#as fun as it would be i would actually like people to read it lmao

[skruttet]

you try this shit on my video and you'll get an essay

#SO funny that they brought up the dogs specifically cause they're like one of the few Actually Textually Gay moomin characters lmao #'this whole of idea of queer gay gender roles stuff.... it is just crazy' YEAH CRAZY INTERESTING??? CRAZY FUN TO THINK ABOUT AND ANALYSE??? #really insane they specifically brought up GENDER ROLES as if the moomins weren't constantly used to explore and make fun of gender roles #anyway #i hope they will actually read this and maybe change their mind a little bit but in the past usually these people are just homophobic and #dont wanna stop being homophobic :( #to be fair the video they're commenting on is that 'cast and crew shipping snufmin' vid and that's from sooo long ago now i would not word #things the same way as i did then but. they're still wrong lol

[claitea]

porygonhd by @startistdoodles, a few doodles complete with gen 5 styled sprites!

#pokemon #porygon #clai's art #maybe i went a lil overboard but i just Really liked this concept haha #i actually have always been a little annoyed the porygon line ended at z yknow? #like dont get me wrong i love the whole porygon line but it was cool how porygon seemed to develop along with the games #so while it makes sense to stop since its a full three-pokemon evo line. why stop at a Glitched version? #i was looking at the porygon lines' bulbapedia pages while drawing this out of curiosity #and porygon-z's smash bros trophies suggest a patch was on the way. but that never happened :( #also fun thing to note is that porygon seems to have been made purely to poke fun at people lmao #bulbapedia says people told satoshi tajiri it was too late to make a game boy game and he should make games with 3d polygonal graphics #so instead he made porygon. which is techincally polygons as they told him but still in sprite form lmaooo #but does that not make right now and even better time to make an actual split-evo for porygon2? #since pokemon switched to full 3d ages ago why not commemorate that with a fixed up final porygon evo? #anyway thats my porygon rant haha #porygonhd is Such a perfect concept i would do anything to have this in a real game #EDIT: //DANG// THE SECOND AFTER I POSTED THIS I READ THE ASK ABT HOW HD CANT OPEN ITS WINGS HAJGHVDHGD #ah well. its cute here isnt it

[sugarsnappeases]

thank you for the tag @fxreflyes this is so cute, except the format is trying to hinder my propensity to ramble, so i’ve rectified this in the tags lmao

i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child

no pressure tags for @static-radio-ao3 @inevitablestars @itsjaywalkers @carniferous @orbitfalls @transsexualpriest @futurequibblerjournalist <333

#i'm like 5'7 i think. fun fact i used to wear glasses when i was like 11 bc all my friends were getting glasses and i wanted some too so i #lied to my optician. lol good times. don't actually need glasses tho soooo. #this is me coming out as a natural blonde guys….. like my hair hasn’t been blonde in a good year or so and it hasn’t been my natural blonde #in like three/four years but still in my heart of hearts i identify as a blonde. like i get confused when people don't count me as one #i have my ears and nose pierced and i would love a tattoo but unfortunately i have both a fear of needles and commitment issues so. #not sure if that’ll ever happen… would be very hot and sexy tho. also i'm one of those freaks with green eyes lol it's appaza quite rare #my hair is currently like dark dark brown… have been getting the itch to dye it again tho like a kinda reddish colour idk yet we’ll see #i had braces for AAGES. i have freckles in the summer and i paint my nails whenever i remember to. rn they’re a very chipped lilac colour #i think i have a resting bitch face but i can never tell tbf like it might be more of a resting 'dead to the world' face lmao #okay technically i don’t play an instrument anymore! but in the past i’ve dabbled with the cello the oboe and the xylophone. singing too #spanish and italian baybee although ig if this means like fluently then that’s not me but this is literally my degree it’s my whole brand #yes i like to read but also the only things ive read in like the last few months have been either books in spanish/italian for my degree #literary criticism for said span/ital books and… fanfic. so. also i like writing but it's my worst enemy rn the thoughts aren't working :( #i have many best friends that i’ve known for years!!!! in fact i've known some of my friends for like my entire life it's very cute #okay sorry for rambling i can never help myself and i also literally could go on icl like there was Some restraint applied here #kara lore #bc there's quite a lot of it in this one lol #tag games

[kuroo-hitsuji]

Bro i really played myself with my trans Solomon hc huh

No visual evidence to subtly include in my art. No top surgery scars no nothin. No one will know but me orz

Fool. Imbecile.

Unfortunately though i will change Nothing bc it makes sense To Me but I will still be sad about it xgmxgmxxfj

#obey me #obey me Solomon #obey me trans hc #obey me trans Solomon #headcanon rambling in the tags #at least i can draw kuroo still visibly transmasc #bc Solomon forgot to mention he knows how to teetus deletus with magic before they went and got human realm top surgery #the bastard /j #and silver lining if i ever get the chance to depict the vague offhand comments he makes about his own transition- #everyone that doesn't know my hc will get to experience them like everyone in-world would lmao #(well. Mostly everyone in-world. a couple are definitely aware like thirteen and barbatos at the absolute least. possibly asmo as well) #like #it is literally a running joke in this hc that Kuroo is constantly wondering #if the thing Solomon just said is Actually as trans as they think #or if they're just reading into it too far bc he's just. So vague and weird so often as it is-- #(and kuroo does figure it out eventually but it takes A While bc he really just likes fucking with people.) #(like its 50/50 between him forgetting people don't know/forgetting he even is-- and him just deliberately fucking with them bc its funny) #alternatively i could give him Magic “scars” that glow under certain circumstances. for fun... idk I'll play around with that idea maybe #Unrelated to the topic but fun fact #(/s) #sorting tags is an absolute fucking niGhtmare on mobile oh my fucking god #i rarely use desktop tumblr but holy fuck man #i had to dig out my poor dead laptop just to make my tag rambling have Any sense of coherency #i was fighting mobile for literally half an hour. fucking hell. im going to beD i hope someone at least gets a Lil kick out of this hc rant #personal headcanon #Solomon #Kuroo

[bisaster-energy]

yu yu hakusho is really fun

#i finished reading the manga about a week ago? #idk i can't get over it <3 #yyh is actually a big part of my childhood in that my sisters would watch it all the time but mostly the eldest #she always had anime on lmao #but yeah we used to have the first 5 volumes and i would just read them over and over never knowing what happened next #until recently hahah #anyways GROUP PHOTO 🥺😭 they're so cute!! #kuwabara wanting to share a glass with kurama is sweet too I think #URAMESHI'S DEVASTATED REACTION...I can't get over it like. The dark tournament is really what #Solidified their friendship I think I mean #Kuwabara was this guy that wouldn't leave him alone but it was fun to beat him up and then there was the righteous anger #when rando nearly killed kuwabara #but here. the dark tournament. that anguish is for one of the most important people in his life #because yusuke didn't have friends. he thought he didn't. he figured Keiko his mom the teachers kuwabara everyone was better off #but he saw for himself the effect his death had and now he's on the other side of it. Idk smth about it #kuwameshi #Sort of?? Romantic platonic wtv they're all close and care about each other so much <3

[byanyan]

WHAT COLORS MAKE UP YOUR NAME?

#━━ �� ⊰ ✰ dash meme. #been meaning to do this one for a while and finally remembered lmao #while i think this would be better if the colours were more vibrant #what i really love is the contrast between the two #it's actually..... kinda representative of how they view their names #the colours for byan are much more Them with (admittedly dull) pastels mixed with dark shades... the purples and blues... #it's Good. that's a colour palette they Like #the colours for yeong-hwan though? absolutely Not the vibe. does not fit. what even ARE those greens ew #it's hideous and they hate it #but the way a lot of the blacks and greys match across both... #something something pieces of them in both names #something something what people wanted vs what they actually are #am i reading WAY too much into something so silly as colour matching names? yes absolutely #but shut up i'm having fun and you GET what i'm putting down here

[will80sbyers]

people are being excessively mean to others for clout on places like tiktok and twitter in instances where there is literally no reason to respond in a mean way and I don't think I will ever get it like is it that they need likes for validation because they feel extremely lonely in real life because real life connections with people are rare and the pandemic made things worse and so ganging up on people online with others makes them feel like they are part of something even if that something is negative and is possibly bringing another person to experience extremely negative feelings about themselves or are all these people just a bunch of coward assholes

#probably both #Idk I'm getting tired of this culture of always trying to make fun of people on a personal level #like I not everybody can take it and I get literally angry in their behalf because you never know how they could feel #and most of the times there is no need #maybe someone makes a dumb question because of ignorance and the comments are FILLED with people catching the opportunity to just #make fun of them in EVERY way on a personal level #like... why? #even if you are a person like me that can take the dumb comments usually or that even if they get upset after a bit of time they don't care #anymore that doesn't mean that it's ok to do it because even when you do have thick skin or whatever that still is annoying and it will #make you stop commenting on stuff after a while #because you have to read so many fucking dumb comments trying to make fun of you #who the fuck actually would want that lol #like it's just annoying #but what makes me angry is think about the people that take things very personally or maybe have heavy depression or things like this and #it can hurt them very much and you literally never know #just stop #and then I start commenting that it's unnecessary and they are only doing it for clout and they respond saying that it's working because #they got likes #like ok???? #you're proud of that? lmao what a fucking shitty person #I just despise people like this #I get to the point of being lowkey ready to fight irl when ppl are mean RANDOMLY to others it bothers me #there are moments in which responding in a mean way is encouraged but I'm talking about all the times in which it is not needed

[roraimae]

i'm so normal about all the things swimming around in my head right now, i'm chewing on the walls

#born to christen the new sketchbook with cool things #forced to write out backstory #I love DnD I love playing it I love my characters I love character building in a vacuum #BUT #as soon as I have a group and need to be ready in a week I die #inner critic at volume 100 every idea I ever had is bad actually and I keep getting lost in details #'divination wizard that studies divination to figure out how to evade a prophecy' sounds so fun on paper #especially with the added flavor of 'they're from a cult devoted to the god of divination and left them behind for this' #but like #to fill that out #aughhh #is the person that would be harmed in the prophecy a sibling or friend? #are they part of the cult or not? #who are the people in the cult? #what's the family situation actually? #so much to consider #I'm thinking maybe in the cult and really devoted so they don't want to leave and will resent my character for trying to save them #but still sibling or friend? #mh #honestly chances are this will have very minor involvement actually because the campaign is in one city and they hail from a different one #but still #I'm just rambling to the void cause it helps me think lmao #congrats to whoever actually reads my tags #I also haven't even decided if I play a gnome or dragonborn or maybe a tiefling afterall agh #tbf that has little bearing on the character but that's the ISSUE I have nothing to tie in

[spider-man-2o99]

when are you gonna see the new spiderverse?

it's not set in stone or anything, but we're aiming for sometime within the first week of its release if we can afford it!!

(on the note of spoilers: i Strongly Prefer to not be spoiled, but they won't like. Ruin My Life or really even my Day, i just would prefer to not be spoiled cause it's. like. a dick move, y'know? thanks. love yall)

#talking tag #asks #atsv #across the spider-verse #generally movies r a luxury we have to wait a couple months after release 2 see but i have been waiting for This One for Five Years so-- #--it is a very VERY special treat :} #...even if they did For Some Reason decide that THE best color to flash wildly during like. Every Mig Scene is Give Cap Migraines Yellow. #foolish fool fools. if you wanted to reference the end of Issue Number One you need a PALER more DESATURATED yellow or a red/black gradient #in fact pushing the Paler Colors would work a lot better to contrast against him in a properly colored BLACK AND RED SUIT. LIKE THIS DESIGN #sheesh he lives in The Bleeding Neon Future but they pulled Future Inspiration from one of those boring sleek white smooth round shape guys #Nueva York in the comics wasnt meant to be a Cool Future it was meant to be half-criticism of Modern NYC by ppl who Lived There-- #--and the other half was Speculation abt what it Could Be if Nothing About The World In (e616s) 1992 Changed For 107 Years #(...dot dot dot. comma. As Written By Overwhelmingly A Bunch Of Middle Class Cishet White Comic Book Guys[TM]. LMAO) #(the good stuff is GOOD the fun stuff is really REALLY fun and the Bullshit in comic book fashion offers up new writers to KILL On Sight <3 #look man im just. im rambling at this point but like i love marvel 2099 i think there are absolutely Some books that ARE worth reading-- #--from the imprint and dismissing All Of It just for being 90s Comic Books is unfair to the many teams of people who worked on them yknow #i Do Not Like Pat Mills (MANY reasons.) but the initial art team behind Punisher 2099 (especially the penciler) put SO much passion into it #people only really remember Spider-Man 2099 today but e928 has a really rich developed lore that i get the sinking feeling we;ll probably-- #--never actually See Again in any of the same capacity that it once existed at. but. yknow. time passes & things change & that's.. fine.

[azatas]

hehe i started a playthrough with my knight commander and made daeran her guardian because i miss them

#'i feel like redesigning my wotr character' i said and then i just changed her skin colour lol . pink hair had to stay #hiraeth is an eldritch scion in wotr but bg does nooot really have an equivalent class #so i'm going with swords bard! hopefully i'll have more fun with it than lore. i think it fits her better than the other gish options would #bc she's very charismatic and she used to be a performer 😌 #and i gave her persuasion/arcana/insight proficiency . her perception was super high in wotr but insight works better for bg #bc it's more that she's very very good at reading people than her noticing things in the environment #idk who she's gonna romance! astarion would be SO on brand for her but i just. i can't have two playthroughs going where i romance him lmao #she'd have romanced wenduag if daeran wasn't around so maybe lae'zel??? minthara would actually be a great option but #hira would never agree to kill the tieflings :T #dee plays bg3 #oc: hiraeth #the reason she looks similar to my first durge is bc hira was the prototype lol

[unproduciblesmackdown]

love my own like theatrical relationship to shakespeare which is a) being so slow to realize like "oh, i've loved theatre? everyone doesn't just feel this way & go 'of course acting onstage would fucking kick ass' & adore rehearsals and hanging around backstage and in greenrooms and changing and performing & etc?' never really occurred to me" and b) my response to most encounters w/shakespeare being "wha" when it comes to anything granular yet the relevance still in the spirit of things lol

namely one prominent example being i was an on campus college student where said campus has a shakespearean theater literally three blocks away, and we had like a freshmen orientation weekly class there doing shit with actors and checking out the theater, not to mention like punchcards to see four shows free (to write up about afterwards but yeah sure whatever) and this wherein also you always got student discount tickets And there were pwyw performances....kicked ass. i went there for shows so many times. i have never fucking known what tf is going on in any of the like dozen shows i saw there when a) audio processing can be tricky enough for real life modern vernacular parsing and b) sure am not used to ye old very stylized language nor any other qualities of shakespearean material so lots of times when i finally started to kind of acclimate to the language it would be like "oh wait that was the conclusion? ok. hoorayyyyy" like also c) You Have A Great Time Seeing Shakespeare Productions Anyways like again i loved going anytime. it's Theatrical and if people are just putting their damn backs into delivering and performing the material it's An Experience even if you're really not following lmfao. and i suppose one can read the text / familiarize oneself beforehand

also like my first and really one of my only like regular theatre performing experiences was my literature class in fourth grade doing a few scenes from julius caesar. i was so hype for getting cassius like one of the most prominent roles? a guy? an antagonist if you're caesar or dante??? oh Fuck yes. b/c of technical difficulties we got to perform it twice in a row when we did a field trip to some other school to perform our respective [scenes from various shakespeare plays] altogether. even back then i was way into it and cared about stuff like "we have like no Effects to make it that dramatic when we kill caesar. or like, non silent. bit awkward" and "also i like, don't know how to act and am just winging it. and of course, i'm also like 9" like in theory i do like to know How to do something vs trying to make it up myself. somewhat lol. a balance, who can argue w/that

beyond that there's also lots of things i just didn't quite realize "counted" lmfao like, when you're a theatre gay with a parent req'ing you go to church every week but you have a good time being in the choir....i was sure on those tenor harmonies & singing loud. and going relatively often to various live theatrical events, having an engaging enough time there, but also would've assumed anyone would be into it And that that's not really the same as actually being in them, of course. but that most of my firsthand experience was just sticking w/ballet for like a decade, and kind of live theatrical performance adjacency there. don't say shit, for years was effectively just like, an ensemble for the occasional performances, but even then it's like hoorayyy i Love rehearsing and being onstage and backstage and dealing w/costumes and coordination behind the scenes and shit. and eventually being like, a distinct individual character in shows, so despite again nobody saying shit you're still somewhat interpreting and doing whatever character work while also enjoying the bennies of [it's dance, so also it's choreographed]....even more clear like oh i love backstage and rehearsing and behind the scenes and onstage and putting together stage character makeup, and i don't mind tackling technical difficulties, and etc etc. didn't even necessarily have the reference like, idk, wouldn't / doesn't everyone feel similarly. classic ye old memory of like being idfk 7 or some shit simply getting to walk with classmates behind a backdrop to the opposite wing of a stage, and loving that lmao. combines a love for [backstage] and [secret passages] type deal lol, big fan of these elements

also in 7th grade doing a theatre/drama class for a few months and we couldn't really get like all this in depth extensive stuff b/c you know, intro course for like 8 weeks for rando middle schoolers, but idk it was just illustrative lmao like after julius caesar, us slapping together some kind of script and my getting to be this fun little theatrical(tm) antagonist guy again? feedback was "what was supposed to be happening" but could've stood to have learned that the enthusiasm and affinity i felt for acting onstage was perhaps indicative of enthusiasm and affinity for acting onstage rather than just, idk, the exact kind of baseline experience any & everyone would have lol. not that i would've necessarily had the chance to really do anything with that knowledge, but even now, ofc i don't particularly anticipate getting to use it, but it's great having that knowledge like ohhh i see. the entire time i've been huge into doing theatre with all these kind of adjacent & gently overlapping brushes with it. gotcha

#an issue with Figuring Out What I Like or Trying New Things; a) having to be driven everywhere #b) just not safe to be open with ''this is something i like doing'' #c) things being worse for like [i like doing this performance i don't like that parents are in the audience / involved] #didn't try out for anything in middle school b/c a) nervous. no experience; it's middle school. i don't have a great time w/Peers. #b) i'd have to let parents know i was doing that / they would then be involved; & see it....puts a real damper on things #didn't try out for anything in college b/c by then it's like. i Really have no experience lmao even if i could do this myself #kind of only deterred by my same age roommate being A Theatre Person with that prior experience lol.... #but then Shakespeare Theater Company Proximity & Everyone Getting Introduced Via That Class / another kind of tangential theatre experience #hell yes....thank you for all that you did. dunno what's going on in there but you truly have a great time #even just Readings are fun but again people Gotta put their back into it or it does become like [zzz] #anyways and in this day and age....would still like to have actual acting instruction. all an abstract idea. but i for sure Like To Know. #the Ideas / Knowledge of oneself & like ''oh that's smthing i super like actually'' or what all i'd even theoretically like to do / have... #value in such things. i love to Know i think it would be cool to have like a buttonsy digital / calculator type wristwatch too. e.g. #and for real besides me talking about myself the advice is yeah go to a fun shakespeare production #''knowing what the hell is actually going on'' is Not a priority / requirement. it'll be an enjoyable experience still #oh and i did have an achievement in having A Fan once lol. when i started getting standalone roles vs [class ensemble in the back] at one #point i got to have a cats (jellicle) inspired like purple sparkly arms/legwarmered elaborate facemakeupped role; fun in & of itself #but whomsoever came to this little like middle/highschoolers community production included some absolute randos i encountered in the hall #after whatever show where this like 8 yr old kid's dad was like ''she's your (the role) biggest fan can we get a pic'' #like Of Course....so i pose with said kid. hell yeah babey i'm An Actor with A Role lol....fr it was fun so #even illuminating to piece together my affinity / comfort for concepts & zones like things Behind The Scenes / hidden or secret / Nighttime #being backstage or behind the backdrop to get to another wing or hanging out in an effective greenroom w/amicable parties & our roles.... #oh and that naturally the abstract concept of acting has just always seemed fun. and not like that strange or difficult #someone talking abt being autistic & learning like ''oh having friends Isn't supposed to feel like you have to constantly be performing?'' #like yeah same up til recent history lmao like. lot of ways to simply already have a bit of organic training in acting lol #would still want some more actual training though lol like how do you do this shit Actually....got the essentials in fourth grade (be loud) #fr we didn't have mics of course so it was all just up to us to say our lines loud enough. couldn't actually hear other scenes [pensive]

[albatris]

also would anyone be interested in a tarot reading for their wip/ocs......? 👀

#I'm. getting back into it! yeehaw #out of practice and also nervous abt reading for others in general #hence why we play a fun little oc game instead hahahahaha #just for fun? like. ppl send me names/pronouns of their ocs n i do a reading for The Vibe #or you can ask me a question about your wip or character you're stuck on and I'll see if i can point u in the right direction through #some mystical bullshit (prety cards) #idk I'm open to whatever basically. just not reading about peoples Real Actual Lives unless we have a genuine discussion beforehand #fjfjddkdkdks #idk i did this ages ago with my wtnv decks and it was super fun but also exhausting #I would be using the alleymans tarot this time i think #anyway this is all ~hypothetical~ unless you wanna 👀 #its just for fun pls dont take it too seriously!! i cant guarantee I'll be accurate #sometimes i am frighteningly accurate! but idk how or why that happens. i maintain idk what I'm doing at any time #i am simply the vessel for nonsense #my point is. I'm not a professional LMAO

[princekirijo]

Finally getting round to reading the Scarlet Pimpernel (free eBooks my beloved) and while I am really enjoying the story and everything is pretty easy to follow, the sheer royalist tones the book has is a lot

#i mean i knew that would be in here #given that pimpernel is a noble who rescued “innocent royals/rich people” from the guillotine during the reign of terror #and the book is set in england AND france #but its still a lot lol #its honestly nice so far #im managing two chapters a day which im really really proud of considering i cant remember the last time i read a book #well ok last one i read was beowulf but that wasn't too long (version i read anyway) #this book has like 29ish chapters? idr #its also worth noting the author herself was a baroness #and that her backstory involved her fleeing to england when she was 3 because the locals rebelled against her family and burnt down #the family home #which while im sure it was justified must have been terrifying for her #i cant lie either its interesting reading from this and seeing her perspective on things as much as i despise royalty i am very interested #in the whole system if that makes sense? its just fascinating to me #i think im gonna blame tlk for this one LMAO #but yeah good so far #also yeah im sure you guys know why im reading the book LMAO #if not well im sure you could probably guess 💀 #to be fair the reign of terror was a pretty fucked up time so like i can see the need for pimpernel... somewhat #also fun fact for anyone interested but this book is actually what started the whole hero with a secret identity #and pimpernel is said to have inspired the likes of zorro and batman! #idk i just thought that was pretty cool

[villa-kulla]

oh hey you know what’s actually super cute, i posted my first ever BRBA fic exactly 8 years ago, and i remember dropping a new chapter for it before running off to a music festival with cousins who were in town, and feeling all excited while there, imagining people actually reading ittt. now, 8 years later, i just posted a new chapter for my first BCS fic before running off to the same music festival with some other cousins who are in town, and i’m feeling sort of nostalgic and it’s just KIND OF NICE??? <3

#things change but they also DON'T?? #it's a little full circle surreal lol #the cousin is actually the younger sister of the same cousins i went with last time all grown up now which feels extra wild #she and her friends are all crashed in my living room still out cold lol #but yeah that brba fic was the whole kindergarten teacher rom com AU lol and i didn't fully realize people would actually READ it #let alone leave feedback lol and i was like 'omg people like it???:'O' #2014 summer onwards was so fun lol #binge breaking bad in 2 weeks #stare into space for a week processing it #then snap and write like 150k words worth of fic in like 3 months lmao #if anyone has been like 'wow you're really spiralling over bcs lately huh' you should have been there in 2014 lol i was unbearable #but it was FUN <3 #anyways #it's been super fun writing a bcs fic even if it's an insane one #like coming back to brbaish fic but with a lot more writing under my belt this time #we're all so grown up now and still crying in albuquerque lol it's cute it's cute #shares

[littlecafe]

happy spotify wrapped day!! i didn’t get the “my audio day” slide and i’m sad because i feel like this is the first time i’ve missed out on a slide that isn’t podcasts :-(

i can’t believe i got top 0.5% of listeners with my numbers...everyone listen to lexie liu her new singles are really good

#incomplete stats bc i split with apple music again #unlike last year i have it active rn so i can actually see my replay lmao i have 8517 minutes on apple music #but i think something is messed up with it or at least with the album count section #but i think i read apple doesn't count jan. in their replay? for some reason? and jan. was an apple music month for me #i thought verivery would sweep my wrapped and be the first time my top song would be from my top artist #but im still happy to see lexie liu for the second year!! she's underrated i cant believe her listener count dropped #bc i had slightly more minutes last year but was only top 2%...maybe bc gone gold dropped in jan. 2021 #but 2022 she didn't release new music until late nov. so people stopped streaming #lexie liu being top artist continues my streak of my number one artist not having a single song in top 5 asjfhsdf #the first song from her is actually number 14 in the playlist which is actually really low omg #lowkey think my wrapped is messed up but i dont use wrapped for stats just for vibes and the fun stuff like MY AUDIO DAY THAT I DONT HAVE #but i love the design this year i like the bright colors and shapes #it's the design they've been doing all year if you've gotten any push notifs or other random things like super grouper or w/e it was #it's cute and obvs in trend right now lmao but u know it's still cute i like it i love bright colors

[orcelito]

Honestly tho as a writer I live and breathe hurt/comfort (probably bc there's smth wrong with me lol), to the point where it's just a Given in anything I write. And I kinda assume that's gonna b the case with others too??

But then. Romcom. With some angst, but overall just relationship shenanigans. Oh the potentials that were not realized

#speculation nation #there was one point where i was like 'omg hes alluding to some vague thing that is Off but wont say what' #and 'omg this arc would be a perfect tie-in for the tragedy of his parents. is he acting off bc the anniversary is coming up?' #and. no. no it was just the relationship angst. #god i really have a love-hate relationship with this kind of genre. like it's fun and simple just. ykno. romcom! #except like 95% of the conflict is just 'he cant feel the same way i do 🥺' despite all evidence to the contrary #as a reader that is just . so frustrating lmao. probably bc i myself cant rly relate??? #ive always been an observer. getting Vibes from people. & ive never been so into someone to b blinded as to how they feel about me #it's kinda really fuckin obvious when ppl are Interested. so i just do not understand or relate to the core conflict of this. #always been the case where i prefer a mountain of angst with the core characters able to cling to each other for stability #not a 100% rule. but it's for that reason that i'll never have stupid miscommunication conflicts in my writing #miscommunication as a reasonable manifestation of Issues? sure! absolutely. #but i kinda Really hate the trope of like 'omg i heard just a part of what he was saying and jumped to conclusions that tear everything up' #not that that was present in the fic ive been reading but it's certainly not an uncommon trope. #im more exacting in my angst. digging into what really makes them Tick. what makes them Hurt. #peeling back their layers until we get to see their sad pathetic cores #and then i will patch them back up again. give them a pat on the head. as if that will fix the trauma. #relationship angst is so overdone and boring. i need me some actual relevant tangible and Dangerous angst #angst that makes you wonder if they'll make it out of this alive. now THAT'S what im all about babey