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dreamwritesimagines · 2 years

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okaaaaay, here comes another proposal. and hmm, okay, don’t get me wrong, Anthony’s proposal (if we can even call it that) was horrendous. but Pierre’s proposal was so….shallow and well, selfish. i’m sorry but it made me cringe so bad. even his compliments feels so shallow. i’d take a poem compared to this thanks. and the mere fact that he suggested to get married in Gretna Green is so selfish? like does he not see how much it would make things worse for Cherie? a daughter of a duke? and yeah sure, blah blah who cares what the Ton thinks but no matter how you look at it, this doesn’t benefit anyone at all? and it’s like, he’s not even seeing the consequences it would have on her, let alone considering how it would affect her. “leave this all behind, leave your father behind” is so…wrong??? it sounds so wrong?? like he doesn’t even think about her brother, her best friend, the life she’s grown to have in London. Pierre is just thinking about him and how this would benefit him if they were to marry. and it leaves such a bad taste in my mouth. like telling Cherie to “leave this all behind” instead of “come with me, we can start a new life” speaks volumes imo. he’s not even saying anything remotely close to romantic like “I will do my best to give you happiness and be the best husband” or something of the sort. i think Pierre is aware how heartbroken she is. and i feel like he’s taking advantage of her heartbreak so so much bc he’s in a way, giving her an ultimatum like: say no and you will stay here and face all this heartbreak or marry me and leave it all behind.

honestly, the more i compare their proposal, the more i’m thinking that Anthony’s was *slightly* better??? which trust me, i want to smack myself for saying that bc Anthony’s Business Proposal™️ was the most painful thing i’ve ever witnessed. but like, at least he promised Cherie a good, comfortable, stable life?? LMAAAOOO Pierre didn’t even come close to saying that he will provide for her, protect her and give her the life she deserves bc well…he really can’t if you look at it logically. like, if he can’t give her love then what else can he give? and he offered her nothing at all. not even a promise to try and make her happy.

LOVE AT TENTH SIGHT. Percival you comedian. but, god, that conversation was Intense™️ Cherie had a point and she had every right to call out the duke about choosing for her etc. i was with her up until she said that Percy didn’t know Cassie. bc when we come and think about it, she knew so little about what her mother and father were like before her and hell, even before Elias was born. the courtship, the better parts of the marriage, Cassie being pregnant with Elias, like, there’s so much she doesn’t know. so i don’t think her words held that much weight in that regard. and like, this is going to sound so bad but Cherie only truly knew her mother after what happened, and i feel like the rumors changed Cassie in a way, so it’s so so sad to think that Cherie didn’t really know her mother before the rumors, only after. and it breaks my heart thinking how Cherie probably never got to see Cassie be so carefree and glow and laugh bc as much as i believe she saw her mother happy in Paris, i don’t think it was true happinessbc i feel like even years later, Cassie still carried that heaviness of what happened in London and the divorce. and maybe she just hid it so so well bc she didn’t want her only daughter to bear witness to it as much. and correct me if i’m wrong but i feel like Cherie only saw the weight of it when Cassie got sick bc by then, she really didn’t have the strength to hide it anymore. Cherie saying the duke didn’t know Cassie wasn’t wrong per se, but it’s not true either. bc Percy knew a different version of Cassie as did Cherie. and sadly, Cherie didn’t get to witness the Cassie that Percy knew, and Percy didn’t get to witness the Cassie that Cherie grew up with.

but that disappointment line tho, Ouch™️ Percy felt that to his core. but omg, i know this isn’t the time to joke but Percy kinda just told her to “go touch some grass” ksksksksks sorry, sorry, but no, the conversation wasn’t going anywhere tbh. they would just end up screaming at each other.

Iona and Lucie chilling by the tree <3 also, Hugh’s casual “I was.” had me giggling like a school girl. like mhmm he’s been spending time with Kenneth, love that, yes, good for him.

“Is there a whisper in your head telling you this is a mistake?” HUGH. THANK YOU. YOU GENIUS. that’s such a good question! i swear him and Cecily are the only people who have braincells in this story so far sksksk i feel like it definitely runs in the family, mother’s side i feel. but god what Hugh said about him not wanting to visit her in Paris is so true it hurts. just thinking about Elias and Cece going there and every time they do they just see the life and joy slowly leave Cherie. like i can picture her getting weaker day by day and they will see that with each visit. like they’d notice the change each time and it would really be such a sad thing to see. so i’m glad Hugh was blunt about that. bc it genuinely would be so painful for the people who care about her to witness the physical effects of the heartbreak Cherie will deal with every single day when she marries Pierre. also, yes, she’s heartbroken here in London, but at least she’s got friends and family by her side. she doesn’t have that back in Paris anymore, unfortunately.

THAT CUTE MOMENT WITH CECILY AND ELIAS. ugh my heaaaaaart. also side note, why am i picturing Anthony just begrudgingly following these two around like a Best Man Bodyguard™️ so he can keep an eye out when they sneak around, just mumbling to himself like “just one more day, and I don’t have to act chaperone anymore, just 24 more hours…” like that image is so funny to me. but anyway, i’m so glad Cherie saw that and made her snap out of it. like she really was trying to convince herself that this idea of marrying Pierre was the best shot she’s got or that it was even a good idea in the first place.

“I think that’s the only right decision you’ve made in a month.” LUCIE. I LOVE YOU. she is so right and she should say it. i’m popping a bottle of champagne, i am celebrating bc we’ve finally gotten the Mustache Man™️ out of the picture yay!

“You don’t use me or mother as a weapon.” …..i didn’t even think about that omg. that’s so..true. Cherie really did have a moment of selfishness back at the duke’s study. bc she didn’t even consider Elias’ side of it and how he would feel. and like, i feel so sorry for Elias bc you can see his pain about this. he’s so so sooo torn. for one, he knew how much it hurt Cassie, and in turn, hurt Cherie as well. but he also saw how the duke was like after that. so it’s so painful for him to see them but heads when he saw how this affected everyone.

THE WALTZ. YES. YES. YES. Elias picking it all while being oblivious as fuck might actually have been in our favour here. like, he chose waltz bc obviously he wants to be close to Cece, what he didn’t take into account is the fact that his best man and Cece’s maid of honor would be close to as well. “Why would I think about anyone else? It’s my engagement ball.” aaaah Elias, your Lovesick Chaotic Ass™️ is everything. he said “this is for me and the love of my life, no one else” and as he should lmao.

i’m sorry if this is too much but ANTHONY TAKING HIS GLOVES OFF WHEN HE SAW CHERIE WAS GLOVESLESS AS WELL??? THAT WAS SO FUCKING HOT???? he really wants that Naked Handholding™️ so baaad. YOU HARLOT LORD ANTHONY BRIDGERTON!!! THAT WAS VERY SEXY OF HIM!!! why did I find that sooooo frickin attractive help??? i’m so down bad for this man lmao. but pls his smile when he found out Pierre said no. and i love how Cece was the one who told him. love seeing this frienship grow.

aaaah i’m going to cryyyy Anthony quoting Cherie’s questions way back when they first danced together. i’m so emotional. CECILY THIS IS ALL THANKS TO YOU BY THE WAY. FINALLY RATTLED THIS MAN AND MADE HIS BRAINCELLS FUNCTION. like now he is finally showing her the little things as to why he cares bc hello, remembering every single detail of the night you two first danced counts as something surely?? i actually am just asdfghj!klalskdju!fvhebnwo!jkgfvin™️ my way into this whole waltz. this whole interaction is just making my heart soar. you’ve made us suffer with all the angst that the littlest moments of softness just make me explode. i cannot deal with this !!!! Anthony’s breath hitching whenever she touches and squeezes his shoulders !!! their banter !!! Anthony being open about how he can’t take his eyes off her !!!! Anthony being so down bad !!! their conversation about honesty and just !!!!!!! the whole parallel of their first dance and this dance just everything about this is so Chef Kiss™️ !!!!!!!

now i’m praying that this will finally make Cherie question things at least. like her seeing Anthony running out of the ballroom after their dance mirroring what she did when they first dance, surelyshe can now at least start doubting her thoughts of this being unrequited. also, also, their whole questioning portion, i feel like Anthony was just waiting for her to ask him how he feels about her. like give him an opportunity to say it. like that’s such a lovely thing bc he’s not, pushing himself to much onto her anymore. he’s being patient finally and letting her steer the convo. but alas, he’s left enchanted and breathless instead. amazing as always! <3 and OMG WEDDING DAY NEXT CHAPTER?? AAAH i can’t wait to see where this goes next!!!

– TM Anon™️

Omg hi darliiiing! ❤❤❤

Wait omg I haven’t thought about it that way! ❤ But yes, Pierre offering her to go to Gretna Green if her father insists on not giving them his blessing was actually a bit selfish because that would change everything in Cherie’s life in a bad way! It would be yet another scandal and the Ton is already very willing to jump on assumptions about her 💔

like telling Cherie to “leave this all behind” instead of “come with me, we can start a new life” speaks volumes imo. he’s not even saying anything remotely close to romantic like “I will do my best to give you happiness and be the best husband” or something of the sort This is a great point! 😱 He just offers her some kind of escape but what about afterwards? 😏

HOLD ON HOLD ON-

Anthony’s business proposal was better?! 😱

I mean Pierre wouldn’t be able to offer like half of the luxury as Anthony can, that’s for sure 😂

Oh you’re absolutely right! ❤ I think Percy and Cassie were completely different people before the divorce 💔 And just like you said, Cherie only knew Cassie after everything happened💔

I do think Cassie was more like, more assertive than Cassie and had a worse temper than Cherie, but I think on some part, they have a lot in common❤ Cassie, just like Cherie loved to laugh and was mostly carefree before the divorce ❤ And after the divorce and everything, Cassie that Cherie got to know and was raised by had so little in common with Cassie Percy married 💔

“go touch some grass” LOLLL OMG YES?! 😂

Hugh has been spending most of his time with Kenneth ❤ And I love Iona and Lucie together! ❤

just thinking about Elias and Cece going there and every time they do they just see the life and joy slowly leave Cherie. like i can picture her getting weaker day by day and they will see that with each visit. like they’d notice the change each time and it would really be such a sad thing to see. OMG EXACTLY!

Like, Cherie would slowly change in a marriage with Pierre and not even in a good way, it would be so heartbreaking 💔

Oh the mental image of Anthony following them and grumbling 😂

Cherie was going to say yes to his proposal if she didn’t see them❤ So she kind of owes her future happiness to Elias and Cece 😂

Lucie is the voice of reason😂❤

Cherie really did have a moment of selfishness back at the duke’s study. She did! She most certainly did, and I think it’s really good that Elias let her know, because that was really thoughtless on her part, to drag him into that argument just to use him against Percy 💔

THE WALTZ, THE WALTZ!

Elias didn’t think about anyone else at all and he was right 😂 It’s his wedding so he is only focused on Cecily and being close to her ❤

Lovesick Chaotic Ass™ OH I LOVE THIS DESCRIPTION😂❤

Anthony taking his gloves off yessssss😏 I mean in his defense, it would be rude if the lady’s gloves were off and he kept his own BUT…

He wasn’t thinking about social rules, that’s for sure 😈

That’s totally all Cecily! ❤ He had to step on the breaks and not overwhelm Cherie after everything, and Cecily made sure he understood how important it was for their future and their relationship❤

And he remembers everything about their first danceeeee❤

also, also, their whole questioning portion, i feel like Anthony was just waiting for her to ask him how he feels about her. like give him an opportunity to say it. like that’s such a lovely thing bc he’s not, pushing himself to much onto her anymore. he’s being patient finally and letting her steer the convo. THIS! DEFINITELY! ❤

Cherie is setting the pace now, not him ❤ And he’s going to have to learn how to not always be in control and to let her have it instead ❤ I think it’ll be such a new experience for them both 😂❤

Wedding next chapter! ❤❤❤

Thank you so much love, you’re amazing! ❤❤ You’ve made me so happy with this! ❤❤❤

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fangirl-hell · 3 years

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🔅 all the fandoms I’m in + the ships I ship 🔅

MARVEL

~ probably my main fandom and the fandom I spend the most time in and have been in the longest

~ by far my favourite fandom

~ joined the fandom before I really knew what a fandom was

Ships MCU:

~ Stucky ( slightly ship it, used to be my OTP BEFORE STEVE WENT AND-)

~ Ironstrange ( I used to ship it more but people move on yk )

~ Thorbruce/gammahammer ( love it. So much chemistry in Thor Ragnorok! )

~ ThorQuill ( it’s cute )

~ Scarletwidow ( I think they would be a cute couple if gay relationships were normalised and they were a bit closer age-wise )

~ Blackhill ( it’s cute. I wrote a Blackhill oneshot once. They would be cute shield-wives <3 )

~ Blackpepper ( Natasha deserves a strong independent woman like Pepper! )

~ Frosthawk ( not proud of this one- but it is one of my OTP’s and first ever ships )

~ Winterhawk ( it’s cute )

~ Hawkdevil ( god bless shipping wiki for introducing this to me. I love the deaf/Blind dynamic there )

~ Hawkant ( the family men <3 )

~ Lokius ( they r so gay- )

~ Frostmaster ( don’t really ship it I just think they did it )

~ sambucky/winterfalcon ( rollin’ in a field of flowers~~ )

~ Hawksilver ( HOW COULD I ALMOST FORGET THE ONE I SPENT HOURS LOOKING AT TUMBLR POSTS ABOUT- )

~ Parley/Parkner ( it could be romantic or brotherly- I know that sounds weird but it’s like how Hawksilver could be father and son or romantic and I don’t mind it either way )

~ Shuri/MJ ( I swear it was one fic- )

~ Valcarol ( still have hope for my gay space girls <3 )

~ Drax/Mantis ( AHA!! A STRAIGHT ONE! I ship this one on a strict platonically romantic basis tho- )

X-Men:

~ Cherik ( 😫 CuBa BeAcH dIvOrCe || PaRiS cHeSs PrOpOsAl 😫 )

~ Scogan ( in the original universe, alt reality Scott is 2 young )

~ Kurt/Peter

~ Scott/Peter

~ Bobby/Pyro ( gay )

The Gifted:

Lorna/Marcus ( THE CHERIK PARALLELS ARE INTENSE )

Runaways:

Gert/Karolina ( ik….I’m being selfish. I can’t be happy with Karolina and Nico being gay 4 eachother )

Alex/Darius’s sister in-law

MCYT FANDOM:

~ been in it for the second least amount of time

~ I like it but not unconditionally

Ships:

~Dreamnotfound ( a classic- can u blame me? )

~Dreamnap ( aNd ThEy WeRe RoOmMaTeS )

~ Sapnotfound

~ Sapnottaken?

~ Karlnapity ( OT3 )

~ Sapity/Quacknap ( adorable. )

~ Karlnap

MHA:

~ Totally forgot I was ever in this one

~ quite watching it when it made me watch it in Japanese

~ in and out

Ships:

~ BakuDeku ( classic! Only one-sided though or one side w/ acceptance and the other with strong denial )

MAZE RUNNER:

~ loosely in the fandom

~ mostly there for one ship

Ships:

~ Newtmas ( god bless my random YouTube recommendations )

SOUTH PARK:

~ admittedly I was kinda obsessed with this one for a while!

~ Kenny

~ I was 11 when I got into the fandom so this is worrying

Ships:

~ Crenny ( adorable dumbasses. Limited fics though…)

~ Style ( they were gay. Gay in a slightly homophobic but also anti-homophobic way )

~ Tyde ( cute. They obviously had their gay awakening when Craig started dating guys. They were like: “oh shit- if our mutual bestie is gay- are we gay?” And then: “are we gay 4 eachother?? )

~ Butters/Scott Malkinson ( the badass softies <3 )

~ Christopher/Gregory ( don’t question me )

~ Michael/Pete ( gay, goth and gender-non-conforming )

~ Bendy ( they’re both basic bitches ofc they deserve eachother )

~ Cryde ( cute )

~ Stylenny

~ Creek ( I don’t really ship this one but it’s not bad. They are a cute couple and they’re canon! )

IT:

~ almost forgot this one aaahahaha

~ luv it

~ make horror gay 🌈

Ships:

~ Reddie ( YESSSS YESSS YESSS I MEAN JUST YESSS- SHIPPING WIKI SAID SEMI-CANON )

~ Stenbrough ( they would be cute lol )

~ Benverly ( get outta here with that Billverly crap- I mean....Bev is pretty but she was a bit annoying. She depended on a man all the time it was infuriating)

STRANGER THINGS:

~ again! Forgot this one!

~ i didn’t know what the hype was about till I watched it

Ships:

~Max/El ( gay girls go shopping 🛍)

~ Mike/Will ( I mean they’re a little eh but it’s a good ship! )

~ Dustin/That Girl from Utah ( they were kind of cute yk )

~ Steve/Jonathan ( jk jk jk....unless? )

~ Nancy/Jonathan

BONUS FOR THAT ONE IT/STRANGER THINGS CROSSOVER FIC IM READING:

~Max/Bev

~ El/Bev

~ Stan & El are siblings

That fic is called “The Losers Party” it’s on ao3

It’s by: WhelmedBirdie_319 and it’s fvcking awesome

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whatdoesshedotothem · 3 years

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Sunday 1 May 1836: SH:7/ML/E/19/0036

- The notes written last night vid. above went at 8 this morning - finish, dullish morning - F50° at 9 ¾ am at which hour breakfast till Mr. Husband came at 10 ¼ Thomas Pearson soon came about the 2 cows - bade £15 for them would not give more than £16 nor would I take less than £17 supposing myself to allow him 20/. profit - agreed that he should take them to Atherton fair on Thursday sell them for me and have 5/. a piece for selling them whatever price he should sell them for - then Holt came and about 11 Mr. Jubb - kept him perhaps near ½ hour - mentioned about Mrs. Briggs - Mr. J- to give her a hint to conciliate Oddy - mentioned about the Dispensary - suggested that an appeal be made to the public for 1/8 or what not upon their subscriptions to raise a thousand more (£4900 subscribed about £1700 to give for the ground) - said I would give £5 towards the fitting up of the museum - mentioned having heard talk of an exchange - if a better site than I had could be got I should be glad - if not, I had a plan of my own which, if nobody could produce a better, I would aid as well as I could - said it might not be more costly than what might be thought of by others - I could at least answer for its beauty - just hinted at a sort of thing like the Bourse at Paris the entrance end fronting Northgate and one side fronting St. Anne’s street - alluding to Rawsons’ joint stock bank Mr. J- seemed evidently all in its favour - said they had allotted him very few shares - £7000 worth of shares were applied for at the premium - the profits of the bank at present 10 or 12 thousand a year - on the 2 connexions (H-x and Huddersfield) the latter the larger of the 2 - said I was glad to hear it - I dared say, I knew people who would give up their shares to Mr. J- if he wanted more shares and if the Bank would allow it - offered to do anything I could for Mr. J- in Paris - I thought he seemed rather fearful of giving me any large commission - (for fear of price or what?) - no sum named or hinted at - I simply wrote down in my rough book (in his presence) ‘Preparations of the eye and ear for Mr. Jubb’ - then with Holt in the north parlour Mr. Husband waiting in the drawing - mentioned about Illingworth - H- thought what I had proposed to advise A- very fair - he (Holt) would not take less than £15 per acre on Charnocks’ coal - about 8 acres and about 3 acres already got - said they had agreed about the 2nd pit (but did not say more on this part of the subject) - Holt’s measurement not done - bad air in the mines - could not get in of a fortnight or 3 weeks some new Thirls driven - Respecting my own concerns agreed to mend Joseph Mann’s price for the Listerwick Long goit - now that stone can be had on the spot, he is to get it, and dress and wall and arch and complete the goit (now 2ft x 3ft. 3in) at 9/. per yard up to the north east side of the throw where the stone will wear out and after crossing the throw to have the old price again i.e. 5/6 per yard for labour - Desired as little coal as possible to be got at Walker pit - the trespass to be ascertained by Holt, John Oates, and one other master collier besides our workmen Joseph and Robert Mann - the wheel race to be began of on Tuesday next - Holt says the meer drift would be began of - can be done without damage to Charles Howarth - a whimble hole will give vent enough - said I was anxious about Mrs. Machin’s coal - the children are of age that Samuel Holdsworth has no more power - they will sell but the mother wont - she has only a life estate in the farm - ask Mr. Gray if the children cannot give a tithe good enough and then to let Holt know that he may complete the purchase without troubling his for her signature - then went with Messrs. Holt and Husband to the meer head - Holt satisfied it was be better to take the water in higher up where Messrs. Husband and Mawson pointed out - determined that it shall be done so - then to the meer-drift - the setting in or opening into the meer done yesterday, right - then to the glen and explained where I wanted the Lodge drift stuff to be pulled up - Holt valued the driving at 2/6 per yard, pulling up at 1/6 per yard (a man cannot pull more than 2 square yards per day) and carting to be considered of - I said I calculated the whole at 4/6 per yard the throwing back the soil being extra - then to the Lodge Holt left us - explained a little to Mr. Husband where the stuff should be put (Husband thinks 3000 yards to be moved - I said I thought not exceeding 2000) - then walked with Mr. Husband towards Pump and told him to set the wall in front of the house with its road face in a line along the Shibden hall side of the causeway and finish each ending of the new wall in a quadrant of a circle - Road face to be walled with lime and the old parpoints - face towards Shibden hall dry walling with the stone taken from the wall along the present approach road - and in front of the carriage house court - left Mr. about 11 /2 and came in wrote as follows to ‘Messrs. Parker and Adam, solicitors H-x’ to go by Frank tonight

SH:7/ML/E/19/0037

‘Shibden hall - Sunday 1 May 1836. Sir - Be so good as send me back Miss Walker’s order upon Messrs. Briggs - she did not know of their prospectus at the time of giving me the order; and I would rather she did not draw out the money just at this time without further consideration - I will give you a check on the Yorkshire District bank for the whole sum required - I am sir, etc etc A. Lister’ - then wrote the following to go tonight to ‘Mr. Rogers Cutler Sheffield PPD’ ‘Shibden Hall 1 May 1836- Sir - I shall be much obliged to you to make me two gardener’s knives, the handles to be such as usual - the blades to be of the usual size but the cutting edge straight I mean them as presents to foreign gardeners, and shall be glad to have the metal and workmanship the best you can turn out of your shop - Be so good as send a bill in the parcel and direct it to Mrs. Lister to the care of Messrs. Hammersleys, Bankers, London I to be there by the 11th instant - will order payment to be made to your agent in London I am, sir, your obedient servant A. Lister’ - had just written the above at 3 ¾ pm when Mark Hepworth came - [looking] into account 4 bills = 9.2.6 and the cow £13 and new gin horse 6 guineas + 10/. for his trouble of buying him and still Mark with money paid in a/c and Ruthin at £11.10.0 owes me a balance of £2.11.6 to be paid at the next rent day - the £18 for the 3 Hill top grass fields (he is to pasture all but the new seeds and these he will [mew]) to be paid at Xmas rent-day - somehow got one thing confused with another so that tho’ right at last and all clear, yet a long while pothering and had Mark till long after 4 - then till 7 10 at colliery accounts - dinner at 7 10 sent my letter (1 p. of ½ sheet black edged note paper) to ‘Mr. Rogers, Cutler Sheffield ppd’ and my note (vid. above) to Messrs. P- and A- Marian came and sat with me till about 8 when had Joseph and Robert Mann till 9 - they brought estimate of new approach road making that is rubbling - [laying?]and rubble 1ft. deep and 13ft. 6in. wide (finding everything) at 35/. per rood - Lodge drift.... said I should be obliged to come over again - should be here next Tuesday week - settled that Robert Mann + 3 should go on by day till 7 return at that time - to finish at the back of farmyard - and puddle about the rockwork all that is necessary - and wall up gap in the paddock wall near Greenwood’s cottage and get the farmyard paving done - Gave Joseph his new book beginning with Listerwick Long goit - 2 [entries] = £18 + £15 = £33 and he from this time begins with Mr. Parker - I am to keep Joseph’s old book - had coffee warmed up and sent for Marian and she sat with me till 9 55 when we both went to my aunt - Marian glad I should not be here when she went away at 8 am next Tuesday week - I said I would not be here then on any account - did not like partings - neither of us said more but both seemed to feel the thing and neither liked to dwell upon the subject - I remained with my aunt till 10 ½ - then came upstairs to the blue room - I had wished Marian goodnight in the drawing room - yet came upstairs to me, saying, to wish goodnight and stood talking to me till 11 25 - said if my aunt was poorly she would come and see her for a few days - I said everything would always be ready for her - she asked if I should like her to leave M-‘s mahogany writing desk (the 1st M- ever possessed and which she valued) that Marian has used ever since being here - I said after a moment’s pause, I felt I ought not to like it to be taken - Marian thought perhaps I should not mind about it now - no! no! said I, that ought not to be - I will give you another - Marian stood talking as if she had not resolution to leave me - poor Marian! my heart aches for her and for myself too - but I had talked of Mrs. Briggs and household arrangements and alterations in and additions to the house, and of [?] end of my idea of a plan for an exchange etc talked of anything that seemed not triste - when Marian was gone wrote all but the 1st 12 lines of the last p. and so far of this till 12 10 at night at which hour F35° then poked up my fire and sat at accounts till six in the morning - then an hour looking over my drawers

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gulmoregirls · 5 years

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Hey! Sorry for the lack of updates — there’s no excuse this time. I just kind of forgot to post, mostly because nothing overly exciting happened (with the hype and high point of s3 ending, the dean thing didn’t motivated me enough to come here express my hate)

But anyway, here i am! I can’t even remember when i stopped here. So, the good old recap it is.

Luke and Lorelai finally happening, little by little in s4, is everything we ever wanted. My mom was really glad, cause we are huge javajunkies here in this house. Kirk is becoming more and more my favorite character ever. He’s so extra it’s everything.

If that’s wasn’t established before, lemme make it clearer — Rory Gilmore is cancelled. She’s SO out of character, it’s annoying. College Rory is by far not what anyone expected based on previous experiences, and that includes me and my mom. Specially with the whole Dean thing. But that’s REALLY something, so I’m gonna elaborate on that.

For good part of the season Dean has been being mentioned as a good guy, rory’s sweet ex who her ex classmates remember. It’s just annoying! This entire arc with Dean makes no sense — I mean, I know Rory was a bit lost and needed someone comfortable she knew and who she knew wouldn’t challenge her enough. Just something old and familiar. BUT THE OLD AND FAMILIAR BOY IS MARRIED. And the famous smart Rory (season 1 rory) would never do such thing. It was terrible. Poor Lindsay!! She deserved so much better than an idiot as her unfaithful husband. It just disgusts me. In my opinion, it was not necessary to ruin Deans character like that. He could be remembered as the sweet first love that did his best, but instead asp made him a total jerk, and that’s the memory that sticks. And if Rory had to be so out of herself — go thru come kind of crises of something — i’d rather she had took off with jess instead. at least he wasn’t married and truly loved her. Not that wish it had happened — would be just as random as sleeping with a married guy. But between getting together with the married ex and running away with the unpredictable one, i guess the less problematic alternative is really obvious.

Before we pass to the 5th season, let’s discuss jess then. I love his evolution. Wish we had seen it more closely in his spin-off. How he agrees to be at Liz’s wedding after everything he went through with her. And the way he reads Luke’s self-help/relationship books and decides to take an action. Even tho it was kind of crazy, it shows inniciative and I’ll give him that. Ignore this if you think that’s just a jess mariano supremacist saying shit.

OKAY SEASON FIVE

Lorelai and Luke ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🤧💝

best part of the season by far.

Somehow, Rory’s relationship with Dean managed to be just as crappy as it was when he was married. Why couldn’t they just move on, right? It was annoying and the last drop that made us hate rory. don’t mind me — i can hate her and love her at the same time. She’s so stupid my crackhead heroin addicted daughter.

Even tho I’m not a team Logan, his appearance helped. He challenged Rory and made her realize that the world is more than that Dean-bubble she was in. During this season i could easily see myself as a sophies.

Then, of course, there’s the proof of how Rory can be DUMB. dropping out of Yale. Season six now.

How she refugees at her grandparent’s at the first sign of trouble and even so finds herself so independent, and the way she cuts off her mom just for wanting what’s best for her. Immature and spoiled.

Besides that, it bugs me that Logan was right there by her side and did NOTHING. Literally, the only thing he did was say that “in less than a month she would be back”. When that month passed by, he did nothing — possibly didn’t even noticed. In fact, I guess he was kind of liking her new life. After all, she did started to have more time for him. That’s probably why i don’t like their relationship (more reasons to come). Rory started to act as if she was him and completely lost track of her true self - even more than before. In her Chilton graduation she says that the person the most wanted to be was Lorelai, but she ended becoming the exact opposite, Emily. The DAR, the maids, dropping out of school, not battling for her stuff, just accepting and BESIDES THIS, acting all superior/wild and stealing a boat. THATS NOT HER. Ok, I get that she was upset because of Mitchum, but it’s not an excuse to that behavior. Plus, the real Rory Gilmore would have used his words as motivation to work even harder and prove him wrong.

In how many languages can you say THANK YOU, JESS ??????

He made her open her eyes - finally - and get her shit back together. He was so important!! And besides, the way he has made his life?? CAN YOU SAY CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT????? LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE ON THE BACK!!!!

Lemme tell you, he is doing better than rory — who would have thought, right? The punk hoodlum rebel who dropped out of highschool was doing better than the private school girl straight As girl who got into Yale. And he’s happier too. Guy wrote a fucking book after several problematic life scenarios and is now working with people he likes doing what he has always loved. Ughhhh he has my entire heart.

Paul Anka, BTW!! love him 🤧😍

I also love how Lorelai proposed to Luke. They are goals. When she saw how much he cared for Rory, she was sure. In fact, maybe she was already sure, just needed a little push. And then all the signs and the snow!! I almost cried.

Now the Logan thing again. I like him — I swear!! I know it seems like i hate him and maybe i did when i first watched it, but now i see he is not that bad. But their relationship- nah. They’re annoying and rory has her weight on that, but that’s not just it. They’re cute, but there’s something missing. AND HE CHEATED ON HER. His story doesn’t match. It’s bad enough to break up with someone without them knowing. In fact, it’s REALLY bad. Rory was so confused and devastated. He should be more mature than that. Than ok, he says is just something he said Honor to make her stop talking. But then he sleeps with the bridesmaids. If he was honest with Rory and really didn’t mean it when he said they were broken up, then he TRULY cheated on Rory. If he lied about that, then he really decided that they were apart on his own. Their fight wasn’t even that serious, and he didn’t even reach out to her after that. The way she found out both times — through someone else — that is just wrong. Then he crows back buying her with money and stuff he knows she loved and she suddenly forgives him and moves in with the guy. Wrong too, ugh. Paris’ speech about Logan was everything. We deserved healing Paris and Rory growing their friendship together for more than five minutes.

I said she forgave him, right? Well, maybe not after all, because she wants a little revenge and decides to play with someone else’s real feelings. cold!! baby deserves better ); and then he gets into an accident and it’s all forgotten. ok....

just here to say that jess deserved recognition. He was the whole reason Rory came back and he did something great with his life. Still Lorelai sees him as the immature 17 yo he was. We were robbed of a great duo, them both. Their humor is really alike, a shame...

APRIL.

Poor girl, she doesn’t deserves all the hate. It’s not her fault duuuh

Asp could have made up something better for Luke this season. I think the storyline was a little non-sense and Luke, my sweet baby, gained my hate too.

Well, maybe not HATE but yeah i get where he’s coming from but it’s no excuse to lie to Lorelai and ruin their relationship. It was a pitty, really.

Then Lorelai coming to chris! what a breakdown huh? I guess it was expected, but i really hated it.

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So his doctor said that basically if he pulled his back after the second day of work, then it is a too fast paced job for him and he really shouldn't be lifting a ton of heavy stuff at work, cause he could make his slipped discs much worse. So the doctor wrote a note for my husband's work explaining the situation, and made a copy for the welfare office, and a prescription for more of the mess he's currently on cause they help. We came back home, husband wanted to buy lunch and pick up his prescription, but when we checked the mailbox there was a letter from welfare saying that he needs to sign off since he's now been at work for two weeks. So we decide to go do everything today, we picked up his prescription, then went to the welfare office to explain everything. Basically the lady didn't listen very well, cause husband kept saying "my doctor has written a note saying I'm unable to work in a fast paced job that requires heavy lifting like McDonald's" and she kept saying "so you're ineligible to work" completely ignoring that that's not what we were saying at all. But she said that we have to get his work to fill out the days he's worked and how much he's been paid, which btw the first week he earned 120 euro for the two days plus sick leave and then 90 euro for an entire week of sick leave, he made well below what welfare pays a 18 year old's jobseeker allowance. But basically she said that we need to get that form filled out and signed by the head manager, then we need to submit it along with the doctor's note for evaluation, to determine whether or not we qualify for jobseeker's allowance. I'm pissed, she kept saying "you're most likely gonna have to apply for disability" when his doctor said he doesn't have the qualifications to apply for disability. He needs a certain amount of stamps to qualify, his doctor and my MIL have said they don't think he has enough. So if we don't qualify for jobseeker's allowance and he doesn't qualify for disability then we're gonna be fucked if I can't find a job immediately. Even then i don't think I'll make enough to fully take over bills and food money.

Though we dunno, we went into McDonalds and since his manager wasn't there so we left it with the supervisor and they'll call us once the manager comes in and signs it. So until then we're just in a state of anxiety, our livelihood is in the hands of the government and I'm terrified, I know I need to get a job and I will, but this whole time we've talked about both of us working to jointly get money. Together we would've been making over 20k a year which isn't a lot but we could definitely make do. But just by myself we'd maybe make 17k a year, could get better probably won't tho. With just me able to work, I can't do the work I want to because it's a shit pay, and definitely isn't a livable wage for even just one person, let alone two people and possibly two kids. I'm gonna have to look into jobs that pay higher and work my way up trying my damnest to give us a comfortable life, even if it ends up being a soul sucking job that makes me never home to see my kids or husband. Irish times recently put out that a family of four needs at the very least 30k to make bare minimum, and 50k to live comfortably in 2019, and that'll only get higher and higher as time goes on. I feel so unbelievably stressed right now, I'm a woman and foreign, that already puts me at a great disadvantage, why would they hire a foreigner from the US when they could hire an EU resident to do the same job, sure I might work harder, but the Americans are painted as lazy racist people who get fat and sue everyone for stupid reasons, that's not really a great stereotype for me to get a job. I would work the skin off my bones to get a good job, but the cards are heavily stacked against me. I'm gonna be stressed, depressed, and probably won't be able to afford mental health care for myself while I'm solely paying for me my husband and two kids. Even if he can get a job, it's gonna be hard and I dunno if he'll try, he's already proven himself to be unmotivated, he doesn't even want a job he just wants money to fall in his lap for nothing. He said he'd love to be a stay at home dad too, but I seriously doubt he could do it, he can't stomach changing diapers, I dunno how he'll deal with it, especially when he wants two in such a small time frame. If his back can't handle being on his feet a lot and lifting stuff, I dunno how hell take care of toddlers that will definitely want to be held a ton, and won't understand what a back injury is, not to mention they love love love to run away from you. I don't think we'll be able to do this, I even told him before, if I'm the only one working, I don't think I'll be able to make enough for us to have any kids. He started tearing up and said "I know", like it's killing me, I want children so badly, and if I can't have any because we can't afford them, I dunno what I'll do. I don't want to divorce him, I want to be with him, I just wish life didn't deal us both the worst cards it could.

All while my fucking cousins get a fucking 100k allowance and live on a farm where they get to be hippies cause my great uncle pays their bills. They get lavish vacations and horses, all while some of my other cousins live in trailers with three kids they can barely afford, and my husband and I are struggling to even get started in life, we would appreciate a fucking paid for house with an allowance. The most my great uncle and aunt gave me was 1000 bucks, which I thought was a very generous thing, only to watch as after my aunt handed me the check they gave the same amount to every other family there, even the wealthy fuckers. For my wedding I got fucking 150 British pound and they couldn't even come, they were sick and that completely understandable but you'd think if you couldn't come to someone's wedding you'd try to give a REALLY nice gift to say sorry or maybe even have the cash present be in the currency of the country I live in? They gave less than my grandma (who's a fucking boss), she gave us 500 euros to help us go on a honeymoon. Especially when they helped pay for my cousins college and high school educations, and one of my cousin's wedding last year. They had a lavish wedding, a really nice one, so expensive that my cousin couldn't come to my wedding, which btw even though he knew about my wedding for over a year, he just decided to propose to his gf and get married a month after me which all happened in about 8 months. Why do they get handouts that they don't need, while the family members that are struggling and barely making it are left in the dust. I recently even saw my dad's cousin go to fucking Paris that she no doubt paid for with her allowance, her kids also all but one dropped out of college after a year or so (it was a cycle of them quiting and coming back multiple times, right now the three of them all live at home in mommy's garage and basement) that was paid for by great uncle and aunt. I'm. Tired of this favoritism bullshit, my brother and I have been nothing but overly kind and gracious to them about the shitty thoughtless gifts they gave (they have me perfume for Christmas one year that still had the price tag on it, it was cheap and I'm also unable to use it because I'm highly sensitive to lavender perfume as it always gives me massive headaches), I thought that the last Christmas we were there I finally was being treated like my cousins, but only to realise they gave each and every family member 1000-3000 dollars, you can probably guess which family members got the higher amounts. Hell, the spoiled cousins that were 18+ each got 1000 to themselves. My great aunt and uncle are fucking millionaires. Honestly I just can't wait for them to die, ok I don't want them to because I do love the old farts but I just want to see my shitty spoiled cousins blow through their inheritances like nothing only to be left with no job, no income, and no grandpa to bail them out. I wish I could get that sweet delicious revenge without losing my aunt and uncle but I doubt they'd cut any of them off.

I'm sorry, I seem spoiled, it just for literally two years my mom and my grandmother told me that since I'm the first to have an actual wedding that wasn't shot gun like my cousins, that I might get a nice present or maybe even a hefty chunk of our honeymoon paid for, which would've been nice. Only for when the time came, my grandma handed me 150 pound of crumpled cash from my great aunt, even she was upset her sister cheaped out on me. I could tell that the bills were left over from their trips, cause my grandmother told me that she took out fresh new notes for me, they didn't have a single fold. That's usually custom right? Even if it isn't, my grandma cared enough to do something nice like that. We can't even get it exchanged for our currency because most of the notes are ripped or written on. I don't understand, like I know we said we might go to England for our honeymoon, but we also said in the same sentence that we might go to Spain instead. I dunno, I just feel forgotten and not cared about by them when I've done nothing but be polite and respectful to them

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