#does this make any sense whatsoever

[blaseballbrainrot]

I'll admit I don't know much about game or web dev but I can't help but wonder if some form of scope creep is part of what ended up killing blaseball. I've been thinking about it for a while, they rebuilt the entire sim, the entire site, made more complex unique art assets, made an app, massively expanded their team, etc. But after almost 2 years of waiting the sim was buggy, the site was inaccessible and unfinished, the app never even released, something was going wrong somewhere be it in their management, attempted scope or something else. I got the overwhelming impression that a lot of if not most of the dedicated fans would have been fine (or happier!) with just a new but similar sim on the old site like the short circuits, and personally the 3d assets while nice didn't feel very blaseball to me (and that's leaving out the argument that could be had about them leaving less to the imagination despite fanon interpretations being a huge selling point)

I can't help but wonder if they made a lot of these decisions just to make blaseball bigger or more marketable, despite being directly after the entire message of expansion. It still breaks my heart that something as powerful to so many people as blaseball ended the way it did, it deserved so much more than what it got and I'm still grieving and I know it's not a simple situation but until if/when TGB releases more details about their decision all we can do is speculate I suppose. I might just be in denial trying to come up with reasons it shouldn't have ended this way

#does this make any sense whatsoever #im going through some Other Life Things right now so #im getting some frustrations off my chest for the catharsis #on the flipside i dont know if this is a terrible theory #tldr i wish blaseball didnt end and im sad #blaseball #rant #negative

[melanodis]

williams favourite music GO

he would've loved marina. seriously though, abba, boney m., fleetwood mac. not particularly into hard rock, but his guitar playing he heavily draws inspiration from led zeppelin and deep purple.

#michael also ends up inheriting his music taste and expanding upon it exponentially #does this make any sense whatsoever #arc.txt #william afton #ask.txt #cerkowah

[janeirl]

no wait yk what confuses tf outta me.. if the painting rlly is of the swings moment (which was mentioned in s2, the shed scene) then how did the duffers forget ab wills bday (which was mentioned in s2, the shed scene) they literally were brought up at the same time um.

#twyla’s #does this make any sense whatsoever #st4 spoilers

[mastermatoyas]

There's no way to explain this without coming across as at least slightly insane. But. I feel like a lot of the time, when I'm playing a female character in a game with both male and female romance options, the female romance options end up feeling a bit less appealing to me despite how much I like the character.

And I think it's because the romantic scenes in a lot of games are written with heterosexual players in mind. So when I interact with male love interests, I feel like I'm being acknowledged as a woman, but when I interact with female love interests, I feel like I'm being treated as a man. The player always seems to take on a more active and masculine role in these encounters, and it just feels heteronormative and weird a lot of the time. I'm sure there are plenty of gay and bi male players who feel similarly weird about being kinda feminised in their interactions with male love interests.

The end result is that I don't feel like a woman dating another woman in these scenarios. I feel like a man with tits, and I find that really uncomfortable, because that's not me or the character I'm playing.

Like, ultimately it's made me realise that I do not want to be the man in a straight relationship, physically or metaphorically. I like women and I am a woman, and if there's one thing I want out of a video game romance, it's for those two facts to be able to coexist.

At the very least, I would like it if there were more female romance options in video games who aren't super femme bottoms. Because otherwise I have to just keep flashing back to this image.

#does this make any sense whatsoever #lemme know in comments/tags/reblogs if you have any thoughts on this #might help with developing some more coherent thoughts on the topic

[gay-otlc]

I don't identify as a lesbian but to what extent are our labels determined by us and to what extent are they determined by how we're perceived and how we experience the world, yknow?

#i don't want this label and i didn't choose it for myself but it has been glued onto me so i guess it's mine but not really #does this make any sense whatsoever

[crazyw3irdo]

been seeing a lot of ppl using replies lately?? like way more than normal?? is this something new users are doing or…??

#it’s not like. super weird i guess but it’s just enough for me to notice and be confused #i know it’s a personal preference thing but like #idk if i have a comment to make i tend to make it in the reblogs yknow #i only use replies when i actively choose not to reblog yknow #i’m just wondering if new users think that ppl actually. like. read the replies. cause in my experience i’ve literally never read replies #unless it’s my post or someone posted that ‘what is happening in the notes’ meme #idk i just worry about tumblr becoming like other social media sites i don’t want replies to become a comment section #does this make any sense whatsoever #i’m 100% overthinking things but i’m confused yknow #crazwaz posted

[elytrafemme]

i have a really weird relationship with relationships too, huh. i guess if we’re gonna just talk about shit tonight. like not even that i’m a bad person to be in love with, though i guess that too, but like. in the past i have a history of being really self destructive in relationships, and also (albeit to give myself credit, this would be more reactionary to a feeling of entrapment rather than just straight up) pretty unstable around my partners. which is maybe weird to admit but i feel like relationships are such a core part of my life since i have had like. so many issues with them and related subjects since a really young age. 

but also like, more recently it’s less destructive behaviors because i am actively trying not to do that shit again. but more like. i get really insecure about things when i think about the person i’m in love with, which is odd because i’m not a very insecure person at all. one of my biggest annoyances actually is when people assume i hate myself more than i do, because if i ever do hate myself it’s a very strange fluke of a day and in general i love myself debatably to an unhealthy degree. like my friend the other day said that my ego was too low and i was too shocked to even laugh because she was like so deeply off about that. it really bothers me.

anyway. being in love makes me insecure and has historically made me do weird things. which would be fine if i wasn’t such a fucking hopeless romantic.

#nightmare.personal #i guess it's just honesty night at mare HQ #yeah i don't know i feel like i'm. almost too willing to talk about how i kind of sucked as a girlfriend in the past #i think part of it though is that i am really willing to talk about stuff i did wrong #but i do not want to talk about what my partners did wrong or the situation itelse #itself*. or at least not in like blatant terms #it's one thing to say that i used to have rage episodes in a relationship all the time and another to say like #that i . or. like it's another thing to say that relationship was life and death anyway #or at least that's what my therapist called it i don't know i thought it was fine at the time #well clearly not because i was angry but like it's you know. the way that weird shit happens to teens and you're like #oh this is normal and then you find out its deeply traumatizing #that's kind of how most of my relationships go #maybe i'll amend this post to say i am not an insecure person but i do think i'm a horrible and cursed person to love #which isn't really a direct criticism of myself more just that i don't think i'm structurally built to be a romantic partner #i actually am a really good romantic partner? like i have really good boundary setting skills in general #am pretty good at reading people. respectfully flirty. enable partners to do their own things independent of me etc #i'm just like cursed to also be a really bad romantic partner too #does this make any sense whatsoever #i don't even know why i'm talking about this lol

[thsc-stuffs]

We have like 5 different 'interpretations' of THSC almost entirely because "ohhhhh that character dynamic/ship/headcanon would be cool but doesn't work in the normal one"

And for some reason one of the most defining features is fucking. Randy Radman. Bc the 'primary' one is Radsir with Burt being their son. Then you have Radsir and Copperrightauve with Terrence being their sorta-son. Then you have Rave with Randy being like 20 instead of 40, and now we're being infected with what we're deeming the R-lycule and HELP.

#ramblings #does this make any sense whatsoever #for some reason most of the things joint off different toppat leader orders/ages #then I think there's like. one. that joints off of Henry but is more of an au than anything bc it changes so mcuh

[jamiewintons]

So I finished Spy, and I was having Chris thoughts (because of course I was), and I ended up at pet names. For some reason I thought about something that happened in a show my mum was watching ages ago (I don't remember what show it was).

In the show, this guy's girlfriend said that he could call her by any food item as a pet name, so he ended up calling her any random food that came to his head, no matter how ridiculous. It was a different food every single time.

So yeah... I think that is what Chris would do. You'd end up getting called shit like "chicken nugget" or "frozen lasagna". That's just the vibe I get.

#chris pitt goddard x reader #mari speaks #does this make any sense whatsoever #also if anyone wants to send me any chris x reader headcanons pls i'd love you forever

[metronn]

shitty black coffee is never, like, enjoyable as coffee. but when u get donuts and bad coffee, it's like you're living a vibe. and i can at least enjoy snacking on the vibe.

#.txt #does this make any sense whatsoever #food

[bigboyincowtown]

I wrote this instead of sleeping cause I knew I’d forget it in the morning. Please tell me I’m not the only one who thinks like this.

#asexual #acespec #aspec #mine #does this make any sense whatsoever???

[strolldiaz]

#does this make any sense whatsoever? probably not #strollonso #1418

[lighthouseas]

when i say my pronouns are she/they i mean like This

#does this make any sense whatsoever.... #like i cant. do u get what im trying 2 say?????? i cant explain it #it's just. this is the Vibe #anyways posting this now bc the gender is feeling very funky rn. n e ways #grrr draft monster #bee.txt

[the-sunshine-dims]

no because i definitely called fable a cat in a fic wip from months ago, and it was a silly thing, but now the idea of the metaphor hurts me

a cat, let loose from its rightful place, allowed to roam despite the harm it causes, some arguing it good, some rightfully talking about the detriment, a cat that acts so sweet until you get close enough for it to bite you, and a cat that will sink its teeth into a bird, maybe with no other intention other then to show off what its done- to achieve a title of a good hunter, leaving the bird alone when it gets bored

#i have started of like four posts with 'no becuase' now- oops #also does this make any sense whatsoever? i have- no idea but my brain is going places and i wont be able to think about those places till #after the weekend #so please if its mildly incoherent <3 i am sleepy <3 /lh #fin speaks

[atlasshrugd]

something i’ve noticed is that while kinn is the one who likes to initiate conversations and hash things out, porsche is the one who likes to give verbal affirmation once the relationship is established. for example. he would say things like “last night was amazing,” “he is jealous that we are in love,” “you look great,” “smile, that’s when you’re cutest,” “you are really adorable,” “feels so good,” “so kind,” etc. most of these lil comments kinn doesn’t comment back, he usually just agrees or smiles. this is interesting bc porsche seems to put more weight on words of affirmation and acts of service (see: porsche always fixing kinn’s hair, being his bodyguard etc.), while kinn puts more weight on physical touch and quality time (see: kinn kissing him when he says “you never trust me” in ep 10, mutual masturbation scene / staying handcuffed to porsche in the woods etc.) as ways of expressing love/giving reassurance. 

let me elaborate:

kinn often initiates conversations (see: asking porsche if he is okay multiple times, “are we good now?”) to clear the air — because his way of thinking is efficient and organized. porsche often avoids these confrontations and would prefer to forgive and forget (see: kinn apologizing for “that night” multiple times in the woods but porsche not really wanting to talk about it). this is because porsche is not used to talking about his feelings (i.e. not having parents to talk to, not wanting to burden porchay, having to put feelings aside to get things done etc.) or having them be important/listened to. 

so, porsche uses words of affirmation to establish feelings because he was so starved of that for most of his life. mirroring this, kinn is also not used to verbal affirmation from loved ones. so when porsche offers this — he often doesn’t know how to respond, but is pleasantly surprised. 

porsche also uses acts of service to express love, as no one has ever taken care of him. he takes care and protects the people he loves, often sacrificing his own feelings. mirroring this, nobody has sacrificed for kinn, either. he has always been the one making the sacrifices (inheriting the mafia job despite being the middle child, putting aside his love life and freedom to do a job he doesn’t want), and nobody has ever cared for him beyond what he can do for them (his father, his people, tawan). 

so when porsche performs acts of service, (such as taking him out on a date/carefully planning, fixing his hair, coming back to save him, offering to cut off his hand, etc.) — this is completely new to kinn. he is used to people doing things for him out of obligation and duty. but with porsche, he rarely does anything he doesn’t want to do. he does these things for kinn by his own choice.

(see: porsche trying to “seduce” kinn by pretending he’s sick so kinn can look after him. this is an example of what porsche sees as love. taking care of someone.)

in return, kinn performs acts of service for porsche. he lets go of porsche in the woods, takes the bullet for him, gives his lucky gun to him, lets him borrow his phone to call porchay, gives him his own phone, pushes porsche out of the way of a bullet and cleans his wound, etc.

in contrast, kinn uses physical touch to anchor and communicate his feelings because he was touch starved for most of his life. the only touch he got was from callboys, and it wasn’t exactly loving or gentle. because he is so used to the trivialities of words, he often resorts to touch to speak louder. porsche responds to this bc he is equally touch-starved and lacked physical affection all his life.

additionally, kinn also uses quality time as a way to express love. he doesn’t take off the handcuffs because he knows he can only get this time with porsche if they are stuck together away from everything else. “we know each other so much better this way.” kinn decides to make it up to porsche by going over to his house and forcing himself to awkwardly sit with him and his drunk friends for hours. “if i didn’t care about you, why am i sitting here?” (see: kinn not being annoyed with all of porsche’s trivial demands on their date, instead looking fond. bc he doesn’t care how he spends time with porsche. as long as he is with porsche, he is happy.)

back to my original point. kinn likes to initiate conversations and gets straight to the point, especially when checking in on porsche. (e.g. “what now? [about us]” “are you okay with it? [kissing]” “are you okay? [after first time]” “are you good now?” etc.). this could be because he realises words of affirmation are important for porsche’s way of identifying love to himself. but where porsche affirms with compliments and revealing comments, kinn affirms by reassurance (see: “promise you will return to me no matter what” / “i promise.” / “return the gun, and yourself.”) — these reinforcements are short but important, quick and efficient (just like kinn’s mind). 

anyway damn. i just find it interesting how their languages of love differ yet they begin to incorporate and integrate the others’ into them — and how they respond to the other in their own language. this is their mode of communication. perhaps others won’t understand, but they do. and that’s what matters.

#[yoda voice] the brainrot is real with this one #can u tell im spiralling #another day another diverging ramble about kp #does this make any sense whatsoever? whose to say #kinnporsche #kinnporsche meta #mileapo #mine

[officesupplied]

all my aftons (except ms afton) are transgender

william is transmasc, this adds to his "I have to be better than everyone else, I am better than everyone else" shtick, due to not being "correct" in the eyes of society.

if elizabeth hadn't died, she would've been nonbinary,

nate (cc) would've been genderfluid,

and michael's too busy to deal with gender.

nate and mike were from ms afton's previous marriage, which is why william has a bias against them. elizabeth was adopted after they married.

#rambling #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #afton family #i dont know #theyre all trans #does any of this make any sense whatsoever #its 1:50 AM #im a tad tired. #just a little.