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chipistrate · 8 months

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A piece inspired by some tags under one of my posts left by @stillangelxx (sorry 4 tag)

Explanation and very long Help Wanted 2 speculation rambles under cut

This rough piece can be taken as just your usual "save Cassie" AU, because it was kinda inspired by that- BUT it was made with some of the ideas left by Angel in mind, which were basically; What if Help Wanted 2 was split POV between Gregory n Nessa, and Cassie- where Cassie thinks she's the good guy and Gregory is the antagonist in her POV, only for it to be the complete opposite. It just,,, became way more disconnected from Help Wanted than it was supposed to- but it'll probably make more since if you read the thoughts I had to flesh out the idea, which are right below the line-

Honestly this whole piece was made as an excuse to ramble about the idea and my interpretation of how it could go as a (current)believer that HW2 is directly after Ruin, but then it got way too long to just add in a reblog- so now we're here with an original post instead!(hope that's alright,,!)

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Wrote all this at like 3am so cut me a little slack if some of it is incomprehensible- I tried cleaning it up but it's still late so I might not get some points across right

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Basic premise: Split POVs between 3 star fam and Cassie, where the 3 star fam has minigames much more grounded in reality as they venture through the ruined Pizzaplex in search of Cassie, while Cassie's minigames are much more VR/AR based as she finds herself wandering the underground of the Pizzaplex, just barely having made it out of the elevator crash alive, and now finding it hard to distinguish reality from VR/AR. -------

Gregory and Vanessa POV ideas

-Gregory and Vanessa's minigames are more Ruin based, little sections of them trying to survive the many threats of the ruined Pizzaplex. Though some fall into more classic Security Breach territory due to VR/AR shenanigans - -Their "Glitchtrap" is M.X.E.S, and their "tapes" are Parent Nodes. M.X.E.S is not a threat in the same way Glitchtrap was, just a looming figure trying to guide them down to the M.X.E.S room and getting stronger the more Parent Nodes they reactivate. - -Their POVs main hub and select screen area is probably a cam station near the entrance of the Pizzaplex - -We switch between playing as Nessa or Gregory depending on the level and the gameplay can switch up accordingly. Sometimes we're Vanessa trying to protect Gregory, sometimes we're Gregory trying to survive on his own, etc. Freddy might also affect gameplay, whether that be for the better like being the thing protecting us in the minigame, or for the worse- like somehow accidentally bringing more attention to us and making the minigame harder.

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Cassie's POV ideas

-Cassie's minigames are MUCH more VR/AR based, way more centered on the past games, specifically stuff like Sister Location and maybe Pizzeria Sim. - -She's having a hard time differentiating VR/AR from reality - -Her POVs main hub is probably either the room with the elevator or the Mimics lair where she first encounters him(speaking of which I have no clue where he went here but he's gone for now(physically at least)) - -Her "Glitchtrap" could be Gregory calling out to her, an illusion of him created by the VR world that's almost always there in the "main hub", while the voice is actually him- the echos of his calls just barely reaching her and repeating in her head, being embodied by the illusion of him creeping around in the "main hub". He's being genuine with a concerned tone asking where she is, but she thinks he's trying to trick her- probably back to finish her off after she survived the crash. - -Not sure what her "tapes" are… maybe things explaining patient 46/GGY/Rab that only further her thinking he's the antagonist? - -It's kind of hard to tell where Cassie is irl in the heavily VR/AR minigames, but if you look close enough in each level you can piece together where she is and how she's progressing through the undergrounds of the Pizzaplex

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The game has three endings; It ends with 3 star fam and Cassie meeting up in the M.X.E.S room, and branches from there.

We can see it from either POV depending on what POV we're in when activating the ending. 3 star fam enters M.X.E.S room and go to turn them back on, when Cassie ambushes them, jumping out of the Mimics lair and confronting them, starting a tussle with Gregory. There's no boss fight, just different outcomes to the confrontation depending on a few factors;

You 100% complete Gregory and Vanessa's POV and activate the ending before finishing Cassie's POV

You 100% complete Cassie's POV and activate the ending before finishing Gregory and Vanessa's POV

You 100% complete both POVs before activating the ending

Ending 1. Vanessa reactivates the M.X.E.S before something bad happens and M.X.E.S intervenes. Whatever "intervenes" means is up 2 you cause I can't decide - Ending 2. Cassie gets the upper hand(maybe literally if she has the Mimics severed hand as a weapon) and wins the fight. Again, whatever "wins the fight" means is up 2 you cause I can't decide - Ending 3. Gregory is somehow able to convince Cassie that he isn't the antagonist before something bad happens and they make up, turning the M.X.E.S back on and exiting the Pizzaplex

And honestly? I can't see any of these being canon- They're just kinda basic outcomes to the fight, but I can't imagine any of them being canon and where the next game would theoretically pick up from- Most likely it'd be something like "Gregory and Vanessa make it out almost unscathed, but aren't able to convince Cassie to come with them as she's still so stuck in the VR/AR world and the idea that Gregory is a bad guy, and she becomes the antagonist for the next game with this game being the build up to her next appearance and a deeper dive into her as an antagonist" That's what I think would make the most sense at least!

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ANYWAY!!! UHM-

If you're here then- thanks for reading my rambles!! Saw Angel's tags and immediately my brain started going crazy, and this was the result lmao

Don't really know what else to say other than credit to Angel for the initial idea, anybody else who's reading this should definitely go show them some love because her art is REALLY good!!!

Also hype 4 Pax West lets fucking GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

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beomnoullitheorem · 2 months

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“It Is Still Love” [SPOILER SCENE]

Starring : CEO!Beomgyu × PA!Reader & Min Yoongi as well.

Synopsis: Reader thinks she is dreaming and the one she is seeing is dreamy Beomgyu who she had often encountered in her dreams. Beomgyu is completely puzzled on what he can do... WRITTEN IN BEOMGYU'S PERSPECTIVE!

SHEER WARNING! MUST READ TW!!

𖥔 DRUNK!READER & EQUALLY-PERPLEXED!BEOMGYU, incomprehensible confessions. Abrupt finishing.. that's all.

𖥔This is no one shot or a fic. It's a spoiler. For my upcoming Series which I'll be writing soon. But for now I'll post only the spoiler. For more information for the fic, click HERE!

𖥔 Also. This isn't the spoiler for first part. I just don't know. It doesn't make sense but this is an upcoming scene (not so soon in beginning chapters)

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BEOMGYU'S PERSPECTIVE :

"My Gummy Bear...." She cries, "How I yearn to tell you everything..."

Straddled onto my thighs, stroking the sides of my neck with her trembling fingers and her hand, resting on the trapezius of my neck... She let out faint sobs.

Well... if it wasn't her barging into my apartment. She figured out my password? She must have. She is a computer prodigy. Completely ruining my gaming time, she started calling me names.

Okay, I might have striked her ego & made her do chores instead of actual work (though I paid her for her half ass chores which she sucks at) for which she calls me names after our work hours.

Asshole, prick, Idiot, stupid and what not. Today we've had sealed the deal with Min Yoongi, the CEO of Agust.D's .Co. He is a tough nut, a hard-to-impress kind of man and this woman, by working on our project just for few days and then presenting it in such a professional and an astounding manner had the man finally approving our deal with them.

That smile she had when she knew she nailed it... I have seen her smile like that genuinely after these many years. It brings out some of my nostalgia. She looks irresistibly pretty when she smiles. This whole while, I have seen her smile with pretense and sarcasm, after years. It was confirmed. She is totally happy today.

But after our work hours today, she went away soon. Only for me to find out later, she was drinking with girls. I somehow sent the guys to fetch their respective girls but when I was about to go out to fetch this troublesome brat, she popped into my place. She is safe atleast. Before I could check anything on her, she fell onto me. Mumbling and calling me names.

She passed out. And now thinks this is all a dream. She stripped infront of me and asked me to give her my clothes. I immediately shut my eyes closed. And somehow did what I was told.

She changed into my clothes and if she didn't fulfill my long lost fantasy, I would be lying.

She kept on rambling about how she's the worst person in the world that she deserves no happiness. She lashed out at me for the same stuff that day.

She started tearing up, sobbing faintly and then telling me things, "I'm not the one for you..."

"You deserve someone so much better, Not me."

"＿＿... stop cryi-" she palmed my mouth. "Only real Beomgyu gets to talk to me. You'll only listen, dreamy Asshole."

Again. She will never stop calling me that. I nodded along to which she looked at me tearful eyes. She immediately wiped her tears.

"Sit," She requested, " I want to let you know something."

As I had seated myself, laying my back onto the headboard. I saw her crawling towards me and in the blink of an eye— She straddled onto my thighs together & was dangerously close to me.

This proximity. I- I don't know... how do I say it?? I was enjoying it.... I should have stopped but I couldn't... I was planning to listen today... listen to her...

I missed this. Having her close to me, our lips inches apart and our bodies somehow connected... I missed you.... .

( Back to the present. )

"Gyu... this makes no absolute sense but I love you... I do and I'm not willing to cage you into my entangled mess of a life, impossible to unravel... But hear me out, my Gummy Bear?"

Fuck. That Gyu from her mouth & that name..... wait. She didn't just say that L-word conveying it in fucking present tense- I haven't realized how I am caught aback by this. "WHAT DID-"

I'm curious. She didn't yet tell me why she has had broken up with me.

"Shush," she cut me off, shutting my lips using her index finger, "Just * hiccup * listen.."

My heart hurts ＿＿＿ , it hurts. Hearing the same thing that I so had yearned for.. back then, after you had broken up with me. You broke our relationship and shattered my heart into pieces that I could never put back together.

When I try to push her away and move away, she pushes me back and sits onto my thighs again. Pinning me to the headboard and and caging my hands with her hands.. damn she is strong.

Just when I was about to push her down, I heard her sob. Her face scrunched up, her heavy breathing, her runny eyes and her soft sobs which stilled my voluntary moments of resisting her and I willingly obeyed as as she breathed in to say something.

"Listen to me, stupid prick," She mewls, "I never get to talk to you like this in my haunting dreams..., I do now and LET ME!"

"I'm completely like him. You don't know him. He caged her with him. She felt strangled around his presence. He is so sweet when he wants but absolutely wrecking toxic. And I'm his female version... I've seen him doing everything to her, mentally tormenting her...and have witnessed myself recreating it.. "

Her words, from every aspect, absolutely unbelievable, have me frozen. Him. Who's this him? And who did he mentally torment and who did ＿＿＿ had recreated it to?

"You don't need someone like me. That's why I'm the worst...," She lets go of my hands and traverses them around my neck, placing her palm onto it and her thumb caressing the around of my Adam's apple.

Stop touching my neck will you? I just can't get her obsession with my neck and my Adam's apple. However, this time she is serious.

"This love which I'm preserving for you.... is just meaningless," She connects her forehead to mine. I should do something but...

"But know this. You complete my existence. Serve my love-starved soul, blooming those mystical feelings which I have reserved only for you & shower me the love I'm not made for....."

I... what? What's happening? ＿＿＿＿, ARE YOU OKAY??

"My love, you are my endgame... but I'm not yours. You are made for me but I'm not. You are perfect. You didn't do anything wrong. It's me..."

Is that you? I'm completely restricted to move because... I just wanna listen to her? Maybe.

L-Love? Made for h-her? Per-fect-?

What is she going on at? I- [HER : You are perfect] can't und- [HER : my endgame]———

Oh fuck. My brain have just now short-circuited at her words. Get yourself together Beomgyu.... Calm down fucking system. She ain't the one you should make me feral for.

"It's all my fault. I'm the one who is flawed... you're fucking fine. You are more than enough. You are worth the whole world...."

Oh fuck this. She is drunk and she thinks she confesses to whoever about whomever?! Fisting her slender hands into my palms around her back, I ask her, "Are you serious? Do you even have the slightest idea of what you're speaking?" Harshly.

To my harsh ask, she only answers with a guy wrenching sob that made me realize I was hurting her. "This is not the same Gyu in my dreams.... He is just like the real one... and whatever! What I am saying is truth!"

The word, 'truth' has halted my wits and every racing fibre in me that was just wishing to sober her up. "Oh.. I'm sorry.. please don't stop?"

"I will never say no to you Gyu," She smiles as though I reassured her, "I can go on for hours about how you make me feel emotionally, totally, soulfully, & wholly loved. But.."

I'm listening to her for my own self satisfaction. This... I was never this messed up. I have had surety in my every decision. "She is drunk," my mind says, "drunk people spout nonsense. There's a possibility that what she said is just her... drunk."

"She is drunk," My heart repeats after my mind, "Drunk people spout hidden secrets. She was completely on guard before being drunk and now she's nowhere near stopping her confession which doesn't seem fake."

My mind and my heart have clashed, leaving me into a dilemma. And I'm left unanswered.

"But... what?"

"What you make me feel physically, proving love is just pure science full of mystery is insane.... My world finds meaning because it has you. But I should have forgotten you but I couldn't and the destiny didn't let me either. I met real you."

Incoherent rambling full of truthfulness, how do I avoid it? Moreover how do I move now that she is sitting into my lap, kneeling? And this dangerous proximity... stilling me to feel it all again, just what do I do?

I'm wholly numbed between these mixed feelings.

"You know why I fidget my ears all the time girls have teased me? That's cause my ears become red and there's this slight twitch induced with my racing mind full on spurring their teasing statement about me and you, makes me wanna actualize it...." She wipes her tears and gathers her breath to speak normally.

Actualize-? They teased about how the bed would be moving like a jelly shaken due to us... ＿＿＿!? SHE WANTS TO ACTUALIZE WHAT—!

"For a person who claimed to you that I'm just made for earning, working and just breathing all her life to die a lonely cold death, I feel liking living again when you near me and my heart starts beating again," She introduces my hand to her breast- oh my heart!

"Let me tell you Gyu, that my heart only beats for you. It pumps blood in absence of your thought and in your absence.."

I look over to her face and I find her looking at me with eyes full with endearment. And that smile... Her red eyes glisten, not from tears but something I'm so unaware of. Her lips quiver into a smile that I'm completely familiar with but I don't know why she is telling me such things when she has fallen out of love with me..

I am taught to prioritize myself over anything after my family for which I dumbly followed my instincts. Her high words are affecting me now... outmatching my estimated guard. ＿＿＿, aren't you really my indispensable past now haunting me with your absolute presence?

I should terminate that agreement that I so pettily had created to... I DON'T KNOW WHY I JUST GRABBED HER INTO MY CLUTCHES! I only knew one thing and that was to have her with me. Not in any romantic way. That's for sure. Because, there's no woman in this who had fucked me up into something I had never pictured myself to become into.

Shall I listen to all of this by sober her? Or this... her? I'm doomed. I knew it. This truth is making me want to believe her. For now what I am convinced by my heart is that I'll listen to her.

"See, it's beating. I'm excited. I'm happy. Feel it," She chirps, "This is what you're capable of Gyu... you're a fucking happiness bank unlimited."

Take it off ＿＿＿＿!

A low chuckle escapes my mouth at her words. I still have my hands on her boobs. We were once wild physical. I was feral for her soul and fucks with her. Stop triggering that asleep past man of yours who was once head over heels for you..

"And, feel my palm over yours? It's trembling... not out of any anxiety, it's just twitching in to and fro, feeling your touch have now ignited many things that make me feel alive."

She emphasizes her slightly trembling hand onto mine, resting onto her breast right on her heart. She then takes my hand away from her breast to which I'm so grateful to, and then grabs both of my hands, slipping them under her t-shirt or mine— placing them onto her waist which has her and I flinching.

I'm not going to lie, she grew up to be more beautiful. She looks dazzling, I find myself unable to take off my eyes ogling at her shamelessly. The more I look, the prettier she gets. Now she is making me touch her, I'm a little spurred on...

Her warm torso, cushiony waist which felt slightly bumpy to which my thumb subconsciously traced repeatedly, making me realize she is having goosebumps.

"Your touch makes my skin cells excited. And hence, I feel like it's the most exciting and exotic feeling of having you touch me...Gyu."

She explains.

Her previous confessions on how my presence soothes her emotionally and now these are glitching my sense to judge what I can make of it...... how I have started to feel lightheaded from this confession of hers and now my breath started hitching and my heart starts palpitating in that way....

How I have long ago forgotten about how I'm looking at her as though I'm having a soft spot for her but I can't help but melt at this.

" See the way my breath hitches and I feel excited.. not the sexual one but it's something else... are you getting it?"

Is she even drunk? Or me? Am I a pushover? I don't know... but she and I are resonating here... she and I having that reunion couple-thingy thing... I'm lost at words to even comprehend this myself... that damn heart of mine now pumps blood to my face... flushing it red... Drunk ＿＿＿, please don't notice it.

I'm fucked. Completely bound towards doom.

"And this heat on my face... That damn blush whenever you are close to me or around me... this way... I'm reminded that I once loved and whatever I feel for you... be it fruitless way of adoring you from afar... It is still love..."

Yes, I know. You damn sorceress! I'm feeling again... you feel whatever that is, for me... and are making me feel... shit... I think I got used to live without her... but haven't yet gotten over her... Little flower... what do I do?

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rayclubs · 1 year

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I have Thoughts about Language again.

So, a long long while back I've made a post about how Heavy TF2 has that grammatically incomprehensible speech pattern where his sentences are missing the subject but not the object ("is good", "is nice", etc), and I somehow made it sound like missing the subject AT ALL is a bad idea always at all times, and I didn't think it a big deal but it kept popping up so I'm gonna tell you guys about the instances where it actually would make sense for him to miss the subject.

Okay, first of, a recap:

A subject is the "who/what" of the sentence.

An object is the action of the sentence, it's what the subject is doing.

"Heavy loves Medic." <- "Heavy" is the subject, "loves" is the object.

With that out of the way:

Heavy missing subjects doesn't work because those sentences specifically use the verb "to be" in present tense, which is not used at all in Russian. Where Americans would say "I am happy", Russians would say "I happy."

We also generally don't use "it" because, well, there is no "it" in Russian. There is "оно", which is somewhat close to neutral gender, but it's not neutral in the way that it can substitute both a "he" and a "she", so it's more of a third gender, and really is used for something different altogether. So.

So in Heavy's case it wouldn't be "It's a so sad!", it would just be "So sad!".

ANYWAY. Y'all know that already. Here's where he could actually miss the subject.

Drop the "I" when talking about past (or, ocasionally, future) events. "Went to the store, buyed some food, put it in the fridge. Came next day - no food. Who ate? Will fucking kill."

Specifically, future events that contain a... well, now I gotta explain progressive to you. It's like an action that takes a certain amount of time to complete. "I will read a book" - simple, done in one sitting. "I will be reading a book" - progressive, might take a week.

So, in Russian Future Progressive (Future Continuous, if you learned English the way I did - same thing tho) is one of the rare situations where we actually got an auxiliary verb, and it works pretty much exactly the same as "will"! So you can go "Will be doing" at the beginning of the sentence and that'd work. Also in questions. "Will be working tonight?" instead of "Will you be working tonight?" - kind of can see it happening naturally.

Anyway, just thought I'd throw that in there, now go ahead and write so much Heavy. So so much Heavy. I love him.

#tf2 #tf2 heavy #tf2 accents #<- tag for language posts for the future

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are-you-judd-enough · 1 year

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last updated: 10/Oct/2023

Submissions open: see below the cut.

Submitting a map, best practice; a masterpost

I thought I'd make a styleguide and masterpost for how to submit a map!

On backups: First things first, take a video of the result as a backup. Load the code, skip to the end, see the funny cephalopods dance and hold in the screen capture button. If an update ruins your code, this backup will live on until you delete it. I take the video right away instead of watching a replay and take the screens from that video recording where I can pause and scrub for the frame I want.

1st preference: I love receiving your codes; I'll do all the work for you! Please also make a backup via video capture because updates kill your match codes (learned this the hard way). You can go to the terminal in the lobby and save a game to recieve its code!

The splatoon font is utterly incomprehensible, so please make a backup screenshot of the code; if you typo and then play too many matches, you can lose the code and with it the map. this happens more than you think and it's sad to not be able to feature your map!

On codes: Codes can be generated from any of your last 50 matches, "no-contests" included, and remain available until a patch breaks continuity. Once you have a code, it's saved and you can play as much as you want right away, play 60 more matches and your code persists! Patches can take us by surprise, however, so please prepare a backup.

Second preference; If you're the kind of person who wants to submit screenshots, remember that you need to submit two!

The "question" image should be a clean image of the map, before it is obscured by the handsome judges. This one is easy to grab because the map is displayed for about 3 seconds. This should not be the mid-match map.

The "answer" image should be after the splash of the colliding ink, but before the banner drops. This can be a little tricky to pin down unless you're taking the capture from a video capture. This is very difficult to grab from a twitter video because you cannot pause the video without the video controls being overlayed, but easy on switch where you can track, pause and save the frame as a screenshot.

For Splatfests, if you want to include the vicory or defeat message becasue it's a multiplier battle, feel free to keep it included.

Some advice: Lil Judd and I like to curate interesting and close maps, especially ones that have you scratching your head: to this end, please also submit interesting losses too, noone is thinking less of you for it, we are not @squids-posting-their-ws. It's no fun if you can guess the answer, just because it's a submitted map.

Finally; A video capture (hold in the screenshot button) of the results screen is also a valid option. You could upload the video somewhere manually, but while twitter exists, Nintendo lets you post directly to twitter. A link to your tweet is enough (so long as I can see it, a protected account might need to upload the video to youtube as an alternative).

It helps out if you trim your clip: best practice is to have the clip start at the black screen before the map is shown, and end after the banner has come down, but before the players are displayed.

Asks and messages are open! If your messages are open, too, I'll let you know when I've queued your map so long as I have the spoons (as in, when your map enters the hopper, I have a lot of maps and am not sure when it will be seen, but it will be!). To be able to post properly, the blog can't accept submissions via the tumblr submission section; strange, I know.

I make a note of your blog name, for credit purposes, when I queue the map, so if you change your blog name between submission and posting, I might have diffculty crediting you.

#judd #splatoon #splatoon 3 #submissions #How to

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airasora · 5 months

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It's now been 48 hours since Sweeney, my bird, died.

I am in a better place. I still cry every now and then if I let myself think about him. So, frankly, I do my best not to.

I've reached out to a psychologist who specializes in animal loss. I did that just 10 minutes ago, even though my friend sent me a link to them only an hour after I told them in a group message that Sweeney was gone.

My friends, my mother and you guys have been immensely supportive. Thank you to those of you who reached out with kind and comforting words.

Oh, and fuck you to the person who decided to make a joke out of it by commenting "F". But also thank you, cause it stopped me from being sad for a moment because I got furious instead.

As a sidenote, I will most likely be finishing and posting my audition for MxDisney in a few days or so. I've been dealing with my grief by essentially just... keeping myself busy. And spend extra time cuddling with my other birds. And I've been avoiding sleeping cause, frankly, I'm afraid to do so because last time I woke up, I woke up to Sweeney dead at the bottom of his case. I know it's an irrational fear and I'll have to sleep some time, but until it becomes completely necessary, I'll keep myself busy instead.

And a shoutout to the poor man who saw me run out of my house, screaming and sobbing with Sweeney in my arms. He most likely lives in my area and we might meet again. Lowkey hoping he won't recognize me... xD And also to the two very sweet cab drivers who drove me to and from the hospital who offered comfort to the best of their abilities as well. And of course, to the wonderful staff who were subjected to my bawling and complete incomprehensible explanation of what had happened. Especially the woman who patiently waited for me to finally give her Sweeney when I was as ready as I'd ever be to let go of him.

Sweeney, I miss you more than I can explain. Your presence always brought joy to those around you with the little pitter-patter of your feet while you were scurrying around, your cute little kakariki noises and how you were so welcoming to all the birds who came after you. You were the big brother in the group despite being the smallest in size.

I love you and miss you, my little smiling avocado.

#sweeney #pet loss #i cried twice writing this #it also took me a half hour #this is going to be so hard for such a long time

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cat-vase · 11 months

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other thing similar to the bryce stuff that i think you may be interested in!

Owen was most likely interrogated by police about Liams disappearance since he was the last one to see Liam before he vanished (BOTH TIMES not counting bryce or the cashier+waiter in ep15), which means there’s the possibility of Owen being wrongly convicted… despite the fact that there may not be much evidence against him.

(same thing goes for Parker regarding Charlotte’s disappearance since he was AT HER HOUSE and had a reason to be mad at her, leading the police to believe he possibly murdered her over the money..?)

Someone pointed out to me once that it was likely Owen who REPORTED Liam missing in the first place! How else would the police know it was LIAM'S bike instead of... literally anyone else's? He probably got cleared of suspicion since there's likely outside security footage of Liam leaving the office alone (and Owen leaving alone, too!) Assumming this because... well. Everything has cameras everywhere nowadays.

But yeah!!! I'm sure he was questioned but since Liam literally disappeared into thin air, they couldn't find anything to convict him? Or anybody else, either? Or anything to use... to figure out where he was? Hence presuming him dead!!! Which sucks for Owen, especially if he finds out about the smokestack incident somehow (and that it happened BEFORE he saw Liam???), but what can you do!

But oh my god Parker. I have so many thoughts about Parker you have no idea. Not a lot of people talk about Charlotte I feel and even then, if they do they DON'T talk about Parker and that is a CRIME.

He saw her disappear in front of his eyes! Mid sentence! There was still dinner cooking in the kitchen and jazz playing on the TV! Wouldn't that send him into some sort of anxious spiral? Or psychotic break? Wouldn't he be unsure if she ever existed or not?

And his job is a brand associate! Wouldn't that make him in the public eye, at least somewhat? If he went crazy people would SEE and KNOW. He might be arrested on suspicion of murder? Or institutionalized? Or go off the grid? Maybe he starts to pay for her place and cover up her disappearance in order to try and investigate it! Maybe he searches every single forum he can online, stringing together other random disappearances of this nature whether or not they're actually connected! Maybe he takes something of hers to convince himself that yes, she WAS real! He can't tell anyone else in his friend group about this, of course. They'll think he did something to her, and he would never. He just wanted her to be okay. Is she okay, wherever she is? He hopes she's okay. He just wants her to come back. He's not mad about the money anymore. He's sorry he yelled. Please just come back. One day she has to, right? In the same manner she disappeared? He can't get rid of her place now, what if she came back and he wasn't there?

Maybe he posts incomprehensible ramblings on a website he makes in order to make sure he doesn't lose them, but also so he can stay anonymous. He goes on outings for days searching and never turns up any leads, of course. In the beginning his friends try to interact with him; they fear for his safety, he's so JUMPY, and he has an accident and falls in one of the caves they've been to a thousand times. He just gets more closed off after that. He becomes more and more like the person he's trying to find: No, he's FINE, he can find her on his OWN, he doesn't NEED help, he's perfectly fine and sane.

And maybe, if he's not locked up somewhere or done something to hurt himself, maybe he DOES see her come back someday. She's in a worse state than she left in.

But that's a whole different can of worms.

#evergreenights #hfjone #hfj one #SORRY THIS GOT OUT OF HAND. I HAVE SO MANY THEORIES ABOUT PARKER OK.....#sorry if this doesnt make sense i was at work then hanging out with friends!!!#but AHHHHH THEY MAKE ME SO INSANEEEEE #tldr parker and owen both lose their minds a little bit. just a little #one more severe than the other. but again. she was RIGHT THERE.#not tagging characters bc this is all over the place ahjabjh #i DID enjoy this thank u!!!!!!!!#ask

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posting this here under a cut instead of on r/trans where it probably should be (but i can't stand reddit), in the vague hopes someone can give me some kind of advice.

so my gf is currently transitioning and has basically told me that she doesn't feel like she should be dating anyone while she's experiencing intense gender dysphoria and related depression. she's just started hrt this month but probably won't be able to afford and schedule her surgeries for another couple of months at least. she's also not publicly out (just to friends and family but her family is....not great about it) and i know she's scared to be out because where she currently lives isn't a safe country for trans people (which is like an oxymoron but some places are Worse y'know).

we're still in contact but she's slowly shut down more and more and thinks that she's dragging me down or holding me back from being with someone better (even though i've assured her that's not the case). i've always been super affirming regarding her appearance and that helped initially but it's at a point where she just doesn't believe me and then she feels bad for that. she also completely refuses financial help and says it makes her feel like a burden etc. right now i'm just sending the occasional supportive text, i don't want to smother her, but i do worry she'll cut me off completely out of some misguided idea that i'm better off without her.

i've been educating myself as much as possible on transitioning and dysphoria, i wrote her a list of things she might like to try even just at home like femme outfit ideas, hairstyles, makeup tips etc. things that might give her those more euphoric moments. i've sent her flowers, bought her 'feminine' gifts, talked about braiding her hair, going shopping with her etc. all the stuff i know she's sad she missed out on from being closeted. but it's really hard in a long-distance relationship to help her in a more material way. she won't be able to move until the end of this year at least and i guess i'm scared abt what might happen in that time.

i told her i'm happy to wait, months, or years even, until she feels ready to be with me. it doesn't matter because it feels like i've been waiting my whole life for her, what's a couple of years compared to that. i just don't know what else i can do in the meantime, short of getting on a plane and being there for her irl for a few days or a week at least but she completely shut that idea down and i know she's scared that i'm not going to enjoy being with her in person especially when she hates herself so much right now.

which is ????? to me. she's so sweet and kind and she's said the most insanely romantic things to me, she's clever and funny (my lil comedian fr) and she looks like a fucking model LIKE it's honestly incomprehensible that a girl like this calls herself trash. but at the same time, i know from childhood trauma and years of depression/suicidal ideation how easy it is to hate every part of yourself to the point you wish you were never born. and that makes my heart ache for her so much and makes me wish i could help even more. i just feel like i need direction, am i doing the right things could i be doing more is being here for her enough. i just don't know.

#personal

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iwritenarrativesandstuff · 10 months

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Trimax Thoughts Vol. 1 Pt. 1

I'm late to this because I couldn't think of what to say other than my little joke posts. This is just more sporadic commentary as a result because I'm saving some of my thoughts for when I have more information later on.

One of my favourite panels so far fr. Please Mr. Nightow what dumb shenanigans did these two get into on the regular. Please tell me. Eriks and Lina are my new favourite comedy duo. (You know. Before bad things happen. As per usual.)

Ok so some thoughts on Vash awkwardly insisting that Lina overreacted - she didn't. Self-defense is valid and Lina was well-within her rights to kick that creep in the face, but Vash is now even more passive than he was in his attempts to mitigate violence and tragedy - he's not just throwing away his own pride and dignity, he's fumbling through expecting others to do the same, which he didn't used to do btw - which, unfortunately, makes sense. He's hidden himself away and is terrified of himself - he wants so badly to avoid being the cause of or seeing any more pain inflicted on people. But here's the thing - extreme passivity can also be harmful. There are some things you should get angry at and should respond defensively to. It reminds me a little of that part in Little Arcadia where Meryl is upset with herself for not responding with the same righteous anger towards Badwick pointing a gun at his parents the way Milly did. Unaffectedness can become uncaringness if one walls oneself off from becoming defensive of that which is important to them (tbh I think Meryl was being too harsh on herself in that scene - but it's important to note that she writes the letter to her parents after, and responds more openly and honestly in future chapters). Meryl also realizes in that arc that she can choose a path for herself that doesn't necessarily have to be in perfect keeping with her parents' - they will live through her regardless - but Vash here doubles down on his original philosophy and takes it to extremes instead. I'm finding it really intriguing that Meryl appears to be learning similar lessons to the ones Vash should be, but much earlier than he does (if he will, which I hope he will). I think that might be because they have similar ideals at their cores.

Also, lol at Wolfwood seeing the footprint she left on the guy's face and just being like "nice, kid".

I hate this. I hate this. Can he quit having his reputation be thrown back in his face for five minutes? How much must it hurt him that despite him only ever wanting to help, the image most everyone has of him is this caricature of a villain who is violent and cruel and belittling and demeaning, or else, the whispers of some calamitous being on a power scale incomprehensible to humanity, like some sort of bogeyman? And then to have him reveal all his scars in such an incredibly humiliating way - and to have that be the moment we, as the readers, have definite proof that this man is, in fact, Vash. This impostor went the extra mile to look exactly like the "humanoid typhoon" but it's those scars that are the genuine reveal of Vash's true character. He's just a guy. Yes, he's capable of being dangerous, yes, he's pretty much a living weapon of mass destruction, but he is also kind and self-sacrificing to a fault and chooses this kindness every day. He is literally just a guy. I need people to be fucking nice to him. Leave him alone.

Wolfwood already being defensive of Vash counter: 1

Grandma Sheryl really said "Get my gun." Whhfsdjhfvh

I'm realizing that when Wolfwood unclasps Punisher here, this is... the first time Vash has actually seen that it is. A giant gun. This is the first time the reader would have seen this. Hjhnsdjhvn???

The hair cutting scene hurts me so bad man. I've seen a couple people break down that scene so I won't do that here but hnnng. I love that Lina so clearly cares about him. That she wanted to keep him safe too. And even though she doesn't feel like she could do enough it meant the world to him. Augh. Aughhhh.

Meryl's birthday is in February!!! This is important information.

Ah yes, Trimax Chapter 3, or, as I like to call it, "Area Insurance Girls Destroy Workplace Asshole's Entire Career by Hitting Him With Proof that He Is a Hitman Committing Murder and Fraud, Then Hitting Him in the Back with a Projectile from a Stun Gun". (Meryl and Milly I love you and I love your teamwork. Girls <3. Again, someone broke down the whole part with Meryl here so I won't get into it.)

Wolfwood already being defensive of Vash counter: 2

Wolfwood already being defensive of Vash counter: 3 (also holy shit dude???)

(For clarity, this counter I'm keeping is because it makes me laugh - I have a sneaking suspicion I know why he's there from Tristamp - which makes the fact that he reacts like this after like. What? A few days of knowing him? - really, really funny to me. Also I'm writing up a little something I noticed about Wolfwood, and this is a bit relevant, so there's that too. But mostly it's just funny.)

Geez, Knives looks demonic in the flashbacks. It's very intriguing how he's mostly faceless. I would imagine it's some complex mix of not recognizing his brother after what he's done, not recognizing him as his brother after what he's done, and not wanting to see his twin's face (which looks like his face) staring back at him as some kind of monster. I also have to wonder if Vash is a little scared of Knives, especially after July and Fifth Moon. Also, the way Knives tries to help Vash up because they're "brothers", hence, the same, but when Vash angrily accuses Knives of not being human, Knives kicks him back down while shouting about that he wouldn't want to be like them ever. Really I think this kind of highlights the dynamic in a nutshell. Vash fears harming others more than he does about his loneliness. Knives fears being all alone, I think, and is willing to commit harmful acts to assure he won't be - Vash often winds up hurt by this. Knives doesn't. It also emphasizes how Knives' offer of sticking together is contingent on Vash being agreeable, which is. Yikes bud.

Hm. Wolfwood starts calling him "Needle-Noggin" here. He was calling him Vash before. Interesting.

Brad stfu challenge. Don't be mean to him I'll be sad :(

What is wrong with him. See, Vash is exaggerating his weirdness for the bit and also to hide intense internal turmoil. Wolfwood is clearly trying to get a better vantage to see what's happening here but, unfortunately, I also think he is just like that.

I find it very interesting that Wolfwood finds it so important to finish that particular conversation with Vash, that he even went to go find him earlier to do so. It seems he was under the impression that Vash's stance is one of passivity, but that's not true at all - Vash's whole thing is that he is actually incredibly, notoriously bad at "doing nothing". Isn't it Wolfwood who was the one who wanted to leave here? But he has a point that sometimes you have to make difficult choices. Hm...

Vash just went full chaos entity for this one, huh?

"Wow, it's great that the bullets didn't pierce through and that the equipment works!" he says as he coughs up blood from the force of being hit. :/

This is a very tricky situation, morally speaking, at the end. Vash actually seems to understand the father's reaction here. But if the man shoots his daughter's murderer then it's not just the murderer who loses his "blank ticket" - so does the father. The way the screams of the murderer look like they're encroaching and pressing in on Vash... agh. And then when he goes for the gun, the father thinks Vash is judging him but I really don't think that's it at all. I don't think Vash faults the father for his anger - he understands the cruel death of a family member and the anger that comes with it. He lets the father beat him up instead and release aggression that way, which is a very... Vash way of dealing with it. It worked this time but... that's only because the father turned out to be unable to kill him after all. Vash didn't seem like he really knew what to do here, or even what the right thing to do was. He reacted on instinct. I feel this was less bravery and self-sacrificial pacifism than it was an incredibly vulnerable moment and an apology, in a way. He can't allow himself to let people die when there's something he can do, or to have them throw their futures away. But he is also sorry in a way, not for the act of intervening, but because he knows the father is hurting badly. Idk.

This is interesting, because I think it's right, but not completely. It's less that they are all his family, and more that he has taken up what he kind of sees as the family mantle (Rem's) of saving all the people she saved during the Fall, which is, unfortunately, everyone. Poor Vash, honestly. It's hardly sustainable, and even if it was, it assures that he will always be wrapped up in torment.

I just know Vash intentionally calls Wolfwood out in a really annoying sing-songy voice every time he does something nice just to embarrass him. Hjhdfnvjh

Anyways, that's all for that; until the next volume -

WHAT THE FUCK?

#trigun #trimax #trigunbookclub #storyrambles #ahhh people have so many cool observations i haven't even been able to fully read through all of them! i'm having a lot of fun :)

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mewintheflesh-2 · 5 months

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How would you go about designing fusions?

Like, I think my design for Razor looks more silly than scary (mainly the beak face why are beaks so hard) and I don't know if it fits with the rest of them.

Im honestly not 100% sure about the process of how I do it! 😭 I guess I just do?????? But I’ll try my best to explain my thought process even if it might be what you were already thinking/doing

I think mostly what I do is look for very prominent features on the Pokémon first, like for example, the legs of a Zoroark, its claws, and its face markings. That, and its ears. I also take notice of how on some parts of the body there’s longer fur jutting out of places like the elbows or the hips. With Mutt, who to be honest I haven’t made art of in a long time but I don’t feel the need to change him that much, I just compiled all of the features I thought defined the Pokémon and found ways to incorporate them into/onto the human body.

With Alexandra (Dragonite girl) I took the antenna, wings, and big tail as main points of the design I wanted to incorporate into her and found ways I liked it. I used them in pretty basic ways, but I did replace her ears with miniature Dragonite wings as well, as I was inspired by some art (of which I don’t know the fandom of) where there were bird-people with wings for ears.

If a Pokémon has distinct legs I will incorporate those by replacing the human legs entirely, and if the Pokémon has claws I’ll replace their fingernails with those instead. Pretty basic stuff though

I think almost all of the fusions that I’ve posted about so far aside from Parasect Girl have tails too, so that’s a little funny to me.

Also, I don’t always make every Pokémon part completely proportionate to the human body, with a certain fusion that will go unnamed, instead of shrinking fhe Pokémon’s “tail” to be how a normal sized tail would be for a human, I made the tail big and thick, which would no doubt get in the way of normal living, but that’s one thing that’s consistent with most all of the fusions. It disturbs their ability to live “like a normal human would” even if they tried their hardest.

Fusions can also take away senses and disable you to some degree. Like for example, Parasect Girl has extremely low vision and relies mostly on hearing to tell where things are/what’s happening. As a result her hearing has gotten very very good.

I think my main thing when designing fusions is that I’m not afraid/hesitant to make their bodies impractical/take away vital limbs for living/adding limbs that actively inhibit them. If you got your legs replaced with a dogs or a birds, wouldn’t you feel disoriented too?

One fusion I made also has a beak, a tentacruel fusion, but for that one I ended up making the squid beak act as weird lips. The actual “beak” design parts on the tentacruel ended up going other places, like jutting out of her arms.

ALSO another thing I like to do is spare no expense when it comes to adding details. Fuck “over designing” do what you want forever. Though that doesn’t mean that designs can’t get incomprehensible, it’s a somewhat delicate process (I guess??? It comes easy to me so I’m not sure.) ANYWAYS if you see an empty spot on the body and you’re not sure if you want it to stay empty or not, go ham and try out as many things as you want until you’re happy with it!! It might take a bit but what doesn’t when it comes to character design?

For a clearer example that might show my line of thinking more, I’ll generate a random Pokémon and brainstorm what a human fusion of it might look like.

Okay so I generated a Pokémon and I swear to god

SLUGMA BA- [gets shot]

This one is a little difficult since it doesn’t have too many distinct details if you just look at it at a glance.

let’s list off some features of it first!

Okay, so: Yellow pointed eyes, antenna like features coming from the head, very goopy, and also RED.

Also taking into account how hot the temperatures slugma gives off.

So. Let’s take a human, and try to fuse them together. More often than not when I get a pre-evolution fusion, I make them a child/just generally a younger person. However I think that for this we’ll just go with no age in particular.

So! First, I think the extreme temperatures wouldn’t fuse well with the human body, it would make them very melty/goopy. I would likely add little drips of their skin at their lips, and maybe even take away their legs in their entirety. Maybe they could just be a torso and melty pile of searing hot goop/flesh/magma beneath them? I think i would make it magma just to keep more of the Pokémon incorporated into the design. I would make the whites of the eyes yellow, make their eyes a more almond/pointed shape, and their irises either black or piercing bright red.

I think their hands would be a little goopy as well. Perhaps their hair would be melting/dripping over their head/face or maybe even acting similar to those visual heatwaves you see when it’s super hot outside! Now for someone who is literally searing hot and melting, I don’t think they would have any resemblance of clothes, but since their body is so melty, I don’t think it’d matter to be covered up too much. I think at some point as the flesh melts and drips off, it turns into magma. It’ll never be anything but complete magma when it falls off of the fusions body unless you actively take it off. (Looking at you FUSE. He’d probably be very curious how they’d taste.).

I think they’d have fire jutting out of their forehead in the shape of the fire antenna, or maybe it’d be their hair instead standing up and waving like flames in a strange way. I think they’d leave a constant burn/melting trail behind them, melting the floors as they slug around, and melting anything if they get too close. They’d likely have to be fed/given water similar to water tribe prisoners in ATLA (That one girl who taught Katara blood bending). Speaking of water, I don’t think they’d be able to get anywhere near it, it would hurt them severely, but that would mean they couldn’t drink water whatsoever. Maybe they don’t need water to live? Would they even have blood anymore? Or would it have all been boiled out of their body? Questions like these, questioning how Pokémon anatomy/natures would pair with humans/human behaviours is also important to designing fusions for me. I’m not sure exactly how important it is for it, but it’s definitely a part of what I think about when designing fusions.

Let’s try another shall we?

Wartortle! This is a nice design.

Something I immediately take notice of is the feathery ear like projections out of its head, along with its feathery tail. Boom, replace their ears with the feathery protrusions, and give them their feathery tail. I think their hair would also look similar to their ear protrusions, a wavy ocean look. Their arm hair, if they have any, would probably look the same, same for their leg hair. Wartortle’s also got white claws coming out of its hands, so those go onto the humans hands as well.

Then of course there’s the shell. You could make it look like a weird backpack, but that’s not something I would do personally. Especially since I’d want them to have the ability to hide in their shell. I would make the shell larger than their body, which would probably limit their movement quite significantly. Now about the front of the shell, I’m not sure how that would work out. If it’s proportionate to the back of the shell, then that would limit their movement even more. But if we strike a good balance of size, they can still move around decently while still being able to hide away in their shell. Now I like that a lot better. Their mouth would likely be wider than normal human mouths, and they would have decently sharp canines poking out of their lips. Their eyes would also be decently slanted and red, or atleast instead of slanted, would be in a permanent “im pissed off” look.

Okay so I actually really like the Wartortle concept a lot so I think I’ll keep them. TEEHEE >:3c

Oh yeah! Also another thing, specifically with Momo, is that Furfrou’s ears are pretty large/long compared to their head, so I exaggerated that to an extreme for her, making them go down to her middle-upper leg.

ALSO when it comes to clothes, pretty much all of the fusions have clothes that they wear, even if it’s just a shirt (See Mutt and Momo.). Unless it’s a Slugma fusion situation, they will pretty much always have atleast one article of clothing. I don’t put distinguishable human nudity in any of the fusions, the closest you’d get to that is Mutt if he didn’t have a shirt on, or like I mentioned, the Slugma Fusion.

I hope this helped literally at all!!!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I’m not even sure if this made sense in any way at all aside from the impromptu fusion design brainstorming

#Mandjtv #Dr. Fuse #Fuchsia Orion #Mutt (DTDF)#Momo (DTDF)#Alexandra (DTDF)#Unnamed Wartortle Fusion (DTDF)#Unnamed Slugma Fusion (DTDF)#I’m not sure if i’ll keep the Slugma Fusion canon though.#Don’t Trust Dr. Fuse #DTDF #The Fusion Lab #The Fusion Subjects #Fusion Science

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Hi.. I hope you don't mind a bit of a long ask. So I've seen from your posts that you have autism, and I was wondering if I could have your opinion on something. More recently I've been questioning if I might have autism myself, but I'm really unsure about it and my family seems pretty adamant that I don't. The main reason that they think I don't is because they're used to stereotypes, and they don't think I could have it because I understand and use a lot of sarcasm, even though I've told them that it's a spectrum and everyone is different. Of course I know that your opinion won't make up for an official diagnosis, but as of now I'm too embarrassed to even mention that I MIGHT have it, because if I'm wrong I'll feel like one of those people who fakes disorders or something. So, if you're willing to listen, I was going to list out some of the traits that I've been called 'weird' or 'alien' over, and see if maybe you think they could possibly mean autism? I hope that's okay with you 😅

•I always get the exact same foods from restaurants that I go to frequently. If they don't have what I usually get, I most likely won't eat anything at all.

•Speaking of those foods, I always eat them in the exact same order. The burger, then the fries, then the nuggets. The breadsticks, then the fish, then the shrimp, y'know? I don't know when or why I started doing this, I've just sort of always done it.

•I have a huge problem staying still, something that I get very self conscious about in public. I'm always tapping my feet, rocking back and forth, clicking something in my hands, chewing on water bottle caps, and just generally refusing to sit in one spot. I also love to pace when I'm trying to formulate ideas, as I feel it really helps me think.

•I can't stand wearing jeans. I mean I won't go crazy if I have to, but they always make me feel restricted. I thought for a while that it was just how restricting they were, but I've found that other tight pants don't make me feel the same way?

•I DESPISE nail files. I can't explain it, but just the sensation of that sandpaper-like stuff rubbing against my nails activates my fight or flight response, I just feel like bolting it gives me bad goosebumps all over.

•I hyperfixate on stuff hard, I pick things up quick but also drop them hard. Recently I picked up DC/Batfam as a hyperfixation and I've been fully leaning into it ever since, spending pretty much all of my time making art or stories about it (Or at the very least thinking about the characters in some way). However back a few years ago I was hyperfixated on Markiplier Egos, and then one day I just.. Dropped it out of nowhere, and haven't been able to pick it back up since.

•This one's really iffy but I feel like I get irritated a lot super super easily, and I used to think it was just anger issues but for one: It's almost never something to get upset about, and for two: It usually happens when I've been talking to someone for a little too long or when someone interrupts my quiet time. So if we're going with the whole maybe autism thing, it might be overstimulation..? Idk..

•I'm super light sensitive, pretty much every time I go outside I say 'Wow it's bright out there" when I come back in. It's so noticeable that I used to not only notice, but attribute it to an eye injury I had once. Except that injury wasn't serious and is fully healed, so that's probably not it.

•I have a lot of trouble speaking sometimes. I feel like my words never come out the way that I want them to, and I often end up slurring them around so much that what I'm trying to say becomes pretty much incomprehensible, which always makes me frustrated because I get misunderstood a lot.

•I don't really understand what other people are feeling most of the time, and I get annoyed when they won't just tell me what they want instead of vaguely hinting about it and expecting me to know what they need.

•I'm always being told to speak up because I 'mumble', even though I think I'm talking at an acceptable volume.

•I ramble. A lot. (Sorry 😭👍)

But yeah, those are just some of the thing that I've been jokingly called 'strange' for over the years. Like I said earlier, I know that your opinion is nothing like an actual diagnosis, but hearing your thoughts on whether or not I might have it would mean a lot to me since you're someone who's been diagnosed!

Hi annon!

Let me preface this by saying I'm so proud of you for really taking the time to think about all this and dig into your life and behaviors.

Then to ask someone about it is very brave!

I wish there was a way to reply without showing your entire ask message. I feel terrible sharing your private thoughts with everyone.

I'm not a professional so I don't feel qualified to say yes or no. And as much as I want to give you some reassurance, I can't give you something definite. Especially when I don't know you in order to form a proper opinion.

Yes many of those things are things that indicate you could be autistic.

There is a lot of overlap and they could be things related to other Neurodivergent diagnosis such as ADHD, anxiety, OCD, etc and not just autism.

However, I will say if you're even questioning if you're autistic it's a pretty good chance you're autistic or some kind of Neurodivergent. Most neurotypical people often don't think this hard on if they could be autistic or not. 😉

You have put a lot of thought into this and my suggestion is to keep researching and doing what you're doing. Keeping notes also if you'd like. Why?

Because....

1. Keeping notes and continuing research allows you to have a record of everything.

2. The notes would also come in handy for if you ever seek an assessment.

3. With more time, you will become more self aware and confident in your thoughts on what you believe about if you're autistic. You can then sit down with your family and explain why you think you're autistic.

4. If the comes a time you'd like to try an assessment, you can talk to a gp or therapist if you have one and have them place the appropriate things for you to have that done. Your family needn't be part of the process if you're of legal age. But you may need adult permission for the evaluation if you are considered a minor.

5. Self diagnosis is valid in the autism community. Its valid because a diagnosis is very challenging for many to obtain, and in some situations dangerous.

This doesn't mean someone just wakes up one morning and says "oh I think I'm autistic today". No. They have done hours and hours of research and evaluated their own life, mannerisms, and behaviors, and said "I really think I'm autistic."

Self diagnosised individuals get the benefit of knowing themselves and finding support in the community without ever getting access to supports any official way. They can't get school/work accomodations, financial assistance, medical/mental health services, or really any supports put in place that require an official diagnosis to obtain.

Some would claim self diagnosis isn't valid due to exactly what you pointed out, making a claim of a diagnosis without qualifications and due to the huge overlap and other factors, but the wait times, cost, and unfortunately things like race and gender are barriers to obtaining an assessment and diagnosis. I know in the UK the current NHS wait time is 7-10 years unless you go private. I know in the US getting an assessment as an adult is challenging as most professionals won't evaluate people over 18 and the cost is upwards to $7k depending on location because most insurances won't cover it.

You are always welcome to continue messaging me. I'm happy to answer any questions and I honestly enjoy talking to people when I can.

And in case no one's told you

You're not broken, a burden, and there is nothing wrong with you!

Be your best and amazing self! ✨

#my asks

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Do you have an AU where Azulon orders Ozai to kill Azula instead of Zuko?

I do. It's old as digital dirt, but it exists. Continued from: [Link].

So when I wrote that first post, I was just coming to grips with five headcanons posts, and I had like, ten followers, and yeah sure, I had been on Tumblr for about three years at that point, but most of my presence was on Livejournal. I wasn't sure yet just what to do with the new format. And I just straight up have a lot more practice now at making up AUs at the drop of a hat. Basically I would have done that post very differently were I doing it now. And one thing that I would have done very differently is that instead of having two different scenarios there about how Azula might respond, I think I would split the difference and acknowledge that they are not as mutually exclusive as they first appear.

It's entirely possible for Azula to cling even more tightly to her father's ideals, and seek his approval above all else, as a defense against the fear he would discard or even kill her, while also seeking psychological support outside of him. Not only is it possible, it's what she does in canon with Zuko and with Mai and Ty Lee. I suspect that if she had seen her father agree to kill her, and knew he was willing to, and that the only thing that stopped him was her mother, who is no longer here, because her father sent her away for saving her, would if anything, only intensify both processes.

Whether or not she does her very best to bury this knowledge from herself, she now knows that she is just as expendable as Zuko, favorite or no, and she could well find herself tossed aside or disposed of. So I could see her swinging between wanting to reach out to her brother, and make common cause with him, and wanting to use him as a scapegoat, and keep him between her and Ozai, so that he sucks up any dangerous negative attention, while she is there to please and impress.

For Zuko, this would be confusing and make Azula seem even more quixotic, unpredictable, and deceitful, as her cruelty and use of him would be regularly interspersed with moments of affection, even real emotional intimacy. This would make her constant manipulation of him all the more confusing.

The one thing that I think would change more than simply intensifying things, is that when Zuko is banished, Azula is much more likely in this AU to see this as a very bad thing, to acknowledge just how much she wants him around, and how dangerous it is to have all of Ozai's attention on her.

Anyway, I'm sorry, it feels like this post is completely incomprehensible without that post, that this is more of a response to that original post then a continuation, but that's the way it goes sometimes.

#avatar the last airbender #azula #zuko #ozai #posts i created #do you want to ask a question it doesn't have to be a question #azula needs her own warning #zuko is a dweeby little turtleduck #noodle lord ozai

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unlimitedtrees · 10 months

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so the game i made, 'UNITRES Dreams', is open source on github now

https://github.com/UnlimitedTrees/UNITRES-Dreams

hello. earlier i made my game 'UNITRES Dreams' open source on github. i want to talk about it. click the little 'read more' thingy to read da rest of this post. i had a lot of things i wanted to say about it and why i think open sourcing games is kind of awesome Lol !!!

also , By The Way, play da on newgrounds ehehehehe ~! or u can download it on itch.io too if you want

so. let me start off by saying that, although i was planning on releasing the source code for unitres for a long while, i was Not prepared to release it now. in fact, it kind of happened on accident.

in case you didnt know, earlier on twitter i was talking about how i wished there was a good way to release my archive of old builds for the game. i have a google drive full of old builds but i also i dont like using google drive. i sent a link to the drive in a reply to someones tweet, but there is one big thing i forgot: the game's project file is also in that drive.

anyways, instead of just deleting the reply or removing the file from the drive, i decided to just release the source code on github now, since i might as well. a part of me feels like i shouldnt have released it so suddenly... but also a part of me feels relieved.

you see, the unitres dreams source code is Bad. tons of messy code with almost no comments... a bunch of hackish solutions to tons of problems... everything is just incomprehensible unless youre me. considering ive been the only person working on the game for years, i understand most of the code and never needed to make comments (especially since making comments in construct 2 is Annoying).

my original plan for releasing the source code was to go back and clean everything up; improving tons of messy systems and adding comments explaining how everything worked. i also was planning on adding new content for a new update to the game aswell.. such as an options menu and maybe new levels and characters or something. i have Tried going back a few times to clean some little things up and work on a keybinding system... but i havent had the time to focus on it and do what ive wanted to do with it.

so, yeah. im kind of glad the source code is just Out now. it probably wouldve taken me Years just to do what i planned... and i think its best to just get it out now instead of just waiting years for something that might never happen, even if the source code right now is incredibly insane and unusable.

which leads me to something most people might be wondering: Why even release the source code in the first place? honestly, i doubt a lot of people will get use out of it, especially with the bad code and it being made in an old, dead engine that you cant even Buy anymore. but despite this... i think its good to release the source code for your games for a few reasons...

for one, its good for archival reasons. ive had a huge anxiety over losing all the source code for my games... its happened to me before and it really hurts. not only can you not use it in the future, but you lose a lot of work youve done, and for me ive lost a ton of games which were important to my journey as a game dev. nowadays, i try to hold onto all of my projects and have saved them to multiple computers and hard drives, but releasing them on stuff like github and google drive at least makes me feel a little better.. and hopefully with the unitres source code being public and the google drive for the old builds being out, it means that i wont have to worry about losing either of them.

another big reason is that, even if no one uses the source code for anything like mods or whatever, i think games having their source code out is good for learning game dev and understanding how games are made, even if the code is a big mess. even if i did get to go with my plan of cleaning up the source code... i feel like thatd be kind of dishonest, cus Most games Never have perfect code when theyre made. its good if you use the most messy code in existence just to get the game done... you can't always spend forever perfecting something, and at the end of the day the game eventually has to come out at some point. even big triple A projects will have weird code in some places... thats just a fact of life. i think having the source code out lets people see the kinds of crazy stuff that goes into a game, and maybe seeing my crazy code will influence others to do things a lot better in their own things. that's what i think, anyways.

and hey, even if My game never gets any sort of modding community, that doesnt mean Your game wont. there are a lot of communities out there who make some crazy things with mods.. and things such as open source games or decompilations can lead to some incredible stuff. with decompilations, youve got things such as mario 64 or the retro engine sonic games being ported to pretty much Everything, and then youve got open source games like Doom and friday night funkin which are being pretty much kept alive Because theyre open source and have a huge modding community. even if a game never gets as much interest as those.. it doesnt mean it never will, and having a game be open source can help a community grow so much more.

anyways umm yea. i think making games open source is awesome. there is a little part of me that feels weird about making unitres dreams specifically open source and the possibility that people might make fangames and mods out of it, as its something thats really personal to me (especially since the main character is named after me), but if people do make fangames and stuff with it i dont think ill mind, especially since a lot of my early work was fan games and unitres dreams takes a lot of inspiration from the media i love. all that i ask is that people include the original credits from the game in their thing, especially if you reuse any of the music from the original soundtrack.

i think, at the end of the day, my goal with this is to inspire more people to open source their games. a lot of good things can come out of it. that's all i have to say i think. play unitres dreams on newgrounds dot com ehehehe !!

#UNITRES #UNITRES Dreams #gamedev #game dev #indiedev #indie dev #indie developer #indie game development #game development #indie game dev #TreesThinks

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"How pissed would I be if they got a heterosexual love interest in OW2?" - a tier list

Explanations below cut:

"GOD PLEASE NO" category:

Bastion: Not that I don't think that Bastion shouldn't have enough agency to flirt, it's only that Blizz would force Bastion to be male and their love interest to be female and THAT would make me furious. Plus there's so much more interesting things you could do with their character. If hetero romance is the only spot where my bot gets screen time there's going to be violence.

Soldier 76 and Tracer: should be pretty fucking obvious lmao

Reinhardt: If I attempted to explain my reasoning on why Rein is aro/ace this post would be incomprehensible. TL;DR I want this old and still single character to not lament about how he's somehow incomplete just because he didn't find a romantic relationship. If I ever hear the words "I regret that I didn't settle down" come out of Reinhardt's mouth I'm assassinating Blizzard's lead writers.

"Mad" category:

Ashe: they'd just write her as a tsundere. Plus have you seen this woman she's so gay. I'm claiming her for the lesbians.

Moira: I just think she'd much rather use the men close to her in her life as lab experiments instead, you know?

Orisa: To be fair, do you really think she'd be interested in any romance at all at this point in her life? Romance isn't going to protect Numbani.

Symmetra: Not that I don't think she shouldn't be in a romantic relationship, it's just that I think she deserves a girlfriend, you know? I can feel it in my bones. Plus I think blizz would try and make Lucio or perhaps a Vishkar employee the hetero love interest and THAT would piss me off so badly.

Sigma: this man needs therapy first, jesus christ

Ana: This woman's already sacrificed her family once in the line of duty. She just flat out wouldn't seek out another vulnerable connection like that, I think.

"annoyed" category:

Junkrat: this dude getting any screentime would annoy me, actually, so I guess I'm not biased against him being straight??

Mercy: She's already so cookie-cutter already!! Being straight would somehow make her even more statistically average as a character!!

Pharah: I would prefer that the writers focus on her mommy issues first.

Sombra: I could see her fucking around to manipulate men for information but I think she's got too much of a complex to actually let herself be emotionally vulnerable in that sort of way a love interest demands.

Hanzo: this man is sad and pathetic. no woman would be attracted to him. (WAIT ACTUALLY ALTERNATE JOKE- he had a wife and now he's post-divorce with zero fix-it tension. I think that'd be funny, actually. I would accept that.)

"Neutral but still not wild about it" category:

Reaper: whatever Blizzard is planning with his old family is probably going to come to fruition, and I can honestly say I'm indifferent as I never was a R76 shipper.

Cole: He's charming enough. Seeing him flirt with women wouldn't be like pulling teeth.

Widowmaker: "redemption through love interest" sort of thing?? I'd probably be madder if I actually cared about her as a character. She's also here because of Gerard shenanigans. Angsty murder-regret-pining for him would be tolerable.

Baptiste: see Cole's notes, but also add in the interaction that confirms he canonically loves MILFs

Echo: "learning how to be human through love with a man" falls just close enough to the manic pixie dreamgirl trope to set off my alarm bells but not enough for me to place her any higher on the list.

Doomfist: I could see him having an evil wife that's doing the evil shenanigans with him. Actually, I would like to see whatever design Doomfist's wife might have. I think that would be badass as hell. But on the flipside there's an equal chance that Blizz could think that pairing him with a non-evil innocent little lady could redeem him or add angst or something and that keeps him thoroughly out "okay" territory.

"Okay, I could be on board" category:

(there's a surprising amount of people here!)

Lucio, D.va, and Mei: These three all fall under the same category for me, and that category is "I think they'd be cute with their crushes". Of all the Overwatch caste, these three give me the strongest hetero vibes. I can't explain it. I apologize

Roadhog: I could be on board with him finding a gal that softens him up. Only caveat is that the gal shouldn't be conventionally attractive either or I will eat Blizzard alive.

Winston: Have you seen this guy? I think it'd be cute as hell to have him try to flirt with girls. "but he's a gorilla-" shut the fuck up. Let him have his moment!

Zarya: okay here I have to explain. You were probably expecting her to be up in the "GOD PLEASE NO" category because you thought I might claim her for the lesbians. And that assumption. . . kind of pisses me off? Because every frat gamer boy back in 2016 looked at her nontraditional femininity and the only way their puny minds could rationalize seeing a woman that wasn't tailor-made for their boners was to just slap the lesbian label onto her. She got labeled a dyke as a very hostile thing against her character, so I think it would actually be more forward-thinking for her to be open to male love interests. Bi or straight women shouldn't have to fear "looking too masculine" in their search for men. TL;DR I think she'd appreciate a femboy

Zenyatta: He's just so sweet! He can be in love with anybody he wants to lol, man or woman or neither.

Brigitte: Okay, okay, this one's on me, but Brigitte reminds me way too much of my sister, who is happily married to her loving husband and I can't get that out of my brain. I apologize.

Genji: He's almost exclusively here for the joke that he's been happily married to a loving wife for three years now, and nobody knows about it because he keeps his private and work life extremely separate, and he just never thought to bring it up until Torbjorn mentioned anniversaries. Just to really, really stick it to post-divorce Hanzo and whatever Soldier 76 has going on with Vincent. (I'm not sure why this bit is funnier when it's a wife instead of a husband, but it is. Trust me.)

Hammond: I want him to have a human girlfriend back in Junkertown. No explanation. She even knows he's a hamster. She doesn't care.

"(Canonically married to the opposite sex)" category:

Torbjorn: Torb my beloved you're doing amazing sweetie, you go spoil that wife of yours!! You treat her nice and well!!!

--- tag section

@ow-anteater I apologize but I need you to see this. You should make your own tierlist lol I'm interested in your thoughts on the matter.

#overwatch #overwatch 2 #made this post at midnight please enjoy #shitpost alert!#I apologize there's some weird takes under the cut #probably the only normal takes are the ones for 76 and Tracer lol

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manofmanymons · 1 year

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I feel like a Survive x TWEWY crossover would be so fun

Both in the sense of TWEWY characters in the Survive storyline and vice versa

I like how both stories have the shared trait of "trust your partner or die" but in TWEWY your partner is Just Some Random Person (or whoever you happened to die alongside) while in Survive it's your fated partner

How would Neku's initial distrust play out if his partner was a digimon instead of Shiki? Would it go more smoothly because he'd connect with them since they'd inherently be similar to him, or would it go worse because "aaaaah monster" ? I'm leaning towards the former, but still.

I think Shuuji might actually initially handle a human partner better tbh

How would the Survive cast react to the end of Week 1 if they all made it to the end only to find out that only one of them could be revived and go home? Who would they choose? Would they fight over it? Or if they didn't all last the full week, well...what killed them?

How would Kaito handle the fact that he and Miu were already dead, meaning he already failed her twice?

Hell, knowing how Part 3 of Survive went, how would Ryo react to already being dead? Would he even try to win the game?

And what about Saki? Would her illness still exist even in death? If not, would it come back upon resurrection? How would that influence her attitude towards winning the game?

Conversely, how would things be different if Beat and Rhyme never died?

Would Joshua be a Normal Person or would he have some kind of unusual power like Miyuki's? Or would that just make Survive yet another parallel world to the main TWEWY world and he would be uncomfortably self aware about it aksjnd

What kind of psychs (powers) would the Survive kids have?

What partners would the TWEWY kids have? Personally voting for Joshua's partner following the straightforward Patamon->Seraphimon line because...well he's Joshua.

How would Shiki's self-image issues reflect on her partner?

What would the Survive kids' entry fees be, and how would that affect their ability to work together? Would they all look like themselves? Would they all keep their memories intact? Just what is the most important thing to each of them? And I don't mean like the objects from the waterway.

Well okay for Kaito that question has an easy answer and my real question for him is would he end up more like Beat in week 1 or Neku in week 2? As in would Miu forget him or would the reapers just straight up take her away?

Would Takuma even work as the main protagonist in TWEWY? I feel like he's more similar to Rindo than Neku, but even then he's way more open and personable than either of them. That being said tho

What if the Survive kids were in Neo instead and they were all a team together? How would they (especially Aoi) feel knowing their survival hinged on the other teams dying? Fighting monsters is one thing, but fighting other people and knowing they'll be erased if you win? That's...a bit much.

And now that I've said Neo, how would Rindo, Fret, and Nagi fare in Survive? At the very least I don't think Nagi would fall for monsters in disguise or illusions, but idk about the other two.

How would everyone even die lmao

I mean that both in the "how did the Survive cast end up playing the Reaper's Game" sense and in the "who in TWEWY would die and how in the kemonogami world" sense

I have all of the questions and none of the creativity to hc answers.

Anwyays take this incredibly self-indulgent rambly post that is incomprehensible to anyone but the maybe two other people on the planet who like both TWEWY and Survive.

#digimon survive #the world ends with you #twewy #neotwewy

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shinahbee · 1 year

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Unpopular opinions on characters

Hello,

so I came across this on someone's twitter thread and I thought I would write a post on the " unpopular opinions of these characters" of some of the characters in BL webtoons based on what they have listed. If you have read some of these you may have some opinions of your own, but if you haven’t read any this is just my personal opinion on them as characters, and what other people say about them are vastly different from how I personally feel about them.

you may not get it if you don't read these webtoons but it's fun entertainment if you just want to read about me complaining about some of the things people say..lol. I have a lot to say and a tweet would not be able to hold all of these thoughts so i brought it all here instead.

this is all in good fun, if you are one of those people who hate hearing about how much your favorite character sucks...you might not want to read this. I for one am not the creator or author of any of these so I don't really care what other people think about these characters even if I really like some of them.

Warning 21+ only (age restriction)

if you are offended by anything anyone says about your favorite character, this may be triggering for you and you should just not read it. These are just fictional characters and I don’t have to be considerate of their feelings so i'm just going t go all out. This is just for shits and giggles only so don't let what I'm saying go to your head cause these are just my thoughts alone and what bothers me in particular.

okay let's begin, I'll give you their name and what webtoon they are from, this is in no particular order... but let's start off strong...

1) Choi Pilwon - Pearl boy

if you have seen any of my monthly favorites, I have mentioned many times how much I hate this dude, I wrote in detail about all the things that he has done that made his despicable. I hate to say this but he got those reactions out of me because he is a well written character and that's what makes all the horrible things he's done triggering to people enough to want to physically hurt him. I once watched a drama in which one of the characters made me feel horrible and I hated that person and I would vocalize it to my dad that I hated her, and he would ask " why do you feel that way? " it was because the actor was really good in portraying the character that made me react that way, and now I know that even if a character/ actor does despicable things, they are in fact written well/good actor if they get emotional responses out of you. cause if they did not you would not care, it would suspend your disbelief. lol. So pilwon is a well written character despite being absolute shit...I feel like it will make his downfall the more enjoyable, and hopefully we will see that in the future.

2) Ilay riegrow - Passion

popular belief written by other people...he's hot that's all that matters...lmao yeah sure. my unpopular opinion, everyone like this character and sure he isn't as bad as other ones in the webtoon, but this dude cannot handle his emotions and gets violent and does incomprehensible things throughout the manhwa and I really don't understand his thought process in why he makes these choices.lol. Apparently he will remain the same throughout the whole novel according to someone whose read the entire thing, and that is concerning but I guess it plays well with how he was introduced, so I can't say that I expected more. Any ways, he does some really despicable things that does not sit well with me so I don't really like him

3) Jeong Taehui - Passion

the other main character, I don't know what other people say about him but I feel like they'd say things like " must protect at all costs" despite him being capable of protecting himself. I had to warm up to him at first cause he's one of those characters who make weird decisions based on what he sees, like when he saw xinlu for the first time and immediately falls in love with him cause he looks like a soft boy...lmao it was only his image, not going to lie that dynamic would be interesting since I would have not expected xinlu to be a "seme". So I guess the way he let's his views get in the way of his judgment is a little annoying. Especially that one particular scene that really almost made me drop this webtoon..ugh I was like why are you just going to take it and walk away? punch that guy in the face!...I was mad for him, he let him off easy...if it was me, blood will be spilled.lol. of course despite me hating ilay, he and taehui have that dynamic that works well with each other's personality. eventually taehui's personality really grew on me and he makes mistakes like everyone else and has low self esteem, and I also have those qualities so i can relate.

4) Ahn Jiwon - BJ alex

classic story at this point and one of my first reads so of course my opinion on it has changed a lot. I think most people like the dynamic between jiwon and dongyun after they shared the same feelings but I think people tend to forget that jiwon was a rude ass prick that was abusive in the earlier chapters, I did not forget that and when people say that he was a great character through out the story I will call them out on it cause he was not and I don't understand why you chose to blank that out of your memory. sorry not sorry...lol.

5) Choi Juwon- Love or hate

popular belief from people...he's husband material, great throughout the story, gave up everything for his " brother " lmao...I mean if you like incest, this might be romantic to you...but its an eww for me.

my opinion of this dude has been very negative since the beginning, I have mentioned I dropped this story a really long time ago in my monthly favorites, as for reasons why please refer to that post cause it's really long to explain. I just don't understand the appeal of incest stories, like out of 7 billion people on this earth you don't want anyone but your brother...hmm. I know they aren't blood related but there are stories that dodge the incest trope really well and I applaud them cause every time there is a story involving two half siblings it always goes to that route, at this point it's boring. The story would have been fine if they were just childhood friends, I think I would have maybe liked it better. not to say that this dude's character would have been any better cause he's really boring from what I remember. I think some people are really pushing this character to be the best bl character out there and I completely disagree.

I remember seeing a post on twitter from someone, who claims the actor from wednesday...jenny ortega i think her name is, said in an interview that she liked this character and he is her ideal type..okay first where is the source? ( by the way if you do find it please let me read it ...) cause I don't think any popular celebrity would flat out say that they read yaoi in public and second even if that’s true to have this guy be her ideal type would make believe that this is the only story she's read, because even people who have read this and liked the story back then have said that they read better ones since then. lol. and I agree. I don't know if that ordeal is true but if it is her tastes' are questionable. needless to say don't like him, never have...again sorry not sorry.

6) Taesoo - Lucky paradise

I think when I first saw him...immediate red flag, but later on when his backstory was revealed I kind of understood where he came from, there are people that cling onto a relationship that isn't working mainly because it's familiar or because they are afraid to start over, so he basically didn't want a relationship that was either definite or nothing and that is really frustrating for the other person who wants something more. I'm glad chunwoo was able to finally let him go and move on with someone who can give him everything and more. Taesoo will need to find that person for himself now, so I didn’t hate him or anything I think I understood him after knowing all of his troubles, but even if I didn’t see his backstory I think I still would have figured out what was bothering him eventually, the writing for lucky paradise is really detailed and really gives a lot of good character development. so...didn't like him at first but changed my opinion of him in the end.

7) kwon Jaehyuk - Limited run

Hah...how should I put this 10/10 for looks but 4/10 for personality.lol. I just don't really like the character portrayal, I have mentioned before that I don't gravitate towards stories that have blackmail and sponsorships involving the main character, it usually leads to some sort of abuse in the end. Jaehyuk's personality is very stoic and I don't tend to like characters with that type of personality so it's just a personal preference but there is also the aspect of him not being able to understand his emotions towards yeonho that makes him do irrational things, and ended up making him a unlikable. There is more to this story so i wouldn’t say he is trash, but I just don't like this character trope in general.

8) Bum geonwoo - Dangerous convenience store

ajusshi...lmao he and I are close to the same age so I really shouldn't call him that. he can call me aujima and I'll gladly accept it. again looks 10/10 but that personality is a little not my taste...I'd say 7/10 he is a little better that jaehyuk cause he knows how he feels about euijoon and acts on his feelings unlike other people. I still prefer a more silly personality versus stoic, but I understand why people like him and I honestly do too.

9) Jung Daon- Secret relationships

peoples opinion...hate him, deserves to be used, slut, dumb y'all are harsh towards doan, I don't understand why he gets so much hate, yes he can be frustrating at times because he does not know what he wants, but he's been used emotionally and physically by bad people over the course of 10 + years...that's literally damaging to a person and no one can recover from that trauma. I liked how doan was introduced and how he just min-maxes his life choices and wants to live the life of luxury because he had been poor his entire life while having terrible parents taking money from him and having to take care of his siblings while working and going to school all at the same time, I can understand why he became the way he did. I honestly related to not having the best relationship with my parents and still want nothing to do with them sometimes, he also has low self esteem and makes uncertain choices which is honestly the most relatable character out there. People who hate him obviously is not for his personality but for who he chooses in the end to be with...omg people grow up, daon is realistic and well written in my opinion and he does not deserve all the hate he gets.

lastly...

10) Kang Dooshik- Pearl boy

love the guy, love him and his personality wholeheartedly I don't have a husbando but it became him as soon as I realized I spent 3 years with him to this date. I agree with all the popular opinions out there about him, the only ones I don’t are the ones that claim that he is the most perfect man out there... dooshik is far from perfect, ever since chapter one he had only cared about himself, it was only after getting to know jooha and the situation he was in that he became involved in his life voluntarily, he even said in the earlier chapters that he shouldn't get involved cause it isn't his problem, he was only looking for a place to stay for a while it didn't matter where or with who. He had been running away from his problems and wears his heart on his sleeve and does not express his concerns freely and it makes people forget that, people only liked him from when he had his glow up and didn't actually read the whole story of pearl boy from the beginning, claiming that he's perfect is not true, as much as I like him and want to believe it I like the fact that he's imperfect and flawed but slowly changing while keeping his core personality consistent is just good writing on the authors part. I can go on..but you know too much about me just by reading my dooshik commentary every month lol.

okay, there you have it another blog post of my un wanted opinions, these are honestly really fun to do because it gets me to look back on some of the things i’ve read and remember the reasons why I did or didn’t like certain aspects of a character. I think the most frustrating thing is that people who don't agree with you will defend their opinions by insulting yours and that's just rude. Just because you read and interpreted the story differently than I did does not give you the right to bully other people, so to each their own. if you want to see the original post from the person on twitter I'll link their thread below:

https://twitter.com/flamboyantgio/status/1639060426947276800

if you would like to see more hot takes please check out some of my other posts where I talk about my BL 3x3's and tier list ( which will need to be updated soon) and other trashy opinionated things for enjoyment.lol.

thanks for reading

#shounen ai #yaoi manga #yaoi manhwa #anime and manga #bl manga #bl manhwa #webtoon

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