#anything i dont know i know how to research

[angy-grrr]

i have an issue I see with ppl trying to make shippers "understand" their ship could not become canon, and I dont think many would expect it.

Why are we pretending being in your late 30s is being middle age? Dont get me wrong, being a middle aged person doesn't have to mean anything about someone, but its just- not middle age literally.

I dont really understand bringing that up anyways, iit feels wrong to me to believe just ppl in their teens and 20s could ever do anything pro LGBT+ in general... I find it insulting, as if this is a new thing or impossible to believe older people could believe in queerness in a positive light or be queer themselves. The main reason in the west, and im assuming other parts of the world, there arent as many or as visible is, well, because people were dying because of the AIDS crisis + the isolation from being older and every single public space made for or just young queers or cishet older adults.

I get the point, but if I remember correctly every time I see someone trying to do that (of course im believing they have the best intentions in mind), they have to bring up how this is a Japanese middle aged man as a good enough reason.

I don't really mind about what others want to believe or how much they care in terms of shipping -if you prefer to be casual and not paying that much attention to what's canon or not, good for you! Many ppl are also like that and its completely valid, here in this side of Tumblr might seem like all of us believe and theorize about their endgame potential bc we are the ones that usually make more posts or longer content. But I dont like those assumptions about queerness being tied to young westerners, and I wanted to rant a little bit.

Again, I dont believe that was the intention in any of those posts, and im not trying to call out anyone, just rant.

#grrr talking #I just researched a little bit and well #Kaito who wrote blue flag with the first queer protagonists being serialized by shonen jump #he is literally just 2 years younger than horikoshi #he ended blue flag when he was 31 #idk I just dislike how aging is being seen these days in the internet #we could say middle age starts around 45-60s depending on how long ppl usually live in your area #it would be a little worrying if 37 is considered middle aged considering ppl in Japan are known for living until their late 80s-90s #and stilllll #what's up with the age??? #bring up the demographic bring up resistance from fans or how he just might not want to be remembered like that or be interested #but bringing age? why everybody that does this brings up age? #and also the sexuality of ppl we dont know #that has nothing to do with anything #an author being queer doesnt mean they want to make queer stories or characters #and an author not being queer doesnt mean they just want cishet stories #idk if I sound mean #I swear im just ranting ajdhjfhkdfshfksjh #you can look away folks

[oursystemblog]

is wishing you could be a system a symptom of being one? i was reading your blog yesterday and i got very very sad, and other system content will often make me sad because i relate to feeling like, in system terms, an original personality/memory holder who is too sad and traumatized to function and doesnt want to front, only its like i always have to be me no matter how much i hate me, and hate existing. so as a result i just dont function really. i relate to stuff you said about shutting down when in too much distress, like going emotionally numb, and i also dissociate a lot. but even when my mind is on something else and im acting different, its not really like switching to a different mode of awareness. i think it might be better if it was. i wish i was an alter so i could go dormant forever. im scared that its too late to completely rehaul how i conceptualize... living, thinking, being, etc... im scared i have to be me forever. im not sure this is a normal or appropriate way to feel... and im sorry for asking something so emotionally loaded too. i dont even know what im asking really... i guess just, if you have any advice, and if you ever felt this way before you realized you were a system, and how you realized. thanks if you answer. sorry

Hi, i wanted to try and write a helpful response however it ended up being Way Longer than i expected to say anything substantial so it's under the cut

I can't really give a 100% certain answer to your question—Symptoms like emotional shutdown and dissociation in response to stress/trauma are also possible without necessarily being a system, ultimately I can't say whether or not you are one (it took me a while to even say whether or not I was one haha). I personally didn't have the experience of wishing i could be a system before i figured it out, but I think I've heard from some other systems that they did experience that; I suppose it's different for everyone.

i'd try to give a more helpful response about how i realized i was a system but i actually don't remember very much about it—I guess I was always aware that I had an "other state" of myself with Very distinctly different mannerisms from my own who was pretty consistently "triggered out" by specific situations (the other state was also aware of themself like "oh, i'm in This Mode again"), and then eventually i thought "that might not be normal actually" and started researching about dissociative disorders some more

Regardless of whether or not you have alters/are an alter, I don't think going dormant would solve the problem, even though I absolutely understand the feeling. While we were still discovering our system we were in a pretty bad place, and when we discovered our own emotion-holder she was very angry and sad—which scared me initially, and i Kind of Wished that she would disappear or that I could just be A Normal Regular Singular Person. A while later I calmed down and realized it was not productive to wish things like that, so I tried talking to her and telling her that it was okay to feel angry, but that things can be better now than in the past and we are capable of healing—treating her with compassion

I think having a conversation with A Literal Part of Myself that held our anger and sadness was helpful, but I also think it's possible to do something similar even if you're not a system—to treat yourself with compassion too, I guess is what I'm getting at here.

I didn't think it would get better, but it did. I mean it took a while and there were ups and downs , but as long as you're still here it is never to late to learn to live again and to recover

Ultimately, everyone's circumstances are different and maybe what helped me doesn't apply the same way to you, but please try to remember that things can get better. Healing is possible, i wish you the best

#summarizing the multiparagraph long response the important part is that healing and getting better is possible regardless of whether you're #a system or not and also do not give up hope #ask

[the-mushroom-faerie]

Hi, I have a question that you might like answering. If you don't want to, that's totally fine, I don't want to make you feel pressured or anything.

Exactly how fast is warp speed in Stargate?? As much as I love Stargate, I'm more of a Star Trek girly personally, so this is confusing me. I've seen you talk a few times about how Star Trek warp is so slow, to the point of calling warp ten slow. Which is what threw me off the most because in Star Trek canon, warp ten is infinite speed (...yeah. I know how goofy that sounds. I have a book that sort of explains how that works, but it's still kinda ridiculous, in my opinion.) So I was just wondering if you would be willing to help explain warp speed in Stargate?

(If you had any questions about Star Trek that I could help answer in return, I'd be totally up for it....but only if you had any. I just mean that I'm not just trying to corner you with questions or anything like that.😅)

Once again, if you don't want to respond to this, or don't feel comfortable doing so, it's not a problem at all. I was just curious.🙂 (Sorry if I wasted your time.💙)

you absolutely aren't wasting my time! so hyperspeed/hyperspace in stargate isn't necessarily going super fast, it's cutting through subspace. we can tell that the Daedalus is much faster than a trek ship because of the distance difference the two franchises have

Atlantis is in an entirely different galaxy, and there's a rather large intergalactic void that takes up most of the travel time - hence why it takes so much power from the gates and requires either a gate bridge or an 8th chevron. Starfleet resides only in the Milky Way galaxy, divided into quadrants.

and yet, Starfleet vessels (barring the borg and whatever tf prodigy had going on) take weeks to months to travel border-to-border within the alpha quadrant alone. in Star Trek Enterprise, they canonically travelled 50 (?) light-years in six months at warp 4.5ish.

copied from the internet (Wikipedia so can't guarantee accuracy it's just the first result that gave me a straight answer)

The Daedalus class ships employ an Asgard intergalactic hyperdrive which based on the fact that the distance between the Milky Way and the Pegasus Galaxy is 3 million light years gives the Daedalus a top speed greater than 5952 light years per hour.

that's pretty fast!! I'm hardly an engineer and it's honestly pretty late rn but I'm pretty handy at research. I hope this answered your questions!! I actually quite like asks like this, feel free to send others!!

#stargate #stargate atlantis #star trek #the daedalus ship #starfleet vessels #starfleet wouldnt stand a chance against the wraith honestly #for as non aerodynamic as an entire city is atlantis herself is pretty fast too #made the trip to earth in less than a week i think #then again she had one or two zpms on her side #mushroom answers #seriously feel free to send me in depth questions these are so fun #go to stick with your headcanons come to me with your technical questions #anything i dont know i know how to research #im good at pushing buttons until it does what i want it to thats my entire tech expertise

[harbingersecho]

grif's surgery but just a little more... obvious?

I actually rly rly ADORE frankengrif but I don't have an in-show reason why he'd have extensive long-term allogeneic skingrafts on his face 😔

#rvb #red vs blue #dexter grif #grif #*24 #mine #art #cw wounds #Look I love biology stuff like this so I like researching what would be at least semi-plausible even if it's just for a dumb halo show that #makes 0 sense where CPR cures a headshot but i cant help it!!! and like the 'lazy' reason for it would be sarge is just crazy like that but #its not a good reason imo. and like the things he lists needing replacement are mostly internal and body parts which makes sense #considering how grif got injured by sheila like I could 100% see that rupturing organs and crushing his hand and there being burns etc #but like nothing points to grif needing any surgery above the neck and i dont think anyone mentions his face being different? i could #make up injuries for him but nothing in the show actually supports that he'd need grafts for anything but his body.. #I'm SOO ready to be convinced otherwise btw like I said I want an obvious frankengrif to be true so bad !! #AGH would it be too insane of me to make like a surgery/injury overview thing for grif just so i can convince myself abt this idea... #i can bend to some fun stuff tho im not a total joykill u know! thats why i give his body the mismatched donor skin look despite allogeneic #grafts not being permanent w/ current tech. like it really doesn't matter if it's realistic or whatever but also Yes It Does. #and like during/after chorus would grey offer to 'fix' it? i imagine the feds could mesh a skin so they could use grif's own skin.. #or like during rats nest when they got reassigned?

[cirrus-grey]

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck the goddamn music-

I don't know the name for the technique but there's this thing that was in there that's the string players, like, tapping the instrument with the bow to create a more percussive sound and normally I wouldn't think too much of it but I swear to god it sounded like creeping spider legs. During the case set at Hill Top Road. With the very obvious references to the Buried and the Stranger and all the rest. Which dropped about a hundred Achives references including Jon's fucking name???

I have always respected the soundscaping they do at Rusty Quill but they're really going above and beyond for this show.

#i dont know if ill have any more coherent thoughts for this episode thb #my mind is just circling on 'celia knows celia KNOW tapes and manila folders??? doing her own research??? anything SPECIAL about #the ones that get read aloud????? #celia tma didnt know that much how does celia tmagp know did she talk to georgie and melanie after it all does she have news about them- #jon jon jon jon jon #lena worked for starkwell didnt she #jon- #did colin just fucking punch sam????? #j- #oh gwen you are in way over your head #dark coat does this worlds gerry work for starkwell too #celia KNOWS #JON #i hope people dont get too annoying about 'its really him' yall know it could just be an ai #SAM TALK TO CELIA ABOUT THE EMAIL FROM JON #i can send email - no shit really??' #...yeah. my brain's a mess right now #this is what i get for listening at 1am #the magnus protocol #7 give and take #tmagp spoilers #tmagp audio #my magnus protocol stuff #original post #queue cause i'll be at work when the episode airs

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 26

someday if i can figure out how the hell people get these things made i would like to do some little destiny & malice acrylic charms. i think those are so fun. and while i mostly want them for Myself i figure that if i DID figure out the process, i should maybe open up the option to anyone else that might want them, soooo...

informal poll: if i figure out how all that works, would any of y'all be into that, and approximately how many of you?

#day 26 #year 5 #my ocs #destiny chainsaw #malice winterfang #i know i've said i don't really like the idea of commissions and this isnt like a PROMISE or anything #i still have a lot of research to do before i commit to a shop of any kind #BUT. i think like a redbubble or something in that vein might be a manageable project #i mention stickers specifically because that seems like a very manageable thing to produce and ship even if i didnt go through like #a service to do so #particularly because i dont think id get a TON of orders for my niche OCs lol #but if i got some practice with something small like this it MIIIIGHT help me build up to making things for a larger market like... #say... well you know what i'm about over here lmao #we've basically all but gotten the official blessings of the powers that be to make homestuck merch without fear of reprisal at this point #ANYWAY that would be a ways off and be a much MUCH bigger project both artistically and in terms of like #me learning how Online Commerce works from the seller end. #BUT I HAVE BEEN CONSIDERING IT. and it seems to me that it would at least be relatively simple to sell like. prints of old art maybe #i dunno! like i said i'll see how the poll shakes out while i do a bit more research

[puppyeared]

adhd comix

#man i dont even have the energy to be mad. im just tired #like. dont u love it when your parents exhibit symptoms of ADHD and your sibling is diagnosed with a learning disability #and instead of thinking oh shit what if the other one has smth too. they subject you to The Horrors #i cant bring myself to hate my parents. but im tired of feeling obligated to defend them when the thing they think is working #isnt actually working and ive just found other ways to cope to avoid any sort of conflict. like lying and stealing. lol #if someone took me aside and said 'hey so your brain doesnt make as much dopamine as usual and its not a bad thing it just means you #need external stimulation and reward system to function and youre not actually secretly fucked up or lazy' as a kid #im pretty sure i wouldnt be here rn with half the problems i already have. unfortunately getting diagnosed late means u dont have a teacher #to back you up at a parent teacher conference that forces your parents to take this shit seriously instead of ignoring it hoping itll #go away on its own. but hey what do i know i have squirrel ipad baby disease. what do i know about my own symptoms #AND. AND i think im allowd to be mad bc ive been doing my own research on this for years before and after diagnosis #theyve been putting me thru the WORST parenting techniques on earth. which they could have corrected at anytime but they were #comfortable thinking they were doing it right and didnt bother to check if they were or werent fucking up their kid in the long run #and refusing to acknowledge it. i just!! they just decided one day hey lets make babies!! and just looked at books on how to make #a human being survive as long as possible!!! what the fuck!!!! #im sorry for putting this on ppls dashes but i am. so tired. of bottling this up. and im not looking for sympathy or anything i just need #to scream and clench my fists to SOMEONE about it because theyre not gonna take this well up the ass. sigh #yapping #vent

[skitskatdacat63]

Here is a badly drawn comic of my terrible, awkward group project experience from yesterday. I thought it was very absurd so I wanted to share it other people lol :)

Let me know, how do you find their conduct 😭

#i tried to small talk #and they werent rly listening and were like i just wanna get this done w so i can eat #yet talked to me abt smth random after #but the moving the laptop is what made me draw this 😭 #like is that not absurd???? #i dont wanna rewatch the video #but i wanna see what the camera frame looked like #bcs from what i saw my drawing is p accurate #but yeah they also talked for the majority of the time #even tho i did more research bcs they took up most of the slides #AND ALSO TOOK MY IDEAS #im like uhhhh im p sure [insert slide topic] is required!!! #and i went to go start writing it #and theyre like oh okay ill do that slide #and even tho i kept reminding them of the slide requirement #they kept being like ugh i cant think of anything #and then would take my ideas when i proposed them #like the conclusion part was to write a proposal abt what solution can be made for the current event topic #AND i took notes the night before and wrote down the idea for the solution #and i told them and theyre like oh yeah thats okay and started writing those slides #i know i should be more assertive but im so conflict avoidant and was kinda like oh. okay. ah. #lmao i hope this doesnt make me come off as someone victimizing themselves #im just annoyed 😭😭 #and also this person was on my abroad trip and we all hated them #but i felt bad abt how much we hated them and theyre(I THOUGHT) much more chill in a classroom setting #so i kinda softened my hate for them and theyre the only person i know in my class rly #so im like ahhhh we should work together! #and now i remember why i dislike them 😭😭 #catie.rambling.txt #catie.art.

[good-beanswrites]

Just wanted to plant an idea if you wanted a bit of fuel: Mahiru asking Yuno to come to her cell before everything goes down.

Edit: I forgot the ask didn't say it but this is part of Kyanako's incredible Order Of Attack AU!

Didn't mean for this to become a mini Mappi study but here we are ✨ Thank you for the request! I fully intended to write them hanging out, but it's more right before they hang out lol. Went a bit on-the-nose with foreshadowing, but isn't that the fun part? It has become Emotional Over Mahiru Hour...

I kept things vague, but TW for mentioning her boyfriend's state of potential self-harm

Mahiru tried not to act superstitious, she really did. As much as she loved the idea of little luck charms, or avoided easy signs of misfortune, it was easier to keep quiet about such ridiculous things.

Maybe catching a bride’s bouquet meant no guarantees; maybe there was no real harm in stepping underneath ladders, maybe a coin tossed into a fountain had no real magic to its wish. However, the one thing she knew for sure held power was a lucky presence. Being in the right place at the right time could alter everything. And today was the right time for something. There was this waiting in the air. The prison had been holding its breath. Mahiru knew it was time to release it all.

“You must be so lonely, why don’t you let big sis Mahiru keep you company?” She beamed at Amane.

She often recalled the good fortune that she and a certain young man had crossed paths on the university terrace. She used to laugh with him about the wonderful coincidence of bumping into each other outside of the bakery, then the convenience store. 

Though she’d never spoken about it to him, she was also grateful for many occasions where she walked in on him at the precise moment to talk him out of something reckless. She always told him that they’d do everything together. He didn’t need to be alone anymore. 

“I wish to be alone. I need peace of mind to think.” Amane turned away from the cell door.

It was a good thing, too. Mahiru’s smile wasn’t as convincing as she said, “o-oh. Of course.”

She made her way around the panopticon, hearing Fuuta pace his cell in anticipation. He must have felt it too, this holding of breath. 

Or perhaps not. He turned down her offer for a bit of company, including a few more colorful words than Amane had. Mahiru just apologized for bothering him and headed back to her cell. She wasn’t sure where Mikoto was at this hour, but she didn’t feel like smiling through a third rejection.

She shook her head back and forth. She wished the motion could rattle the voices inside, she wished she could shake them all away. With her arms secured in place she could no longer cover her ears. She used to hum to keep them at bay, but lately they’d been too loud to stifle. They just kept on talking.

Their words told her the two were right. Nobody needed her company. No – nobody wanted it. Being together hadn’t helped her boyfriend. In fact, being together had been the very thing that got him killed. No wonder Amane and Fuuta wanted to avoid her. 

So then, this was for the best. She would rather deal with the brief sting of refusal than stumble in one day to find them hurt… or worse. As much as she tried to avoid the superstition of it all, the voices reminded her that her very presence could mean life or death. 

“Mappi, are you alright?” Mahiru hadn’t realized a tear had slipped down her cheek until she hurried to swipe it away in front of Yuno. 

“Hah, I’m fine! Just fine.” It was impossible to fool her, Mahiru had learned, but that never stopped her from trying. 

At least she always spoke tactfully. “Rough morning?”

Mahiru shifted her arms in her uniform, making a small sound of agreement.

“Can I do anything to help? What if I stay with you for a bit? I can do your hair, and…”

The voices were right. Amane and Fuuta knew it, too. Presences did hold power, and Mahiru’s was cursed.

But she would sound foolish admitting such a fear to Yuno. She'd heard plenty from the voices about how stupid and airheaded she was, there was no use in getting the same lecture from someone as grounded as her.

Mahiru managed a weak protest, unable to explain her real reasoning. Yuno was insistent. She didn’t give much of a choice. Could she feel the strangeness of the prison, as well? 

At last, Mahiru allowed her shoulders to sag. Yuno was lucky. And kind. Having her nearby would do her good. Amane and Fuuta would be alright. Mahiru had tried spending more time with them after verdicts were announced. Now, she made a mental note to pull back. If her love couldn’t save anyone, at least she could spare them from her curse. They would be safe. 

“Yes. Please stay. The truth is... I don't want to be alone.”

#milgram #mahiru shiina #yuno kashiki #amane and fuuta mentioned #i dont know how well this all fits in with your vision of the au but i had a ton of fun with this lmao sorry 😂 #oh hey if anyone knows any japanese superstitions like those in the beginning lmk #i was trying to research them but i kept getting lucky symbols/words - not necessarily actions like that #anyway thank you so much for this!! it was a really interesting moment to capture >:0 #drabbles that take me way too long to combine my three brain cells but im really pleased with the end result #i had a lot of Mahiru Thoughts but it took a bit of fiddling to make them fit together #the superstitiousness - the focus on one's presence - the parallels with his bf - what she's dealing with from the voices #im glad it came together semi-smoothly in the end asdfsd #i didnt mean for mahiru t break the fourth wall or anything -- #i always saw her as a master at picking up on social changes/cues so she can tell when things are most tense/kotoko is fully prepared #but she doesnt consciously know it -- she just knows that things feel Off #not only do the attacks confirm mahirus fear that shes cursed - but yunos involvement confirms her belief that shes extra lucky #i wonder if shed still end up spending all her time with yuno now that she thought she was such a protective person... #i couldnt articulate it right since the end was wrapping up so nicely - but mahiru starts to wonder if most people are fine being left alon #and *shes* the odd one out for craving company #then she feels isolated because by getting what she wants shes dooming someone else #i mean... if everyone you try to get close to starts getting hurt... wouldnt you worry about the same...? #AHAHAHAHA hope you enjoyed 🙃 #*posts this then retreats back into the void for a bit* #drabbles

[harpermiller]

This is my brain trying to make sense of the new Eddie/Shannon/Chris timeline

With Shannon’s birth year now canonically being 1992 I thought I’d throw together a rough timeline for her and Eddie’s relationship since it seems to be confusing some people. (Although it doesn’t really matter what year these characters were born and we shouldn’t put too much thought into this bc the show retcons backstories all the time)

It’s canon that Shannon was born Oct 1992 and that Buck was born June 1992 and so logically Eddie was probably born either Sept 1990/91/92 (Edit: Its canon everyone! Eddie is a 1992 baby!). I like thinking that he’s a little older than Buck and so I’m going to stick with Eddie being born 1991. I have edited this to reflect his canon age.

I'm going to break this down by year and bold the stuff that is confirmed canon the other stuff is was I could piece together to make it make sense.

And yes I know their ages might fluctuate depending on when birthdays fall I was just making it easier on myself.

2010:

August: Shannon and Eddie have known each other since they were 14. They start dating in their senior year of high school. Shannon finds out she's pregnant, her and Eddie get married, Eddie enlists in the army (Shannon: 18, Eddie: 18)

Basic training is about 10 weeks plus 16 weeks of medic training so Eddie is away at basic for 26 weeks total (Sept 2010 - Jan 2011)

2011:

Eddie finishes basic in Jan 2011 and goes on his first tour in Feb 2011

Tours are anywhere between 7 and 15 months - lets say Eddie's first tour was 9 months

Eddie gets leave from his tour to be there for Chris' birth but has to return soon after (Shannon: 19, Eddie: 19).

2011-2013:

Eddie is in the army on tours and periodically home

Eddie misses Chris' diagnosis

2013:

Eddie re-enlists without telling Shannon (Shannon: 21, Eddie: 21, Chris: 2)

From my research enlistments are usually 4 years in active duty and two years inactive. However, after you've completed active duty you can extend or re-enlist for another four of active duty. This would align with Eddie's timeline as 2010-2014 would be his first contract and he re-enlisted in 2013 to start his second contract as soon as his first is done.

2015:

Eddie's helicopter gets shot down and Eddie is discharged early from the army (Shannon: 23, Eddie: 23, Chris: 4)

Eddie is a Staff Sergeant at this point which is possible for his age just not common

Shannon leaves to take care of her dying mother

2017:

Helena and Ramon try to take Chris from Eddie

Eddie and Chris leave El Paso for LA

Eddie starts at the Fire Academy (Shannon: 25, Eddie: 25, Chris: 6)

2018:

Eddie joins the 118

Shannon returns and dies

(Shannon: 26, Eddie: 26, Chris: 7, Buck: 26)

Do with this as you will :)

#does it all line up with what is said on the show? no but i did the best i could with what weve been given lol #especially since in eddie begins they say chris is born in 2011 and then later in 2015 eddie says chris is 6 when hes actually 4 #but yknow continuity #eddie/shannon/chris are very dear to me and so i wanted to piece them together more #I didn't go into detail about how shannon and eddie met and their relationship before she got pregnant because we really dont know anything #but i'm partial to them being high school sweethearts #i apologise if anything regarding the us military is incorrect im canadian and all my info came from research i did on google #eddie diaz #shannon diaz #christopher diaz #evan buckley #evan buck buckley #911 on fox #911 fox

[rusted-sun]

just remembered an idea i had earlier. so like dominic was originally named butch/butcher but i realized i dont like it at all, and i was iffy about dominic from the get-go and like yesterday or smth the name buster came in mind for him. im really not sure tho. its better than butch i *think* but like. decisions decisions :pensive:

#chess shh #i dont KNOWWW #am i desperate enough for a good name that i want to like. go on a baby names site thats from the 1920s or what. #also like. fun fucking fact. bro was originally italian. but like. it served NO purpose for ANYTHING and i dont wanna anchor shit in like #an actual irl country cuz that means research and languages and whatever and like. why did i do that. what compelled me #wait. HOLY SHIT YALL DONT EVEN KNOW ABOUT MY MAN VEX AND HIS CREW #oh boy. oh no. HOW MUCH HAVE I EVEN OC-POSTED HERE?? I MUST HAVE MENTIONED THEM SOMEWHERE??? RIGHT????

[springsteens]

Elordi should be forbidden to play famous musicians after Priscilla

#i don't get why so many people praise his lazy performance and that he didn't know anything about Elvis like it's a good thing?? #its his job to be Elvis??? idc if you think he was a good or bad person because that's not the fucking point #do you think actors playing Hitler also dont do research or anything just because he was a bad person? #i will never understand how people use Elordi to hate on Austin Butler #posted by me

[skeletalheartattack]

If you were a chulip character how would players kiss you?

find and present to me a working copy of Dragon Ball Z Budokai 1 for the PlayStation 2 and you can kiss my stupid ass

#ask #anon #for a more serious and personal answer. idk i imagine you'd have to see and accept me at my weirdest. otherwise NO kisses. NO love. #you cannot 100% the game if you cannot accept me for the weird fucked slop i am #i also deal 98 hearts of damage if you fuck it up. and i wont appear for 30 ingame days. need time to recover. #best hope you didnt leave me as one of the last citizens you had to kiss #you could savescum i guess to bypass the wait time #but deep down id know #the only character in chulip to have a mr resetti mechanic #another silly answer would be that youd have to find a working beta of tf2 with grenades still intact. but thats impossible im afraid. #but even then i dont think i feel that attatched to the beta. its just the researcher in me who wants to see how the viewmodels look #like we know what the dynamite packs viewmodel looks like. but not really anything else im afraid. #we have an idea of what some viewmodels wouldve included with their model #like the bear trap has an unused portion of its UV sheet that displays what wouldve likely been meant to be a chain #so i wonder how a chain wouldve been adapted with the beartraps viewmodel #like is it a cluster of them on the end of the chain and the scouts spinning it. #or is the viewmodel of one with a chain wrapped around the jaws to help its viewmodel have a more solid silhouette #the frag grenade has what i assume to be the uv portion of a pin #im just fascinated by scrapped content i think. #anyway thank you for the ask anon #i kinda wish i had a game i couldve listed with a funnier title but. dbz budokai is the one that sticks out in my mind

[gwyoi]

ughhhh okay I think ai has its uses and making funny images or memes with them is whatever. best use case is when you train ai on your own work and use it to help you but whatever. the issue I have with ai in academia is that you were never supposed to use google to just explain stuff you to. It was a tool to do research. Before that it was the library you would go to to do research. Google opened the avenue for more works and viewpoints to be available to you. What ai does is literally just explain to you (often times getting shit wrong). You aren’t doing research with it. You aren’t using the skills they are trying to grade with it. It’s not just looking at a source and regurgitating it you’re supposed to look at a many sources and then form your own opinion or explain your data using those sources ………. I hate this and I genuinely feel like bad times are coming. It’s not ai that’s the problem it’s the way in which it’s used and that’s what scares the fuck out of me

#we are going to have a generation of people who dont know how to research #I feel like I see this with people my age too where we had google all the time so no one had to think about anything deeply you could just #ughhhhhghyhh #ok done #I just wish we sticked to chatbots or whatever #gwon

[tiredstressedemotionalmess]

ALSO ALSO the other day i successfully managed to debate politics with my father without crying. this is in fact a win for me

#he just knoes exactly how to piss me off and i hate feeling likr im disappointing him and so its really hard to verbally disagree with him #on anything #because were both stubborn and he thinks hes always right and sooo smart and well read even though he gets 90% of his fucking news from #clickbait yahoo articles #and refuses to do Actual Research or read uo on any of the topics hes so sure hes an expert about #and he looooooves brunging up completely different arguments in the middle of what were taling about like. 'oh well if this were true then #thus completely unrelated and nuanced issue is exactly the same!!' #and it pissed me off because he DOES T FUCKING KNOE WHAT HES TALKING ABOUT BUT OF COURSE IM JUST A DUMB TEENAGER WHAT DO I KNOW RIGHT #anyways. managed to have a like. 20 minute discussion with him and i was on the verge if tears for most of it bc he was sooo condescending #abt it but i held it together & managed to successfully shut down the conversation once it was clear it was going in an upsetting direction #which is another thing he does bc hell see me gettibg upset and then keep pushing and i think he thinks its a good thing to like. get me out #of my comfort zone and consider different perspectives and shit #but like. man. he doesnt understand that i soend time reading about different perspectives he doesnt fuckibg understand how much #i actually follow the goddamn news in my own YOU CONTINUING TO INSIST UR RIGHT WHILE IGNORING EVERY VALID POINT I BRING UP IS NOT FUCKING #HELPFUL ITS JUST OBNOXIOUS. DONT ACT KIKE UR ENCOURAGING ME TO DEBATE YOU INTELLECTUALLY WHEN HALF YOUR FUCKING TALKING POINTS ARE #GOING 'NUH UH' AND 'WELL I THINK THIS IS TRUE MY SOURCE IS MY OWN BRAIN AND THEORIES'

[skitskatdacat63]

Re: Chair Lore: Where is the Chair From?

I was joking about the seat looking like a sim chair, but after doing some research, I'm almost 100% sure they just took seats from a 2012 Ferrari 458 and put them on plexiglass platforms 😭

I couldn't find any pics that look *exactly* like the chair itself, but I think these are pretty similar, no?

It's going to bug me so much that I can't find the exact chair UGH, like with the white stripe in the middle, you know? But yes anyways, this is my theory.

*fyi, I'm planning a drawing with this chair and my thought process with finding reference is always "this has to be exactly perfect and 100% accurate" so thats why I'm being incredibly specific and over-detailed about this 😭 please don't think I'm weird

#THIS HAS GONE ON WAY TOO MUCH 😭😭😭😭😭 #im sitting here like. did i really spend ~30 mins looking at fucking car seats #i just need to find proper reference okay!! so i can do the chair justice!!! #well anyways derangement part 2: somehow even worse #i think im also going to make a comp post with him in 2013 w the chair #bcs i was looking at them and EEEEEEE so many cute pics!!!!! #also yeah lol felipe had one too. equality 🙏 #but also I need to remind myself. its literally ferrari with ferrai chairs that for all i know could be custom #i would love if i do all this inane research and dont even end up finishing my drawings 😭😭 #they live in my head and haunt me daily <3 im just scared i cant portray perfectly so! #someone left a tag on the other lore post about how they wish they could care abt anything as much as i care abt the chair #and im like HEY...okay fine youre not wrong #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #catie.rambling.txt #normal posts that catie normally makes in a normal fashion