#but I am bias bc I own a pair myself

[absent-o-minded]

Do you ever think how different Good Omens would be as a series if everything was exactly the same except Crowley wore a pair of these bad boys:

#I would argue that these are the PEAK of fashion #but I am bias bc I own a pair myself #but imagine how some of the iconic scenes would play out if Crowley had these instead? #‘Shut Upp’ *Proceeds to put on heart shaped sunglasees* #this is what I think about at 1am #good omens #good omens season 2 #Crowley #aziraphale #neil gaiman #reject tradition embrace funky sunglass options

[aprillikesthings]

I had originally promised msyelf I wouldn't live-tweet or live-blog my rewatch of she-ra (mostly bc it will make it take FOREVER to watch the whole thing) but...fuck it

THIS IS A REWATCH. I've forgotten plenty of it, but I still remember plenty too, and that's all going to bias how I react to things, and obviously there will be spoilers, and also I don't plan to react to EVERYTHING bc it would just take too long okay? okay

Edit: ....yeah this took me nearly two hours for one episode oops

First of all let me point out how hilarious it is to me that when scrolling back through my tags I found myself posting MULTIPLE TIMES that I wanted to write the kind of fic I'm working on but knew I'd need to rewatch the whole series to do it right and now FOUR YEARS LATER I'm finally giving up and doing it.

why am i like this lol

ANYWAY

NETFLIX IT HAS BEEN A COUPLE OF YEARS and I know he's legally changed his name WHY is Nate/ND's old name still on here

THat's....that's Angella. That's a terrible propaganda poster of Angella. I'm cracking up how did I not notice that before

Okay the very first time Adora says Catra's name I lol'ed bc I've watched this fanvid (which came out after s2) a truly bananapants number of times and it's just what I immediately thought of

I started reading a fic recently that I couldn't get into and gave up on, but it pointed out something that seems OBVIOUS NOW: the reason the Horde is all children/teenagers is like, the whole "destroying the villages of Etheria" thing. Just slaughtering the parents and stealing the kids.

Then again maybe they said that in canon and I forgot. Dumb shit like that is of course why I'm rewatching.

Someone pointed out that both Adora and Catra obviously have ADHD and I cannot unsee it

I mean yeah that's...that's her entire motivation

(I mean not quite in the way Adora means it here but)

I will never, ever be over how fast this show started baiting them as a pairing. I remember the first time I watched the first episodes saying "the people who made this came from fandom and they know exactly how to get us."

Catra nails Shadow Weaver's motivation--"She's just mad she doesn't have any real power that doesn't come from Hordak and everyone knows it." And then calls Adora a "people-pleaser." She's not wrong.

Like, Catra understands the motivations etc of everyone but herself

(...something something abused children something C-PTSD something hypervigilance)

Catra's tail swishing just like a real cat's does when angry is A+

Re: stealing the skiff: Catra's supposed to be the one with bad impulse control but Adora is just as bad!! (it's the ADHD)

...pulling a random pretty sword out of the ground that's lit up like a quest in a video game is also poor impulse control lollll

I still crack up at this one and am still surprised I haven't read a fic that makes a big deal out of hair-pulling

Bow folding up random laundry on the floor and asking where it goes while talking to Glimmer is some nice early character-building. "This boy is not a sexist douchebag."

I mean the outfit helps too lol

Okay so on the one hand I know character age wank is fucking stupid, but also I get why people were like "...are these all minors or what" considering Glimmer's being grounded and then arguing with her mom like a high-schooler. My own parents (who were more controlling than most) stopped actually "grounding" me once I was 18--they just forbid me from using the car for anything but work or school because they owned it. Which is why they owned the car. Anyway.

(True story: that was their punishment for me getting bad grades at community college, and my response to this was to quit school, buy my own car, and move in with my then-boyfriend's family)

I wonder if Adora running off to do things on her own in order to attempt to protect people she cares about without asking them if that's even something they want her to do will be a continuing theme for her 🤔

omg the way they did her eyes/face makes Glimmer look so fucking creepy here

SO MUCH HAIR-PULLING poor Adora

I FORGET WHAT THIS SAYS I know it's an actual "alphabet" and people get tattoos and shit

(so, SO many tattoos of the failsafe...)

(okay but let's be honest a tattoo of the failsafe from the last episode is a really great way of finding other nerdy sapphics, they'd be the only ones to recognize it)

This is kinda heavy-handed ("don't just believe everything authority figures tell you, kids!") but also this show was aimed at like 12-year-olds so

Yeah this absolutely reminds me of conversations I've had over multiple decades about LGBT people and how people who know us as friends, coworkers, neighbors; realize we're Just People and are less likely to be dicks to us--not always, but often. Adora has never met a princess, so it was easy for the Horde to convince her they're all evil.

OH MAN this scene reminds me SO MUCH of the one in Arcane where Ekko is talking to Caitlyn about how Piltover/the Enforcers are fucking over the people of Zaun/the Undercity

Yeah good lord I could do a line-by-line dialogue comparison.

"Woman who has always been on the side of what she thought was The Law finds out everything she's ever known is a fucking lie and actually, she's been part of a force oppressing and destroying other people and immediately wants to fix things"

*squints at Caitlyn and Adora*

We never do find out who Grayskull is, but that's because Netflix doesn't have the rights to the He-Man stuff, and I admit this was probably the best way to keep She-Ra's signature line without getting into that

OKAY FIRST EP OVER omg

#april rewatches spop #there I have a tag #Youtube

[queenharumiura]

ship bias x2

SEND ‘SHIP BIAS’ AND I WILL SHARE UP TO 5 SHIPS I HAVE A BIAS FOR FOR MY MUSE! [x] ||Accepting- if you ask about my other muses in other fandoms or what||

Wait--- x2? Oh----- oh okay, let's see if I can do with without any repeat answers. Under readmore bc it's gonna be 10. (No particular order)

Kyoko x Haru (okay look, I'm not gonna say that I want Haru to be ms. Steal your girl, but SHE CAN ABSOLUTELY BE MISS STEAL YOUR GIRL. I won't sit here and lie. I think they have a great dynamic together and they're just two girls who historically have been bashed so much by the fandom. They can be happy together and Kyoko can hold Haru back every time anyone says anything mean.)

Spanner x Haru (Idk I just think it'd be fun. Haru is a smart cookie and can probably hold a conversation fine. Try out the different lollipop flavors, suggest her own. He wanted to see a Yamato Nadeshiko and Haru aspires to be one but her personality disallows it. I just think it would be kinda funny cute that she'd keep trying to prove herself as one but keep failing at it. idk don't question my tastes.)

Shouichi x Haru (... look, maybe-- it could work. idk. Don't ask me. By vibes I feel like maybe it could work. He gets stressed a lot and his stomach hurts a lot. Haru is that kinda gal who is very supportive and is good at caring for people. It might work.)

Chrome x Haru ( ^^ In this meme I am truly going: Do I honestly think Haru could fall for girls too? Absolutely, literally fite me. Be the best supportive girlfriend ever. Help build up that confidence! Make sure she eats well! They can build each other up. THE DYNAMIC)

Squalo x Haru (Okay look, okay look- only in this meme am I willing to out myself for this. I will preface by saying I do prefer him with other people, but i'm running out of peeps okay? Will I say that I think they'd be funny on the premise of loud and louder? The annoying lil one who will constantly be a nuisance as she gets into fights with Xanxus? Who will sneak in and embroider lil sharks on towels and such because it's cute? I think it's hilarious to think about.)

... Xanxus x Haru (LOL again, i'm running out of people and i'm not gonna lie, I am verily amused by the idea that Haru is extremely stubborn and will fight back. Still, if she takes notice that someone is troubled and may need help (regardless of if they admit it or not), she would try to help them. If someone out there just needs someone who can show actual care for them and be patient while doing so, she can be that girl. They may lash out or what, but if they don't truly mean it in an antagonistic way- she can turn the other way. Everyone takes their time to heal through things. Haru just wants to be helpful and be supportive. SOBS)

Dino x Haru (Sorry Dino-san, I forgot you existed for a hot sec;;;;;;; I mean- I guess it could work? He's a lady-killer so I can see how this could probably work. I'm not entirely sold on it ngl, but welp- what are options)

Mukuro x Haru (First of all, honorary mentions don't count, right? RIGHT? I'm not repeating. ANYWAYS, I mention this based off the fact that AUs are useful in many ways. It was gonna be a childhood friends who met while she was on vacation and when they meet again as they're older, he's quite different and she continues to reach out, trying to understand what happened. Try to help him process through what had happened to him. Slowly become friends again and then see where things went from there. Good times.)

... 3p counts... right? Taurus trio (Hibari x Haru x Yamamoto as they are all taurus AHAHAHAHHHHAHHAHA I won't say much more on this i'm guilty as charged)

... yes another 3p bc yes. Bermuda triangle (Belphegor x Haru x Gokudera bc idk eye of the storm, the Bermuda triangle supposedly just wrecks things and whatever bc I forget. Was it magnetic wave disruption? ANYWAYS. That's why I coined the term for the pair. I like it bc it's chaotic, don't come at me. I'm already ashamed)

WHEEZE Please no one judge me. I tried my darnedest to keep to the meme prompt. OTL I still cheated a bit but I HAD TO. I WAS RUNNING OUT OF OPTIONS.

#Ubiquitarian #meme answered #Answered ask #Thanks for the ask! #Neo speaks #((Please no one judge me too hard for this lololololol))

[stayxlix]

Ok I’m back writing :)

Seungmin and mc :( I hope they have a really good friendship. He's so puppy here :(

“You examined him, unable to help but notice that the way he held himself didn't quite match the others. That his posture was just slightly straighter. How he held his head just a little bit higher.” WATCH MINHO BE MC’S LONG LOST BROTHER OR SOMETHING

BUT I’M LIKE 78% SURE HE’S A DISTRICT 9 BABY

“He jogged over and plopped down on your other side, lightly brushing your shoulder with his own as he tossed a bottle to Chan over the fire.” Giggling rn. (get it together Julian)

Hsjcaksjcc Pls what does mc feel for Jisung lmao😭 let’s work on lix first 😂

Mc better not say/do some dumb shit while drunk btw😃

“…and Seungmin lay against the ground with his eyes closed, humming out a wistful melody in perfect pitch.” MY BABYYYYYY

“…found Yellow Wood nearly five years ago.” You made it 5 I want to cry now. Woah, I’m feeling so many emotions rn

“…as Felix stared daggers at Jisung.” WHAT IS ACTUALLY GOING ON SJDJVBFJ MC WE DON’T HAVE TIME FOR A LOVE TRIANGLE

“Brown eyes had always been your favorite…” THANK YOU BC YES

"Don't blame me, District nine over here can drink!"Jisung pointed to where you sat behind him and you shoved his shoulder.” I actually adore him

“-y/n just go. I know you want to. I won’t tell.” He put a finger to his lips…” I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I WANT TO KEPP HIM AS MY BEST FRIEND I LOVE HIM

“Immediately upon turning the corner at the top of the stairs you, let out a small yelp when you were encompassed by a pair of strong arms from behind.” I don’t even know what to say any more I’m so gone for this character bruh

The worldbuilding for the hotel is simply immaculate by the way. You managed to describe both it's ruin and it's beauty while still maintaining that the characters do not understand what such a building would be used for

after a busy day im finally sitting down for the evening to jump back into this (okay in reality its almost midnight) but either way i cannot WAIT🤭 so lets get started...

"WATCH MINHO BE MC’S LONG LOST BROTHER OR SOMETHING" "BUT I’M LIKE 78% SURE HE’S A DISTRICT 9 BABY"

SCREAMING WHEN I READ THIS. i know i gave hints here but ig i didnt think anyone would actually figure out that he was from district 9…or at least bother to let me know that they did (on my knees apologizing for not giving you enough credit omg) not that im surprised at all that you figured it out IMMEDIATELY bc im starting to think you know this story better than i do....

"Hsjcaksjcc Pls what does mc feel for Jisung lmao😭 let’s work on lix first 😂" "WHAT IS ACTUALLY GOING ON SJDJVBFJ MC WE DON’T HAVE TIME FOR A LOVE TRIANGLE"

lmao me to myself when jisung comes out of nowhere to bias wreck me on the daily like its his job (im loyal to felix i swear🫠)

"Mc better not say/do some dumb shit while drunk btw😃"

depends on your definition of dumb shit...

"You made it 5 I want to cry now. Woah, I’m feeling so many emotions rn"

i love skz so much okay😭😭 SO PROUD OF THEM FOR 5 YEARS😭 my babiessss ugh (it makes me so happy that you saw what i was trying to do here and found the meaning in this🥹💕)

"The worldbuilding for the hotel is simply immaculate by the way. You managed to describe both it's ruin and it's beauty while still maintaining that the characters do not understand what such a building would be used for"

and this right here. giggling and kicking my feet rn because you have no idea how much i procrastinated this part (among several others in this chapter) like when i tell you there were certain parts that i STRUGGLED with it absolutely includes trying to put into words the whole vibe i was going for with the hotel. so once again you have managed to write such thoughtful commentaries on some of the parts that i was most insecure about and i am forever thankful for that.🥹💕 like beyond words at this point.💕💕

lets head on over to part 4 yeah? ngl im excited for this one..

#otde.feedback #alex answers asks♡ #astralis is typing #part3/5

[many-gay-magpies]

verivery and skz!

ooh okay--

first bias:

verivery: gyehyeon

skz: hyunjin

current bias(es):

verivery: ...gyehyeon (altho also dongheon and hoyoung now maybe? and yongseung? idk i like a lot of them)

skz: minho, jisung (maybe others but my bias list in skz is a lot less comprehensive than it used to be LMAO)

album/era ranking:

verivery:

ROUND 2: WHOLE | bcs it had both underdog and heart attack, and trigger slapped, so !

ROUND 3: WHOLE | undercover and O are my two favorite promoted tracks of theirs and they both come off this album, plus the styling and concept this era fucked massively, so. yeah <3

ROUND 1: HALL | only two tracks, but the tracks were get away and numbness, which both slapped. also the concept and mv were absolutely iconic

FACE ME + FACE YOU | lumping these together because theyre pretty even for me-- FACE ME has lay back, photo, and MOMENT, then FACE YOU has thunder.

FACE US | the bsides were great and a couple of my favorite VRVR tracks are on that album (my face and get outta my way), but GBTB being the title kinda detracted from it for me HDJFFJHF

VERI-CHILL

VERI-US + VERI-ABLE | i know there are a lot of kpop fans out there who really go for the more bright, cheery songs, but as much as i respect them they are not me-- i still like all the songs tho, not to be mistaken! Alright! and Get Ready are forever bops

skz: (im not doing literally every single era because that would be, just. SO much.)

clé: LEVANTER | levanter is one of, if not my MOST favorite skz title track of all time-- the mv, the song, just the EVERYTHING. the album also has sunshine, booster, and STOP, so yeah its my favorite <33

I AM WHO | my pace as the tt, and then question, insomnia, m.i.a., voices, WHO?, awkward silence... i have listed literally every song on the album so that probably gives you an idea of how much i value it.

Clé 1: MIROH | me: era that got me into stray kids say aye! miroh: AYE!! KSGDJDGH but yeah it. the Queen of all time <33 im pretty sure i had some of the rap sections in maze of memories, if not the entire song, memorized for like a straight year, despite not being able to nor wanting to rap myself. chronosaurus, 19, boxer, victory song my beloveds... clé 1 my beloved <3

GO LIFE/IN LIFE | pairing these two together because one is a repackage and they BOTH have some of my favorite ever skz songs on them. even though these eras saw the start of my decline from stay-dom with god's menu, im still absolutely in love with a lot of the songs that came from them, like easy, any, wow, my universe, another day, phobia, gone days, and ta!

NOEASY | once again kind of a miss on the title track with my personal tasted, but the BSIDES. god the bsides. we got silent cry, gone away, mixtape: OH (even though that was kind of its own era before with a single/ prerelease if i remember right?), cheese, domino, fucking red lights... kpop groups why must you always make my least favorite song of an album the title track.

I am NOT | not one of my favorite tts even if it was debut, but its a nostalgia era for me, and mirror, awaken, rock, grow up, and 3rd eye are ABSOLUTELY my beloveds.

Clé 2: Yellow Wood | not one of my most exciting eras, but i loved all the mixtapes and four of them were on this album, so !!

how i got into them:

verivery: i saw a gyehyeon gifset on my fyp, then went into his tag to find more gifsets to reblog (both because he pretty and i wanted to support creators), then next thing i know im binging every single one of their title tracks in order and drowning myself in their lore. it happened entirely without me expecting it

skz: saw the chronosaurus mv under a b*s mv i was watching back in 2019, liked it, then went and watched a bunch of their other stuff, liked that, and they very rapidly ascended to ult position LMAO

which member would be my best friend:

verivery: honestly theyre all very friend-shaped to me but probably dongheon, yongseung, or minchan? dongheon is a dork, minchan is precisely my kind of funny/weird, and yongseung is just chill and i think he'd be cool to hang out with!

skz: jisung <3 also felix, felix would be an absolutely rad best friend.

something i associate with them:

verivery: fuck idrk how to interpret this question. their lore? clone themes? vaguely homoerotic tension? the color silver? i could go on a whole rant on what my synesthesia associates with each of the individual members but that would be far too much to squeeze into this ask game, and also i think i may have already done that. i can say i associate minchan with coffee a little bit because that's what his voice sounds like to me?

skz: the color orange, for some reason. other than that i kinda got nothing HDJFBF

#asks #ask games #heeyunies #artzyy 🎨 #vv #skz #:>

[kth1]

why do you like taegi the most?

i’ve had this ask sitting in my inbox for a hot minute because i wanted to be able to respond when i had the time to lay out a novel. maybe... i don’t know how long this will be but here we go bubs. thank you for asking in advance! 

for starters... kim taehyung. 

my ultimate. the man that choses me no matter what i did. i admire him, aspire to be more like him, and adore him to all extremes. from his younger years and to present years, this guy really sticks out with personality for me. (yes he’s attractive but like, it’s really the personality that makes me coo).  i could actually feel a vibe/energy toward taehyung in which in some sort of mystical au where i could meet him, i feel like i’d connect with him very well (you can disagree, idc). this is just my perception. yes, he’s a lump of an enigma and that’s exactly what i like about him. you never fully know what you’re getting with tae besides the fact that you know you don’t know what you’re going to get! the element of him being spontaneous and can reach all ends of the spectrum from animation really appeals to me. deep down, i feel like he is a very sensitive soul, things bother him quiet often but he masks. and with that mask he makes a great conversationalist because i believe he knows how to be appropriate with pushing back biased thoughts to be able to hear out others - however i feel like he runs into people who don’t understand or are willing to hear him out in return. sure he has trouble expressing things from time to time, but i think it’s because of the emotions and thoughts that course through him are nondefinitive. you have to know and learn tae to get and understand tae. (not disregarding any of the others when i speak this, btw) he is honestly, truly amazing in my eyes and that’s probably one of the main reasons why i feel toward him the most. he can be soft, cuddly, and kind. he as an earth sign supports the stereotypes of down to earth, wise, and also ambitious. also, tae can pull out some ruthless, playful, tactics out of left field because that’s just how he is - and we love all sides of him (or what he wants to show us). his constant creativeness is enjoyable, how many times does tae want to go against the standard? nearly all the time! and he pulls it off! because i feel like tae doesn’t fully care to be the same, he wants to be himself. and that’s so utterly sexy of him you have no idea. (again, you can disagree with me) but sometimes i personally feel like i can be very similar to tae in many ways, with thoughts, feelings, and creative drives. i feel we both attempt to put on our fronts, try to remain humble and respectful. understand we are just humans and we are the same. and also can be quick to call out the suspicious acts so bluntly because our bullshit meter is always running. not to mention, both he and i enjoying being dramatically extra for no apparent reason sometimes. this is how i conclude the fermented idea in my mind that maybe, just maybe, i would make a great friend with tae if i ever had a chance. 

mr. min yoongi.

this many radiates comfort and i feel like he’s super trustworthy. yoongi is the type of person i feel like i could spill all my beans in front of, not matter how heated, sad, or excited i may be, and he’d openly accept it all. his level of patience is something i strive to have. the way he’s so witty and sharp tongued, smart, and ready to stir the pot from time to time to challenge against you is something i find remarkable and again - enjoyable. in the nicest of ways, yoongi can easily tell you how it is... and if you push the wrong buttons he can probably easily tell you how it be with more tone and harsher words. however, yoongi is straight-forward majority of the time, something i am like as well. he is a pisces with virgo moon so i feel real bad with the inner battles his brain probably constantly undergoes, all those hidden thoughts he doesn’t want to reveal to most. i feel that yoongi has such a massive intuition, a general 6th sense about him. in many occasions, i also see myself with similar personality as yoongi. those ‘tsundere’ vibes, introverted, keeps to ourselves, and randomly once we’re comfortable we ‘act out’ and surprise everyone, but they think it’s funny/cute, etc. yoongi (here i go with my delulu au’s where maggie is y/n) would be the type of person i look up to and always want to talk to - to tell him about what’s bothering me. even if i feel like im boring or annoying, i feel like i’d be able to open up to him fast because i just have that confidence and belief to him. in most cases, he acts in a calmly manner. whereas, once i loose my cool i come out very heated an aggressive because i cannot hold back as much as he can - another thing i wish i was more like. the natural, effortless and relaxed aspect of yoongi, is also very very attractive (all yoongi bias’ are going to agree to this one) but there is no lie when i speak this. he doesn’t showboat, he doesn’t parade around saying he’s the best and have a large ass ego. he is just yoongi who is doin’ himself. we like this shit. you do you booboo! 

taegi as a whole:

yes, completely super in love with the friendship of taegi. yes, mainly because these two take all my food from my table and bid me goodnight. however, i love all the friendships between members!!! but because im a taegi fanatic because of the likeness i have to bother individuals, i will comment on their bond bc i love it. golly, where do i start? hm, for beginners... let’s just remember how taegi would typically have the most conflicting ideas, resulting in the most funny scenarios whenever they sometimes were paired up in games or something. (like holding hands because they disagree??? cute) how yoongi - to this day - tends to have a hard time changing tae’s mind / saying no to tae because tae is a wee bit stubborn and want to do / try things out. when tae always wants to be yoongi’s hype man, enjoy yoongi’s rap, verses, highest key is trying to take over all of yoongi’s parts in each rapping song because skrrt skrrt! together, taegi is very touching to me. tae admires and looks up to yoongi in so many ways, and yoongi shows such a concern in undertones towards tae is endearing. like, you can’t tell me this friendship ain’t cute. i would politely throat chop you and call you a fool. yes i’m hella biased, i know this, however i don’t care what you say against me because it is what i like to see and crave a bond like these two beans! taegi; two fun-filled people who are honest, deep, and most importantly... they are true. (not saying anyone is ‘fake’, please shake that thought from your head!!!) im saying like, true in the sense of real people. an archaic expression of being true to oneself, yourself, others, etc. they are true to most of everything (in my mind). both of these two are very commendable and you can learn a lot through them! 

this concludes my maggie rants for now. please come by another time after i recharge! i know i haven’t touched every single thing about each category, i know i have more to say but just don’t know how to say it or can’t bring all the thoughts to the table for now. thank you to the anon who prompted this question. and also thanks to whoever ends up reading this response! again, i love all the members in their own special ways! i don’t intend to disregard others but this ask caters to my personal loves. <3

#ask #Anonymous #taegi

[anarmorofwords]

I kinda wanna write a better version of tlh where Tatiana is still insane but there's no Belial bc that makes zero sense to me

In this version there would be:

Kamanna done correctly with actual genderqueer rep and not toxic relationships

Barbra and Oliver bc fight me she didn't die

Genie and Filomena bc I love them and all the lightwoods are queer

The gracelet doesn't even happen bc I refuse to write that

Grace is pretty much still the same but she breaks off their(hers and james') relationship bc she notices that he loves Cordelia

No bad James. He's not a shitty person to Alastair, and he doesn't treat Cordelia like a sex object

Anna puts a stop to Kellington and Matthew's relationship before it gets serious. She also tries to get him to stop drinking all the time

Alastair apologizes around seeing them again for the first time. The merry thieves are a little reluctant because of some of the things he did but they don't actively try to keep him away from events that they're at

Matthew notices how Alastair looks at Thomas and locks them in the sanctuary with Genie and Cordelia's help

Grace gets badly injured due to a mistake in necromancy and Christopher helps her treat it without letting people know

Lucie meets Jesse, and falls in love ofc, so in order to bring him back successfully she asks Malcolm to train her in using her magic

Matthew opens up to his mom about the incident. She doesn't blame him at all and instead apologizes for often putting her work before him

Matthew finds out about Charles and Alastair because he found Alastairxs break up letter to Charles

Matthew, the mother hen he is, decided to attempt to murder his older brother, only being stopped by James who had been there at the right time

Kamala ends things with Charles and tells Anna that she still loves them and hopes that she will give her another chance

Anna told her that they needed time to think, and that she is worried how Kamala's reputation will be affected if anyone besides their friends and Anna's family finds out

Kamala respects her decision and doesn't contact her until Anna's ready to talk about things

The merry thieves don't ignore Christopher and they actively listen and help him

The merry thieves also aren't terrible to Grace bc they realize she's been isolated alone with Tatiana and 1) she might not understand what's saying/doing is wrong or 2) that sometimes she's trying to push them away so her abilities don't accidentally make them do something

Good tid parents

James and Alastair being respectful to each other despite personal differences

Matthew, Alastair, Kamala, Christopher, and Grace being besties, or as I call them, the neglected squad

No fetishizing mlm/wlw

Domestic cuddles and taking care of the other one when they're sick

Jesse/Lucie/Matthew pairing bc I love them and I refuse to pick between lucie/matthew and lucie/jesse

Christopher teaching Grace the elements(at the time) on the periodic table

Tatiana dies at the end yay

It's very unpolished and I'm open to b hearing any feedback and/or suggestions that anyone may have

The idea came to me and I decided it would be best if I told someone before I forgot

hi, I'm sorry it took so long,but I wanted to properly answer this and I keep having either internet connection issues or little time

DON'T BE SHY, WRITE THIS 👀

In all seriousness tho... THIS IS ABSOLUTE PERFECTION?!? I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START I AM UTTERLY IN LOVE WITH THIS IDEA, I NEED IT

Look, I've been on the verge of rewriting ChoI, and I keep saying I want someone to write a TLH that will live up to its potential, but I've never actually came up with a proper idea for it, and you?!! YOUR BRAIN DARLING THIS IS GENIUS

ok hold up I'll just react to each and every single one so

yes please?!? I mean it started off so sweet in EEV?! Also actually genderqueer Anna and not dancing around the subject like CC is doing now?! That's what they deserve, and that's what we all deserve too

yesss please. also just,,,, Barbara, the feminine, not-wanting-to-fight-which-doesnt-make-her-less-badass queen that she is, getting the page space and appreciation she deserves

that's actually brilliant?!? it would be so great, just imagine the new girl arrives for her travel year and Genie is completely awestruck. I'm so invested in Joshwood it's difficult to imagine not having them, but this is actually the only valid alternative?!

ok that's fine. I think it could still happen and be done well, but tbh for now... the gracelet doesn't seem to have done anything relevant to the plot itself? I mean yeah it messed up James's life and Jordelia, but what did it give Belial? Tatiana? nothing. It makes no sense atm.

could be! maybe she's still encouraged by Tatiana to befriend/seduce him, but without the gracelet it doesn't work out? or maybe James somehow manages to realize that she's in danger and he actually like,,,, kidnaps her? idk idk

yes. YES. just,,,,z James is a sweet compassionate literature nerd who accidentally makes a good leader and he actually cares about people, and not just judges them from his high horse; he does still have hero syndrome, but he's kind and respectful and overall a good character

ANNA INTERVENES ABOUT KELLINGTON PLZ. PEOPLE ACTUALLY NOTICE MATTHEW'S STRUGGLES. JAMES DOES, TOO, BECAUSE THERE'S NO GRACELET.

ok yes, so what about: basically TMT don't harass Alastair and accept his apology, and realize they were also being stupid and mean at times at the Academy (especially Math). Matthew doesn't want to accept Alastair's apology, because of The Sin, but his behaviour alerts the rest of TMT and they inquire what's wrong and he tells them about the sin and that's how he later tells his parents (because his friends encourage him) and as you say, she just hugs him and reassures him it's not his fault; so after that Matthew slowly begins to heal and accepts it wasn't Alastair's fault, and also since they've kind of adopted/started including Alastair in things, he can't help but notice he's actually changed and he even starts to grow fond of him

then like you said, Matthew notices Thomas likes Alastair PLEASE HE SO WOULD. I'm not sure about the Sanctuary, if it actually happens (I'll get to why later on), but him and Lucie get really invested in the matchmaking schemes, they include Genie/Kamala because these two are friends with Alastair (both? Or at this point only Kamala?) but they also share some Moments during their scheming/talking about love 👀 (yes I'm a Fairdale shipper, I think it's time to expose myself lol)

Which leads me to (sorry I'm going off order rn) YES YES YES LUCIE AND MATH PLEASE. A FELLOW SHIPPER, HELLO, NICE TO MEET YOU. But since we're actually fixing him then we can give Jesse a personality and I'm totally down for poly Math/Lucie/Jesse

Lucie seeking Malcolm's help in secret, morally gray heroine style?!? no, it's probably not legal. but also has there ever been a Shadowhunter like her? If the Law doesn't expect such situations, it can't really forbid them...

Plz Matthew ready to strangle the carrot when he learns about their relationship, YES. sure, maybe he's still not the biggest fan of Alastair, but he's seen how much the boy's been through and starts to develop an attachment to him, and besides, NO ONE DESERVES TO BE GROOMED AND TREATED LIKE THAT. He's SO MAD at Charles, and he confronts him about it - remembering Kellington as he does, and it makes him sick to think his brother would do the same thing to someone. Maybe he gets very emotional over this and later finally tells his friends about Kellington? Maybe they didn't know before, only Anna did? So when they all realize what was happening then they comfort him etc? Or maybe it's just Alastair that learns now, and the others knew before, and they share a bonding moment over that?

Injured Grace seeking Kit's help is a genius idea I didn't know I needed

Kamanna giving each other time and space and deciding they need to question their relationship and figure out if it actually makes sense would be great. Anna realising she's very privileged and Kamala doesn't have those same opportunities, and also in general realising coming out should never be pressured or forced. Just,,,, Anna being self-aware and respectful towards Kamala. Well-written Anna. Plz. Also Kamanna is actually developed and not just "in love" because,,,,, they're attracted to each other? Maybe even remaining friends while Anna makes up their mind?

yeah just TMT being more compassionate and less judgy because they're not written by Judith so her bias isn't projected onto them

It's not a want, it's a need. They adopt Alastair and Grace eventually. Like, maybe not literally - although, Grace? - but you know what I mean.

I think they all should just have various friendship dynamics and switch between them, because people need more than one friend group

no fetishizing, no watching your brother make out with his lover, yessss

yes domestic cuddles, affection, taking care of wounds, all those things. plz.

Gracetopher bonding over science yes

obviously. or maybe she's imprisoned?!

ok, now for some more notes/my ideas etc., if you don't mind:

I actually think Belial could still be featured? After all, I don't think Tatiana could do much on her own, and since she seeks help from demons, it makes sense to include a Greater Demon as well. But Belial would have to be a stronger villain, written better; I'll think more about this

if that was the case, the serial killer plot could still happen, but be done better. and it would allow for a scenario I talked about with @littlx-songbxrd to happen, where it's Alastair who's falsely accused of murder. It creates a great opportunity to explore some things, because we know Alastair is much more likely to be seriously suspected, considering all the prejudices and bad rep his family has and all that

...what do you say to well-written Jordelia? 👀 Cordelia hasn't been obsessively in love with James since childhood, she only had a crush then. And now that they meet again, she's fond of him but not in love, not straight away. They're both grown up, and different people, but as they spend more and more time together, they fall in love. What if Cordelia gets to flirt with some other boys first? What then. What if she ends up choosing James, instead of going for the only boy she's ever had feelings for and idealized since childhood. What if we even make it friends-to-lovers and have James be a little jealous at some point?! but not in a possessive awful way, just "oh damn oh no"

Now I won't know peace until this exists BUT THANK YOU

#ask answered #thank you this is brilliant #alt tlh #save for later #the last hours #tlh #anti cc #yes I'll be adding/thinking more about this I AM OBSESSED

[woozi]

if you had to describe your friendship with your moots as seventeen ships (boochan, jeongcheol etc) which moots would it be and why? is it dynamics? your undying love for each other? rivalry? sorry if this doesnt make sense ^^

it does make perfect sense don’t be sorry!! <3 also i don’t really see myself as just a single member of svt (although i am eerily similar to jihoon irl, surprise!! JDFJKDFK) so going through 12 pairings through a single member may not be very telling for my r/s with my moots sdksjkdjsd that being said i’m just gonna go through a few select ones!! some of these also don't exactly match svt's dynamics, but for the sake of answering, i would say they're pretty similar, lol.

cheol x gyu — i’m not associating rhys (@heartgyus) with cheolgyu’s dynamics just becase she used to bias one and now biases the other (👀), but i think they simply encapsulate our relationship perfectly as well <3 what am i if not the older sibling that roughhouses and gets roughhoused by the younger one JKDSJKDSJK i think we can also be jihan but this is exclusive to what happens (uhh... evil things) in the DMs lmfao. and maybe because people always think there’s something going on between us dsjkjkdjkds

junhao — cliche as fuck but i can’t help it it’s how e (@junhaoshua) and i are KJSDJKDS i was actually going through the list when it hit me.. we ARE junhao <3 jun’s (who would be me in this case) the older and more playful one out of the two, but hao also does his fair share of crazy antics ESPECIALLY with jun. i also think e is so cool (just like hao is). that’s MY bestie right there!! inseparable. fond. loyal. a pact made in blood. perfect for e and i <3

jeonghan x hoshi — partners in crime. mother and child. this is also what aya (@bonknanab) is to me <3 when i think of jeonghan and hoshi, i get reminded of their vlives (which always give me comfort and a sense of familiarity like aya does) just like seokhan. i feel like i can talk about literally anything and everything with aya! and just like when hoshi is with jeonghan, i tend to be a little more grounded while still somehow retaining the potential crazy antics. my fun older sister <3

soonhoon — pure energy vs solid wall. it’s carrie (@art-hao) and i <3 can i just say that when i made this connection between us and soonhoon... i literally felt like i ascendeDDDD not to toot my own horn but im SO SMART for this JDKKJSD u all don’t understand because this is literally how we are (both as individuals and as a pair). i cannot explain it but i, for sure, can most certainly attest that if any of these pairings i’ve mentioned/will be mentioning just reflect similarities, soonyoung and jihoon are EXACTLY as carrie and i are. i don’t even need to explain it i’m just gonna link all of u to soonhoon vids <3

seoksoon — belle (@xuseokgyu) is literally the seok to my soon <3 as they say, it’s literally almost canon JDSJKSJ i also love how we recognized this because of one of the carat anon ask games, but u know what they are absolutely right lol. belle is my positive ball of sunshine who also guides me when i’m going off the rails (just like how seokmin is the part-time hoshi wrangler). just as seoksoon has their own little world sometimes, i think no one connects with me and gets me (esp my dino tunnel vision) like belle does and i think that’s special <3

soonwoo — no one balances hoshi’s external chaos better than wonu, and i think belle (@gotseventeens) does exactly that when we’re together <3 at first, people think wonu’s cold and intimidating, but in reality he’s just a calm ball of internal chaos and other miscellaneous knowledge DSJKJDSDSKLSD this is literally how i thought of belle at first (minus the cold part), but as soon as we actually got to some proper talking, i realized that i literally cannot go without this person. friends for life, just like soonwoo!! <3

seokhan — one of the first things i think of when i think about jeonghan and dk together is that iconic eating vlive in their dorm, and i think that sums cora (@ohoshi) and i’s relationship KJDSJKDS i don’t think we personally match jeonghan and dk’s personalities, but we do dynamic-wise (or at least I think we do DSKJDJKS)! cora’s also just very supportive of me, just like how jeonghan is to dk. and although we don’t talk much lately (just like how seokhan aren’t able to share hotel rooms anymore bc.. well.. they have nowhere to go lmfao), i still treasure this bond with her <3

verkwan — ok but literally oona (@vernons) and i <3 foremost, oona is just here vibing like vernon and i absolutely love that omg. she’s also very collected and keeps to herself for the most part but when she reaches out, her gestures are always so heartfelt, which again, is like vernon! i really admire oona just like how boo does vernon, and the way i see it, i’m the loud friend (boo) whose antics vernon always witnesses, but when it comes to things they’re also a confidant. 10/10 vibes on this one!! <3

seungkwan x dk — wholesome. besties. it’s chey (@soonhoonsol) and i <3 like cora and i with seokhan, chey and i aren’t really similar to booseok but when they’re together i just think of happy and good things, which is what i get reminded of when i think of chey. <3 going through the list, i think they are also what we’re most similar to? i don’t think our dynamic can be compared to one of svt’s but this is the closest (maybe chey can suggest a better one JDSSDKDSJK)!! another one i can probably compare it to is wonwoo x vernon because i just feel like i can rely on chey just like vernon does wonwoo. <3 and like the two who have their personal humor codes, i also feel this special bond and fondness with and for chey!

hoshi x mingyu — am i about to steal your wallet. am i gonna get pissy that you beat me in a worthless competition (i know u will <3). that’s it that’s the post for emily (@iiasha)​. SDJKJDSJKDS mingyu’s also the prime witness and the reaction-machine to hoshi’s shenanigans and that’s literally how emily is with me, especially when i first got into caratblr (icb she saw the dinonara in me even before i did oh M YGODD). also emily is my getaway driver so this checks out. <3

jeonghan x wonwoo — i just realized that these are two of anna’s (@haniehae) boys but maybe the things and people we like also say a lot about us jdkjsdjdsjkds. i think our dynamic would be similar to jeonghan and wonu! jeonghan always like starting shit up (like i do <3), but wonu (like anna) always handles it very well and elegantly at that lol. i also just can’t describe why i feel like we fit this vibe, but i just get the Feeling™ JSDJKSDJKDS together, these two aren’t very chaotic, but i think they are quite the powerful pair (esp when they combine their sexie brain power and scheme together, just like what we did for HourlyHannie - shameless promo DKJSKJSDJKDS). also anna has Cool As A Cucumber vibes like wonu as well so <3

jeonghan x woozi — i always think of the time during svt’s trainee days wherein jeonghan was intimidated of woozi DKJKSDJ that’s also how i thought of izzie (@coupsnim) when i first entered caratblr bc i thought she was so cool (she still is!! <3) i also see that jeonghan has a lot of respect for jihoon and i do likewise for izzie. like jihoon as well, izzie mentioned that she’s not good at conveying things, but i feel it when she tags me here and there in little things (which i also might have missed some bc i have not been checking my notifs JDSJJDSJS ILY IZZIE). she’s one of the constants here as jihoon is central to svt, and i think of izzie very highly <3

boochan — lee (@uriboogyu) and i aren’t frenemies (but maybe we will have this arc soon JDSJKSDJSD JK!!!!!!!!!!), and i don’t really know where i’m getting this vibe from either, but when i think of lee and i boochan comes to mind. i think it’s because we’re always screaming at each other JKDSKJSJKSD. but as i think more about it, i believe it’s also because lee is a bit like dino as she’s the younger sibling that always reaches out to grumpy old people like me (and boo JDSKJSDKJ). both are very confident too!! also boochan lives for the show, and i won’t elaborate, but lee and i do too JDSKKJD

hoshi x seungkwan — target practice. waiting for each other’s downfall. still besties nonetheless <3 @mulberry-rose. i’m always excited to see if boo and hosh are gonna be friends or enemies a certain day and this is exactly what happens to monet and i lol. she’s one of the people who snipe me for my bias list, but we love to see it <3

soonchan — FOND FOND FOND FOND FOND!! when i think of soonchan i think of that vlive inside boo’s hotel room wherein they were hugging and calling each other 😭 or that one time in isac where dino’s just resting on soonyoung’s lap 😭 that’s exactly the feeling i get with mina (@mango-mina). i treasure this one right here! the absolute sweetest <3

#i was gonna post this yesterday but the internet went down HELPPPP #anyway #i wanted to include jeongcheol but i dont think it fits with anyone </3 #also #i think it's v interesting how i'm perceived as hoshi-like on here and i guess that does make sense too SDDSKJS #i also am not familiar at all with shipnames so if i got some wrong no i didn't <3 #although i did look up a list of the ships but i don't think theyre right jdsjdsjsdk #i also tried to make this longer so it'd be worth ur wait and bc i got this twice dskjjds i hope u enjoyed reading through this anon <3 #it was fun to do!! #i just needed to charge both my brain and social energies lol #y.ask #anon

[asteroiideae]

so I finally finished watching Jujutsu Kaisen, and I really wanted to sit down and write out my thoughts about it? because I have quite a few and I just need to purge them before I switch gears to go finish another series lmao two quick things: 1. thoughts are under the read more bc I’m a wordy bitch and you know this isn’t gonna be short. 2. I do not go here. I do not watch shonen anime, typically. I do not like shonen anime, typically. name a beloved big-name shonen series and I either hated it, gave up on it, or never could be bothered to watch it. I do not dislike JJK, but I feel this is an important perspective/bias to know before you read anything else lol

OKAY SO, I started JJK back in the winter, after having swerved it for ages. several of my good friends really liked it, and talked about it a lot, but I was skeptical. shout out to all the AMV makers who got on the Industry Baby hype, though, and made me take a second look at Gojo Satoru. this is not a Gojo thirst trap, sorry! but he did remind me of a beloved TTRPG character I had just said goodbye to, and so I decided to sit down and watch. it took me months. the gore hits several of my squicks and I had to take lots of breaks - but, finally, I have finished JJK!

tbh I’m not sure how I really want to format this, and I may delete or overhaul later, but for now I just want to put thoughts down while they’re fresh, so maybe I’ll just start with the things I liked?

1. The Adults so this is one of those things that just ~bothers me about shonen series. I think a lot of it is that I’ve aged out of the demographic, to be fair! but I just want an actual justifiable reason why these literal children are out here doing the most. JJK actually does that for me? because it gives me: Gojo Satoru and Nanami Kento. I could make a whole-ass post about just this bullet point, tbh. we have adults who want Itadori dead. we have adults who regret that Itadori has to die but who are tied to the system. we have adults who care but have no power. we have adults who do care and try to protect Itadori (Nanami), and we have adults who care but understand that the system itself is fundamentally flawed and needs changing (Gojo). you could make an argument that the adults are more interesting than the kids (more on that later,) but regardless the way the adults are presented to us is just really good, and as an adult myself, feels really realistic.

2. The Trio listen I am old and tired and the whole trio schtick has been over-done imo for awhile. still, I find myself enjoying Megumi, Yuji, and Nobara. I enjoy seeing their friendship as a group develop; and I also enjoy their moments one-on-one. I understand why these three are friends as a collective, but even when just paired off. I think the way their backstories and powers are crafted and presented is really smart. I think the fact that they each have their own clear views and opinions on morality and what it means to be a Jujutsu Sorcerer is really fantastic. if I have to sit through a trio story, JJK knows how to do it.

3. The Characters (collectively) another thing I tend to dislike about shonen series, are the characters themselves. they feel flat, and boring, and under-developed to me. I don’t find myself understanding or caring about their goals and motivations - especially, usually, the protagonists. JJK does a great job of making me like Yuji, and of unfolding his motivations and growth in such a way that (to me) he doesn’t feel overshadowed by his companions - who all, also, have their own motivations and growth. the mangaka and anime adapters really thought about what story they wanted to tell, and which characters could move that story - but also about how that movement would impact each of them, and what would bring them to this place.

4. The Soundtrack idk who was in charge of that shit, but give them a raise. the openings and endings slapped. the quiet songs slapped. the hyped battle and conflict songs slapped. they felt young and fresh and good, though we’ll see how they age. for now, 10/10 on that and seriously give the sound director a raise.

5. The Animation look it’s MAPPA. we all knew it was gonna be pretty as hell and (gasp!) it was pretty as hell. idk what else to say on this point. I’ve got some thoughts on the visuals themselves (more on that later), but I have no complaints about the animation. except maybe that MAPPA sure can make this but I’m still waiting on Ice Adolescence.

okay okay so here’s the part I’m gonna get roasted for, because there are things I dislike about JJK. some of them are not JJK’s fault, it’s just a genre thing, but I felt like they were worth noting regardless.

1. Character Designs I have basically no problems with the sorcerers’ designs (other than a couple of them have the same thick-ass facial scarring,) quite a few are really cool; Gojo is one of the prettiest-eyed anime men out there etc. etc. but listen we need to talk about some of these curses? cursed spirits? curse users? (don’t @ me I’m still working out the distinctions there.) why is there a whole-ass pimple-headed volcano? why does this man have some kind of nipple-covering fetish gear corset? it verges a little One Piece for me at times, and that is very much not a compliment. it was occasionally very difficult for me to take emotional beats seriously. I’m sorry your blobby brother died, fetish harness corset man but I’m distracted by the specific way your pecs are pushed up what am I supposed to take away from this???? and look I get it, I know what a grindhouse the industry is, and I know shonen expects a certain amount of that shit, but it just didn’t fit well with the writing or with the emotions those scenes were trying to convey. it took me right out of it.

2. The Body Horror/The Gore once again, I know. this is a genre thing. I did warn you I don’t like shonen series lmao I knew going in that this was going to be a problem for me. there’s definitely things that made my stomach turn that are well-used (everything about Sukuna’s design is cool as hell) but I need this artist to stop watching pimple popping youtube videos. I also feel like the blood is just....so gratuitous. it’s just everywhere all the time. it made me queasy at first and by the end I was just yawning in boredom. while I don’t enjoy gore or body horror very much, they are good effective tools, but I feel like they became a bit of a crutch in this series.

3. The Pacing listen I know, I know. this is me nit-picking about this genre. the thing is, if you slowed JJK waaaaay down, you have like 8-10 really good character pieces in here. I would watch an entire 13-episode series about Maki and Mai Zenin. I would watch a 3-5 episode arc about Kamo (I think that was his name?) If I could stomach Mahito’s body horror (I cannot) I would have loved to spend more time with the poor bullied kid whose name currently escapes me. JJK’s mangaka is a good writer, and it shows in that I want more. but it’s not that I want more big grand cool disgusting fight scenes? I want more of the emotional meat the mangaka’s hiding behind shitty curse designs and overly-gory fight scenes. basically. I wish this wasn’t a shonen series and that this author could really take their time with the world-building, the magic (more on that later), and the fascinating backstories and politics that shape this story. maybe that happens in the manga, but knowing shonen I doubt it lol

4. The Magic okay, I’m kiiiind-of cheating with this one? I actually really like the magic system in the series, and about 50% of the time it’s very clear and well explained. the other 50% of the time it feels like some kind of word soup and I have no idea what the fuck is going on. this could be a translation issue? it could be an adaptation issue? it could go back to the pacing? in any case, I do wish things were addressed a little more clearly at times like - bro I still don’t know tf was going in in the conversation with Gojo and Megumi in the last episode, or what Megumi’s domain is supposed to be.

ALL OF THAT SAID: I rate JJK a solid (and subjective) 7/10. It’s a fantastic shonen series, but the things that make me dislike shonen crop up underneath the good writing and interesting characters, so it was difficult going at times. I really did waver on bumping it up to an 8 after the last arc of the anime, but I decided I really couldn’t.

I do intend to read the manga, and watch the movie, so it’s possible some of these things will be made more clear or just be better handled once I know more? lol I’m also willing to talk about my points, so long as you don’t start with BRO THAT’S JUST SHONEN, because I know. I do. lmao

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #aster watches anime

[insomnihan]

han’s Entire Thoughts and Feelings on Dreamcatcher’s “Deja Vu”

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

MY TIME HAS COME 2.0!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FULL INSOMNIA MODE DONT. LOOK. AT. ME.

there are no read mores here so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

ALRIGHT SO-

THE SONG OKAY LETS JUMP RIGHT INTO IT i wasnt expecting something lowkey sad BUT im not mad at it!!!!!!!!!! i had conflicting emotions when i desperately wanted to cry but also headbang?????? HOWEVER thanks to force and air the tears in my eyes were drying as i headbanged- LIKE this song really PUT ME THROUGH IT like that chorus didnt have tO DO ME LIKE THAT™!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT THEN THE VERSES AND THE PRE-CHORUSES WERE SLOW (and the bridge but bridges be like that in nearly all songs) WHICH IM ACTUALLY REALLY INTO it was like being in a roller coaster with the verses being the slow hill and the chorus was the fall THAT PIANO GOES HARD...................... but like in a soft way????? DONT ASK ME WHAT IM SAYING IS IM A HOE™ FOR PIANO THOSE DRUMS DURING THE CHORUS STOP IT I CANNOT I FELT THEM VIBRATE THROUGH MY BONES

like i DEADASS have nothing to criticize or change about this song its PERFECTLY FINE AS IT IS (except for like more gahyeon and dami????? pls??????)

siyeon starting the song.......................... thank you.............. I STILL STAND BY SAYING I WOULD LISTEN TO HER VOICE FOR LITERALLY FOREVER HER VOICE DURING THE CHORUS QUEEN OF SINGING CHORUSES OH BUT THEN THAT HIGH NOTE ARE YOU KIDDING ME??????? SHE DIDNT HAVE TO KILL ME LIKE THIS BUT THANK YOU SO MUCH I- and now....... im in the deja vu P L E A S E

gaaaaaaaahhhyeeeeeooonnnn her voice is so pretty!!!!!!!!!!! BUT I WANT MORE!!!!!!!!!! HOWEVER youre the second one to sing with this beautiful gentleness of a part and to be honest this part paired with siyeon starting it really eases you into the song and its quite the blessing to hear thanks- and then yknow this part right after handong........................... Heaven™

SPEAKING OF HANDONG LISTEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE AMOUNT OF LINES SHE HAS MAKES ME WANNA CRY OKAY THIS PART RIGHT HERE............................. PLS.............. (i think its just me but theres a smaller voice singing like right under her voice????) HER PRE-CHORUS PARTS ARE LITERALLY THE BEST PARTS IN THE WHOLE SONG TO LISTEN TO pls believe me when i say this its NOT bc shes my ultimate bias like i genuinely like her parts the most

sua pls i was already prepared for softer vocals and you really gave that to me and then this is absolute perfection they were beautiful and amazing OF COURSE got me feeling like i was floating on actually clouds god TAHNK YOU AND THEN YOU JUST HAD TO HIT ME WITH YOUR PART RIGHT HERE???? i understand its just the chorus but I Felt That™ okay!!!!!!

JIU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i stand by saying how your voice be powerful as hell still even during these lines VERY short but VERY effective and very good leading into the chorus i love- and then your bridge....................... B I C T H really put me in my feelings but i welcome it with EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING and with open arms.......................

YOOHYEON AKA THE OTHER QUEEN OF SINGING CHORUSES I MEAN..................................... I LITERALLY DUNNO WHAT TO SAY!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE THEIR BEAUTIFUL SOUNDING HER VOICE GOES WELL WITH THEM like i really like the parts she sings after siyeon like................. Y O O F if a feather became a voice-

i need more dami too..................... P L E A S E like obviously with their other songs i was expecting dami to be in the second verse and with a smooth rap section and the former was correct HOWEVER to my pleasant surprise SHE SANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! her singing voice suited this SO MUCH and im actually glad there wasnt a rap part at all in this song especially that SECOND PART.................. Heaven™ 2x

my favorite lyrics (x): i know i said handongs were my favorite to listen to but i like these lines dont hurt me

난 이 숨결이 허락되는 날까지 As long as I can breathe 다신 너를 놓을 수 없어 I can’t let go of you again 우린 모든 순간 함께 할 테니 We’ll be together for every moment 내 곁에서 beside me

THE DANCE OKAY IM GONNA DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT ill be referring to THIS PERFORMANCE can we pls talk about how loud the fanchant is im crying and really take it in and all of their talented glory ANYWAY OF COURSE the choreography F UKCING SLAPS just so many different position changes and just alwaYS SO IN SYNC WITH EACH OTHER ITS INSANE ill just list them briefly and keep the points short this is long enough:

THE BEGINNING AND THE END BEING THE SAME...................... CERTAINLY DEJA VU-

SIYEONS TUTTING THING THANKS

handongs majestic spin

this and this with how the formation changes and how their arms swing AND the kick

ALSO in those parts in the last bullet i dunno why but i like that move jiu does when she sings IT HITS

i recall sua spoiling literally the first move of the chorus dance in that vlive THE CHORUS DANCE ALL THOSE FORMATION CHANGES LITERALLY MESS ME UP and THIS most important move in the entire choreography and they line up and its SO COOL to look at

when they lie on each other doing yoohyeons lines

handongs part again when theyre in the line and how satisfying it is to watch

THE ENTIRE BRIDGE

LITERALLY THE ENTIRE DANCE FROM START TO FINISH

QUEENS OF STABILITY

sidenote: can we talk about how handong and dami?????? literally spin during their parts????? and they sounded super clear??????

THE VISUALS SO.......................... if you had asked me two days ago (maybe a little bit of yesterday) about how i felt about this video.................. i wouldve mentioned some unpopular opinions regarding the videos look............ i mentioned to gwen @loonapunk that i wasnt TOO into it............ BUT- after finally sitting down to do this long ass post i dont hate it!!!!!!!!!!!! i think bc i have to remind myself that this song (album???? well song-) is for that kings raid game and all the visuals AND story are based off that????? i dunno BUT WHAT I DO KNOW IS I LIKE TO WATCH IT

IM TOO BIG STUPID™ TO COMPREHEND THIS STORYLINE AND COME UP WITH MY OWN THEORIES EVEN NOW AND I WOULD L O V E TO EXPLAIN IT TO YOU BUT THIS IS LONG ENOUGH AS IT IS SO ILL REDIRECT YOU TO THEORY POSTS (TWO (2) FROM MY GALAXY BRAIN MOOTS) THAT I LIKED:

@highsomnia NITAS POST WHICH I PERSONALLY FOUND ENJOYABLE TO READ SO IF YOU COULD READ THIS YOU SHOULD ALSO READ THAT

@in-somnias ELENAS POST WHICH WAS ALSO AN INTERESTING READ RIGHT HERE

AND THEN THIS ONE THAT WAS ORIGINALLY FROM TWITTER i dont follow her so im not gonna @

AIIGHT IMMA GO CRAZY WITH THESE SHOTS (with only small one/two sentence captions this is LONG ENOUGH):

BICTH I SAW THIS AND KNEW I WAS GONNA GET GOT™ like its just super duper INCREDIBLY PRETTY TO LOOK AT

THIS WILL BE FOREVER ICONIC™ DONT ARGUE WITH ME

this is what the calm before the storm looks like

went back to the mv film making video and turns out they got slippers on under that table love that for them

how in the hell am i supposed to interpret this exchange

okay longer section i think im supposed to interpret this more as a sister bond than a romantic one?????? i remember being taken aback and believed this to be something gay BUT 99.9% OF INSOMNIAS say its gay subtext so ill just put it like that i dunno but like i just wanna say they have beautiful smiles and im love them!!!

a youtuber reacting to this mv saying it just looks like theyre shading each other.................... anyway-

i CANNOT i repeat I CANNOT EXPRESS TO YOU how Shook™ i was when i saw this for the first time i basically jumped out of my chair i couldnt i-

this mv really led me to believe jiu was the evil one.............................

POETIC. CINEMA.

THE WOMAN. THE MYTH. THE LEGEND. THE FIREBENDER. THE WOLF. LEE SIYEON. pls light me up

Symbolism™................ SYMBOLISM I CANNOT COMPREHEND GO TO THE THEORIES

MORE SYMBOLISM GO TO THE THEORIES

T H E M

NOT ONLY IS THIS VIDEO SUPER AESTHETIC™ BUT THE SEVEN (7) MOST BEAUTIFUL WOMEN IN THE WORLD BLESSING US ONCE AGAIN WITH THEIR PRESENCE AND ALLOWED THEIR ROYALTY VIBES SHOOT INTO THE MESOSPHERE INTO REAL LIFE KILLING ALL OF US

THE DANCING SCENES WITH THE TEASER OUTFITS...................................... AT EASE.....................

LITERALLY NO COMPLAINTS MOVING ON:

JIU

L I S T E N KIM MINJI YOURE A FULL PRINCESS this pink fluffy dress with the flower crown in this picture............................ i may have cried- like a lot of people were trying this look to persephone and im HERE for that concept for her and like the white outfit AND black outfit is probably super symbolic again im too Big Stupid™ anyway when i saw that black outfit in the teaser........................... i was attacked jiu with a sword is just EVERYTHING i wanted and more

SUA

LITERALLY I CANNOT- her hair being wavy looks SO GOOD on her THIS BLACK DRESS WITH THE FLOWERS she is always a Serve™ WE KNOW THAT but her visuals just HIT DIFFERENT this time lighter colored hair really suits her and then of course she looks FAN-FREAKING-TASTIC in the dance scenes in the white and the black that low pony tail pls

SIYEON

purple on this woman just shoulders and collarbones out being Beautiful™ ALL THE WHILE staying ON BRAND with herself and was wearing pants good for her G O D i just love the way her hair looks in the white and gold outfits like it just LOOKS PRETTY to me i dunno how to describe it also her with a pony tail WHAT ARE YOU SO PRETTY FOR-

HANDONG

i just................... want closer shots of this.................. CLOSER SHOTS IN GENERAL OF HER ACTUALLY like LOOK HOW BEAUTIFUL™ SHE LOOKS HERE I WANNA SEE MORE OF IT??????? PLS??????? nothing gets me weaker than her hair being styled exactly like in the picture i just love that her royalty and regal vibes and looks were FINALLY realized and WAS BROUGHT TO THE FOREFRONT

YOOHYEON

THIS MV MUST CONVINCE ME SHE IS EVIL BY SHOWING HER FOREHEAD first of all the first outfit turning her into an Actual Entire Princess™/Queen™ that red one i dont really understand SHE MAKES IT WORK THO THEN THAT BLACK OUTFIT LISTEN yo it was like getting hit by a whole truck full speed i wasnt ready and i just wanna admire that yoohyeon and gray colored hair is an actual match made in heaven i just have to say-

DAMI

i love this suit and the patten on it so much this outfits color (what is that teal????) and her hair color is such a GOOD PAIRING and on her SHE JUST KILLED ME WITH HER SOLO SCENES i wish i had more to say about her and her outfits but what else can i say other than that she is INSANELY ATTRACTIVE AND I WANT HER TO STEP ON ME???????

GAHYEON

she really broke my neck when i saw her the first time LIKE DEADASS LOOK AT THIS PICTURE i had fallen for her and i cannot get up when i saw this outfit in the other shots like the black top and the see through sleeves but her skirt is like different colors she really Served™ in this outfit bangs usually look cute but in her solo parts she was coming for my heart like miss lee gahyeon pls-

BONUS TIME: B-SIDE TRACKS (just short thoughts and point out specific parts i liked lmao)

Intro:

their intros always slap are you kidding me-

The curse of the Spider

i wasnt ready for this bop to slap me in the face on my spotify that chorus didnt have to do that to me THAT GUITAR DIDNT HAVE TO DO THAT TO ME i love the way dami and handong sound in this song i mean wrow-

favorite lyrics (x):

소름이 끼칠 만큼 It’s chilling 도망치고 싶어질 it makes me want to run away 그런 두려움일 테니 such is this fear

Silent Night

B I H C T i knew when i heard this in the highlight it was going to be my favorite one IT REALLY WOKE SOMETHING IN ME these lyrics i cant- gahyeon and handong hurted me with their lower registers Y AL L YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE HURTED ME THAT D R O P DID

favorite lyrics (x):

겨눈 칼 끝은 a blade directed at someone 결국 돌아오게 돼 eventually returns 더 다가오지 마 don’t come closer

Polaris

this song is as if i was wrapped in the thickest blanket i got and im resting on the softest bed in the world with a fireplace going nearby and i could finally rest peacefully bc the lord knows i need it- i really cried a little bit listening to this pls leave me be i legit cant pick a specific member i liked the most for this song i just love it and everything it got

favorite lyrics (x):

그게 너라서 행복해 I’m happy that it’s you 그 많은 인연 속에 Among those numerous connections 수많은 사람 중에 Among those numerous people

LIKE im so completely satisfied with every song on this album and im completely in love with it!!!!!!!!!! the only ‘issue’ i really had was with the mv visually but as you read i warmed up to it lmao LIKE IM JUST SO PROUD OF THESE WOMEN AND HOW TALENTED AND HARDWORKING THEY ARE like i have to say the japanese release?????? and this????? being so close to each other????? you telling me they learned TWO (2) different choreographies one after the other???? i absolutely love this album and i desperately desperately DESPERATELY want so much more success for them bc ITS WHAT THEY DESERVE!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is supposed to be just about the overall mv and deja vu but i might as well just type what i feel lmao

IN CONCLUSION: MY INSOMNIA ASS IS BOTH ALIVE AND DEAD BUT MOSTLY ALIVE I LOVE THIS IM STREAMING

i have to bring this back its relevant again:

#THREE (3) DAYS IN THE MAKING #it took longer bc ive been having the worst stomachaches rn #it probably shows in this post lmao #but anyway Y E A H im love them #LETS GET THIS BREAD #if you read all of this i appreciate you #dreamcatcher #han.txt #han's mv afterthoughts

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svt + carat: an explanation

graphic insp credit:

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why did you ask us to reblog instead of liking?

tumblr hides posts from the search feature with outside links in them (not all links, but most) they even hide posts with links to private posts on their OWN SITE. hence, why i’m posting this publicly. aside from that, content creators get more exposure when you reblog instead of like their content because it’s visible on your blog + your followers see it on their dashboards. considering i spent 70+ hours on this, i would be much appreciative if you reblogged instead of liked 😅

edit: making this post public didn’t matter, bc as far as i know tumblr is STILL hiding this in the search feature for reasons unknown to me lmao. again, please reblog instead of liking!

why wasn’t ‘hit’ included in the choices for favorite title track?

'hit’ was released after the survey ended.

how do i read the birth chart in the second panel?

you can look up tips on how to do so, but this might be helpful.

I AM NOT A PROFESSIONAL ASTROLOGER. i did this for fun and out of curiosity. i’ll now explain why i chose to examine questions with the celestial bodies that i did. all answers are opinionated, and if you disagree with why i did something, that’s ok. if you’d like to offer me constructive criticism regarding this, you can leave an ask in my inbox.

sun: bias

• your sun sign is your goals, aspirations, & personality. most people know their sun sign, which is commonly referred to as “star sign” or “zodiac sign”. this is what most people, astrologers and astrology students, would agree is the biggest influencer on your identity. it’s the brain, essentially. • plan and simple, i believe a person’s bias is “the brain” of why they like a group. don’t get me wrong, it’s not the ONLY reason, but for a lot of people, (myself included) their bias is the magnetism of what pulls you into a group and convinces you to stay. moreover, the personality of a person--not looks or first impressions--is what pulls people in and convinces them to stay.

moon: fave album

• if the sun sign is the brain, the moon sign is the heart. your moon sign deals with your emotions & how you go about expressing them.

•  a very biased explanation coming up, but i related my own experiences to how going seventeen is my favorite album, not necessarily because it has my favorite seventeen songs on it, but because i have a lot of nostalgic feelings tied to this era + this album. ‘teen, age’ would technically be my favorite album, but because i was unable to separate preference from emotion, that’s why i chose to utilize moon signs while looking at the answers for favorite album.

mercury: fave title track + b-side

• mercury signs represent how we communicate

• even if you don’t know korean or know the lyrics/translations of a song, there is a message that is being conveyed through the production, choreography, and vocals in addition to the words. so naturally, this seemed like an obvious choice as to why i should look at favorite title tracks & b-sides through mercury signs.

venus: favorite thing/trait/quality/etc about seventeen

• the venus sign rules love, how we express it, and sex

• your venus sign is the voice that says “i love when you (...blank...)”. if your favorite thing about seventeen is their performances, your venus sign was the driving force behind choosing that answer.

mars: bias wrecker

• mars rules anger/conflict & sex

• truthfully, this is probably the most biased (no pun intended) explanation since it’s very influenced by my own experiences. so typically, the person that is my bias wrecker in a group is the one that makes me mad/frustrated because they’re s*xy. so it fit perfectly lol! your experiences might be the exact opposite--ex. your bias wrecker is your bias wrecker because they’re very cute, but i had to choose something to pair up w/bias wrecker, and making this personal connection really helped me do that. either way, the very nature of the term “bias wrecker” makes one ask “who is trying to come for ur bias’ spot,” thus....there we have our conflict

ascendant/rising: fave subunit

• i like to think of the ascendant as the second sun sign. your ascendant is what people see when they first meet you, it’s your mask in public.

• i could have easily paired up sun with this question, but again--i had to choose something to examine with this one. usually subunits are only together strictly as subunits on stage, so i thought of how you must have to put on a persona while performing, much like your ascendant “performs” when you’re out in public.

thanks for reading!

- deedee

#*tp #n17 #text heavy // #this is under a read more so if ur gonna leave me an angry msg #abt how i should have put it under a read more..ur prob just on mobile

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hi hello, its your carat anon once again :)

I listened to all your recs. I actually know about half of them already bcs I actually have my own (kpop) disco/retro playlist already hahaha... and including BIBI in the recs>>>>>. I love her music, i think shes currently my fav female soloist. but i also thought lazybaby was a very fun song and i didnt know it, also love me 4 me had a very nice vibe. actually all were very nice.

about traveling... i currently dont travel at all. i think the last time i traveled anyway was fall 2019. i mean there a lot of places i want to visit but most of them need rather much preperation or/and planing as well as enough money hahaha and i currently have neither. Do you travel a lot? What are the top destinations on your bucket list?

about my bias in ptg... hahaha good questions i think thats the group i struggle with the most. i have a hard time with almost any group i stan but i cant even decide on sth like a bias line bcs i feel i love of them almost equally. i think there never was a group where i cared less about which pcs i got for my albums hahaha, i am happy about each member. maybe you can tell which ptg member vibes i give off and i will just stay with whoever as my official bias from then on (jk)(maybe not kidding)

my three fav things of my bias... well they probably will give it away but thats fine, it was nice keeping you guessing until now. first thing i really like about him is the passion and energy he puts into every performance of theirs, not only dancingwise but also vocalwise and everything (his dancing is everything tho). and the second thing i really like about him is that even tho it feel like hes one of the most ambitious members he does not take himself too seriously when needed in the given situation and can laugh about himself. and the third would have to be his incredibly positive mindset. he seems to always find reasons to motivate himself and the group even if everything seems to be going wrong.

what are the things you like most about seokmin?

also i noticed the next mission started already? the theme is gaming kind of. besides dont lie, what do you think are the best "game" episodes of gose? maybe your top 5 or sth? i think no matter what they play they always are hilarious.

as always i hope you are well <3 ok bye

hai ! <33 omg i would love to hear your retro playlist if you wanna share it !

oh yea im in the same boat ; really dont travel that much ! usually i go visit family abroad once a year; in norway, russia, the caucasus,.. but other than that i didn't get to explore much yet :-( like u said travelling is expensive, and the pandemic has made it sososo much more complicated. this trip was actually my first since the pandemic started oof ;; once this thing blows over and i have some money to spare i hope to visit south africa or new zealand once ! and explore europe more !! cause travelling here is so easy and convenient, i feel like im not taking advantage of that enough,,, i think it'd be fun to do a roadtrip around europe someday ^^ what about you?

aww yea the ptg boys are all super loveable and talented in their own ways,, i was swerving lanes all the time when i first got into them myself (until kino stole my heart in shine era <333) so im not faulting you 😌😌 then, do you maybe have a favorite pair dynamic?~ i adored maknae line’s interactions <33 and do you maybe have a favorite friendship in svt too?

HM OKAY SO !! hoshi was actually my second guess, after minghao, but im reading your description and it could be either hoshi or dino ? or maybe i completely missed the mark and its someone else, but judging from your emphasis on dance im 75% sure its a performance unit member (tho it is svt after all, they’re all great dancers) 🤔 from our interactions u definitely give me more horangdan vibe tho ! <3

what i like most about dokyeom,,, um we could be here all day 😳😳 but i would say, my absolute favorite thing about him is how sincere he is <3 i don’t know him personally so i obviously wont claim hes a pure angel who does no wrong ever, hes admitted it himself too, but i think it speaks to his charm when all his co-stars and colleagues go on and on about how hard working and lovely he is ! i get the impression that he genuinely wants to be kind and do good, and hes shown time and time again that he constantly strives to learn, grow and improve in his professional career and as an person too,,

i remember watching 17project when i first got into svt and i didn’t really have a bias at the time, but when dokyeom said that he “wants to sing until he loses his voice” i instantly knew he was the one. not cause i felt bad for him or pitied him, but i thought.. wow this kid's so young and despite all the setbacks hes still so determined and passionate, hes so cool :-( and um,,, sorry i just went on and on lmao but TL;DR yea idk i just think hes very neat <3

omg okay so it’s always a blast when they play mafia, obviously ! it’s one of my favorite games too; we play it w family all the time and i was a very dedicated town of salem player once upon a time lol i really loved bad clue too, basically any games where they have to solve something and/or put their thinking hats on, those are my favorites ! OH and insomnia,,, and the tag!! where they had to escape the murderer’s lair or something ! speaking of games, would you consider yourself a gamer?~

hope you’re well too, thank u <33

#ask #carat anon ♡

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lee daehwi first meeting! AU

summary: in which you are somi’s best friend and you find out that she has a hidden twin brother who you are a fan of 

length: 1.3k

a/n: HIHI so i decided to start a new series which is gonna be a sweet and short one called first meeting! AU with the wanna one members. since it’s really only going to cover your first meeting with the particular member, it’s up to you whether you want to interpret it as romantically or platonic friendship, maybe if the context suits and i get enough requests i could do a part 2 for some in the future? we’ll see but i will be prioritising getting each member done first. but anyways i hope you guys enjoy this first one of my precious baby lee daehwi and look forward to the rest of the members :) 

so you’re in high school 

and ever since high school started you became best friends with a girl called somi 

you guys had different personalities, you were more on the shy side and she was more outgoing 

but somehow you guys clicked and found that you guys had a lot of things to talk about and common interests 

also during this time produce 101 is airing and you’re absolutely addicted to the show 

and lee daehwi, the first centre literally swooped you off your feet 

he was no doubt your bias and you’d been voting for him like crazy everyday 

and ofc since somi was your best friend you’d always rant about how cute and talented lee daehwi was and somi would just sigh and roll her eyes sometimes 

well one day at school your class is given a project to be completed in pairs and obviously you and somi are a pair 

usually you two would complete your work at the library but since the weather was really horrible 

you guys decided to head to your place over the weekend 

and you guys do that except you dont get the work done 

so you guys decide to go to somi’s place sometime after school next week to finish it 

and tbh you’ve been very curious about where somi lives

even though you guys are best friends you guys always met either in public or at your place

you were just super curious as to what her house was like and why she was lowkey secretive about where she lived

hMMMMMM

so the day before going to somi’s place

you guys are having lunch at school and somi is suddenly like: “oh y/n when you come tomorrow, my twin brother will most likely be home visiting” 

and u r like

“WAIT HANG ON A SECNOD U HAVE A TWIN BROTHER?? SINCE WHEN???” you semi yell when you stand up from your seat 

you are surprised and shocked bc ur friend has a twin brother and she never told you 

“ssHHHHH be quiet” says somi gesturing you to sit back down 

and so you do and say

“how come you didnt tell me somi?” while pouting 

“well…i guess you never asked whether i had siblings or not” replies somi nervously 

“hmm yeah fair enough, well what its like having a twin brother? what’s he like” you ask excitedly

you’d  never met anyone that had a twin before and u suddenly find out that your best friend in fact has a twin brother which makes you feel kinda weird and excited 

“it’s alright, we’re just like any other sibling pair, he can be slightly annoying sometimes but he’s a good brother overall. i miss him” replies somi looking down 

“ohhhhh where is he? does he go to high school here?” you asked wondering if somi’s twin was actually at your school and completely hidden from u 

“no he doesn’t”

“where does he go then? and what’s his name? what does he look like?” you asked bombarding somi with questions as you were super curious now

since somi was one of the prettiest girls in the school you were lowkey thinking maybe somi’s twin is really hot HAHA

“i actually can’t say his name but he’s really ugly” says somi laughing

“why not????” you ask somi, “is he a spy or something?? with a hidden identity???” 

somi shook her head laughing at you as you continued to pester her about her twin 

“you’ll see tomorrow when you come over” says somi “i think things might change when you see who it is” as she sighs

now you were C U R I O U S as to why somi kept it so secret 

and for some odd reason, who somi’s twin brother was was all you thought about for the rest of the day 

your thoughts went wild as you thought, what if he’s actually a spy? or illegal? a criminal? someone dangerous? what if he’s the youngest ceo in our country?

and for some seriously odd reason you were excited to meet somi’s twin brother 

the next day you head to somi’s house with the address typed in google maps 

you rang the doorbell and somi opened the door

as you stepped in you saw how the house wasn’t too big nor was it too small it was quite spacious and clean and very cozy 

you saw some baby pictures placed up on a shelf of somi and her twin; you recognised somi easily and the twin brother was really cute too 

you guys take a seat on the big couch and start working on the project when suddenly you hear footsteps come down the stairs 

you were super focused on your work tbh so you didn’t look up 

until a voice says 

“hey sis is this your friend that always talks about me?” 

and the voice is SO FAMILIAR 

and you’re suddenly afraid to look up 

you do recognise that voice but no way it just couldn’t be 

silence 

“yep it is” says somi, “look at the state she is in now” 

your entire body was frozen and wouldn’t react and you were looking at the ground

“she’s so cute like that” says the voice

you feel your cheeks go bright red and your heart suddenly beating extraordinarily fast 

you close your eyes and tell yourself you are dreaming 

you take a deep breath and look up 

and you are met with a pair of the most gorgeous eyes you have ever seen; one eye was monolid and the other was double lidded but honestly that was what was attractive about him 

it was truly lee daehwi lmao sorry i made it so so dramatic haha

he was smiling down at your with the sweetest and cutest smile 

“hello y/n! it’s nice to finally meet you!” says daehwi cheerfully 

“u-h-h hello– daehwi-ssi” you stutter nervously as you die internally 

daehwi laughed and his laughter was like a beautiful melody

“no need to be formal y/n, we’re the same age! you don’t look great right now, i’ll grab a glass of water for you” says daehwi as he heads to the kitchen 

when he’s gone you turn to somi straight away 

“DUDE WHY DIDNT U TELL ME DAEHWI WAS UR BROTHER?? i wouldn’t have fangirled over him to you and its sooooo embarrassing” 

“chill y/n it was actually pretty funny, you totally have a crush on my twin, look at ur face” says somi laughing 

“sTOP omg this is all ur fault im so embarrassed, i embarrassed myself in front of my bias” you say as your bury your face in your hands

“seriously y/n this is your chance to talk to him and i don’t usually say this about that idiot but he’s actually a very nice guy, so don’t be nervous anymore” 

you take deep breaths and try to collect yourself before daehwi comes back 

when he does you’re much calmer even though you still feel like you are living in a dream 

“here’s your water” says daehwi as he hands over the glass of water

both your finger trips lightly made contact and you felt your heart racing again 

“thanks daehwi” you say giving him a shy smile 

he asks what the project is about and starts helping you guys and in no time you guys are done 

and daehwi is super friendly and outgoing so in no time you get really comfortable around him

and realise that HES JUST A REALLY NICE AND KIND HUMAN like any human and not some “far unreachable star that’s like a god” 

you find out he has cute habits and loves cleaning and fashion and wants to make people happier through his music

you guys talk for the next two hours getting to know each other and you tell him that you’ll continue to support him on produce 101 and he’s super thankful 

at this rate somi had literally fallen asleep and is taking a nap on the sofa 

he opens up about how it’s hard to meet people’s expectations and that he doesn’t want to disappoint others and you guys have really deep conversations 

and in no time it’s already dark outside 

and daehwi even offers to walk you to the bus stop 

and he puts on a black hoodie with the hood up just in case ppl recognise him anyone watching school 2017 bc i love x’s outfit hehe

you guys reach the bus stop

“y/n it was nice meeting you and i was able to get my mind off things thanks to you” 

“no worries daehwi, i’m so glad to have met you and you’re just as wonderful and kind as i’d imagined you to be” you reply cringing at your own cheesiness

daehwi laughs again as he ruffles your hair “you’re so kind too” 

“anyways y/n will you do me a favour and not tell anyone that i am somi’s twin? i dont want things to get hard for her if people know about our sibling relationship” 

you swoon, he was even so nice to his sister 

you nod “of course”

the bus comes and you guys wave goodbye 

you couldn’t believe that you met daehwi and got so close to him 

he was so nice and down to earth 

you lowkey wondered if you’d ever be able to see him again since he was already famous and busy with filming 

you convinced yourself that he was probably this nice to everyone and you were really lucky because you were his sister’s best friend 

suddenly your phone buzzed and you received a message from an unknown number 

“hello y/n, it’s daehwi - i got your number from somi. that’s okay right? next week i’ll be back in town again, so do you wanna hang out? just the two of us this time ;)”

efgqkejfhfjhjf i hope you guys liked this?? i have no idea what the response is gonna be like and lmao i made somi and daehwi twins bc they could totally be siblings :) i realised i probably rant too much lmaooo so let me know what you guys think as i’m always open to feedback and thoughts about my work :) please also look forward to my next one in this series! 

#lee daehwi #wanna one #lee daehwi scenarios #wanna one scenarios #wanna one imagines #lee daehwi imagines #produce 101 imagines #produce 101 scenarios #wanna one imagine #lee daehwi imagine #produce 101 #produce 101 s2 #daehwi

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Beach Reach 2017 #2

There was not much free time during Beach Reach to keep up with a journal the way I intended. Since it’s still fresh in my mind two days after it was over, and because I don’t want to peer over the details that might seem insignificant in future’s retrospect, I will continue posting memories of events that occurred that I consider significant to me and whatever i feel. Over the week, one of the most significant things to me was my developing relationship with Adeline Capps who is a college sophomore BSM regular. I noticed a lot of my conscious time was spent next to and with her more than any other Beach Reacher comparable only to my time with Micah and Gabriel. I intentionally spent time around her and it seemed that she intentionally spent time around me. The thought of the latter makes our time together feel more special especially since she had established friends among the BSMers present, and there were, to my knowledge, other “strangers” and Reachers she could’ve gotten to know better but seemed to want/rather spend time with me. She never showed a single shred of disrespect and was always encouraging, excited and exciting even when tired, willing to engage in conversation when exhausted, happy, joyful, and mostly so in love with God. We sat next to or near each other in a few of our van rides, sermon-worships at the large Convention center and when eating at there as well, the ride over to South Padre and the ride back from South Padre, the beach cleanup where we shared the same trash bag- and the only other pair I saw sharing a bag being the couple Kevin and Annika (Kevannika or Annikevin lol), and also when we were handing out cards to Spring Breakers on the beach shore. In fact, when we came across one subparty a guy offered me a beer which I accepted since my take on it is that I think it to be better to take the alcohol and dispose of it later so someone else won’t have it. The guy pressed me to at least toast with him after I said I’ll drink it later, and so I did and I believe he continued to press it on me to drink it in which I responded with cracking it open and taking a sip that felt to be about around half of foam. My group being me and Adeline separate from them and I wanted to take more sips from the can as I walked to the trashcan, which I believe her to immediately propose after we walked away from them. I think there was a slight back and forth between her telling me or suggesting I throw it away and me wanting to drink it, and she kept an eye on me to make sure I threw it away in the trashcan.

I am glad I approached things platonically and convinced myself that I was still in the stage of not looking for a romantic relationship. This made it easier to approach her especially since I had started to get insecurities of my image. I intentionally looked away whenever she bent over, rear in my direction and am proud of this. There few moments when I imagined having sex with her, but distracted myself with something else because I knew it was bad and because I didn’t want those bad thoughts about her, thinking it would taint my perception of her.

There were moments of worship where I turned toward her and noticed every time her hands open and facing up and with closed eyes. She had memorized the lyrics, and/or perhaps so in tuned with God that the Holy Spirit was guiding/singing through her. I appreciated her so much it makes me happy thinking about how she affected me. After my long talk with friendly/open atheist John Gilbert featuring Micah (real name Tristan Villarreal), I was asked in the van how my conversation with him went, and an interruption or two, necessary or not, she asked me to continue. After our convention center worships/eating (or maybe that was the day where we only ate) my group of over 20 Corpus Christian Reachers was told to go to a corner and share some things. In retrospect I think were to told to share things we think we could improve on since I recall Ethan, Micah, and Gabe sharing personal things. In the moment I revealed I was struggling with spirituality and connection with God and that I was finding short snippets of connection and fulfillment in prayer and worship but very temporary. It was something I was chasing since I believed I was able to stop sinning and fend off temptation on my own strength and discipline but still felt emptyish and distant from God and asked for supportive prayers. I scanned my eyes over the crowd as I was revealing something I didn’t want to keep to myself any longer and there, in complete stillness, her face deadlocked on me with unmoving eyes, it looked like she wanted to hear what I had to say. I assume others were doing so, but she was obvious in being attentive on me and what I had to say in both situations (the van ride after the John Gilbert 2.5 hr convo at the Claytons ground work and during the personal convention circle). I also remember she was excited to hear how the interaction went with the first person to get a ride from one of our vans, a guy named Javi who sat next to me in which I took charge of talking to after not wanting to and rather would’ve heard a vet do so, but the realized I had probably the most Engage Training experience that I was most suitable for the moment. We had an interesting conversation. I used Koukl’s Columbo Tactics and an article’s tactics when he said the bible is unreliable (Re: What do you mean by that?) bc of it being translated and passed down (Re: how did you come to that conclusion?), huh.. idk, human nature (Re: derivative of question 3 by directly bringing in historical record and evidence that the scripture we have now is 99percent reliable bc of original copies) I still don’t believe jesus (Re: what would it take?) he has to talk to me in my head (Re: why would it take that?) for Him to talk to me in my head (Re: why would it take that?) it just would. He was obviously stubborn, and was told by Micah that he’ll use “How did you come to that conclusion?” in the future, which he used during our convo with John Gilbert. Micah and Abbey both said that hearing me and Javi talk helped Micah and the group, repsectively, which was encouraging. Javi was drunk, walking to Dallas bc his friends were being mean and rude for reasons and ways he was not disclosing, and not picking up his phone for said/unsaid reasons. He was being stubborn, we didn’t know where to drop him off, he said if we dropped him off anywhere he would just continue walking to Dallas, didn’t want to be dropped off to his freinds, and made the drive more difficult, but it did buy me time to show the others how to handle a convo with a skeptic. But it exposed me even more to people aware of their personal (unintellectual) bias against Christianity, the priors being Keith Parsons, Kat of the Atheist IF club (moral superiority), John Gilbert (for rules he didnt want to follow bc he wanted to follow his own rules), Ian Youngworth (programmed to).

We played games together at the convention center like cards and Kevin’s category forehead phone game. She also didnt seem too fond of humor that were unchristianlike which is revealed her Christianlike nature. She was an example of what I should strive for, being so happy when also when she said on a walk back to the Schlitterbahn hotel “Isn’t it cool/great how God works (”sometimes”?)”? I liked the moments as was sitting next to me, something I interpreted as a signal, a signal that I liked. I also recall the moment Joe Osteen during Convention center sermon told his romance story about his current wife and mother to his at least 3 children started off as a friendship in his BSM, I immediately thought of Adeline for a split second as she was sitting right of me, then Gabriel NoLies Garcia who was sitting to the left of me looked at me, laughed a little, and hinted at me about Adeline which I responded with a “smfmfsf” and smirk as if the idea was childish and immature. Beginning/during a convention center sermon she said she was cold, and after seeing encouragement from Kevin Raglin (black Kev) sitting on the opposite side of her, I gave her my Beach Reach hoodie then smirked at him as well pretending to not-wanting/wanting-not to do so. I reminded him about it when I said something along the lines of “why did you tell me to give it to her?”, but I forgot his response. On the way back to Corpus I mentioned I was cold, and though I’m not sure if she asked if I wanted a jacket, she willfully gave me her jacket. Though I believe it to be possible then and now, I preferred not to be bothered and burdened about romance like I used to in my past. We also had an enjoyable time where her and Devin laughed nonstop when me and Josh were doing a back and forth between all of us, and once again, she was sitting next to me. Josh occasionally mentioned eating cute animals, I recall only bunnies, and knowing that it pushed her button I discouraged it. One of the last signals I remember was when we were leaving Schlitterbahn and I didn’t want to be in a particular van, so I checked another van and it turned out to have Adeline in it, and she asked if I was going to be in that van. I knew I wanted to, but I wanted to keep myself from looking obvious about wanting to be with her and came up with something to say, but I ended up sitting next to her anyway. I also was able to engage in theological discussion with her related to topics I was struggling with a few topics that got brought up through my conversation with Valley native John Gilbert, in the van and in Chick-fil-A which through the help of Chick-fil-A present Zach (one of her better friends) and got me to learn he is more knowledgeable than I thought. We also talked about Catholicism before a sermon in our sermon seats, which can be categorized as a theologicial discussion, and she said her grandma was Catholic. Me, Sam, and Adeline also talked about Joel Osteen when Gabe asked about him. Talking about the Prosperity Gospel, it made me realize she knew what she was talking about when it came to Joel Osteen (megachurch, city, and name on wall included) and the Prosperity Gospel heresy. So that can also be classified under theological discussion. There was also the time where she searched for Giovanni Lopez on instagram when she asked if a certain account was him, her and Micah being the only people interested enough to help me on outreach with people, Micah offering advice but her actually putting effort in searching for him. He was the first guy I knowingly led to Christ on the spot. I explained/summarized my intellectual/research testimony to him after he said he looked into other religions and found buddhism satisfactory. I explained the circumstances he overcame for the resurrection, and the fulfiment of prophecies against all odds, and my realization being that the only way those things could happen is if Jesus is God. (I don’t want you to waste time like I did, I want to be your shortcut-Erik to Giodude snapchat).

We shared mutual pleasure for animals and mutual struggle in our speech, something I noticed and made known, the former through expression of emotion and the latter verbally. We also shared a connection with San Saba. She said her grandpa was from there and that some of her family was from there, and at that point which was during the way back to Corpus, I felt comfortable enough to say “my ex-girlfriend is from San Saba”. She explained that she probably saw Payton [Johnson] growing up but didnt know who he was, and after Ethan’s personal and emotional testimony heavily involving the help of Payton relieving him of Ethan’s life-consuming anxiety, it started me get me to think that Payton broke up with Andrea bc she wasn’t a good Christian influence. The more time spent with BSM the more Christian he seems to be. Andrea also told me that there was a girl who convinced Payton to break up with her, and it might’ve been Adeline, and when I realized that possibility, it gave me more closure about Andrea breaking up with me and made me appreciate Payton and Adeline more, especially bc Andrea said Payton’s reaosn was because he wanted to focus more on God and that perhaps Adeline wanted to be a good Christian influence, and also because the both of them are Engage Training leaders! The conclusion relating to Andrea is still mostly conjecture at this point however.

Our rooms were right next to each other so we walked toward our rooms together a couple of times, and one time I expressed interest in seeing her and her roommates’ room under the guise of being curious of how my room would looked inverted. I already knew how my room looked inverted bc of the times I visited Memethan (Ethan Leos), Josh’s, Zach Rios, and Micah’s room, but I wanted to be and spend more time with her without realizing that her roommates were probably in there. I spotted someone in their restroom with my peripheral and used that as an excuse to leave (girl in the bathroom are icky) once I realized that most of the other girls saw I was coming in and that I wouldnt get one-on-one time with her.

I repeatedly displayed respectful actions toward her like holding doors open for her I think, moving a seatbelt that might’ve been in her way, and she did similar actions as well. We were both children of military parents, her dad being active during her life making her a military brat, and my dad being ex-special forces by the time I was born. She liked Chacos sandals and I country music, and I elaborated on my experience with country music. I also mentioned my increased appreciation of music after observing patterns and structure in music, leading me to music theory, and country music remaining uninteresting to me, became the only genre (besides perhaps classical) that isn’t distracting. I also mentioned my appreciation for profootball increased when the Cowboys did well and got me to look more into the the football sphere, as I educated myself more on it. Maybe these things got her to realize I’m intellectually inclined, though that wasn’t the purpose, I kinda wanted her to know my thoughts on these two things whenever sports and music got brought up. One thing relevant to sports- my talk with MSU Middle Linebacker Mr. Overall (humble Christian who tackled Ezekiel Elliot in middle school and a lifter/wrestler with big traps) got me talking more about sports along with other people I talked to about sports while she was in the same van, also got me to let her know that knowing sports was helpful. Maybe not super significant but at this point I’d like to know more moments I had with Adeline.

When we were sharing a trashbag during the beach clean up, I felt a little fickle about sharing with her about how I felt about her. Pretty much all I said was that I appreciated getting to know her more/better during the trip, literally, and it was the only explicit verbal communcation pertaining to my appreciation of our developed relationship and interactions. I mentioned a couple of sentences ago that I was fickle about telling her that, but realized it was probably the best time to do so since it was toward the end (actually the second to last day of beach reach), and we were alone with a simple task, and I took advantage of it. I remember taking pictures of the beautiful beach with my phone and later purposefully took pictures of the beach/water/sunrise-ish horizon with her in it while she wasn’t looking, making sure to get a good shot of both in one.

There was also something related to her that troubled me. Annika had posted a candid picture of her in Group Me that looked like she was sad, scared, worried, a mix of bad emotions. It struck me giving me the same emotions and I didn’t want her to feel that automatically wanting her to not feel that. At that moment I knew I consciously cared about her which was probably the first time I was honest about her to myself.

We sat near each other in Wing stop where I got the table to start saying ‘moist’ every sentence: her pet peeve. It was pretty funny at first, saying things like, these wings are moist, and banana bread is particularly moist, and water is pretty... moist. Micah said to respect/honor our neighbors and I stopped after that and tried encouraging the others to stop. I promoted “dry” humor, referencing food items like crackers, and posted a desert meme in Group Meme (she found funny) which she openly expressed gratitude when I mentioned dry humor. The others at the table continued anyway, and she said it was okay and laughed with her usual upbeat smile.

When we ate at the playground/park underneath/by the blue watertowrad across the church we sat at the same tables where I recall intentionally sitting next to her because I could and because I wanted to. I think she also sat next to, if for the same reasons then it makes it even more special. Toward the end of the trip, after my emotional baptism, we hugged. One time while we were sitting next to each other in a van I wanted to lean my head on her, or was it Kevin? On the way back to Corpus for a moment I wanted to sit close to her bc I was tired and it felt more comfortable, and I also wanted to lay my head down on her lap so I could sleep comfortably. There were also a few times on the way back when I said something to her while she was in a drowsy/falling state and she immediately became attentive, smiling of course. There was also a time or two where I almost stopped myself from starting a sentence bc I didn’t want to wake her from her sleepyness. One thing we never did was pray together, but if anything, I think it would’ve made the prayers stronger. I recall she considers animals not deserving of suffering or something along the lines of that, like when it came to deer being spray-painted (freelunch), or our short talk about naturally aggressive dogs being raised in a loving home (pitbulls, walking back to shlitterbahn hotel).

There were details in here that I wanted to know for future reference. I realize toward the end of the typing all of this and going back to type more that I wanted to remember these details about her, knowing I wouldn’t mind forgetting certain memories with other people. My bias is obvious now. I will continue to pursue a developing relationship with her whether it ends platonically and she ends up being a sister, or something else, either way is satisfactory. In fact, if the latter does happen I believe it will be stronger than what was between me and Andrea, or at least more than what I had for Andrea. I say this because I asked Kevin about his and Annika’s relationship’s success, which he attributed to their initial agreement on keeping God first, something that me and Andrea didn’t do, which I attribute as a contributing factor to our break up along with her med road and desire to not experience guilt as a neglectful gf. The better experiences were toward the end more pleasant and closer than what I felt like we were in the beginning of the week.

In the end, I believed she helped shape me into being a better Christian closer toward her level which I love her for and lover her bc. This done so by me adjusting my behavior like my humor, looking away when she bentover, keeping it platonic in action and mind, her openness and silliness helping me open up and being more silly and fun and helping me have more fun, and perhaps her prayers after I revealed my personal struggle, the nature of opening up and getting closer friends from it and receiving prayers bc of it, all helped me get closer to God. This one young lady strong in her convictions and trust in God has gotten me to a level that made me cry the most times of happiness out of God’s love for me and my love for God, and making my eyes water as I type this, is what I’m most appreciative of. I’m so glad my experiences with her helped get me closer to God leading up to my emotional baptism, and me hugging my relatives, loving and feeling the Holy Trinity in my presence, something I don’t want to be distant from ever again.