#but they are discussing it bc the author wants to discuss it

[inkskinned]

it's the levels of scrutiny too.

a movie that has a largely-female cast has to be well-written, well-shot, well-acted, well-advertised. people will spend 2 hours on youtube talking about a single plot hole; about a moment of bad pacing, about a singular background character's poor scripting. if there isn't something obvious, they will say - well there's nothing specifically bad, but it wasn't specifically good either.

they will turn out another all-male movie, and it's just a movie.

a book that has queer representation in it has to defy every convention of writing while also being true to traditional plot, structure, format, and pacing. it must have no boring chapters, no missteps, no awkward dialogue. it must be able to "prove" that any queer relationship "makes sense", their sparks must fly off the page and their love must be eternal. the writing must be clear and beautiful, the storyline original and fresh, the values traditional but with an undercurrent that is modern and saucy.

they will turn out another book without queer rep, where a man and woman just-fall-in-love, and it's just a book.

i am latinx. i am queer. i am nb & neurodivergent. my father said to me once: you will need to be exceptional to be just-as-good, and you will need to be beyond exceptional before they see you as just-a-person, and not your labels.

i am not beyond exceptional. i am a human person. i am skilled because i worked my ass off to be skilled.

i am currently reading a book that's so-bad-it's-good about a girl that falls in love with a vampire. i was 64% of the way through the book before she figures out tall-dark-fanged is not natural. i like books like these, i like letting myself relax while i just enjoy the read. but i do spend a lot of time wondering - would this have been published if it was about queer people? would this have gotten past the editors if the characters weren't white and sexy?

i want to write a movie about being a woman in a male space, and i want to start that movie with a 10 minute scene where the woman is lectured with the exact same whining that occurs in the youtube comments of even the trailers for those movies: "haven't we had enough diversity?" "we've had enough girl power movies" "sorry, this is just pandering. it's boring."

here's what's fucked up: it shouldn't matter, you're right. my identity shouldn't fold after my name like a battalion of stars: a cry of what i've gone through. what we all know i had to move past and through. i should just be a writer, plain and simple, without my work being shifted through with tweezers - i know everything i make, always, i am incredibly responsible for. beholden to. i don't like knowing that if i fuck up, i am also fucking up for every person like me. every person in a community i belong to.

once, back in undergrad, i wrote a short story about a girl who had been kicked by a horse. it was my first time writing about my experience with my ocd; i felt proud of it. the story was mostly about grief and slow recovery. the queerness of the main character was not important to the plot, my main character was just-queer. there wasn't even a romantic interest in it.

i remember one of my classmates being disappointed. "i just feel like you always write about girls who like girls, and i'm bored of it," he said. "you're a beautiful writer, but i'm like - oh, at some point, it's gonna be gay again." during the workshop, he folded his hands over my story and said, "and okay, i'm just going to say it. she's ocd, she's gay, she's depressed - it's a little much for me to believe is all happening to one person."

it is a little much to be that person (and more besides). i have therapy weekly, after all.

over and over, belonging to exception.

#spilled ink #poetry #prose #warm up #idk what this is #maybe more of a confession #btw the book is called crave it's OKAY #it's very straight #main character keeps being like totally okay with situations where dude is DEF #being a stalker villian #she's known him for a WEEK and shes like #'hes all that matters' #girlfriend ur parents only died a MONTH ago #there's a lot about timing in that book im like .... did this author ever have any #actually bad experiences #like main character being like ''i shouldn't cry over them it's pathetic'' a mONTH after her parents die #btw this isn't bc she's in denial/suffering/etc it's bad writing #the narrative is instead like #'' .... bc the author doesn't want to remember to discuss it'' #she forgets she has a sprained ankle a lot #tbh im THIS close to saying ''fuck good writing'' #and writing my OWN stupid supernatural school YA romance #and YES!!!!! IT WOULD INDEED BE GAY #''oh this school? we're all... different here....bc... of the witches??oh . i mean yeah but no actually we just really believe in a diverse

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads

The Spider And Her Demons

YA Australian urban fantasy/horror

about a Malaysian-Chinese girl who’s half spider-demon, just trying to keep her head down and survive high school

when she accidentally kills and eats a man in front of the most popular girl at school, they strike up a strange friendship and she starts to learn more about herself and the supernatural world

aroacespec/sapphic ish

#The Spider And Her Demons #Sydney Khoo #loveozya #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #you give me a teenage girl with giant hair spider legs who scuttles across her bedroom wall on page 3 #and then eats a man and i am already sold. #also aus books are always so familiar compared to US books :) #and yes sexuality stuff is ambiguous but basically: a bunch of discussion on relationship hierachies (ie friendship equally/more important) #themes of feeling unlovable bc you're different and different forms of love #multiple times the MC says she has no interest in dating or relationships and also is touch (and maybe sex) repulsed #- but of course that Also has to do with the whole Being A Monster thing #and it definitely shows some kind of attraction to dior - ie looking at her lips/bare skin; blushing; etc #and ends on sort of hand kiss / 'is this something??' vibes #I asked the author and they said they see them as QPR / platonic soulmates but are not at the point where they would know what to call it #which makes total sense to me! #the part of me who wants more obvious aroace YA wishes it was a little more specific #but also I DO love ambiguity and I think it wouldn't be true to the characters #who are clearly not even ready to start figuring that stuff out. #and also. aroacespec sapphics is like. also something i want #also like. I think it's reductive to assume just because 'looks at lips' is a common allo attraction trope....doesn't necessarily mean #it has to be that. yknow. #anyway. i loved it a lot. #gross spidergirl (affectionate)...... #also dior is such an interesting and complex character. like another book could have made her nicer or less fucked up

[duckiemimi]

i find it so horrid to shit on a fanfic on the public tl and provide links/clues to which fic. u gotta be some type of messed up to do that to a body of work that the author did for free with no obligation to share.

#a meaningful discussion is different from slander and ppl can tell yk #if u wanna rant go do it in the dms #dont rally so many ppl to shit on it too bc that’s what u’re doing on the public tl #especially when the author is on the platform too…do u want them to see it? #then what? do u want them to stop writing what they like? or godforbid stop writing all together? fucked up.

[selkiecoded]

getting into groups in english class is so painful. i cannot stress enough that you are misinterpreting the essay.

#discussed essay on the gender gap in engineering and it made me want to tear my hair out #the author mentioned a study where mixed-sex groups who had to come to a decision and if the group decided on unanimity women had the #opportunity to speak more and if the group decided via majority rule men dominated the conversation. #and the GUY in my group misinterpreted that as if they were separately gendered groups and that bc we didnt hear the conclusions the study #usage was invalid. and the GUY in the other group also misinterpreted it in a different way i cannot remember. #and it was so annoying. not only are you two incorrect in what the study is saying and how it is applied for the broader essay #but you are QUITE LITERALLY PROVING THE STUDY IN ACTION RIGHT NOW. YOU ARE TAKING YOUR INTERPRETATION AS THE TRUE DECISION OVER THE OTHER #TWO WOMEN* IN YOUR GROUP BECAUSE OF MAJORITY RULE IM GOING TO STRANGLE YOU. #also theother girl in my group talked about a completely unrelated anecdotal experience she had heard of rather than the actual studies #tears my hair out

[mqfx]

once in a while I get to thinking about that stupid fucking fanfiction where some fucked up tragic codependent Situation was going on in the background and then I explode and my sister has to collect the pieces of my viscera from the living room. it took me thirty minutes to cook one cup of rice I was hyperventilating

#hewwo #don't ask. #TEN YEARS. TEN FUUUUUCKING YEARS I'M GOING TO TRANSMIGRATE IN THERE AND KILL YOU MYSELF #i hesitate to say this often bc i don't want to center men in feminist discussion but it literally feels like #author made that man suffer the most harrowing lethal soul-crushing patriarchal misogyny. god

[strixhaven]

“are you nd or nt” this is stupid as hell and i’m opting out of that framework entirely

#the way people conceptualize ‘neurotypicals’ not as actual people but as factory-made blank-slate hyper-capitalist wet dreams of what human #beings are ‘naturally’ and buy into the pathologization of actually natural human behavior and variance in how we function #and so heavily defer to the authority of psych institutions and rigidly defined ideas of normality and divergence #for the sake of having clearly defined labels for a bizarre us v them. dumb as hell #you can say whatever you want in response this seems to be at least a kind of helpful worldview for a lot of people #but nothing i’ve seen about the way these terms get used in practice has made me feel anything but negative towards this framework #everybody needs an other to differentiate themselves from bc yknow identities often form along the lines of out groups in the language of #opposition and the ways that ‘nd’ so often gets flattened to just mean ‘autism and adhd’ and the amount of slap fights i’ve seen about who #gets to be included in the nd out group. to say nothing of these mythical ‘neurotypicals’ you’re supposedly talking about #because point at any person and i guarantee you they don’t match up to the capitalist construction of neurotypicality you have in your head #and then discussions of physical disability’s intersections n all. real fucking mess man #again if it helps you. w/e. i just cannot ever conceive of this being a particularly helpful way for me to view my brain and how i function

[elftwink]

when I'm bored at work sometimes I read academic articles about fandom just to see what everyone is up to in that sphere and occasionally u will see the funniest claims imaginable. in discussing spn, one author said about hurt/comfort fic that people using that to explore sadomasichism represented a "small minority of non-Americans" (paraphrased) and I almost lost my mind. americans are NEVER writing with themes of sadomasichism that is an UNAMERICAN derivative. americans are only exploring dynamics of pain and catharsis in completely chaste, non-erotic ways. in their supernatural fanfiction. ok.

#good idea generator #to be fair to this author i wasnt reading their work i was reading someone quoting/discussing it #and also being critical. so my opinion is skewed. it was the specificity of ' #'non american' that got me. like how can you possiblely substantiate that claim #making this non rebloggable bc i dont want to go find the source again #but i also do not want this floating around with no source attached #so perhaps i will come back #and add it then. it was a good book although i only got through a little bit #really interesting discussion of constructing white masculinity in bbc sherlock #i didnt actually get to the full chapter on spn. i think it was about religion actually that chapter #anyway this quote im talking abt was in the intro

[mae-i-scribble]

Okay so orv has some fairly confusing concepts just thrown at you in the final bits of the novel, and i’m here to throw my 2 cents in on how the dimensional stuff works. Or at least how I understood it after reading and thinking on it for a hot minute. Obviously major spoilers so keep that in mind.

The most ancient dream is the lifeblood of this universe, a world where ways of survival has come to life because 15 year old Dokja’s longing was so strong and so powerful it manifested into reality. Every worldline that exists (sort of) is based in ways of survival. So how is it that 28year old dokja’s world was drawn along? Based on how most ancient dream works, he literally cannot look at worlds that don’t involve ways of survival, because that’s not the story he wants to see. However, it was inevitable that 28yr kdj would eventually become “seen” by the oldest dream, because 28yr kdj unknowingly brought the 1863rd yjh into his timeline.

Okay so. We know kdj is transported to the 1863rd round of ways of survival by secretive plotter, whether in the “original” story or one of the many other timelines isn’t really important, just that it was the 1863rd round for one such yjh. When kdj brings back yjh’s hope, that desire to live, he inspires 1863rd yjh not only to regress, but to find the world where kdj is, because kdj is the one who promised him that he could have a happy life. So yjh not only regresses, he travels across worldlines to find kdj, a fact backed up by secretive plotter who followed 1863rd yjh as yjh was going to “a world he didn’t know.” The moment 1863rd yjh regressed into kdj’s world, that is when the most ancient dream began to look at 28yr old kdj’s world. It wasn’t a world that could exist within the most ancient dream until it became entangled with ways of survival, and it is only because ways of survival started playing out in that timeline that kdj was able to travel to the 1863rd round at all. It follows the same paradox that the other major time paradoxes follow; in a world dictated by novel logic, the past can write itself alongside or after the future, and the future can exist before the past.

It also explains why 28yr kdj is both a character and a candidate for the most ancient dream. They ultimately are one in the same, but 28yr kdj comes from a world most ancient dream never could have imagined, because forget only focusing on ways of survival, 15yr kdj never even imagined himself capable of growing up. Of course 28yr kdj is going to be a “character,” because how else is the most ancient dream supposed to rationalize it in his mind?

Off topic, but it is somewhat funny in that in trying to bring about his own demise/trying to prove a point to kdj secretive plotter actually is responsible for creating ways of survival and bringing about the entire plot of the novel by letting kdj inspire hope in 1863rd yjh. Like wow. Fucked up big time didn’t ya buddy. Good thing you found your absolution bc if not that would have fuckin sucked.

#orv #orv spoilers #omniscient reader #omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv theory #fan theories #idk if this is confirmed or not by authorial intent #i dont follow what the authors had to say about orv after the fact #feel free to contradict me i want discussions #also like i could just be forgetting the novels justification for it #i did kinda binge it in a fever dream #but this is just the most logical way to think about it to me #well besides for the time paradoxes #but thats just kinda something you have to shrug and go 'yeah thats how that works' #which is fine by me #bc the justification of it operating as one would write it in a book #just makes sense considering yknow #orv is a story about stories #sure fuck around with logic thats within your realm of themes

[bi-sapphics]

I’m a lesbian and I really don’t care if bi people say dyke or not. I’m not trying to be all “not like other lesbians” but a bi woman is going to be called a dyke by a homophobe, a homophobe will not care if you correct them and go “um ACTUALLY im bisexual.” Also why would I go up to every sapphic using the word dyke and go “ARE YOU LESBIAN????” Idk I’m only like one lesbian out of a bajillion so maybe it doesn’t matter what I say

!!!

#tbh u probably *will* be seen as a pick-me by your own community #bc that's just how it is in online spaces; people tend to eat each other alive #over the smallest and most unnecessary things #but that's not a problem you cause by standing up for bi women #and your voice definitely does matter #i won't say i'm 'listening to you' or 'respecting your opinion' #bc no one has the authority to tell me not to call myself a dyke. i know i can do that if i want. #and it's not for u to discuss over my head like any other issue that actually affects lesbians #*however* i do appreciate your solidarity and affirmation that i'm safe to be a dyke around people like you #and your understanding of how the world works in reality can help contribute to the discussion #with your thoughts as a lesbian and help fight erasure of bi history and lived experiences #so yeah you're right and thank you for saying it!! #chase answers #slur discourse #d slur discourse #d slur #dyke discourse #bi dykes #biphobia #bi tag

[hua-fei-hua]

last night i had a dream that had something to do with reading a fic abt . well i wanna say "a haunted forest diner" but i've already written a haunted forest diner fic and it was not at all like that. anyway, it was this haunted forest diner fic in the sense that all its patrons were old forest gods of like decay and shit and in order to sneak in, you had to transform into like a deer, and apparently i was a supremely graceful jumper for a stag

but anyway i dreamt that that was a fic that i had apparently read and commented on months ago, but for w/e reason i had never read the replies to, and the author had replied that i seemed like a cool person n that they would have loved to have read some stuff i had written "but it seems you do not have any genshin works up..."

and honest to god all i could think upon reading that was literally "lol skill issue"

#and then i dreamt that i got one of those defeat the 8-12 hilichurl comms in genshin n i was like fine fine w/e #but after killing two i somehow figured out that they were not trying to kill me but instead trying to kidnap me to be their medic #and i was intrigued enough to be like 'okay' n sat down on this white blanket thing they had set aside for me #n one of my friends (don't remember who) was like 'yo you good?' n i was like 'yeah they just want me to be their medic' #n my friend looked at me suspiciously n was like 'well the comm isn't over you have six more to kill but if you need me i'll be over there' #n she pointed to where the trumpets i knew in high school (minus cody? i think?) were having sectionals under some trees #it was definitely trumpet sectionals but for whatever reason my brain decided to edit out cody So fucking True get redacted idiot #anyway so i just waited around in the warm sun untild a bunch of humanoid creatures started coming down the hill #i think they were supposed to be bosses or smth but none of them are in gnshn even tho we were def in mond or liyue by this point #and they all had different colored faces but anyway my friend was like 'THIS IS WHY WE HAVE TO DEFEAT ALL THE HILICHURLS!!!' #'BECAUSE IF WE DON'T THEN THEY'RE JUST BUYING TIME FOR *THESE GUYS* TO COME!!!!' #n i was like 'oh shit!!' n we started fighting them n they were really tanky but we got most of them except for the blue one #and so i went back to the haunted diner place n entered it as a human n went upstairs where i found the author in my dreams #n she said that we couldn't talk long bc the blue guy was after me but she'd distract it by joining its side #and also there was like this whole subplot in between abt like uhhh exchanging love for power i think? idk i don't remember rn #i just remember that the author temporarily exchanged some of her like. goodwill or smth to buy me time to prepare for my fight #with the blue guy and so i hiding in the bathroom listened w my ear pressed against the wall as she became corrupted n then it was #my turn to fight the blue guy n i opened up the door n stuff but then i woke up :c #anyway so that was MY dream diary for today everyone leave your own recent dreams in the replies and we can have a discussion lol #花話

[pandoratheprocrasticreator]

Finally getting around to reading iron widow and let this be a lesson for me in the future to not assume a book is automatically Good just bc i like the authors youtube videos

#iron widow #shut up pandora #the plot is...fine...so far #the characters are...fine... #except for the titular zetian herself #her personality is...fine... #i love a good defiant angry feral character who wants to kill and maim #but also #girl why did you pop out of the womb with complete encyclopedic knowledge of every 21st century social justice rhetoric buzzword #is this bc yizhi showed you sci fi social media #anyway so far zetian doesnt feel like shes a character in the story she feels like the author popping in to lecture strawmen in feminism #im all for the catharsis of sexist douches getting schooled but can zetian please talk about the world like its one she grew up in #like she grew up with their values and didnt just pop in at 18 from 21st century gentrified liberal north america to gawk at the demon men #wu zetian flips between edgy hot topic catchphrases and reciting entire peer reviewed third wave feminism manifestos when narrating #and im sorry that just takes me out of the story immersion #the story seems fine so far and will probably get more interesting as i read on #but so far wu zetian has continually committed the worst sin a fictional character could do #remind me that im reading a book #that the characters arent discussing progressive ideas bc its a natural part of the story #and yes there are many ways to make it a natural part of the story #but they are discussing it bc the author wants to discuss it #anyway i guess i should finish the book and see if the second half gets better #but so far it isnt very enjoyable

[mermaidsirennikita]

If in a plot twist Bton is actually poisoning traditionally published historical romance versus invigorating it lmao....................... Just my fucking luck.

#romance novel blogging #as someone who wants to be published... ideally in HR #it's been pretty concerning to see authors discuss how difficult it is rn in the subgenre #and how much of that is potentially linked with this desire to chase a bton audience #which is kinda antithetical to like... adventurous historical romance #and the vast majority of bton viewers only read quinn's books iF THAT #they don't care about the subgenre #which is fine lmao they don't have to but only publishing books that you can comp to bton #OR publishing books that aren't like bton but marketing them to that audience vs an audience that would enjoy them #is probably really negatively impacting growth atm and it bums me out #more as a writer than a reader #lol i also feel like there's this cyclical issue w new authors #where many who have bold new ideas are having a hard time getting their work out there so the subgenre stagnates #and in turn a lot of newer HR readers only wanna read super established well known authors #it feeds itself because like there seems to be a disinterest in exploration #and just the same few authors constantly recommended #but also... it's really hard to find new exciting different authors #and a lot of new authors especially in trad are mimicking quinn #which i get but i don't think it's working for anyone #idk i try not to panic over it bc let's be real indie/self publishing is probs gonna be the way for.... #many romance writers in the future not just HR #but HR also seems to be kinda hard to market w indie because a lot of indie breakout successes #are successful bc of how WILD everyone thinks they are and HR has this decades-long rep of being v conventional #i mean the one good thing is that this shit always cycles in and out w subgenre popularity #nothing stays on top forever and things get rediscovered #but lol i wanna make money off this someday so. #....... sigh #maybe i'll pivot to PNR just in time for that to make a comeback lmao

[no-mere-mortals]

My rule on “helpful” AO3 comments is the same as my rule on commenting on someone’s appearance - if they can’t fix it in five seconds or less, just don’t say anything. (Shirt button undone - let them know. Hair looks bad - shut.)

Did the author misspell a word or leave a quotation mark unclosed? Sure, leave a “I loved this chapter! Btw, I think there’s a quotation mark missing in this sentence [copy/paste from the chapter]. Didn’t distract me from getting hit by the Feels tho u monster ;-;”

Have issues with the pacing or the way it diverges from how you personally would have written it? I guarantee leaving a comment will not be seen as helpful in the slightest and you may be the reason someone stops sharing their art.

#fanfiction #this post is 100% open for discussion btw #I just know for myself that if I accidentally forgot some minor grammatical thing I’d want a heads up #meanwhile my plot is nonnegotiable #mine #I’m specifically referring to unsolicited comments btw #if the author directly says they want feedback on story beats or writing style or whatever that’s different #but this is my general rule #if you disagree please tell me why bc I’d love to see how other people feel about this one!

[silverislander]

i honestly would drop this fucking writing course if i still could i'm so goddamn frustrated with it, and yall KNOW how bad i wanted this/how much i love to write so that means smth. it's like it was set up to torment me specifically. "oh here's everything you want to learn but it's actively adhd/autism/nd-hostile"

no schedule, prof is LITERALLY making it up in class in front of us from week to week and frequently forgets/gets confused in making them herself

no grading guidelines- i had to ask for a rough idea of how we're getting graded and even then, she didn't give a very informative answer

only received my first grade after doing four assignments already, which isn't exactly fucking helping me improve, esp since our grades are based on continuous improvement

prof doesn't appreciate fantasy or horror... this is a comparatively v small complaint bc she still allows us to submit whatever we want to write but like. man. even the horror i would sort of get, everyone has limits and it can be a tough read, but all of her prompts are really only applicable to modern-day realism bc you have to base them on smth you experienced and "make us question the line between fiction and reality" so.

the amt of work varies WILDLY due to the schedule issues- this week (beginning of midterms!) i have a 2000 word story and at least 10 250 word reviews due by tomorrow, which i've only had a week to complete... during fucking midterm study. IT'S A CREATIVE WRITING COURSE. i get more notice for 2 page essays in any other course jesus fucking christ

has moved physical rooms bc. she didn't like the first one, so now i'm confused half the time and don't remember where to go. she also doesn't have a key to the new room, so we have to call a security guard to unlock it and it frequently makes us late to start and subsequently late getting out, which is Upsetting for me, why can we not stay on schedule i am on campus for 9+hrs

did i mention this class is 7pm-9:30pm. with one less than 10min break.

prof fucking REFUSES to answer emails despite making email the one way to contact her... i emailed her once on a thursday afternoon and didn't get a response until tuesday afternoon, which was one day before the deadline and too fucking late to change shit if i had been wrong

no clear guidelines as to where/how to submit work, which is a weekly struggle

prof is literally making up terms i am NOT KIDDING. she's speaking in fucking riddles my god. nothing she's requested us to write has been a real term, and i've googled them to check

also writes her assignment guidelines in her creative writing style instead of just giving us the basic info, i.e. one page rambling abt the topic, one paragraph of actual vague guidelines

0 forgiveness for missing dates/being unable to make class/etc. one girl said on the first day that she couldn't make next week's deadlines bc she has a full time job and a family and the prof's response was "well, i guess you're going to have to drop this course". and she DID

if you email her a question she Will make it obvious in front of the class who asked

all i wanted was to enjoy meeting other writers and to try to improve my own work but i'm stressed out of my fucking mind bc she can't be assed to actually do her job. i've had genuine actual stress dreams about this fucking class (among others but besides the point). the total lack of consistency is killing me

and i didn't get that one singular grade until after the 75% drop date, which means if i drop it now i at BEST get 25% of my money back, and it's way too late to try to pick up another class as a replacement. this is all bullshit i fucking hate this

#i like to think i enjoy change but fucking. MAN. i cant cope w this #this is all on top of her having a massive visible superiority complex #i dont even like her writing style thats another can of worms #this isnt even a course built for neurotypicals its a course built for her specifically #levi.txt #vent tw #i get it shes a published author and thats awesome she does 10000% know more than us abt that and i want to learn from her #but like. instead of being so up your own ass abt how smart you are you could bend to the proles and teach us idk. it Is your job. #its just fucking bizarre the whole experience is like she found out she would be teaching a day before the semester started #0 prep 0 explanation just vibes and heaping work onto us #i have a full fucking courseload i dont have TIME to write 10 discussion posts i have a psych midterm TOMORROW #if she were on ratemyprof i would be giving her like a solid 2. she only doesnt get a 1 bc shes not actively bullying her students (DR G)

[llycaons]

these vids always get me thinking about the novel wx relationship and honestly I'm more angry at wwx's behavior and I think what he did was worse since it was so much more extreme and he was much older than lwj was when he fucked up, but I also like that wwx actually took responsibility for his actions and recognized what he did wrong and apologized meanwhile lwj also did really awful things to wwx too like pm assault and kidnapping him but it's just glossed over and he never takes responsibility or even admits to it but but still reaps the rewards of getting literally everything he ever wanted which fucking sucks and goes a lot towards making the relationship feel imbalanced even postcanon. his possessiveness and jealousy are quite minor footnotes in comparison to his inability to face his mistakes or even admit to them because he's too repressed and consumed with his own feelings (which also sucks!! ik you're sad but stop being a fucking wimp!), but they certainly don't help his personality

there's a broader issue of how after they get together, it's implied that they're incapable of actually hurting each other because they both completely consent to everything the other person would ever want even though they LITERALLY do not talk about it and have never had a conversation about boundaries, and wwx continues to treat lwj in exactly the same way but it's just no longer sexual harassment since they're together ig?? I can't think about it for too long actually it just pisses me off and a lot of it makes literally no sense unless you view it as something written by a straight woman with a lot of fetishes who's having fun making her gay characters do whatever she wants them to do to each other, which is...what it is

#that's not ALL it is but like if you're going to be discussing it in good faith you have to remember the audience and the author #and the same goes for any of the sex scenes in universe or in fic #things that might be kind of gross to individuals but ultimately harmless if consensual #should be looked at in a new light if you take the context of canon into account #and even tho wwx apologized it's not like they really communicate which is wild bc with so much miscommunication you'd THINK they actually #talk about it? like maybe that would be important? #instead of just one character just doing what he wants and other character always being happy about it???? #like what did you learn. what did you even learn #mdzs txp

[liquidlightning]

i go on reddit to find discussion of a book im reading, immediately become ragebeast because ppl are saying the book is bad bc of xyz except XYZ IS NOT EVEN IN THE DAMN BOOK. YOU PISS ON THE POOR AND THEN GET UPSET THE POOR ARE BEING PISSED ON

it's frustrating is all 😭

#also ppl getting upset bc the book doesn't focus on a certain topic like??! yeah because that is not the topic of the book??? #read a different book if this one doesn't have the information ur looking for #but that doesn't automatically make it a bad book #like i specifically wanted to read some more in depth analysis and criticism #except all the criticism is invalid bc its based on a misinterpretation of the author's words or goals w this particular book #anywAY!!!!! #the book is unmasking autism by devon price if any of u have read it and want to discuss #i trust if you follow me you have reading comprehension....... #p