#but i wont !!!! for now

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[everythingwasnormalhere]

pls rb if you think cuddling doesn't have to be s3xual

im tryna prove a point to my bf's mother help me out

#like im asexual its def not gonna be like that for me #but she still thinks it is soo #but like. cuddling can totally be platonic there doesnt gotta be such a fuss abt it 😭 #i get her pov but c'mon #asexual #aromantic #<- for reach #edit: ...its censored because i want to btw #like. ik im in the horniest social media but i wanna censor it so i do #ik i wont get shadowbanned like in tiktok lmao #im not even in tiktok if we dont count looking at it like twice a year 😭 #so yup i censored it for my own comfort 💯 hope this answered your questions pls shut up now lmaooo

[heartbreakfeelsogood]

i’m sad -> i look at images of my ~40 year old man of choice -> i twirl my hair and kick my legs -> i think crazy thoughts -> i feel okay -> rinse repeat

#op #i have been in the most foul mood today and now i’m looking at pictures of kebin and going hehehehehe i wont u 🥰🥰🥰

[scribbledghost]

Give me a Simon Riley who's soft.

Give me a Simon who, when the guys ask him to run to the pub after a successful mission, turns them down. The reason he gives them is "because I just spent two months with you assholes", but everyone knows it's because he's too eager to get home to you to waste any more time.

Give me a Simon whose favorite place to be is with you in bed or on the couch, laying atop you like a massive weighted blanket; his head on your chest listening to your heartbeat as you massage his scalp. He constantly falls asleep like that, and he swears it's the only position he can sleep in that guarantees he won't have any nightmares.

Give me a Simon looks at you and, for the first time in decades, imagines a future for himself. He's never allowed it before - he's always been convinced that he'd die young and has always known he'd be grateful for it. But now, when he watches you smile back at him, he finds himself thinking of future years he never thought he'd want.

Give me a Simon who lets you trace his scars with your fingertips, and who starts to associate them less with the injuries that caused them and more with the sensations you give him. And all the while, he's looking at you like you hung the moon, the stars, and everything else in the sky.

Give me a Simon who has earned his reputation as a ghost, a phantom, a threat, but refuses to so much as raise his voice towards you.

Give me a Simon Riley who is completely and utterly yours, for as long as you will have him.

Give me a Simon Riley who will burn the world down at your feet to keep it that way.

#i could keep going but i wont right now unless someone asks lol #soft simon riley supremacy #simon ghost riley #simon riley x reader #simon ghost x reader #simon riley x you #simon riley ghost x reader #ghost scribbles

[lesbianviolet]

hi. musical cosmic horrors In My Brain . they wont leave

#nerdy prudes must die #t'noy karaxis #nibblenephim #wiggog y'wrath #bliklotep #pokotho #and now their silly names #tinky #nibbly #pokey #wiggly #blinky #hatchetfield #starkid #i made a banner of them all together but tumblr wont let me upload it ? it hates me

[cruelsister-moved2]

for real! (from kadji amin)

[Image description: Screenshot of text:

What I've realized is that I believe that the matter of gender is practical and relational. It's not about who you are inside, it's more about how you would feel most comfortable in the world. It's not 'Who are you?' but 'How do you want to live?'

Had that been the discourse when I was coming up, I would have breathed a sigh of relief. I don't have to figure out who I am on the inside, I just have to figure out how I want to live.

end of ID]

#and I kind of felt really sad when they were talking about how like they feel in some ways figuring yourself out is way harder now #bc there is this pressure to like figure out who u Really Are Inside #and instead of being like well maybe my identity goes far beyond gender and like i don't need to find some microlabel #in order to like define who is Me #it's become very fixated on like categorising ur gender rejection in a way that ends up just. making even more genders to constrain u #it's hard to summarise it was like v wordy but I thought this part was so true #for sexuality as well not to tack it on but we have really gotten into the same mindset w sexuality now as well #THANK U @VAKAVANHASAATANA for the ID it wont let me @ you in the text </33

[insufferablemod]

#roxy lalonde #homestuck #fefetasprite #fefeta #my art #posting this now so i can be officially done with this fucking drawing(took ages cus ive been so busy with school) #inspired by when roxy talks about realizing she wont be able to bring her mom back :( #art #fefeta was Way more fun 2 draw then i expected

[valarinde]

“[Louis] has never even said he’s a [vampire] yet. Won’t even say the word. The fraught complexities of what happens when you are with the right-slash-wrong person.” — Rolin Jones, Episode Insider 3

#iwtv #iwtvedit #iwtv edit #interview with the vampire #louis de pointe du lac #lestat de lioncourt #loustat #myedit #vampirism as a metaphor for homosexuality my beloved narrative device #he wont even Say the Word #back with: sets i never got to post while in jail and now its time for season TWO

[toorumlk]

summers at the burrow (1998)

#romione #hermione granger #ron weasley #harry potter #harry potter fanart #hp fanart #romione fanart #ronmione #ron x hermione #hermione x ron #my art #photoshop #artists on tumblr #illustration #the burrow #i cant believe tumblr used to be Thee place to post art now they wont even allow art thats over 20 mb

[kumzorg]

more like rave nikki

link to youtube:

dream dance (youtube.com)

#my art #sony vegas kept messing up the colors i really hate that program #why wont it understand i need exact precision #anyway im vibing now

[odd-critter]

im normal about them :-)

#the amazing digital circus #tadc #tadc pomni #tadc caine #tadc kinger #tadc jax #tadc kofmo #insects #wheee yay haha lalalala #dont worry i wont dissapear again for at least 2 more drawings im doing (hopefully) #im Running away now bye

[witch-hazels-musings]

ALL EYES ON RAFAH!!

Forces have been deployed to RAFAH, there are no more safe zones, they have nowhere to go!!

Scream and shout as loud as you can, anywhere and everywhere - we are watching a genocide happen

Your voice matters!!

United States --

Contact the White House

https://www.whitehouse.gov/contact/

Contact your senators

https://www.senate.gov/senators/senators-contact.htm

Get on Social Media

MAKE NOISE

(please add more contacts to this if you are in other countries 🙏)

#all eyes on rafah #save rafah #free palestine #free gaza #palestine #🇵🇸🇵🇸🇵🇸 #🍉🍉🍉 #gaza genocide #palestinian genocide #not blog related #i know you come here to escape - i do too - but i wont be silent right now - so you shouldnt either #react or not #share or not #its your decision #i wont be silent and wish that i hadnt been #free free palestine #free free gaza

[mipmoth]

Cain instinct strong enough to traverse time and space

#submas #EMMETS MUFFIN #poor ingo wont even know what he did wrong random man attacks him in a snowland #violance again #like cain and abel brothers idk i dont subscribe to the lore #'sir ingo is gone :(' poor coworkers are like now theyre BOTH gone

[choccy-milky]

scene from my newest chap of seb discovering that daisies are also his favourite flower (and why)😊

#seb is literally the 'everywhere i go...i see his face' meme except with clora BAHAHHA #i legit picked cloras fav flowers to be daisies just bc they remind me of her LOOL so now im making that the reason seb likes them #hogwarts legacy #sebastian sallow #sebastian sallow x oc #sebastian sallow x mc #sebastian sallow fanart #hogwarts legacy fanart #hogwarts legacy sebastian #clora clemons #working on modern au stuff now hehehe cant stop wont stop #choccyart #GET SOMEONE WHO LOOKS AT U THE WAY SEB IS LOOKING AT CLORA HOLDING THOSE DAISIES U DESERVE NOTHING LESS

[blushingzephyr]

saw this

and you KNOW it had me mind body and soul

pov: they’re at your house

+bonus! kendall and kendall undercover

#thought i’d share these doodles #succession #succession art #also their detective company is ROY & ROY DETECTIVE AGENCY #they have never arrested the right person and they wont start now #my art #traditional art #ALSO ALSO kendall roy is so hard to draw and im screaming crying throwing up about it #roman roy #kendall roy #succession fanart #sorry about the lighting i have not figured out how to make it look good yet #succession detective au

[jedi-starbird]

Time Travel is my favourite trope and I think we need more fics where both Obi-Wan AND Qui-Gon time travel together because no matter when they get sent it's chaos. They're saving the galaxy and being physic flash-bangs to everyone around them.

like before Bandomeer?

The entire council is baffled to watch as Qui-Gon 'never taking a padawan again' Jinn has suddenly cut off his post-Xanatos depression tour to return to the temple and beeline to the creche with a frantic energy. His wild eyes immediately single out a fluffy, red-haired initiate.

"You." he exhales with a pointed finger, slightly ominous as he towers over the child. Said child starts vibrating with delight. "Me." he agrees, launching himself at the man. Qui-Gon drops to his knees with a thud that cannot be healthy. Obi-Wan's attempts to clamber into Qui-Gon's robes and maybe onto his shoulders is thwarted by the fact that Qui-Gon's massive hands are cupping Obi-Wan's tiny squishy cheeks. He stares at the initiate for a few minutes with an intensity that is starting to worry people.

Finally, "You're so small." Qui-Gon sounds like he might cry.

'What the fuck?' Plo Koon projects at Mace.

"I'm 9! That tends to be the case!" the child chirps back.

"You're nine." Oh. Ah. Qui-Gon's eyes are distinctively misty. He squishes the boy in a hug so hard he squeaks. Mace makes a series of gestures that imply the need for a head-scan. Depa obligingly drifts off towards the halls. Qui-Gon scoops the child up onto his hip and claims him as his padawan on the spot. The assorted council members and creche-masters burst into noise. Mace tells Depa to bring some space ibuprofen as well.

after Naboo?

Anakin is a little apprehensive of his place in both the order and Obi-Wan's life, but then one day Obi-Wan wakes up and is suddenly a lot less sad in the force?? In fact, if Anakin didn't know better he'd say he was almost giddy, but he's watched Obi-Wan try to pretend his world hasn't fallen apart for the past few months so it can't be that, right? And um, Miss Bant? He knows grief is a funny thing that affects people differently but he's pretty sure 'massive mood swing' and 'having full conversations with invisible people' is not...great? and you said to tell you if Obi-Wan got really weird in any way.

Anyway after a lot of medical exams, intense consultation with the archives, and a couple exorcisms, Anakin ends up being raised by his 'real' master and his ghost master. He is far more well adjusted emotionally and far less well adjusted for what counts as normal people behavior(not talking to thin air). When questioned on this, all he ever says is that he's talking to Qui-Gon. Isn't he...dead? Well, yes. Wait, he's a ghost? Ghosts are real? ...Well this ghost is real.

This starts a great number of existential crises among non-force sensitives and incredibly heated theological arguments amongst the Jedi. Whenever Obi-Wan is questioned on this, all he ever says is some variation of "the force got to know him for 5 seconds and kicked him back out." Mace backs him up on this even though that reasoning is technically blasphemous. Qui-Gon is having the time of his un-life. He's ascended to his final form, his sheer existence is a heresy, this is truly all he has ever aspired towards.

the Clone Wars?

The minute they get dropped back Qui-Gon immediately goes and haunts the shit out of Dooku. They have a signed terms of surrender and promise of info on the Sith Lord within the year. Only half of it is because Qui-Gon's giving Dooku complexes that are only perceptible to shrimp, the other half is because they now have a ghost spy that is not bound by the laws of physics nor spacetime.

Obi-Wan only nominally pays attention to this as he immediately goes and implements his 19 step seduction plan with Cody (he had to focus on something on Tatooine to pass the time). It fails. Spectacularly. Publicly. Ah right. Tatooine was not exactly the height of his sanity. Everyone in the GAR and temple is now riveted by High General and Councilor Obi-Wan Kenobi's attempts to go on a date with his Commander, who bats him away him like a particularly annoying stray and seems one bouquet of cactus away from committing mutiny. Anakin is worrying if it means his master knows about his secret marriage and this is some sort of really weird power play. (It is, but not in the way he thinks)

The next time Dooku goes after Obi-Wan, Qui-Gon spends a good few months appearing tear-stained at the edge of Dooku's perception and only communicating in terrible wails and discordant mutterings of 'padawan. my padawan. my little one.' 24/7.

"Wait, you're annoying Dooku into surrendering?"

"Oh no Anakin, we're crushing his psyche like a bug. :)"

#everyone feel free to use these i crave more time travel fics #the sheer power qui gon would have as a fully communicating force ghost before and during the clone wars is astounding #qui gon with baby obi wan is like inconsolable sobs cause he never saw him this small and then his life was so sad and he couldnt even hug #him on tatooine but now look at his boy!!! so small and huggable!!!! #they absolutely weaponise baby obi against others his wet cat eyes are 1000% stronger now #they drop him in dookus lap like look grandpadawan:) #if you hold the grandpadawan maybe your sith behaviour will calm down :/ #anyway them together is like they throw enough bullshit into the air to blind everyone while they speedrun important changes in the back #after naboo is like everyone offering obi wan condolences and obi responding yeah im going to need them the fucker wont stay down #star wars #obi wan kenobi #qui gon jinn #qui gon and obi wan #fic ideas #time travel shenanigans #codywan #anakin skywalker #disaster lineage #count dooku