s not that my brain “runs slowly and is spaced-out” it’s that I can’t get it to stop accelerating and latching onto everything #and in order to do one thing I have to rip the suction-cupped tentacles of my brain off five different things before I can focus #which LEADS to anxiety because I can’t always peel myself away from everything else so I’m just stuck there #like a statue #trying in vain to break out from the inside #hence the anxiety

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#feelin weird. feelin real weird. in a bad way? no i guess not but more like im a haha wtf is happening here?#like i should maybe track my mood just so i can be like wtf is this? more bc i think its interesting #bc like i mean im spending ~11hrs in the lab and the stress has been real high and ive not been sleeping well #but like currently? i feel like i wanna run a mile. like i wanna run around in circles and scream and laugh until i cry #too much energy. too much energy. but y? where is it coming from? its weird #its like the edge of a headache. the cusp of turning. it doesn't quite feel bad yet but like i woke up at 4 #and was insane until 6 when i had to get up and then i was in the lab all day until 6.30 #and immediately i went for a run like empty stomach. i need to run now. and i still feel like that. like i need to run and run and run #but like y am i not exhausted? im not even tired? im vibrating #i watched the new successi0n episode twice and im losing my mind abt it #so its weird and i dont understand. but its not bad. it feels out of control like it feels fucked up but im not being like irradic #like if i was standing beside someone i dont think theyd notice. except maybe my sister bc i think if i talked id be noticeable #energetic. idk maybe im just exhausted and brain is pumping me with stress hormones so i csnt stop but i also csnt feel it #but i suspect its something to do with estrogen and progesterone levels changing which isnt great bc ive got a cycle that borders being #concerningly short but like idk rn its fun. im sure itll break and ill split apart but rn everything feels hilarious #its also weird bc im always like: y do i have so much energy after i dont sleep? is not sleeping thr answer. and today i was like hm #maybe i cant sleep bc i have too much energy. hm. idk its not bad. it doesn't feel bad #it just feels interesting and notable so im noting it. weird stuff. hopefully it pulls me thru tomorrow #bc my back fucking hurts lmao and its monday so ppl r back in the lab as i stand around for 11 hours #unrelated

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boxwinebaddie · 4 months

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uncle nina be honest: is ravenstans type just tall white men?

EYE--

tHE SOUND I JUST MADELHSKDDSLKDHS this is so FUCKING FUNNY HELLLLLLLP PLEASE....jail FOREVER!!! LIFE!!!!!EVER!!!!!

also....yes it is...ye...s it is...thats soo...

...my hand is over my EYES, anon.

WOW!!!!!

WOOOOooOOOOOoooOOOOw!!!!!!

I'm Embarrassed! i just Know his mexican ancestors are Rolling like sharon...i'm so sorry, baby, i'm So glad you don't have to see this...

but okaokok...LIS!TEN....li sten...

so bc i want to Laugh ( im already laughing )...i feel like when they're dating he's on tiktok live drinking some jersey box wine while kyle cooks dinner nbd Just Sbboyfriend Things also wheeeew!!! house husband kyle my beloved <33 hes so FIONE and CAYOOT :'))) I Love U Baby...ur going to heaven... STAN tho??? HELL IS HOT!!! BOILING!!!

because people keep spamming him w/ a filter to do and hes kinda tipsy and mostly down bc hes bored...but it's the fkn Rank Your White Boy Of The Month From One To Ten filter & hes like gUYS I CANNOT DO THAT I WILL GET IN tRoUbLe STOP IT...but like looks over his shoulder and kyle is listening to music hes like not paying attention so reallyquietly hes like...okay...just Real quickLKHDSHDKSHD >.>

LIKE YOU ARE LITERALLY GOING TO JAIL!!!! HE HAS A PROBLEM!! THE CHOKEHOLD THAT TALL WHITE MEN HAVE OVER RAVEN LIKE THAT NEEDS TO BE STUDIED IN A LAB!!!! ITS THAT SERIOUS!

buuut i bet you in this auniverse kyle is probably On that filter so ravenstan is like you yknow what friends....its fine. we will just leave that top spot open just in case...Itll Be Fine...shhhhshsh ( smh......jfc )

and you know what it IS fine At First because like ew matty healy??? glen powell... like...truly low tier BUT THEN IS LIKE WHAT A MINUTE WHY IS ADAM DRIVER KINDA...HIS NOSE...WOW WAIT IS THAT THE GUY FROM EUPHORIA HOLD ON HES SO TALL WAIT A DAMN SJDHDSHDSD like its just...hes sWeAtiNg like this is WHACK GUYS hell is So hot! why would u send me this!!?...also...4...Obviously. SHKS

LIKE?S?DDSLJDJ:JDSS GO TO CHURCH!!! REPEEENT HARLOT!!!!

all while jerseykyle is Making Him Pasta!!! like what happened to got a white boy on my rosta he be feeding pasta and lobster!!!! HUH???? the BETRAYAL!!!! WOWWWW!!! s!m!H!

cue ravenstan like -looks over shoulder biting nails- u guys Cannot tell kyle about this like bEST FRIEND YOU ARE ON TIKTOK!!! LIVE!!!!

but yknow...he left that one and ten spot open...and its almost done theyre basically free...the thing is rolling and he squints like who is that...nOOOOO SHUT UP IS THAT SPENCER REID??? I HAD A FAT CRUSH ON IN CRIMINAL MINDS WAIT BUT LIKE WE CANT PUT HIM AT TEN LIKE THATS JUST...I CANT...LIKE WHAT ARE THE ODDS WERE GOING TO GET KYLE THATS NOT--ITS FINE!! *sweats*

and puts mgg at One and its rolling one last time and hes like itsfineitsfineitsfine EverythingIsFine!! aND thEN GETS KYLE AND IS LIKE.....OOoOoOF PLEEEASE PLZ SAY SIKE and house husband jerseykyle rolls up BEHIND HIM!!!!! like all concerned hand on hip in the star of david apron ( pls kiss me wow kyle im so sorry bestie ) like babe i am trying to fkn cook dinner why is my TickTack blowing up?? im trying to listen to ABBA like what the fuck is so important that dancing queen is being interrupted rn and also??? why are people telling me to fight the tall nerdy guy from that one CIA show???

and ravenstans like DOOONT WORRY ABOUT IT MY LOVE LMAO DONT WORRY ABT IT!! ALSO THEYRE NOT CIA THEYRE FBI AND HIS NAME IS SPENCER REI and then kyle looks and is like oH OKAY YOU WOULD KNOW ABOUT THAT HUH STAN WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS WHO THE FUCK IS THIS WHY ARE YOU RANKING WHITE MEN ON THE INTERNET!!!!! HELLO!!!!.....and everyones like oh my gopd i cant believe my otp is breaking up on camera like....im laughing....Im...

anyways...stan permanently lives in tall white man jail. Life Sentence.

-uncle nina, breaking my silence to post This of all things

#this was so funny i started crying #i have no idea what compelled me to answer this or answer it in this unhinged manner but i saw the filter on tiktok and i was like ohhhh my #anyways...hell is hot....tall fashionable white man...probably prominent nose...kinda mean...literally jail #ravenstans ancestors doing backflips #i would blame sharon but sharon did the same thing this is so... its a generational curse...i cant believe it...#this seriously was so funny to me like i could be answering important plot questions but this was too real #ALSO LISTEN SPECIFICALLY SPENCER REID ITS NOT JUST MGG LIKE ITS SPECIFICALLY SPENCER REID FROM CRIMINAL MINDS #WHICH I GET IT BESTIE BUT ALSO YOURE GOING TO JAIL #but that tracks for him like thats reallly...KYLE WAS LIKE WOW CORRECTING HIS NAME AND EVERYTHING IS THAT UR BOYFRIEND ??!! HMMM??? SLKHDLK #screaming crying throwing up like Babe Please!!! IM SORRY!!! CAN WE tALK ABOUT THIS IM SORRY U KNOW UR #ONE IN MY HEART MI CORAZOOOON ;-;;;#where is the white boy rehab and how do i get stan there #in the TRENCHES also u know what his abuelo was also in white gay boy hell during ww2 like some1 needs to STUDY THIS #STAN LIKE PLS UR MY FAVOEITE WHITE BOY DONT DO THIS PLEASE ITS PASTA NIGHT #WERE CELEBRATING UR CULTURE PLEASE THE SONG OF UR PEOPLE IS PLAYING #like soy chicken alfredo and abba is the white experience and stan b experiencing it #he livelaughluvs white boys #unfortunately same i love jacob elordi so bad #Jail #edit: please know jeremy allen white was also high spec in the bear when he was yelling at everyone

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milflewis · 1 year

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going to go lie in some grass and scream into the dirt or smth and see if things are a little better after that

#nothing like waking up at 6am to study for an exam that you are unbelievably fucked for and then getting a call an hour before said exam #to find out that a friend of yours is missing. bc. that’s. so .#and i’m not even in the same fucking county. what am i supposed to do about this #and i was told by a mutual person who i am no longer friends with bc of a falling out that was similiar to this lmao and woah #idk if u’ve ever answered a phone at 11am on 2 hours sleep. half high from exhaustion. 2 a person talkin to you with Hate in their voice #but it’s wild #if i ever die from a curse or smth it’s bc of her #i am so v bad with not being able to do nothing and i can feel myself shutting down and can and don’t want to do anything to stop it #just got to get through these exams and hope that she’s found and ok. i just. idk. i’m just tired and i want to hug her and have her tell me #about her gf who i find so annoying but she loves and steal her socks bc they have cool designs and watch spiderman like we’re 15 again #three days. three fucking days she’s been gone and no one told me #i want to not have to miss ppl. i want to not have to do another reading in a church. i want to refuse to eat her terrible baking. i want to #listen to her tell me everything i do wrong in life even tho that’s kind of awful. i want to sleep. i want. i want #ignore this i just needed to get it out so i didn’t give out to ppl where it wouldn’t do any good #at least i found out what was being hidden from me lol #delete later

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morewyckedthanyou · 1 year

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aaaaand i'm back to eating antidepressants again.

i also got prescribed a low dose of another antidepressant to help me sleep - i really hope it does help because my sleep has been shit for a long while now and melatonin has made no difference no matter how strong the dosage.

#i should also make a phone call to the free mental health clinic soon #to have some... not really therapy but someone professional to talk to at least #and then maybe in a few month's time if i feel better i'll be able to get an adhd screening test done as well #anyways lol i scored high enough on the depression screening test today to qualify for moderate depression #which probably is accurate bc yeah i have been feeling really uninterested in social interactions lately #and have been really easily irritated and angry about everything for no reason and not had any interest to do any of my chores #but i still did not realize it had gotten this bad again #long story short: depression creeps up on you and lies to you #it's not nearly always just feeling sad and hopeless #and i should know that by now i guess but... i never seem to learn huh #anyway if you have sent me messages here i will try to answer them asap i promise #and i will try and be more active here again as well soon i hope #haven't really been feeling it #personal

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