#bc i don't remember anything lmao

[accirax]

and finally, here are the last two prompts of DRDTtober 2023! thank you to @librariansrose and @mikmiho for organizing the event, and to all of you for leaving such nice comments on my comics :) i haven't done a -tober event since, like... 2017? so, it was a fun-yet-definitely-time-consuming exercise to try it again.

although there isn't a given prompt for halloween day itself, i still have something drdt related planned to close out the month (assuming i finish it in time... :|) so, stay tuned for that!

#danganronpa despair time #drdt #drdt spoilers #drdttober #drdttober2023 #veronika grebenshchikova #charles cuevas #rose lacroix #monotv #fanganronpa #this post brought to you by someone who wrote her junior year english honors research paper on neuromancer and the cyberpunk genre #i wanted to read that essay again but i don't think i have a copy of it on this computer :( so my insights aren't as insightful #bc i don't remember anything lmao #i know the crime prompt barely has to do with crime (and nothing to do with law) but i thought it was funny so it's what you get #in the end i think everyone other than monotv (3) appeared 4-5 times (although some were non speaking roles). that's fair right? #as long as everybody got to see their faves doing SOMETHING cool i'll take that as a w #my art #comic #fanart

[kenobihater]

of all the star wars movies, which of them do y'all 1) enjoy the most 2) consider the best quality and 3) think you've rewatched the most. add your answers in the reblogs or replies, i'm genuinely curious how much of an overlap there is within everyone's three answers. mine don't overlap at all! they're revenge of the sith, empire strikes back, and the force awakens :^)

#len speaks #star wars #revenge of the sith #empire strikes back #the force awakens #not tagging more films than that bc i cant b bothered. incoming tag ramble ahead bc i have sw brainrot rn and im making it everyones prob❤️ #i rlly struggled 2 remember if id watched tfa or aotc more. i went w/ tfa bc it was formative to me as a teen and ive seen it probably 6ish #times? whereas aotc was the first sw movie i remember (specifically the scene of obiwan serving c*nt in the bar lmao) but i've only seen it #for sure 4.5 and maybe 5.5 times. the .5 is from when i got bored after obi-wan's scene ended and ran off to go play in the mud or smthn 😭 #i'm sure tfa will eventually get surpassed in number of rewatches by aotc and rots bc i don't fw the direction of the ST but that's my #current ballpark estimate of my total number of rewatches #as an adult tho if i just wanna watch a star war i'll go with aotc bc it's fun and ends semihappily and i can turn my brain off for the #spinny lightsabers. it's great background noise or for if you're sick or whatever. rots on the other hand? i won't talk through that unless #i'm quoting it with my brother and i am LOCKED IN 100% entirely entranced by it all #i almost picked rogue one for the best quality answer but i think the character writing is weaker and the facial cgi is creepy. esb beats #it by a hair imho bc of that. the vader hallway scene goes hard tho!!! #also i'm not covering shows or games or books or anything else in this post - simply the films. might ask abt shows later but that might #also give me hives bc so many of the shows suck ass and i don't rlly want ppl extolling the virtues of t.bb in my notes 💀 #and yes i do think one's enjoyment and one's opinion of quality are two things that often overlap. but sometimes you just like something #bad and that's awesome. like rots is the best of the prequels by a large margin and i adore the opening and characters and many of the #scenes but that doesn't mean it's the best star wars has to offer ykwim? it's my specialest most favoritest sw movie but that doesn't blind #me to the dialogue lmfaooo

[jade-len]

you know it's bad when i read svsss and tgcf, stories about just two guys falling in love and getting together, and think, "god i wish i were in between them."

gay little domestic cottage core life with binghe and qingqiu? please and thank you. being sandwiched by hua cheng and xie lian, two pretty men who are hundreds of years old? i am blushing, kicking my feet and giggling

and again, it's not even that i would want only one of them. like in both of the relationships, the two love each other too much to the point it'd feel wrong if they were separated! it wouldn't feel complete, so you gotta be with both of them!

but that's the thing; i just?? i feel so incredibly guilty whenever i think about being loved by these mxtx couples??? like it's so stupid but i feel like i'm intruding in on something and it's like, everyone else seems to just want them together only, not wanna be with them. like it's fuckin taboo or whatever

i feel like with any other character from any other media it'd be fine to simp for and write/read x readers of them, but when it comes to these books, it's off limits! no way, what are you, crazy? yes, yes i'm unhinged and desperately want their love and affection simultaneously. i want to be in a happy little poly relationship with these overpowered beautiful men with long hair.

i can't be the only guy or whoever to feel this way?? to wanna be kissed by these characters? sandwiched?? i have two hands for christ sake and they all look so happy together and im just like "lord i wanna be with them so much". someone tell me i'm not alone cmon <\3

#okay i havent read mdzs yet but i'll probably feel the same way #god i just wanna be in between shen qingqiu and binghe or hua cheng and xie lian please please #im sad im queer and im ready for a gay poly relationship with these mfs #i love them all #i remember seeing some post where it was like 'hua cheng x fem reader headcanons' #and i was like 'huh thats interesting. not fem but i'll check it out bc ive never rlly seen anything like that' #and then it was like 'he'd leave you for xie lian' and it was fucking hilarious actually #but then i saw the comments on that post and they were all like 'omg i was about to unfollow and block you' 'thank god' etc #and i was just like #'damn?? do people really not like this type of stuff when it comes to danmei novels or smth?' #i don't know if it was just bc it said fem reader or bc yk it's danmei and hua cheng and xie lian are very much in love and happy #but it lowkey kinda got me self conscious lmao and i was hella feeling bad #also no hate to that poster or those commenters im just a lonely queer man #'he would leave you for xie lian' was fucking brutal though i laughed my ass off at thag KAHSNZJ #please i swear i wont stand out too much i can fit in i have long luxurious hair too let me show you my hair care routine guys </3 #svsss #mxtx svsss #luo binghe #bingqiu #tgcf #heavens official blessing #mxtx tgcf #mxtx novels #mxtx characters #hua cheng #xie lian #hualian #shen qingqiu #the scum villain's self saving system

[airborneice]

couple doodles of the sillies

#hm i like to post my oc nonsense in groups of 3 to fool ppl into thinking its a proper post with substance #and not just some silly doodles i threw together #but i dont think i'll have anything else to add to this for a while so here¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #im pleased with the 1st one tho. look at the shading on arwen's skirt i think it came out nice :) #2nd image brought to you by: me remembering that that fucked up spider crab called itself hilda's friend #and thinking how utterly incomprehensible that info would be to anyone else ever #fucked up spider thing: yea i know your sister. we're friends :) *tries to eat mattie* #i say that as a joke but tbh there's a comic in my head around this topic #that i'm trying not to do bc i don't wanna just re-tread season 3 lmao #art tag #mattie #harvey #arwen #hilda ocs tag #hilda oc

[pmatga]

so here's my latest pmatga idea

bitter exes: old man edition™

#sir cumference #buttler #delbert heinbech #<- my hc name for butler #pmatga #pac man and the ghostly adventures #my art #btw this is supposed to take place during 'seems like old times' when sir c's being held captive in betrayus' throne room #bc (if i'm remembering correctly) that's the only time these two are ever in the same location together in the show #also bc i don't think i've ever mentioned it before: i personally hc sir c's first name as clarence #bc clarence cumference sounds funny to me #also also look. there's just something Very Funny to me abt *these two* in particular + #+ having a 'dated decades ago; had an incredibly messy break-up; have hated each other ever since' dynamic with each other #the friendliest old guy on pacworld & the most conflict-averse old guy in the netherworld have relationship drama that's old enough to drin #not even over the war or anything either; it's just normal break-up shit #also also also yea dr b & betrayus are (technically) here too. i just. didn't feel like drawing them rn lmao #just pretend they're in the background somewhere having a Live Slug Reaction moment

[sovonight]

;

#still thinking abt that scene in the underdark where xan is (force) propositioned by that drow lady #and while his first response is shock/apprehension ('*me*??') #radri loses regulation over the volume of her voice going 'what?! no!!' louder than anyone's ever really heard her before #when challenged though she can't come up with a drow-valid reason why hunrae *can't* just take xan #(yes i just now remembered her name lmao) #the thoughts 'bc consent??' 'he'd hate that' '*he's mine he promised*' keep getting translated into an ineffective verbal 'you just cant' #so xan saves himself and falls into a worse mood after it and radri falls into an equally poor mood at how she couldnt do anything/she can #never really do anything can she #oh but there's a kind of equivalent/reversal moment when radri's offered a 'night with one of with phaere's males' as a reward #and xan is just silently panicking/trying to reassure himself with 'she wouldn't' 'she'd hate that' 'she loves me... right?' #radri honestly has an easier time with the excuse this time bc she's not feeling as much panic/pressure as earlier #but the excuse that comes out is along the lines of 'uh monogamy is custom in my city and i already have a male--' #'NO no not one of these guys in my party!! (don't look too closely at them!)' #'i prefer not to travel with him! to make the reunions sweeter...??' #xan's mind catches on 'i prefer not to travel with him' and he gets in a bitter mood bc that might as well be true-- #bc really what use is he when he can't even do anything to help/save/protect her despite being right by her side #the underdark has them both on an internal monologue of 'i hate this' but while xan's is mainly towards their surroundings #radri's is almost entirely inward & so isnt eased the moment they reach the surface like xan's is

[fruitsyrups]

i think your hat post is really cool and interesting but susan’s hat is a cat and i will die on this hill

this is true!!! when i was talking about the modern human hats not resembling animals i meant all of these ones

(excluding the minerva-bots and finn of course)

#wait. wait. i just thought something #finn wearing his bear hat -> bc it makes him feel connected to the humans #and martin & the hiders (that old woman with the tiger at least) not wearing hats bc they don't feel that personal connection w/ the island #ok this is so obvious but i just think comparing and contrasting finn and martin is so interesting #but i don't think martin really was a hider. i don't think he felt particularly connected to any ideology or viewpoint in particular #he's a floater #yk #martin is so interesting #i dont like the amnesia theory or whatever (that martin also lost his memory in some capacity) #like to me its just that. he was able to commit enough to start a family but not committed enough to go back to them #after being seperated & having freedom #& he just super duper avoids thinking about it bc it makes him feel guilty. but not guilty enough to do anything about it #like when he said he doesn't like thinking about minerva cause it stresses him out that doesn't come across as 'can't remember' #it very much comes across as 'nah im not gonna expend energy into thinking about something emotionally difficult' #like if he actually tried to be a dad to finn he'd have to face all the time he spent not looking for him. instd of just avoiding it all #like where's the fun in making him less Complicated. you know? #whenever finn is in the vicinity martin's always tryna get out of there as fast as possible 😭 #i guess that could also just be seen as him trying to avoid the consequences of his actions (like when he's worried finns gonna try to rip #his arm off lmao) but i personally interpret it all as a guilt thing too #none of this is related to the ask but yea 🫣

[artekai]

Look who's stealing whose evil master plan because he's never had a single idea of his own

#funny story about this one i was working on it during new years 2023 and then again new years 2024 #not because i took an entire year to draw this or anything. but because i got lazy. and i put it away. then then i forgor 💀 #by the time i remembered a year had passed lol. but can you blame me. look at the details. #if i ever have to draw another zenith uniform again i will scream. why do i do that to myself. i don't even like them #and i was supposed to make a companion piece for it too. cries #whatever. maybe it was worth it. i do like how tildaloy ended up looking. even if i still can't draw tilda right after all this time #i don't think i remember seeing any art of tilda carrying aloy which is weird bc that's a significant thing that happened #i would've guessed the tildaloy artists would've latched onto it. i think it's cute #then again i'm pretty sure people are into tildaloy because it's fucked up and not because it's cute or anything lol. lmao #deni's art #deni's stuff #oc art #oc tag #oc: fross #oc: artekai #frosskai #horizon oc #horizon au #image #undescribed #i don't feel like adding a description now so hopefully i'll remember later

[bylertruther]

when will said it was "strange knowing who it was this whole time" and "he's hurt, he's hurting, but he's still alive" was he not talking about henry? am i insane? did i misinterpret that scene? why are we acting like will is connected to anyone other than henry bro what is Happening 😭

that was henry that shaped the mind flayer into that spider-like form and it was henry that used it to possess will and it was henry's thoughts that will was experiencing against his will and it's henry that he's still feeling because the connection/"vecna's curse" hasn't been broken. they physically extracted the mind flayer from will's body, yes, but his connection to henry was never broken. henry can't exercise complete and total control over people without the mind flayer's power, which is why will has free will over his body but his mind remains connected to henry.

the characters, and by extension the viewers, thought it was the mind flayer behind everything, because they didn't know what season four revealed to us.

henry wanted to control will's mind and body—a complete and entire violation of everything will is. that was Not the mind flayer, and they tell us that more than once. with all love and respect what are some of you on about because you're starting to make me feel like my memory is genuinely broken or something lmao like i thought.... the big reveal was that it's always been henry? they literally say that? eleven, henry, and will all confirm it? the mind flayer was not a separate entity acting alone... thus will has beef with henry most of all because henry's violation of his mind and body is still ongoing... Where Are You Guys Getting Your Information From 😭 hELP

will's rape—because that's what possession is, he never consented to having his mind and body controlled by anyone else—is an important part of stranger things; both to the general plot and will's character. to say that will only has beef with the mind flayer and not henry is reducing what henry did to him and reassigning blame that very much falls on henry's shoulders. henry was controlling the mind flayer and henry is the one still in will's mind. henry used the mind flayer to have control over will. henry and will are connected. the show literally tells us that over and over again. when you decide to needlessly reassign blame, not only are you misunderstanding and misconstruing the plot, but you're also... not understanding what happened to will at all. like, what really happened to him and how that's used in the show.

henry very likely was the one that kidnapped will. henry is the one that will has a psychic connection to. henry is the one that raped will / possessed him if you prefer that term instead and used the mind flayer to do it. henry is the one that will still knows like the back of his hand, because henry is the one that's still in his head. it's not the mind flayer. it's henry. please stop saying that will doesn't have more than enough reason to want to kill his ass. please!!!

#rape tw #rape mention #triggering myself on main like a fucking dumbass but the worms in my brain are holding on to this one n gnawing at it #am i insane am i genuinely having memory problems am i the weird one #eleven and will can both kill his ass but don't act like henry isn't the one that ruined his life i'm— #i feel very strongly abt this bc i just feel like you Can't reassign blame in rape cases u have to see it for what it is #they're literally fake but. please don't try to absolve bad people like that #they're characters not people i know but. please don't do that lol. henry is a bad guy for many reasons and eleven and will BOTH have #reasons to merc his ass. we can say that it's okay we're not taking anything away from eleven by acknowledging the plot and the #actions that the characters have made like i promise u no one is forgetting eleven who is literally the biggest character on the show #it doesn't matter but also it Does matter to me bc we don't always see rape victims on tv shows or movies that are treated like will #and it just makes me sad when like. stuff that happens in real life (abusers getting off scot free) happens in fiction. bc its like ok cool #not even in the fictional world can there be justice huh lmao cool cool cool very cool and awesome and great love it #actually no im gonna say it bro yes henry tried to kill eleven twice but like. he literally raped will. so yeah i think will deserves the #final blow bro idc. idc idc idc will has to live with that for the rest of his life he has to remember what it felt like and what all he #did under henry's control like. he deserves it. let him maul his ass let him fireball him to the pits of hell idc idc everyone else go home

[beatcroc]

comic planning/roughs on the clock at work 👍 ok. this one's still a few posts out though

#god i really do just need to get a tablet or. something #some way to draw digitally on the go bc my laptop is um #at least 200% less portable than your typical old clunky laptop. its a whole ordeal #and as u can see tradish scribbles are barely usable #though i guess it would help if i ever remembered to grab something besides a shite pen at work lmao <-hates pen forever #mad bc i think this one is kind of mid+redundant for what i'd intended it to do bc of how some of the previous ones shifted #but i still gotta draw it bc one of the later ones uses it. buh #when i said these werent chronological or connected btw i lied #though only VERY VERY LOOSELY so. enough to bother *me* if i don't do them in order #but not enough that's really going to be noticeable to anyone else. they're each still intended 99% as standalone. #the arc is very minor but its there. for me. for anyone else it probably just amounts to a couple easter egg references/ consistencies #by the by the pizzaposts before this arent part of the series. #one small quickie thing and one i would...really like to get done sooner rather than later bc i need it out of my system #former's like 70% sketched im just waffling on execution #latter is uh...theres a lot there but it's harder to work on And harder tell how close to done it is. #unrelated its funny how i Always forget brick until i start putting anything down and then its like oh god yeah i can do bg Jokes with him #funny in the sense that one of my webcomic protag oc's is a...spatially similar deal as him [little kid with a big bear companion] #and i ALWAYS forget the bear when im scripting it. until i start messing with the layout and its like fuck theres a bear. #i have to do things with this now. fortunately thus far it hasn't been too hard to adapt #much rambling tonight goodbye. i haev to go block all these damn bots

[born-to-lose]

"No more giving my number out to random people who flirt with me at work" I say as if I'm not going into the next shift with a pen and tissues in my pocket

#sunday i woke up to four messages from different people and half of them i don't even remember giving my number lmao #i wish i had given it to that drunk girl who kissed me in the bathroom 💔 i hope i'll see her again she was so cute #and another dude was parallel flirting with me immediately after she left #sadly i didn't get to/forgot to/was too shy to give them to the two funniest guys but the dj is there every week so there's still a chance #fingers crossed the one who flirted with me who funnily enough has the same name as my ex comes back soon when i'm working #it's so much fun tho!! i have the two security guards hitting on me in a lighthearted way #one of them always insists on walking me to the car in the morning and i'm still waiting for that dance he promised me on a busy night #4th edition of living my best life on saturday 10pm 💅🏻 #jack daniel's birthday party with go go dancers is gonna be wild i'm so excited!! #said guy also dramatically sang along to the chorus of münchener freiheit's ohne dich when he ordered a drink #but i told him we're not serving anything after 4:45 and he kept begging but i still said no bc it's the boss' order #n i don't have the power to make exceptions but it was so funny n kinda sweet i would've given him a lil drink if security wasn't watching #mel talks #i think i need to make a separate tag for bar gushing #the bartender chronicles

[raveartts]

I still don't know what i'm doing with her stupid design T_T

#raveartts #oc #i post my ocs so rarely i can't even remember if i had a specific tag for it #ughjdkfgjks okay but like. it's a pretty design kind of? it varies drawing to drawing tbh #i always wanted something princess-y and lolita when i first drafted the design #but there's an entirely different character in my head here and idk if that aesthetic works with it #and now i want to lean more magical girl. which is....even worse #i still don't know if i should change the hair or perhaps the dress??? #the shoes definitely but i have to learn to like. draw/design shoes first O_o #i think a large issue is just that i'm trying to make a design that shows little skin and a loose silhouette #like cutthroat but not nearly as bad #i initially wanted to have a long jacket over the dress but that just was NOT working #perhaps i need to narrow down her character more before trying to redesign #i'm still attached to my initial aesthetic preferences for it even if they don't fit thoughhhhh #AHSDGFGHJASHGFJS I WAS GONNA START MY NEW SCHOOL I'M PROCRASTINATING AGAINSNNBNSDFBAKSJDHGFDHJ #and i wanted to reread Secret Alliance and finally draw fanart for it too 😔 #i guess i should just do ONE lesson first. i could probably speedrun english bc like. english is easy lmao i don't need to learn anything #rave.characters

[purple-genius]

#⭑☣⭑ YOU HAVE ONE (1) NEW MESSAGE FROM: DONATELLO { Donnie’s Logs } #⭑☣⭑ Hey remember that one time we did that one thing { Memory } #remembering specifically scenes in bug busters that apply to posts I see on my dash #remembering I was quiet when Raph and Mikey jumped Leo about “upsetting” Big Mama #because how was I to respond??? #Leo didn't actually do anything to upset her!! He didn't do anything wrong!! #But I get the feeling I kept quiet because Raph would've jumped me too and there would've been a fight??? #remembers I'd made a comment that episode too about “another classic Raph Leo fight” while in one of the traps I made #us jokingly: haha don't tell Raph about the bees!!! #us now after we found this out: actually genuinely don't tell Raph it's not /j anymore it's /srs #don't tell [x] is still funny though #but not don't tell Raph #man our family was kinda fucked wasn't it #don't tell leo im in the tags /j #I know he'll see this eventually lmao #not really trying to hide it #just in the tags bc it feels like whispering

[madamegoodparty]

/rant

I have to say I'm getting very irritated with the amount of ppl on Reddit going "why was Neverafter marketed as horror? It's not even scary!"

Like... it's fine if you don't think it's scary. Stuff like this is very subjective -- there's plenty of horror movies that I personally don't find scary at all. But it doesn't change the fact that they're still horror movies

And I question what people were realistically expecting? As Brennan pointed out in an interview -- you can't do 40 straight hours of non-stop horror, that would be unwatchable.

Insisting that Neverafter should've been marketed as dark fantasy instead is just insanely nitpicky. Take the manga Berserk, for example. You could call it either dark fantasy OR horror, and both would be correct, because it has elements of both. Insisting that you should ONLY use one term and not the other would be silly!!!

#anyway i'm not sticking this in the main tags bc i'm not trying to start anything but #it's something i've been seeing constantly for weeks and i'm so fed up with this talking point lmao #i'm remembering why i don't tend to engage with active fandoms #the benefit of only being into niche stuff that's over a decade old is that #they've already gotten all the discourse and stupid takes out of the way #🐺 #neverafter

[donttouchtheneednoggle]

ik Doing It Scared is a massive part of helping anxiety and just life in general but I'm still mad about it

#doing a conservation thing tomorrow with a new organisation and a new group if people #using my new name and being a dude for the first time with people i don't know and trust #so scared and not looking forward to the gonna puke feeling tomorrow #but i gotta remember that its some kind of miracle that i am just grumbly and vaguely apprehensive about it right now #instead of one giant anxiety spiral for two weeks straight beforehand #and i have some kind of grasp on the concept that anyone would be nervous with new people in a new place #and its fine to feel that and it doesn't say anything about how its gonna go or my ability to cope #and with the trans thing thousands upon thousands of trans people have been through the same thing #and it will get better and easier to be myself and assert myself the more i do it #and the more positive and neutral experiences i have #i have the right to exist!! #i have the right to exist as myself without question #and to be addressed and respected how i choose #n e way wish me luck lmao im just very rusty ín the field of Doing Things #bc of the hermit crab shell i had to retreat into to figured my shit out

[correct-bangtannies]

I don't even like men and I'm somehow already a military wife, what goes on

PS. Don't open the tags unless you want a big ass wall of text of me rambling on your screen

#hit #im just honestly so glad that I've become a lot more chill with the whole being an army thing #in the sense that i used to be a lot more attached and hyped over everything #i do still get very hyped and i do still have an attachment to them n their work but y'know just more toned down #(i mean i remember the days of staying up all night to watch award shows knowing damn well they'd always perform last) #(mma 2018 was an emotional rollercoaster like i legit cried a little from the tiredness and being overwhelmed with the performance) #so im glad im a lot more calm about the enlistment news than what i would've been say three years ago before they started to #take longer breaks and eventually announce the hiatus this year #it's like they did it in purpose so that the fandom would grow a bit more used to it n im glad to see that a huge majority are very calm #many are sad ofc but its not being treated as some kind of horrific news #if anything ppl are coping with humor including me lmao #so idk im mostly just happy for them that they're taking their VERY well deserved break before doing their service #i just hope everything goes well and is decently peaceful (as peaceful as enlistment can be at least lol) for them once they're there #now why am i rambling in the tags? bc i need to put my thoughts in order but i don't wanna clog my blog with a long ass wall of text 💀 #I'm at least relieved to know that they already have a set plan of when they're going to go and return + BH is sure af gonna keep putting #out a lot of content that they've filmed over all these years #i mean run bts; documentaries; probably even music and ofc not all of them are gonna go at the exact same time #and ofc stuff related to the HYYH and Chakho #them being absent won't as hard for most hopefully #and hey 2 years aint nothing ive waited far longer for stuff to come out than that we'll be fine! #*cries in silksong and the YOI movie