#evil and well-liked are not opposites

[quietwingsinthesky]

thinking about how dean’s character gets simplified in fandom, or more specifically, the very black and white lens that gets applied to him. because integral to dean, from my point of view, is that he is both a victim of abuse and a perpetrator of it. that these two things do not cancel each other out or outweigh each other to the point that only one matters. he’s both, you cannot separate him from the fact that he’s both.

but very often, people do. dean is either a victim. or he’s an abuser. it’s like it’s hard for people to hold both those facts in their heads at once. dean went through incredible amount of trauma as a child and an adult, is routinely faced with violence, has resorted to alcohol abuse to cope with it. he’s also a violent person, someone who retreats into tactics of emotional abuse and control when he feels threatened, who hurts the people around him constantly and the people who are closest to him (ie Sam, Cas, later Jack) get the brunt of that abuse. these are just facts. they’re things that happened on the screen and cannot be denied.

and it’s. idk it’s weird to me (not unexpected, because he’s hardly the only character to ever get this treatment) that dean of all people is the one portrayed in such an either/or way when one of the defining moments of the show for him is that during his stint in Hell, he was tortured and then became a torturer to escape that, to feel like he had some control again, and he relished in it. it’s baked into who he is.

#dean as a victim of abuse who goes on to continue those behaviors is still important to me surprise surprise #i didnt want to put this in the main post but also. from observation. when people start projecting onto him This Gets Worse #because. you know. as noted before: big fandom - lots of queer & neurodivergent people here. #tend to be targetted by abuse. statistically. #and mix that with a character you can project heavily upon. one you can project queer/neurodivergent hcs on even. #then like! understandably stressful to reckon with him being canonically kind of shitty sometimes! no one wants to consider their own #potential for shittiness - not even through a character they just heavily relate to! #(note: opposite happens as well. people project onto sam -> see dean hurt sam -> block out the idea that dean could be just as much victim #as he is abuser. its just. easier like that.) #anyway. none of this is like. a crime. just an observation. really we get all our biases from the society we live in — a society obsessed #with perfect victims and evil unredeemable abusers. #all that stuff leaks into fandom takes whether we want it to or not #dean winchester #spn

[spop-romanticizes-abuse]

not spop-related but i can't post this on my main blog so.

i do find it funny how most of the fan depictions of belos were far more interesting and detailed than s3 belos. i've seen fanart and fanfics of him where he's a complex villain struggling with religious guilt and then the canon is just like.. lmao yeah he's pure evil. kill him.

#i feel like belos is the opposite of catra #a potentially sympathetic villain who is reduced to Evil Man Who Deserves Death™ #don't get me wrong i'm not saying he should have been forgiven or anything #he didn't deserve forgiveness #and he didnt really need a redemption arc #but did they have to throw away all of his complexity just to appease the anti steven universe community? #that's what it felt like #fun fact: you can write a sympathetic/complex villain and not redeem them #it's perfectly doable #but oh well #toh critical #toh salt #toh criticism #anti toh #toh discourse #belos #emperor belos #philip wittebane #bad writing #i was so excited for his character at first #especially around hollow mind era because the layers were peeling back #and we were seeing a really interesting and intimidating villain in the making #sigh #my disappointment is immeasurable and my day is ruined

[anna-scribbles]

h-how do you ever finish any of your work? genuine question because you seem to be productive despite your agreste syndrome and I need to learn your ways. but also how do you ever finish any of your work

unclear. last night i stayed up and finished a report worth 25% of my grade at about 5am, arrived on time for my 9am lecture, and spent about half of it zoned out while thinking about seventeen year old emilie agreste. and i was one of the most active participants in the class discussion

#in some ways it IS the move to go to grad school right out of undergrad #because your body can still sort of operate like a college kid #i’m on about 3ish hours of sleep rn and this morning it felt SO over but now i’ve eaten something and we’re so back #i also don’t really do caffeine. except sometimes i’ll go get one of those panera death lemonades #i might be able to snag a short nap before work #but anyway about seventeen year old emilie. i was thinking abt how she was in that movie solitude and adrien said she was seventeen #WAIT. NO. HE SAID SHE WAS SEVENTEEN IN THAT PHOTO ON HIS DESKTOP NOT IN THE MOVIE #well. okay whatever i’m gonna tell you what i was thinking about anyway #OKAY i’m back i just checked the wikipedia page and then i watched the end of gorizilla. to make sure i’m not lying. because i’m normal. #anyway i was thinking about the solitude film and how it’s super rare and old and obscure and whatever. and how apparently #emilie wrote it herself and andre produced it #and i’m thinking about how gabe was discovered by audrey and that’s how he got his start in the fashion industry #so now i’m like?? did gabe and emilie first meet on the set of solitude? because gabe was designing costumes or whatever? #and that’s how audrey found him? have people already thought about this?? #also i just checked and it doesn’t say emilie’s last name in the credits and also it’s ‘graham films’ with the twin rings logo m #so i’m assuming she’s still emilie graham de vanily at that point #anyway it comes back to seventeen year old emilie because i started imagining seventeen year old runaway emilie having her new life in pari #after escaping her british nobility life #and the first thing she does is write and star in an original movie. of course. #and she meets this repressed bisexual punk upstart costume designer who is so the opposite of everyone she’s ever known #and he’s immediately so unhealthily obsessed with her. which she appreciates. #and then they proceed to have the most toxic doomed evil relationship of all time #also she gets cheated because once gabe gets money he represses himself SO hard that he is now exactly like all the people emilie grew up w #but at least he’s still obsessed with her #this is what i was thinking about during class today. i don’t know how i get anything done either. #ml #anna rambles #asks

[skitskatdacat63]

Prince Jenson of Somerset

+ process & lore

Yayyyyy omg finally have drawn portraits of the four main characters!!!! I'll show the process of Jenson's first and then them all four together. Though it's a shame the Seb/Fernando ones are older, I think it's hopefully obvious how much I've improved since November?

Look at him in all his handsome, princely glory 🥹 It's funny, I'm always happy with the second sketch and initial lineart, and then I start coloring it and I absolutely hate it, and it takes a significant amount of time into the painting for me to like it again. And then I reach a certain point and I'm in love with it again. Ugh though I gotta say, I love drawing the curls, it's just so 18th century, but at the same point, man I always will love my original lineart for the hair the best ah. Also yes I absolutely had to give him a big ass hat with feathers, he really is that kinda guy to me. I originally drew a bicorne and then realized that those don't really exist until basically almost a century later oops, so tricorne it is!!

Okay now omg look at them all together 🥹

Haha wow I have improved a lot! Just like the Seb/Fernando ones, Mark and Jense's were meant to be put together. I think there's a lot of inherent characterization in their poses that highlight the difference between them. Mark is looking up, very wistful, looking up to greater people, greater things. Jenson's head is tilted down, almost looking at the viewer, he is very satisfied with his role and revels in it, he's here to slay!

Okay, yes, lore, characterization, sorry that it is so far down on the post!!

Jense would probably be the fan favorite if this AU was an actual book or show or something. He's the guy you randomly find while browsing Wikipedia and you're like, woah this guy is so cool??? Unlike Sebmarknando, he doesn't really have the same level of angst, he's kinda just chilling. He's a bit harder to write a lore post about, because he's basically that character who is always magically around the corner, ready to witness some crazy thing and just breeze past it.

He is less linked to Seb than people like Mark and Fernando, because he's basically just his personal minister of transportation(read: horse fucker), so he avoids a lot of the relationship complications and drama, but that isn't to say he's completely uninvolved. He really likes Seb, and loves to hang around with him and serve him, but he's not as beholden to him. He's who everyone goes to air their grievances or to get away from the others, and he's very happy with this role. He's generally willing to play any side in an argument, but does tend to have a pretty big soft spot for Seb overall(Seb also gives him cuteness aggression, and he wants to bite him. Especially when Seb puffs himself up and acts super bratty when he gets offended at not being seen as a proper ruler.)

He's royalty from other kingdom, but pledged his loyalty to Seb's kingdom when he was quite young and has served him(his father first) ever since. He started off somewhat low in the military, rose to a pretty high rank, was a renowed war hero, and then ended up retiring pretty early to tend to Seb's horses. That's an oversimplification, but yeah. He liked the military life, was very good at it, but decided he had done enough, and wanted to be involved in more direct service, albeit more laid back. As I mentioned in Mark's post, Mark *really* doesn't understand his choice to do this, because if Mark had been in Jense's position, he can't ever imagine being able to let all that go and living the quiet life.

He is the palace whore, everyone has been with him honestly. It'll be like, some man walks into his bedroom, only to see Jenson in bed with his wife, but instead of being angry, he's like "wow you couldn't even wait for me??" He's just very carefree, and happy to just slut around and tend to Seb's horses.

I think he definitely still advises Seb, and would go to battle if truly need be, but generally seems to be living in a different world than the weird psychosexual homoerotic political drama that the others seem to be living in. But as I said, it's not like he doesn't contribute to it! He loves to goad Fernando, and constantly plays devil's advocate in "debates" between Fernando and Seb. He's also obviously the one that keep "accidentally" locking them in rooms and forgetting where the key is.

Sorry if this isn't very explanatory, I hope it gives a general idea to the type of character he is???? As always, let me know if you have any questions! I kinda struggled on what to write here because I'm finishing this at almost 8 am 😭 so I'm not sure if it's great or not. But basically you need to know: horse fucker who is generally breezy and carefree but also can be a bit of a menace to society every once in a while.

#YAYAAAAAAA PRETTY HAPPY WITH THIS ONE!!!! #lmfao tho not 100% sure about the lore notes because i wrote this at like 8 am #hope its understandable 😭 and that you love jense as much I do #hes probably the funniest character in the AU #and like if it wasn't centered on seb/nando he would be the favorite #hes just often there as my kinda reaction character #tho both he and Mark are reaction characters but on opposite sides of the scale and they play off each other #jenson walks into a room where sebnando are psychosexually glaring at each other from across the room #and hes like hmmm how can i make this worse #and mark is the type to walk into the room. see whats going on. and briskly walk away #so jense absolutely loves to tease him w this kinda thing and just make any situation 100x worse(aka funnier) #well funnier for him probably not the other people involved #but its okay bcs they love him. hes jense!!! who wouldn't love him!! hes our favorite guy!! our jense!!! #I just love to imagine he gets all the sides of the gossip and is like hmm yes yes interesting #but doesnt use it for scheming or evil but rather just to tease and be annoying and make everyone blush :) #okay well anyways wow im not really discussing the art itslef sorry!!!@ #I think he looks so handsome pretty in this 🥺 #hes pretty difficult to draw but i think it came together when i gave him freckles tbh #i hope he gives off carefree but seductive but laidback prince 🙏🙏 #f1 #formula 1 #jenson button #catie.art. #boy king au #*not sure about his title officially yet. i mean hes from somerset but yeah idk its okay

[anxiously-sidequesting]

**slips and slides into the room with socks on and breaks the wooden table as i fall down on the floor in a haste** so anyways i actually just scared myself because i thought of exactly how deep Malorn's and Malistaire's parallels went. like in post-updated tutorial malistaire was said to have been kind and caring towards his students right. just like malorn right. just like malorn, right? isn't that just like malorn? hey everyone doesn't that sound just like malorn? kind and cares for his students? 'kind' and 'caring' are certainly two adjectives that describe malorn arent they huh? (is slowly sinking in quicksand as i desperately reach out to you as i say this) so if we are to say that malorn and malistaire are two sides of the same coin then what is truly stopping malorn from having one traumatic event from shaping the rest of his life into a descent of madness, grief, and isolation? Guys tell me what the difference is between this reality and an Evil Malorn AU guys? guys hello? hello guys? **(the quicksand has actually transported me to the Backrooms now, no one can hear me call out in distress)**

#not to say that malorn is the exact same as malistaire and would have the ecact same visceral reactions malistaire once did btw #like this isnt me expecting him to become The Joker one day but like can yoy guya think about. can you guys think about- #just how easy it is. for a well adjusted sane person to become the opposite of that. didnt the vampire guy from bdg3 say smth like this #im literally trying to find a serious way to say joker's incredibly memeable “one bad day” speech IEJSHSSJ #what's malorn's switch. what's his very last thread that he's hanging on #what THE FUCK MAKES MALORN SNAP?????? (grabbing at your shirt in a panic) #thinking about malorn of all people suffering malistaire's same fate much less trauma in general hurts my heart dearly. he is fictional #i should not be upset over fictionals. (<- she said insincerely. very much being upset over fictional characters) #malorn has certainly CHANGED from his experiences (in my fantasy la la land) but at most he's resentful and angry. jaded. but not in crisis #evil malorn au....... #wizard101 #wiz101 #w101 #text posts #malorn ashthorn #malistaire drake

[lotus-sunn]

@katentines this is your fault/pos

So lotus-moonn I have been THINKING ABOUT HER. And I decided since my pfp is sweet mikey I thought maybe if lotus-moonn existed

they would use covert-mike (Mikhali) as their pfp since well if you know anything about covert mikey then its fairly obvious why I choosed him

I thought of her personality and I conclude..Shes a fucking dick. or atleast more blunt and straight forward not caring about someones feelings and wouldnt see the reason to soften the blow. Would say "that looks like shit" to your face and call you out for more of your wrong doings

I love the DRAMATICS but i think too much is wack so maybe she would have a love for all types of dramatics.

I love to make a good first impression and I am pretty sensitive when it comes to being yelled at in a aggressive way. I start to cry as the yelling continues, so she would NEVER (rarely) cry. It would take a lot for her to cry, and first impression? who gives a shit she is gonna do what she wants and not give a shit if you like her or not.

Not a hugger or very touchy its rare for her to even touch anyone (fucking insane i know) Suprisnly less of a realist. (im a realist) More of a lets just do it and find out. Doesnt care for people who overthink she doesnt get it. like cmon your thinking too much LETS GO.

Not much for reading feelings she just freezes if they confide in her. She is pretty serious. If you told her a joke she would take it literally.

social cues??? she doesnt know what that is?? context clues what??

(fucking dumbass)

Doesnt swear. literally man she doesnt. I swear like sailor so she wouldnt. Why use swears when you can insult someone in more creative ways? she doesnt get the appeal.

really really smart in the education level. Works slow and good, doesnt work well under pressure.

opptimistic? no? but also yes.

one thing I wont change. She is stubborn but not me type stubborn. She is fucking STUBBORN once she decides something its set in bedrock she ingraved it into its very core your not changing her mind

(people trying to rehabiltate lotus-moon get meet with her fist)

was a kid who was more reckless and got more injuries (i was the same. but she actually broke a bone.)

faking confidence? she doesnt do that depressing bullshit. her confidence is real but that gets in the way of most of goals she has so much faith in herself she grows arrogant. She thinks that whatever she puts her mind to WILL happen doesnt matter who come in the way

fighting? HELL YEAH. SHE FIGHTS WITH ALL HER MIGHT! exploding PASSION!

I dont get sick easily. She does tho (LOSER COULDNT BE ME) its cold and she doesnt wear a scarf and jacket GET SICK BITCH (and very sensitve when sick. Im not i can function well enough. she is like fucking DEAD like family guy dead pose.)

hopeless romantic? fuck no romance is icky she doesnt like it.

very Social. ikr what the fuck?? if anything she wouldnt be. And you'd be right but Im not very social i have a close friend group of 5 people THATS IT. so she would be very social despite her dumbass not knowing of social cues.

#ive been thinking about this for a while #and I thought of my personality and since evil lotus-sun is well evil. she would be the complete opposite of me #so I mapped my personality and reversed it. #in a way I would admire her. #but whos to say. #WAIT HOLD ON SHE WOULD TALK LIKE THAT. #''but whos to say.'' SHE WOULD TALK KINDA LIKE THAT #lotus-moonn

[redandfranticfeelings]

after several months of tracking the solar opposites tag i'm starting to get a similar feeling from the fandom as all those posts about breaking bad where walt is really supportive of jesse's transition

#solar opposites #i mean yeah the found family aspect Is There but like. it is Not an uplifting earnest show 90% of the time lmao #like they are very mean aliens. including to each other. sure they love each other. but they are Comically Evil #im still glad that an adult animated show starring a gay couple can exist with all the outrageous humor of the genre intact #i just dont care for woobifying said gay couple too much lmao. let them be evil freaks!! #also ive never seen a soul on tumblr talk about the wall which has some Genuine Heartfelt Emotion as well #i dont have much to put into words about it myself bc of the complexity but like. it very much exists and has some great storytelling

[warpolomewdarkmatter]

QUICK FYI.? in my blosc:the adventure begins remake there would be a whole new storyline where everyone is convinced that buzz is zurg’s son because like 20+ years ago zurg created an offspring in a capsule but got bored very quickly and sent that child into space. and buzz was found in space debris and adopted, so it all makes total sense. but in the end of the movie zurg learns about this and laughs because that offspring 1. was tooootally evil 2. was a genetic mutant alien with horns 3. was a girl. ok? and in blosc:the movie:the remake:the sequel this daughter, roza, is a major villain who instead of conquiring the universe wants to destroy it completely and zurg has to show her that universe is actually a great place when it’s not in shambles and also that she doesnt have to be mad bc people could care about her (like her dad for example!!!) <3

#buzz lightyear of star command #evil emperor zurg #roza #drawpost #origpost #i use the word dad extensively because i am horrified that if someone sees the art without reading the LORE theyll think roza is zurgs gf #so hmmmm character concept notes #her name is roza because i needed the letters Z and R because theyre evil #and roses are beautiful yet prickly! which i think can suit her well:) #her design is obviously heavily inspired by zurgs except i gave her pants because i think its funny that shes in pants and zurgs in the robe #feminism ever heard of it #roza is hellbent on destroying the universe because shes very bitter at having been abandoned by zurg #and she has never been rly loved/felt like someone cared about her i think #shes also smart and strong and cooler than buzz at everything which leads to him having a wicked identity crisis lol #um and she has rivalry with mira because roza is part tangean herself and they r the only people who can fight each other bc of ghosting #also while mira is doted on by her dad roza is oppositely abandoned and forgotten. character foils etc. #roza is (and i cannot stress this enough) part-alien. many alien. so many alien oh my god she has genes for days #but! she has a lot of flaws because of her hypermixed heritage. this species is allergic to salt this one gets headaches from orange color #etc. #roza is WILD for me because i made her up and she fit into my image of lightyear/blosc universe so perfectly #...so many dad zurg content... so much funny bickering villains.... #oh yes and in the first movie she would be introduced only in like a pre-credit teaser scene!!!!! #everyone laughs and maybe 1 person remembers that thing with zurg having a daughter apparently #HARD CUT #to a sinister montage of a person in zurg type fit walking through a scrappy but very lived-in spaceship.... #and stopping near a monitor which displays zurgs face on it.... #the mysterious person touches the screen and says The Time Has Come.... #(they blow up the monitor and zurgs face with a NAAASTY gun) #...Father....... #(AND THE AUDIENCE GOES WIIIILD)

[firelord-frowny]

my sexuality is Garak's deranged and tortured monologue in the episode "The Wire" in Deep Space 9 where he tells the story of being exiled from Cardassia for releasing Bajoran hostages <3 <3 <3

#like it legit turns me on lmfaoooo i hate me! #the way he spits the line “they were filthy and they stank” MMMMMMMMMM #his uncontrollable cackle when he says all he wanted was a good meal #the utter contempt in his eyes when he tells dr julian bashir 'i hate this place and i. hate. you.' #fuck me UP garak!!! fuck me UP with your psychopathic brand of ptsd and guilt! #evil characters who hate themselves for their urge to Do The Right Thing is one of my fav character tropes #its like #the shocking polar opposite of a Good Character who does something monstrous out of desperation and cant live with themselves for it #like Sisko when he recruited garak to do his dirty work! #knowing full well in the back of his mind that Garak would have no issue stooping to the level necessary to manipulate the Romulans #into going to war with the Dominion #but then being wracked with guilt when garak actually does the deed #mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

[sukugojo]

different anon here, i came here wanting to clarify something but i saw that your reply took the words out of my mouth HAHAH it's funny seeing some of us shippers sharing the same braincells and having similar opinions. love this small community but i hope it gets bigger (wake tf up people!!! are 15 consecutive canon suspicious homoerotic chapters not enough for people on the international jjk fandom to finally start shipping them?!)

the something being that i don't sense any malicious hateful intent coming from either gojo or sukuna. this is a rare enemies/rivals trope imo. like their whole theme is about teaching love and trying to maybe come to a mutual understanding despite fate cruelly putting them on the opposite sides, as they are really just different sides of the same coin. and that's one of the many reasons why i love this pairing. it's not easy to find a non-toxic enemies/rivals dynamic portrayal in media so i'm glad that jjk is an exception.

p/s: i'm an extremely introverted person so unfortunately i won't have the social battery to continue this conversation, but thanks for reading my ask! i really want to interact more with my people bc yall are lovely and have great tastes but socializing drains me so much

YES YES ANON, they really don't hate each other at all. one thing i was thinking about is how gojo doesn't seem to think of sukuna as this malicious Evil thing that other sorcerers (rightfully) make him out to be. he... really hasn't been shown to harbor any ill feelings towards sukuna, even after all he's done.

and their fight is playful, they're playing, they're having fun, it's recreation. sure the fate of the world is at stake here, but that's not what it's about for them at all.

there's not hate, not even dislike, it's simply. well to steal canon's words. love. an overwhelming sense of pleasure, of satisfaction, of fulfillment.

and i LOVE that u mention "despite fate cruelly putting them on the opposite sides" bc YEAH YEAH, that's part of the tragedy of them. there's too many factors outside their own personal satisfaction at play.

and i think there is also a bit of a paradox in there. they're looking for someone with whom to share that solitude that comes at the lonely top. but... that's something i don't think to be possible. sure they're equals, that's the thing, but at the same time, their existences clash just by definition. bc there can't be two strongest. there can only be one.

both can't live at the same time. if one lives, the other can't live by definition.

no one understands them bc they're the strongest, but once they find someone who might be able to—and who does—dont they stop being the strongest?

#sukugojo.post #(but also scratch all that. we are not gonna think about that bc if either of them die i will be inconsolable they can't fucking die bc tha #would make me. incredibly sad. OTL) #gege should just have them marry each other. why can't they just be TWO strongest why the fuck not. The Strongest husbands. #a true power couple #got kinda sidetracked there haha but yeah! i feel we all just a share a collective braincell that gets passed around hkdfjhsd #'are 15 consecutive canon suspicious homoerotic chapters not enough for people to finally start shipping them?!' SAY ITTTTTTTTTT #and i think what sets them apart is that they're rivals on OPPOSITE sides who are not laden with hate. #bc there's a clear cut good-evil dichotomy. we have the good guys and bad guys who are against each other and whose goal is to stop e/o #sukugo are on opposite sides but still hold no sense of hate or disdain or anything for each other. #there's simply regard and expectation and (i'm sorry for saying it all the fucking time but it's true) love. #dhsjfdfs it's almost like they operate on a completely different plane to the others (which well yeah they kinda do as the strongest) #they don't particularly care about that whole thing. #they only care about their position as strongest and what the other can give them in regards to that #jjk #sukugo #gosuku #u know i mentioned once in a post i made in my main blog how gojo only speaks of sukuna in a cheerful reverent way #which was half just me being shippy but this made me think about that #bc ok that could be said to be simply his way of being BUT we DO see gojo show disdain for people he dislikes. very clearly. #he speaks super ill of the jujutsu world higher ups. but he doesn't ever extend that dislike to sukuna #who's u know. the Embodiment of Evil #while gojo may be an outwardly cheery person when he doesn't like u. u WILL know. he's actually quite honest there #and he shows respect for sukuna. considers it an honor to be sukuna's rival. #(tho he IS still a fucking brat <3) #god sorry i will shut up now cshfhaskdjsakffs #alas!!! it's really alright anon i totally get it. u dont have to answer. that's kinda the great thing about asks haha c: #but if u ever wanna talk more about them well the askbox is always open :D #GONNA END THIS BY SAYIGN THAT I AM SCARED I AM NERVOUS ABOUT THE NEXT CHAPTER AAAHHHHHHHH

[pikslasrce]

pussy so androgynous it causes a major fandom schism approximately 194 times a month

#yes this is abt gerard way i cant get the discourse out of my head i need to let the evil spirits out and the only way is by making a post #like i firmly believe its okay to like. well. femcr it up from time to time... or like.. #use she/her affectionately bc well theyre my pretty little princess their gender has nothing to do w that #and that like. theyre not cis. that much is obvious. but like. it crosses certain boundaries to assert so aggressively that just bc #theyre not cis that the end goal is that theyre a Woman. like... yeah you can say theyre trans in the sense of it being the opposite of cis #which is the case. thats correct. but saying theyre a WomanTM just bc theyre not a ManTM is well.. troublesome. its erasure #and erasure of something so lovely as whatever it is they have going on like isnt it enough that theyre living their truth? #the need to categorize everything in a neat little box is something you need to unpack and realize that its harmful. its a forced dichotomy #and like as i said already its all fine to like go all 'omg gerard pick up the phone' or like 'oughh my beautiful wife' or 'miss gerard 🐀' #however it gets dangerous if you spend too much time in that bubble and forget the reality of things. #for that purpose i made that 'her pronouns are he/they'. to ground myself innit #ANYWAYS. if you read the tags im sorry but yeah...... letting the evil spirits out #piksla.txt

[theinfinitedivides]

still here sitting on this but. the first shot he fired for Ki Cheol was on instinct. his body follows his heart. the last shot he fired for Ki Cheol was on instinct. his body follows his heart. the barrel of the gun is still smoking. he cannot move. his body follows his heart.

#tv: the worst of evil #the worst of evil #wi ha joon #wi ha jun #ji chang wook #im se mi #kdrama #local gay watches TWOE (and ships everyone within sight).txt #local gay watches k-dramas.txt #hooooo boy we're not doing well. we are not ok fellas exactly what i said would happen #something something the Pieta unfolding before us something something the Catholic guilt in the room with us #what's the one poem that's like 'the couple drive me home after we hook up and for a moment i feel like i am loved' yeah well #this is the f*cked up opposite of that.

[psycherprince]

third hot take of the day is that yes "boycott fatigue" is. yikes. but we're not doing anyone any favors by pretending large boycotts don't take any effort whatsoever. like we talk abt "invisible labor" in the household when talking abt feminism, which is the cognitive load of knowing what has to get done even if the tasks are divided, and having to keep track of who is doing what (wrt childcare) and the preferences of your family when cooking/grocery shopping/etc. Other ppl have explained this better than me but the point is. It does take cognitive effort to keep track of what you can and can't buy, and which companies own what, etc etc.

We can acknowledge that yeah it does take effort and yeah it can be annoying that you have to make some kind of change, but also still maintain that complaining abt that right now is insanely tactless and irrelevant. Like yeah you DO have to remind yourself not to buy sabra hummus or the starbucks brand creamer or whatever but like there's a genocide yknow get some perspective

#''boycotts are so easy its literally not doing something'' rlly gives ''well i never liked harry potter anyway'' #like what do you want a medal?? youre not accomplishing anything besides discouraging your political allies from continuing to act #''i craved starbucks the other day. guess im ontologically evil then.'' and im not saying that they SHOULD think that way #but the fact is just psychologically speaking that is how it goes #making people defensive doesnt make them want to listen to you. the opposite actually. #also. finding a boycott easy has no moral weight esp compared to finding a boycott inconvenient or difficult and DOING IT ANYWAY #you are harming your point. door in the face method only works if you back off afterwards. #like. posting a long boycott list and then saying ''but if you cant stick to that here are the big ones'' and linking the bds list #would be EXTREMELY effective at getting ppl considering joining the boycott to take action #but posting the same list and then saying ''if you cant do this dont even bother you scum'' even if it is how you honestly feel #will just turn people away. the point of political action like this isnt ideological purity its to get as many people as possible involved #on at least some level to make the biggest possible impact #PLEASE think practically

[trollocs-ooc]

Sometimes i have to mentally smack myself as to not ruin my own ocs for me (my brain likes to rationalize their bad actions sometimes and that is awful for rp and my own thought process hello)

#Im not saying bad people cant be nuanced or have good traits but like if i think abt that too much i start getting in that #Fandom ass mindset. Where it shifts into the complete opposite direction. So instead of this guys Pure Evil it goes to Well Actually- #Like no just cuz Twelve cares abt his grandkid and [REDACTED] does not make him any less of a piece of shit #talk

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Man I can't believe I had the chance to go to a performing arts school up through middle school and I fuckin quit after 6 months just because I got bullied. BRO YOUR HOMEWORK WAS POETRY!! YOU HAD TO PRACTICE DANCING TO COTTON EYE JOE AS YOUR BIG UNIT TEST. GYM CLASS HAD A CIRCUS UNIT!! YOU HAD A WHOLE DAILY CLASS ON IMPROV!!! YOU FOOL!! YOU ABSOLUTE IMBICILE!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN A YOUTUBER!!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN ONE OF THOSE TWEENAGERS GETTING LOADED BY MAKING SHITTY YOUTUBE SHORTS IN 2008-14!! But noooOoooOOOoo little miss Noellie (who WANTED TO GO!! who worked SO HARD and sent in an application essay and did an INTERVIEW to get in!!) couldn't handle disruptive classmates or little scuffles and petty grudges and general Attitude of the other students and cried to mommy to put her back in public school. I am EATING MY HAIR over what Could Have Been. I COULD BE SOMEONE'S ANNOYING YOUTUBER!! I could be a DISGRACED DISNEY CHANNEL STAR!! I could be an America's Got Talent winner! A mild to moderately successful comedian! I could be making short films!! But no no no precious thin skinned baby me heard a few new cus words and watched a teacher get heckled and begged to give up The Dream in favor of?? Quiet math tests?? I am such a fucking quitter I quit everything the second it gets too hard I always take the out as soon as it's offered what's my fucking damage.....

#I had SO MUCH POTENTIAL and I SQUANDERED IT!! weak ass third grade PUSSY! Your life could have been SO SICK!! #or you could at least be addicted to cocain or something interesting like that!! Boring ass goody two shoes always just staying home doing #NOTHING bitch make a REAL FRIEND go to a God Damn PARTY live a little instead of just hiding in the closet eating saltine crackers for years #waiting for it to be quiet outside before you ever even toed the line #mentally ill self-isolating motherfucker #you could have shrugged it off you could have GROWN A PAIR and FOUGHT BACK but you just ran and cried for mommy #victim complex little bitch baby always whining and exaggerating and making shit up fucking LIAR I am you and I KNOW what you did and I know #you knew it wasn't the truth and you regretted it the moment it came out of uour mouth but once you'd said it you just swallowed it back and #doubled down incriminating or discrediting others with your lies. For why? Because you didn't like them? You could have ruined someone's #life you wouldn't have hesitated mayhe you did and don't even remember because you cant keep your mouth shut with your pants ablaze #manipulative little shit and to WHAT END? Pity? Sympathy? Attention? Entertainment?? What was even going on in your stupid ugly head? #This is a callout post for my third grade self that possessed demon ass evil nine year old. That kid drowned anthills in olive oil and #poisoned a wild animal once. That kid cut plants just to see if they oozed. That kid modified her whole ass personality on a dime for a boy #she had a crush on. INSTANTLY dropped a LIFELONG CULTURAL ALLEGIANCE (thats what football teams were like back then in our town) because he #said he had the opposite allegiance??? What the fuck? girl had NO integrity none zip zilch. #No empthy either that kid looked at everyone else on earth like they were friggin space aliens and she was the only one with Real feelings. #bitch literally thought like 'I have Feelings they just have Reactions' bitch what the fuckkkkk #that nine year old was fucked the hell up!!! #and for literally NO REASON!! No cause!! Just born fucking evil and weird. jesus fuck. #Evil ass bitch caused her autistic brother months of nightmares and then laughed about it and wrote poetry about how evil he was because he? #was a kid??? Normal sibling rivalry taken way way way too far defamatory ass statements #and this girl had NO CONSEQUENCES because she could lie and manipulate her way out of ANYTHING she had the baby eyes and the helpless charm #and played dumb soooo well . read people like some calculative evil AI scanning their faces for microexpressions and overanalyzing each word #choice like holy shit. its not That Deep. pretentious shit trying to play 5D chess on a checkers board. #Manipulating shit just to see what happens?? zero awareness?? no asking just skipping straight to testing for yourself?? #'What happens if I step on this' it fucking breaks 'what does that taste like?' it's not fucking yours to mess with 'if I hit this person #how will they respond?' they'll be upset use your goddamn judgement you are NINE not TWO do you even care a little about any other person?? #Are you just living in some other reality??? #callout post for the fucking demon child inside of me #im so goddamn problematic I'm so so so deeply mentally disturbed and broken for no reason

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Hmm. I’m having yakuza!Makoto thoughts

#makoto makimura #well not *yakuza* per se but like. she asked for the heads of three men as payment for her brother's death. she asked the guy sent to kill #her to help. when he said no she went 'fine i'll do it myself' *whilst still half blind in a city she doesnt know*. literally SUCH a badass #i think she shouldve been allowed to be bloodthirsty and fucked up and a little bit evil i think she's earned it. anyway im imagining #a world where she succeeded. can you imagine? she and Majima become a power couple. sure he's the Mad Dog of Shimano but you should meet #the one he lets hold his leash. this small sweet angel-faced beauty who looks like she wouldnt hurt a fly but if you cross her or hurt #people she cares about or innocent people and you'll WISH you were dealing with the Mad Dog #i kinda wanna make art for this. I think her nickname should be Heaven's Devil. or Heaven's Demon idk what sounds better #though i have heard that cause Lee was God Hands she should be Angel Hands which SO TRUE so i wanna keep that heavenly holy imagery #like i know Hell's Angels are like a Thing (bikers i think??) but that title suits Majima I think. a kind good soul kept in the depths #Makoto's the opposite side of the coin. the brutality in the light. do you see my vision?