#as a person with tbi

[jiaxxnscribbles]

i just remembered that i can in fact post Old Art so here is an album cover project from last semester

Details below!

This was the second project of my Illustration Intensive I class last semester, and we had to either design or redesign an album cover, so I chose The Mechanisms

During the project I took a 4-hour detour trying to translate the Red Signal chant into norse runes, aka I threw it through a translator and tried (emphasis on tried) via wikipedia to fix any Weirdness despite knowing next to nothing about runes so its probably. Incredibly wrong lol

#the mechanisms #the bifrost incident #tbi #the mechs #artists on tumblr #digital art #my art #this was what listening to various mechs albums while working on projects Does to me #as a person who is Not a fan of perspective #having to draw Okay Perspective while everything is at an angle is a special ring of hell on its own #yes the runes on the train data transcript is still also just the red signal chant bc it was seven am #and like two hours before it was due lol #had to pull an all nighter for this #but still i rly enjoyed this project! 10/10 would never do it again <3 :D #jiaxxart

[sunnyeosss]

Guess what came in

#cat <3 mac #the ramblings of a madman #personal tag? #this ain’t going in the main tag #okay jusy tbis once it will #charmac #ooh ooh ooh

[voids-voyager]

I have no clue why they didn't make Amity more akin to a rival character instead of a bully. Because it would have solved A Lot of problems in regards to Amity and Willow, and Lumity becoming a thing.

The thing is that Lumity feels Super Weird at the start when Luz is trying to befriend Amity long before the girl shows any remorse for bullying Willow and making up for it. And it's not something easily brushed off when Amity is introduced being condescending and a dick to Willow. The bullying isn't something of the past, it's still going on.

Willow comes off as an afterthought in this dynamic, when she's the one who's been wronged by Amity the most. Their arc never feels like it resolves itself either, it just kinda peeters out.

If you've watched Little Witch Academia, Diana is who I think Amity should have emulated more. Diana is the top student at the school, she's stern and no-nonsense, a bit stuck-up, she comes from a prestigious family, she gets in conflict with the protagnoist, Akko, not because of bullying but because they have very different personalities and butt heads because of it. Akko considers Diana her rival, but this is one-sided on her part.

Willow and Amity could still have been friends in the past, but Amity instead pointedly ignores Willow's existence after their friendship has ended. She doesn't call out her friends for bullying Willow(that would make it seem like she cares) but she doesn't participate or encourage it. She's still not a good person, she still has to apologise to Willow, but changing their relationship from 'active bullying' to 'pretending Willow doesn't exist' would do a lot going forward for them I think. Still terrible, but more palatable in my eyes.

#the owl house #toh critical #i guess? #better safe than not #luz noceda #amity blight #willow park #lumity #honestly one-sided rivalry could have easily been part of the early pre-lumity dynamic #with luz still seeing TBI as a fantasy considering amity to be her rival because in stories like these the protagonist always has a rival #but it would lead to luz struggling to see amity as a person beyond the 'rival' trope #like less we forget this girl had no friends before coming to TBI #so she'd struggle communicating with amity outside of how this is 'supposed' to go #or how it went in the azura books between azura and hecate #but their friendship doesn't need a big event or battle to form and it actually complicates things instead #and just like in canon lost in language is what helps luz see more of the real amity and it's what begins the connection between them

[rocksanddeadflowers]

Kvasir messes me up so so so fucking much you guys. Like I understand the vikings had a different approach to death and yada yada so forth whatever arguments you wanna make they're reasonable but still it. I just.

You mean this beloved man, known for his wisdom and poem and song, and who went around helping people with his wisdom and poem and song and was dearly beloved by the gods just. You guys he was straight up murdered and his blood stolen for magic fucking mead. There's no revenge for his murder or anything it's just that Odin saved his mead.

"Folk declares that every skald (poet) has a drop of Kvasir's blood in him. ... because a world without it's poets would be too dreadful a place to image."

Messed up or not, he lives on in poets, storytellers, and songwriters alike- all those with the understanding of the power of word, the wisdom to yield it.

In The Bifrost Incident it's still the same. His blood pumping and fueling the machine, running through arcane glyphs. He's always just been used for his blood, and even more irony drawn from it likely being Odin gaining the most use from his blood.

And yet, no matter how miniscule it may seem, Kvasir still lives on in his universe there too, in poets and songwriters and storytellers- somehow, The Mechanisms carry a piece of him in their travels ever since his death and Yddrasil's fall, just as you and I may have his blood in our veins.

#RAAAAAAA KVASIR!!!!!!! HE WAS THE FIRST POET I'M PUNCHING AIR!!!!!! #as someone who feels drawn to the power of word (i like writing heehoo) he messes me UP #also to clarify my books say that Odin wanted a draught of the mead bc the mead gives the drinker the powers of kvair #and Odin didn't need kavsir's wisdom odin already got that from the well he wanted kavsir's tongue #his ability and fluidity of speech #honestly the Myths really jump around from “Odin is a mystical all knowing otherworldly wise being to be respected” #to “heehoo big smart eye patch man” #which is what happens when you choose to study a religion long since mixed up by cultural changes and views #aka ppl making shit up for personal biases or compromises #the mechanisms #the bifrost incident #the mechanisms tbi

[dizzytoad]

can whoever it was that was doing some of the captions for danandphilgames back in the day please come forward so i can shame and yell at you.. nobody is turning the subtitles on to see your ‘smol bean omg they r so cute this is what i think he meant by this *insert emoticon reaction* wow savage insult’ commentary … its to know . what . they . r . saying .

im sure theyve been told off and learned better already but it is . so annoying

#the autogenerated is better and that is saying smth #dnp #dan and phil #dan and phil games #i dont actually want to yell at this person who was probs 14 when they did tbis but #that is so much effort to put into captioning to just completely defeat the purpose of captions

[roachemoji]

#bo posting #croutons #but also this is a #vent #i need tbis cat to let me sleep through tge night just ince #im so tired and im waking up just #exhausted emotionally #im so anxious still #im terrified and catastrophizing #forcing myself not to isolate even though ever fiber of my being is screaming at me to #convinced that no one believes or understands the extent of how bad things r rn #and that bc no one believes me #everything i do is seen as.... purposeful #or personal #convinced theres nothing i could say or do that would accurately describe how i feel #and more convinced i already need to know what would help before i can ask for it #and since i dont know i cant ask for help #🫠

[littleshadowprince]

Long post:

TLDR: my daddy made me a punch card to help me with my head injury recovery and age regression

MUCH more detailed post under the cut:

So because I have trouble with my thinking especially lately my Daddy and I have a Thing based off the game portal 2 where if I'm struggling with a task he tells me to "think with portals" and helps me to figure out what steps need to be done and in what order so I don't get frustrated just sitting there panicking, or getting overstimulated and having a meltdown (or worst case scenario throwing/kicking things everywhere because of it and ending up in a mess and crying)

so my Daddy asked me secretly for a list of my favorite things, mostly characters especially agere related, and made me a cute punch card with my two care bears on it that says "thinking with portals, you got this, 10 punches equals [reward] (mcdonalds night)"

He says he wants to make more woth different characters, each mascot having a different reward and I can pick which one I want everytime I get a new card!

Everytime I start thinking logically and take my time to think things through I get it punched and when I get to ten I get a reward. It's so sweet and made me so happy seeing him do something that means so much to me and makes me feel so proud if myself for doing something correctly instead of feeling guilty for struggling with it

I never had this kinda positive renfircement as an actual kid so having it from my daddy during a time of basically partial perma-regression helped heal me a lot. I feel like I can be so small and taken care of with these things being used for me. And he says he wants to do more things like this during my recovery too!

#agere #age regression #permaregression #concussion #head injury #brain injury #post concussion syndrome #cglre #tbi #personal #bedtime bear

[theprestigegirly]

ok weird post!!! but!!!

i was on the bus today with this girl i’m friends with and we were talking about politics after she’d expressed this political view i didn’t agree with at all and she was all oh well you’re probably right and talking about how a lot of her (self described) political ignorance was because she didn’t really have a lot of empathy for the average stranger

and she was like why do you or like how do you and it made me think about it and it’s so hard to express!! but like!!

i find it so funny that i see through my own little eyes from inside my head and go about my life in this box but so does /everyone else/ like all of us are just the same inside seeing out of our little eyes around at other people in the big world and thinking about how all people are fundamentally the same makes me so emotional!!! it makes me cry so much!!!!

because like we all feel and we all have our own unrelated inconsequential to each other lives but the way we act around each other can change everything— if someone’s nice to me when i’m out and about it makes me feel so much better and safer and so much brighter about the world and i always want to do that for other people i always want other people to feel just a tiny a bit brighter about life where they can

and i am like suchhhh a complainer and i am such a skeptic of my hometown especially but i still always find myself crying when i take the bus home on my own and look out on it through the window because sharing space with other people is so poignant and so aggghhhh i love humans i love people and i have SO MUCH EMPATHY for the average stranger and i have so much hope that everyone can be good if people are good to them

#tbis is such a nonsense post #why do i have so much empathy for people it’s so odd #literally crying my eyes out at humanity again #casual friday night #don’t even know whether to tag this as personal #it’s more loud thoughts #or does anyone hashtag relate #hashtag relate to believing in people

[bonethievery]

If you think that people eroticising power dynamics/situations that would be painful/degrading in fanfiction is inherently wrong, you're going to be opposed to BDSM in meatspace, because deriving sexual pleasure from scenarios that would be unpleasant/traumatising in other contexts is a large part of what BDSM is. Your underlying ethical logic still applies even in contexts you don't consider 'cringe'. I hope this helps to elucidate.

Hi genuinely what the fuck is this in response to

#???????????? #did you send This to the wronf person #arson.txt #i sonr think ive ever said or really reblogged anything on tbis topic. #and im not entirely sure what the topic in question even IS

[cquackity]

bedrockverse tntduo

#all versions of tnt really but tbis fits fhem rn #personal

[sangfielle]

i'm going to be so honest i don't care how a lesbian you are you being cutesylike homophobic to me every time we talk and fucking NONSTOP being ableist to me and getting mad at me for reacting weirdly to things when you asked me if i was On The Spectrum and put me on the spot and then i told you i was autistic & joking about me fucking HATECRIMING SOMEONE because i spooked them a little when i got scared is going to make me want to kill you. you doing this when you're my MANAGER and i cant tell you to fuck off is going to make that even wrose.

#every manager in tbis place is overfamiliar and ableist and at least a little homophobic to me but like. oh my gd #she is getting under my skin so fucking bad #personal

[arowrath]

was poking around on my school’s app a while ago and saw two people who seemed like the exact same brand of incredibly fucking annoying and i realized they had the same last name and was like oh god are they twins. well it turns out its one person before and after changing her name but it wouldve been way funnier if she had an equally annoying twin

#text #tbis is the antitheist person i was complaining abt earlier

[pine-arten]

happy disability pride month. they have things wrong with them

feel free to ask questions abt my ocs <3 i would love to talk about them

#pinemartart #oc: khaasi kuzrax #oc: xieggi zeaggi #oc: phikiz suthox #oc: craycr vencah #oc: ruskat aqqair #oc: ozlilu fruzai #almost all of them ..... giggle #get oc blasted bitches #once again they og came from a fandom... but it's so far removed so. not tagging it #do i need to tag this as something?? like for the illnesses #also i do tag my ocs in order they are in the picture #smiles smile #anyways. they're all so fucked up #their expressions don't mean much besides like. idk i wanted to draw them distressed to show they r abnormal #asd is autism spectrum disorder. rsd is rejection sensetive disorder. um #bpd is borderline personality disorder. CPTSD is complex post traumatic stress disorder .. #errr pcs is post concussion syndrome and tbi is traumatic brain injury. smile

[chazz-is-a-zelda-fan]

i think the thing is, when you think you’re gonna die before you turn 16, you find little things to look forward to. little things to make it to the end of the week before the clock hits 0. and NOBODY, okay and i mean NOBODY gets to tell you those things didn’t really matter.

you’re here. and i don’t care what kept you here, i just care that you’re here.

#personal #tbis is about me living for matpat’s theories at the end of the week. this is about the songs i waited to hear #this is about the new books i was excited to read. this is about the shreds of hope #i love you

[butch-himbo-king]

4 months into my sinus infection i’ve finally reached the point of crying every single night bc i can’t sleep more than 4 hours a night and it hurts to exist and i’m a snot monster with enough sinus pressure to be a bomb and i just got my bill for going to the urgent care where the doctor told me he was prescribing antibiotics and then never sent the order to the pharmacy and then when i tried to call them about it i was on hold for over an hour multiple times so i went back in person only for them to put me with a new doctor who ignored everything i said and prescribed me with an anti nausea medicine(????) and i know that bill is going to hit soon for the same amount but just this first bill is literally more than half of whats in my checking and savings combined

#and i just realizes while typing this that my insurance is due in 3 days and thats also like $100 😭😭😭 #and i still dont have a new job after losing my old one for being sick lmfso #god bless america i fucking love it here #all that and i still have nothing to help me get rid of tbis sinus infection #personal

[lawlietscaramels]

I get really chatty at this time for some reason. it's like the very end of the day for me and very few people are active

#uhh so ill chat in the tags so i dont spam #I LOVE MY MUTUALS SO FREAKING MUCH. you guys. you guys are awesome. #yeah i don't know how to interact properly but. love you all nevertheless #just screaming it in my tags #also i played the start of my first dnd campaign today. i am SO attached to my character. #if they die I'll kill everyone in tbis room then myself/ref /j #also obey me is fun and silly and i enjoy the story to some degree but ohh my gooood it is such a pay to win game #also ive only got like five more drawings to download!! #oh i shared the context for tnat on insta. im manually backing up all my art in case ibis' backup goes wrong when i turn it back on #im also working on comms and personal art #and i want to do a sketch page with rie and L and maybe aemin (my dnd character) and maybe my moots ocs hehe #also the wallpapers i promised may not end up being wallpapers (i so underestimated how hard they are for me to draw) but fanart IS coming #thats it i think #lei chats