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Wretched/Deluded

Pairing: Prinxiety, side Logicality

Summary: As Virgil helps Logan get ready for a date, he reminisces back to when they first met in high school.

Warnings: Swearing (If I missed anything, please let me know!)

Words: 3030

Song rec: Factories by Autoheart (This is less of a theme for this chapter, but more of the theme I’m using for the fic in its entirety!)

A huge thanks to the lovely @fall-sunflowers for being my beta reader!!

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Chapter 1: To Put Together Me

~ -222 days from The Beginning ~

Virgil heard the front door of his apartment slam shut.

He switched the tab on his laptop from Tumblr to LinkedIn and got up from the couch, leaving the screen open and facing out as if to prove that he’d been doing what he was supposed to. His roommate walked through the kitchen, grinning.

“Hey.” Virgil walked across the room and leaned against the wall. “You look happy.”

“I am.” Logan opened the refrigerator and grabbed a water bottle. “I have a date tonight.”

Virgil grinned. “You finally asked that guy you met?”

“‘Finally’ seems rather melodramatic. I waited a perfectly reasonable amount of time before asking him out.” Logan cracked his water bottle open. “I’ve only known him for two weeks.”

“And for two weeks you haven’t stopped talking about him.”

Logan rolled his eyes. He took a drink and set the bottle down. “How goes the job hunt?”

Virgil grimaced and sat back down on the couch. “I can’t find anything worthwhile.”

“Maybe I can ask Patton tonight if he knows of anyone who’s hiring.” Logan offered. “He knows the city well.”

Virgil scoffed. “You can’t ask that on a first date. He’ll think that’s the only reason you took him out.”

Logan’s eyes widened. “Okay, I won’t.”

Virgil grabbed his laptop. “When are you picking him up?”

Logan checked his watch. “About two and a half hours.”

“And what are you wearing?”

Logan looked down at what he had on. “I was just going to wear this.”

Virgil stopped. “You’re kidding, right?”

“No. What’s wrong with it?”

Virgil shook his head, eyes wide. “You can’t wear your daytime clothes on a date! Especially not when he’s already seen you in them that day. Do you want to look like you don’t care about going out with him?”

“Well, obviously, not,” muttered Logan.

Virgil sighed loudly and stood up. ”Come on, I’ll find you something.” He clasped Logan on the shoulder. “I guess some things never change.”

Logan rolled his eyes, but he was smiling. “It’s not like I’m helpless without you.”

“You’d like to think that, wouldn’t you?” Virgil lightly pushed against Logan into his room and started to rifle through Logan’s closet.

~

~ -3110 days from The Beginning ~

Virgil Terek had no friends.

And he was okay with that. He enjoyed being alone.

It’s not like he wasn’t likable. He wasn’t an outcast. People were nice to him and he was polite back.

Virgil just didn’t make an effort to put himself near other people. If he auditioned for the school musical, he’d be immediately adopted by the theater kids. Same with choir, or art, or any kind of sport, all things he could excel at. He simply didn’t want to.

Virgil didn’t want to join a group where he’d always be on the outside. He might have had a couple friends, but he was too far behind to ever be a part of some tight-knit collection of people who had been in that club together since childhood. Virgil would sit with them at lunch, hang out with them on the weekends, go to their birthday and graduation parties. But they wouldn’t ask to work with him on group projects in class. They wouldn’t pick him for their team in gym. Every time they made plans, it would be, “Oh, and you can come too, if you want, Virgil.”

And it was far too dangerous to have a single best friend, instead of a group of people. Virgil would never depend so much on one person. He’d just get hurt when they left for someone else.

Virgil was happy where he was. At lunch he sat in silence with the other kind-of-loners like him and did homework. At home, he read or wrote or listened to music or watched television or dicked around on his phone. Virgil was content.

The lack of friends eliminated distractions from what really mattered to Virgil. He could focus on what he wanted to do, and never had to worry about not having enough free time to do it.

Virgil Terek entered the ninth grade with complete indifference. By that point, he had learned his place in the world. As long as he maintained his grades and took all his required courses and interacted with his parents every once in awhile, nobody bothered him. He was free.

And Virgil had never had a problem maintaining his grades. Being categorized as a “gifted student” sometime in elementary school, he never struggled with completing an assignment or needed to study for tests. Virgil was placed in the advanced classes throughout elementary and middle school and had no problem breezing through them without trying or even enjoying it.

He took Geometry CP freshman year because it was the logical next step. He had no idea how much different an advanced high school course was from an advanced middle school course. When Virgil didn’t immediately understand a concept, he didn’t ask for help. When he only halfway understood the quadratic formula or didn’t memorize the order of the postulates and theorems, he didn’t study, because he had never had to before, and everything worked out on its own. Virgil started getting the worst test grades he had ever received in his life.

A few weeks into the course, he was barely pulling a D+. His parents and teacher kept getting on his case, Virgil didn’t know how to fix his grades, and he felt his freedom slipping away.

Other students complained near him about doing poorly, but their worst was always a grade Virgil would kill to have again. And the most annoying part was the new student in his class who never complained, who never was unprepared or confused, who seemed to have already mastered every topic in the course yet participated and accomplished classwork with vigor like it was the most interesting thing going on in his life.

Over the course of a few weeks, Virgil saw his irrational hatred of the kid intensify. Every time he got a poor test grade or failed assignment, he grew angrier at the kid who had no problems with the material. Everything about him annoyed Virgil. He was a freshman who had just moved into town, and he was still better than Virgil. He was very tall and very thin, which should have made him awkward, but he wasn’t. He dressed every day like he was going to work, tie and all. He spoke so professionally, almost robotically. He was stuck up and arrogant and took every chance he could to correct someone. But he had an A+ in Geometry.

Virgil, slumped at his desk in class while the teacher passed back their most recent tests, let these thoughts stew. He begrudgingly took the paper his teacher handed back to him, upside down and folded, with a stern but encouraging glance in Virgil’s direction. Virgil grimaced and turned it over.

A big red D- sat leeringly at the top of the page. Virgil sighed. He looked to the front of the room at the new kid, who was flipping through the test, observing it with noticeable interest, looking over the unmarked pages before setting it back on the desk with an obvious A+ at the top.

Virgil rolled his eyes to himself. None of his closest acquaintances were in the same math class, and he didn’t feel comfortable asking the sophomores and juniors in the period for help. This kid who didn’t know Virgil and therefore, didn’t have a reason to turn him away, might have been Virgil’s only chance to get his life back to normal.

He groaned inwardly. He wished he had another option.

When the period ended, Virgil walked up to the kid, who was packing up his backpack.

“Hey, how’d you do on the test?” Virgil asked. He hated small talk, but he was about to ask a complete stranger for help, and Virgil felt that he at least owed it to the kid.

“I got one-hundred percent,” answered the boy. Virgil resisted the urge to roll his eyes.

“Cool. I didn’t do so well.” Virgil slung his backpack over his shoulder and they walked out of the classroom. “I’m Virgil, by the way.”

The kid furrowed his brow. “Like the poet? What kind of a name is that?”

Virgil glared at him. He decided didn’t need straight A’s that badly. “Alright, fuck off.” He started to walk away.

“Wait, I’m sorry.” The other boy at least looked sheepish. “I don’t have much of a filter or an understanding of social etiquette. I tend to speak whatever I’m thinking without realizing the effects of what I say.”

Jesus, this kid. Virgil was sure he had just recited that from a textbook he picked up somewhere. He sighed. “Okay. I don’t think that makes it better, though.”

The kid stuck his hand out. “Pleased to meet you, Virgil. My name is Logan Schlenke.”

Virgil gingerly shook his hand and they continued down the hallway. “Okay, so here’s the deal. I’m kind of doing really badly in Geo and I can’t help but notice that you know what you’re doing.” He sighed. “Is there any way you can help me when I don’t understand what’s going on?”

“You want me to tutor you?” asked Logan. “Sure, I can do that.”

“It’s not tutoring, I just want a little help with the content.”

“That would be called tutoring,” Logan offered.

“No, I don’t need –” He stopped himself and gritted his teeth. “Fine, whatever, call it tutoring,” Virgil muttered. He bit his lip. “But you’ll do it?”

Logan stopped. He looked at Virgil thoughtfully. “I’ll help you under one condition.”

“Seriously?” Virgil groaned. “What is it?”

“It’s become evident to me that in order to have a productive and enjoyable high school career, one must be on good terms with their classmates,” Logan said. “I’ll help you understand Geometry if you help me to understand how to interact with people.”

Virgil raised an eyebrow. “I don’t think I’m your best choice to learn people skills, man. I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but I kind of keep to myself and don’t talk to anybody else.”

“That’s not true,” Logan commented. “I’ve seen you talking with lots of people and everyone likes you. Besides, I don’t want or need actual friends. I just need to get along with the other students in the school.”

Damn. This kid. Virgil was already regretting the decision. There had to be an easier way to pass Geo.

He let out a breath. “Okay. I’ll help you.”

Logan stuck his hand out again, and Virgil shook it. “It’s a deal,” Logan smiled.

The two exchanged contact information, and Logan walked into his next class, leaving Virgil shaking his head in the hallway.

Over the next few days, Logan went to Virgil’s house after school and worked with him on the content they learned in class.

“Your main problem seems to be that you never learned how to study,” Logan noted. “If you practice teaching yourself the concepts you don’t understand in class, soon you won’t need someone to reteach it to you.”

Virgil scoffed. “Why should I teach myself something when there’s a teacher getting paid to do it?”

“Teachers or other professionals are useful to help explain a concept to students. Not all teaching styles work on everyone, so sometimes it’s necessary to find out how you learn best and teach it to yourself,” Logan explained, maintaining a remarkable amount of patience. “You should also pay attention in class more often.”

Virgil tried to help Logan interact in social situations, but he had no idea how to teach him, or if any of what he knew would work for Logan. Logan tried his best, though, putting the same effort into studying people skills that he did in his schoolwork.

“So, maybe, when you want to say something, just…don’t, for a bit. Until you think it over and decide it’s an acceptable thing to say,” Virgil offered.

Logan’s eyes narrowed. “You don’t think I’ve tried that?”

Virgil rolled his eyes. “Look, dude, I’m not really sure how it works for you, anyway. But if you want people to like you, you can’t say things that make you look like an asshole. Just…calibrate, I guess.”

Logan’s eyebrow raised, but he said nothing. He jotted something down in a notebook.

“And you have to lose the tie.”

“Why?” asked Logan, genuinely confused.

“Nobody wears ties to school unless they have to dress up. Don’t you own, like, a single t-shirt or something?”

Horror flashed across Logan’s face. “Why would I wear a t-shirt to school?”

“So you look like a normal human teenager and not a child trying to run for president.”

Logan pursed his lips but wrote in his notebook again.

Virgil took a breath. “Tomorrow, try wearing jeans, a nice t-shirt, and an unzipped hoodie. And brush your bangs forward a bit, your hair doesn’t have to all be going in the same direction.”

Logan looked at Virgil like he had told Logan to wear nothing but a bathrobe to school, but he wrote it all down.

And the next day, Logan walked up to Virgil at his locker, wearing skinny jeans with a brown belt, a long-sleeve gray and white raglan, and a green hoodie. He had his hair swept to the side, falling gently over his forehead, just high enough so it didn’t impede his vision.

“Whoa.” Virgil grinned at Logan.

Logan smiled sheepishly back, hands in the pockets of his hoodie. “I feel ridiculous.”

“You look great, man,” said Virgil. And he really meant it. He could already feel a difference in the energy surrounding Logan. He could feel the other students no longer seeing him as an outlier or a stranger, but as someone who could be anyone else in the school. He’s one of us, they seemed to think out loud.

And, for the first time, Virgil realized that Logan was actually a really attractive guy. He just hadn’t known how to express himself. For some reason, Logan had tried to confine himself to a professional, more mature style. But in this outfit, he looked comfortable, relaxed, more laid-back and easygoing. Though he was almost definitely nervous of switching up his style so suddenly, Virgil could see in the way he carried himself that Logan felt more like himself in this outfit, not trying to prove to everyone that he’s someone he’s not.

They began walking down the hallway. “The most important thing about wearing this today is being confident in it. It won’t have as much of an impact if you doubt yourself.” Virgil said. “I know it’s a big change, but you’ve got to believe that you do look good.”

“You told me I did,” Logan said. “I have no reason to distrust you.”

As they walked, a few kids in the opposite direction smiled or nodded hello to Logan. He smiled back

“How do you feel?’ Virgil asked.

“I feel good.” Logan nodded. “I had no idea how much something as small as what I wore could have an effect on how I’m perceived.”

“You’re already starting to seem like a real person to the others,” Virgil smiled. “Keep this up and I’d bet anything you could get any girl in the school.”

Logan laughed out loud. “We’ll see. How did you do on the pop quiz in Geometry yesterday?”

“I got a B,” Virgil grinned.

“Well, that’s certainly an improvement, but I know you can do more. Are you free again this afternoon?”

Virgil sighed. God forbid he be proud of less than his best. “Yeah, my place again?”

Logan nodded and turned into his first period classroom for the day.

As the days passed, Virgil slowly grew more confident in his abilities to learn and understand things himself. He noticed that he started asking questions in class when he was lost, and he noticed seeing Logan smirk with pride every time.

Logan slowly grew more accustomed to social interaction. His robotic syntax and word choice didn’t change, but with the change in style, it began to seem quirky and intelligent rather than just arrogant. And though he still, with nothing but good and helpful intentions, corrected anyone who was wrong about anything, Virgil helped him to do it without making the other person feel stupid. Logan made friends, built connections, and started making a place for himself in the school.

Virgil soon became confident in his ability to study and learn things on his own, which was a huge source of pride for him. He didn’t think he’d ever be able to properly study. As one last benchmark, Logan went an entire chapter without tutoring or explaining anything to Virgil.

At the end of the chapter, his teacher handed him his test, upside down, with a pleased smile. Virgil turned over the paper to see a 96% A crowning the top.

Virgil ran up to Logan at the end of the class as they walked out together. “I can’t believe I did it!”

Logan grinned. “Congratulations.”

“Man, I could not have done this without you. Thank you so much for everything,” said Virgil.

“You’re welcome.”

Virgil pulled his phone out. “Do you want to come over today? I have to text my mom but I know she’ll be fine with it.”

Logan furrowed his eyebrows. “Is there another class you’re having trouble with?”

“What?” Virgil looked up at him. “No, no. Not for studying. Just to hang out.”

Logan raised his eyebrows.

“Like, for fun?” Virgil continued.

Logan’s face lit up. “Okay. Sure.”

He turned and walked away, beaming. As Virgil watched him go, a realization hit him. He had been trying for so long to get his life back to normal, back to being alone and untethered. But now, he’d never be able go back to that life.

“Goddamn,” he muttered.

Virgil Terek had one friend.

He walked away, shaking his head and laughing at himself, but unable to keep a smile off his face.

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