#but I do adore me my girls

[troutfur]

I promise I haven’t forgotten about the ficlets, I’ve just been really busy and saving them for a day when I was running low on motivation to write. I’ll get around to them today and then later tonight I think I’ll get back on the Po3 reread. I appreciate that all of them involved female characters because tbh? I do think it’s kind of embarrassing how little I write female characters. I really should get around to rectifying that.

#most of my blorbos are male #but I do adore me my girls #leafpool and hollyleaf and bluestar and yellowfang and cinderpelt and mothwing... #and who can forget the girlies #they're hard to find an angle for but I do adore them quite a bit #(for the uninitiated every time mallowstep or I say 'the girlies' we mean dovewing and ivypool)

[flufflecat]

this is the most beautiful creature on earth and I will kill someone if it asks me to

#horseshoe crabs #I had a fun day at the beach #60% of my time was spent looking for horseshoe crabs #sadly I didn't find any tagged ones so no horseshoe crab pin for me 😔 #God I love these creatures though #shoutout to the girl and her boyfriend who were very interested in hearing my Horseshoe Crab Facts spiel #especially bc the girl let me teach her how to hold the crab so she could take a pic with it #I respect you random beach girl #and your lack of fear when faced with a creature that looks like a facehugger #I'm obsessed with how utterly chill and harmless horseshoe crabs are #they just scoot along like little roombas #and look so creepy but have no ability to hurt anyone #(I don't think they're creepy though. I think they're adorable perfect little angels) #and the way they move is perfect. it looks fake #I wish I could spend the next 7 hours at the beach staring at horseshoe crabs #why oh why must I be here with my family. these losers want to do things like 'go back to the hotel because it's getting dark' #booooo cowards #join me in some nighttime horseshoe crab excursions #cute animals #crabs #(not actually a crab)

[llamahearted]

Miss Milly Thompson I love you. I love your big heart, your big body, and your big smile. I also love your big non-lethal stungun.

#I just love and adore this quirked up earnest farm girl #I was doing a re-watch and something in me snapped when I saw her drink straight from the faucet in e2. I felt ineffable lesbian feelings #original six foot tall moe girl AND she's a highly perceptive business professional? wife forever #trigun #trigun 1998 #milly thompson #kuroneko-sama #shout out to norage and lots-o-doodles for playing crit room with me on that second one ilu #y'all I did it I drew a gun in my trigun fanart I gotta take my header down now--

[finntheehumaneater]

thinking about Eddie, who because of the upsidedown was in a coma for effectively the rest of '86. When he woke up he had to re-learn a lot of shit, since even after he could open his eyes and sit up, moving was still hard.

Steve and Robin go with him to all of his PT appointments as he works on moving and standing up, but not walking yet. The therapist overhears him complaining to Steve about how he misses writing, since his hands are too shaky for the words to be legible.

She tells him that if he wants to write better he should practice more, and maybe pick something else up that requires small, repetitive movements, like sewing or crocheting.

Eddie is about to open his mouth to say that sewing might be a good idea, because he can work on putting his old patches onto the new vest that the kids bought him as a "we're glad you're not dead present", when Robin comes back from the bathroom and pipes up that she has some crocheting stuff from when she and Steve tried to learn together a few years back, and that's the end of that conversation.

crocheting is his least favorite part of the night, even if Robin and Steve are patient and let him pick the movie in the background and don't get frustrated when he drops the hook between the couch cushions for the thirtieth time in an hour.

Eventually he gets the hang of it, but--out of spite--refuses to make anything other than a very long line with his yarn, telling Steve and Robin he's going to strangle them with it when he's done, because crocheting "is literally the least metal thing in the world."

He stops threatening to strangle Robin after she makes him a little bat.

#i saw a girl at my PT appointment who got recommended this and she looked mortified #but her bf got so excited and went “fuck yeah babe i'm gonna make you SO MUCH STUFF!” #it was adorable #Steddie #Steve Harrington #Eddie Munson #Robin Buckley #Stobin #i just think that robin and eddie would be best friends #i'm crocheting myself a blanket it's taking forever and i hate it but i do it when i watch movies because i don't have to worry about #what to do with my hands #Steddie drabbles #might write this one day #or someone else could take inspo and save me the trouble i dunno how tf i would describe how you crochet #my post #stranger things #steve x eddie #finn writes

[satans-knitwear]

Perfect outfit to play sum viddy games in. (u kno im actually wearin my fluffy baby yoda hoodie over this. Be real.)

Treat me ~ Tip me

#In absolute agony rn. Feels like i swallowed a shit ton of broken glass and sandpaper. 😭😭😭 #Have a rather unfortunate feeling that its actually my mental illness acting up tho. Bc nothing is making it feel better and im not good??? #Throw back to a few years ago tbh. I used to have this almost 24/7 bc mental health apparently #Ergh. At least i look absolutely adoreable and kinda killer in all these straps #Satans knitwear #Dont mind me moaning in the tags. Its what i do best ✨ #Alt pinup #Pinup girl #Tease #bi girl #uk girl #cheeky #Pretty lingerie #Strappy lace lingerie set #girls with piercings #wlw #girls with tattoos

[stuckinapril]

my gma told me that my mom used to wake up, eat breakfast, then study for 12 hours straight. every fuckin day. and my gpa would bring her food and tell her to take breaks bc of how immersed she was. she’s literally my role model forever

#I want to be on that level of sheer focus/passion w everything I do #this is what I remind myself of whenever I’m lazy or I don’t feel like putting in the hours. like my mon did THAT every day #I rly am intrinsically motivated bc of her and she also showed me that you truly can love science even in a broken education system #ofc being raised in her image did predispose me to science but I’m also so grateful it’s an organic love #and that I’m not doing it for something as dumb as prestige or money. like I genuinely adore it #and I was never raised in a gIrL MaTh household like my mom made it clear math was very fun to me since I was like 2 #and I think that influenced my confidence in pursuing stem/medicine bc I grew up watching my mom solve differential equations for fun #I also love how suffused she was in her studies. that must’ve felt so rewarding. I strive to be that way too #she also taught me it’s possible to be smart AND pretty and that has been the motto my whole life #I luv my mom post no. 8272662 I just had to say it #p

[josie-marks]

Ayo Edebiri as Josie Marks on the set of Bottoms (2023)

#bottoms movie #bottoms 2023 #films #ayo edebiri #josie bottoms #josie marks bottoms ok that's her full name #anyways i really do love josie so freaking much #she's a character i'll hold close to my heart #she's a bit like me #and she's a loser but sometimes she looks cool #she has amazing hair #and pretty eyes #she's an oddball #she's cute #she's adorable #she's pretty #she's handsome #she's funny #she gets the girl #she's crazy about one (1) girl #i love her so much guys as you can see #josieeeeeeeeeee

[prommytheus]

1, 2, 3, 4, you’re the one that i adore!

5, 6, 7, 8, it’s you i appreciate!

#verocky #vera x wocky #vera misham #wocky kitaki #my art #vera misham x wocky kitaki #lyrics from summer girl by wrong worshippers #happy very very very late valentines day lol #nobody procrastinates like me #aa4 #ajaa #sorry theyre just adorable and lovely #i did not draw the design on wockys shirt both bc its hella ugly and bc i do NOT have time for that l #wockera

[dailykugisaki]

Day 128 | id in alt

Small doodle.

#dailykugisaki #jjk #kugisaki nobara #zenin maki #Kugisaki is biased as hell. #i have insane amounts of ideas its just yhe fear of being unable to potray them correctly thats been gnawing at me #this shits for fun and i adore Kugisaki what the hell am I doin #KUGISAKI FOR THE WIN KUGISAKI FOR THE WIN #I LOVE MY GIRL WITH THE FUCK ASS BOB I WILL DO ANYTHING FOR HER FR FR SHE DESERVES IT #im just tired of people being wack about her tbh its getting weird now

[moeblob]

I have fallen down the anime sports hole and landed on Eyeshield 21 and I'm so sorry I'm adopting all these kids.

(I was actually going to like. Hold off posting my silly sports anime doodles until after commissions but no I wanna share them now. It's hard out here being me who thrives off interactions and this show is like "hey what if we gave you lots of interactions and also a secret identity for MORE interactions".)

#eyeshield 21 #seijuro shin #sena kobayakawa #haruto sakuraba #ichiro takami #you might look at this and go Salmon please explain why you're drawing fanart for a football anime #and i cannot actually explain #not pictured is my undying love and adoration for the Ha-Ha brothers because they're great #im only on ep28 but please i care for them so much #me watching one say that a girl is his type: OH NICE I LOVE THIS I WILL SUPPORT YOU #me watching one suffer a fear of airplanes while on an airplane: SON YOU ARE DYING PLEASE NO KEEP LIVING #i have typed so many essays on discord to two people about the emotions this anime has given me #and its such a silly anime with funky moves with funny animations for the moves #but i actually really like it ??? like yes its about hs people playing football #but the fact the main character is an underdog #joining a team of two people thus making the entire team of now three an underdog #who then continue to grow with MORE underdogs being recruited #its actually very impressive to watch the characters grow alongside sena #like they do actively show the kids interacting in various ways and its a delight #the anime is just a bunch of good boys playing a game and having a good time bettering themselves #and i say this like im an expert when im still just ep28

[feroluce]

Thinking tonight about Caelus, and the nature of his loss and his grief after the Everything that went down in Penacony during 2.0.

Because Acheron, Black Swan, and Misha kind of knew of Firefly, they at least met her, but they didn't like really know her, and Caelus never even got the chance to introduce her to the rest of the Astral Express Crew. The only person who would have talked to her much was Sparkle, who is. Probably not really someone Caelus is interested in grieving with skznmsks

Anyway, all this to say, I like thinking about how alone poor Caelus is in his grief, because he was the only one who knew Firefly. He's the only one really mourning her. There's no one to talk about her with. There's no stories to trade or memories to reminisce with anyone over. It's not as though he knew her for long, but still. No one else knew her at all.

And I love the thought of all of this coming bubbling up, hot and acidic and bitter, during a conversation with Sampo, who Caelus just so happens to run into in the Golden Hour. Poor Sampo is kinda blindsided, he knew shit was going down in Penacony, but yeesh. And he just. Isn't quite sure what to say about it all, because he's never really encountered this before. His feelings about the Masked Fools are...a mixed bag, but he's been a part of them for a very long time, and when you're with a close organization like that, it's hard to feel alone, in grief or otherwise.

So Sampo sits there on their little bench that the two of them have occupied, and he thinks of his old friend April, how she'd died in his arms cackling and spitting her own blood after a heist gone wrong, and how after he'd dragged himself back to the World's End Tavern they'd all held a Fool's Funeral- which is basically just a big party where everyone gets really really drunk and reminisces and toasts the dead and celebrates their life.

He still thinks about her a lot, and he remembers how the time he'd most keenly felt her absence was on Jarilo-VI, the one place where he couldn't talk about her because he couldn't say anything to give himself away as an alien. The Fools still tell stories about her every time he goes back to the Tavern. His first toast of the night is always in her name. Even now, all these years after she'd died, Sampo is still learning new things about her. He's never had to grieve her alone.

Caelus doesn't have any of that.

He might never have that. As they speak, Caelus has no proof that Firefly was even her real name, or if she dreamt with her true appearance. He might not ever find out who she even was.

And just imagining that kind of loneliness hollows out a strange little pit, right behind his sternum, deep between his ribs.

So Sampo claps Caelus' shoulder and offers him a deal. Come find him outside of the dream. He knows a guy who can get them a lot of beer for really cheap-

("Is that guy you and your five finger discounts?" "Whatever do you mean, dear friend, I don't even know the meaning of the phrase, hehee.")

-and they can hole up in a bar or a hotel room or something, and get completely shitcanned. Tell him all about Firefly, tell him everything, and he'll tell Caelus about April and everyone else he's ever lost. Sampo will carry Caelus' memories of Firefly with him, and at least this way, Caelus will be a little less alone in remembering her. And the next time they cross paths, Sampo will be the one to bring her up, and to tell her stories, and Caelus can get to be the one listening. He won't have to be the only person to talk about her anymore.

Caelus rolls his eyes when Sampo avoids another remark about sticky fingers, but...ok, yeah. That sounds good. Nice, even. Thank you. Caelus bumps his shoulder against Sampo's. Sampo bumps back.

(They find each other again the next day, and true to their word, get themselves completely and utterly shitcanned. Caelus talks more than Sampo has ever heard him; every minute detail, every word choice, Firefly's every odd little mannerism and habit. Because Caelus wants to make sure this will outlive him, that even if the Stellaron dwelling within him finally burns him to a crisp and he really does up and kick the bucket, or even, godforbid, if he forgets, he wants to make sure someone remembers her. She deserved that.)

((And it takes quite a while, after that. Caelus doesn't see Sampo again until after everything has settled down. On his last day in Penacony, he finds the guy slinking out of a seedy back alley and all but runs right into him. Sampo happily leads him to some dive bar in an even seedier back alley that Caelus has never even heard of, and Sampo raises his glass. "To Firefly! Who sounds like she probably would have hated me at first, but I would have liked to have met her anyway."

And Caelus stares at him, almost looking startled, long enough that Sampo worries that he's read him wrong and brought this up too soon. He's halfway into planning how to talk himself out of this situation when Caelus finally throws back his head back and laughs, tells him that yeah, Firefly would have politely called him out on every lie he told, and all their conversations would take twice as long with the way Sampo is so full of shit.

And he can see it, the same way he watches and sees through everyone, that Caelus' eyes have a tightness to them, his knuckles are nearly white around the handle of his mug. But he smiles. He hits his glass against Sampo's far too hard and throws it back and gets foam everywhere like he does every time they drink because the guy's about as elegant as a raging bull, but those things don't lessen the genuineness of his smile.

The grief is there, but so is the elation, and those emotions aren't a sliding scale between one or the other. It is all of both and both at once, and that's what contents Sampo enough to throw his own mug back when Caelus makes a toast of his own, "to April!!".))

#caelus #sampo koski #hsr caelus #hsr sampo #sampo & caelus #sampril #honkai star rail #hsr #my fics #me a few days ago: my favorite silly little guys uwu #me today: ANGST #honestly I feel like this isn't even a super strong angst though #it's more just. bittersweet? melancholic? something. #I JUST. REALLY LOVE STORIES ABOUT THE NATURE OF GRIEF #and 2.0 laid the groundwork for that beautifully woohoo #I just remembered this probably isn't common knowledge oops but April is the cute red haired girl in Funny Bone #her name was revealed by the creators on twitter. she's named April like April Fools! #anyway I ship it hardcore now thanks bucket boi & studio #but anyway yes I love and adore the loneliness of the trailblazer's loss and grief after 2.0 #because we know from Sunday that Firefly is “spiritually dead” but the trailblazer wouldn't have that knowledge #and they wouldn't know her identity or about any of her connections to other people #and I love that juxtaposed against Sampo and the possible strange nature of his own grief- #-given how the Masked Fools operate and how they see Elation in everything and everywhere #Sampo is no saint- like at all lol- but I do like him and Caelus getting along and being bros #and I don't think it would be terribly ooc for him to care about someone he sees as a genuine friend #he maybe rarely considers someone a genuine friend. but still dmxjjdjdk #listening to Sam's boss theme as I tag this... have been listening to it a lot ever since I finished 2.0 tbh #it's probably what inspired a lot of this haha #because it does sound strong and intimidating and imposing #but you can hear it

[soypeachypt2]

Yes I still wear bows at 26 mind ya business

#me #my face #selfie #girls #girls with tattoos #girls with piercings #it me #soypeachypt2 #soypeachycutie #don’t lie #I know you think my bow is adorable #even though you can barely see it #girls who wear glasses #girls who are kinda blind #do y’all even read these?

[novelconcepts]

Since I hadn’t seen this anywhere yet—a glorious acceptance speech for an insanely deserving win.

#yellowjackets #glaad awards #liv hewson #jasmin savoy brown #me just watching the two queer actors displaying pure fucking euphoria for a job they are KILLING #this show wouldn’t be half of what it is to me without both of them #the casting choices are perfect. the performances are exemplary. #‘maybe even ship them’ GIRL YOU KNOW YOU DID THAT RIGHT #have you SEEN my blog for the last 7 months (please say no I live in terror at all times) #anyway. this warms my heart #ps who do I have to cajole to get gifsets of all the adorable shit happening behind Ashley in this video #cuz. I wish to see it

[satans-knitwear]

I have such great taste 😭😍

Treat me ~ Tip me

#The birthday looks were truly on point 👌😍😎 #This outfit was so much fun!!! I want to do more looks like this. All of my wigs would look adorable with this. #And the petticoat corset and stockings look is a vibe. Thatll be some delicious pics for sure #Satans knitwear #Happy birthday to me??? #Alt pinup #Pinup girl #My gif to you #Circle skirt #Stealth corset #Petticoat #bi girl #uk girl #cheeky #girls with piercings #wlw

[chrollohearttags]

ik it seems like every month that the fandom is in some bullshit and everybody all of a sudden hates it but idk if I ever could write for anything except aot + one piece (at least for my main fandoms) cause tbh, they’re really the only ones with sum personality and flavor 😭 I’m sorry. Them ‘it boys’ are quite bland.

#not to mention you can actually put them in differing scenarios without it being completely off base #like j*k is very limited #you get abt 3 recycled AU’s before they start looking like complete mischaracterizations #g*j* and ge** bore me so bad it’s actually not funny #I despise t*ji and nanami and choso are really the only two I adore #but even then you can’t do much with them either #and ofc big papi ryomen but that’s abt it #idk I just have more fun with my babies 😭 maybe it’s bc I hate that show and it’s pretentious fandom #no shade to the girls but they’re not for me #cherry chats 🍒

[authenticcadence18]

I miss the person I was a year ago. two years ago. more social. happier. doing more creatively.

#ya girl is just sad today #yelling into the void bc idk where else to yell #I was so much happier this time last year #even tho I have really good things in my life rn #I just think about like #April 2023 me :( #or! #fall 2020 me #she was living in constant covid anxiety sure #but she was also having the time of her life writing phinbella romance and sharing it with friends #now I haven’t updated that fic in nearly two years #and there’s friends I just don’t see much of anymore #which is no one’s fault that is just how life is #but it just aches #I just feel so sad #or 2021 me #she was posting so much art!!! literally living it up!!!!!!! #now well I mean #my newest pnf piece has gotten close to 500 likes on instagram which has never happened with my pnf art before #so that’s really cool #but I just #ugh #at least I have TTPD #I feel so disconnected from people which is the true reason I post art or fic or whatever #even tho I have lovely friends who I adore!!! they just feel far away #which isn’t anyone’s fault it’s just how life is and my own weird perception of the world #anyway #all this to say I do have a chfil chapter in the works still #maybe finishing that will heal me lmao #cadence rambles