#dream body honestly

[thinnria]

jang wonyoung for that matter

#her legs ugh #dream body honestly #tw eating disorders #tw ed #tw ed behaviour #tw 4n4 #4n0r3×14 #thin$p0 #th!n$p0 #bonespr0 #thinzpo #sk1nnie #i will be th1n #an0rex1a #anorexix #anorexsick #th11nspo #bonespii #kpop th1nspo #not pr0 only using tags #pr0 only for myself #anablr #4n0r3x14 #th1n$po #th1nz🎀 #i wanna be th1n

[midnightdemonhunter]

But don't worry. By then, he wants to.

(@romanromulus :D )

#saw movies #mark hoffman #peter strahm #hoffstrahm #midnight draws #sdate #op found the first art piece so i was obligated to finally properly draw the second! #i dunno if i can pick a fav between these fics honestly. the time loop is a comfort fic and i dunno if i can ever read this one again #the ugly sobs it got out of me....but so so good #disturbing highlights include: #strahm's thoughts on being quiet when hoffman gets home shifting over the story from ironic to unironic. incredibly cool and fucked up #uhhhh all the dad stuff. WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME....... #everything about the ending. HOFFMAN WAS IN THE FUCKING BASEMENT!!! HE WAS TRAPPED. HE WOULD HAVE COME BACKKK #i didnt wanna die...i didnt wanna die either....the final dream....... #death of the self vs death of the body....which is worse.... #anyway yeah this fic. god #one day i will leave proper comments too!!! for now: normal art. anyway please read into this

[salty-an-disco]

just had a realization as to why I find the Leave as Gods ending pretty chill and something I’d actually wouldn’t mind doing–

I’m nonbiney, xenogender, and relate more to abstract concepts than my own body, becoming a concept too great for anyone but yourselves and your literal soulmate to understand is literally my dream lmao.

#also. I fantasize all the time about just kinda becoming an transient ‘thing’ that can observe the world for eternity but doesn’t really has #to interact with it #so yeah. leaving as a god with my literal soulmate is my dream come true lmao #the Leaving as Mortals ending is very dear to me and the one I like exploring in writing more #but honestly. I’d hate going back to a human body that has to deal with things like Sensations #and Thoughts right after getting in touch with my abstract nature #anyway. this was just me rambling about my personal feelings on these endings #and my realization that my relationship to my own body and what ‘being a person’ feels like to me affects how I view these endings lmao #stp-posting #slay the princess #< yeah. sure. this is going in the main tag

[morporkian-cryptid]

I went into the new Night Vale episode honestly thinking they were going to pull another "what do you mean the previous episode ended on a cliffhanger no no nothing happened" and we wouldn't hear of Kevin or the Boy in at least two years.

And then the episode was titled "He is still holding a knife" XD

#welcome to night vale #welcome to night vale spoilers #night vale #night vale spoilers #wtnv #wtnv spoilers #kevin r free #kevin from desert bluffs #I CALLED IT I CALLED IT #as soon as the boy said 'i need to put it inside a body' #i knew where this was going to go #that or outright killing the smiling god #which i still think is a reasonable outcome to expect out of this whole situation #honestly? good for him. #if killing his future self is the only way for him to be free then i support him 100%. i am sad bc i love kevin but i support him. #go ahead kevin stab that trauma. i love you. #feels aside the boy mysteriously producing more and more knives was pretty hilarious #he is living my dream life #also CAN WE TALK ABOUT CECIL BEING KIND TO THE BOY AND GIVING HIM SNACKS even though the boy is very clearly threatening him? #cecil and kevin both grew up in abusive families (not to mention the rest of the abuse kevin is still suffering) #cecil is being nice to kevin's child self as much as to his own child self #he's showing him the kindness neither of them received #also 'she is trying to get him to resolve his issues WITHOUT stabbing' sjdkljsklfjkls #also i stimmed so fucking hard when carlos showed up <3 love to see cecil being a dork about his husband

[natreads]

I got a job as a bookseller!!!

#nat talks #listen. it's not the dream bc I've already worked in a bookstore and it's actually terrible at times #but I only really worked during holidays and people were just so rude #BUT I do have higher hopes for this location #also I tentatively know two people who work there so it will be fun! #it's a sub role and a little unclear if I'll only work during christmas and the book sale in feb or more #it depends on if the people who are on sick leave will return and when #but I can keep freelancing and apply for corporate jobs I want in the meantime #at the very least I can work during december either way and if I end up finding something else maybe I can work weekends during the booksal #so to not let them down too much #I honestly am just looking forward to getting out of the house and meeting people and working with my body more #because my mind is very fried #I have a short shift tomorrow to train #then I'll see when I'll officially start but it will probably be soon! #I've had a very busy few days so I wish I had said I could do my training shift next week #bc they gave the option of this wednesday or next #but I didn't want to turn it into a “thing” by letting too much time pass bc I might get anxious about it #but now I wish I had lmao I'm tired #also forgot I was gonna be home alone with the dog tomorrow #had been looking forward to it tbh #oh wellll #work stuff

[redrocketpanda]

Did you grow up with a crush on Dragon Haku or were you a normcore loser?

#the train ride gifset finally pushed me over the edge to finally rewatch spirited away after dreaming about it for days #and honestly... my heart feels so full and my body so relaxed anytime i watch it #legit one of the best films ever #and ofc my heart always does a little jump for dragon haku bc the kid me crush still goes strong after 20 years #spirited away #kohaku

[in-tua-deep]

had some very plot-y dreams last night!

I was an alien who was disguised as a human. I think I had come to earth as some kind of invading force years and years ago - my lifespan was pretty long actually, so I was only about the equivalent of my early 20s still but I'd been on earth long enough that I looked more middle-aged.

Which was appropriate, because the reason I had bailed/was in hiding is because I had fallen in love with my beautiful wife. She had died, so I was raising our half-alien son by myself and was probably the definition of Overprotective Parent

I never saw what I looked like, but there was a point in the dream where my son was in his alien form. It was actually very beautiful - he looked like he was made of colorful gemstones or glass rather than flesh and blood

But the whole dream's plot hinged on me finding what was apparently some kind of like, alien rehabilitation program where they took someone and made them human and made them experience life as a human as some kind of penance/rehab?

And there was a dude who I recognized as like. a Big Bad species, that I was CONVINCED had a) no ability to feel remorse, b) would indiscriminately kill everyone, and c) was very very dangerous and also in the same town as my son

so I started like, hanging around?? To try and catch this dude being Evil and also making sure everyone was staying The Fuck Away from my kid, right? except this dude just kind of. didn't do anything evil. stone cold poker face and no showing emotions, but no like, killing or anything

at some point into this dream, we find out about a bomb that is under the chair of one of the group, which consists of me, This Guy, and some squishy humans. My goal is to make sure that if the bomb goes off, it goes off with the other alien bc his species is very invulnerable to things like that

long story short, I ended up with the bomb and driving away and got. really really hurt. and the evil alien? he ran over, covered my wounded body with his own, and someone transferred half of my wounds to him and in doing so he saved my life

so... not as evil (or as emotionless) as I thought, clearly

The rest is fuzzy, but I know I let him see that I had a son at one point, though I didn't directly introduce them.

Honestly the whole dream kind of felt like it had a vague enemies to friends to lovers plot going on as we both explored more of his background and history and emotions, and as we revealed the fact that I had once been kind of a bad guy honestly before falling in love with my wife.

something something, second chances

then i had an entirely different dream where I was a princess who accidentally defeated a dragon and bound him to me in human form lol

#my dreams #dream journal #second chance dream #like honestly the peak of this dream was him throwing his body over mine as i lay dying #and then transferring half of the wounds #like i was still hurt and now he was too #and i don't think either of us had known his species could do that tbh #i was such an overprotective middle aged dad honestly #i don't think i let my son really leave the house #because of the whole half-alien thing i was so worried he would be like. experimented on or taken away #my dead wife haunted the narrative #she made me a better person but without her i think i was regressing to old (bad) coping skills #the only reason i know about my age is i complained about the body the evil alien got #sometimes a love story is a 26 year old in the body of a 40 yr old man and his enemy-to-love the 40 year old alien looking like a 26 yr old #and that's okay #shoutout to the dragon and princess story bc no one realized that 'twas I who was bound to the dragon for like. ages #bc nobody realized i was the one that killed him i guess?

[roses-and-elixir]

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#its getting bad again #ive had nightmares nearly everyday the past week #and they seem so real like everything is blurring into reality in the mornings #this stress has just been too much im feeling it impact my physical health too #ive been so ill in January like one after the other and caught sm viruses etc from work #honestly my bodys paying for it now 😐 #i told my mum one of my dreams rly briefly when i was driving back home at 8pm and she got shook #and that was just a fraction 😭

[1985shifting]

being transmasc and over 25 in the shiftblr community is wild because i see all these 19 year old girls posting pictures of their dainty perfect feminine DR selves and it's like. that's lovely, so happy for you, rooting for you, get it gurl go live your dream and be your extra most bestest self...

...but i'm over here actively and eagerly trying to shift into this:

#like honestly i hope y'all live your dream i'm cheering for you #but i have wanted to be a middle aged man since i was a teenage 'girl' lmao #i really am just Some Guy #shiftblr #shifting realities #the Autism is also probably a factor lol #i've never been one for traditional beauty standards #GIMME THAT MALE PATTERN BALDNESS OR GIVE ME DEATH #please tell me i'm not the only one shifting to a middle aged man DR self lol #i can't wait to be covered in body hair #it's actually not that old lol i'll be 35. middle aged to me doesn't start til 40. #but you get what i mean

[starkidlabs]

3rd time I got rejected after an interview now. I’ve been applying to jobs since January. I don’t know how much more of this I can take.

#I wasn’t particularly that qualified for this position #but it was honestly the only job I could have got through nepotism I guess #as my sister knew a couple of people on the interview panel #so now it’s even more clear that I’m not going to be able to get a job for a long fucking time #essentially all the jobs I’ve applied to these past few weeks won’t have interviews until the end of the month so all my dreams of maybe #applying for a PhD at the end of the year are fucked because I won’t have wasn’t enough by next October to afford one #God why does no body want me #why am I never good enough

[archergray]

So. Consider this.

We all know that Dream is pretty much touch-starved after sitting in a snow globe since 1916 and I'm definitely on board with this hc, but what if. What if he was touch-starved even earlier, by his own "making"? Like, what if his touch makes people sleepy if he doesn't try to reign it in? Like, you're holding his hand and your eyes are getting heavier and heavier, because he forgot he kind of does that?

Enter Hob Gadling.

Hob Gadling, who's a teacher and therefore he's swimming in tests and essays and other things because nobody in this damn country care about teachers being overworked and underpaid. But it's alright, he doesn't mind, he likes the responsibility and quiet pride that comes with teaching, with helping to shape young minds into something clever, something beautiful, something brilliant. And he really likes the kids he's teaching.

But he has so much paperwork and not enough hours in the day. So, Hob drinks way too much caffeinated beverages and pushes himself to make it done (he can't let his kids down, right?). He sips on a long cold earl grey and pushes himself past the point of tiredness and now, when he finally decided that some sleep might be good, he. can't. fucking. sleep. It doesn't seem like Dream being grumpy, it's his body that's suddenly not tired enough even if his mind is, and his thoughts can't stop racing, so he finds himself turning and turning and only getting more and more frustrated.

Dream finally notices. He enters the bedroom quietly, like a hundred other times and crawls into bed, because he's been tired too. And Hob's arms welcome him, like they always do, tenderly, with endless love. His body already relaxes, maybe from Dream's proximity or him not being as fully in control as he'd like to be. But Hob never cared about waves of drowsiness when they cuddled – there was nothing more pleasant than to take a nap in the arms of his lover.

Neither of them say anything, but when Dream lays a tender kiss on Hob's forehead, he knows, he'd meet him in The Dreaming soon.

#hob gadling #morpheus of the endless #the sandman #the sandman netflix #dream of the endless #dreamling #hob really could use a hug #so does dream #honestly this post is kind of a mess i just had one chaotic thought and went with it #all because i couldn't sleep and bed was getting terribly uncomfortable #headcanon #touch-starved dream #anyway I'm going to do a sensible thing and go to sleep while I'm actually sleepy #because pushing past your body's limitations is not nice at all and I'm doing it a lot because uni sucks #clean your sleep schedules darlings I'm begging you

[cookinguptales]

I generally spend summers out west visiting with my parents because it's much colder out there, which is better for my chronic illnesses. I figure that there's nothing much keeping me here during the summer, especially because it's not really safe for me to go outside when it's hot, so until something comes up that makes traveling for long periods less attractive (like a job that requires me to stay put, a partner, home renovations, etc.) I'm gonna keep doing it.

But brooooo the only thing that makes me occasionally consider staying here for the summer is plants. When I used to stay here during the summer, before my parents moved to California, I used to grow the most beautiful plants. I have this raised garden bed that I got when I first moved in and I've never really gotten to use it because I'm just never here during a full growing season anymore.

I have grow shelves in my office and that's nice, but it's nothing compared to actually being able to grow tomatoes and stuff in my garden. And OH if I were able to use that space out there to get a little apple tree! One of the self-pollinating ones with multiple varieties! Or one of the dwarf peach/nectarine combos...

I'd cry!

But those things need a little babying and I'm just not here enough to do it properly. Which is sad, because gardening is actually pretty good for my mental health. And while I love my parents' area, a lot of fruiting plants just do not do well in that environment. I love the plants that are there, but every time we've tried to do tomatoes or cucumbers or something, they just do not thrive at all. Way too cold and gray. We can grow pea pods, but I hate pea pods...

*staring into space daydreaming about franken fruit trees because someone on my dash had the misfortune to reblog something about plant grafting*

#plant grafting makes me feral #whenever people sit still long enough I always eventually start telling them about apple biodiversity #and how if you plant apple seeds they will not be the same variety as the apple it came from #and you can only truly replicate them through grafting #and that's why -- oh no I'm doing it again #once I did some stupid 'what ___ are you' quiz #and at the end they were like 'tell me something fun' #and I legit just launched into the apple lecture I'm so sorry I love the apple lecture #I took this class on food science in college #and I had to do a presentation on how to read and order from a seed catalog #and I honestly just fell in love with it I now read those things like they're magazines #sometimes I just daydream about being able to move somewhere with land so I could plant everything #but I know my body would never let me anyway #BUT I CAN DREAM...

[jeweledstone]

Last few night’s dreams were like an entire fucking anime arc man: a recounting

DATE: JULY 14/15, 2023

Ok, so I’ve been having some weird and intense ass dreams lately that have been kinda-sorta connected in a weird way. Mostly because they all have this fucker as a main antagonist/villain in some way:

Yep

It’s gonna only get more cringe from here folks

Basically, his motivations/schemes were pretty similar to Elias’s shenanigans from back in the day (I haven’t seen him or “Dream” in my dreams for a while now and have assumed they were either captured or killed by the multiverse’s higher ups for their meddling, thank god amirite?).

The whole story behind him and why he’s after me in a nutshell is that he apparently has this one sided crush/obsession with the Peppino from his timeline, but was heartbroken after finding out Pep actually hates his guts the hard way (ie, getting the shit beat outta him in the game’s ending). So instead of, y’know, getting over it and moving on like a normal person, our old “pal” Tontino decided to kidnap someone, use some kinda weird black magic to transform them into Peppino, and basically just hold them hostage for the rest of their days. And UNFORTUNATELY for me, I just so happened to be the “someone” he (seemingly randomly) chose for this plan B of sorts. (Note: I’ve managed to escape his imprisonment several times, but the persistent bastard KEEPS. COMING. BACK. I HATE IT.)

I remember the context for how he got his hands on the weird black magic/curse stuff was that he made this pact of sorts with these ghost/demon creatures from another, fantasy-style verse known as The Dark Ones, who ended up appearing in the second or third dream I had featuring him along with their rivals/good counterparts, The Spirits.

Now, the actual anime arc-type shit started in the 4th PH dream where he was made by the Dark Ones to find some kinda ancient relic called the InfraStone which was supposed to have immense magical power as part of their deal/pact…only for the stone to possess him once he found it.

This incident led to him going mad from the stone’s power and betraying and absorbing the Dark Ones, which only added to his newfound power. The rest of the dream was me kinda-sorta teaming up with The Spirits and some other magic users to stop his rampage and free the Dark Ones from his control.

Now, as if this saga couldn’t get complicated enough, there was a part 2 to this 4th dream.

Part 2 took place several months after the possession incident, since part 1 The Dark Ones and The Spirits have seemingly made peace with each other and I (or at least the self I had control of in that dream) ended up living with the magic people that assisted me and the Spirits in a sorta found family of sorts. At this point, it’s been quite a bit since anyone in the fantasy verse had seen or heard of PH’s shenanigans and he was assumed to have fled from there back to the PT verse.

Nope, not in the slightest. Shit was just getting started.

Turns out PH was busy making what I can only describe as Pizza Tower 2: Electric Boogaloo in order to have his “revenge” against me and maybe try to capture me again. I remember that since the old bosses from the game were still in the PT fictoverse completely unaware of PH’s current whereabouts, the “bosses” in the second Pizza Tower were basically innocent people from the fantasy verse PH kidnapped and transformed/mutated into horrifying amalgamations that had slight resemblances to the original bosses. (I have no fucking idea how he did this since the Dark Ones have revoked there pact with him since the possession incident, for good reasons ngl) When he finally revealed the whole shebang, I remember my first instinct was to nope outta there as fast as I could (something I’m quite good at in my dreams, but could never do irl cause I’m out of shape af) only for him to catch up to me a LOT faster than humanly possible if I’m being honest. Upon being caught, he did the whole turning me into Peppino thing again, saying I wouldn’t be able to be turned back until I faced him in the tower. (Which I was probably gonna have to do anyway to save the other people he cursed and get his ass outta that verse for good.) I think there was also this catch where if I took too long to complete the Tower, the Peppino TF curse would start affecting my mind as well, mentally turning me into him as well as physically, leaving nothing left of me (or at least that version of me) behind, but my brain might’ve just made that up after the fact for the sake of drama/angst.

The dream basically ended there so idk if I succeeded in conquering the tower and freeing everyone trapped in it, but considering PH has barely showed up in my dreams since then, I think I was able to make it.

So yeah, another dream recounted. Hope you enjoyed, might make more drawing stuff of this dream in the future if I feel like it :)

#jewel's dream journal #pseudo tower #neo shut the fuck up #me irl #self insert #pizza tower #pizzahead #peppino spaghetti #my art #body horror #slowly getting used to drawing the pt characters #they honestly look pretty good in my art style :)

[skitskatdacat63]

If I had a nickel for every time there was a romanlukas piss scene, I'd have two nickels. Which isn't a lot but it's weird that it happened twice

#i honestly still cant tell if my romanlukas dreams have been destroyed or not this ep #that scene btwn them from the trailer was not what i was expecting #but hey added piss- #much more angsty that i expected ig and less silly hatefucking? but thats okay :) #kinda love tho roman trying to wreck the deal but Lukas being like 'haha nope. thought you could get away from me ;)' #roman: *trying to tank the deal by being an asshole* #lukas: no :3 #i just hope thats not their last interaction 😭 pls give me more weird homoerotic power move scenes #just the proximity of their bodies in that piss scene aaahhhhhh *silently screaming* wtf is wrong with them i love it #roman try not to stand extremely close to other men challenge: failed #lukas is such a weirdo but i really can never hate an alexander skarsgard character so i kinda love him #still honestly cant tell if that blood scene with shiv was him telling the truth or not #hes such a weirdo that i honestly would not be that surprised if it was true #roman roy #lukas matsson #romanlukas #succession

[jaypgartifacts]

october is coming. which means, of course, that it is time for the horrors. tfw the dream self must confront the Nightmare Self

#body horror // #homestuck #YES i am invoking tarot symbolism and YES i have reasons for choosing the cards i did and YES i AM just making things up as i go. im normal #symbolism runthrough real quick. consider this an Artist's Statement of sorts. #The Tower: ambition built on a flawed premise. guy who always thinks he knows better than you in dire need of a wakeup call #strength: the journey of the self vis a vis finding the courage to act & tapping into latent potential that always existed #& simply needed to be accessed. note: dirk in this card is brain ghost dirk specifically. #(an illusion constructed by jake because he didn't believe in his own repressed abilities - drawn here as The Horrors.) #the devil: you are maybe not the CAUSE of all of your problems but DAMN you are making them worse for yourself. #this card is SO heavy on unhealthy coping mechanisms. symbolism here - very literally holding self down #sure it feels comforting in the moment but eventually you are going to drown. #the chariot: this one's not super clear visually but i do have a method to my madness #the chariot is the card of willpower; control; forward motion; resolution. #by the same token i think it is also a card about being really really stubborn - blinded by a goal. #holding onto the reins and refusing to let go even when holding them hurts you & others around you. #honestly i think some of the minor arcana fit better for a few of these cards but i wanted to stick w majors #for the sake of Icon Recognition i guess. #anyway [putting the alpha gang in the Narrative Wiggler to work through their problems] #they are going to the Dream Realm to meet their weirdest selves (and friends) in combat. unless...? #(it was never about fighting it was about healing. SYMBOLISM)

[anxiously-going]

I had a weird dream this morning in which Dean Winchester and I body swapped and it has been eating my brain all day and as the pre-period insomnia sets in I am contemplating making it everyone's problem.

#screaming into the void #honestly in retrosepct it was honestly just hilarious #because in the dream we were cursed oe whatever and dean full on thought he'd been shot #and i had to tell him no he was fine my body was just having period cramps #then once we get to safety i have to coach him through removing and replacing a tampon (which isnt even what i use??) #'why is it so big?' 'where does it go?' 'the whole thing????' 'are you aure this is gonna fit??' #and i just wish dream me had thought to tell him about menstrual disc #to his credit he was genuinely trying to learn and be brave about the whole thing like #'no its okay its okay i can do this....really the whole thing?? okay okay i can do this' #he was so ready to take care of my body while we were swapped and then just like ended up face down on the bed like 'you live like this??' #it was oddly endearing