#beautiful disaster tag

[5ivebyfive]

whumptober day 26: “Sometimes I get so tired; I don’t even know myself.” fandom: power rangers (2017) ship: trimberly note: Set vaguely in the universe of such a beautiful disaster. You don't have to read it to follow this, but you should! (and I'm gonna work on updating it) tw: drug use mention, super angst Kim had good days and bad days. Then she had very bad days. She was over the withdrawal of the drugs, but her mental health wasn’t good. It was like everything she had suppressed with cocaine was finally rising from the water. Trini could handle it all though. She loved Kim and anything Kim brought, Trini was there. But the very bad days were hard for her. It was like there was nothing she could do to console her girlfriend, and it angered her. She wasn’t angered at Kim, but at the whole situation. 

Kim going through withdrawal and starting life without drugs had taken a toll on Trini. She tried so hard to be strong for Kim, but some nights, when Kim was able to fall into a deep sleep, Trini cried. She mourned for ther Kim before the drugs, and she mourned for how broken Kim was still. But she powered through it, kept it to herself, and kept going.

Trini was sitting on the couch in the living room. Kim was taking an afternoon nap, and as much as Trini wanted to join her, she just needed a break. So she called Zack and listened to the phone ring.

“Yo, Trini,” he answered.

“Yo,” Trini replied with little energy.

“You okay?”

“I don’t know,” she said. She didn’t often talk about everything with Zack because it was Kim’s business. But sometimes she needed to let some of it out, and she couldn’t with Kim. So Zack it was.

“What’s up?” He asked in concern.

“I’m just…tired,” she said with a sigh.

“Are you sleeping?”

“It’s hard to sleep. I lay there and worry about her, and…it’s like, if I sleep and something happens…”

“You gotta take care of yourself, too,” Zack said.

“I don’t know,” Trini said. “Sometimes I get so tired; I don’t even know myself.”

“I say again, take care of yourself.”

“Yeah,” she said distantly. Then she jumped because suddenly Kim was in the room, and she didn’t look happy. “I gotta go,” she told Zack. She hung up and looked at Kim. “You okay?”

“I’m a burden on you,” Kim said softly. “You don’t sleep because of me.” Trini closed her eyes. Kim wasn’t supposed to hear that.

“Princess, you’re not a burden. Never.”

“You just told Zack I am,” Kim said with a stubborn tone.

“I didn’t.” Trini got up and walked towards Kim to take her in her arms, but Kim pulled away. “I don’t care if I never sleep again,” she said. “As long as I’m taking care of you.”

“Yeah,” Kim huffed. “Then you’ll pass out or something and it’ll be my fault. Just…forget about me, okay?” She turned on her heel and went back into the bedroom to slam the door shut behind her. Trini immediately followed and tried to turn the knob on the door, but it was locked. She started to panic. A locked door was bad. She knew Kim was clean and was working hard to stay that way, but a locked door scared Trini. She had no idea what was going on behind it.

Trini’s whole identity had become taking care of Kim. She was on sabbatical from work so she could be there 24/7. And all that time together often led to fights. At least, on Kim’s end. Trini tried to acquiesce and not fight back. She didn’t want to fight with Kim. She didn’t want to make things worse for Kim. So she felt like she was disappearing. Everything that made her her was gone, because all she was, was Kim’s keeper. And she wanted it that way, but it was difficult. She was overtired, burned out, and depressed. She just didn’t let that show in front of Kim.

“Kim,” she called through the door. “Open up. We can talk.”

“I don’t want to talk!” Kim shouted back.

“I need to talk to you.”

“To talk about what a burden I am?” Kim said with a growl.

“You’re not a burden!” Trini shouted, losing the control she tried so hard to have around Kim. The door swung open and Kim glared at Trini.

“Yeah, it’s my fault you’re not sleeping.”

“No, it’s my fault,” Trini argued. “I’m the one who makes myself stay awake as much as I can. I’m the one who’s in control of that. I’m the one who decides to do that.” Kim looked at the floor, crossing her arms. Trini tried to approach her again. She put a hand on Kim’s arm and looked at her, even though Kim didn’t look back. “I love you. So much. I just…can’t help worrying about you.” Kim kicked the floor with the toes of her foot and her frown deepened.

“I don’t want you to worry about me so much,” she said quietly.

“Well…I do,” Trini said.

“You don’t have to,” Kim said. “I can go stay somewhere else and you can sleep and…not think about me.”

“You’re not leaving,” Trini said thickly.

“You can’t make me stay,” Kim replied. “I’m an adult.”

“You want to leave me?” Trini asked, sad fear in her voice. Kim looked up, her gaze clouded.

“Wouldn’t it be better for you if I did?”

“No! You can’t…would you really do that?” Trini asked. Her brows furrowed and she shook her head. Kim didn’t say anything. “After everything I’ve been doing for you?” Trini was starting to get mad. 

“You deserve a break from me.” Kim glanced up.

“I don’t need a break from you. But I do need you to stop assuming what I need.”

“You’re doing too much,” Kim murmured. “I’m draining you.” Trini sighed and nodded.

“Yeah, you are. But I’m not going anywhere.”

“I’m tired of being…like this,” Kim said, her eyes welling with tears. “I want us to go back to normal. Before…everything.”

“So do I,” Trini said. “But you still need time.”

“I need time…away,” Kim said, looking away again.

“You’re still in a place where you could relapse,” Trini said.

“I won’t.”

“How will I make sure of that?”

“You don’t have to,” Kim said. “I can take care of myself. I’ll stay with my parents.”

“Kim…” Trini felt hopeless and her heart was breaking. “What…what does that mean for us?”

“It means…we need a break. I need a break. And I think you do, too.”

“I don’t!”

“I’m going to go pack and call my mom,” Kim said, turning to the bedroom door.

“Kim!” Trini moved closer to grab her, but Kim pushed her off. Then Kim went into the bedroom and closed and locked the door. Trini deflated. She stumbled over to the couch and fell onto it. A break? She couldn’t handle a break. She couldn’t handle how much she was going to worry with Kim so far away. She leaned her head back on the cushion and closed her eyes as silent tears fell down the sides of her face. She loved Kim more than anything else in the world. She didn’t care what happened to herself if she could just take care of her. But it was difficult. It was draining. Loving Kim in this period of their lives felt…like she was being pulled in multiple directions while her tooth was being pulled. It was killing Trini. She knew it, but she couldn’t say it. She didn’t want to say it. Kim was going through so much and Trini couldn’t fix it. She often felt like she was drowning. Like she couldn’t breathe. She walked on eggshells around Kim, hoping not to upset her or guide her into falling back into drugs. It was so hard. It was straining their relationship. It felt impossible.

But Trini didn’t care. She would let Kim grind her down into nothing, as long as she could be there. And Kim wasn’t letting her. Kim was shutting her out again. Trini shifted and laid down across the couch, eyes still closed. She curled into a ball and cried. She cried for all the fear and pain she had been through with Kim ever since everything had been off while Kim secretly did drugs. She cried for not being a good enough caretaker which was pushing Kim out the door.

She heard Kim come out of the bedroom and didn’t look at her. The air was thick between them. Trini just wanted Kim to go already. She couldn’t take it. Then, she felt Kim climb onto the couch behind her. Kim’s arm went around Trini and pulled her back against her chest. Trini wanted to pull away. She was sad and angry about Kim leaving. But Kim hadn’t held her in so long. Trini leaned back into Kim. Kim kissed her neck.

“I love you,” Kim whispered. “I’ll be back.”

“Don’t,” Trini begged.

“Ssh,” Kim hushed. She curled into Trini. Trini couldn’t fight it anymore. She stayed silent and sniffed, her face itchy from drying tears. She squeezed her eyes shut and just let herself be in the moment. Kim pressed her lips to Trini’s shoulder and held them there. They lay there silently for a long time, Kim just holding Trini, until eventually, Trini fell into a deep sleep.

#trimberly #trimberly fic #power rangers 2017 #my fics #beautiful disaster tag #wt23 tag #lemme know if you like it #reblog please! #queue sera sera

[superkickme]

Title: Beautiful Disaster | Part 1: The Legacy Era (part 1 &2) Reality Show/Kayfabe AU Rating: M (eventual E) Pairings: Randy/Cody, Ted/Cody, Mentions of Past Shawn Spears/Cody, Eventual Seth/Cody, and others Tags: not rpf, meet ugly, hurt/comfort, canon compliant, angst, character study, canon companion, soulmates, more to be added Warnings: emotional/psychological abuse, emotional manipulation, unhealthy/toxic relationships, canon typical violence, intimate partner/domestic violence (choking), discussion of intimate partner/domestic violence, infidelity (kind of), more to be added Chapters: 8/? Current Word Count: 51k

"Wrestling is a love story” - Cody Rhodes, Apr 2, 2022

Cody tries so hard to do a good job and be a good wrestler, to climb up the ladder to the top of that mountain but he can never gain a good footing. When he does get some traction it never lasts and he just falls right back down to the bottom. He’s never good enough and it tears him apart. Throughout his whole life, everyone said he was made for this business, born to do it, a Prince destined for a King’s throne- it’s all he’s ever wanted to do. He just keeps trying and failing over and over to make everyone proud, to live up to their expectations, he does it for nearly a decade and he gives it everything he has. It’s just not enough.

[an exploration of Cody's career]

#fic tag #beautiful disaster fic

[crimeronan]

cleaned for almost 5 full hours today (4 hours 40 minutes, i was doing ten-minute intervals w a phone timer). full list of minutiae would take too long but it involved dishes, taking out trash, decluttering the entire apartment floor, vacuuming the entire apartment, reorganizing stuff in the hallway, multiple loads of laundry done folded n put away, and deep cleaning the bathtub. i was literally fucking Drenched And Dripping in sweat by the time i finished, like i'd just stepped out of a downpour outside. ate some food, got a shower, did a weed, and now i've crawled into bed to snz.

in conclusion. my body is gonna be So Fucked Up tomorrow.

#worth it though. #you may be wondering: kitkat does this mean your apartment is pretty and clean now #to which i would say. you are underestimating the baseline Disaster Zone we are working with. #prior to all of this the soles of ur feet would turn black walking on the carpet for more than a few minutes. this does not happen now. #large swaths of the place ARE now clean and beautiful but in such a way that suddenly the Mess is SO MUCH MORE NOTICEABLE #if theres clutter and crumbs everywhere it's all homogenous. if the living room is bright and open and has no objects out of place and then #you look to the side of the room and see HEAPING PILES OF CHAOTIC BOXES GARBAGE BAGS AND RANDOM LOOSE OBJECTS #well. #it's okay tho. all those spots can be their own little mini projects now that im caught up on the worst of it #autoimmune tag #due to that being how things got so bad

[mrs-bluemarine]

𝐑𝐨𝐚𝐝 𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐩𝐩𝐢𝐧' 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐲 𝐟𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲

~ Ben x Tara playlist ~

L.A. Connection………Rainbow // Drive………Incubus // Beautiful Disaster………311 // Space Truckin'………Deep Purple // Kryptonite………3 Doors Down // Scar Tissue………Red Hot Chili Peppers // Spiderhead………Cage the Elephant // Paralyzer………Finger Eleven // Smooth………Santana ft. Rob Thomas // Better Than Me………Hinder // Something About Us………Daft Punk // Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now………The Smiths // Miss U………Blackfield // Into the Ocean………Blue October + more

• Divider credits go to @/cafekitsune!

• Pro/Com/ship dni

#there is a bit of a mood drop half way. fair warning #it's story reasons i swear. I'm also still looking for more music to maybe make the drop slightly less jarring #no tag list this time. be free in the world playlist #''when will you post the wes playlist'' never. I'm scared #safe shipping #self shipping #selfship playlist #f/o x s/i #selfship community #music reccs #// spiderhead #🕸️ / beautiful disaster #ben reilly #muehehehe

[savoryinferior]

Yep fine god bless america i would die for the 118.

#car accidents just suck #Buck is a disaster #i could fix him and make him a snack #seriously why do I want to mother buck so hard #i’m drunk tagging #season 5 finale #Chimney is the best dad actually #how many babies do you think the 118 has delivered #buckley siblings heal my childhood trauma #I’m not sure Taylor did that much wrong #This random amnesia couple are cute #hope he remembers her #damn Buck breaking up with a woman is growth #he’s not clinging #eddie come back your job is tweeting #cap got so close to drinking omg please don’t #HEN AND KAREN WEDDING X2 #oh that’s adorable #they look beautiful #Ravi is adorable can he get more story #the criuse tickets happen at the end of season 5? #bobby is a planner #I love them #Obviously never try to replace Chimney again #that’s how we get serial killer coworkers #911 abc #911 fox #118 firefam

[the-force-awakens]

we've all heard of han "my first love worked for darth maul" solo, now get ready for poe "my first love's surrogate father had an erotic enemies to allies relationship with mon mothma" dameron

#nym speaks #beautiful disasters #been a while since I got to use that tag #anyway. Alex Segura.....your mind. #I have some questions for ya my guy.

[sportsthoughts]

the chances of me staying awake until 1:30 are next to nothing so no lb for me tonight. hope you guys have fun!

#fingers crossed it's not a disaster but if it is I hope it's funny #pens lb #as always pls tag me in anything beautiful tanger does

[sketchytea]

Tag Game To Better Know You! Send this to people you’d like to know better!

tagged by @lithugraph, thank you so much!!!

What book are you currently reading?

haruki murakami’s blind willow, sleeping woman, i started it a while ago and i’ve been re-reading to try and finish it recently

What’s your favorite movie you saw in theaters this year?

everything everywhere all at once, i did my duty as a queer asian diaspora creature and ugly cried at the end

What do you usually wear?

some dark/desaturated shirt or sweater with jeans, one(1) piece of jewellery, bright socks, and sneakers/boots

How tall are you?

5’3.5”

What’s your Star Sign? Do you share a birthday with a celebrity or a historical event?

pisces. i share a birthday with frédéric chopin, kesha, and lupita nyong’o. the articles of confederation were ratified and the sam-il movement occurred on this date

Do you go by your name or a nick-name?

i have too many names, which is what happens when your original name has seven letters in it and you’ve got another name in another language. but usually most people call me by my name and online friends call me by my web-name

Did you grow up to become what you wanted to be when you were a child?

close! i landed in the general vicinity but not exactly the same position

Are you in a relationship? If not, who is your crush if you have one?

i am jared, 19

What’s something you’re good at vs. something you’re bad at?

i like to think i’m a pretty decent cook, but i suck at baking. only one friend has witnessed the evidence in real time and they are sworn to secrecy to never speak of it again

Dogs or cats?

cats

If you draw/write, or create in any way, what’s your favorite picture/favorite line/favorite etc. from something you created this year?

my rainbow dnd party piece, or ciaran shielding sav’s limp unconscious ass. i don’t want to stick an image file here so have some random dialogue from my less impressive writing out of context instead:

“The prince is weird, and crazy.”

What’s something you would like to create content for?

star wars, lord of the rings, guardian, ghost in the shell s.a.c., kimetsu no yaiba, dragon age, webcomics i read, more sailor moon or vanitas no carte... my ideas are way more multifandom than my posts are

What’s something you’re currently obsessed with?

my dnd campaign and homebrew setting. it has me by the throat on a daily basis

What’s something you were excited about that turned out to be disappointing this year?

some of the work parties i’ve gone to, i think

What’s a hidden talent of yours?

i can blow big soap bubbles with my fist

Are you religious?    

not at all. i had a lot of christian influences growing up but it never really stuck

What’s something you wish to have at this moment?

a fully illustrated sourcebook of my own dnd setting. also an air fryer

tagging: @digital999placebo, @ellmovy, @rebelsandtherest, @oumaheroes, @thedisappointedidealist12, and @ironic-orange to do if they’d like!

#i internally yelled like a little creature when i saw who tagged me #anyway hi i love your writing it's amazing beautiful gorgeous and a big inspiration #i enjoy eating soggy wet disaster tauras with a spoon #tag game #not art #long post

[darthlenaplant]

It's actually kinda funny.

Like.

I do GET where the MobRei/ReiMob shippers are coming from, but on the other hand I just sit there like...

Reigen may be scummiest piece of shit on this earth but he's not THAT sort of scummy piece of shit on this earth.

Actually, I also kinda doubt that he'd go for Serizawa either.

Not ~ONLY~ because that dude just SCREAMS AroAce vibes all over the fucking place (I mean. Hello? Season 2 Episode 3?*)

But also because Reigen doesn't seem like the sort of person who'd go after his subordinates/underlings/employees (which Mob and Serizawa ARE).

(Hehehe, this actually gives me kinda tragic backstory ideas for him, like another, secret reason why he stopped working at an office and started to work on his own to be his own boss) (and before you ask, no, I will most likely not write it, because I am not a writer.)

JUST BEFORE EVERYONE STARTS SHIT WITH ME LIKE THE MEDIA DID IN SEASON 2, I AM NOT AGAINST ANY SHIPPING, AND I ACTUALLY LIKE ALL THE SHIPPY ART (BECAUSE IT'S FUCKING CUTE AND AWESOME AND YOU ALL ARE SO FUCKING TALENTED AND I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

*) Dude's at least questioning if "Love" NEEDS to have "sexual stuff" involved, and that's just one of THE Ace takes. (Sure, the straighties do KNOW about "familial love", but they don't seem to categorize it as "love", y'know? I dunno, just from what I see they're really weird about the concept of love anyway...

#reigen arataka #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #i will give this only minimal tags and not any ship tags #because it'd be rude to have a weird rant like this in their tags #anyway #i actually like all the ships #but also. reigen is just the biggest aro disaster ace i have ever seen. i guess he actually means more to me as ace rep as i ever realized #but i also like the idea of him and serizawa being gay husbands and their like. six or so foster children. #lmao i imagine someone from hia old school days recognizing him on the street #(maybe after he got his ultimate dilf look with the glasses?) #(god. the glasses make him so beautiful.) #anyway. someone from his old school days sees him. in his new dilf look. with like. three to five of the esper kids in tow. #and they be like. 'holy shit; reigen; you're a single dad of [insert number of] children?!' #and reigen be like his absolute classic flat 'wat.'

[sakura-fraust]

Okay so I just remember about this and I NEED to share it with y'all... but to those who have been around long enough, remember my Yang Hunter cosplay? Remember how the skirt could barely contain my ass?

Well my roomie had me take the skirt out of storage the other week as we were unpacking more shit, cause she's never seen me wear it in person and she was curious... and let me tell you... that skirt did not survive being put on again after so long...

My ass immediately ripped this thing apart as I struggled to put it on. It started to straight up disintegrate under the strain of containing my ass...

Thankfully I have a nicer skirt that I could use to replace this one (should I ever wear this cosplay again), maybe I'll take some photos in it at some point, for science

#RIP this skirt #it was too funny I had to share #illegally beautiful disaster #I guess I'll tag that there

[regallibellbright]

[ID: Image of a reblog notification by @gay-fandom-menace of my Birdie Wing Post, with tags reading “#it’s beautiful. it’s a hot mess #i’ll take twenty #birdie wing golf girls’ story” End ID]

Always good to see that post making the rounds again. Always a joy to see it hit its target demographic.

#birdie wing #fly high baby #I love this absurd glorious disaster of a show #so much #birdie wing golf girls' story #a tag I pull out and use primarily if not exclusively to remind people #that this fucking LUDICROUS BULLSHIT show in all its beautiful absurdity #is subtitled fucking GOLF GIRLS' STORY #as though this is not the show that brought us rocket launcher cartop assassinations in their mafia wars #but you see it is because of course #it's the GOLF Mafia #Birdie fucking Wing everyone. Birdie fucking Wing. #I never want it to end #and I really need to get back to that rewatch

[livrosempedacinhos]

Respirei fundo e suspirei. Tyler era bom demais... seguro demais Dava pra ver nos seus olhos que ele estava disposto a me experimentar como um veneno; mesmo depois do primeiro gole, já estávamos pensando em como o fim seria doloroso.

Bela chama, Jamie McGuire.

#bela chama #jamie mcguire #tyler maddox #irmãos Maddox #travis maddox #Abby Abernathy #beautiful disaster #leitura #leitorcompulsivo #literatura #frases literarias #Fragmentos literários #tag literaria #livros #Citação de Livro #livros em pedacinhos #livroterapia #Book tag

[mrs-bluemarine]

Miguel: As a rule, I don't normally work couples on the field together. But you two are some of my best, so... I'll allow it.

M: Just don't let any personal issues distract you two from your work.

Ben: There's nothing to worry about, there's no personal issues here. We've never even had a fight!

Tara: It's true! The only close call we've had was when Ben didn't know who Will Shortz was.

Miguel: Really?... messes around with his screens

M: Never heard of the "Puzzle Master"?

Ben: :) shrugs

Miguel [softly, turning to look at Tara]: This is who you want to be with?

#🕸️ / beautiful disaster #// spiderhead #want to add this to their tags but will REFRAIN

[belamourelysianlimerence]

https://tidal.com/track/12043746

Holding this shit in my gut for years.

#self ship #f/o community #self ship community #self shipping community #self ship positivity #f/o #f/o post #f/o stuff #f/o tag #self insert community #ouat #once upon a time #rumplestiltskin #mr gold #beautiful disaster

[themoostking]

Seven Sentence Sunday

You'll never believe it, but @goldenretrieverfirefighters tagged me in SSS again. Luckily for everyone, they remembered that I actually wrote this week. So y'all get to see raw footage from the best idea I've ever had in my life.

There was a shift to their left and an ominous scuttling noise echoed through the abandoned mall. Eddie stiffened beside him, gaze darting toward the sound, his eyes narrowed. The scuttling came again. 

Thwink, thwink. 

Thwink, thwink. 

It sounded like cheap plastic hitting poorly carpeted concrete floors. Harsh and muffled. 

Thwink, thwink.

Twhink, thwink. 

This time the scuttling came from behind them, and Buck whipped around, squinting in the dark at half-filled boxes and overturned trash bins. 

Thwink, Thwink. 

He spotted a glint of light as something darted across the floor. Swallowing harshly, he tugged on Eddie’s arm, nodding his head towards where he saw the movement. 

Thwink, thwink. 

It was getting closer. Eddie slowly lifted his flashlight in question. Buck nodded. The beam filtered through the dingy air, passing over broken glass, scattered toys, a pair of kids light up shoes, and a tennis ball. One of the toys moved, its eyes blinking lazily. Buck shifted toward it, catching a familiar glint of light. 

“Holy shit.” 

“Is that?” Eddie inched closer

“Yeah its a-'' Buck was interrupted as the toy launched itself forward with a rapid Thwink thwink. He and Eddie shuffled back, as the toy opened its mouth, releasing an awful robotic yell.

“FUUUR-BY!” 

They turned and ran. 

I'm tagging anyone who wants to participate <3

#im not saying this is the best thing ive ever written but it definitely is #moost writes (and cries) #moostie does sss again and cries #i been tagged so many a time so now im gonna commit some fanfiction criiiiiimmmmeee #im in a mood ignore the weird tags #9 1 1 disaster au fic #yes this is actually part of that fic #the one i mapped out completely and tagged a few scenes and then completely lost inspiration for #seven sentence sunday #this is supposed to be a serious fic but i know this scene is gonna be ridiculous in a beautiful way