#can’t even imagine tbh

[snitchhazel570]

does anyone else think about how mari might’ve actually saved shauna? while they’re praying/making offerings before shauna gives birth she shouts the thing about not wanting shauna to die, but then they stop the whole thing before anyone says anything about the baby. maybe that’s all the wilderness heard so that’s all it gave them

#the wilderness takes and it gives! #now the baby will be an offering too #tbh i don’t believe any of the supernatural stuff is real #the girls are just unreliable narrators #and the whole thing is a metaphor for trauma #can’t imagine being a teen and doing this #like their frontal lobe isn’t even developed yet.. #yellowjackets #shauna #shauna shipman #taissa turner #mari yellowjackets #lottie matthews #misty quigley #natalie scatorccio #yj

[zmaragdos]

I think one of the great ironies of my life is that if I could communicate with my younger self she would be so so proud of me

but the me of the now is not proud of myself

is there a word for that? for discovering that what you wanted all your life just makes you feel miserable and foolish?

#Mar mutters #Sorry I will delete this but I needed to I don’t know #Reveal this to people I don’t know irl? #I can’t even imagine how to dig myself out of this pit #Tbh this negativity is probably just a symptom of a six month long depressive episode #That I am still in the throes of #(A life changing medical diagnosis as the result of having a kid) #(My gp tells me it’s just grief and it’s normal) #(Like sure sure) #(That’s fine) #(Having a name for it doesn’t make me less miserable) #(And the medication/adjustments are terrible) #(It feels like it’s never going to end)

[akkivee]

mentally ill about stage mtr if i’m being quite honest lol:

*collapses to my knees* AYUKAWA TAIYOU I KNOW YOU CANT HEAR ME AND WOULDNT BE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND ME IF YOU COULD BUT I NEED YOU TO KNOW I WOULD D—

*crying* LIKE PLS THIS MANS DANCING BRINGS ME TO LITERAL TEARS

IF YOU LOOKED UP ON MEME DICTIONARIES UNDER ‘HAVE YOU SEEN A MAN SO BEAUTIFUL YOU STARTED CRYING’ AYUKAWA TAIYOUS JAKURAI WOULD BE PICTURED

I QUITE LITERALLY DOWNLOADED BLENDER ON MY LAPTOP TO LEARN HOW TO 3D MODEL HE HAD ME DOWN SO BAD AFTER WATCHING HIM PERFORM BLAST WOLF FOR THE FIRST TIME

I CANT BELIEVE THE STAGE TOOK HIS JAKURAI AWAY FROM HIM AND FROM US HE HELD IT TOGETHER BUT MANS WAS PRACTICALLY CRYING AT THE FINAL BOP2023 PERFORMANCE NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO—

god like…………………………. this is some of the hardest loss i’ve been struggling to process i can’t imagine anyone else playing such a flawless 2.5D sensei other than ayukawa-san 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

he and hayami-san had the time of their lives making dad jokes in front of thousands lol during their cross talk and i’ll never forget the slight awe he had when hayami-san made a pun using his name lol

it was a sun = taiyou kinda joke iirc and i feel like he did use it further down the line 😭😭😭😭

UGH ugh uuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh god the stage mtr scene i never stop thinking about was their rep live skit, the last one i think????? where dohifu got into hijinks trying to stop sensei from doing his job bc they were worried he’d consumed alcohol via treats hifumi brought

they wound up circling him and then lifting him off the ground in a very strange but hilarious sequence of events and jakurai laughingly told them it’d been a very long time since he’d been carried in any sort of fashion and he thanked them for bringing fun into his life EXCEPT!!!!!! ITS AN AD-LIB AND IM CERTAIN THAT WAS AYUKAWA-SAN TOUCHED BY HOW MUCH FUN HE WAS HAVING WITH THEM I HATE IT HERE

i can’t remember which day of bop2023 it was but in that mad scramble of wardrobe changes he accidentally had a button left undone on his tdd jakurai shirt and i know how that sounds that i noticed it but the way he smoothly buttoned it as he descended stairs is even more seared into my brain lmao

ayukawa-san is buff as hell lmao the ease at which he carried ramuda during king of kings was immaculate lmao and i’m not strong enough to pretend like i didn’t imagine a gym bros hitojaku au based on how swole they are lmao

he breached the 190cm mark in height and the way he reacts to others reacting to his height cracks me up lmao throwback to that one time he walked in to record bright and dark i think and one of the staff just blurted out, ‘you’re huge!!!!!’ and ayukawa-san responded, ‘i sure am!!!!! 😃’ LOL

in the interest of talking about the other actors i’m cutting myself off but i’m not joking when i say i hate here pls i always quote this but hayami-san was so right when he said the stage actors can’t just be easily replaced, they are the characters for a lot of people too 😭😭😭😭

hirofumi-san’s hifumi was peak host ngl lol

the bat and mtr actors got along insanely well after their play and the way hirono-san and ide-san bullied hirofumi-san only for it to just like, bounce off the man bc he was that self assured and a diva is so funny lmao but that’s exactly why his host hifumi was flawless lol

not that his hifumin wasn’t fun either!!!!!!! stage hifumin doesn’t get to be as silly as his canon counterpart so i can’t blame hirofumi-san for that lol

but his switch from hifumin to host is so insane like i don’t have words to describe how it rotted my brain tbh lmao

so like, i definitely mourned kodai-san’s doppo when he left the role but ik it was bc i liked how obvious he played doppo’s crush on jakurai LOL

ide takuya had me by the balls the moment i saw him tho but we’ll get back to that in a sec lol i still weep over the puppy dog eyes kodai-san always gave sensei lol

throwback to that time he asked sensei to pump his stomach (iirc) and was very disappointed when jakurai shot him down before he could finish the sentence LOL

vocally, i like his doppo a smidge 🤏 better like his screaming hits different than ide-san’s and i do find myself missing it sometimes listening to stage mtr’s older songs lol

but enough about him let’s talk about idedoppo LOL

i’m not kidding when i say i stanned from the the moment i saw him but i am uniquely weak to long haired punks you can’t put him in front of me and expect me to not accept him immediately LOL

he goes so crazy as dopopoppo too THAT FINAL BOP2023 WHERE HE RAN YARDS TO DEFEND HIFUMI????? HE HAD THE CROWD YELLING DURING HIS SOLO IN MTRS REP LIVE????? 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

him messing with hirofumi-san for not being able to do finger choreography and hirofumi-san tickled by being messed with 🥺🥺🥺

(hirofumi-san very much could do the finger choreography when it mattered btw lmao)

AND THE SONG HE MADE UNDER HIS OWN NAME DEDICATED TO DOHIFU?????????? AND HAD HIROFUMI-SAN GUEST STAR IN THE MV?????? PLS THEY LOVED MTR I HATE IT HERE

#vee queued to fill the void #my love for stage mtr was a relic of being obsessed with them before bat changed my life #but it’s transcended solely because of ayukawa-san tbh lmao #i didn’t even talk about the stage’s writing for jakurai lmao he’s a well meaning asshole LOL #his writing and kuukou’s being connected a little was one of the few aspects of kuukou’s i appreciated lol #sensei’s always had bad foot in mouth syndrome but it’s RLY bad in stage since i feel like he experiences consequences for it lol #or experiences them more overtly which is fun lol #since i’m so insane about stage mtr i really can’t imagine being as crazy about the new set lol #like i have nothing to say lol 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 good luck godspeed to them tho 👍

[asherasgayagenda]

GUYS. Guys. I literally just had this dream where we got a new chapter of vnc, and in it, vanitas and noé were in a fight. vanitas got thrown into a rock wall (as you do), and the wall crumbled, leaving noé learning kind of protectively over vanitas. AND THEN the whole atmosphere of the scene changed from the “ow danger” to something you might see in a shojo anime. so now they’re just lying there. the threat is gone.

NOÉ smiles and tilts vanitas’s chin up—and VANITAS looks into noé’s eyes with a soft expression—AND THEN THEY KISS. THEY LITERALLY KISS. TENDERLY AND ALL THAT.

And then I woke up freaking out over the ‘new chapter’ absolutely intent on telling everyone to read it (only then did i really, consciously, wake up)

#vnc #vnc manga #vanoé #vanitas #noé archiviste #kiss #dream #vanitas no carte #the case study of vanitas #vanitas no shuki #vanitas x noé #y’all can’t even imagine my disappointment when i realized IT WASNT EVEN REAL #that short moment of “DID MOCHIJUN SERIOUSLY CANONICIZE VANOÉ” #ok i know i'm really bad at writing ok #my dreams are wack tbh #ashera's thoughts ⁉️

[velmashaircut]

I hope we get a name drop for Flashy Flash 😭 The manga revealed Mumen Riders and Child Emperors actual names so I don’t see why Flashy wouldn’t get one either

#imagine if he doesn’t even remember his actual name lmao #i can’t remember who said it but I heard someone say his name is probably Ian Speed 💀💀 #tbh I don’t think sonic actually has a name name just his Shinobu name #one punch man #opm #flashy flash

[sunstxr]

Short Tsukkiyama story, no plot just angst

Words: 592

He stood frozen, the candy bar hanging loosely from his hands as he stared across the aisle at Yamaguchi. He hadn’t been spotted yet, but the sight of Yamaguchi chuckling began to ease the tension that had taken hold in his chest. Tsukishima unwittingly stepped forward, relief almost overflowing his veins, but then the realization took hold.

Yamaguchi. With Oikawa.

Yamaguchi laughing with Oikawa without a care in the world, like Tsukishima hadn’t been the one to make him laugh just two weeks before in that very same spot, like he wasn’t even needed.

And why should they need him? He was far too grumpy, far too rude, far too judgmental. Tsukishima remembered how it felt to absently say something scathing. He recalled with a distant ache the feeling of shame and guilt that had risen unbidden when Yamaguchi and Oikawa failed to laugh, when his words had just stopped coming for fear of ruining things again. That never happened to Oikawa. Not to proud, invigorating Oikawa, who could carry conversations without a thought. Tsukishima’s cold care could never compare to someone who could express his love and affection without shame. Oikawa lived and breathed attention and exuded confidence in every breath. Tsukishima’s confidence always came off as demeaning, his smiles threatening, his comments cutting.

Doubt took root in Tsukishima, paralyzing him where he stood. He could see as Oikawa reached behind Yamaguchi for a fruit, casually wrapping his arms around Yamaguchi’s waist and smiling as he swung him around to face him. There was an effortless grace in his movements that Tsukishima’s lanky limbs could never match. Yamaguchi smiled up at Oikawa in a way he hadn’t smiled at Tsukishima in a long time. The kind of smile that reached his eyes, that brought a happy flush to his cheeks, that made him look like a glowing star. The kind of smile that says “I love you”.

Tsukishima took a slow step back, eyes unable to break away from the scene. A bitter feeling was building in the back of his throat, muscles stiffening and fingers trembling. He wanted to look away, to shun the image from his mind and refuse to accept it. Refuse to accept that there could ever be a world in which Yamaguchi didn’t need him anymore, a world in which Yamaguchi moved on happily and he was left behind. But as Oikawa grinned back at Yamaguchi and tugged him closer, Tsukishima’s eyes tracked every miniscule movement. It was in his nature to watch, to anticipate motion and build a wall so vast no opponent could ever breach it. Yet as he tracked the smooth sweep of Oikawa’s hand across Yamaguchi’s face, there was nothing he could do to block the realization that Yamaguchi had stopped waiting for him.

Tsukishima felt a sharp sting in his chest and abruptly took a step back, removing Yamaguchi from his sight. It was strange, really. To anyone watching, there was no visible change in Tsukishima’s countenance. He always held himself a bit stiffly, too tall and lanky in his own body. With each step he took, however, he could feel his mood darkening. He supposed he could have tried to loosen up a little bit, to be more open to Yamaguchi. Tsukishima knew, though, that he could never compete with Oikawa’s exuberant affection. Not in the way that Yamaguchi wanted, or deserved. And if he never stood a chance, why even try?

He didn’t glance back up at Yamaguchi and Oikawa when he left. They wouldn’t have noticed either way.

#haikyuu #hq tsukishima #tsukishima x yamaguchi #tsukkiyama #tsukishima imagine #yamaguchi tadashi #oikawa tooru #oikawa scenarios #oiyama #they’re just getting groceries #tsukkishima kei #Tsukki can’t handle emotion #no one asked for this but I did it anyway #short #short fic #no plot just pain #forget opening up build emotional walls instead #hq #hq angst #can’t even be mad at yams tbh #Oikawa’s gorgeous #the situation is really unclear #they’re definitely gay #but are they gay together? #gay #lgbt representation #lgbtqia #lgbtpeople #angst

[aeide-thea]

still thinking abt the tumblrinx i encountered a while back whose pinned post said they were transmasc… and also demanded that men dni

like—i’m not confused by the convoluted not-like-the-other-boys doublethink that gets you there, i can follow the chain of illogic just fine, but i sure am deeply wearily depressed by it!

#i know plenty of good men—good cis men even! gasp! #and i just think like. if we can’t move away from‚ like‚ cold gender war how the fuck do we move forward #fundamentally like. 100% block people who have behaved towards you in ways you didn't like. #but like. this whole thing where ~afabs~ preemptively self-victimize by conjuring up the creepiest cishet man they can imagine #and self-harm by worrying abt that imaginary guy jacking off to them #is just like. i understand how it happens but it’s like. you’re actively doing negative visualization #and‚ like‚ preemptively self-victimizing #ime it feels a lot better to move through the world unworried‚ in the knowledge that if someone says sth gross to you: you can block them! #anyway ultimately i’m pretty clearly making this post bc i'm overdue to unfollow the tirfiest blogger i’m currently following #like. yeah loads of cishet men are shitheads but ~misandry~ is so last decade #and frankly i don’t have a lot more time for the cishet women who have bought into the same system—like i have some sympathy but. #these people all get warped by the system into complementary fucked-up cogs whose teeth bite into one another #and i’m just not interested in biting back—i want to leave all the biting behind in the dust of the junkyard that birthed it #and like. i don’t want to dismiss the oppression that births this sort of rhetoric. it's super real and it's toxic and it fucks people up. #but it’s like. when people have bad dads and then are like Dads R Always Bad!!! #and i’m just over here like. i don’t know how to say this without sounding like i’m invalidating you but my dad was a fucking saint tbh #not perfect dgmw but like. a sweet gentle encouraging man who got ground down by my mother’s toxic heel along with the rest of us #so like. actually not only are you closing yr eyes to a better future‚ yr closing yr eyes to other ppl’s lived realities #like i personally managed to have a totally life-ruining mother without deciding Mothers Are Ontologically Evil Actually! #idk. obviously women remain *enormously* systemically oppressed! but surely we can acknowledge and decry that without #implicitly rhetorically closing off any possibility of a gentler queerer gender dynamic? #anyway none of this is revolutionary i’m just like. i KNOW the fascists want to cut off my toes and force me into the glass slipper #of viciously constrained femininity #that in turn makes itself feel better by sneering at men‚ critiquing other women who Do It Wrong‚ and exerting control over children #so i have strong personal cause to care about misogyny even if i didn’t care about it in the abstract #but i just think like. acting like traditional gender roles and dynamics are a fixed truth we can only bruise ourselves on #instead of a human construction that we can undermine and work to topple #is not actually the path to a healed world in the long run! #anyway. beta edition post (thumbtyped & not reread): may contain bugs.

[lesbianyosano]

i will never be able to draw dazai the way i actually think he looks like not bc of lack of skill but bc it’d be sooo boring

#bc in my head he looks bland as fuck #like yes he’s attractive extremely so but in a way where it’s almost. too much??? #like his face is symmetrical and his smile it’s perfect and it’s unnerving #like with celebrities they’re good looking yes but it’s inhuman almost they’re attractive but sanitized even when sexy #and there’s sth just kind of dead in his eyes when you really look so no matter how charming he is it comes across as fake and disturbing #this uncanny valley he’s not real he looks like every beauty standard to a point where it’s just soo boring #and i just can’t bring myself to draw him like this bc i enjoy messing with designs too much and i love adding little features #plus i try to make his skin a little darker but realistically i imagine hes very pale and fair #but i don’t want him to beee not him and not any of the japanese characters tbh #i’m still not super good at picking skin tones but i’ve been getting better i think #the problem is bc i use an off white background and color the skin first it looks very dark and then after i put hair color in place it #suddenly starts to look much paler and it’s really frustrating #anyway i just think thematically he should be very conventionally attractive to a point where it’s unnerving and sanitized due to #it’s restraint #does this make sense #txt.

[arolesbianism]

I’ve been thinking abt one of my older oni colonies and decided to doodle my first three dupes in that save

#keese draws #oxygen not included #but yeah these guys were my main scientist digger and rancher respectively #this was one of my actual spaced out style saves so ofc I chose the cold asteroid still #it was painful opening this save again to look at their traits as it was basically my first longer attempt #let’s just say I had no idea what I was doing and ran out of power literally everywhere #might do a rescue attempt on this save tbh sounds like a fun challenge #but yeah I actually have characterizations for most of the dupes in this save in my head they’re like semi ocs to me #they’re the ones I like to imagine fumbling about post olivia entering sleep mode #cause there’d be such a harsh contrast in how they’d all react and move forwards #burt in particular would take it rly hard mostly because he’s the only scientist #so everyone ends up looking to him for answers and help and he just doesn’t know how to provide any of it #he had already spent so long feeling overworked and under appreciated so this wouldn’t help at all #quinn on the other hand is generally more optimistic as they have gone through a lot of rough shit and made it out on the other side #so they see this as an obstacle they’ll all overcome and grow stronger from #they’re also just very used to being suddenly forced to say goodbye to people for potentially forever #harold was almost relieved by the whole event because it lead to a lot less activity in the neural chip network #which is in fact a big source of panic for most of the dupes but harold pretty much exclusively goes to like 3 rooms so he’s not as effected #he also just doesn’t like the noise of the hundreds of commands that he can’t even follow #he just manages the plants and the pips and sometimes helps with the cooking #he honestly really likes the freedom of figuring out what to do without instruction #as the pip farm he manages is very. well let’s just say pips tend to starve in there a lot #yknow thankfully I did give these guys a bunch of phones so at least they’d be able to still know what’s up with eachother still #still an uncomfortable feeling loosing that connection that you’ve been relying on for years

[ran-orimoto]

Do you ship Teppei and Chiaki?

Nope, Anon. I ship Teruo and Chiaki because they give me the impression they are a reversed Junzumi with Chiaki being the one simping, and because Mercurymon and Ranamon did seem to have some…Chemistry for sure🤣. So who knows.

But my crack Chiapei, rain x thunder, forever🤣💕.

#chiaki #teruo #chiaki x teruo #digimon frontier #I think it’s all over again a matter of unrequited love tbh #because maybe Teruo is too absorbed by the enthusiasm of being in DW #I like imagining Teruo can read people like a mirror #so sometimes even if Chiaki is in love with him she can’t stand this side of his #she can’t accept Teruo can highlight what her flaws are #her worst flaws #I think they wouldn’t even last as a couple ngl ahahah #asks

[ziracona]

Okay actually. The fact that in Inquistion, the whole game they treat Anders like shit at the drop of a hat. The most positive thing even a Hawke set to Condoned/Loves/Alive can say is ‘he’s complicated. Not a hero or a monster, or maybe both hero and a monster.’ EVERY time he’s brought up, it’s; “Oh, he’s evil. He ruined things. He went too far. He protested peacefully for 7+ years after a lifetime of experiencing oppression and minority violence, but then he pulled the switch on a trolley problem and blew up a building with 40 people in it and caused insane fighting in Kirkwall to instigate war before the Right of Annulment was in effect, while there were enough Mages to have a chance, and succeeded and started a revolt across southern Thedas that gives Mages their first shot at freedom in 600+ years. (An act which he immediately submitted himself to judgement and death if asked for, with no resistance, because he took the innocents among his casualties seriously even when it was obviously for the greater good). But it’s evil, because he combatted oppression with force.”

But then you get a character with the most Mr. Intellectual Dudebro ‘other people aren’t human to me because they’re not enough like me’ take most of the game apparently, whose society is suddenly retconned to be a European slaver intellectual opulent society, deciding he’s going to nuke the whole planet and his people’s current way of life (based on indigenous cultures) and commit genocide against every other race so his best most perfect race can go back to how it was in High Society times, which after ONE YEAR of being awake he can somehow tell??? Is worth it??? And no other society is good enough? ONE. YEAR. No alternatives it’s supremacy genocide or nothing. But he’s sad about the fact he’s doing it so clearly it’s sympathetic and in fact the whole bullshit is framed as so sympathetic you can choose to spend the ENTIRE NEXT GAME trying to bring him back to the light???

Like they really said “a minority enacting hard violence against oppressors and causing some collateral damage as a last resort to combat endless institutional oppression after years of peaceful protesting is unforgivable and vile, but some guy who thinks he knows more than anyone else on the planet after seeing vague aspects of a few other cultures for 1-3 years deciding to obliterate every other race in existence for his own race to achieve its Opulent Ruling Race Supremacy status again immediately is a sympathetic pull just going too far” I am going to EAT someone

#to be clear this isn’t a Solas hate post it’s not hhs fault the devs are fucking. insane. he was easily one of the best DA characters and #they massacred my boy totally ooc for no fucking reason and I can’t stand them for that too. but the fucking. GALL #dragon age inquisition #DAI spoilers #they really went ‘Anders was popular let’s reproduce that’ and understood NONE of what made people like their own guy. it’s like watching #ATLA cartoon yo ATLA live action. not only did you not get it you actively ruined everything people liked #they wanted him to be Anders 2 so bad and he will NVER be Anders. I could have made SUCH a good Solas plot!!! I could have done him justice? #but they went ‘nah his whole personality and actions were an act he’s a picture of the devs’ own horrible ethics now have fun : )’ and I #refuse to acknowledge that shit I’m taking my professor with me and leaving this is bullshit Solas didn’t deserve that and tbh I can’t even #imagine how the series could possibly recover after the way DAI ended