#but I keep forgetting about tumblr hahaha

[elsartzz]

Hi just a PSA my ask box is always open AND now imma check it more regularly so I will respond!! assuming you don’t send anything weird ofc <3

#I always wanted to be those cool tumblr blogs with tons of asks #but I keep forgetting about tumblr hahaha #instagram girlie at heart #even though that platform is toxic and hates me #social media am I right? #asks #elsaskzz

[decembermoonskz]

Okay I’m just gonna post some pics of svt concert and then a couple clips of kcon bc I keep forgetting and this is like the third post I’ve made about this HAHAHA 🤣 I’m not even mad or upset I just think it’s funny I forgot again but I do have some clips I can share already clipped thankfully and I did post some kcon stuff already but gaaah I keep forgetting

#izzy.txt★ #it’s funny to me I keep forgetting to do this bc studies and also drowning in the tumblr writer crisis hahaha #i try not to think about the latter too much tho lest I get depressed and vanish from this hellsite for a while

[matrixbearer2024]

I'm On Your Screens.

Vox x CollegeStudent!Reader

Vox's POV of "Get Off My Screen!"

A/N: This is the silly TV man's POV on what I had written earlier since it was mainly just how dear reader saw everything. I wanted to do this before working on the Vox x Reader requests so I could do some practice on this dude's character hahaha. Also my goodness Tumblr you are THIRSTY for this man! Aaaaah I love it anyway so keep those ideas coming people!

Vox is a busy man, dealing with the other two Vees' chaos alongside his company kept his hands full daily.

Either always irate out of his mind or even grumpy because of it.

Velvette called him again because of Valentino making a bloody mess.

Oh great, this shit AGAIN-

Upon further inspection, the moth overlord was pretty much throwing another pissy tantrum because something didn't go his way.

Something about one of his whores stepping out of line or whatever?

Vox wasn't exactly listening.

Throughout that entire fit, Vox had half a mind to tell Valentino to just suck it up.

Sometimes shit goes wayside, it is what it is.

He was already exhausted mentally and physically by the time he dragged himself back into his monitor room.

Plopping himself back down on his chair, Vox let out a tired sigh and just stared at the many screens around him.

So imagine his surprise when he saw a random screen just crackle and fizz like an old CRT booting up.

Hell had done away with those darn things years ago-

He even made sure of it!

He swiveled his chair around to look closer at the fuzzy image that had appeared.

The static filter over the picture was definitely reminicent of an older TV screen.

He could barely make out a group of figures hunched over... something?

Vox tried to travel through the screen, as he could with the many many others in the room around him-

"FUCKING-! OUCH?!"

Only for it to rebound back.

Vox didn't know whether to be confused or surprised that he managed to zap himself.

HimSELF.

Besides that, a random prompt appeared on the screen.

What kind of haunted bullshit was this?

"What's your name?"

Okay, someone had to be pulling a prank on him.

Despite being skeptical, he decided to humor this weird situation.

"Okay-? The keyboard doesn't work. How am I supposed to use this thing? Just write on the screen?"

Despite his sarcastic remark to no one in particular, yes.

That was in fact what he had to do.

Which Vox found out pretty soon, and he felt a little idiotic that it wasn't the first thing he tried.

He had to squint to kind of understand what was happening on the other side of the screen.

He'd written his name on the screen aaaaand-

Great, absolutely nothing happened.

Someone had to be fucking with him.

There wasn't even any audio so he couldn't even use that for hints.

The group he'd been watching just all of a sudden jumped up and pointed towards him.

Or at least that's what it looks like.

Could they see him?

He wasn't even sure what happened next, the group somewhat hastily moved out of his sight.

Oh whatever.

Vox was about to just forget about the weirdness of the situation if something else hadn't popped up on an adjacent screen.

A phone homepage.

What the hell was that doing on his screens?

It wasn't like there was anyone in particular he was interested enough to look through their stuff.

Ohhhh he could interact with it this time.

Dumb fucking hackers could only zap him once, HA!

The screen with the TV filter quickly shut off when he interacted with the phone menu however.

He should really check his mainframe security and firewalls after this-

It took him no time at all to rummage away and scrounge up whatever he could from the phone.

Might as well do away with the tacky wallpaper while he's at it-

"Y/N huh?"

He saw your photos as well, only becoming more and more confused with the situation.

Were you a living human???

The camera app was unresponsive to his attempts at interacting with it.

So was the recording app...

Guess he couldn't use it to spy this time.

Before long, the phone was also being interacted with.

Vox could only guess it was you.

"Oh great- yeah, just go back to using the shitty wallpaper that I switched out on PURPOSE."

It didn't take much longer before Vox noticed other nearby screens popping up with electronic screens similar to this one.

He totally switched back the wallpaper before messing with the other stuff-

It was always the same, the cameras wouldn't work and neither would the microphones.

For a technology overlord, Vox found himself slightly irritated by how limited his actions were.

wtf was he even supposed to do with this?

Once he retired for the night, he wondered if all of this would just go away come morning.

Spoiler alert: It didn't.

Though the tacky wallpaper was back again.

Hm... this could be fun.

This went on for a few days, he and you were switching the wallpapers back and forth.

It was either his face or whatever random shit you'd change it with.

Sometimes Vox would just let you have some peace before switching it back after an hour.

He could only imagine how irritated you were.

Too bad he couldn't hear or see it.

But seeing you constantly battle with him for the wallpaper priority was entertaining enough.

Vox didn't bother with any of your other files or anything else at the moment.

He didn't see the point in doing so yet anyway.

Of course that was until the notepad opened.

"I know you're in there. Stop messing with me."

He chuckled seeing you type out the message, guess the jig was up.

But he wasn't going to stop this game you both were playing just yet.

"Oh I know, you're just fun to mess with doll."

Little did Vox know that his snarky response would've been the start to an... odd companionship to say the least.

Both of you exchanged messages over the months.

Either idle talk or just conversation about anything under the sun.

If something bothered him at work, most likely he'd leave a rant on your notepad for you to find.

Similarly, if you've had a shitty day- he'd quickly know.

"You're obsessed with this Alastor guy huh?"

"No, he's just an old timey prick who keeps fucking up my stuff."

"You're obsessed."

"Fuck you. >:/"

Interacting with you ended up taking more of his free time and the other Vees would be confused why he spent so much more time in his monitor room.

Vox just brushed them off and rolled his eyes.

He wasn't attached.

He didn't actually care for you did he?

Yeah no absolutely not-

There was a point Vox did get bored enough to look into your files though.

He spent a good hour sorting through stuff while you got work done.

"You should really label your files better."

"It's not that bad."

"Really? After I spent a good while organizing and managing your shit because of some randomly named ones? A goddamn 'thank you' would've been nice."

"Random? I don't do random."

"Oh yeah? What's this one? 'Yeetus' or this one- 'Bababooey'?! Hell, this one is just keysmash!"

"Oh shut up, I still find my things."

"HOW????"

Vox proceeded to rant and bitch about it for another hour-

Sometimes when he just wanted to fuck with you, he'd steal control of the cursor.

It was purely just to spite you.

Your notepad rants afterwards kept him entertained.

He was slightly proud that he beat your wallpaper war.

Or so you dubbed it.

Now his grin was practically a permanent plaster on your devices.

Even so, when he wasn't busy Vox sometimes found himself looking over at your work.

"How is your grammar this shitty?"

"We have grammarly for that, I don't really care much."

"Grammar- what??"

Inadvertently he ended up being your spellchecker every so often.

He only realized how much help he'd been giving once you mentioned in passing that your English professor bumped up your grade.

Why?

Because your writing was just better.

Correction-

Vox's writing was better.

He wouldn't let you hear the end of it for weeks.

You knew it was a mistake telling him.

He didn't even stop his trolling there.

Once he figured out how to overload your computer's memory, it was lag central.

Then he started messing with the display and aspect ratio, making visual glitches while he pulled up random tabs or applications you needed to fight him to close.

"I'm in class you jackass! We can do this when I get home!"

"Nope, I don't think I will. >:3"

He thought he was doing you a favor giving your devices some custom flair as well.

"Are these emojis of you?"

"Yeah, I thought you'd enjoy them."

"Huh, cool."

He thought he was doing great as your companion, until you downloaded that thing.

What in Lucifer's name was it even?

Another tiny human in your desktop?

"What the fuck is that."

"My new desktop companion, do you like it?"

Vox didn't even bother replying, watching it move around and emote for a hot minute while his eye twitched.

Were you trying to piss him off?

Eventually he took his frustration out on it with the cursor to the best of his ability.

Even if it only irritated him more that it kept getting back up unharmed.

Fucking hell, if you wanted a visual desktop companion you could have just ASKED.

Even if he stayed up a few extra hours to work on it, Vox felt like it was worth it.

He was better than that stupid little companion thing you downloaded.

"Did you upgrade my desktop pet by any chance?"

"Why? Do you not like it?"

"Nah, it's actually pretty cute. Thanks."

Vox couldn't bring himself to reply to that.

He was not fucking CUTE!

It totally flew over his head that you called it a desktop "pet".

Depending on his mood, he would use the small thing to emote or just keep you entertained.

At least you could sort of see him.

Even when he couldn't see you.

However, Vox was still Vox and he couldn't help himself to a little mischief here and there.

You both met by sheer coincidence from a weird situation.

Still, the tech overlord couldn't help but be just slightly glad it happened to him.

If Vox had to actually be honest, you weren't all rainbows and sparkles.

You could be a total bitch if you wanted to.

Heh, maybe there'd be a chance he'll finally meet you down here.

Guess he'll just have to wait and see until then.

#hazbin hotel #vox x reader #hazbin hotel vox x reader #hazbin hotel x reader #vox x you #hazbin vox x reader #hazbin vox #hazbin hotel vox #vox #he's a little shit #a charming little shit tho #I need to write more of this fool #Get Off My Screen Series

[kandavers]

Doodle Dump!

Hello Kandavers Tumblr Nation! If you can't already tell, I've been absolutely BRAINROTTING over www-related content these past few days HEHE

I've been drawing a lot of his interactions with my Beloved Mutuals' OCs and I thought I'd post it here as a mass post because they're Too Silly and Goofy (and Doodly) AND I WOULD ALSO LIKE TO RAMBLE ABOUT IT PLEASE AND THANK YOU

(Warning! Some of them are mmmildlyyyy suggestive hehe) (As a Treat!)

Characters heads up: Will Wayward by Me! Starii by @dianacoreexe Valentine Hart by @chronnellian Mimix by @sleepyzuku Mori Moonlet by @kawaiialeisha

Here's Mimix, Will and Mori jamming together in their MWM Band (Outfits subject to change HAHA we never really got that far with the Designs save for Mimix (common sleepyzuku slay)):

(Adding a Keep Reading button so that the post won't be too Long!!)

And the slicked back hair WWW I drew just for the occasion:

I KNOW I HAVENT OFFICIALLY POSTED A PROPER WWW X MIMIX SHIP POST BUT I've mentioned before WWW and Mimix are in a relationship, and we have this running joke that Mori would occasionally be a third wheel in their relationship it's HILARIOUS !!!

(cw suggestive:)

And shy Mimix got me so weak HAHA:

It's so cute that Mimix can't handle intimacy that well, so Will always helps him take the initative aaa,,, DO YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN WHEN I SAY I'VE GOT BRAINWORMS

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"Out of everyone in this entire universe" (The first panel is by Diana themselves for context LMAO)

See, we both agreed that Will and Starii would be Adopted siblings! There's a little bit of lore to it, which is Starii is an Alien whose space ship crashed onto Earth when she was Smaller, and Will, being the Space Nerd (tm) he is, he offered to let her Stay with him while he fixed her ship! (And for context, Winnie is Will's biological sister that I have not designed nor planned yet !)

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This one is just so funny to me HAHAHA

(cw: suggestive)

But despite the erm... Physical Admiration 💀 Will has for Valentine, I offer you SOFT and WHOLESOME doodles and they make me SO VERY WEAK I AM SO SOFT FOR THEM ARGHHHH

And bonus kissy,,,,

When they say "I love you" while affectionately gazing at each other like that... ouuuu I think I will Pass Out /pos

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Bonus cute details:

Will used to have just 1 earring pierced on his Left Ear (if I recall correctly 💀 hashtag bad OC creator) but he went to get the other one pierced with Mimix

After meeting Starii, she gave him one of her earrings, so his Right Ear would always have a star-shaped earring! (Don't worry about consistency i literally forget all the time too LOL)

He has one of those succubus-looking tattoos on his tummy 😳😳 Solely because I think it's cute and ZESTY and it has 0 things to do with his character but thats okay. <3

And honestly shout out to All These Artists for feeding my delusions and brainrots at 2-3am even, with their ideas and headcanons too, they got me Giggling and Kicking my Feet and Everything WAAA

I REALLY LOVE HOW I AM ABLE TO CREATE THESE COOL AND MUSHY OC INTERACTIONS WITH THEM <3333 Honestly I love my mutuals so much they're so Amazing hehe

That's the Doodle Dump for Now! Thank you for reading this far and listening to my Deranged Rambles about them !

And last but not least, go follow my Mooties if You havent already 🫵🫵💥‼️‼️ I love You!!! /p

#kanrambles #kandaversart #kandoodles #welcome home #welcome home fanart #welcome home puppet show #welcome home arg #welcome home au #welcome home oc #welcome home original character #will wayward #starii #starii wayward #mimix #valentine hart #mori moonlet #winnie wayward #kandaversoc #long post #massive post #humongous post even #oc #original character

[thana-topsy]

Ok I gotta come out and say it. I envy you. Like, to a painful extent. The amount of people you get interested in your characters, how you're incredibly skilled in both visual art AND writing, how readers your fics have. I absolutely adore your work, but seeing it fills me with so much envy it's honestly ridiculous.

Did you deal with similar feelings towards other creators when you started writing fic by any chance? If so, how did you deal with those feelings? I feel genuinely stuck feeling worthless about my fics. I'm not as verbose with my language despite over 10 years of writing under my belt and it seems as though my plots don't interest people as much either. So I feel like there's just nothing of worth about any of my work.

I know that this is a lot to dump on you, but I felt like I would burst keeping this all in. Much love to you and I hope you have a wonderful New Year!

Hey there my friend, I've been sitting with this all day trying to decide how I want to answer you. I genuinely appreciate your honesty, because I know this is a familiar feeling for a lot of people, myself included.

I remember when I first rejoined Tumblr in early 2019, desperately trying to find anyone to talk to about TES, I would look at all these blogs gettings asks about their OCs like they were little celebrities and feel envy and longing. Now, when these feelings start to bubble up, I force myself to take a break from sharing my work, be it art or writing, if only to remind myself why I'm creating it and who I'm creating it for: myself. I know it sounds cheesy, and I probably sound like a broken record, but genuinely I just do this because it's bursting out of my skull. But I won't lie and say the engagement and the support doesn't have a big impact on my motivation. I love sharing with people and getting an enthusiastic response.

I think something people might not realize, or maybe they just forget, is that I used to write a lot of smut. Like...a lot of smut. (I still do). Hahaha and it doesn't get a lot of comments or engagement, but it does draw a lot of eyes. Once my smut stories started taking on heavier plotlines, a comment I'd get a lot was "came for the porn, stayed for the plot." And I wasn't writing smut because I thought it would get me an audience, I was just horny LMAO. But it encouraged me to branch out and experiment with the types of stories I was telling.

Anyways, art is another big part of it, yes. But that also didn't get a lot of engagement in the beginning, and my skills were rusty as hell. I was getting maybe 15 notes on here, 30 likes on instagram. But that didn't really matter to me, I was just insane with inspiration. I'd reach out to people and ask to do art trades, got ghosted a lot, made some good friends, (some people who are still my good friends to this day!). But it took a lot of risks, and I made a lot of accidental enemies and learned a lot of hard lessons. But having visuals to go with the stories I'm writing is like advertisement in its own way. I'm just lucky enough to hyperfixate on this shit like it's my lifeblood. I've always obsessively drawn my favorite characters, ever since I was a wee bab. Long before social media was a factor or the words "content creator" even existed.

And I think that's what it all comes back to. Above all else, do what you do with unbridled joy. If someone else finds joy alongside you, all the better! Even if it's just one person. Take risks, make friends, make enemies, draw that blorbo unapologetically and with wild abandon. Love what you create, even when it's bad. Even when it makes you cringe years later, don't delete it. Even when people try to find every reason to hate what you do and who you are. Don't stop.

Every act of creation is bringing something into the world that didn't exist before you made it. And that alone gives it worth.

Happy New Year!

#topsy's asks #long post

[bloomingru]

Hey, guys! Guess who always forgets to update on tumblr...that's right, its me. But anyway. Participated in EkuSeriReiWeek2023 a while back. I uh...didn't finish...but I did 5 out of 7 days! Which is better than my usual, hahaha...:| So here's here's days 1, 3 and 5. Day One: Dress Up! Day Three: Domestic! Day Five: Closing Time! I wrote fanfics for days two and four. Day Two: Hobbies! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49772713 Summary:

The weather is nice and Reigen wants to go out. Serizawa suggests fishing. Dimple is agreeable to pretty much anything, even if he complains about it a little.

Day Four: Confessions! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49782517 Summary:

Reigen, in a burst of inspiration and courage, decides to confess his feelings for Serizawa and Dimple. He even comes up with a contingency plan to keep himself from backing out. But with no way to back out and the day getting closer to its end, his bravery takes a tailspin as well as his capacity to deal with his emotions and thoughts.

#EkuSeriReiWeek2023 #EkuSeriRei #EkuRei #EkuSeri #SeriRei #sometimes Yoshioka is there too as a fully aware and consenting individual bc I'm a simp for EkuYoshiSeriRei ok? #EkuYoshiSeriRei #EkuYoshi #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #mp100 fanart #mp100 fanfic #mp100 fanfiction #Dimple #Ekubo #Reigen Arataka #Serizawa Katsuya #yoshioka mamoru

[zombiechoir]

The only question i'm asking myself right now is: Did i get better at managing grief or am i fooling myself?

I know damn well what the reality is but i don't feel it. Maybe it's self protection. But when i look at him, i see a man that is not dead, not really. I see a silly man with a bass guitar that i love dearly and owe allot of my sanity to.

The thing is that i'm terrified of death bacause it comes with one of my biggest fears, which is forgetting. Forgetting what someone looked like, forgetting what they sounded like, what they did, the memories, the first day of meeting, the little things. So when someone passes (human or animal) that was dear to me, i need to pay as much attention to them as possible. Memorials, photo's, crafts, stories because forgetting feels like the biggest betrayel I could ever do.

When I read about Reita, I just got off work and I had plans that evening and I had exactly one hour to get ready. Dinner was gonna be ready in 10 minutes and to kill time I opened tumblr only to immediately see the news. I googled it cause people are trolls but it turned out to be true. So I broke down, cried while eating (that combo is painful af), made myself presentable and off we went. My mom and I had tickets to see our favorite comedian, front row. The fucking irony!!!!! While we were waiting for it to start I was reblogging memorial stuff to calm myself. I actually managed to have a good evening and even laughed out loud at the jokes. I thought of Reita plenty of times during the show, I thought of Uruha, Aoi, Kai and Ruki. I thought of 4 people on stage instead of 5. I thought of the promise I made with myself to see them live one day, to get vip tickets and crochet each of them a silly gift. It went back and forth, "hahaha funny joke" to "omfg not our beloved Reita". I've managed to hold myself together pretty well this week. I had allot of crying session, cried full on at my workplace. But my desk is facing the wall and I'm a very silent cryer so no one noticed.

Tbh that exact day I was thinking of how much I hated life. And how fucked up I've felt and how fed up I was with everything. How I feel like things will never be okay and the thought of "making a plan" crossed my mind. Reita's passing brought me back to my senses, like babygirl wtf are you doing??? It made me realize there's so much to live for still, that rude strangers aren't important. The only things that matter are the things and people I love. Reita is one of those people and it made me forget about recent shitty events and only focus on that silly man with that bass and the noseband. Maybe I'm delusional, maybe it hasn't hit me fully yet. But I can't help but feel so grateful for this man. Grateful for discovering this band, to hear that bass he provided. Grateful to be alive and to keep going. I want to live as long as possible to remember all the things I loved for as long as possible. He did that for me, in life he comforted me during my anxiety and depression. And in his death he comforted me again but in a different way. And I want to keep that feeling and take it with me♡ Thank you wonderful bass man, with your goofy and bright personality. Rest well, you won't be forgotten.

#went very personal here #reita #the gazette #personal

[herotome]

Devlog #117

I FORGOT TO WRITE AN UPDAT-- Hi-ho Wudge here!

Uhh I'm continuing my adventures of... getting everything ready for demo release.

I hit up the awesomeee @studioghostlegs / @n0tafish to help me out with designing the itch.io page, and it's looking incredible!! Can't wait to show yall!

Speaking of, long-time followers may recognize this logo post from exactly 1 year ago, where n0tafish kindly created a logo of my name... and!!

I've animated that logo and put it in the game!! I also darkened the color slightly and added a lil jingle from NotificationSounds.com, too. Full credit for the typography goes to sweet n0ta <3

I've FINISHED coding in the credits and put it into the game!!! I'm weirdly excited about it... Even though the credits aren't interactive, I think I was able to make it a fun experience!

I started setting up an email subscription thingy, so people who dont regularly use tumblr or itch can still get updates on major developments (official demo releases, beta testing opportunities, job offers, and crowdfunding).

I put together a couple of custom UI sounds.

I made an itch icon for the main menu, in case people download the game and then... forget where they found it in the first place?? Hahaha.

I finished writing the Herotome walkthrough (30+ PAGES) and printed it off for proofreading/final points balancing. Maybe I'll take a picture of it for the next devlog. Here's some cropped sneak peeks:

The eternally wonderful Remnantation finished some outfit/hair variations for Jade, and is working on two final sprites for the demo. Homestretch!!!

I also started working on in-game achievements exclusive to this demo. So far so good...! I used the new renpy achievement code from the very talented Feniks, 10/10 highly recommend (you can even read my review of the tool on the itch page!)

... That's it for now? That's it for now.

Stay safe and keep warm,

Wudge.

#herotome update #interactive fiction #oelvn #visual novel #otome game #otome #english otome #amaregame #amare game #amareteabreak #indie otome #indie game #indie dev #indie games #upcoming games

[blackkatmagic]

Me, looking through binoculars to your computer screen like the yes, yes sicko meme: YES, HAHAHA, YES, ABSOLUTELY GENIUS

...

No but seriously, I read that bit about Jon and the plants in his meditation corner and thought to myself, if he even mentions it in passing, the entire Guard will start a scavenger hunt for all the plants in Coruscant for him, no hesitation. I'm glad we both decided Jon deserves his forest!

xD Literally this is what I was writing right before i opened Tumblr, your timing is impeccable:

“Hound’s not picking anything up,” Thorn says, checking his comm. “Perimeters are clear so far.”

Jon keeps his gaze on the square, rolling the stem of the new shoot he took from the office vine between his fingers. The leaf is silver, veined with deep green, and he can feel it in the Force, a bright scrap of life held waiting.

“Not yet,” he says quietly, and Thorn glances at him, then back down. Hound and his squad are just reconvening with Thire's squad near the center of the square, and on the far side of the space, Jon can see the flash of Stone’s armor as he checks the building overlooking the Senate from the other side.

“Are they waiting for all the senators to be in place?” Thorn asks, and there's a frown in his voice, a flicker of worry. “Security’s tightest when everyone is inside.”

Jon watches a Twi'lek man step out of a speeder, reaching back to help a Falleen woman out as well. Her dress is skintight, the weapons beneath almost ridiculously obvious, but Jon puts that down to not wanting to hide more than failure to do so. She carries herself like a mercenary, but—

She’s not the threat. It’s somewhere else, but Jon can't see it.

“Hurry up and wait,” Thorn says ruefully, and leans against the railing with a sigh, shifting his feet. He glances over at Jon, then pauses, and after a second he says, “I don’t think that ratty little vine is going to survive if you keep pulling leaves off of it.”

Jon blinks, glancing down at the leaf he’s holding. “It’s doing all right,” he says, a flicker of defensiveness rising in his chest. “It just needs a little more care.”

“You like plants, sir?” Thorn asks, amused. “The Temple gardens have to be nicer to meditate in than a corner of our office. I think the droids completely forget those trees exist half the time. They're not exactly impressive.”

“I like them,” Jon says, not able to put into words just what he means. He curls his fingers loosely around the leaf, careful not to crush it. “The plants and the corner. It’s quiet.”

“If you say so, sir,” Thorn says, but it’s thoughtful more than doubtful.

#kat answers

[orangelemonart]

TL;DR your art from 10 years ago just made me relapse on homestuck; thank you.

Here’s the full story

My homestuck phase started in the omegapause and fizzled out circa 2018. In 2017 or early 2018 (dated by the comment I left), I watched a YouTube upload of your gigapause-era Masterpiece Theatre III lyricstuck and thought it was great

I’m now twenty years old and I’ve been an ex-homestuck for five years, I still celebrate 4/13 but I have other special interests to fill my time and i do the ex-homestuck thing of joking about homestuck being a trashfire. I have said that “I will never reread homestuck” to friends more than once

Yesterday I found an animatic of the same song for my current special interest (ace attorney) and was like “where do I know this song from?” the whole time, and then it hit me that it had to be from a lyricstuck because the song is just perfect for a lyricstuck. So I went and rewatched the lyricstuck to scratch that itch and found myself having homestuck feels in the year of our lord two thousand twenty three

For everything wrong with homestuck (and there was plenty wrong with homestuck), this weird work of fiction consistently pulled off sincerely impactful moments within the context of intentionally absurd lore, it laughed in the face of the idea of “avoiding being cringe”, and I think this is why it was so addictive to a generation of autistic teens

So now I’m on a nostalgia bender and downloading the unofficial collection to re-examine this flawed but iconic story from my childhood, now with more maturity to understand the thematic elements buried behind the shitpost tone (which child me barely engaged with beyond “noooo hussie don’t hurt my faves T_T”)

Makes me happier than you people will ever know to hear my art from back in the day was so loved. My friends often joke about me being “tumblr famous” and I know they don’t mean it like this but every year it feels more and more like laughing at me not with me. My follower count and notes drastically plateaued after homestuck hahaha.

I forget that there actually are people out there who actually liked my art and consider it part of their experience with a story they loved! That’s incredible! I’m honored!

Anyway homestuck isn’t as cringe or problematic and people keep claiming it was, at least no more than any other series from that era. Be proud of liking a series that was so revolutionary in storytelling, there is no multimedia project quite like homestuck!

[skitskatdacat63]

Tysm for the tag @suzuki-ecstar :DDDD

I will nominate @schumigrace @formula-red @ellearts @sweatyflytrap and anyone else who wants to do it !! No pressure of course :)

Name: Catie

Sign: Aquarius

Favorite Band/Artist: I would have to say The Smiths and Glass Animals. I've listened to Glass Animals for longer than I can remember so I'll always love them, but I can listen to The Smiths endlessly and my love for them only grows !!

Last Movie: Technically The Machinist, but I didn't finish it 🫣

Last show: Katla + The Bear

When I created this blog: November 2016

What I post: Mostly just F1(+ motorsport in general) but also sometimes other random stuff I like

Other blogs: hahaha you'll never know! Kidding, it's just silly art accts I made when I was younger and they're so bad but I can't bring myself to delete them bcs they're little time capsules for me personally to go look back at

Do I get asks: sometimes?? I wish I got more, I absolutely love answering them!! please ask me for pics/clips anytime...I have an addiction....

Average hours of sleep: around 8-9, but more like 7-8 when I'm in school. I used to get like 5-6, so I'm trying to commit to 8

Instruments: I used to play trombone in marching band, but can't really get back into it bcs I lent mine to my friend and keep forgetting to get it back 😭

Followers: okay, genuinely so confused about this. I took a screenshot a few weeks ago when I hit 400, but tumblr tells me I have 743???? Absolutely no way is that true, bcs I would've noticed if I gained that many

What I'm wearing: sweatpants and hoodie :)

Dream job: I think something in the government that involves language and traveling :) I have passions completely unrelated that I wish i could put my full energy into, but tbh I think trying to make a career out of them would drive me insane

Dream trip: hmm, just went on my dream trip ngl! Traveling anywhere is pretty much my dream trip tbh!! But atm I really wanna go to Iceland, it's so beautiful. And of course, obligatory: the full F1 race experience

Favorite song atm: aaaggggghhh so hard to say since I constantly listen to music. But ig I'd say "You've Got Everything Now"(The Smiths), I perpetually feel crazy about it. Any Smiths song tbh

#trombone...i miss you..... #i domt think id play it even if i had it but I PAID FOR IT LIKE CMON MAN 😭😭😭😭 #maybe one day ill join orchestra but i dont know if i can still play well sob sob sob #ahhhhh wow 7th anniversary of my tumblr is coming up! looking thru my archive is always 😣 #but god abt the dream job...i really love art/history/photography/motorsport/etc but at the same time i like doing my own thing with them #THE FOLLOWER COUNT IS SO WEIRD!! TUMBLR STOP TRYING TO INFLATE MY EGO!! I KNOW THAT NUMBER IS FALSE #catie.rambling.txt

[duyungdodol]

gen asking, how does it feel starting over from scratch? i do find it a shame you deleted ur twitter. yomber and valorant is not the same without you there. i rlly can't imagine starting over at another platform. ure strong for that. im glad you're still around, donna. will always love your art and imagination. thank you for being the reason I installed valorant!

Woah, aaaa....!! ♥ I am always caught off-guard when people tell me they start playing VALORANT because of me. I'm so, so glad and I'm also so sorry, haha. I hope the stress and toxicity isn't ruining any of your days-- and that it's more to the fun and teamwork!

Also, your words are very kind and warm-- thank you so much, seriously. I love my art and my imagination too, aaaa~!!!!

And I'm happy I'm still around too, for as long as I can. ♥ I'm here, anon. Things have always been the same, in my sketchbook.

How it feels to start over? I don't feel anything except momentary melancholy and nostalgia from time to time. I do miss the many people I met and some of the experiences I had-- but with the new messy changes to the Twitter / X app, I found it difficult to enjoy the company and the experiences when the base is built poorly. It's like... enjoying tea time altogether but the ground is wobbling and you keep worrying when the floor is going to collapse. I just think my works and my mains deserve better than that.

Moving to Tumblr (again), Instagram and Bluesky wasn't so bad. If anything, I feel more free now that Twitter / X is not what I see everyday. I no longer worry about the need to do fast information-processing of real or fake news, I don't see people hating on each other as much as I used to, no more modern generation jokes that I tried so hard to get and say, the expectations of posting everyday, no more of the parasocial people that want me so much and the mountains of other people's expectations that suddenly fell onto my lap the moment I hit 6k-7k followers that time... It's now just me, my sketchbook and my old small house. It's always been. Many followers or not, I've always been that.

A lot of people seem to forget that though. Others that have strangely begged for me to play games with them while some got very overthink-y or obsessed with me as if I'm some idol... now treat me as nothing, after I left Twitter / X. Thank God they woke up. It's most peculiar that others seem to worry or be so affected by my followers and account more than I ever will be.

I don't think it should ever matter if an artist is no longer on a mainstream platform (unless they wish to make a financial living out of being a community or fandom artist). I don't think me removing myself from a broken app should mean I'm suddenly lesser than who I was back when I never had an account or when I had a small following.

Without the audience I built and dearly miss, I'm still a sketch artist. I miss them all very much though-- and I wish them all well. And it's not like they're gone, hahaha. Many are still here and I'll always be thankful of their continuous support and love.

My main house is Tumblr and Bluesky while my little treehouse is Instagram-- and truth be told, I'm rarely on them since I have a good but challenging job now. I also went back to reading my old and new books, haha!

But anyway, if me losing that Twitter / X account means that I'm now nothing but some visitor on the internet that loves to sketch her imaginations and home? Then, good. People finally remember that I am and will always be exactly that.

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There are some that always saw me as myself and I hope they all know they have all my luck, love and thanks. Thank you for loving my artworks, have a good day. ♥

#mailbox #I have another X account again right now but I don't feel good in it. #It's not a bed. I'm just on the couch. I'm just using it to observe fandoms I recently came back to.

[starlight-starfury]

13, 15, 34, 36, 38, 72!!

Thank you so much for the asks! ☺️

13. Do you listen to music while you write? If yes, what have you been listening to recently?

I sometimes listen to music before writing if a song inspired a certain fic but otherwise I write in silence 😅 I do have hundreds of those fantasy ambience playlists saved but keep forgetting to listen to them while writing, which is kind of funny because I always wear headphones while I write to block out any background noises and somehow it still doesn’t remind me hahaha

15. What’s your favorite time to write?

I mostly write in the evenings! On weekends I do some writing during the day as well but otherwise I write until I get sleepy or my sentences start turning out weird and not making any sense 😭

34. How much of your personal life/experience do you include in your fics?

I think in fanfics the only instance I can think of right now was with Fables and Falsehoods. I could just relate to Raine’s feelings of helplessness seeing Kade unconscious in that moment, and guess it reminded me of how it felt to watch my own brother go through so much and knowing there’s not much I can do to help him feels horrible, but it’s great he’s doing so much better now. 💖

36. What fic are you proudest of?

I feel obligated to say Elhalas mainly because just the first part took around six months of both planning and writing 😅 But even though some scenes were difficult I am really proud with how it turned out and I’m excited for the next part!

38. What is your most self-indulgent posted story?

Probably anything on the sappier side hahaha but I think I’ll say Field of Stars because it’s sole purpose is to be a cute little flower festival date in Undermount, which made it super fun for me to write because it meant I could use all the flowery descriptions in the world, and coming up with elven traditions and festivals is one of my favourite parts about worldbuilding!!! 🥰

72. What’s your favorite writing compliment you’ve gotten?

Anything from you, Vee!!! You were one of the first fandom writers I found before I even joined tumblr and you’re so talented, I wish you weren’t so hard on yourself and your writing 🥺 But your encouragement and support on each fic means so much to me, especially during those times when the fandom was dead and on fics that didn’t do as well as I was hoping they would 💖 Your feedback is always the sweetest and makes me smile all day, so thank you so much! 🥹

#thank you for the ask!! #ask box #ask game #vee 🌙

[pandoraslxna]

writing fics is so hard sometimes i write then i switch my tab to read through tumblr then i forget about the fic then i go back to the tab the i lose my train of thought about the fic

send help

You’re just like me 😭

I keep distracting myself with other things when I try to write it’s the worst hahaha

#𝒯𝒶𝓁𝓀𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝑜 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓂𝑜𝑜𝓃 ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆

[knightyoomyoui]

Sana x Reader- “The Multiversal Redemption Arc”

Happy 6K Reads to this book! It was pretty fast, wow. It took just weeks for this book to reach another milestone. Also Happy 100th followers to my Tumblr acc! Seriously, thank you so much everyone for the support!

Btw, this story will be set in a third person POV again. I just thought this story fits more with this kind of perspective. Try also to understand this story when you read, I wasn't that good at explaining but I promise as always that I'm doing my best.

Plus, this is a warning too: THIS ONE CONTAINS VIOLENCE AND SOME MENTIONS OF SUICIDE so beware.

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June 16. It is peaceful, soothing morning in the middle of the woods of Osaka, Japan. Inside of it, there's a lovely family who's just living pretty normally and happily, even if they're away from the city and to many citizens of Osaka.

You, the husband and father; was reading a newspaper while your wife Sana is cooking your breakfast for today. The two of you have a charming daughter named Anya who's checking the fridge right now and realized something that reminded her to tell both of you.

Anya: "Mommy, I don't have cereal anymore. I want new.", your daughter said while pouting her lips and pulling at Sana's shirt hem.

Sana: "Oh is that so baby?", she said while looking downwards to see her adorable daughter.

YN: "I could buy one for you, princess.", you spoke while giving the newspaper you were holding one more look before turning to face the two special girls in your life. "This is good timing too. I'll be heading to the grocery to buy some foods and other stuffs to refill our supplies. Just noticed earlier that we don't have anymore left."

Sana: "You're right.", she sighed. "Lucky that it spare us some one more for our breakfast today.". Right at the time, she finished cooking the food and served it in the table. You helped her organize it and once it's done, all of you started to pray first; holding both Sana and Anya's hands. After the prayer, the three of you ate in silence.

Minutes later and you just finished your breakfast, wiping some bits and remains of the food in the sides of your lips.

YN: "I'm done. Gotta go prepare myself now, okay? Enjoy the food.", you pinched your wife's hamster cheeks and ruffled the air of your daughter before going onto your room to get your outfit for today.

After getting dressed, you took hold of your car keys and moved toward the door to put on your shoes as Sana stood next to you.

Sana: "Be careful on driving, hon."

YN: "I will, don't worry.", you raised your body back up and gave her a kiss."

Sana: "Hey.", she called you again after you just walked out of the door, now standing in front of your house.

YN: "Hmm? What's it?", you turned around, facing the gorgeous face of your wife again.

Sana: "Today is our special day, eh?", she said, caressing your shoulders to feel the smoothness of the fabric you're wearing.

YN: "Yup, how can I forget about that.", you chuckled. " Happy anniversary, my sweet honey."

Sana: "Happy anniversary to us too, babe.", the two of you leaned at each other closely again for a loving kiss. "Any plans for today?"

YN: "Yup.", you nodded. "Be better to ready yourself, okay?", you grinned.

Sana: "Okay!", she gave you a joyful thumbs up. "Aaaa i'm so excited.", she gave you her cutest squeal, which you had always thought that it adds cuteness in her and had led you to choose her as your lover and wife in the first place, while aggressively stamping her feet in excitement. She is simply too deserving to keep your heart.

YN: "HAHAHA calm down, okay?", you grabbed her arms and gently shaked it, making her stop jumping which made her end up giggling instead. "I am too but let's pour all the joy later tonight.", you cupped her cheek with your hand and held her lovingly with your gaze, hypnotizing her.

When the two of you were in complete quiet, you took advantage of the chance to speak what had just come to you as she was looking at you.

YN: "This is too sudden I know but... I just wanna say thank you. For being my wife. For staying with me even though I am the danger in your life. Never there was a time I didn't feel your love for me.", you massaged the top of her hands and locked it between your grasp.

Sana: "It was nothing, YN.", she shook her head while smiling. "Remember that I never looked at you as a monster and treated you as a danger to me. No, I'm more scared at the fact that I might lose you... that you risk yourself too much because you're more of a protector to me and Anya.", she said. You just stared at your wife while secretly telling yourself how lucky are you to have this woman to treasure with until the rest of your life.

"Now go do some groceries, okay?", she pushed you away slightly.

YN: "Okay. I love you, Sha!", you waved at her.

Sana: "I love you too, Y/NN!", she waved back at you and giggled. You went for your car and operated it before driving away to the house and went ahead to the grocery.

After hours of shopping, you reached back home. You called for Sana and Anya's attention but no one's responding. You entered your house and placed the goods in the counter of your kitchen before calling their names again.

Still no response.

It made you curious where they may be but at the same time you are worried because this is not just normal for you to lose track of their sight.

"Sana? Anya?", you shouted inside the house so that your voice can reach the second floor.

You waited for 10 seconds and still no response.

You had enough, so you went upstairs to check on them. You opened the room of Anya but she wasn't there. You went next to the balcony and storage room but still none.

You went to the last room available and it was your bedroom with Sana. You opened the door and what appeared to you next made your heart stop beating at the gruesome sight you're seeing.

Sana and Anya were hugging together, bathing in their own pool of blood on the bed. You just stood there dumbfounded, stunned and hurt.

You stepped forward a bit and you noticed that Sana is completely naked. Her hair is all messed up and almost covering her lifeless face. You saw that there's a stabbed wound in her stomach and neck. Anya on the other hand also has a stabbed wound on her midsection.

YN: "I'm sorry.", the only words you were able to let out as your emotions are under full control of yourself right now.

You kneeled down beside the bed and looked at your own family who got brutally killed by whoever monster that did this merciless murder. You grabbed Sana's hand and placed your other hand at the top of your 6 years old daughter who's life has been taken away too early too.

You went sobbing in pain and heartbroken as you mourn the deaths of your Sana and Anya.

While you are mourning at the deaths of his wife and daughter, you then heard some movements outside. You went to your secret room which you made into an armory. You saw your weapons that are organized and presented well in every shelf. but out of all of these, the samurai blade was the one who captured your eyes instantly.

You were a former assassin for 30 years. This is one of the reasons you and Sana made the decision to live covertly in the woods, where you could avoid being discovered by any of your other enemies and interrupting your peaceful retirement while sharing a home and raising a family.

Sana's father is connected to the Yakuza. You were on a mission at that time to kill the clan and you did, which led you too on meeting Sana who was begging for you to spare her life and explained how she didn't want to be any part of this. Escaping didn't went that quite easy as both of you got cornered by her father. He was able to snatch her away from you and abuse her a little for betraying him before you two can fight, but what he did just gave you a huge advantage of winning.

You killed Sana's father and apologized to her after for doing that, but she instead forgave you easily because she said that her father chose this way anyways and was the one who keeps refusing to leave this kind of business he put himself into danger.

What you did was heavily attracted many other notorious gangs and clans all over Japan because Sana's father is one of the highly respected leader so they tried to hunt you in exchange of a huge reward. The three of you went hiding in a forest in Osaka, Japan which is actually her hometown and you two started to live and change your lives for the best, having a relationship with her until you two got married secretly and Sana gave birth to your first daughter, Anya.

Back to the present, you prepared the samurai you've used to kill thousands of scumbag Japanese criminals and some other backup weapons with you. You slowly went downstairs and listened focusedly on your surroundings until there was one who immediately showed up behind your back. He was a ninja wearing a black outfit covering his entire body except the eyes.

He started attacking you and you finished him with a spinning kick to the temple of his head and stabbed him on the chest with your samurai.

Many other ninjas started to attack you after. You gave a dropkick to a ninja then someone tried to slice you in half from the side but you avoided it as you dodged it aside. You gave a punch straight to his nose and proceeded to throw three small knives from your pocket straight to the other ninja's chest, ending him.

You went back to the ninja you punched in the nose, he tried to punch you again but you held his arm and sliced it with your samurai before using it to whack his head repeatedly.

Other ninjas started to show up more until no one was left, but you killed them all in brutal way. You snapped someone's neck, repeatedly punched a face and slammed it 3 times on the floor, did a hurricaranna and stabbed the samurai straight to his eyes, swatted someone's balls with a nun-chuck then hits it directly to his face before giving it a high knee and sliced his head out.

You pulled out your brass knuckles as you did a spinning heel flip straight to the ninja's jaw and you even discolated it completely when you punched it repeatedly with your brass knuckles.

With the last remaining ninja, it was about to charge you but you slide through him, heavily wounding his legs before you slash his neck and snap his head aside.

You recognized their outfit of the group which belongs to a familiar individual.

YN: "TADASHIIII!!!!!!!!!", you shouted a battlecry with rage and anger all over your deep voice.

You went outside of the house and there, you saw your long time rival sitting in an indian seat, spinning his samurai standing on the ground with it's tip of the blade. He smirked when your figure showed up in front of the house.

Tadashi: "Watanabe YN. At long last. We finally met. Did you like what you saw?"

YN: "You son of a bitch. You don't know what you just did. They're the only people remaining that I love, and you took them from me.", you said with fury in your tone as you gritted your teeth and clenched your teeth in frustration. "Now, I'll make sure you'll pay for that in Hell.", you slowly walked towards him then stopped to perform a fighting pose, signalling him to be prepared for his upcoming doom.

Tadashi: "Try. But you know I won't let that happen, I've come so far enough just to fail. The prize i'll get for this is too precious, so don't be surprised that I'll end you here rotting along with your bloodline.", he said calmly as he stood up to perform a fighting pose of his own too.

YN: "The prize you've been chasing just led you into your own horrible demise."

You and Tadashi both charged and started to clash with each other. After quite a long fight of samurai hitting another samurai, wounds being made from the contact of tyhe blade, blood spluttering around, kicks and punches that made both of you wince, groan and dazed in pain; you finally killed Tadashi by slicing his neck and stabbing his back and pulling it upwards, releasing some of his inner organs. You kneeled in front of him and catched your breath, relieved that you somehow avenged your late wife an daughter.

Days after, you went on to burn the bodies of the Yakuzas and Tadashi while you gave a proper burial for Sana and Anya. After you're done putting them in their resting place in the middle of the woods, you cried again in agony and regret that you failed to protect them.

You succeed giving justice to your family, but at what cost? It didn't made them return back to life. After all, you felt that you still lost, because the ones you treasure the most in your life are now gone and whatever you do won't make them return back from the dead.

You fell from extreme grief and suffering now that you're lonely and all alone. Having a depression, you decided to just end this all by committing suicide to end your pathetic and turned-into- meaningless life

You were about to stand up in the chair to reach the loose hanging in the ceiling when suddenly, someone spoke out of nowhere that made you alert.

???: "I won't do that if I were you.", you got startled, making you stop at your movements.

YN: "W-who's that? Who's in there?", you said, making you look around inside the dark atmosphere of your house that only the moon is serving as the light strucking your living room from the window.

???: "The only one who can help you.", the mysterious voice said again. You noticed it sounded feminine but still what makes you question right now is who the hell is speaking to you.

YN: "Help? For what?", you asked in confusion. "Fixing me? Will it bring back my wife and daughter?", you chuckled bitterly.

???: "If I tell you yes, will you believe me?"

A womanly figure emerges from the shadows as you continue to spin your body around to identify the source of that voice. You recoiled in horror and awe as you saw that the woman is floating while donning an apricot-colored cloak that has its hood down to reveal her stunning face and short black hair. Not to add, she was completely covered with light.

YN: "W-what the hell, who are you?", you said as you keep on moving backwards to distance away yourself from her. "Y-you don't look n-normal.", you keep on stuttering.

???: "Oh please, I act more humanly that you humans.", she scoffed at you. "You should put down your weapon, that's just useless.", you took a closer look at the butterfly knife in your right hand, just in case you were about to need self-defense. You merely did as the mysterious woman instructed because she doesn't seem dangerous in any case. "Good, now Let me introduce myself. I am Jihyo, The All- Mighty God Of Redemptions. I am in charge of granting every being in this planet to have second chances, only and if necessary... the scenario is too unreversable to the mortal's hands and if that being is very sincere and willingly to make something right again. And it leads me to you.", she said with her introduction as she pointed her hand at you, presenting you as her example for her purpose of being in front of you right now.

YN: "How?"

Jihyo: "Don't ask me. I know that you know the only thing that you want.", she said, leaning herself a bit closer to make herself get heard more comprehensive to you.

She spoke while leaning a little closer to you so that you could hear her more clearly.

You already knew what she was getting at, and the realization eventually brought tears to your eyes. The picture frame next to your television, which displays a family photo of you, Sana, and Anya, caught your attention. You all recall how joyful you were at the moment, and as a result, you started to miss them even more."M-my... wife, Sana and our daughter... Anya... they're gone. Because of me. If only I could just repeat it and save them so that they can be on my side again, I can't.", you said as your grasp on the frame tightened, the same time as what your heart is feeling.

Jihyo: "But I can.", what she said made you turn your head around at her.

YN: "What?", you furrowed your eyebrows.

Jihyo: "What if I told you that I could make you see your Sana and Anya again. All too well. Alive and kicking.", that made your face stretched upwards in surprise and disbelief. You don't know if you're hearing it very clear. Did she just say that she can make you reunite with your beloved wife and daughter again?

YN: "R-really? Are you being serious?", you asked her again while sniffing on your tears, as you're still being skeptical at it.

Jihyo: "Do I look like I'm joking?", she questioned you without any amusement showing on her face. She seems genuinely genuine and serious about this, and it makes sense given that she clearly looks like a mythological creature with a power that not everyone can see or find unless it is required, much like the current situation you two are in.

YN: "I-I'm sorry, It's just... too unnatural for-", you tried to apologize because you felt kinda embarassed at your doubt but Jihyo cutted your words off immediately.

Jihyo: "It's fine, I know. Sorry, I didn't meant to be intimidating.", she said to calm you down and ensure that it's no worries. " Answering your question, yes... I am serious. Do you want to accept my offer?"

Jihyo: "Even if it costs something?", she asked you. You raised your head to look her, confused what does she meant for that.

You quickly went closer to her and kneeled in front of her, bowing your head as you beg for her do it.

YN: "O-ofcourse! Yes! Please. I'm taking it. Everything, just so I can be with them again.", you plead.

YN: "E-uhm.. what is it?"

Jihyo: "Your whole existence in this world."

YN: "Uhh why? What are you gonna do, make me go back in time?", you asked her.

Jihyo: "As much as I would love to, unfortunately, not.", she apologetically pouted while forming a frown on her lips. "Our entity doesn't hold that kind of power but...

... do you know about the Multiverse?", she asked you. You just stared at her.

YN: "Multiverse...", you mumbled. " Wait, are you're telling me other universes out there actually exists?", you asked the goddess, confirming her question to her that you definitely have some knowledge about this one.

Jihyo: "Yes.", she answered, nodding her head. "To make my help for your wish possible, would you want me to transport you to... well, based on my findings there's another universe, another Earth where your Sana and Anya exists; without having... you.", she pointed at you. You got stunned at the thought. You can't imagine how does it looks like when you never met Sana and never had Anya as your daughter in your entire life in this universe, so the possibilities of what could be the right timeline of that universe is just too unpredictable to you.

Jihyo: "Through this, it opened an opportunity for you to gain your second chance of saving them.", she added.

YN: "They're in danger?", you asked in concern. They may not be the real wife and daughter you loved but they're just the same still. You couldn't help but to feel the same too for them.

Jihyo: "Yes. There are threats so far and it's impending for them to experience. It's all up for you to find it by yourself.", she said. It made you feel worried even more, and this just made you absorb motivation to perfectly save them this time. " So, do you accept?"

YN: "I- I do.", you answered. It didn't lasted that long for you to think twice.

Jihyo: "But your existence in this world will be gone. Everyone you met will forget that YN Watanabe entirely. There will be no memory of you.", she once again tried to ask again for you to think deeply, unknown for her that you are sure about this and there's no going back for you this time. You definitely want to do this.

YN: "Well what's the matter of it anyways, all that I loved was gone. I'm all alone. I don't even know what's my purpose of living here anymore.", you said, returning back your sight at her while you shrugged. With your expression of confidence, Jihyo had it enough for her to be convinced.

Jihyo: "Alright then. I'll see you on the other side. The teleportation won't take long, since that other universe is just at least 3 universes away from here.", she said, making you nod.

YN: "Thank you for this, God Jihyo. Truly, I am grateful."

YN: "Okay.", then she commanded you to stand up which you followed quickly since you don't want to act slow in front of a god herself.

Jihyo: "My pleasure.", she grinned. "You deserve it, you were a loving and caring husband and a father to your family.", that made you smile at her compliments, even though the negatives still attacking and lingering in your mind, making you blame yourself still at their disappearance forever.

"I'll see you on the other side."

You watched her start to expand her arms forwards and mumble something while she's doing some hand movements. Jihyo: "With the power of my name, and my entity... I take away the existence of this one in a million being, YN Watanabe, for the sake of his redemption to a whole new world.", she rolled her hands, forming a ball of light between as it grows more and more making the room go brighter. You just stared at her activating her powers in awe.

I am Jihyo, the God Of Redemption, TRANSFER YOU!!!", then she threw a beam to you coming from the ball shaped light she formed in her hands. The bright lights started to cover your body slowly until you just finally disappeared in a snap, and in a couple blink of your eyes you ended up somewhere as the lights started to flicker until it slows down and vanish from your body.

YN: "WWWWWAAAAHHHHH. HAH.... OH MY GOD.. W-WHAT THE...... WHERE AM I?", you said when you started to look around you. This spot looks like exactly your living room but the difference is the way how it designed. The walls of the rooms are now painted in colors while in your original room it's all only made from wood.

You got frozen for a second in your spot until you finally awakened back into your senses when you finally figured out that...

You walked out of the house as you saw that the main door is open. What greeted you outside isn't a dark, chilly nighttime in a forest but instead a bright, sunny morning in a... town?

You looked everywhere and it's all completely different from where you are earlier. Many people are walking and some are just doing their own business.

You are literally had been teleported into another universe.

YN: "Holy shit.", you muttered in awe. You can't believe that you are stepping right now in another version of Earth. "So I am indeed in another universe. It looks... quite the same. Just, placed differently.", you said.

You looked back at the house where you've been teleported at by Jihyo. There was a sign in front of it that says "HOUSE FOR RENT" with the number of the owner. It was written also in Japanese so there's one thing that made you comfirm too is the fact that you are still in Japan in this universe, but you can tell that the timeline here works differently than your original universe.

YN: "House... for... rent? I don't own my house here?", you scratched your nape. "Agh fine.", he was just about to sigh deeply when someone spoke behind her.

Owner: "Hello, sir! Are you interested on getting that house?", a middle aged woman asked you nicely. She looks like she's the owner of your house here so responded to her after.

YN: "Yes, I am. Uhh may I know how much it costs?"

Later, you finally bought it with a surprisingly very CHEAP prize, which was one of the differences between this universe and your universe. It looks like the economy of Japan here is perfectly healthy and grew much that even a house is just only equivalent to buying a TV. She gave you the keys of the house, now officially making it as your staying place for now.

You decided to just explore around Japan for a while by walking around the streets of Osaka; as what the signs around says. Right after you were about to go home, a perfect timing showed up when a black van stopped in front of this large expensive house.

You saw some people just standing from a distance watching who ever may be the person they're anticipating to see.

You are getting sleepy already so you just tried to ignore it instead and continue but what you saw next made you completely woke up your energy back.

YN: "S-Sana?", you mentioned your wife's name when a very familiar figure appeared as it exits the van along with someone. She was wearing this nice casual designated outfit and she completely looks even more gorgeous than ever.

You just met the another version of your late wife in front of your eyes.

YN: "She's here... ", you breathily said as you just keep staring at this more elegant, more beautiful and more stylish version of your wife slowly fading away again in your sight as she's about to enter her humble abode while she said goodbye to that person she's having on her side.

You went head back home immediately and slumped your body back at the bed with the picture of Sana in your hand as you held in within your chest while sobbing into longing and happiness, knowing that you just saw your wife again tonight; alive and well.

The next day, YN woke up early and just staring at the sky above him while sipping his hot coffee when suddenly he got taken aback when he felt something that made contact in his leg. He looked around behind him and he saw a little girl rubbing her head while mumbling "Ouch." in front of him.

You kneeled to aid the kid who looked like it got hurt.

YN: "Are you okay?", you asked the kid worriedly.

Anya: "I'm fine mister.", the little girl looked up and you saw her face, which made your eyes wide open when you realized that this child...

... exactly looked like your daughter.

When you were going to say her name, someone else spoke before you. From a distance, a female voice can be heard slowly approaching from the two of you.

???: "ANYA! COME ON, BABY! TIME TO CHANGE D-", the woman stopped and you slowly looked at her.

It was her, your wife Sana in her other version, looking at you straight deeply in the eyes. Her face looks blank, which was same as yours.

You tried to hold back your emotions as you don't want to make yourself weird at this Sana.

Sana: "Oh... uhm, hi.", she told you. God, you were already deeply moved by that voice. You were really missing hearing that. You already predicted that staying in front of her for too long wouldn't go down well.

YN: "H-hi.", you said as you slowly rose up in front of her. Just as you did the last time you came near to her before she passed away, you two are now facing each other once more.

Sana: "Sorry for my kid, it's hard to raise a kid who's just so hyperactive.", she held Anya's hand which the latter giggled when Sana smiled at her.

YN: "It's fine, I understand.", you said, smiling widely at the sight of your wife and daughter looking happing than ever at each other as if nothing worse happened to them like their counterparts from your universe.

Sana: "You must be the new owner of this house.", she said as she pointed at your house. "It's been free for 4 months now, whenever I came here I notice it. Kinda confusing why no one wanted to get. It was a pretty house, I must say.", she said to you. You can barely even understand what she's saying because your mind is just too occupied at the fact that this is just a surreal moment that you're with your wife again, just like what you've wanted.

YN: "Yeah you're right.", you smiled at her. The two of you got awkward after as both of you don't know what about to say next. She just keeps on catching you looking at her. You decided instead to break that tension by telling her something.

YN: "I-I'm really sorry if you're getting uncomfortable but uhh... you really do remind me of someone.", you said, making the fact that this Sana is actually another version of your wife as an excuse.

Sana: "No, it's fine. I get it. I always experience it anyways since I am a well known actress and a singer too.", she said to you, learning that the fate of your Sana in this universe was alternate to yours.

Your Sana dreamt of it to become an actress or a singer but this one in front of you succeeded.

Looks like this Sana is getting much support from her parents instead of yours which made you feel bad for your original wife.

YN: "O-oh, yeah, I forgot. I see.", you lied again, pretending as if you really know that she is famous in this universe.

Sana: "Plus... I admit, I do f-feel like we've known each o-other.", she said to you with her tensed smile. If only does she know that you two are very close to each another and are a married couple in your universe, you thought.

YN: "Watanabe YN.", you introduced yourself to her.

You two chuckled at each other.

Sana: "Nice to meet you..."

Sana: "O-oh... Uhm, I-"

YN: "Minatozaki Sana, yes.", you said, offering your hand for a handshake which she accepts and smiled at you. The feeling of her touch send shivers all over your body. It just exactly the same.

Sana: "Y-yeah...", she said shyly. She let go of your house and placed it behind her back, intertwining her fingers through the another.

Sana. "I-I gotta go now.", she said. "I still have a schedule.

YN: "R-right.", you nodded.

Sana: "Bye new neighbor!", she said her goodbye to you and Anya also did it too so you got touched at how soft your daughter still is in this universe.

YN: "Bye.",

As your chat with your wife and daughter came to a conclusion, you returned to your home, feeling incredibly glad about the brief encounter you had with them once more. You could feel the tears of happiness starting to fall from your eyes.

Now that you finally got the chance to meet them again, you then focused now on finding a way to accomplish your mission of being in here in the first place.

Next days has passed and the two of you started to meet up daily. There were times that you were the one who's passing through in her house while the other ones is she was the one doing it along with her daughter Anya.

With this, the two of you got to know about each other more as you built friendship with Sana, where sometimes she gets clingy and prefers to be at your side at many times. You also learned that almost her entire infromation she shared about you is just opposite than your original Sana is.

You two reach to the point already that both of you gained trust already with each other where you said to each other that you and her can share their own secrets together if the right day comes.

With luck on your side, you got accepted already by Sana and her boss when you applied a job as her personal security since she told you that she was needing someone to replace her previous one who resigned due to weak performance.

Thanks also to your gained closeness with this version of Sana, you learned the one thing is very connceted and useful for your mission here. The only bad side of her fantastic life was that she once mentioned to you that she's experiencing someone stalking her these days. Feeling terrified and scared, you promised that you will do your best to protect her this time and also her daughter too because you know she might be in danger.

She doesn't know that your promise to her means another thing to you too.

One day, you're having another time with Sana and Anya as their personal bodyguard to assist them going to a mall to do shopping. You were talking to Sana while walking together to find another store to visit when suddenly she felt her pocket vibrated due to her phone receiving a phone call notification.

Sana: "Oh, the company's calling me. Can you please take a look at Anya for a while. I'll be going at the restroom too.", she said to you after she looked at the screen to know what this phone ID belongs to.

YN: "Sure. Take your time.", you said to her and she left you and Anya next to take the call. You just watched your daughter looking around while humming and tugging her dress. She looked so adorable in your eyes.

Without wanting to waste this free time, you decided to spend it for a while with your daughter together.

YN: "Hey, Anya! Are you having fun so far?", you asked her. She only nodded.

Anya: "Where's mama?

YN: "She went somewhere. Don't worry she'll be back.", you patted her head.

Anya: "Okay.", you kneeled next in front of her, making her look at you in the face as both each other's height level are exactly the same now.

YN: "Hey, Anya. You look just like your mother. Both are very beautiful.", you said, letting your heart and mind to express.

Anya: "Thank you.", she said, blushing at your compliment as she grinned. You looked at your daughter face and you didn't even noticed that there was tears forming around eyes until suddenly one drop made it caught Anya's attention.

Anya: "YN-kun, why are you crying?", she asked you with her very melodic and concerned tone. You got chills when she went on to touch your face and wipe the stain of tears with her little finger. You swear you wanted to cry more at your daughter's heartwarming action.

YN: "N-nothing, Anya. It's just that YN-kun just missed this so much. ", you didn't said it all to her because she's too young to understand it. You don't want to make the vibe go sadder so you wiped your eyes before changing the topic.

YN: "Do you want something to eat first while waiting for mommy?", you asked Anya.

Anya: "Hottudoggu!!", she suggested in excitement to you.

YN: "Oooh hotdogs? Okay sure, let's buy one for you, princess.", then both of you walked through the hotdog booth to buy.

1 WEEK LATER

You are at the front of the agency building along with the driver of the service van, waiting for Sana and her manager to exit.

You greeted your wife already when you saw each other while she's walking out of the place.

YN: "Good evening, Sana."

Sana: "Evening, YN. Can we go home now already? I'm tired.", she said to you with no obvious energy can be heard in her voice.

YN: "O-okay. Let's go.", you complied. All of you ride the van next and the driver drives the van on the way to Sana's residence.

The driver dropped you and Sana off and both of you thanked him and the manager for their service tonight.

While walking on the way to the front door of her house, she complained something to you.

Sana: "I-it's cold.", seh said while shivering. You felt her body trembling.

YN: "Wait, I'm getting you a jacket.", and you gave her the one you're wearing. You knocked on the door and it opened by Miyeon the babysitter and Anya appeared on her side.

Miyeon: "Good evening, Ms. Minatozaki.", she bowed her head at Sana.

Sana: "Evening, Miyeon. Have a safe way home.", she said, forcing to smile at Miyeon even though she doesn't feel so good tonight. Miyeon replied with a thanks before walking away on the house along with her personal things.

Anya: "Mommy!!!", she ran towards Sana and hugged her on her leg. It didn't last long though when she realized something.

Anya: "Mommy why is your body very warm?", she asked to Sana. You looked at Sana and just at the exact time, she started to feel dizzy as she stumbled at her position, nearly crashing on the ground but you catched her quick enough to avoid it.

YN: "Wait, Sana are you really okay?", you placed your hand at her forehead to check her body temperature. You felt what Anya also felt from Sana. "Oh no, you're burning in fever.", you said as you realized that she's sick. It was because she's having 3 days of busy schedules for her to finish it all. Due to how drained her body is, this was the result she got for her too much hardwork.

Sana: " I don't feel so good right now, YN.", she said weakly.

YN: "Come, lets head inside. We can't stay longer here.", you carried her body like a bridal style and all three of you went inside the house.

Sana: "I will, baby.", you brought Sana upstairs and went to the bedroom. You opened it and carefully laid her on the bed.

YN: "Anya, would you mind if you go play first? Mommy is sick today. You might get infected.", your excuse to Sana after you saw her going a bit clingy still for her mother's affection

Anya: "Aww, okay. Get well soon, eomma!!!", she said, successfully making her understand.

YN: "Now take a rest here. Okay? I'll prepare you some food to eat.", you covered her with her thick white blanket and swayed some strands of her hair away from her face.

You go downstairs and reached her kitchen but after searching you found out that she doesn't have any ingredients to use for making a hot soup.

You went back to her room to excuse yourself going out for a while to buy the things you will need to prepare Sana's own dinner.

YN: "Sana, i'll go for a while, okay? I'll get some ingredients in my house. Okay? I can't make-", you were about to finish your words but Sana grabbed your wrist, feeling her very warm touch.

Sana: "YN."

YN: "Why?"

Sana: "No. Don't go.", she said, slowly shaking her head.

YN: "But, Sana. You nee-"

Sana: "Please... don't leave us... you won't go back...", she said. You thought that she's just too afraid right now that no one will take care of her and Anya right now due to her being sick so you spoke ahead to assure her and ease her anxiety.

YN: "Sana, I promise you this will be quick. Alright?", you sat at the side of the door and placed your hand at the hand she's using to hold your wrist. " I will bring some additional medicine with me. Don't be nervous, okay? I will be right back. Do you trust me?"

Sana then started to cry after and you tried to calm her down first but she was able to answer you after.

Sana: "Y-yes..."

YN: "I will return, I promise.", you assured to her. You kissed her forehead then went downstairs to meet Anya.

YN: "Anya, stay here and watch mommy for a while okay? If you did a great job, YN-kun will give you a treat.", you gave her a smug expression.

Anya: "Yayyy a treat! I will look after mama!", she said excitingly. You smiled at her back before leaving the house and used Sana's car to drive away.

While you're in the middle of driving, not that quite you reached far enough from Sana's place, you listened to the radio that you've played until you noticed something.

Radio DJ: "So, partner. Before we head next to our third caller for today to share his love story. Let's do some time check for tonight, shall we?"

Radio DJ 2: "Good that you reminded us, partner. Time check for tonight, July 16, 2022... 9:50 PM..."

YN: "July 16...."

Suddenly you got stunned when your mind starts to recalling all the flashbacks of what happened to your original Sana and Anya back from your universe. You remember that July 16 was the exact date of you and Sana's anniversary where they unfortunately also died too on the same day.

You then looked intently at what scenario you are in.

Driving in a car.

Leaving Sana and Anya alone for a while.

About to grab some food and supplies.

You realized that all of these was exactly what happened to you before that ultimately caused your lack of awareness and failed attempt to save them from the Yakuza clan of your enemy who lead them to their lives being taken away.

Something just went completely felt off within you as you finally get it that what scenario you are into right now resembles the same as before. You were startled back into reality and away from being lost in your thoughts when you considered a potential deja vu moment from this universe that might put these other versions of Sana and Anya in danger as well. You quickly turned the spinning wheel to make the car turn, and you drove the car back to Sana's house, accelerating to get there quickly.

You eventually returned to Sana's house while experiencing an abnormally rapid heartbeat brought on by anxiety. You were surprised to discover Anya's babysitter Miyeon unconscious next to the front door, which was now only partially open. You could see her blood dripping down her forehead.

You felt her pulse still beating and for goods sake, she slowly woke up and looked at you.

YN: "MIYEON! HEY, ARE YOU FINE NOW? WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?", you said as you went on to cover her wounded forehead with your towel.

Miyeon: "T-the... st- Ms. Minatozaki's stalker... forced me.. to lead him.. h-here.", that the only thing she said but it's enough for you to get what he said. That bastard maybe saw Miyeon on her way home then he trapped the poor girl to use her key to lead himself onto Sana's place, which made Miyeon to follow because the stalker might've threatened her with something she doesn't want to happen.

YN: "Stay here, okay? I'll check the house.", you pulled your phone out in your pocket and started to dial the number of the emergency. "Here, can you talk to them?"

Miyeon: "Y-yes."

YN: "Okay, don't worry... help is coming now.", she simply nodded, and you cautiously opened the door because you didn't want to make any noises just yet. The downstairs of the house was thoroughly searched before you abruptly heard someone struggling.

Anya was inside the huge cabinet you had opened under the sink, her lips taped and her hands bound with a rope. She was crying very hard.

YN: "ANYA? ANYA!", you pulled her out and removed the tape in her mouth. She went on to hug you tightly and cried at your body. You can't help but to tear up too because you finally rescued your daughter to safety, unlike what happened first time before. "Oh thank God, you're okay. Anya where's mommy?", she only responded with a gesture where she pointed upwards. You just nodded at her when you understand it. "I'll come back for you, princess.", you kissed her on her forehead before going upstairs.

As you reached Sana's bedroom, what you saw made your vision completely went dark and blurry.

You saw the stalker forcefully kissing all over Sana's body whose been stripped out of her clothes, leaving her only in her black bra and underwear. The man was also recording the disgusting thing he's doing with her camera on the other hand. Sana was just weakly crying and begging for him to stop.

You had another flashback in your mind as the image of Sana's naked lifeless body greeted you when you entered your house after arriving from doing groceries at that time. That's another indication that it might happen the same again tonight.

Sana: "Y-YN... help...", you heard Sana's soft and weak voice mentioning your name as she was still expecting for your appearance to save her for this dark time she's having right now. That made you engage more to rescue her.

YN: "NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!", you barged in to the room as you kicked the door. You immediately tackled the guy off on Sana, tossing him aside of the room. You then went ahead to remove the ropes tied in her hands and hugged her tightly as she cried so hard in your embrace.

YN: "I'm here... Sana. I'm here.", you said breathily as you keep on caressing Sana's shoulder while placing your chin above her head.

You looked at the stalker who slowly got up from the floor about being tackled by his. His face became visible to your eyes and to your utter shock, the identity of this guy has been revealed... which is very familiar to you.

YN: "T-Tadashi?" , you said the name of the only man responsible for the death of your wife and daughter.

You learned that the stalker who's been overly obsessed and stalking Sana all along was a counterpart of Tadashi in this universe.

Tadashi: "Who the hell are you? And how do you know my name?", he confusingly asked you.

That voice, that look, that face. It reminded you back again on what his original counterpart did to your family before. The way how he disgustingly took advantage of your wife's body first before killing her mercilessly along with your poor innocent young daughter just to get your attention more.

That tragic and nightmare of a memory you had made your blood boil cursing through your veins right now.

Tadashi: "Don't call the police or else I'll kill you!", he said as he started to grab the gun in his pocket, trying to threaten you and Sana who's hiding behind you.

YN: "I won't... I rather kill you by myself.", you said as you shot him with a deadly stare. What happened next is just too quick for Tadashi's eyes to see when your assassin reflexes and skills activated when you grabbed the shoe secretly under Sana's closet and threw it right straight into the bridge of his nose before Tadashi was able to pull out his gun.

As he shouted in pain and covered his nose with his hands, you furiously charged through him, running through the bed then used it as a trampoline to jump attack him, kicking him in the head.

You grabbed the collar of his shirt, viciously throwing him to the wall at the other side of the room. He tried to fight back by punching you too, but you countered it and pushed it back through his face, as if he punched himself.

This Tadashi counterpart sucks at hand to hand combat, which was kind of a relief, you thought.

You grabbed his hair and banged his head on your knee before giving him an uppercut. His face has already bruises and blood all over it.

He tried to beg you to stop but the merciless demon within you isn't done yet to make him pay for his sin.

So you positioned him, making him kneel in front of you then you gave him repeated punches in the face, one for the left and one for the right.

Sana: "YN.... YN... please stop."

You were about to end this scum's life when you wrapped his neck between your arms, locking him for a choke hold. You pulled the gun in your pants as you were about to explode the brains out of his skull with your crazy, fuming heat in your eyes.

Sana: "Stop... YN..."

You pulled your gun and pointed it on the side of his head until....

Sana: "STOPPPP!!!!!", she finally snapped as she beggingly shouted for you to stop. Finally, it was effective when you heard her screaming for you to end this violent thing happening in front of her. She was just like your original Sana who even hated already seeing you having your victim's blood splattered all over your assassin suit whenever you go home before.

You immediately stopped, sparing the life of Tadashi as you let go of him, dropping him beside unconsciously. You slowly stood up and catched your breath to calm down yourself before approaching the scared and terrified Sana sitting in the corner of the room, with her arms covering her head.

YN: "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry...", you hugged her. "A- are you okay?"

Sana: "YN... you came back... you really did.", she looked at you, showing her still-gorgeous reddish face stained with her tears. As you stared at her, you realized that it was finally over.

You did it.

You saved them.

You successfully completed your redemption arc.

"Are you okay?", she asked you when she saw your face trembling with teardrop in your eyes flowing out in your cheeks.

YN: "Yes. I just can't believe that you're now safe", you nodded at her. "I... I saved you.", you said before sniffing off your tears.

Sana: "Where's Anya?"

YN: "Downstairs. She's safe. I'll just call the police okay?", she nodded in response and then you went on to grab your phone and dialed the police number.

The police along with the emergency came in quick after in Sana's residence. The police arrested Tadashi for what he did while the emergency healed you, Sana, Anya and Miyeon's wounds but Sana got additional treatment for her fever so she needed to stayed more on the hospital.

You got recognized by the public through the media as you got reported after how he rescued the famous actress and singer Minatozaki Sana of Japan. It resulted him to get promoted to a much higher rank in security team of Sana's agency. The CEO and owner of the company Hiroshi Yuta along with Sana's manager Gong Seungyeon congratulated you first.

You and Anya along with Miyeon and Seungyeon went on to visit Sana in the hospital often. After 3 days, Sana recovered from high fever and was released in the hospital, but she still went on to take some rest as requested by the company to assure her full energy on going back to work.

With that, you stayed with Sana all day to assist and also spend time with her along with Anya.

The next day, you were standing with Sana at the rooftop of the Twice Entertainment building. It was 7PM in the evening as Sana just finished her schedule after returning for work today. She then decided to have some talk with you to spend her free time.

Sana: "Taking some fresh air, huh?", she said as she caught you raising your head as if you're inhaling while closing your eyes.

YN: "Yup.", you answered before opening your eyes again.

Sana: "YN, you've been spacing out for a few days now, even today... I can tell it.", she said out of nowhere. That made you exhale deeply. "After the promotion you got, your mood just changed fast.", she looked at you after. You couldn't deny it because you're guilty since she was saying the truth anyways.

YN: "Sorry. It's just... there's something in my mind that I couldn't sweep away.", you excused. Sana just nodded at you but you didn't know that she ain't buying it.

You two keep on staring at the nightsky as the chilly wind striking the two of you, sending chills to each other's skin while it sends the clothes and hair join the flow of the direction it goes into.

Sana: "YN, mind if I ask you something?", she broke the silence again, trying to start another topic.

YN: "Go ahead."

Sana: "How do you know my stalker's name?", she asked you, making you listen to her more. "The way you said his name that night it was like... you've known him before.", she said, but you remained to be silent for a second as you prepared yourself because you know what's about to come.

The perfect time has come, you thought.

YN: " We said we're gonna share each other's thoughts and secrets right?", you made her recall that day when both of you promised each other about it.

Sana: "Yeah."

YN: "I did... but If I tell you mine, would you atleast... try to understand me?", you finally looked at her, and all you can on Sana right now is that she is definitely tensed and curious.

Sana: "Ofcourse I will."

YN: "Sana... I feel that I may be gone soon, and it makes me afraid.", you said slowly.

Sana: "What? Why? Where are you going?", she got startled, making her asked you with rapid fire questions as what you said made her panic in confusion.

YN: "Honestly, I don't know. That's what I'm nervous about.", you said, shrugging your shoulders. " I have to go but I don't have any idea what place awaits for me.", you said as you take a glance at the overview look of Osaka with it's blinding lights coming from the structures scattered all around the landscape.

"But what makes me scared is that... I have to let you go again... and I won't be able to see you ever again.", you said as you choked a bit at your shaky voice.

Sana: "What are you implying? What is this you're hiding from me, YN?", she turned you around to face her, grabbing your arm gently and asked you softly, being careful not to force and rush you too much.

YN: "I've known Tadashi already... even way before you found out that he is your obsessed stalker because...

Sana, i'm not from here. It's crazy to say that I am from... another universe.", you said, and that made Sana's stare at you as her eyebrows raise up in surprise at what you just said.

"A universe where... I had you, and Anya.", you said, your broken voice is now clearly audible to be heard. "I am here... to be with you two again so that I could... fix the mistake I've done.

Sana: "What mistake?"

YN: "The mistake of not being there on your side when that tragic day happened.", you said as your lips starts to twitch and your eyes went blinking rapidly. "You and Anya... died because of me. It was our special day at that time. Our anniversary.", and with that; your tears starts to fell from your eyes. Sana's eyes just widened in shock.

"I wasn't able to save you two from my enemy who's hunting me. I wanted him dead, so I killed him and I got what I wanted... but it didn't make it better. It just pulled me even deeper into the darkness."

You continued to tell her everything, including how you killed the real Tadashi before, your encounter with the entity named Jihyo who helped you to travel into this another universe by avoiding you to successfully kill yourself via suicide, until to where it lead you here with your main objective being able to see Sana and Anya again while you try to perform a redemption by saving them this time.

"Now that I finally redeemed and forgive myself, I just want to say this to you before I might be away, Sana.", you stepped even closer in front of her, looking at her straight in the eye. "I'm sorry, for what happened. Wherever I may end up now, I'll still consider following the path where it would lead me back to you again and do what I must do because...

I love you, Sana. You and Anya, through every another lifetime or another universe... it will always be you and our daughter.", you said to her wholeheartedly and very sincere as you could ever be. You made Sana feel for you too as she started to cry in front of you, her own tears fell.

You calm down yourself after trembling and breathing hard from your sobs before questioning her about something again.

YN: "Now, tell me. Sana, what's this universe like to you?"

Sana: "Almost the same as yours. We both lost special person in our lives that left us devastated.", she smiled bitterly at you.

YN: "Who was yours?"

Sana: "I have a husband. He died in a road accident year ago...

... and that's you, YN.", she revealed her own secret to you, cupping your cheek with her hand as you stared at her in pure shock with the revelation she made. You didn't expected that she actually know you right from the start.

You didn't knew that what Jihyo meant at that time when she said to you that Sana and Anya doesn't have you in this universe is because your counterpart actually died here.

She didn't tell you too that your loss actually served as a gateway to opportunity too for her in this universe to have a chance to see you again. When Sana lost you, there was no other universes for Jihyo to find a replacement of you for her since the rest has a timeline where other versions of you and Sana are still together at whatever scenario it may be; so it made her wait for a year, being alone as a single mom for Anya.

Until the time you lost your Sana and Anya in your universe, it all changed when you became available and finally there was a universe where both you and Sana can fulfill what the both of you want to have: to be reunited with your loved ones who passed away.

"I was blaming myself at that time, thought that I could've stopped you from going away.", she said to you. You remembered when Sana was sick at that time and she tried her last remaining energy in her to make you stop leaving.

Little did you know that it was the same exact scenario that happened in Sana way back a year ago. She tried to made your version stay with her instead on the bed since she doesn't want you to go out because it's late night already, but you didn't listen. Your late version instead drive away and was about to buy some medicine for Sana when he got involved in a collision between two trucks.

She got afraid at that time, thinking that it might happen to her again that she might lose you; she cried so hard while you were gone and that was the time when her stalker invaded her house.

"I wanted to see you again... until when we first met, I couldn't help but to get close to you... because you remind me of him so much.", she said, explaining how she always prefer to be with you everyday and be friends to you. She was thinking that you were either just exactly look the same as his husband that's why.

Back at the time where she left you and Anya for some company call, she returned back and she was about to approach you two when she actually saw Anya hugging you from the distance. That tugged her heart as your moment with Anya made her remember your counterpart which was her own husband, making yourself more identical to him from her own perspective.

Your back was the one she can see through you at that time so she doesn't have any idea that you're tearing up at your daughter's affection.

"You don't know how I cried every single day after we end our time together. I was just full of mixed emotions. In disbelief, joy, sadness... that you here with me again. It feels like just the first time we slowly fell in love with each other.", she said to you, as you didn't know that everyday she goes home after spending some time with you, it never occured a scenario where she didn't shed a teardrop remembering you and your dead counterpart/ husband.

"And I didn't know that I wasn't wrong at all... you are really him. You are my beloved YN. You- you're back...", she showed you her phone that contains a wallpaper featuring your counterpart, Sana and very young Anya in a family picture along with each other’s names. You noticed that your counterpart has a slightly difference of facial structure than yours.

YN: "Y/NN... that was my assassin name.",you whispered as you read the name written on your picture which she only nodded, smiling at your additional confirmation. The name your counterpart used in this universe was actually your alias in your previous universe as an assassin, with your name being his nickname instead.

Sana: "Well, your name was his pseudonym which I always use to call him since he used Minatozaki as his another surname.", she said as she revealed another information about your counterpart that in this universe... he got also your dream you also wanted in your universe beside being an assassin which is to be an author. That's why you always love reading and writing.

"You don't know how I cried every single day after we end our time together. I was just full of mixed emotions. In disbelief, joy, sadness... that you here with me again. It feels like just the first time we slowly fell in love with each other.", she said to you, as you didn't know that everyday she goes home after spending some time with you, it never occurred a scenario where she didn't shed a teardrop having you in her heart and mind.

She grabbed your hands tightly and squeezed it then she looked at you. Teary eyes connecting at each other through a longing stare.

Sana: "I know you're not the real YN whom I loved in this universe... but is there any way? I don't want you to go anymore, YN. I don't want losing another you in my life.", she said softly at you. She then went to crash her body right at you, locking you in warm embrace.

"Don't go. I want you to stay. Don't leave me broken, please. I still need to love you too.", she repeatedly pleaded for you as she sobbed to your chest, both her cries and your sad heartbeats matching together in a rhythm.

Jihyo: "You're right, because I am the one who knows.", you looked around immediately to see the recognizable voice you and Sana heard that broke ecah other's moment of silence.

You just went on to accept her hug and stroke her long curly gray ash hair.

YN: "I am too, Sana... but I don't have the answers. I don't know what's next from me.", you said to her. You buried you face on the crook of her neck as the two of you went into silence with only each other's cries can be heard.

You and Sana finally saw Jihyo floating just quite close enough beside the door of the rooftop. Sana covered her eyes through your arm as she got scared at the sight of the godly being in front of her.

YN: "Jihyo? Wait, how?, you asked in disbelief.

Jihyo: "Guess I forgot to mention also to you that I'm in charge to every 9 versions of Earth in other different universes, including yours and this.", she said to you. You just formed an "o" shape in your lips to express your awe.

"Sorry to interrupt this moment between you two but... I just, couldn't take this anymore.", she swiped her hand back and forth. "I'm gonna end this. I just want you two to be happy.", you and Sana both got touched at Jihyo's words.

Sana: "Is she the entity you're talking about, YN?", she asked you as she slowly uncovered her eyes to look at the goddess you're talking with.

Jihyo: " I'm just gonna make a clear explaination for the two of you to be clarified with.", she said, looking at you and Sana. "YN, remember the part where I told you that in replace of your travel here in this universe to meet Sana again... you gave me your existence as a sacrifice?"

YN: "Yeah she is.", you smiled at her.

"What do you mean, Jihyo?", you switched you gaze back at the goddess entity.

YN: "Yeah... I do."

Jihyo: "Truth is, not only your physical form was the one I transferred here in this universe... but also the right that you exist too.", she started to explain. "In simple words, technically you are now belong in this world. Meeting Sana is written all over in your destiny again... which is the way also to redeem yourself."

YN: "Wait, so does that mean... after I finally saved Sana, that won't make me vanish here?"

Jihyo: "You got it correct.", she nodded, it made your face enlightened. "Now that you are the version of YN that's exists in this world, the original one will be forgotten completely, starting tomorrow.", she looked back at Sana again. "I know it's hard to hear, Sana but... that's what it is."

Sana: "It's fine.", she raised her head to looked at you again. "As long as it is him I should fall in love into.", she smiled sweetly at you which you returned back too.

Jihyo: "Good to know.", she said, smiling too for both of you and Sana. "My time of service is now up, I guess I shall leave you two now.", she bowed her head but before she was about to disappear in the light, you called her one more time.

YN: "If that's what you want then let's do it, my love.", you looked below to see your lovely woman staring tenderly at you too and finally you and Sana went for a kiss that was only full of everlasting romantic love, affection and fondness.

YN: "Wait!", she turned around and look at you. "We thank you so much. This all won't be possible if it wasn't for you.", you and Sana grinned at her. Sana laid her head at your shoulder, wanting to show Jihyo how great of a result it ended up after all she has done for the two of you.

Jihyo: "At your service, YN and Sana. But the credits will be all yours. You said it yourself, you were the one who chose this path where it would lead you to her again, I just assisted you through it.", then she shined brightly until she slowly disappeared and went through other god-knows-what she may be now.

Sana: "So what are we going to do now?

Are we... gonna start all over again?", she asked you.

"Do you want to go home now?", you asked her after letting go from her plump, soft, delicious lips.

Sana: "Sure, I just want to spend more time with you alone.", she giggled. You nodded and you exit the company building's rooftop with Sana.

An hour later, you reached Sana's house along with her and Anya. As Sana was about to open the door, she was stopped by Anya who asked her something.

Anya: "Mama... is YN-kun will go home now?", she asked while pouting her lips at her mother. Both of you noticed that Anya is really feeling sad that you're about to go away now. The kid already grew a fond to you through every single day while she doesn't have any idea that it was her father all along that she considered as her "big friend".

Sana: "No, Anya- san.", she answered then turn her head to look at you. "Daddy won't go away this time.", she formed a smirk after which made your heart skip a beat and blush intensely when she decided to introduce you to Anya as her father.

You decided to go through the flow with her as you squat in front of Anya and introduce yourself too as what Sana referred you.

YN: "Yes, Daddy isn't going anywhere now, ok?", you said as you pinched her chubby cheek which made her grin widely.

Anya: "Daddy?", she asked you again, probably confused why she does need to call you like that now. You only had to nod back in response to her. Fortunately she lets it go aside as she returned her enjoyment back, jumping happily in front of you. "Yehey, Daddy is staying!", she said, finally acknowledged you while you and Sana just let out a laugh at how adorable Anya is. She really got her personality from her mother, you thought.

As the three of you finally entered the house, you guided Anya to her bedroom when you noticed her keep on yawning. She admits that she's sleepy so right now she was laying down on her bed while you sat beside her and Sana was watching the two of you on the door.

Anya: "Daddy we can play together tomorrow, right?"

YN: "Yes, my princess.", you answered. "Let's get you to sleep now because mommy and I have some... unfinished business to do.", you said, winking at Sana who smiled back at you.

You and your daughter Anya exchanged goodnights at each other before turning off the lights and closed her door, leaving her bedroom.

After that, you prepared an indoor date with your beloved girlfriend and surely soon to be again your wife Sana; to continue exactly just like you were supposed to do for her before if that tragedy didn't happened.

The two of you ended the night with a slow romantic date together with each other's favorite couple song and weng for another kiss, finally completing and retrieving the more worthy outcome both of you deserved to have in the first place.

Meanwhile at the same time from an unknown universe, Jihyo attended a special event which was a wedding of her fellow godly beings: you and Sana's god counterparts even though they went through hard times in their relationship; even broke up once and went back at each other's arms again as it signified more how you and Sana were truly destined to be together for all time and eternity no matter what happens.

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[milascenta]

August 9th 22:32

I apologise for not posting in a while, I've been dealing with massive migraines for a bout a month or so. But I have found the culprit and have fixed the problem, I'm feeling much better now. I should be able to get back to streaming soon too, with better equipment/quality. I realised too late that my second monitor had been going on 10 years now so it was giving out this high pitched signal, I just thought it was my mild tinnitus. My tinnitus was being compounded on, giving me massive headaches and making me feel just crap all the time, turning off the monitor would even help too, I would have to completely disconnect all the cables for it to stop, which is just inconvenient. I thought I was going crazy for a while just hearing this tone constantly in my room, but thinking it was just my tinnitus. But my tinnitus isn't that bad, just the usual you'd get from listen to live music constantly and working with audio in general. So its calmed down a lot recently too. So I realised it was my second monitor and got rid of it, got a new one (pretty much the same as my main one just smaller, same refresh rate same brand and even same product line, only difference is panel, main is IPS and 2nd is now VA, idk really know the difference lol) so it looks a lot better and I'm really happy with it. It feels just like having one massive monitor, I don't think I would get a wide screen monitor I like having two separate ones, but they feel so similar neither is better, obviously main is a few inches bigger though. During this time though I hadn't felt like doing anything, not going on tumblr just kinda rotting away with my head exploding. I have been doing my Dr appointments though and only have a couple left, I need blood tests and then hear back from the Lung specialist about my echocardiogram (just to make sure my heart is ok after everything) and then its back to the surgeon for talks of surgery to finish everything. Its finally getting there and I can move on with my life. My arm still keeps me up at night and hurts constantly but after surgery it should be good, also I am going to ask if I can keep the piece of my rib they cut out haha, surely they can't say no, its literally me and mine hahaha. I'm going for blood tests tomorrow, hopefully, or at least to be able to get an appointment for it, then off to hematologist then surgeon.

I'm sorry I was gone, I've still been here reading your posts though. The service looked lovely, the bikers showing up was really touching and exactly what I thought would happen, they stick together. The flowers looked beautiful and also your nails. I understand it was hard, It would be weird if it wasn't you know, I understand that it sits heavy with you too, you will get stronger with it. I know there is much else to do now other than process and sometimes that feels worse than having to deal with things because at least there's something to do, but this is finally time for you to process and feel and become you. But I know thats not easy, and thats ok. It reminds me of something someone told me a lil bit ago, "A cut in a tree doesn't prevent it from growing, a cut in a tree doesn't grow larger or shrink, the tree becomes larger though. The tree continues to grow regardless. The tree grows until and you realise that the cut looks smaller in comparison, it isn't smaller, but the tree is larger" and I try and think about that sometimes because its easy to let things consume you, let things grow larger than you and before you realise it. But everyday you're growing, everyday that tree is getting larger and stronger, and in comparison the cut gets smaller and smaller. Don't let bad days turn you off that, and don't forget the good times.

I really hope you have fun in London next week, thats soo awesome you're seeing Joji, I would love to see him one day. Been a fan of him since his FilthyFrank days and legit thought he was so talented as a musician and that he was hiding it under so many layers of irony haha. Now he's like one of the biggest muscians in the world which is crazy.

I'm sorry you're not feeling well, I hope you get better soon, take time to relax and hydrate properly. I look forward to you streaming, even if its just once it will be so fun! Don't put too much pressure on not being able to right now, getting better is more important.

"Now the dark begins to rise, Save your breath its far from over"

#her