#cant recover wont recover

[helennorvilles]

rewatched the newsreader s02e06 36 dead 18 injured

#cant recover wont recover #my post tag #the newsreader #the newsreader spoilers #nia watches the newsreader

[puppyeared]

man

#maybe im being pessimistic abt this. im not saying u should wear a mask every waking moment of your life god knows i cant #but also. hell no i dont trust u if anything i distrust u ppl even more after how things played out for the past 3 years #like there are situations where it might be inevitable catching covid. most of my family members are nurses and in constant contact #but there are also a ton of ways to make that risk low as possible like masking and wearing a face shield and having sanitizer #for me its not enough to just say oh we're in a small group and we're all vaccinated #motherfucker your kid is sick from preschool EVERY TIME WE VISIT. of course ill be wearing a mask she gave me covid last year #also no the fuck it isnt seasonal the cases go up because lack of caution makes the virus spread and mutate especially around times when #ppl gather. add that with virus transmission in cold weather and its a matter of different factors increasing the risk of spread #im also tired of ppl not understanding that i wont be their responsibility if i do get sick. maybe they can help me recover #but at the end of the day the risk of death and long term health is all on me. i cant change that #the govt barely gives me accommodations what makes u think theyll do anything for every individual case of long covid or worse #im so tired. im so tired #i dont even know if its possible to want this to be over anymore i just wish we didnt have to deal with this in the first place #ALSO COUGH INTO YOUR SLEEVE SERIOUSLY HOW IS THIS SO HARD TO REMEMBER #oh its just a cold/dry throat its not like i have covid or anything. no!! its basic hygiene!!! how is this so hard to understand!!!!!!!!!! #and no this isnt abt whether people have the means to protect themselves this is me bitching abt my relatives not taking me seriously #vent #my art #myart #doodles #covid 19

[humanmorph]

the movie night scene may be a season highlight so far. cori 🥺💗

#palisade spoilers #palisade #coriolis sunset #friends at the table #i dont have a grasp on what casual cori wears this is pyjama wear. which i think is fine for recovering. or a movie night #art #fatt #rosa art #PLEASE zoom in on the first picture and look at my stupid details that took me hours. do this for me #its 3:30am lol.lmao even #ill reblog this again tomorrow but if i stay up late to finish a drawing i cant NOT post it. it would kill me #the devotion isnt finished on purpose btw she was doodling while hunting was talking to her about his anime ova and then got distracted. #the scribbled out bit at the to-do says call dad. god dont i love putting in details i then feel i have to point out #enjoy them wont you... i do #Edit: Hold on “also I choose to believe she decided to spell devotee with an I like cori” courtesy of jack clementineskesh #That's actually so cute. Ahu. W. Cori 🥺

[moeblob]

What Deacon thinks: what did that mean? did he want me to wear a collar too? why else would he mention my neck? i mean, if he /asked/ me i would wear one but he didn't so would wearing one be weird?

What Ymber meant: It's nice to be near someone who isn't tethered to this world to serve it with a physical reminder for all to see.

#my characters #this just in ! thats why all the deities in the plot have collars and a chain ! #its because THATS THEIR DESIGNATED I AM HERE TO HELP THIS WORLD SYMBOL #they cant remove their collars and thats fine by them - its a constant reminder that they exist to serve #deacon really shouldnt get as much crap as he gets in canon for being weird cause the deities are just a different brand of weird #like its not deacons fault that apparently you can say nice neck with no underlying desire #but he cant say hi would you please possess me i want to know what its like to have someone else in my body #like thats really not something you should pin on deacon YET EVERY deity is like wow what a lil weirdo #he also just really wants to please ymber so if ymber asked he would definitely do whatever #on the flip side i need to point out that deacon very specifically doesnt ask ymber for things nor does he pray for things #and it drives ymber up a wall because this is his favorite human who wont ask for anything and he isnt a psychic #he doesnt know what deacon wants or needs and its infuriating cause he exists to serve humanity #and yet this ONE GUY wont let him do things for him #this is very important and i cant believe i mentioned it like a month ago to someone and today #i received gift art of these two and i may never recover #its so perfect and its ymber just looming over deacon telling him that he can pray about anything to him #its also worth pointing out that when i was telling the person about the whole ymber begging for a prayer #its because he realizes that after all this time hes never had a single prayer from deacon - not before nor after the hire #so hes like oh well thats odd hmm #and then begins to talk to deacon like you know people pray to me for lots of things #and deacon looks at him unsure of what this is leading to - did someone offer a weird prayer? ask a weird thing? whatst? #and no - its just ymber saying that people will pray for wealth or an item #or they will express frustration if something is lost or broken despite it not being ymbers fault so deacon just stares #he has no idea what this is going to end on really so he points out 'well you do like to think you break people' #and ymber just ASDFASDFSADF STOP OK NEXT POINT people pray to me to bless relationships with happiness #and thats fascinating so deacon is like wow can you actually do that? #and ymber is so stressed as hes like i mean kinda i can simply amplify the positive emotions in gestures #like if someone gives an item out of love then its blessed #he also admits that he cant mask insincerity or malice so those feelings are not hidden nor amplified #and deacon just is impressed bc that is actually VERY cool

[jvcmk]

@14dayswithyou I come here to ask for Rendacted to be my boyfriend with marriage in mind, btw. I got the boys here to help me with the serenade.

#Ren #I beg you to say yes #the mariachi was so expensive istg #I literally came back to tumblr for this man #I study cumputer engineering and everything #I also cook and clean(mostly) #I will have you as my pretty little husband and you wont have to work #I have no pride nor shame rn #this man has me in a chokehold #I cant recover after meeting him #14 days with you #This game just made me go back to my fangirl era #I'll probably get really embarrased tomorrow morning for this

[bellshazes]

I did figure out the necessary inevitable narrative tone of distant station's conclusion and I'm sad about it. not because it's a sad ending but because it's sort of just flatly true on a meta-level. see you in two years when I write it tho

#peter posts #idk ethos arc will be abt being the same person when youre fragmented linearly from your future/past #on the other hand bdubs' is about. turning inward so much you cant notice and will never be able to recover yr memory #of slowly thru iterations becoming a wildly different person who is very much still you. #and the thing abt bdubs in the story & also metalevel a) why im writing it and b) why it is niche #is that its ok. to have done that in the long term. #eventually people wont remember all those unfamiliar people you once were & no longer have access to either #so its fine if this fic never gets ppl to watch that era. it would only be a reconstruction of recorded memory anyway #none of this is meaningfuk to me just like the insomnia + roomie probs of DIA were NOT RELEVANT to my life #ANYWAY BYE. LOVE YA TO DEATH I GOTTA RESEARCH LIGHT BULBS

[ollylotl]

hey so... um.... when vyncent and william go to fucking court for like medical malpractice or whatever number of laws they've just broken can we finally get the ace attorney bit or...?

#im coping (lie) #but i genuinely think i would instantly recover from all the pain of this episode if it lead to the ace attorney bit being real just saying #i loved this episode as a guy who loves to watch the trainwreck but ough it was painful #cant wait to watch dakota kick their asses. i dont think theyre even gonna make it to court #anyway if that injection kills tide imma be inconsolable even ace attorney wont save me hes the best character #jrwi spoilers #jrwi pd spoilers #jrwi prime defenders spoilers #jrwi #jrwi pd #my posts #jrwi prime defenders #jrwi william #jrwi vyncent

[melatook]

AW little guy!

OH hes a little bit fucked up actually

#I wont recover from the new premier #THE OWL HOUSE #toh season 3 #toh #toh hunter #he cant get a break #The owl house spoilers #toh spoilers #my art #hunter #hunter the owl house #thanks to them

[caffeinatedopossum]

I just heard someone say that getting married is the hardest thing they've ever done.

I'm sorry but if getting married is the hardest thing you've ever had to do, I don't think I can talk to you. That's fine, that's totally okay if that's hard for you. I just need a long moment of silence for my misjudgment of the average amount of suffering that any given human experiences.

#and obviously theres shit like forced marriage and things #however #if you are choosing who to marry of your own volition. that shit should be easy #i cant even count with all of my fingers and toes the number of things that have been harder for me than getting married #for one. the reason im not yet legally married which is that im disabled and im in a very intenese match of Do I Deserve Rights #with the government #after that weve got recovering from an ed. not sure how im managing that. plus i couldve easily died #you know from malnutrition. not only from me starving myself but also due to severe malnutrition in my entire childhood #due to neglect and abuse. its tge reason i never grew properly. i have a hole in my jaw. its also why my jaw is underdeveloped #ive got severe insomnia and anxiety to the point that i wont sleep for days without strong meds #and cant really leave my house alone #i lived through untreated hypothermia and likely heat stroke as well and those were both MUCH harder than getting married #i experienced child labor and escaped what was probably a cult given that i had to run away to an undisclosed location #cut off contact with everyone i knew from it and remain anonymous #i ran away from home because of the abuse and when the cops were called on me i had to sit thete #with a straight face and listen to social workers and authorities tell me that what i was calling abuse was ok and that i had to go back #i had to fight for an education that i never really got. same for medical care including emergency medical care #anyway point being i will be very relieved to spend the rest of my life with my favorite person after all of that #there are no regrets or uncertainties about that. my life is the best its ever been and she only makes it better

[honeysunchild]

People fucking suck

Why can't people just be fucking nice or polite

What's so fucking difficult about not treating others like shit

#i need a break #FUCK #so tired of this shit #i hate other peoples bullshit #especially doctors #if youre a doctor and youre impolite and rude and dehumanizing to your patients and refuse to even listen to them #then youre not a doctor #youre and egoist arrogant fuck with a ledical degree who shouldnt be allowed to practice actually and go fuck yourself also #venting #just be fucking kind #just be fucking compassionate #it's not fucking hard and ir wont kill you i promise!!!! #i hate rude bitchy people who make others days worse #if you absolutely cant be kind bc it would take out too much of you rn then go sit at home and recover #dont take it out on others and dont make peoples days worse bc of it! #thats so fucked that people just make complete strangers pay for their shitty lives #i should be given a gun or a dagger w infinite ammo and full amnesty and let loose about town #anyone whos a fucking prick and takes it out on someone else watch out #bangbang fuck u

[oceanwavesproteinshakes]

Im gonna update on my sobriety journey exactly the way i never wanted to because i think the accountability will help me. Its the weekend so im taking time to rest my body, taking lots of vitamins and drinking water. Ill try to eat for the first time in days in a couple of hours. I just made a sheet analyzing my cycle of addiction and writing down questions i have, with a timeline of how things developed, ill bring it with me to my next session of therapy, im hoping it will help find out critical points of my cycle to help break it. I have an apointment on thursday at an addiction treatment/counseling office thats local to me and will hit up the AA for the next local appointment i can take on monday. I want to act fast because i know for my type of addiction i have a couple weeks of strong motivation to be sober and then a couple months with no desire too drink at all which also makes me less motivated to stick to sobriety cause Everythings going fine. So im trying to set up a network to support me once i get to that false security stage. Coming to terms with this being addiction is hard, ive been in denial for a good while cause im not a „typical“ alcoholic and often times people my age „like to party/drink“ plus im realizing many of the adults around me are types of addicts that are viewed as less severe or more functional. (My grandpa was an alcoholic like from a book, but my uncle is drunk multiple times a week, almost everyone in my family gets drunk at every party and drinks in the evening to relax tho in „smaller“ amounts, my father was drinking multiple drinks every evening and hiding it before the end of his life and so on and so on) so maybe i have a genetic predisposition too (which would suck pretty hard but wont mean i wont be able do it)

#sobriety diary #wont delete this it needs to be here #this sucks tbh but i cant afford to push this off #im starting to get hungry and less dizzy tho which is good #no im not having withdrawal symptoms i never have but i am detoxing not instagram style #like my body is actually recovering from this poison and lack of sleep and proper food #just made some chicken breast rice and spinach with cucumber on the side thisll help me feel better and get back into my usual routines #i hope

[t00nyah]

is it just me or does effie have infinite bigender swag

#limbus company #project moon #i hoped i wont get back to my roots but here i am #sorry not sorry #im just on whatever part effie and saude first appeared at i believe #theyre so. fuck them but also so poggers you feel me. #also going through apple trauma #thanks project moon i recovered after you gave me apple trauma with snow whites apple way back what 5 years ago or how many #i cant remember bro im so old #💀💀💀 #im sorry but i might annoy y'all projmoon tumblr never been to this side of fandom before #please be gentle projmoon tumblr

[bearsizedant]

love having to exist in this world as a human who is forced to deal with things

#sometimes you need to break up with your boyfriend and youre still not really like #mentally recovered from the anxiety of breaking up w your ex like 3 years before #:') #i dont want to leave him. but i cant keep putting myself through this #and like. blough #ugh #blech #woe misery and deepest sorrows have been thrust upon me #and midterms are next week #and i dont have a therapist #and my job is getting really stressful #and i have assignments and papers and still have the worst art block i have ever experienced ever #but specifically for doing personal stuff. no issues working on art for class. #and i feel like if i let myself feel anything i wont be able to get anything done #and i cant skip classes or call off work because i need to do those things and work is understaffed and classes are important #and i want to float face down in a river and ignore everything #bearsizedant speaks some words #i wish i was not mentally ill

[hiya-itsamber]

the maze runner renaissance was not on my 2024 bingo card. but...

#guys. #guys help #i cant go through thatphase again i WONT recover the second time around #amber shut up

[butchdykekondraki]

STAY AWYA FROM HERRR GET A JOB

#[milo] #if we SERIOUSLY get a fnafsb ruin game theory its over for me. i wont eb able to recover #i dont care that matpat like forged a lot of early fnaf. I DONT CARE if he TOUCHES ruin we need to kill him. #i am NAWT doing this. NOT AGAIN #I CANNOTTTTT HAVE HIM TAINT RUIN. I CANT DUDE I CANT

[lil-lightning-bug]

~Pinned Post~

(Obligatory not-a-bot for anyone I'm following, I just haven't prepped an icon yet-)

Concept:

In one part of the world, an unusual pikachu encounters an unusual spinda, and takes her in, since she clearly needs a place to stay, and possibly even a place to hide.

In another part of the world, a meowth, one of the two founding members of Rescue Team Golden, has been missing their partner for weeks. No one knows what happened, but his presence has been tracked to the human world. ...He never thought he'd return to the human world... It's been so long, and he doesn't know what to expect...but he has to find his partner.

Two seemingly completely separate events, which will eventually overlap...to what end?

-> More functionally, this intends to be a plot-heavy blog that fully accepts asks but won't necessarily depend on them to survive. The main starting cast is Cetra/ET the spinda, Hotaru the pikachu, and Richie the meowth/human, with other characters to be added as the story continues.

Mun:

Mun is 18+, she/her pronouns! You can call me Lolo! I've been a pokemon fan since...basically forever! My favorite types are electric and grass, and my favorite pokemon are pichu and eevee! (...Though this blog currently only has one eevee planned, and no pichu planned. For now.)

I'm interested in branching out into adding a variety of pokemon to the blog, so we'll see what happens. If I get asks, I'll also try to draw the characters associated, so long as I can find something to work with! (Like a reference picture or something)

Content:

Asks are accepted!

Anon asks are currently accepted!

I won't be drawing anything sexual or suggestive (aside from ~potential romance~, kissing/holding hands/etc), but there -will- likely be other things of an intense nature, such as violence, abuse, experimentation, portrayals of trauma, eyes where they do not belong and a large amount of them...etc. There'll also be swearing! I'll be tagging such concepts when they pop up and adding the tags I use below this! But if there's anything else I need to tag, please feel free to ask!

#pinned post #i'll be updating this at least semi-regularly i think... #though i wont be able to start the blog for some time #i injured the fuck out of my shoulder #so i cant really draw atm #but i decided to make the blog and start prepping it anyway #gonna be trying to outline the plot to myself while im recovering #wish me luck guys!