#everyone and their grandma is posting this and i will too

[radioactive-cloud]

ngl kinda feeling like bojan rn because if i saw this on a daily basis i'd also probably were homophobic

source: x

#the position of their bodies IS PROVOCATIVE AS FUCK #thank fucking god there's at least nace's bass between them because istg #and don't even get me STARTED on the choking thing and how damn pleased nace looks doing that #they are the most awful people to exist #i hate them #i bet they are reading the comments and giggling like stupid fuckers they are #nace jordan #jan peteh #jance #janace #joker out #everyone and their grandma is posting this and i will too

[mishapen-dear]

motherfucker a dono just sent "bad do you want forever to get jealous and tear foolish apart" and bad just GIGGLED

AND NOW HES ADMITTING TO IT. SIR.

#qsmp #LMAOOO #motherfucker is going to be silly silly goofy until he's called out on it #i love it #'he gave up on romance just generally right not everyone' #RICHARLYSON IS ASKING HIS GRANDMA FOR HELP #GO FOOLISH GO #this whole post is now in the tags it just keeps escalating #motherfucker ' i just didnt want to hurt forevers feelings' so he gave up the plan #i see why people are Like That about bad he's so so silly #'tio bad forever wouldn't kill anyone out of jealousy' <- richarlyson #'oh man thats too bad i would do it' #<- bad #paraphrased because im going insane #okay im presisng post what the hell is up with him im obsessed

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[iijadraws]

another campaign, another blorbo from our dnds!

meet my Eala (and Ruoja the raven) from our Llehia dnd which @artharakka is dming for me and @artist-rat now :3

#dnd #d&d campaign: llehia #oc eala #my beloved #(she/they/it/whatever xdd doesn't really care and mostly speaks in a language that doesn't have gendered pronouns anyway) #(where's the post about some goblins being 'pretty sure gender is a sort of bug they ate for breakfast') #(gotta be one of my favourite genders tbh (and also it fits eala too)) #anyway they're a spectrum mage which means she knows a lot about various little spells but very little about bigger ones #i could ramble so much more about them but i'll save that for later #i have other pics of her to post too >:) #ANYWAY super excited to continue and see if the world will burn :3 #eala just came along to find food & in hopes of getting adopted by vista's grandma but now everyone is in grave danger

[mindmxtters]

been taking a trip down memory lane on the blog lately and I've just realized that the last time I made a promo for lexi was in... 2015...

8 years ago...

#ooc. #gonna try to whip something up in the not-too-distant-future #and get a proper pinned post set up since that sure has been a blog feature for uh #th-three years... #me @ me: damn bitch you LIVE like this??? #I'm just a decrepit old grandma who remembers when everyone's blog links were all on their custom themes #I used to be with 'it' but then they changed what 'it' was!!!

[here-there-were-dragons]

every time i think the "staff can do no wrong and any form of complaining or expressing literally anything other than "yaaay love it <3" with no further comments is bashing and literally evil we should never say anything that could even potentially be interpreted as mildly critical ever because ~some artist who worked hard on this is probably reading the forums and might feel bad if we ever express anything but praise~ also we must be constantly positive at all times unless we're passive-aggressively shaming someone for having an extremely polite and apologetically worded criticism and if you ask the staff for literally anything you had better be prepared to preface it with 3 paragraphs of apologizing for breathing air" attitude is bad on tumblr, i take one look at the forums, and holy fucking hell is it SO much worse on site

#i go for years at a time without ever bothering to look at fr forums #and then every time i do i remember why i stopped #it feels like a goddamned cult on there and every time i dip my toes i come out feeling slimy and sick #as if i just spent an hour being aggressively gaslit by my extremely manipulative grandmother #what the fuck is wrong with everyone #i'm glad i decided to keep this creepy fucking fandom at arm's length and mostly just lurk years ago #that place is not a healthy environment for anyone to be in #flight rising #legitimately the single worst fandom i've ever had the misfortune of being adjacent to #and in such a creepy and insidious way too #they'll call you an entitled whiny baby to your face and then convince you it's your fault and you're a horrible person for feeling offende #it feels like being neck deep in the absolute worst kind of preformative sj spaces #you know the ones where everyone interacts primarily via callout posts and there's discourse over if crossdressing is cultural appropriatio #that kind of toxic sj space type energy #but somehow combined with like this weird feeling of being in a mormon church in a deep south town #where all the “nice grandmas” will try to put poison in your food if they find out you're gay or voted blue even one time #and it's somehow gotten SO much worse since the last time i looked on there #they've got people literally apologizing for existing what the fuck how is this normal to any of you people #this is so far beyond toxic positivity it's like. crossbred with passive-aggression and shaming and metastatized into something new entirel #it's terrifying. i hope flight rising never shuts down just so that whatever the fuck this is can stay semi-contained. #pro tip: the more a fandom is universally convinced it's Wonderful and Welcoming the faster you should run the other way #actually good fandoms don't have to constantly reassure themselves and everyone that they're great and perfect and toxicity-free #nor do they react with immediate borderline violence to the slightest suggestion there might be anything wrong with the fandom culture #anything wrong other than “people like you who think there's something wrong with our perfect community” anyway #on that note also any fandom that insistently calls itself a “community” just. yeah. no. #get out while you still can. #fandoms work on corporate logic if they're trying to convince you they're your family or friend that's not just a red flag #that's a whole damn red fabric store

[da-proti-toku-grem]

feeling like a total asshole today 👍

#an aunt's mom passed away yesterday night #i didn't really know her that much just spoke to her a few times for the typical merry christmas & happy new year you know #so when my mom told me i felt bad for my aunt bc i knew they were really close but i don't feel SAD #but my parents seemed to be like so shocked and sad and my little brother even started crying #and i felt absolutely nothing #idek what my mom saw in my face but she went like 'don't you feel anything?' and like wtf am i supposed to feel #like. i'm sorry for my aunt and everything but i just????? #that already made me feel like an absolute asshole but now we have to go there (like 2hours away by car) #and because i am an adult now i *have* to go to the funeral home (?) today and to the funeral tomorrow #and i REALLY don't want to and thought it's making me so fucking anxious bc i haven't been there since my grandma passed away 2 years ago #i really don't want that feeling that i felt back then to come back #not right now #not when i've been starting to feel a bit better this past week #but i'm already failing at that because they started to come back the moment i was told i have to go #and i feel like a fucking asshole because my aunt's mom literally passed away and she (and her whole family) must be heartbroken right now #and all i can think about is that i'm anxious #i'm anxious to go back there. i'm anxious just thinking that i'll have to express my condolences to people that i don't even know #i'm anxious because i'll have to TALK to people and at least try to look a bit SAD but i can't just fake it #bc if i don't look sad my brain tells me that i'm an asshole that doesn't have feelings like apparently everyone around me has #but if i fake it my brain tells me that i'm an asshole bc why tf do i have to fake my fucking personality #why can't i just express my fucking feelings like normal people do and the only thing that i know how to do is fucking complain #like. i know i rant a lot here but it's literally the only place where i talk about my feelings #i NEVER talk about my feelings with anyone because idk HOW to do it #i have like a million things in my mind that i want to tell my mom or my therapy for example but when i finally convince myself to do it #i just CAN'T. the thoughts won't leave my mouth because i don't know how to phrase them properly #so nothing ever leaves my mind unless i make a post here bc apparently writing my thoughts in english (my 2nd language) #is easier than talking in spanish #and at least if i write them here they don't just stay bottled up in my mind #but i'm too tired of myself and my stupid brain that tells me that i do everything wrong :/ #i'm gonna shut up now bc i once again reached the tag limit

[heisttheblackflag]

I’m still so sad that for the bts videos of AH Live 2022 they cut out my favorite part of the SF VIP Q&A, which was when in response to my question “what would you make if you had unlimited resources” Joe said he would start a podcast about rocks, and the entire rest of the q&a everyone else bullied the shit out of him for it

#i wanna make art of it so bad he was so cute describing it & everyone else took the piss #top 10 moments of my life #ah live #officialah #achievement hunter #Joe Lee #loejeez #rtah #my other personal highlight from that show was that I’m p sure Trevor recognised me in the audience bc I posted a selfie to twitter. WILD #and then of course main show highlights were Jeremy fucking killing it on imposter #and Alfredo’s grandma!!!!!!!!!!!! #oh oops need my organization tag here too #Joe #original

[walkingintheamm]

....

#sorry for the rant #i'm feeling so bad about how I spoke to my mom earlier today #but it's like she doesn't understand that she has no business #all telling the situation me or my sister are in #in terms of work and school #to random people on the street #like she was able to go the pharmacy #and talk about how my major is a little hard to find work on #and how my sister doesn't want to get a masters degree and just wants to be done with college #and it's like everyone is ashamed of the fact I've been looking for a job in my field for 3 months #bc yesterday my grandma came here asking what I was planning to answer if I got asked about it at todays lunch?? #and it's so frustrating #and I can't even be honest about how I feel bc I always end up crying #and to my mom and grandma that's just me being too sensitive and I have no reason to feel how I feel #me posts

[potter-inthe-tardis]

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#ive been able to dodge covid this whole time but now i finally got it 🤧🤧🤧 #and im miserable #and just frustrated because ive been trying so hard to avoid it #also my whole family has it too #so the whole house is a biohazard of sick people #and my grandma got it too and shes in the hospital so thats worrysome #but apparently shes doing okay #she didnt even go in for covid but they found that she got it and it was for the best she stay there for a while #and now everyone who takes care of her also has it #i think my uncle spread it to all of us he was recently traveling and he sees my grandma everyday #and just spits when he talks so i think it came from him but apparently the asshole isnt showing symptoms #which of couse the worst person i know isnt even a little miserable from covid #my post #i just had to rant somewhere about this

[savefrog]

how to explain to people that while we DO need to desperately dismantle AI’s capitalism-driven rise to prominence in many professional areas especially art because of how it will be used to replace artists in exchange for cheap content and on the back of uncredited artists that came before, and how things can be said about supporting the ai platforms that enable this

that simultaneously using Dall-E mini or Bing or whatever once to make a cat at some nebulous point is not like. It is not like. He did not just shoot an artist point blank out in an alleyway 😭

#this was on a post about Hank Green LOL #LIKE WHO THE FUCK KNOWS HIM AS 'the guy who generated a cat picture once' #like thats a COMPLETELY new one to me!!! #but regardless of who #this is like 'bots are a huge problem online...so everyone who made a silly 'a spongebob quote a day' bot must be shamed' #like the former is true...but the latter is not like. a moral offense bc its disconnected from the issue with bots #and if we want to go into the ethics of this #like i have no idea what example theyre even talking about so i have no idea if its even a locally hosted or self-trained ai #in which case training data could be controlled and it wouldn't have an impact on the power consumption issue w common platforms #something could be said about promoting ai art on a platform but. idk when this happened. was it to demonstrate something. etc. #are we talking 'look how tech has progressed lets demonstrate' or 'haha funny cat' or 'ARTISTS ARE OBSOLETE DONT PAY FOR COMMS' shit #the conversation around ai art is complex and has not always looked the same like back when dall-e mini first came out #like EVERYONE was dicking around and making like. JRPG Seinfeld #including people who now have anti ai art icons #and thats because it wasn't a clear threat yet. the conversation was totally different then #if we're writing callouts for everyone who has ever generated an ai picture of a cat we're gonna be here for a while #and we're gonna have to cancel a few people's grandmas too probably #wayneradiotv is on the guillotine for using an ai image generator to Increase Gender #like...idk it's just pointless and is not the way to actually stop issues around AI #but also just impressed someone on tumblr only knows him as 'the guy who ai generated a cat once'' #dullblogging

[transjohnnycash]

Ah. The grieving

#11 years today since my grandma passed away and boy #it really still immobilizes me sometimes #you know ive forgotten what her voice sounds like but i remember the exact fond look on her face she'd have when i was misbehaving #or when she'd have to chase me around the house cuz i wouldnt let her brush my hair #or the milk toast and twist up when i was sick #man. #i miss her just as much as the day we lost her and thats never going to change but. my grandpa is back with her now #and they hold such a special place in my heart that im gonna hold dearly forever #the grief is never ending but so is the love. so is the love #kind of a personal post for 11am on a Saturday but i wanna make it. so #its just another common case of 'if love could have saved you you would have lived forever' #she would have lived to be a hundred billion years old she was so adored and loved by everyone #my grandpa too

[shayberri789]

Thinking about the fact that one of my mom's close friends who used to babysit us was a lesbian and legitimately married and I still didn't know what gay was until I was 14

#i remember the exact day my mom explained what gay was too me #reminds me of another post i saw that was like ops grandmas were lesbians and op didnt know what gay was or what was goiny on with their #relationship until op was older and this is why queer media is important #yeah. my fourteenth year was a wild year of learning for me #shout out to everyone in our circle being so chill about Leila and her wife that it never occurred to me it may be odd #the fact i didnt clock that they werent just best friends may also be a result of the aroaceness #bc I refused to believe my mom's other friend was dating his gf i thought they were just friends #shay posts

[marblerose-rue]

this isn't art block but WHAT is it called when ur consistently not satisfied w what youve drawn . /LH

#not art #meandering #i am my own biggest and worst critic. one of the things i try to do when it gets like this is to just set it aside and try again l8r #< thats advice my grandma gave me a few years ago :] it works well for me #i think its bc ive just done so many big pieces in such a short amount of time on top of doing work for my classes . #theres so much i would like to do this month . id like to open commissions over fall break + id also like to get bases going and a few #other silly personal things posted on top of roses skyclan things . hrm #idk how much i can do tomorrow i have a drs appointment tomorrow and im very nervous for how that will go </3 #not gonna get too in depth bc the process involves bloodwork + things related and i know its a sensitive topic bc its a sensitive topic for #me BAHBLAKUBDFGHJDBFGK u think if ive been doing this for almost 2 years id be good at it . wrong #ANYWAY hope everyone is doing well!! <3 #OH YEAH i also have a busy-ish weekend and an exam monday. sweats

[donewiththisshitplsstop]

The way you were so outraged when someone called Hannah a snake only to say 'okay but let's not bring Kelly and Max into it' when Nelson called Lewis the 'N' word. I see your selective outrage.

P.s. Susie needed you to have this same outrage when Sergio said women belonged in the kitchen. Your fellow female F1 fans needed this outrage when Christian was saying they only watched F1 for the good looking drivers instead of it all being chalked down to 'peak shithousery'

#f1 #yh be outraged by the fact that hannah got hate for literally doing her job #got called a snake for what? being a strategist yk wht shes employed to do #but also when lewis gets called the n word maybe talk about how harmful it is to the guy who got called a slur #as opposed to the guy who said 'nah i kno nelson he aint racist' AFTER nelson said an offensive slur that most brazilians/black people #agree was said in an offensive way #as opposed to the girl who liked her uncles post that said its okay to say the n word because everyone says it and his grandma did too #like yh misogyny is bad but so is the blatant racism that exists within the f1 community

[punkindness]

at the end of october 2019, i listened to a podcast called “the message”. it was kinda creepy but overall didn’t freak me out too much…until covid really started to spread, the deaths started piling up, and quarantine was imposed.

i don’t want to spoil it for everyone, but it involved a mysterious contagious illness that shut down the respiratory systems of everyone it affected and had no cure.

which is a super funny coincidence looking back on it! but at the time, seeing as i already wasn’t the most stable person and prone to paranoia- it fucked me UP mentally oh my god. i was a nervous wreck for months. the only thing keeping me from spiraling down into madness was animal crossing: new horizons.

#you may ask ‘kel that happened 2 years ago why are you suddenly talking about it now’ #and my answer is: for the first time a member of my household has tested positive for covid #and all of those memories came rushing back to the forefront of my mind #i miss my dog friend sentry. and my grandma. i miss thinking that all of this would end. #i miss having hope that i’d be able to function normally for extended periods of time someday #i miss my sisters wanting to hang out with me #i miss there being just one big problem the world was focused on facing #and feeling united with everyone else in it. same problems. same worry. same loneliness #also before you ask #idk how the hell we’ve been able to dodge it for so long #[yes i do. we’re a family of autistic introverts who never stopped social distancing and masking because it’s easier for us] #this is too long. too many tags #but goddammit my head is fuzzy as hell rn and i already put too much effort into making the main text make sense #excess tags be upon ye. get rekt #my post #covid mention #the message podcast #the message podcast spoilers