#bc i have a lab in 45 mins

[mainfaggot]

There are too many stimuli in this environment

#thr bright lights loud noises and crowds of students r killing me im dying #also im sitting alone in a common room instead of a study room bc i needed to get coffee #bc i have a lab in 45 mins #i feel like Everyone is looking at me when they arent and i feel so lame in social interactions today #even my fake self confidence isnt working.. #like usually i just act like im so swag by walking w my chin up and shoulders straight but even while doing that i feel like #a little pathetic creature who has loser written on their forehead #idk whats up w that #z.post

[swordsonnet]

had a doctor's appointment today, which i showed up to wearing a mask (for obvious reasons) and sunglasses (because fluorescent lights are my enemy). access to my face is a privilege few people are granted

#the appointment was a fucking mess just in general lol #leaving the house is always super exhausting for me bc of chronic illness so i only do it for medical appointments #and my parents had to borrow a friend's car just to drive me there #i was supposed to be there for a blood test but it turned out there'd been a misunderstanding and the lab samples had already been collected #and they couldn't store the blood overnight so i'll have to come back next week #then they tried to do an ecg but the machine was broken so i lay there for like 15 mins with all those electrodes attached to my body #while the nurse tried to get the machine to work #so to summarise me and my parents sat in the waiting room for 45 minutes just for a failed ecg and a brief conversation with the doctor #oh well at least i got my meds refilled

[blkwag]

i’ve had enough.

#was planning on having a meeting with d today #d is the guy who ran the socials and honestly still makes posts here and there #which idc bc i can’t do EVERYTHING but his graphics are so ugly to me and the typos. #anyways #m and i wanted to have a good meeting with him #in PERSON. so c was like I’ll set it up for tomorrow (this was yesterday) bc d was supposed to leave on Tuesday #so i had a lab test to do and i texted c and told him I’ll be in a little late and he said no problem and all that #then said that d and i might have to have the meeting over the phone bc he’s heading out in 45 mins… #what the actual fuck #im literally not in the mood for this shit or his shit #like this is not an over the phone meeting. i have a lot of stuff i need to talk to him about

[vamptastic]

only like 2 months left until i graduate i am going to die

#well. i got into college. so at least i have somewhere to go #gotta. find an apartment. learn to drive. trans my gender. get a job (in order to trans my gender more). #i need to call my boss from my internship and see if i can get a job as an engineering or lab tech tbh #pays same as retail reception warehouse etc but i get to sit on my ass all day and do stuff tangentially related to my degree #doubt they've got parttime positions open tho #and then i could work for a local engineering company as an intern too maybe #but if i end up working for a military contractor ill kill myself #hence options are limited #duke energy is like. such a fucking bad company but they are also #desperately trying to hire ppl to work on clean energy and i need a jooooooob. #also a like. window fitting company told me to keep an eye out for an engineering internship and theyll pay like $12 to $15 an hr #worst comes to worst ill be a receptionist i i jus don't wanna work outside all summer my constitution is weak and Florida summer is strong #anyway. apartment is probably the most urgent matter. and then license bc if i DON'T get an apt then i gotta drive 45 min to college #im like. extremely excited to live on my own and i care so so so much abt my degree and career i just am also looe #like. freaking out abt the amt of stuff i have to do #and thats ignoring like. ap exams and my solidworks certification and my name/document change #and also the looming possibilty that i will need to flee the state/country

[toastsnaffler]

OK done the journey there just jotting down some thoughts so I don't forget omw back:

took me abt an hour all in all bc I was keeping track of directions and going at a v leisurely pace (~8mph). could easily do it in 40 mins or less I reckon

moderate hills esp towards the end of the route but nothing too intense, I'm just out of practice cycling. didnt have to stop at any point tho and I reckon after a couple passes I won't even feel them at all. one longish mild downward slope which was fun to go fast on but might be a pain on the way back

generally rly nice route, much easier than I expected. there's a national cycle trail parallel for the vast majority of it which was semi-busy today as its a sunday but I imagine there'll be far less pedestrians at the times I'd be travelling on weekdays + any cyclists would also be commuting so I won't have to slow down as often.

nice view + smells like wild garlic atm :-)

99% paved which suits me. would be fine if there were some rougher sections bc I have a hybrid/touring bike but honestly I dont rly like cycling off road lol

one confusing junction where I had to come off the cycle trail... I think a diversion for road works (?) it's fine bc the road it connects onto is my old bus route so I'm v familiar w it already + there are bike lanes so it's v safe for cyclists. I'm gonna try and skip straight to the cycle trail on the way back tho just bc navigating traffic is a pain sometimes and breaks my flow. looking at the map it seems to pass really close to my work so I'll just follow it and see if my satnav tries to redirect me again

not feeling any muscle tiredness yet but we'll see how the way back goes and how i feel tmr. when I start cycling to work for real I'll just do it 2-3 days a week until I'm confident I can do it daily. itll be weather dependent anyway, today is gorg but it loves to randomly rain here and I don't have the right kind of brakes for bad weather.. also would be great bc my dr wants me exercising an hour a day which isn't feasible w my routine currently but itd tick that box

need to get cycling gloves + proper cycling shorts. not necessarily w padding but it wouldn't hurt if I'm gonna be doing it often.. didnt get crazy sweaty but that might change w a backpack on + I'll need a change of clothes for work regardless bc I don't wanna get grease stains on my work trousers lol. I think my work has showers but only for the production lab(?) I'll ask my manager if she knows whether im allowed to use them. I could get away without it but it'd be nice to have the option...

all in all successful experiment 👍 taken a 45 min break to chill + have a snack now its time for pt2: going home yayyy

#.diaries

[jmtorres]

ugh 45 min lab wait and i don't have enough signal to play duolingo??? but i do have enough signal for tumblr??? okay phone

lol maybe i do i went to edit this post and it was a draft not a post. anyway back to bitch bc i super need to pee but I'm trying to hold it bc i'm pretty sure the lab will want a sample

[onemorningapricot]

Day 1 - 30.8.22

Hello World!

...haha. No, but really, hello to everyone and you, my dear reader! I've finally decided to pack my bags, get down to it and start a blog. For the past year and half, I have been on the biggest emotional roller coaster of my life and it has taken me all these months to finally decide that I might want to record it all down to look back on someday, hopefully from a better place.

Anyways, moving to today! Today was a bad day, as usual, nothing new there. When I try to recall what happened as my day started, it strikes me that I start by thinking about all the things I hadn't done that I am "supposed" to have done. No, I didn't wake up at the crack of dawn. Nor, did I do my mandatory 50 mins of exercise, take probiotics, do my posture improving stretches, calculate if my breakfast and packed lunch fit into my calorie restricted standards of "healthy meals" to put me on track of my detailed weight loss plan. But also, while these thoughts of my shortcomings flood my mind, shockingly enough, I don't feel any regret/self-hatred because of them. I think I have grown as a person, to appreciate how far I've come from my days of barely functioning as an internet addicted child and have also started to give myself the leave-way that although that perfect routine could have been planned and executed, realistically, the morning that actually happened was the most probable and, therefore, "right answer"(?) given the circumstances.

I appreciate myself for that tbh. Then, let's see..

I went to uni early, given my first class was at 9:50, reached at 9:10 and headed to the xerox shop to print my lab records. I printed them, payed 8 rupees and looked at my watch to find that the time was 9:30. Hey, 20 mins, that's a lot of time and so I decided to take a quick bathroom break. When I came out though, the time was 9:45. Oppsies, and so I speed walked my way to class, only to find out that everyone else was late and so class hadn't started. We were split into two groups according to our numbers on the roll-call bc of which I had to say goodbye to the only friend I had made in that class and sat alone at the front. Unfortunately, this is the class where my ex-friends (current acquaintances) all attend as a group and even more unfortunately, they all got to be in the same group which made me feel even more insecure and miserable even though there are supposed to be no actual bad feelings between us. Sigh, I guess I'm just plain old jealous that they have friends and I don't. I submitted my 20 page record, made of my over-exerted sweat and tears which the teacher guy took exactly 15 secs to flip though and give a 10 10 10 for each of the 3 experiment records. Sigh 2, all that effort for 15 secs? I had hope (tad too high, I guess) that he would, like, read it. I still haven't learnt my lesson I guess. No expectations, A. No expectations. As for the experiment I had to do in class today, I couldn't execute it. Firstly, the code he had given at 4:30pm the previous day didn't work. Secondly, he would only approve of it if we had our printed experiment record. Thirdly, and this is the one that pains me the most, did he really expect to just give broken code the evening before and expect us to materialize a whole experiment record with no prior instructions on how to actually a. execute the code or b. make the hardware circuit overnight, print it and submit it with all smiles the next morning? What a joke! I just took a class where the teacher doesn't even teach! No, we're just supposed to figure everything to perfection overserves while he spends class time marking all those hours of work in quarter a minutes time. What a joke, I repeat, what a joke. Fml, I guess. My fault, I should have payed attention to the faculty I chose. Woohoo, Monday nights have been sold to the devil for the next 5 months of my life I guess! Oh, aren't I so happy! :)

For lunch, I had rice without the accompaniment that my mother forgot to give me so it was okay but meh, the knowledge of what was lacking dampened the taste. I then proceeded to spend an hour 20 mins on that lunch and finished up my break with learning smart contract programming for an hour. I then had a boring class with a teacher who managed to speak so clearly yet actually teach so badly? Moving on, I hung out with a "friend" who has until today, only made unreasonable requests to me, of which I have routinely avoided accepting. I mean no, I will not just send you all for my notes for a class that we don't even take together, especially not so when you casually command me, "send me your notes". No, "could I ask you for your notes?", "if you're okay with that", no pleases and no thank yous. And no, could you please position yourself so that we (her friend and her) can copy from your monitor during a programming exam. Unbelievable! I mean, with what rights do you assume that a. I am okay with cheating and b. I am willing to give you my answers? As if this saga and more hadn't ended, she asked me to buy her snacks, which I did of course, bc what does that small change matter to me anyways, and would have, if in any other situation, done with pleasure but with her, it left a sour taste in my mouth. I have the sneaking suspicion, I am being used as a money/resource bag. Following that, our conversation continually crossed the fact of our blaringly different economic situations which, while it should have made me happy to talk about "back home", just left me feeling more uncomfortable, that I had disclosed far too much about myself to a stranger I wasn't sure I could trust.

In the Spanish class that followed, the teacher boldly announced that 10 marks would be based on oral contribution in class, so there goes my shy sanity. And in the class that further followed, I missed my name being called out on the roll-call because I was on my phone, which a girl who I have never spoken or interacted with alerted me of. What shocks me is, how did she know me? How did she remember my name? Do I stand out so much in people's eyes? I then, stood up and went to the front to correct my attendance when the teacher snapped. I felt mortified as he scolded me in front of the whole class but remembering all the people skills I'd learnt from the books I've read in the past week, I made sure to look at him in the eye and nod sympathetically. He then closed the attendance, saying that while he would give even give attendance to those who came late, he wouldn't to those who didn't pay attention. Because I have pride, I tried to act cool and unbothered throughout class though internally, I could barely stop shaking from fear and humiliation. I spent the next 30mins writing and rewriting my prepared speech to give him at the end of class to regain my lost attendance. I decided to do it properly this time and once again pulled out all my knowledge gained from the communication skills books that I've read and carefully crafted my speech. At the end of class, 1. I forgot my phone and charger at my table, once I had gotten up to go talk to him and a friend had to get it for me, which felt very embarrassing for me. I guess it's cause I felt I was being too all over the place and not in control of myself and 2. as I begun my grand apology, he asked to clarify what I was talking about and when I said it was about my attendance today, he just marked me present. That's all. I had prepared so much, I felt so embarrassed. That grand speech and he didn't have a clue what I was talking about. cringe! To end it all, I made a quick call to that friend to thank her for the phone and "because I hadn't said goodbye properly". ugh, double cringe! I thought, it would give the impression that I'm cool and collected but I think I ended up doing the opposite.

So yeah, that was my day. Too long to write, I almost gave up a few times in the middle but we got there. See you in the next one! Adios :)

Bad Events Counter: 7

What I Learnt Today:

1 hour of Solidity

how to call different relations in Spanish

#diary #diaryposting #digital diary #diary entry #personal diary

[my-autistic-things]

Oh god I was so tired I had to take a nap before writing a paper and now it's 4:45 and I have a paper to write that will take at least like 3 hours + an assignment (maybe 30 min) and I have a class at 9:30am-12 (realistically 12:15 bc we always go overtime), a lab meeting from 12:30-1, and my next class is from 1-3 (again realistically 3:15 bc we always go overtime). All on Zoom, ofc, which means under normal circumstances I'm gonna be tired as fuck and have a pounding headache by 1:45 and feel like I'm dying and need to immediately sleep as soon as I'm out of class. Fuckkkkk this is so bad who wants to hear about my cross-cultural insecure attachment development theory lmao

#my paper is due at 1 (at the beg of my second class) so i absolutely have to do it before my first class starts #i started it but theres a lot more to do #my assignment is really lame just time consuming af and thats due at 12 #ugh at this point im just glad I woke up now bc i way overslept my 1:30am and 2am alarms

[tetedump]

night classes

Oct. 27th, 2020; 19h55

are a time! wow. i am such a sleepy child the class is 18:10-19:25 and sheesh i’m ready to sleep just 30 min later haha :)

going to let myself get an early night tonight, not force any work, but planning out my day tomorrow bc i have a lot to do!

quarantine day 010 (! 10 of these lil entries! exciting!)

09:00-10:00: pomodoro lab discussion section

10:10-11:30: statistics class

11:30-13:00: walk with friends (and get lunch somewhere in there!)

13:00-13:45: therapist appt

14:00: weekly covid test! fun lil swab up the nostrils :)

14:45-16:45: phone calling

rewatch econ lecture?

religion reading

stats assignment

18:10-19:30: religion class

20:00-21:30: phone calling

#quarantine school #pomodoro #statistics #psychol #studyblr #econ #economics of race #religious #religion in america #productivity #university #college #ich

[riviae]

ughhh™ ramblings underneath:

i’m. so stressed rt now :////

working w/ the dead 24/7 is actually a lot more emotionally taxing than i thought it’d be (surprise) & w/ covid-19, it’s making me worried abt just how bad it’s gonna get. like we’re getting absolutely slammed w/ cases & i’m just supposed to pretend that everything’s fine??? that our workload is perfectly doable for 2 ppl?? i get to work at 7:30am & usually don’t leave until after 5pm. my commute is roughly 45 mins so i spend way too much of my day either commuting to work or being at work & that sucks.

i feel bad that i’m even complaining bc my job is important (i help families find closure after a loved one’s death using postmortem toxicology—of course my job is essential. especially now, where there’s a sharp uptick in ODs/suicides bc of current world events) & if i wasn’t working, there’d be no one to replace me... but i would absolutely kill for a short break. i need like one long weekend or something before i go absolutely feral

it also doesn’t help that my mom’s immunocompromised due to the medication she’s on & is also a type 2 diabetic w/ a history of cardiac & pulmonary issues. throw in her age too & yeah... i can’t afford getting sick even tho i’m now starting to get covid-19 cases that need tox work-ups. also not getting hazard pay kinda sucks too, but really i’m just scared & tired & wanna cry lol... i wish i could just have a few days at home to help my mental fatigue. but for now i’ll just vent on here bc it’s cathartic to do so... hence my stream of consciousness ramblings rt now

i know lots of ppl are in the same or similar boats, but rt now i feel very isolated bc all my irl friends are able to work from home & are really just ‘chilling’ while i’m here cleaning blood off my shoes from the lab :/ i’m trying to be better abt feelings of jealousy esp when it comes to friends, but i’m only human; they 100% deserve a break but i’d really like one too ;v; 

#hannah rambles about work #// do not reblog pls #i’m just complaining lol

[3-spoons-of-sugar]

i don’t really binge watch shows bc i get bored very easily due to my add. last time i ‘binge watched’ was in my freshman year of high school, 6 yrs ago, and it was still only like four 20 min episodes

i just watched eleven 45 minute episodes of love 020 that’s how good it is holy s h i t

i only stopped bc it’s five am and i have lab at 11 so i h a v e to sleep

#love 020

[study-van]

44,45,46,49,38,39,37,16, 17,36

Thank you💕

44. Are you a doodler?

I mean kind of I guess 😅 I generally doodle like flowers or butterflies

45. Post a photo of your doodles if you have any.

46. Do you have pre-test rituals and what are they?

The night before I sleep always at 10:30pm sharp, and have a pasta dish sjsjsj. Plus I always carry this Mexican coin that a friend of mine gave

49. How many hours do you spend on academics per day?

It really depends, I might do a 12 hour craziness or a 30-min quick session but on an average I would say 1-2 hours

37. Worst study habit and how are you working on it?

I sometimes don’t put in as much effort in some classes bc they simply don’t interest me like my favorites :(, last year I’ve worked on this, especially in physics, by making my notes look prettier and colorful just to have something to be happy for (when I put it like this it sounds childish 😅)

38. Are you an in-class fidgeter?

Not really, I do occasionally play with my pen like a fidget spinner between my thumb and forefinger in classes that don’t interest me tho

39. How’s your handwriting?

Definitely not the typical studyblr pretty and neat handwriting but it is readable and it works for me!!

17. What’s your preferred method of taking in caffeine?

Turkish coffee or iced americano, if I am craving something sweet a caramel macchiato☕️

36. Best feedback you’ve ever gotten on something academic?

“I thought that your curiosity and questions when working with the fossil materials in lab were very good examples of your ability to take in the material in a complete way, seeing things from multiple angles and viewpoints. Your understanding of the biomechanics part of the course was very strong, stronger than most college students without a physics background.” (From my prof at Harvard summer school!! It was an extremely challenging program for me and I was the only international student in my course so I was sure that I was behind everyone else but he gave me the best evaluation!!!)

studyblr asks

#asks #beth-0052 #sorry for the long answers :( #ask game

[aerieherbal]

Choosing an herbalist.

How to choose a herbalist?

Herbalists are highly trained specialists using herbal medicine for healing and preventive medicine. Human Resources Development Canada says professional herbalists must have at least three years of training, between 300 and 500 hours of a supervised clinic practice at an accredited college and individual association membership.

Chartered Herbalist (CH): trained for one year on the basics of herbology. Many go on to become master or clinical herbalists. They do not work in clinical settings but can be herbal business owners, health food store consultants, writers, workshop leaders and product distributors.

Master Herbalist (MH): trained exclusively in herbology for one year, with completion of a major thesis. Master herbalists often write books and articles but do not have clinical practices. However, some may be clinical herbalists who’ve graduated before the official clinical herbalist designation was created by the American Herbalists Guild in 1989.

Clinical Herbal Therapist (CHT) or Clinical Herbalist (Cl.H): professional designations requiring three- or four-year full-time training, with practicum (physicians take two- or three-year training). Clinical herbalism is highly advanced, combining the use of medicinal plants, nutritional science and natural health practices. Clinical herbalist assess the health and case history of a client, perform physical exams, use diagnosis techniques and interpret lab results. They can set up clinical practices.

Clinical Registered Herbal Practitioner (Cl.RHP): membership with the Canadian Herbalists Association of BC.

Diploma of the School of Phytotherapy (DipPhyt): a highly respected herbalist college in the United Kingdom.

Medical Herbalist (MH): same letters as master herbalist – the UK equivalent of CHT or CL.H.

Member of the National Institute of Medical Herbalist (MNIMH) in the UK.

How can Herbal Medicine help me?

Herbs offer you a wide range of safe and effective therapy that you can use to:

Prevent disease

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Many conditions respond well to herbal remedies such as:

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Digestive conditions

Respiratory ailments

Skin complaints

Hormonal imbalances (menstrual, menopause)

Infertility

Childhood illnesses

How effective are herbs?

The success of herbal treatment depends on a variety of factors including: how long the condition has existed, the severity of the condition, but most important of all is how diligently the treatment protocol is followed by the person.

Normally one can see results in 2 to 3 weeks, but it may take up to several months to clear a chronic condition. In most cases remedies are custom formulated for each individual client.

What illnesses can be treated with herbs?

While a cure is never guaranteed, herbs can be effective in treating many conditions ranging from acute things like tonsillitis and infections to more chronic things like eczema, bronchitis and arthritis. There are really no illnesses where herbs can not offer at least some relief.

How long will it take?

There is no single simple answer to this question. Really it depends very much on the individual and on the nature of the illness. Generally speaking, the longer you have been sick the longer it will take to regain your health. As a general guideline, you could expect to see some improvement within 2 to 3 weeks and to have significant results within 2 to 3 months.

What form do the remedies take?

Herbalists use a wide range of plant based materials for internal and external use. Preparations such as tinctures, fluid extracts, syrups, capsules and creams are all produced to a very high standard.

Do I have to stop taking medication from my doctor? (meaning a good herbalist will not recommend any herbs to interfere, for those confused)-A

No, you are not asked to stop current medication, and the herbs will not interfere in any way with the effects of your prescription drugs. When you are better your M.D. will decide if you should cease your medication.

Do I have to have my doctors permission to take herbs?

No, you are free to seek health care wherever you wish, but it is usually a good idea to let your doctor know what you are doing so that he/she and the herbalist can work together for the greater good of you, the patient.

Are the herbal remedies safe?

Plants have been used as medicines for thousands of years and any side effects have been well documented and are well known. Herbs are gentle but very effective in returning balance to the systems.

Herbs should be used with great care and respect. Although they have very few side effects, self-medication is not recommended as there is the potential of interaction with other medications. A Medical Herbalist is a highly qualified and trained practitioner in both orthodox and herbal medicine and should be consulted to avoid any unpleasant experiences with herbalism. Given under the supervision of a trained herbal practitioner, the remedies are completely safe. They have no side effects and no cumulative effects. Herbs are natural, non-invasive, and work in harmony with the body’s own healing powers.

Consulting a Medical Herbalist/Clinical herbalist

Medical Herbalists are trained in the same diagnostic skills as orthodox doctors but take a more holistic approach to illness. Your first consultation may last up to 1 ½ hrs. during which time the Medical Herbalist will take a full case history, discuss your past and present medical history, lifestyle, medications, diet and family medical history. Certain assessments such as pulse, blood pressure and urine samples may be required (consult information is confidential). My philosophy is to treat the whole person rather than treating a disease.

At the end of the consultation I will discuss the treatment plan which may include dietary changes, nutritional supplements, lifestyle changes as well as a herbal prescription.

Follow-up consults are usually 45 min.

Most Herbal Medicines are given in a form of a liquid tincture and taken in teaspoonful doses.

Your tincture will be made up of a number of different herbs, chosen individually for each patient. Additionally some dry herbs for teas, as well as ointments, creams or tablets may be used.

Herbal Medicine treats each patient as an individual, recognizing that no two persons respond equally to treatment.

How often will I have to come?

Your second visit is usually 2 or 3 weeks after the first, and following this, visits will be at 3, 4 or 6 week intervals depending on the needs of the individual.

How much does it cost?

Herbal remedies and visits to the herbalist are not covered by any health care plans. The first visit will cost you $50 – $150 depending on the experience of the practitioner and lasts usually 1 ½ hrs. Follow up consultations are $40 to $60, and last from ¾ hr to 1 hr The remedies are extra and work out to around $15 to $18 per week.

“Let your food be your Medicine"Available for consultations, herbal seminars, Skype consultations, and house calls.

Member of the National Institute of Medical Herbalist and the American Herbalist Guild.

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This information comes from http://www.infoherb.com/faq/

and is not my informaton.

#herbalist #herbalism #clinical herbal therapist #witch #witchy #witchblr #witches of color #black witches #health #wellness #healing #healer

[mikimousy-cancer]

Today was mostly a good day.

I’ve been getting bad hives every day since my diagnosis. Usually allergy meds help. I couldn’t take allergy meds last night bc if all the other meds. Woke up at 3:45 bc I was so itchy. Finally gave in and took allergy medicine. Was able to go back to sleep at 4:30.

Meisa came into our bed around 6:45. She had a hard time getting out of bed bc Geoff was taking her and not me. She kept wanting to be with me. She finally was willing to go get ready when i told her I’d try to pick her up. Slept a little longer and woke up feeling ok and took the dogs and Reymi out for our walk. Then Alison dropped off food (TY!)

Went to Kaiser to get my blood work done. As a cancer patient, you get STAT on your lab request. No waiting. VIP I guess?

Felt good enough to drive to REI 30 min away to pick up Meisa’s sleeping bag for camping. Fingers crossed that I can still take her w Lisa.

I let the jschool community know yesterday + Instagram. I’m sure everyone is worried but I also didn’t want to show up to places bald and people ask why we didn’t say anything. Visible change is unavoidable so I felt better letting it out.

Got a little tired in the afternoon so I took a snooze. Then I picked up Meisa. When she saw me she said, “you were able to pick me up!” I realized that means a lot to her right now. When she isn’t with me, she is wondering if I’m ok. It’s a reminder that when I feel ok, I should try to pick her up so she is reassured that I’m ok.

I didn’t have much of an appetite for dinner so I ate some rice. Starting to feel a little bloated and a tiny bit nauseous. Calling it a night early. Hopefully I wake up feeling just as good as I did today.

[luxxxe-haze]

I started in-person classes this past Tuesday. I feel like I'm gonna get my exercise walking to and from class hahahha... it's definitely something I haven't done in a while. At my last campus, everything was indoors more or less and I dunno, it seemed a lot smaller than the campus I'm going to now. I'm glad I took that medical terminology class during the summer because so far I've been able to keep up ok in my A&P class (or at least maybe a little bit more than some of my classmates I observed in lab the other day). I have lecture again tonight and then tomorrow I have my psychology lecture that's gonna span 2 hrs and 45 mins.

I have read 8 books so far this summer. I can't even remember the last time I've read this many books in this span of time... honestly, probably never. I'm working on one called Constance right now... it's about this chick who wakes up as her clone and has to figure out wtf happened to her original (bc the only reason she exists is bc her original died) and, fun fact, she doesn't have memory of the last year and a half of her original's life.

I also got really into this show called I Love Dick that was directed by Joey Soloway (who created/directed another one of my favorite shows called Transparent), but much to my dismay, it only lasted 1 season. I found myself immersed in the lust of it all... it starred Kevin Bacon and Katherine Hahn and I was just losing myself in it.

[sarohara]

You: hey

Stranger: Yo

You: yoo

Stranger: Did you vige biden

Stranger: Vote* lol

You: actually

You: i'm not even from US ahahah i just put biden...like randomly

You: but did u?

Stranger: OH damn

Stranger: Yes i did!

Stranger: I hope

Stranger: He wins

You: Oh love u then

Stranger: Lmao love you too

You: AHAHAH i hope so as well

Stranger: Aye

Stranger: Where you from

You: Brazil

You: wbu?

Stranger: Usa

You: OH YEA

Stranger: Lol

You: AAHAHAH i forgot about that

You: alzheimer u know

Stranger: xD

Stranger: Huh?

You: Nah i'm jk, sry

Stranger: Oh

You: so, whats ur name? if u don't mind, sure

Stranger: Dave, hbu

You: Dave, nice name

You: I'm Sarah

Stranger: Oh thats a nice name as well

You: thankss :)

Stranger: Np!

You: well, wyd here Dave?

Stranger: Just asking random ppl if they have voted biden or nah

Stranger: Hbu

You: Ohhh i see

You: Well, i'm just bored..

Stranger: Ohh!

You: so..killing time talking to weirdos

Stranger: Haha

You: freackin weirdos, for real

Stranger: So how is the life in Brazil

Stranger: Is covid going away there?

You: Like, in general? Well, it's good, i love it :) but covid..idk much about the situation now, i hope stable

Stranger: Awesome

You: But not going away yet, sadly

You: Wbu us?

Stranger: Ikr

Stranger: Its getting worse here

Stranger: Sadly

You: Really? That sucks

Stranger: Just waiting for the vaccine

You: Yeaaaa, everybody, trust me lol

Stranger: XD

Stranger: I hope we get soon!

You: Yea dude, it's have been pretty hard to deal, so yea, absolutely

Stranger: Well, for some reason I’m angry on China, they didnt warn us about the covid

You: Wdym warn?

Stranger: Nvm lol

You: like, in the beginning?

Stranger: They didnt warn other countries about the pandemic

Stranger: Ye kinda

You: Yeaaaa, but what can we do, right?

Stranger: Maybe it was their bio weapon haha

Stranger: I’m just guessing.

You: AHAHAHAH funny

You: But

You: i don't think so

You: it's a backfire

Stranger: There has been several videos about it on YouTube, they saying it is

You: Yea?

You: Damn then

Stranger: Ye I remember seeing one video, in which they said the virus was leaked from a lab in Wuhan

You: Yeaaa, ik that, it would make sense tho... but nah, idk...

Stranger: Lol

You: rumors

Stranger: Haha

You: I hope..

You: ahahah

Stranger: Well, why didnt it spread in other parts of china? Why only Wuhan??

Stranger: Whereas, in other countries it has spread almost everywhere lol

Stranger: I guess, it was all planned by chinese ppl lol

You: Do u spend time thinking about it? Seems sick ahahahah

Stranger: XD

You: i'm just messing with u, sure lol

Stranger: I was just doing research why would it spread only in wuhan city in china and why not other parts XD

Stranger: And wave 2 also they didnt get much cases in Wuhan

Stranger: Thats little bit weird

Stranger: They are hiding something from us! XD

You: Little bit? That's completely weird and crazy dude

You: AHAHHAHA sure they're

Stranger: Ik lol

You: lets figure out huh

Stranger: Sure XD

You: ahahhahah yea

Stranger: So sup

You: Nm, just chillin...and listening to music

Stranger: Nice!

You: Boring, i would say lol

You: wbu?

Stranger: I’m bored and hungry xD

You: Let's hang out and eat something then lol

You: I feel u

Stranger: I wish we could

You: It would be funny lol

You: jk jk

Stranger: Why lmao

You: Why what?

You: don't say "nvm"

Stranger: Why would it be funny?

Stranger: Lol

Stranger: I didnt

You: Oh don't u think would be funny?

Stranger: We can go somewhere virtually XD

You: We're now

You: Omegle

Stranger: Oh yeah

Stranger: Thats right!

You: Yea, ikr lol

Stranger: Lol

You: were u typing something?

Stranger: i was but i deleted lol i didnt know what to type

You: Oh gotcha u

You: it's ok

You: well

You: wyd now besides nothing?

Stranger: Chilling on the couch

Stranger: Hbu

You: Comfy?

Stranger: Very!

You: That's good dude...

You: Well, i'm eating now

Stranger: Haha

Stranger: What you eating?

You: Pasta :)

Stranger: Yum

Stranger: I’m hungry now

You: Poor u :(

You: lol

Stranger: How old are you?

You: Ohhh do u wanna guess?

Stranger: 19?

You: Nope

Stranger: 18?

You: Down...

Stranger: 16?

You: Yea!!

You: wbu?

You: lemme guesss

Stranger: Alright lol i was gonna type and then i saw you saying lemme guess

You: I'm glad you didn't say ahahahah

Stranger: Haha

You: Umm, 19?

You: 18

You: 20?

Stranger: Wow you were right on your first guess

Stranger: How did you guess?

You: Ohhh i'm good at thisss!!!

Stranger: Lol

Stranger: I’m bad at guessing

You: Nah...yea maybe, kinda

You: lol

Stranger: Lol

You: So..idk

Stranger: So

Stranger: What if

Stranger: Trump wins?

You: Idk dude...fuck trump!!!

Stranger: Ikr xD

Stranger: Fuck him

Stranger: He is like a clown to me

You: well, u know what, it would be great for my country, bc Bolsonarois his "friend"

Stranger: Oh

You: Bolsonaro is*

You: AHAHHA but fuck Bolsonaro as well

Stranger: Is he president of your country?

You: Yeaa, i'm sry, i forgot to say that

Stranger: Ahh

Stranger: Dont be sorry

Stranger: Np!!

Stranger: You are the first person who I chatted for a pretty long time here lmao

Stranger: Others would just leave

Stranger: 😂

You: Ohh that's rlly cool 😂 i guess

Stranger: Ikr

You: Well, but why would the others just leave?

You: Like ur rly cool

Stranger: Idk lol

Stranger: Haha you are cool too

You: Sometimes 😂

Stranger: Same!

You: Nah shut up😂

Stranger: I’m serious

Stranger: Tho

Stranger: !

You: Really? well, i mean

Stranger: Yesss!!!

You: It doesn't seem like huh

Stranger: I feel like

Stranger: Eatin

Stranger: Pizza

Stranger: Make me

Stranger: Some

You: Nooooo

Stranger: Yessss!

Stranger: You are

Stranger: My super chef

You: Okay, there we go

Stranger: Ik you make pizzas in 2 mins

Stranger: Jk

You: I'm soooo chef 😂 u don't even know

Stranger: You are ik that

Stranger: You make so yummy dishes

Stranger: Yum yum 😋

You: Yea for sure!! 😂

Stranger: Not even kidding!

You: Yeaaa, you bet 😂

Stranger: Yessss!

You: Yaaaasss

Stranger: Yassssss

You: Damn, we're so unoccupied 😂

Stranger: Ikr lol

You: hey, hold on

Stranger: Oh wait

Stranger: I read that wrong!!!

You: i'll show u a song

You: wait what

You: HAHAHAHAH

Stranger: Lmao

Stranger: Okay!! Go ahead and show

Stranger: Oh wait you mean tell?

Stranger: You cant show here

Stranger: Sadly

You: yeaaa, how did u read?

You: No, i can, just hold on

Stranger: Oh well i read by my eyes

Stranger: How?

You: oh no kidding!! by your eyes? damn, really!! wow

You: lmao

Stranger: 😂😂😂

You: Oke brb

Stranger: Sure

Stranger: Tyt

You: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mTTB90p23qo

Stranger: Oh yeah

Stranger: You can

Stranger: Paste the link

Stranger: I totally forgot!

You: Yea i can 😂

Stranger: Yeahhhhh!

Stranger: I’m a noob

You: Yea, ur so noob 😂

You: Poor u

Stranger: Lmao

You: lucky u have me

You: 😂

You: jk

Stranger: Soooooo lucky

Stranger: So damn licky

Stranger: Lucky*

Stranger: Ik

Stranger: That

You: YEA, IKR

Stranger: Yassss!

You: So...?

Stranger: So what else

Stranger: Lol

You: the song...

Stranger: I’m gonna listen to it later

You: Oh yea, sure

Stranger: I’ve saved dw

You: oh alright

Stranger: Anyways

Stranger: Wyd now

You: Guess

You: the same as before

Stranger: Listening to music???

You: Yea, genius

Stranger: Eating?????

Stranger: Bored?????

You: Bothhhh

Stranger: Ohhh

Stranger: Fun

Stranger: How did you discover omegle lol

You: Youtube videos 😂

You: How did u?

Stranger: Lmao

Stranger: Well

Stranger: I saw

Stranger: My friend

Stranger: Posting weird ss in some group

Stranger: XD

You: Jeeez 😂

You: hey give me a second

Stranger: Ikr 😂

Stranger: Aight

You: (I went to get a glass of water)

Stranger: Oh nice

You: You were curious and came here huh funny 😂

Stranger: Lol

You: Just messing w/ u

Stranger: Ik

You: Good

You: well, what time is it?

Stranger: 3:43pm

You: Oh really? damn I thought it would be a bit later

Stranger: What time is it there?

You: 6:45

You: pm, sure

Stranger: Ohhhh

Stranger: Almost dinner time!

You: Yea, I wouldn't wake up that early 😂

Stranger: XD

You: Almost? Already dinner

Stranger: Lol i have at 7:30

Stranger: 7:30ish

Stranger: Depends

Stranger: Sometimes little early!

You: I have any time 😂

Stranger: Lmao

Stranger: That’s bad

You: it depends

You: but yea

Stranger: Yeahhh!

You: don't judgeee

Stranger: What grade are you in

Stranger: Sure for what

Stranger: XD

Stranger: I never judge anyone!!!

You: Oh grade, um to be specific, i'll finish last year so..

Stranger: 12th?

You: Yea, exactly

Stranger: Oh nice!!

You: actually idk, the system is different here...but yea i think so

Stranger: Ahh

You: Yeaa

Stranger: I’m

Stranger: Bored

You: No kidding!!

Stranger: Yessss!

You: how does it feel? lol

Stranger: Feels

Stranger: Really

You: Bored

Stranger: Bad lmao

You: AHAHAHHA

You: Yea ikr

Stranger: And bored lol

Stranger: 🙌🏻

You: Do u use netflix? randomly

Stranger: Nah

Stranger: No time for it

Stranger: Hbu

You: No time for it? I thought u were bored

You: What do u do? Busy guy

Stranger: Tbh

Stranger: I dont watch nay tv show lol

You: (and yes, I use it a lot lol)

Stranger: Oh what do you watch?

You: Movies...Series...

Stranger: Well, i spend my time on YouTube most of the time

Stranger: When I’m bored

Stranger: Or i just play games lol

You: well, u know tv shows burns neurons, it’s good that you don’t even watch lol

Stranger: XD

You: Games? What games? just asking bc i don't play at all lol

Stranger: Call of duty most of the time

Stranger: Cs:go

Stranger: Sometimes

You: Oh that's good, i guess

You: I'll pretend I know what it is

Stranger: Lmao

Stranger: Anyways i gtg nice talking to ya