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misspoetree · 10 months

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So the lovely @haahka and I were talking about Tay and how it's a bit sad that the fandom only ever seems to send him on shopping tours or focus on his fashion (you guys know that I'm obsessed with the KinnPorsche Fashion myself, but it's just a little...unadventurous, you know).

And then I got waaay to deep into headcanons with the equally lovely @tumsa (I'm not even sorry for the spam 😌❤).

Now, there are two things I want to do: first, I'd love to hear more Tay headcanons - feel free to throw them at me (as an ask, in the tags, added to this post, whatever you prefer). Because I'm really curious. 👀

And second, I'm going to share a few of mine:

Tay is way more capable than anyone thinks. (But no one needs to know that.)

People treat Tay like a princess within the show - I mean, he isn't even allowed to help in the kitchen at Porsche's. But I don't think Tay IS a princess. I think it's a protective façade. Because letting oneself be underestimated is a (survival) strategy in a world of money and constant power struggle, and a smart one at that. Yes, Tay is really good at reading people in general, but I also feel like people tend to let their guard down around him. Because he's kind, and understanding, and compassionate - and he seems harmless, a bit spoiled even. His 'softness' puts people at ease, makes them talk, makes them more honest than they probably should be. He's not a threat after all. I bet he knows a lot of things he shouldn't. I bet he's smart enough to use that knowledge (to help other people, to help himself, if needed). And I bet Tay could be fucking dangerous if he ever chose to (and wouldn't that be exciting 👀).

I also like to think that Tay has a strong survival instinct that goes beyond 'pretending to be incapable'. He and Kinn have been friends for ages, their families know each other, he basically grew up surrounded by mafia. He probably witnessed Tankhun's kidnapping back in the day. The horror and trauma of it. Tay's family is rich. He's close to the Theerapanyakuls. To the future head of the family. But he DOESN'T have an army of bodyguards following him around. And the downside of 'being harmless' is looking like an easy victim. Tay is too smart to be unprepared. So in my headcanon he knows how to handle a crisis, knows how to deal with danger, knows how to survive. Knows how to get out of the country quickly, how to get money without leaving a trail, how to get an unregistered gun. How to land a mean punch even though he hates it, how to apply (good) first aid EVEN THOUGH HE HATES IT. (I do think that he really isn't a fan of physical stuff, so the princess image is not completely off. Or, well, he lets it work in his favour.)

Tay's reaction to being hurt, being really hurt, is to shut his emotions down completely.

I don't enjoy how Tay's often written as dramatic and over-emotional in his confrontations with Time after what happened at Hum Bar. He isn't sober when he catches his boyfriend shoving his tongue down another man's throat, and well, his boyfriend is shoving his tongue down another man's throat. So of course he's fucking angry. And emotional. Right then and there. But the thing is, Tay had time to think, time to cool off in those other confrontations. And that's just the way to describe Tay's demeanor then: cool, cold, like ice. I like to think that he just freezes over. Turns into a statue of neutral disinterest. Just imagine: someone like Tay, always so kind and compassionate, staring you down with an expressionless face, not reacting to anything you say, looking close to fucking bored. Imagine what that would do to Time, always so full of himself, always so used to getting reactions out of Tay. Walking straight into a wall of ice. Completely out of his element. Really forced to put the work in for once. And it truly is hard work to break through to Tay once he closes his feelings off from you. A little bit of grovelling might be necessary. (That said, dealing with his emotions like that isn't good for Tay either. Of course not.)

There's...'something' between Tay and Vegas, some kind of understanding

I never got over TAY asking after Vegas in the final episode. Or the way Tay watches Vegas as he passes him during the auction. So I'm having a lot of fun wondering about the 'relationship' between Tay and Vegas, or how potential interactions could have gone down.

I mean, Tay 'belongs' to Kinn. We know that Vegas wants everything that belongs to Kinn (I bet he thinks Kinn must have fucked a pretty boy like that at least once. Even though it's not his usual type. Why else would he stick around?). Tay's caring and understanding. We know how Vegas can react...to something like that. (Not him falling in love after one free therapy session or something like that.) Tay is really good at reading people, he is really good at reading Kinn. And we know Vegas is not so different from Kinn (in some ways), even though he would murder anyone suggesting something like that to his face. Or maybe that's exactly what Tay does. Telling that to his face. As Vegas tries to seduce him, in the earlier days. But Tay doesn't try to wound him with that, to be cruel or mean, it's just an observation, spoken in that calm and understanding tone of his. And a younger Vegas is so shocked by that statement that he just...stops? And stares at Tay who just keeps going with that warm look in his eyes and those observations that hit a little too close to home until he can't take it anymore and turns on his heel to...definitely NOT run away like a dog with his tail between his legs.

Vegas keeps his distance after that. That princess isn't worth the effort, he tells himself. Or maybe he doesn't. Maybe he stops trying to seduce Tay, yes. But they end up talking again. And again. Because Vegas desperately needs to know what Tay meant with those things he said. And there's just... something about their conversations that keeps Vegas coming back. Until (stealing some thoughts from @tumsa here <3) Tay tries to convince Vegas that the competition between him and Kinn is dumb. Vegas does keep his distance, then.

And Tay gives up trying to help, trying to make him see how futile all of this is because it's clear Vegas won't listen to anyone but his father. But he still cares about Vegas, and seeing all the things Vegas does to himself without realising, seeing that ever-growing self-destructive obsession with Kinn sits like a leaden ball in Tay's stomach. The knowledge that he can't do anything to help is a bit like its own form of torture.

Anyways, (stealing again from @tumsa) Tay definitely ends up going to the hospital to visit Vegas. In secret, of course. And seeing Vegas and Pete together, seeing Vegas being changed by love, seeing him try to be a better person for Pete, putting all this effort in to make it work - maybe all of this forces Tay to reflect on his own love life for once. To reflect on the things he wants. The things he deserves, after all.

Nearly everyone had a crush on Tay, one time or another

You guys know the thing we do with Vegas? Like how VegasPete is the holy grail of endgame ships but it's so much fucking fun to ship Vegas with everyone and to imagine all his possible encounters and escapades? Because he's manipulation, seduction and psychological issues stacked on top of each other and wrapped in a velvet shirt?

Well. I like to do the same thing with Tay. For more or less opposite reasons. Because he's understanding and warm and compassionate and smart (and really pretty). In a world full of violence and trauma and repressed emotions, only sharp edges. I mean, who wouldn't crave the warmth, who wouldn't want to bathe in the sunlight for a while? I'm pretty sure people are falling en masse for Tay. And I think Tay doesn't always know how to handle it. Or genuinely doesn't realise what kind of effect he has on those poor bastards for doing nothing more than showing them a bit of kindness. Or maybe he's simply choosing to ignore it because he only has eyes for one person and one person alone.

Anyways, a lot of fun directions to go with this last headcanon for now. (And I'm keeping it intentionally vague and without examples because otherwise, this would turn into a multichapter fanfic I don't have time to write just now. 🤡)

#it's a bad idea to post this when there's so many other things I should be doing #and I have to go back to work tomorrow #but that hasn't stopped me before has it 🤡#and I had way too much fun writing and thinking about this ngl #(was there infj projection involved in this? maybe. MAYBE IT WAS)#anyways - I'd love to hear and collect some more Tay headcanons <3 #and I leave it to @haahka to share that one headcanon with you that started all of this 😂❤#kinnporsche the series #kinnporsche headcanon #kinnporsche tay #vegas theerapanyakul #timetay #because the kinnporsche brain rot is still real

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shina913 · 11 months

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On Tilt, Part 5.1 | KNJ

On Tilt, Part 5.1

Definition: a poker term for a state of mental or emotional confusion or frustration in which a player adopts a suboptimal strategy, usually resulting in the player becoming overly aggressive.

On Tilt Masterlist

Pairing: Namjoon x Fem!Reader

Rating: M 🔞

Genre: idol!AU; strangers-to-FWB-to-lovers; toxic relationship; angst; fluff; smut

Warnings: unhealthy/toxic relationship dynamic; cussing; miscommunication; mentions of alcohol consumption; trouble setting personal boundaries; lots of pain in the end

Word count: 2.1K words

Summary: You’ve said time and time again that you wouldn’t lose yourself to him. You were in control now. You were going to make better choices. For a minute there, you were able to keep up with it. It wasn’t ‘til Namjoon’s extended break that you found yourself falling into old habits. Will you ever learn to quit Kim Namjoon?

A/N: Thanks for being soooo patient with my super-slow updates. This is a flashback chapter, from time when they first broke up. I have the subsequent chapter about 70% of the way through. I just had the itch to post so--hope you enjoy! Thanks to my loves, @internetjunkdrawer and @itdoesntmatterwhy for reading this through and for the general screaming 🥹💜 Also, special s/o to @yoongukie-ff for letting me whine into your DMs about this and picking your brain! I appreciate you all sooo much for fueling this writer's delusions 🤡

Years ago…

Namjoon sits in a corner of the dressing room, surrounded by the buzzing activity of his teammates. Stylists make last-minute adjustments to the members' wardrobe, tech guys fix an issue on one of the mic packs, and a few more swipes of tinted lip balm are applied. Strands of hair are sprayed into place so they fall at just the right angle.

The group has just kicked off their European tour, and there are 20 minutes left before they must take their places for their opening set. This is when Namjoon usually gives his teammates a pep talk.

For now, he sighs and quietly rubs the inner corners of his eyes with his thumb and forefinger. He knows he'll have to summon all the gods he hasn't believed in for years to give him the strength to motivate his teammates. Deep down, he’s desperate to feed off their energy in order to get through tonight's performance.

An hour ago, while getting mic'd up and prepped for the show, one of the assistants snuck in amongst the flurry of arms that fussed over Namjoon to hand him his phone. His face lit up when he saw your name reflected on the screen. When he unmuted the phone’s microphone, the first thing he said to you was that there's a museum he's excited to check out at one of their tour stops. They have a few days of rest coming up between shows, and he wants to fly you out to where he'll be.

“Yeah, about that.” There was an edge to your voice that made him worry. ”I don’t know if I can go.”

He brushed his thoughts aside, thinking you might still be traumatized from the last time he flew you out and the airline lost your baggage. You didn't get your personal items back until the day before you had to fly back home. He tried to console you, saying, "The label charters our flights now, so you won't have to deal with any commercial flight issues anymore. Trust me, it's going to be better and less stressful."

Whenever Namjoon wanted something, he would do and say anything to get it.

“I know, but–” You tried to jump in but Namjoon continued to convince you.

“Is it a problem with your visa? We still have two weeks, I can ask one of the managers to call our guy at the consulate–”

“Namjoon! There’s no need for that.” You finally interrupt.

“Then what’s the problem?” He asks casually.

“It’s not a problem per se. I just don’t know if I can keep hopping on planes on random days of the year just to spend time with you.”

"Baby," he says softly, disregarding the fact that staff can hear every word he says but are hard-wired to ignore it. "This is my job. You know how it is."

"Believe me, I'm fully aware," you respond wryly.

"Okay so then why are we still having this conversation?" He says with a chuckle.

His cocky tone annoys you. And although you didn't mean to bring it up during this conversation, you decide now was as good a time as any other.

"I've met someone."

At that point, he promptly asks the assistants to give him some privacy. This isn't going to be one of those on-the-go phone calls where he'd be having short chats with you while people combed his hair and reapplied his lip balm.

He murmurs something you could only make out as ‘hold on’ while he walked away from staff.

He retreats to a utility room and closes the door behind him. When he's alone, his first reaction is to let out an awkward chuckle, although he isn't sure why. Maybe he thinks this is a joke and that you're trying to pull a fast one on him. "Wait, what do you mean 'you've met someone'?"

“I mean, I went out on a date…with a guy,” you pause for a beat before continuing, “I think I want to see where things go.”

“You think or you know?”

The edge in his voice makes you let out an exasperated breath. “Joon…”

“How did that even happen? I didn’t know that you were seeing other people.”

“Excuse me?” You try your best to pull back your irritation.

Namjoon catches himself. “I mean, I thought, you know…I didn’t think you were looking,” he mutters awkwardly.

“Well, you and I are both single, right? No commitments–that’s just facts.”

He falls silent, struggling to find the right words. You’ve been friends for years and have been in this 'situationship' for nearly half that time. He could be away for weeks and months, but one thing's for sure – he knew that he could always come home to you. It's always been you and him.

He tries to reason, "Yeah, but...I thought that we-"

"Look, let's be real. When has there ever been a 'we'?"

Namjoon had never thought of it that way. He always assumed that you agreed to this setup.

"It was my fault for letting this go on for as long as I have, thinking that it wouldn't be a big deal. I'm realizing now that it was a mistake."

Your words pierced him like a hot blade. His voice softens, "Hey…you don't really believe that, do you?"

It took you a few moments to answer. For a while, you had been understanding and patient with him. You had no problem rearranging your life to fit his, and while you agreed to no labels, you at least hoped for some consistency. He didn't deliver on that either. It had been one too many last-minute cancellations, and you were done being left alone at planned getaways, family gatherings, and even something as simple as a movie night on your couch.

“You know, I’ve been thinking a lot about the future.” It wasn’t the answer he was hoping for.

He sighed heavily. He knew it was eating at you as the months turned to years, but you didn't press him. What could you do? Besides, it wasn't like he could do anything about it either. He had his career before you came along.

This was a conversation that he usually avoided, not because he didn't want to talk about it, but because there were always so many uncertainties in his life. One of the biggest uncertainties was his career. Sure, he could think about the future--if the future involved making more records and being the top pop group in the world.

"Did you know that you talk about the future a lot? What your teams have planned out; what the record label wants you to do; what concept you have for your next mixtape or mini-album. And it made me realize--what about me? What are my plans? What do I want to do?"

Guilt immediately ate at Namjoon when he realized that the only future he had ever talked about excluded you. It was odd because, at present, you were always there--a constant in his life. So it wasn't that he meant to exclude you; it's just that when it came to you, he never thought that the present and the future were two separate things.

And that was his fatal flaw.

"Things are going well at my new job. I finally got my own apartment, thanks to Lani. Everything is falling into place and it really got me thinking about what I want for the long term."

His shoulders sagged and his knees buckled. He leaned against the closest thing for support: a wood-paneled locker where athletes typically stored their equipment at the stadium.

He sank onto the bottom shelf and crouched, resting his elbows on his knees.

"You know that I can't give you a solid answer. Everything is still really complicated and that hasn't changed."

"I know that things haven't changed for you, but they have for me. The more I think about it, the more I feel that I want something more definite. Something more concrete. Something more...” you sigh, “Just…more," you finish emphatically.

Namjoon squeezed his eyes shut. He was miles away and too far to appease you.

“I don’t know that I can give you that assurance,” he said in defeat.

"I figured as much," your voice wavered. He heard rustling on the other end and guessed that you had pulled the phone away to compose yourself.

“Could we,” he hesitated for a second, “…can I see you when I get back in three weeks? We can sit and talk--”

He heard you clear your throat. “I don’t know if that’s a good idea.”

Just then, the door creaked open. He looked up to find one of the stage managers gesturing at their watch, realizing that he still needed to get his mic pack on and have his in-ear monitor wiring taped.

“Five minutes,” he says in a clipped manner, making the assistant retreat immediately.

He turns his attention back to the phone. “Sorry about that.”

“No, I should apologize. I didn’t mean to hold you up. And to be honest, I was hesitant to even have this conversation over the phone.”

“A little late for that,” Namjoon deadpans.

"Yeah, well," you shrug at the irony of it all. "Anyway, it's getting kind of late here. I know you have to go."

“Look, I...I just...I don’t know…” he stutters. You both fall silent again, with occasional static filling the dead air. He felt weird ending things like this but truthfully, he was caught off-guard and didn’t know what to say.

“Are you still there?”

After a few beats, you respond. "I'm here."

There is a small sigh of relief from him. “Can I call you after the show? Please?” It’s a last-ditch effort on his part, but you decide to give him some leeway anyway.

"If you want, sure. But I know you're usually tired."

“No, no. I'll call you, I promise,” he says firmly.

"Okay. Have...a good show," you say slowly. It is all you can offer as a sign-off.

“T-thanks. Uh...bye.” He stares at the darkened phone screen and nothing but his bewildered reflection looks back at him. Before he tries to make sense of your conversation, a persistent knock rings out. It’s the same assistant, firmly insisting that he needs to be mic'd up this instant.

With a small nod, he brushes his own thoughts aside. He still has a show to do and his team is counting on him. He needs to get his head in the game.

******

Namjoon had never tried so hard to be focused, or at least appear to be. He went about the show as usual, but his body didn't seem to belong to him. He smiled at the audience, nailed all the steps, spat all his lyrics, and got through all of their ending ments, just like the professional he was.

After he and the guys were shuttled back to their hotel, he immediately asked one of the managers to bring a few beers to his room.

Who cared what he wanted for himself? It wasn't like he could sustain a relationship while he was an active idol. Not only would it be too much fodder for tabloids, but it wasn't good for the fanbase.

At the end of the day, the team had to be the top priority. If the fanbase was shaky, then the team's future was in jeopardy.

He had already placed a huge wager on his career, and now was not the time to be emotional. He had to bet smart. His management team would tell him that you were a high-risk, low-reward gamble.

When you woke up the next morning, you saw a notification on your screen. It wasn't a call or text from Namjoon. Instead, it was a link to a replay of his drunken livestream.

You tried to convince yourself that you had made the right decision. Waiting to confront him face-to-face would have been too difficult. The mere sight of him standing in front of you, promising to make it up next time, would have been enough to weaken your resolve. You didn't want to return to an unhealthy situation. So, you took a deep breath and focused on the future, knowing that this was the best thing for both of you.

On the other side of the world, Namjoon finally opens his eyes, having given up pretending to be asleep. He spent the rest of his evening doom-scrolling through his social media feed, trying to come to grips with your last conversation. Amidst the pounding in his head, it finally hits him: you met someone else, and you have the chance at something real with this person. And that person isn't him.

It hurt to let you go like that. But looking back on it, he realized that you were brave enough to admit that you deserved better. He didn’t have the courage to do the same.

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haloreigns · 21 days

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Subtle and not so subtle Clues/Hints that both Cell and Freeza are gay AND that Freeza has a crush on Cell🔽

- In ep 1, Cell and Zarbon have a "moment."

- When Freeza is choking Cell with his tail, he says, "You've awakened something I think.." Alluding to the fact that he may be into choking.

- In ep 3, the obvious, "I choose tails." "So you're giving me head?" Line is obvious.

- Before Freeza throws the ball at Cell, he calls him a "comely cockroach." Comely means pleasant to look at or attractive.

- "No Freeza, fuck ME."👀

- In ep 4, Freeza's response to Dodoria saying Cell's being topped by Froginyu is to instantly, without hesitation say, "Who hasn't?"

- When Froginyu lunges at Cell at the recycle and trash bins, Cell says in the background, "Do not lick me there! I do not know you enough to lick me there!"

- In ep 6, Freeza was watching Cell from his window the whole time.

- In the Christmas special, Freeza's eyes lit up when he saw Cell's gift, but I also think his heart lit up, if you know what I mean.

- Seeing them both sitting next to each other peacefully listening to King Cold's story brings a tear to my eye.

- In ep 8, Freeza is constantly needing to talk to his dad, it screamed coming out to me.

- Freeza's eye roll and tail whip when Cell came up behind him REEKED of sass.

- When Freeza sees Cell and King Cold talking, he says, "What if he hasn't talked about me all day?" Who is talking about? Cell? Or King Cold? I think Cell.

- Freeza says Cell has gotten him down in the dumps because he's been stealing all the attention, but I think there's more to it than that.

- Dodoria implied that Freeza's feelings of abandonment were coming from within. "Maybe it's not about Cell, maybe it's about you."

- When Freeza is having trouble sleeping, he says, "Damn you, you Chartreuse Charlatan!" And at first I thought Chartreuse was the color purple so I assumed he was talking about his dad, but after looking it up, Chartreuse is the color of Yellow and Green, so he was actually talking about Cell, meaning that he couldn't sleep because Cell was on his mind.👀

- In ep 9, when Cell finds Freeza trying to break into his garage, he assumes he's is having a midnight fling with Super Kami Guru.

- I can't lie, when I first watched this episode, I thought Freeza and Cell were going to start making out after they both slapped each other.

- The amount of times Freeza says "shut up" to Cell in this episode (Not in a mean way, but in a somewhat endearing way) is definitely a testament to Freeza's crush.

- "I dressed as your father so I could lure you into here and have you all to myself in the dark." "So you admit it!" Need I say more.

- "What do you do in your free time?" Cell was actually attempting to try and get to know Freeza😍

- Cell tried to understand why Freeza is so damn bitter about being dead. "Why do you even bother now?!"

- Freeza's tone changed when he said, "You really think you're going to get out of here?" It felt like a wall was coming down between the two of them.

- Seeing them both finally have a decent conversation and ask each other, "Do really believe that you can do good and go to heaven?" Is really refreshing, they should talk more like this in the future.

- Cell being able to pick up on Freeza's daddy's issues within 2 episodes.

- "Goodnight, Lord Freeza." Cell has never once called him Lord Freeza until this moment??

- Even though Cell ended the argument, Freeza is obviously unsatisfied and wanted to argue more.🤡

- Their sleeping positions before they go to sleep and right when they wake up is a DEAD giveaway.

- FREEZA WRAPPING HIS TAIL AROUND CELL DURING THE NIGHT??

- Also in ep 8, Freeza was having trouble sleeping ALONE in his bed, because he couldn't stop thinking about Cell, but he's able to sleep without discomfort on the hard concrete floor with Guru's annoying snoring in the background, but he's cuddling CELL that's the only main difference. There's no WAY this is a coincidence.

- In ep 10, Cell has a problem with Bojack being in his "personal bubble" but he sure didn't mind Freeza's tail wrapped around both of his legs in the previous ep.👀

- Freeza's neck roll when he says, "The basic bitch holiday." This man is FRUITY.

- Cell's line, "Top me, Zarbon." He knew what he was doing idc.

- Cooler's expression when he saw Freeza looking after Cell when he went to pee👀 he KNOWS.

- Their miscommunication when they think they're both talking about Cooler and Bojack never gets old.

- Cell mistakes Cooler for Freeza's ex, and Freeza doesn't say anything like, "I don't even swing that way!" He just simply corrects Cell and says, "My brother!" TFS is planting seeds I'm dead serious.

- "So he seems to hate everyone, what's his deal?" "Don't act like you care!" Oh really Freeza? Don't act like you're JEALOUS.

That's all! For now..

#hfil #fricell #Tfs #Freeza #Cell #Cellza #Dbz #Dbza #dbz abridged

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littlekohai77 · 1 year

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Eleceed x oc

Chapter 11

𝘐𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘩𝘶𝘳𝘵𝘴!

Jisuk grimaced, rubbing his shoulder where Jiyoung, his older sister, the chairwoman of Shinwa and the top 1 awakened one in Korea had hit him.

[𝘏𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘣𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘥. ]

He was sitting in a chair on the rooftop, probably skipping class.

𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘰𝘯 𝘮𝘦. 𝘔𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘴𝘩𝘦'𝘴 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘭𝘦.

He mused, a salty expression visible on his visage.

"Jisuk! "

He turned his head to see who it was and as he excepted it were his 'friends'.

He straightened up in his chair as they approached him, "That kid didn't show up again.... How hard did you go on him?"

"Yeah, How badly did you kick his ass?"

"If you keep doing this to him, what if he transfers to another school?" They chuckled, hands in their pockets, arms slung over each other's shoulder as Jisuk could only watch with an unreadable expression.

Jisuk watched in shame and disappointment as he recalled his encounter with an old friend this morning.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

{This morning before class begun}

"Hey! You there! " Jisuk called out to the crowd but the person he called for didn't stop to look at him and continued walking as the other students turned to look at him, asking if it's them he was calling for....

Jisuk, instead of answering, ran up to a certain albino and grabbed onto her arm, causing her to stumble a bit and make the brunette beside her gaze at him in confusion.

"Oh! So you were calling for me!" Hwa-Young sighed, concluding why he pulled her back like that.

"If you heard than why didn't you stop??! " Jisuk yelled, frustrated before noticing how people were gathering around them, forming a bigger crowd.

"What are y'all watching huh?? GO MIND YOUR OWN DAMN BUSINESSES! " He barked, shooing everyone off.

He smirked as he smugly observed the power he had over them but it fell the moment he laid his eyes on the brunette next to the annoyed albino, the brunette seemed to be pissed and looked like she wanted to say something but felt conflicted.

"Well! Jisuk, HOW THE IN THE NAME OF HOLY MOTHER F*CK DO YOU EXPECT ME TO KNOW THAT YOU WERE CALLING FOR ME?? THERE WAS A CROWD AROUND ME! AND WHY THE HELL DID YOU HAVE TO PULL SO HARD??! THAT FUCKING HURT!! " Hwa-Young screamed at him, an irk man visible on her forehead. She didn't waste anytime in yanking her arm out of his hold, making sure he loses balance for a moment.

"NOW, TELL ME WHAT THE HECK DO YOU WANT, YOU ROTTEN PIECE OF KIMCHI!" She huffed out, rubbing her right shoulder to relieve the aches.

She doesn't feel well, her entire body sore, she's gone a bit too hard on herself with the poison doses. She's sweating, feels dizzy and it feels like she gonna pass out any minute but she knows she won't. Not yet, it hasn't kicked in fully yet.

There are dark circles under her eyes, a clear sign of significant loss of sleep, she was too busy overs thinking how she's gonna fix things with 🤡 Greedy Salamander 🤡, that's the new name she gave him.

She's tired, stressed, has documents from Seongik to deliver to Shinwa without getting caught, feels like she's gonna faint and with migraines slashing through her skull. She felt like skipping but didn't want to because today they have art class and she likes drawing. So, she decided to bear with it and then an asshat comes out and almost yanked her arm out of it's socket.

Yeona watched the entire thing unfold, she watched as that ass hole named.. . .. Jisuk maybe? hurt Hwa-Young. She remembers how she failed to protect Jiwoo and ended up embarrassing herself in front of everyone.

𝘏𝘦 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘣𝘶𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘤𝘢𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘩𝘦𝘳.. . .. 𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦! 𝘐 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦! 𝘐 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘱 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘥𝘦𝘧𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘳! 𝘐 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨! 𝘐 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨! 𝘊𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘰𝘯! 𝘚𝘢𝘺 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨! 𝘈𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨!

She watches in fear as Jisuk grabs Hwa-Young's arm again roughly and tries to drag her away.

Hwa-Young was in pain, she could see how she was winching, her face was red..... Did she have a fever?

𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦?? 𝘕𝘖! 𝘏𝘌'𝘚 𝘛𝘈𝘒𝘐𝘕𝘎 𝘏𝘌𝘙 𝘈𝘞𝘈𝘠! 𝘈𝘕𝘋 𝘚𝘏𝘌'𝘚 𝘚𝘖 𝘞𝘌𝘈𝘒 𝘈𝘛 𝘛𝘏𝘌 𝘔𝘖𝘔𝘌𝘕𝘛! 𝘞𝘏𝘈𝘛-𝘞𝘏𝘈𝘛 𝘐𝘍 𝘚𝘏𝘌 𝘍𝘈𝘐𝘓𝘚 𝘛𝘖 𝘋𝘌𝘍𝘌𝘕𝘋 𝘏𝘌𝘙𝘚𝘌𝘓𝘍?? 𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘱𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘩𝘦'𝘭𝘭 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘪𝘯𝘫𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘥! 𝘊𝘖𝘔𝘌 𝘖𝘕! 𝘋𝘖 𝘚𝘖𝘔𝘌𝘛𝘏𝘐𝘕𝘎! 𝘚𝘛𝘖𝘗 𝘚𝘏𝘈𝘒𝘐𝘕𝘎! 𝘚𝘛𝘖𝘗 𝘏𝘌𝘚𝘐𝘛𝘈𝘛𝘐𝘕𝘎! 𝘠𝘖𝘜 𝘓𝘐𝘛𝘛𝘓𝘌 𝘊𝘖𝘞𝘈𝘙𝘋!

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

"At the end of the day, you're nothing but a scaredy cat. A useless bitch who's too weak and UwU to defend herself or anyone and always needs a prince charming to save her. " The arrogant blonde spoke as he dumped a whole bottle of spoiled milk on her head as she sobbed and sniffled on the floor

She didn't bother defending herself, he's not lying, she is a lowly useless coward! She tells herself.

"At least being our play thing gives you a purpose. Ahah... A HAHAHA HAHAHA!! "

She watches through a blurry wall of tears as they leave, laughing and giggling among them selves. The ones she used to call her friends.

~~~~~~~

"Yeona, you're so pathetic. "

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"Yeona, you're such a crybaby"

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"Can't you just take a joke Yeona? "

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"ɎØɄ'ⱤɆ ₴Ø ₱₳₮ⱧɆ₮Ł₵! "

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"₩ⱧɎ ĐŁĐ₦'₮ ɎØɄ ⱧɆⱠ₱ ₥Ɇ?? ₩ⱧɎ ĐŁĐ₦'₮ ɎØɄ ₴₮Ɇ₱ Ł₦? ɎØɄ ₵Ø₩₳ⱤĐ! "

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

It's them again, the past is coming back to haunt her again.

Now there is finally someone who doesn't beat her up, someone who doesn't call her names, look at her with malicious intent. She's afraid that if she doesn't step in the past will repeat itself.

"Hey! Sto-stop that!" Yeona stuttered.

Hwa-Young has never turned her head so fast ever in her damn life. She was shocked. Her girl-friend was trying to help.

Jisuk glared at Yeona, opening his mouth to respond before he felt something impact his cheek.

"*SLAP*"

It's like time has stopped, everyone was frozen.. . .. In shock.

"*SLAP**SLAP*"

Hwa-Young was shook, her mouth agape. Yeona.... The timid little girl everyone thought of to be weak was slapping around Jisuk...

𝘞-𝘸𝘰𝘸!

"HEY! (｀д´)ﾉｼSTOP! WHY ARE YOU ALL CAUSING SUCH A FUSS?? WHAT'S ALL THIS COMMOTION ABOUT?? " The dean yelled, running up to them. His fat tummy jiggling with every step he took.

"RUN! " Hwa-Young shouted, clutching on to Yeona's hand and darting out the gates.

"HEY! WAIT FOR ME! " Jisuk yelled after them as he too scurried out before the dean could get to him.

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"*hufff* *Huff*"

Hwa-Young panted, out of breath, leaning against the wall.

𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘰𝘪𝘴𝘰𝘯 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘬𝘪𝘤𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘵.

She straightened up and leaned her weight against the wall, turning to face a panting Yeona and an awkward Jisuk.

"Why did you follow us? " The albino inquired, her annoyance showing on her visage, her arms crossed.

Jisuk flinched at the harshness in her tone........

𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘸𝘦 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳? 𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘨𝘢𝘮𝘦𝘴? 𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘴 𝘦𝘹𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘭𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘳.. 𝘠𝘦𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘩𝘦𝘳. 𝘐𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘳?. . .. 𝘕𝘖.. . 𝘐'𝘮 𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘪𝘵.. . 𝘐𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘩𝘦𝘳.. .

But his positiveness faded moment he looked into her eyes.. . . . There wasn't that shine in them.. . . ....

"I...... I donno.." Jisuk awkwardly rubbed the back of his neck as Yeona approached him from behind, getting ready to smack him again.

But stopped at the raise of the albino's hand.

"And why were you calling for me? " The albino quirked an eyebrow, eyeing him up and down.

It frustrated Jisuk, how she was acting.......but what angered him more was how he was hesitanting. This was unlike him.... Why is he so...............scared?

He wanted to punch the wall.

"OKAY! Stop pretending like you don't know me! I know it's you Hwa-Young! You're the girl I used to play with when I was a kid. Why? Why are you acting this way? This is so fucking confusing! " He yelled, pointing an accusatory finger at her as if she has done something immoral, which she has but nothing that would never effect Jisuk or Shinwa in anyway.

"Hmm.....well I guess the cats out of the bag....again....but it was fun while it lasted...it was fun seeing you so confused and trying to really rub those two braincells together to some how try and find out how I knew so much about you, why I knew what you liked, disliked, why I was sometimes following you around, why you sometimes saw me around or inside the Shinwa headquarters but the second you try approaching me, I vanish....welp.... How did you find out? " Hwa-Young seemed to have relaxed a bit after hearing his reasons, her voice softer, a playful smirk on her face.

"Why the fuck are you smirking! Why couldn't you just say it to me? " Jisuk growled.

"Well... Where's the fun in that? " her smirk widens.

"You're-you're not like her. " Jisuk voice trembled with emotions....

"People change Jisuk.... People change....

There is no guarantee that you'll even be the same person in a year. " she chuckled.

"L(・o・)」ᵂᴬᴵᵀ

Hold up! " Yeona's sudden interruption spooked them a bit, they had almost forgot she was with them.

"So this Jisuk guy is your childhood friend? (°o°:)ᴼʰᴺᵒ "

She immediately rushed towards Jisuk who was bracing for another slap but to his surprise.....it never came.

He looked down and saw the brunette bowing to him, vigorously repeating the phrase "I'm so sorry! " while Jisuk just awkwardly stood there, not knowing what to do.

"Don't apologize, he was being an ass. He deserved that. " Hwa-Young stated, the same bored look on her features as always.

"Anyways.... I'll get going! Class is about to start soon. " Yeona said before heading off to the school's direction, leaving the two behind, alone in awkward silence.

Hwa-Young spoke the moment the brunette was out of earshot. "You know, what you did to Jiwoo wasn't nice, it wasn't his fault your friends got injured, they were the ones who approached him first. Why are you friends with them anyway? I know this sounds harsh but building close connections with non-awakeneds puts both you and them at risk and with you being chairwoman's younger brother it's riskier. "

Jisuk was shocked that she knew about Jiwoo and his little spar, he didn't know how to respond to the other part though, he felt embarrassed. Hence he choose to keep his mouth sealed shut.

"It was nice seeing you again, goodbye! Oh! And I hope you don't mind me and my friend watching your rematch. " Hwa-Young said in the flatest tone possible before giving him a croaked but genuine smile and darting in the direction Yeona went.

Jisuk just stood there, a little smile on his lips, that last part made him feel warm on the inside.

He strolled down the road mindlessly, going wherever his legs took him, a little skip in his steps and a silly smile.

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He was right outside Shinwa, about to step in when.

"Ouch! " Jisuk looked down to see a little boy staring back at him, a bit teary eyed.

"Hey! You knocked over my ice cream!" The child protested, his chocolate eyes full of rage!

𝘞𝘩𝘰'𝘴 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘥 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴?

Jisuk was annoyed and he didn't have any money with himself at the moment, so he choose to simply ignore the kid and walk away.

All was going fine.. . .. . UNTIL he felt something climb up his back and little sharp teeth dig into the skin on the back of his neck.

"AHHHHHH! GET OFF ME! "

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#eleceed #eleceed x reader #world academy #world awakened academy #eleceed x oc #eleceed oc #jisuk yoo #yoo jisuk #yoo jiyoung #jiyoung

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nsk96 · 1 year

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Personal rant post (feel free to skip I just need to get this out of my system):

So my mom just blew up at me. She hasn't done it in a while and I know I probably shouldn't complain because she has it worse than I do and my dad has been putting her through a lot, but like I hate feeling like such a burden. Basically it was because I forgot to do something. It's too much to explain right now but it's something having to do with these gnats that my mom says is bothering her. Don't get me wrong, I think there are definitely some flies around, but I don't think it's as bad as she says it is because I've only seen a few and well, it's no secret that diabetes causes nerve issues so what flies are bothering her could be exacerbating her issue making her think it's hundreds of them when it may actually be like 3-5.

But anyways back to the point. There's the drain in the shower that can close. She thinks flies are coming from it and she asked me once to close it when I finish showering. I forgot once already.

Background: I've always been extremely freaking forgetful for as long as I can remember. Like it has been the bane of my existence ever since age 4 (or 5).

Fast forward: though my memory is a little better than it was then, there are many things I can't remember for the life of me no matter how hard I try. There were instances where I could put sticky notes everywhere and still forget. I could set an alarm and still forget in 2 minutes based on what I'm doing or the state of my mind. And other things takes me about 10 tries before I finally remember and am able to incorporate it into my routine.

So I forgot to close the shower drain for the second time. I was in my room reading with the door closed. She burst into my room and started yelling at me. The kind of yelling that in my childhood, was accompanied by a beating. And of course this was triggering for me because I used to get beaten for forgetting things all the time (after having to remind me 20 times to do a thing and beating me a few times, why not try a different tactic to get me to remember what it is you're trying to get me to remember), so I couldn't help but start crying even though I tried to stop myself. It's been a while since I've had to cut off my feelings, I'm a little out of practice. Just when I thought I was getting better mentally. I haven't been beaten since age 14, but I'm 26 now, and I still get nightmares about it occasionally and a whole shit ton of anxiety (to the point where I get that very tiny heart attack every time she calls out my name from across the house. Even when she is genuinely thanking me for something, I get scared that she's mad at me for something, at least at first until a few seconds later I realize she's being genuine)

I said "I'm sorry mom, I forgot." Her explosive rant went something along these lines but I honestly hardly remember because once she starting cursing at me my brain zoned out and the rest is a blur and bits and pieces:

"'I'M SORRY I FORGOT' IS NOT ENOUGH! IT'S F*CKING____DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE CONSTANTLY BOTHERED BY THESE FLIES EVERY MINUTE OF THE DAY? ___(some more cursing)___(something about putting myself in her shoes)___(more ranting but I can't hear her words anymore)____(more cursing)____(slams my bedroom door)___(still blowing up in the hallway in front of my bedroom door)___(slams some other doors)___(still yelling for the next 2 minutes)"

I'm sorry I'm such a burden, mom. I can't remember to do something so simple for someone I love. I guess this is why I'll have to live alone for the rest of my life because I don't want to burden someone else. I'll try to find a way to move out. Makes sense, I can't remember to do some things for myself. ("I feel like making tea! [forgets the water is boiling and now have to refill the pot and put it to boil again]" "After I shower, I will get dinner and then go study [forgets to get dinner🤡]" "I'm gonna remove this nail polish before going into the shower so I can paint my nails after showering [forgets and now have to wait until next day to paint nails]" "I'mma do some laundry [forgets clothes in washing machine...twice in one day]" "I'm going to read through this powerpoint lecture for class [read and recited the material on each slide 3 times but still forgets everything]"). At this point, it's probably best to just let myself forget myself out of existence because it's like what's even the point. Maybe I can move out and live in my car. What happens after that, happens.

I've been listening to music by Kenshi Yonezu all day, so the weirdest part of this situation is when about halfway through zoning out, one of his songs starts playing in my head and suddenly I couldn't feel anything else anymore. This is the first time my brain successfully thought of something else in the middle of being yelled at. Something I've wanted to happen for years when all my brain could do back then was a blank out.

So like...thanks, Kenshi. Your music helped protect me a bit.

My mom: [Exploding at me]

My brain:

#personal rant #it took me an hour to write this through tears tbh #i don't know if it's even makes sense but i can't be bothered to read it right now #feeling numb finally #will probably laugh about this tomorrow hopefully #it's only 2 days into my winter break after a semester of absolute hell and being targeted by a couple of teammates and I still can't rest #tw abuse mention #tw: abuse mention

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izabellwit · 1 year

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🤡😈🎢✨🎶🍦💖🎯👀✅💔

im sorry im sending so many of these feel free to ignore some if you already got em <3

these answers got kinda long so dhjfgj under the readmore it goes!!

🤡What's a line, scene, or exchange you've written that made you laugh?

Hunter manages to shove all the junk into one corner and make the start of a fairly presentable bed in the other corner by the time the human re-arrives in the Boiling Isles and throws open his door hard enough to smack it against the wall.

“You took my advice!” shouts the human, at the top of her lungs.

“Hiiiiii,” says Hunter, hands over his ears. The human takes a deep breath. Hunter closes the door in her face. “Byeeee.”

(From this fic!!)

There's a lot of lines I've written over the years that make me laugh, but Hunter and Luz as a funny sibling duo…. Every time I reread this fic I giggle at this scene.

😈 Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?

OH ABSOLUTELY there's a few lil ones… I think the one I do most often is namedrop other fandoms/charcters? This happens a lot in my KH fics. Like I'll have a TWEWY reference or character show up for like one second and then never again. Just for funsies and also flavor and also bc I love twewy.

Sometimes I will also set up scenes specifically to make readers think the worse happened/some guy died or whatever and then it gets revealed its something funny instead. I do that a lot too djhsfgkj

🎢Which of your fics would you call your wildest ride?

LABYRINTHS OF THE HEART. I love all I've written but nothing will ever come close to Labyrinths. It was freshmen year of college and stuff was happening irl and that fic just. Went places. I had so much fun with it.

✨Give you and your writing a compliment. Go on now. You know you deserve it. 😉

AAAA. UM. Oh god. Uhhhh I think I do pretty well with characterization / character voice? Also a lot of my fics I write for me and im always very happy with them… they are exactly what I wanted to read. Does that count??

🎶Do you listen to music while you write? What song have you been playing on loop lately?

YEAH. For certain fics I'll make a whole playlist, even! As for a song on loop.... this one! Inkpot Gods by the Amazing Devil never leaves my brain haha

🍦What's the sweetest fic you've created so far?

Ohhh gosh. Okay so its either Klee meeting the knights of Favonius or Hyakkimaru and Dororo comedy fic hjdfgkjgh

💖What made you start writing?

Oooo I gotta think about this one... hmmm, I think, I've always been a daydreamer and as a kid I used to be annoyed I couldn't "reread" my daydreams like I could my favorite books?? so I decided I just had to write them down eventually I think jhdfkgj

Of course in my mind before i could write down my ideas I had to actually get GOOD at writing (kid brain. My logic is silly, write whatever and whenever u want, u do not need "skill" to get started but ANYWAY) that's also how I started writing fic, for writing practice!! And now years later I'm still at it haha

🎯Have any of your readers accurately guessed major plot points? Care to share which?

Oooooh, a lot of readers in Labyrinths guessed the final plot point, which is that Varian will become the moondrop… most of my fics don't tend to have major twists though, I think…? There's one other fic I've written that has a HUGEE twist, but it hasn't been revealed yet and no one's guessed it yet, so ;)

👀 Tell me about an up and coming wip please!

i have a player and xehanort on the island fic in the works (exploring his possible childhood, character study and legacies kinda thing), and its still veeeeeery rough draft (like. basically still just notes) but I do have this exchange!!!

-do you think they’ll like me?

-who?

-the friends from my dreams. I’m not— do you think they’ll like me anyway?

-of course.

-but how do you know? What if they don’t? What if— what if I go out there and no one—

-he stops. He doesn’t know where he was going with that.

-silence. And then his teacher leans forward, and holds him close. I love you, they say. I love you very much.

-that isn’t what I asked.

-but it's my answer. They press a hand to his head. You’ll understand, one day.

✅ What's something that appears in your fics over and over and over again, even if you don't mean to?

The above exhange: "i love you / that isn't what I asked / but it is my answer" has actually shown up in a few fics! It's a common theme I guess u could say... its a conversation that means something to me and I think it is changed slightly by the context of every story, so I keep bringing it in jhdfgkj

Other things that crop up a lot....Found family for sure! Uhhh the phrase "rolling the thought like candy on [their] tongue" shows up a lot without my meaning it too djhfgjkh

Oh!!! Honey!! Honey shows up a lot. I think honey is fantastic. Did u know it lasts forever? Also it has great medical properties--Anyway I think you get the idea haha

💔 Is there a fic of yours that broke your heart?

https://archiveofourown.org/works/27801085/chapters/68061658 hehe

Anyway. The woods whispering fic may be completed but I think about the fucked up found family relationships in that fic 24/7. The moment i posted the last chapter i had to stare at a wall for a bit haha

#ask game #THIS WAS SOOOO FUN THANK YOUUUUU #oh i havent done these in forever this was so fun dsfgh

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sasodei-is-real · 1 year

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I really need to talk to other Carol and Caryl fans ab this. I need your opinion on 10×18 Caryl

So. I recently started watching The Walking Dead. A long time ago I watched season 1, but I didn’t go further because I was busy with my diploma work, etc. And so started from the second season , I notice some hints of Carol and Darl's relationship. It didn't interest me much, because it was something like banal ones, like the scene on the tower "screw around" . But over time, as their relationship began to open up, I found that it's deeply written down how complex and emotional the relationship is. This really does not happen often, and it's not just about chemistry. It's about the level at which they have each other and how deeply they care about each other, how much they mean to each other. And I started to like caryl. But here I am at the tenth e.

So, a lot of mistakes that Carol did., but you can understand on her. This character went through hell. Lost everything. And broke. And naturally, her actions would have to be subject to certain consequences, including in relation to people's personal changes towards her. But I want to talk specifically about Deryl. I think it's a very possible and real moment when Carol begs him to say something and he just walks away. It's very strong and epic. He just talked to her about how much he wants to help her how much he believes that in his place she would stop him he literally shows with his whole appearance how he needs her, she promises. And still unable to stop . He told her during that conversation so many frank things that he did not tell anyone and would not tell anyone so openly. But that didn't help and she literally tried to blow up the cave and commit suicide

Carol feels guilty, she does absolutely everything to achieve at least something, at least some understanding between them, but Daryl is moving away from her more and more. Okay, that's understandable, because she really made a mistake. Even after he warned her. Moreover, I would say that in such a situation one could feel some kind of betrayal on her part, because in the cave he talked about how he wanted to be near her, and she promised to him. It can be understood. Next comes the scene with Carol begging him " pls do not hate me". And, I think, in this case, again, it is quite realistic and adequately suited to this situation.But his answer gives an understanding that he wants to save their relationship that this is not the end. He gave her no more, no less. But he could at least behave differently after this scene. He knows how much he is dear to her. knows that in this situation, she literally lost everything. And yes, in part - It's her fault, because she just didn't stop when he said that three times, if not more. But like, she's your closest person. And you don't just leave a person in such a state, but you make it worse. Moreover, this attitude changes in accordance with his change of mood.

But, okay. Then comes the moment where he says "you still have me". And here it seems to me that here the characters begin to behave like mature people. Yes, he left her even though he knew she was suffering, she was suicia0l. He also needed time. Yes, one of them has risen to the pinnacle of error. But now, after you gave her some hope, you need to accept this and sort it out microscopically, including clarifying relationships between the two of you, build it again so as not to lose. But no🤡

I'm watching episode 18 right now. And right at the beginning of the episode, when Carol wants to go hunting with him, he acts like he hasn't said anything to give her hope that things can be fixed between them. In fact, he simply does not take responsibility for his words and behaves as detached and cold as before those words. He is like a teenager who does his actions not based on responsibility and decisions made, but because of a change in mood.You've already taken two steps back. You supported her in front of Maggie. You gave her hope, you said she didn't lose you. And after all this, you again behave more coldly even than before. Literally emotional swing. Why did you have to do all this after you give hope to a person. And of course there's a lot between them to talk about, there's a situation that still needs to be cleared up, but he doesn't even do that. He does not say how angry he is, does not try to talk about what happened, he just gives her an emotional swing, ignoring her, looking askance at her. and Yes, it's okay to go back to what's bothering you, even after you've given the person hope, but not in this way. In the end, he says that he does not want to talk when Carol starts. WTF. A child who does not understand that the way he behaves affects other people. As if his head still does not fit that his mood can affect the mood of another person that he is so important to someone.This is not a good way to show that you are angry, not after saying that she still has you.

He does not want to go forward does not want to understand this, does not want to talk about it , but at the same time, with his whole appearance, he shows that his attitude has changed even after he said that she did not lose him. He does not follow his decisions and words, it all changes according to his mood. and Carol has no choice but to accept it.

After such a situation, there are two ways out: you renounce the relationship and do not give the hope to person that everything can be fixed if it is too much for you. and the second option after you've gone through the anger. If you don't want to lose this relationship, you let the person know that you're there for them and then try to figure out what happened. No matter what, he doesn't want to lose Carol. That's why he said she " You still have me" . But at the same time, he is not able to stick to this, he is not able to cope with it and figure it out, he just starts to behave as coldly as before, arranging an emotional swing.

They have too deep a relationship for the first option. And it's obvious that he doesn't want to lose her. That's why he said he could never hate her. but at the same time he is not mature enough for the second option.

What Carroll does is she feels guilty and tries to laugh it off, can't afford anything big, tries to defuse the situation even though it's hard. And he knows it, and he puts her in that position anyway. And he tries so pretentiously to show his displeasure that he even looks accusingly at how she butchers the fish. And Carol notices it. "Let's say that I'm doing everything wrong. I can butcher fish." And you know, it's okay to feel what Daryl feels. When you are so upset by the act of another person that you involuntarily begin to get angry every time. But it's not that he shouldn't feel it. It's about how he deals with those feelings. And he behaves like an immature schoolboy with a changeable mood. But Carroll always gives him a chance to speak out. This is the most important thing, to try to resolve what has arisen. But what does he do? Not just ignores, but seasons with even more bitterness. And it's just disgusting.

And now I got to their conversation after the flashbacks about Leia. Carroll tries to comfort him, tries to make sure he doesn't feel guilty about what happened. How does Daryl respond to this?) He tries to prick her. After every episode, I try to read the interviews and about this moment, Norman said that he feels guilty about what happened to Kony. And in fact, it really is part of his fault because he made everyone else go after Carol. And at that moment, he just dumps everything on Carol to stop feeling this guilt. The same could be said from Norman's interview. And you know, it's very ironic, because at this point he blames Carol for leaving with him because she felt guilty. And so I decided to put everything on him. Meanwhile, when the truth is that he himself had just tried to inject her in order to stop feeling guilty. In the end, Kang said that he just wanted her to make the same decision that He made after the story with Leah. Bad way.

Deral has been my favorite character since season 2. It has a complex history and a long development. It is partly understandable why he behaves in this way, but understanding does not exclude the fact that this still remains immature and infantile behavior. Quite a traumatized man and as the show says, "He was one of the survivors before this whole mess started." It's no secret that he went through a lot of shit as a kid. But since the episodes where he ran away with Beth, I have been haunted by the feeling for a very long time that he still remained at the age of his trauma. He was incapable of dealing with his feelings and fear and took it all out on Beth. It's like he's still that traumatized child. And this is a very common practice in psychology, when a traumatized person, without being rehabilitated, remains at the age of his trauma, he can develop emotionally, but there will be triggers and moments when he will behave like that same wounded child, or a teenager who is not able to behave in a situation appropriately.

But the fact that this scene happened after he made Carol feel like he was there for her just kills. This is terribly selfish. He said so many unnecessary things and you can see how much it hurt Carol. If he really thought about it, then he should have said it before he gave hope to her.

It is quite obvious that most of their problems and the reason why they cannot solve them now is due to the fact that both are used that they simply understand each other without words. But now is the time when each of them is going through something new. Ordinary understanding is not enough here, it is necessary for the other to be able to speak. They want it, but they're not used to it. That's what Carol meant when she said their luck had run out.

Then, when Daryl asked her to speak, she didn't know how. After, with his help, it turned out, but the pain did not go away. So it is now with Darrel. He can't talk to her right now. But first, he gives her hope, but again moves away from Carol. Leaving her with nothing. He behaves according to his emotions and his mood. There are two obvious facts: he's angry about everything that's going on, but he doesn't want to lose Carol. But the point is how he expresses these two facts in life. He doesn't want to lose Carol, so after letting his anger go, he says he can't hate her and that she still has him, he tried to support her. And then again he behaves with her as coldly as before all these words. After all, she remembers these words and she has no choice but to try to build at least some kind of bridge between them again, to try to get closer to him again. And he looks at her desperate attempts and does nothing but aggravate her condition. In the end, just because of his emotional swings, he says things to her that he shouldn't have said.

So. What the fuck. I'm sorry but Carol deserves more. Yes, she made a mistake, but even Kally was able to forgive her, and Donnie is her sister. Because, as she said herself, she understands why Carol acted the way she did. And it's normal not to understand a person, but you need to TRY to understand if you already chose this path. If you want to maintain a relationship, in order to get off the ground, do not hurt yourself or the other. But instead, he chooses not to lose her, to tie her to himself, to give some hope , while giving in to his emotions without thinking about the other person, absolutely not trying to understand and figure it out.

I'm very disappointed. I already caught the spoilers of season 11. I know that a spin-off was planned with them, I know that in the last episodes he will say that he loves her and they will reconcile. But now watching this series, I just do not understand what the hell. I'm just confused right now about the way daryl is behaving. Because for me it doesn't fit well with his character after his development.

And you know, you can talk for a very long time about why he behaves the way he does. Because of his lifeguard complex, because he may have felt betrayed by Carol, because he stopped understanding her, because there are so many parallels between Carol and Leah, the people he was trying to save, but he failed, or due to the fact that he feels guilty and cannot do anything about it. Because it's not just anger, there's already a reason why he's acting like this AFTER he gave her hope. He is losing her. In the interview at the end of the episode, was revealed that Darryl wants Carol to make the same decision he made. And Carol herself also said that it was not about Leah, or Connie, but about them. Kang in the interview says that he wants Carol to make the same decision that Darrol made - the decision to be with his family to stay there (that's why he blamed her for comeing with him), to understand where she belongs. This is indeed the case here we are talking about something much more, and in matters that they are not yet able to solve. But the way he tries to deal with it is just immature.

And I'm very interested in what other viewers think about this, especially fans of carol and caryll

#the walking dead #caryl #carol peletier #carol x daryl #daryl dixon #twd season 10

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its-kall-the-clown · 2 years

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So, in that new fic you published, you mentioned that Tang had to bite Pigsy first to get it through his head that he wanted to be mated. How did that go?

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as well was one can expect actually. Pigsy and Tang has been married and living together for several years at this point. But the catalyst that started the whole mating mark thing was when another demon took interest into Tang and tried to go about things the old fashion way.

You see. Pigsy thinks himself above all his demon instics so he never went through the kidnapping, courting bracelets, and eventually mating mark with Tang. He went a more human rout of just asking the guy out a date, and feeding him a lot, and eventually over time asking them to be his boyfriend and eventually marriage.

So Tang isn't familiar with the demon way and gets kidnapped by this demon

And Tang is like "hey! Take me home! I already have a husband." And the demon only laughs at him and is like.

"the fuck you don't! You don't even have the scent marks from a nest much less a mating mark."

And that absoulty confuses Tang who forces this poor demon to explain what he means and then he has to lay out ALL demon mating customs including a mating mark going as far as to say "he clearly isn't serious about you if he hasn't marked you" which absoulty offends Tang but before he can claw thire eyes out Pigsy shows up finally to save his lover and kicks the demons ass.

So no Tang knows Pigsy has been holding back on him and he dose his own research on demons and finds out marks are like marriage rings, exchanged during ahem mating to seal a spiritual bond between partners. So he's been married to human standards but not demon standards. And that kind of hurts Tang.

So Tang asked Pigsy about it the next time they are having sex and Pigsy REFUSES to mark Tang. Saying it's barbaric and old fashioned and he didn't want to hurt Tang. Tang understands and backs off about it....for awhile.

Untill word gets around there is a pretty human who is into demons and unclaimed... And suddenly Tang is getting kidnapped every other weekend by demon suitors trying to impress him with thire home and offer courting bracelets to him. Pigsy saves him every time but it's getting old quick.

So the next time Pigsy and Tang are making love he just goes for it. He bites Pigsy claiming him. Pigsy becomes overwhelmed with his instincts in that moment. His brain screaming mate.mate.mate. over and over so he can't help himself when he bites Tang back marking him (on a side note it becomes the best sex they have 😉)

Tang and Pigsy once they comes down from the mating mark high Pigsy relaizes whet they did and panics but Tang calms him down and is like. "Dude. I want to stop being kidnapped. And I want to be married to you in YOUR traditions too." Pigys is still mad and also kind of shocked because he never picture TANG to be the one to mark him.

So after some talking they end up being happy with the outcome and Tang even convinced Pigsy to give into some of his demon instics in private like nesting and such. Tang stops getting kidnapped. So everyone wins.

Hounestly this practically wrote itself I might make it its own fic if I find the time. Or if anyone else wants to write it they can 👍🤡✨

#kall answers #lego monkie kid #monkie kid #Pigsy #Tang #freenoodle shipping #demon instics #nesting instics #mating marks #love me some demon instics

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thelonesomequeen · 3 years

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I’m just not excited for this new movie announcement.

That was the most boring announcement possible. I was excited there was new C and then it’s just a repeat of boring roles he’s already done with an actress I’m personally tired of him being paired with. Why can’t this man take some chances. Come on Chris- take a stroll outside of your comfort zone and surprise us for once.

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Okay, I adore Chris and Scarlett and am happy they are working together again. Hell, I ship Romanogers to no end but come on, people stop shipping Chris and Scarlett together. It's not happening. I have no doubt the two of them love and support one another like fried of 20 + years often do.

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I try to give Chris a pass on his roles because actors get typecast all the time so it's possible he's not being offered more challenging ones. Cap probably didn't help with that either. However, I did have high hopes for ASP since he had more control over it. In my mind, it was an opportunity for him to show that he has more depth than a witty tweet. Unfortunately, that project has been a bit of a letdown for me. Speaking of, I assume the ME series has been pulled since there's been no promo.

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Chris really needs to leave his comfort zone, I’m tired of the same roles with the same people. When he ventures out and does something different the work is so much better. And apple is the worst streaming service, I have a year free and still don’t watch it.

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Some asks are definitely coming from evansson shippers lol. Like yeah Chris is sooo desperate and he couldn’t find a woman to kiss so he has been obssessing over kissing his married friend and oh damn producing a movie and casting her is the best way to do it. You all sound so… WEIRD I hope you all know that.

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I'm actually looking forward to seeing Chris in a romance movie. He hasn't been successful in the past in this genre (imo as I'm not too fond of Before We Go or Playing it Cool). But if this one is in the vein of Romancing the Stone, then it has the potential of being fun! Do I wish it was with another actress? Sure. But as a previous anon said, another actress may have been stalked to death. She would also have become fodder for rumors ala Dockery and ADA. So maybe this casting is a blessing 🤐

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I thought he wanted to branch out of the Marvel persona, that's why he took villainous roles in KO, TGM and LSOH. The character and script for the new film may be completely different from the MCU, but many many people (not just the shippers) are already referring to these new characters as variants of Steve and Nat. It's kinda annoying lol. Chris and Scarlett may be going for a record or something 😂

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I remember when Scarlett made a terrific speech at a Times Up event calling out James Franco when he was the favourite to win the Oscar. I was like you go girl!! And then she went and defended a vile abuser like Woody Allen 🤡🤡. That's some white feminism crap. Also, judging by Chris's acting choices, I don't think he's looking for awards recognition or anything. He's happy to do one film/project a year, make $$$$, and go back to MA. Good for him, I guess.

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Are people excited about this just because he has a job? 😄 And given he seems to only film one large role per year, is this his 2022 role?

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I thought Scarlett had already signed on to a few other projects, so I was (unpleasantly) surprised by this news. Supposedly she's doing Bride, which is another Apple movie, and Tower of Terror or whatever. And A Wes Anderson one that's supposed to be filming soon. I wonder if those are no longer happening or if this thing with Chris will take precedence. I really kind of hope she's double-booked herself and gives this one up. I can't handle the shippers and how extra-deranged this will make them. They make it hard to be a Chris fan at times.

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His career is so boring. He needs a change in his team or someone who's going to wake him up. Overall all his recent choices and news around him are so disappointing.

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I've lost count of how many "I know Chris Evans is producing the movie because he wants to kiss Scarlett once more" tweets I've seen. Looks like her stans aka Evansson shippers are out in full force. This just gives them more fodder to continue being delusional 🙄

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The THR article title does say the two will star in it. Tbh I'm not too fussed about seeing them on-screen again. We don't know anything about the movie yet, and so it can possibly be different to what he's done before. If there's anyone capable of bringing out emotional performances in another actor, it's Scarlett, just based on Adam in Marriage Story. This could be an opportunity for Chris. I just hope this project pulls through so that we can get new content too.

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