#even just the afterword

[kedreeva]

Okay if you haven't yet, and you have Netflix/Paramount+, consider giving "School Spirits" a chance.

It looks like a silly little cheesy teenage ghosts show, I put it on for background noise, and then got totally engrossed in the mystery. It's VERY well written, very well filmed, the mystery was GREAT and the payoff at the end is also great.

One of the things majorly lacking in shows I've recently tried to watch is that they try to do a twist/reveal at the end that comes out of nowhere. They don't want you to guess what they're doing. This show doesn't do that. This show wants you to guess. They give you seven different mysteries and enough clues to guess (most of) what is going on, so that when you get the final puzzle piece to any given mystery, it feels GREAT.

The story premise is this: a teenager in hs wakes up as a ghost in the hs, and doesn't remember how she died, and with the help of the other ghosts, tries to solve the mystery of her own death.

Simple premise. BEAUTIFULLY executed. Not all of the questions that arise get answered, but the main one (what she doesn't remember) gets solved by the end of the season, leaving the "why/how and what comes next" to be carried to the next season. It does a cliffhanger RIGHT. But now I desperately want to see the second season (which I believe has been approved, so it's a matter of waiting).

So pretty please, if you're looking for something to do and a great, engaging lil mystery to watch, consider! School Spirits!!

#school spirits #there is so much in this show #Spike and I finished watching it today #her for the first time me for the second #and the second time through it was even better because I was picking up the right threads #the first time through there are SO MANY CLUES #but there are also SO MANY MYSTERIES that you aren't sure which clues belong to which mystery #and then the last half of the last ep hits #and dumps out all the final puzzle pieces to several mysteries #and we spent like an hour digging through thoughts afterword #pulling out themes and clues #and there are some potentially REALLY CLEVER things done #and actually they 100% followed through on the things they set forth and paid off so far #so I feel pretty confident some of the things we pieced together actually belong to the puzzle #and aren't just mistakes #or coincidences #and it's been so long since I got to see actually good writing STAY good writing through #I'm so stoked for this series

[defeateddetectives]

IN THIS ESSAY I WILL

[follow-up to this two-image post that's worth more than twenty thousand words and altered the course of my life]

#apparently the last time i read this arc straight through was FIVE YEARS AGO and at the time i was so awestruck over it's existence alone #(also: bratty clan head being locked in the cursed room with the cursed love of his cursed life!!!) #that the extent of the textual parallels didn't even register aside from maybe that iconic bench of sadness and general ~themes #but no it's? RIGHT? THERE? #'HE COULDN'T MAKE HER SHARE THE BURDEN HE BORE' #'I WON'T PRETEND TO UNDERSTAND WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BEAR THE BURDEN OF THE LEGACY YOU'VE HAD TO SHOULDER' #(the way i SAT UPRIGHT) #i cannot attest to the quality of these translations or comment on the original text #but would be so intrigued if someone could compare how similar/different the wording is for the panels in the middle row #because the choice of language the way it comes across in translation is just. #yeah. #i'm incoherent #(tumblr's suggested tag: i'm inconsolable #which yeah. THAT TOO!!!) #your honour i rest my case??? #natsume yuujinchou #horrible exorcists #specifically #horrible exorcist number one #OH AND - AFTERWORD: 'i think these days a person does not have to bear it alone'!!!!!!!! #and it coming from natori of all people #(i am not asking you to abandon your family or who you are and i'm here and i'm not leaving and i'll meet you where you're at) #and though this isn't the first time he's said it the YEARS it's taken him (taken them both) in getting here specifically #and the temptation and hope and promise in it!!! which lets one wonder if maybe just maybe they'll break the cycle or at least make a dent #(doubtful....but i can dream!) #pls send thoughts and prayers as i'm about to undertake homura arc properly for the first time (yes finally) and may not make it out alive #(one day i may or may not also become emotionally equipped to make the unhinged post about the two separate times he's asked and reacts to #have you ever considered quitting exorcism? #alas that day is not today...but maybe in another five years!!!!!) #dont forget we're here forever etc etc etc ETC :)))))

[merakiui]

mera i am so excited for TMDG, you’ve been dropping hints about it every now and then like girl you’re teasing us at this point (affectionate)

i can feel that it’s going to be a masterpiece, you are cookin so much for us like what did we do to deserve you ｡°(°.◜ᯅ◝°)°｡

and the recent one with azul…it made me so!!!! (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) will you write something happy or lighthearted for our poor tako now that he’s home? i can imagine him kneeling on the floor gripping your ankles right now, asking for orgiveness and a happy ending lmao

also take care and keep safe always!!

Forgive the occasional teases!! I can't help it!!!! 80 pages in and I am vibrating with excitement AAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!! o(≧∇≦o) it reads like Azul thought 4 with a romantic tone, so if you've ever wanted scary, yet also fluffy yandere eel you will hopefully enjoy it (I think and hope. ^^;;;;)!!! :D TMDG may just be my Jade magnum opus. I have had too much fun writing it and I think that will be obvious when you read it hehehe. Thank you for looking forward to it and saying it will be a masterpiece!!!! ♡( ◡‿◡ ) everyone who likes Jade (and Floyd) will be feasting because there are plenty of yummy scenes!!!!

^^;;; perhaps "sad" was too much of an understatement. It is a tragic fic for both Azul and the reader... If tako is at my feet begging for forgiveness, who I am to ignore him? ❀⸜(˶´ ˘ `˶)⸝❀ although I will probably write something fluffy for him! It looks like most are in favor of giving Azul his discord mod fic, so he may just get his happy ending after all!

Thank you for your kind words!!! <3 please also be sure to take care of yourself and stay safe!!!!!

#sweet messages #i want to write more with this au of azul... orz he's so terrifying #maybe i'll write a little afterword which has jade and floyd giving police interviews about (name) and azul's relationship #so that readers can learn more about what it looked like to outside sources peering in #there was a scrapped part to this fic where (name)'s best friend is deuce and he mourns not being able to help her get out of the situation #(because he is a police officer still in the process of completing his training so he feels even more guilty) #deuce you were spared the heartache ;;;;; #however i thought that just focusing on azul and (name) would be better because it makes the fic feel more isolating #when there aren't any other characters to introduce (aside from the brief mentions of jade and floyd) #many thoughts about clingy codependent azul <3

[kirby-the-gorb]

I just bought myself a manga about the artist going through severe illness and I found it comforting to read someone else's experience, so I thought maybe I would share a little about my experience with MCAS again. so here's all the pills I take!

cromolyn. 2 ampules mixed with water 4x/day (although I'm often out of bed for 12 hours or less and have trouble keeping track of time, so often it's 3x instead). mast cell stabilizer.

multivitamin. I only took this for a week so far and stopped to gather data. (my paranoia was getting bad, which often means I'm reacting to a med. this is a cheap one with many fillers.) meant to make up for difficulty accessing food and possible malabsorption.

fludrocortisone. 2 pills a day. for POTS.

atenolol. 1 per day. also for POTS.

montelukast. 1 per day. technically for asthma, but works by blocking one of the signals the mast cells send.

loratadine (aka claritin). 1 pill 2x/day, which we had to fight the insurance about after a while. antihistamine, meant to prevent anaphylaxis by blocking a different mast cell signal.

aspirin. 2 pills 2x/day. to reduce inflammation and control chronic pain.

whichever oral hormonal birth control my insurance will give me (it varies). 1 per day. menstruation makes my MCAS flare and I still have incomplete cessation even after an ablation, so I keep taking it even when not putting myself at risk of pregnancy.

dye-free diphenhydramine (aka benadryl). another antihistamine, taken when my MCAS flares to reduce or completely end the symptoms. (the pink dye in the regular formulation is actually a very common trigger.)

low-dose prednisone. steroid kept on hand for unavoidably high-demand occasions (like moving across the country) or unshakable prolonged flares (like, a week).

that's 8 pills in the morning, 3-4 at night, 8 ampules in the day, and 2 different emergency meds. plus I try to drink a gatorlyte every day (also good for POTS and certain mineral shortages) and try to avoid triggers (including heat, stress, and overexertion -n- )

3 and 4 were the first meds that ever made me feel any better, before we'd figured out it was MCAS. (likely with secondary POTS/EDS.) 6 and 7 are the first line treatment for MCAS, they're the first medications I actually took *for* it. they are often used in combination with famotidine (aka pepcid) but that made my paranoia super bad so I stopped taking that one.

this was my regimen established before I got covid last july, which made my MCAS much worse, which also made it impossible to get a new doc post-move since I can't physically get to an appt. so this is likely to change once I have medical care again. being sick is a lot of work!

#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #chronic illness #mcas #tmi #long post #ask to tag #(the manga was 'I'm a terminal cancer patient but I'm fine' btw) #(I don't have cancer as far as we know! and my illness wouldn't be qualified as terminal!) #(it's a chronic illness that's gotten pretty severe and has the potential to be fatal tho.) #(thebibliosphere has mcas too and she spent much of 2019 at death's door before she finally got knowledgeable care just in time.) #(at least I think it was 2019. I can't remember for sure.) #(anyway 'terminal' is a squishy and suspect category - even the mangaka says in the afterword she's stopped using it) #(cuz at time of publication she'd gone into remission! very exciting for her :> ) #(she did unfortunately pass away a couple months ago but. such is life.) #(it can still be a nice book ending even if it didn't last.) #(also yes. my christmas tree is still up in february. I've Been Very Ill.) #(I've gotten all the ornaments off (over the course of a week) and I just have to take off the colored lights and disassemble it.) #(I've been using it for ambient light in the living room because I was really photosensitive for a few months.) #(it's not as bad now but I still prefer diffuse light for sure.) #favorites

[fideidefenswhore]

teenage dream (2023), olivia rodrigo / the spanish princess (2020) / the private lives of the tudors, tracy borman (2016) / the six queens of henry viii (2016) / the vaux passional / the six wives of henry viii (2001) / the lovers who changed history (2014) / blood, sex & royalty (2022) / blood, sex & royalty (2022), gif @fabledenigma / the cross (2014) 

#yes i am using this song this intro and this bridge yes i am using it for him. #i just want to be hated.gif #web weaving #the afterword will probably prove the most controversial but oh well. #is it enough for you? gagged him a little. #it is so gutting bcus it's so tangible that she just. pities him. to her core. #it goes from anger to pity. why won't you give me what you claim i'm worth to why won't you give yourself what you claim you're worth? #i have like the entire meta for that scene saved bcus i knew it wouldn't save all my tags #tl; dr you won't be fulfilled by that; you just think you will. #and of course it hits its target because nothing is ever enough for him #his most formative memories begin with this sense of debt #where he's fallen behind this future that's been charted for him because it wasn't supposed to be his #and then he becomes king and just. falls behind and falls behind and falls behind #each loss compounded by grief and disappointment and the sense he's fallen even farther behind #the loss of his mother is spoken of re: his development a lot and i think it's important but it probably overshadows #how small the other gaps are #it's nine years between his brother dying and the loss of his first child that lived at all #and more than that it's his brother and mother dying literally eleven months apart #there is this sense of dynastic duty but it also has to have been so deeply personal #he wants to compensate for the loss of his family and yet his family continues to die and each loss reminds of the previous #and in this immediacy the women he marry inherit this debt #this emotional debt and debt of duty #henry has a lot of promise but the promise has a price if it's not fulfilled #fabledenigma #and it's to the disadvantage of all the women he becomes close to (and some of the men-- wolsey; cromwell) that henry's been staring #at this hourglass of sand since he was ten years old but he also doesn't know any other way #there is a deep and ineffable tragedy about this man #inescapable from what julia fox said recently; anne was the love of his life. #which means to me the question of whether or not he remembered anne in the aftermath answers itself. #there's not only always the ghost of anne herself but the ghost of the future they had planned together

[seasicksilver]

it’s my birthday, so here’s a trigun oc

#trigun #trigun fanart #trisona #trigun oc #whizzer (trisona) #digital art #artists on tumblr #sketch #doodle #my art #was going to be a serious trisona but then i realized how unserious the name 'whizzer' is #and just made a crack oc #i think its funny to make my semi self insert into a traditional catholic role #when im not catholic #it makes sense in context with my life #was forced to go to a catholic school for like a year #and no one told me wtf do to in church #so i just went up and did communion with everyone #the nuns asked me afterwords if i was even baptized catholic #and they were horrified when i said no #LMFAO #told me to never participate in church again #like thank fuck

[spacelesscowboy]

sorry but i still think it is so so crazy and insane to look at a child—ANY child, any teenager, ANYONE, but especially CHILDREN—and hit them. as a punishment or warning or whatever. that is so crazy to me. how could you ever look at a child and bring yourself to hurt them in any way shape or form??????????? that’s insane to me.

#emyrs.txt #tw childhood abuse #????? idk if this warrants that. but if i should more tags lemme know !! #YES. EVEN THE ANNOYING ONES. #spent. a great deal of time w my cousins’ friend the other day and she’s. technically 11 so. not a child in the technical sense. but anyone #under 17 to me is so so so young. (YES. i’m only 19. this isn’t bc i’m incredibly old and wise or whatever. it’s bc i’m old enough 2 see how #young i was then. if that makes sense. anyways). #and she was. SO INCREDIBLY annoying. and i have SO little patience and even less tact into how to get her to Stop. so i just smiled and #nodded and pretended that i wasn’t losing all of my patience. bc she is 11. and i remember being 11 & annoying. & being a kid means being #annoying anyways so whatever. #anyways. i hate thinking about my cousins and the kids in my family it makes me sick to stomach. #not bc their parents r abusive or whatever i just don’t think they’re getting the care and attention they need & i don’t want them to grow #up w as weird and fucked up feelings as me and my older cousins have. #also this whole thing is bc i was reading atla fanfiction and got sad about zuko. NWWNNDNDFN #literally i just can’t comprehend the idea of ever physically hurting a child. how do u live with urself afterwords. #i’m tired. this made me very sad. ok bye.

[imthatwannabeauthor]

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#i miss it #i miss it so bad #i know i know 'i want it back= i drag its dead weight forward' #but i want it back #i wanna be able to go to school tomorrow and i wanna walk into the highschool band hall #and i wanna have zane tell me that i look tired because he always seems to just know #and i can just say 'yeah my parents were loud last night; #and he knows #he just knows #and after school hed come along to take tim home #and afterword when i dont wanna go home wed just go hang out and talk #and i wanna go back #i wanna go back so bad #i miss having people that saw me in persn and they cared #no one in college knows me i dont know anyone #and i just #i just miss so badly these people that understood #and i could go in #and i couldnt lie becaus they knew me and they could tell #and even if i didnt wanna sa i could just allude and they understood #and i then i didnt have to go home #i didnt have to #i could just sit in the car outside their house well we talked about anything and everything because i didnt wanna go back home

[apersonwholikeslotus]

..

#not to rant but we're still months away from any major holiday and i'm already pissed at my grandma #bc this year she's crying over how we're not going to be with them for thanksgiving #even though last year it was like pulling teeth to get everyone together but this year they can all magically go on an out of state trip #without us #to the place that we used to go every single year as a family vacation #it's just shitty #not to mention i know she hates us and this is all just for show #she's just plain mean to me every single time i see her #like i've cried afterwords the past four times i've talked to her #she's so mean to my little brother for just fucking being himself #she wants him to be 'normal' so badly like???? he is??? fuck off?? #then she told my 12 YEAR OLD SISTER she's too loud mouthed and will never get a husband if she stays that way #and how dare we all get upset at her over those things #she legitimately hates us bc she wants us to be one way and we won't be the way she wants #im just #hhhhhhhhh

[bigfishthemusical]

..

#my mom never let me play with Barbie’s as a child and she stands by that decision to this day. once my cousin got me a Barbie for my #birthday and my mother didn’t even donate it she threw it in the garbage. and it’s all like. #I don’t even know. excluding how everything about how I was raised affects me. it’s just so. #ok well the point is I’m gonna watch that movie with my friends cause I’m an adult now amd I can do whatever. and I’m gonna tell her #afterwords that I watched it and yeah I don’t think anything will come of it but this is just one of those things that I always think about #um yeah I think the movie will be awesome but the way that I keep thinking about Barbie’s recently Is tormenting me. #anyways goodnight also 😴

[xolborsaysstuff]

Welp

I can't feel happy.

#Maybe sometjmes. But not without feeling sad afterwords. Sadness is just there even if I see something that distracts me and makes me laugh #It'll be there in the back of my mind and resurface when the laughter fades

[black-arms-hivemind]

Sorry for the 1am posting, I had a sureal ass dream and I'm basically recovering

#it wasn't even like. a nightmare i guess? #i didn't wake up scared i joke woke up confused #anyway hate that i had to look up a youtuber i haven't watched in actual years just to verify that the very specific #and very unrealistic #didn't actually happen to him #thanks brain #i really hope youtube doesn't think I'm interested in watching the guy again #i deleted that part of my search history afterwords but uh #yeah #hive rose red

[filmcel]

all I’m gonna say is tracing reference photos is good practice

#what i did for both my monster high drawings was so very shapey sketches over the reference and then draw over that. to get the general pose #for the 2nd drawing I had to tweak it more afterwords since Ik I did not want a more ‘realistic’ style . so I kinda just squashed it #also there is a clear difference between grabbing the general shapes from references. versus tracing every little detail. versus tracing- #other peoples art. tracing every little detail isn’t even that awful. but I think it looks obvious in ur drawing if u do that and it just- #never looks that good. so I wouldn’t recommend that but do whatever u like ig #captain’s log #idk why. I have so much to say about tracing. dw about it

[yeoroot]

I bought a lot of doujinshi a few weeks ago and they finally arrived…but I underestimated how many pages there would be ;;

#yeo-uch #it’s taking me a lot longer to get though any of them cause I keep squealing and rambling about every single detail- #they hurt my wallet but they heal my soul #when I go through them they really solidify the fact that behind each piece of work there’s always some passionate individual out there #same brainrot #same struggles HFNAKNFSKDN #idk I just really find every single work so charming #cause in this case a good majority of them are of the same pairing but they’re so different in their own right #I love the afterwords so much #some of them are short and then there was one where it covered at least half of the page #and it was just them rambling #even through Google translate I could feel their excitement that I just found it so endearing #ahcnakcnskdn there’s so much I could say about them but I’m rambling too much in tags

[flamestar126]

Banging my head against the desk

#none of my art is good #nothing is turning out like i wanted #i cant stand my own art sometimes #i get happy when i start doing then afterwords it feels like its just trash lol #its not pretty to look at or doesn't catch my eye even tho I make it? #i just. want crumble it as much as i can into a digital ball and throw it. eh. #im frustrated and tired #flame vents

[globodamorte]

I think it's fun to see how some ppl will view chasing tails as being sympathetic towards seongbin but if I'm being quite honest I don't see it. if that was even bashis intention it just ended up being so shallow, like it's has the level of depth and care of a person watching someone fall on the street and get hurt, commenting to someone "oh my gosh look at that how awful :(" and not doing absolutely anything to help. like "look at that isn't that sad an awful and tragic?" but not truly exploring the roots and the effects of it and what can be done. it's deterministic and essentialist, teasing "what if" scenarios that just sound insincere given everything else the story has told so far.

"look at that isn't that sad? :("

"yeah well is there anything we can do about it"

"uhhh... idk that's so sad though..??" (don't dive into it just agree and say it's sad and move on)

I don't mean that chasing tails needs to play the role of an entertaining mental health brochure. but to claim to have researched a topic you say you were already interested in and ignoring the many facts about the reality of mentally ill people just comes off as disingenuous. or ignorant, purposefully so or not.

it's just bad. the way it shits on mentally ill people for the whole series to just then throw a "awhh isn't it sad that it ended like that? could it have been different?", when in the afterword itself they kinda confim it wouldn't have been different , after all, seongbin is mentally ill what else could've happened??? I can't even say it's performative bc it feels like it's not even trying to hide the pure ableism within itself. or maybe bashi doesn't even realize just how ableist they're being. I really truly can't tell.

#bashi mentioned in the afterword of how they like the subject and watch documentaries and lectures on things like this. #but it seems to me like they just dont fully grasp it #even though they like it maybe theres like a barrier of their own prejudice and ableism that impedes them of like. fully grasping it #????? #chasing tails #it just had such a great setting and for what #to subvert the expectations of teh mentally ill character being a psychotic killer wouldve been just so much better #and just more. original ? #playing with the readers and making them realize their own biases and calling them out from within the story #fuck #that wouldve been so good #anyway. seongbin baby you deserved so much better im so sorry #im NOT saying chasing tails mission should've been one of awareness im saying objectively it wouldve been a better story #also if bashi researched so much they shouldve known about the ratios of mentally ill ppl commiting vs being victims of violence so... #augh whatever im done i hate this webtoon