#fear the n-word

[petorahs]

shuake works because it feels like akechi's the only one who listens to akira and prompts the otherwise quiet leader to talk.

in a game about defiant teens making their voice heard, goro akechi listens to akira's voice from the get-go. out of detective-sleuthing/work duties, sure, but over time it's clear that akechi genuinely finds akira interesting.

in fact, akechi's confidant route regardless of which game is being played starts with him deeming akira the antithesis to his thesis, a "worthwhile debate partner". akechi values joker's opinions.

its always nice to see people point out that in that one 3rd sem phone call with akechi, its the most involved akira's been in a conversation in-game. i myself remember inserting a lot more input during that story-sequence which usually i can put on autoplay otherwise. akechi, in a whole different reality, still seeks out joker's opinions on it. it's like he trusts no one but him.

and imo this gives a lot of character to akira. he talks the most with akechi. the quietest people have the most on their minds, and it shows with akira. but akira never gets a say in anything, and who would listen? he's less than a nobody in reality since society dictated that. so he pointedly made himself silent, hiding his thoughts beneath an impenetrable mask. during important story moments, akira favors doing more than saying. his teammates and confidants are all directly inspired by his actions over the course of the game.

but with akechi, it's different. actions seem to take a backseat as they continue with their verbal back-and-forth. in rank 7 of royal, they play pool while talking, but it's clear to the outsider that the focus is in the layered conversation they're having. they primarily talk everytime akechi's in the coffee shop, because they dont usually see eachother in their busy schedules. it's not just "hi, hello, how are you?" with them but "i find you and everything you stand for interesting. let's talk more."

there's something to be said about how two people with vastly different and opposing views seek eachother out to further discuss things instead of antagonizing eachother. its why maruki said "despite being enemies, your relationship was never based on hatred or ill will".

their relationship was never a one-sided thing. akechi helps joker as much as joker helps him... arguably more. he eggs joker on, shows him that he can do better. otherwise, the leader would remain stagnant and unchallenged. there is no progress where there is no thesis and-- you can finish the rest.

#persona 5 #shuake #goro akechi #akira kurusu #been defensively quiet lately and was thinking how nice it is to have someone listen to and validate my thoughts. #maybe not always agree but. making me feel like my words are worthwhile #aishi.docx #and then i realized thats exactly what akechi does with joker. damn rivals... #they should exist irl too... #oh to have a smug pretty n intelligent boyfriend telling me im smart while he twirls his spoon in the tea i made him... #anyway i really like the topic of joker's quietude cause i feel like it makes sense that he wasnt always like that at all. #him becoming quiet after getting shut down over and over is like. so humbling and a real epidemic i fear... #this is a personal post more than anything i feel HSJDBJS me giving joker my fears and pains. but actually joker copied ME #(said like a totally normal person)

[betheflyinggrapes]

A little scene from @vampireghostlawyer 's fic modern man traditional medicine which you should read because i have. at least twenty times

#fear and hunger #fear and hunger termina #fear and hunger daan #fear and hunger karin #daan von dutch #karin sauer #im sorry for tagging but i really want to just say thank u for the fic it has given me so much life #ngl i kinda want to draw more scenes from the fic its just so good. lies on the floor. thank u for the food #i totally forgot daan n marinas clothes should technically be ripped to shreds but. i forgor #this is also my first time drawing marina i did not do her justice hhhhhh #marcoh will forever be a mystery to me #but yes. im bad with words but thank u again for such an amazing fic i really cannot express how much serotonin it has given me

[luck-of-the-drawings]

OOH YEAH BABY! PARTY TIME BABY! MUSIC! DRINKS! SOCIAL PRESSURE & A PSYCHEDELIC BREAK DOWN! WELCOME TO VAMPIRE SOCIETY MOTHERFUCKER! ARE YOU SCARED? DO YOU UNDERSTAND YET? ITS OKAY IF NOT. FIRE DISSOLVED IT! ITS ALL GONE NOW. HAVE FUN!

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #RRAAHH IM IN LOVE WITH THIS SHOW SOOO GOODDAMN MUCH!! each o these characters has STOLEN my HEART!!! #LIKE EMIZEEELLL i love emizel so much.. runnin around announcing that HE isa PRINCE while shiloh FINALLY quietly clicks the pieces together #nathan hanover you MADMAN!!! that slow dramatic guitar riff as emizel makes that announcement was so fuckin COOL UGHHHH #MR HANOVER DOES IT AGAIN just creating tracks that absoultely WORM into my MIND and HHEAARRT UUGHHGHH #emizel is so cool and so funny and so adorable UUGHH ill gush abt him more when i finally post my emizel n soda doodle page #ARTHUR FUCKING BENNET. i totally get why grizz has a hard time playing him. hes cool and stoic n its not easy to play a man o little words #BUT BBOOOY DOES HE DO IT WELL!! arthur DOES come off as so stoic n cool & it just makes his lil misfortunes all the more charming #like falling into the red fear or confrontin edward twilight or accidentally doing lsd. I LOVE THATS HES THE BAD LUCK GUY. #okay uhhu uhh i have limited room here what else should i say uhh. THE NPCS. MY GOD THE NPCS. CHARLIE U WONDERFUL MADMAN #edward twilight is SUCH a funny fucking antagonist. and supposedly his magic stuff is super scary?? SO EXCITED TO SEE MORE OF THAT #ill ramble abt mr deacon keller later eheh i have a. uh. a doodle page in the works. so in the meantime DAYBRINGER SOLOMON!! #“HERE COMES THE SUN MOTHERFUCKER!” “ILL SEE YOU IN HELL. NOT. IM GOING TO HEAVEN. BITCH.” like come on now. oh my god. i need him #BIG POWERFUL BEAST AND EVERY WORD HE SAYS HAS ME CRACKING UP. THE MUFFLED VOICE IN THE DARK BROKEN BY “LIGHT!” #TRULY HILARIOUS AND YET TRULY HORRIFYING. I FUCKIN LOVE CHARLIE NPCS SO MUCH. I HOPE WE SEE HIM AGAIN OHH MY GOOOODDD #OKAYokay. im normal now. ill talk abt the piece. if u read my tags this far then u get special secret knowledge abt the artistic process #IM VERY HAPPY WITH MY COLORS! i know they were hallucinating on drugs so i just recalled the times i did drugs & used that as my influence #REMEMBER KIDS! acid is totally fine if ur safe and responsible about it. do acid and then stare at my art for a bit trrruuust me. IT MOVES! #anyway i think thats all my thoughts here. thank you for looking at my art n thanku if ur one o the ppl that says nice things in the tags #U are LITERLY my life blood i pick up each of u n kiss u so sweetly on the head. remember to try acid!!!!

[fightwing]

bruce immediately asking if he hurt dick after days spent infected yeah okay dc i see this and i raise you: 😭😭😭

#such a difference between this #and like tita.ns year one when bruces first words were something like 'you shouldve figured it out sooner' #like GROWTH (the growth is me crying then to crying harder now) #also can i just say dg is so fucking stupid what do u mean he was going to reveal his identity to the president #like did we not JUST go through the grayso/n arc where he had to die and agent-ify and take down spyr/al to erase everyone knowing hes nwin #but overall love that the titan.s defeating beast wor.ld with the power of friendship #hate the rae cliffhanger like has she ever known rest but theres so much to unpack #titans spoilers #beast world spoilers #tuesday spoilers #comic spoilers #kory being the contingency for donna 😫 also the fact dick has custom made nwing logo manila folders 🫥🫥🫥 very on brand i fear #also roy was in the picture when the tower exploded so im counting that as confirmation roy is joining the team again #the teamwork of it all i love it here <33333 #* i'd love to write but it's just not realistic / ooc.

[bylertruther]

do you ever think about how will probably wishes he was braver?

that he could tell mike the truth about himself without having to speak in code. that he could stick to his guns when he's been wronged and stand up for himself rather than tucking tail and turning the other cheek. that he could be less shy, less sensitive, less cowardly, and maybe then his loved ones wouldn't forget about him as often as they do.

maybe then they would pick him first, rather than leaving him for last. maybe then they would want to hang out with him and hear what he has to say. maybe then they would treat him like they used to, like he can still take care of himself just like they can, instead of like a fragile little thing that they pick up only when they need him. maybe then they would care about him as much as he cares about them. maybe then he wouldn't doubt that it could all come crashing down once they know who he really is, and always has been, because the rest of him would've been enough.

like, maybe he wishes he didn't freeze or run away so much. maybe he wishes he wasn't so afraid all the time, of every little thing. that he could be brave like mike, el, or his mom. i mean, el's been through so much, too. why can't he be more like her? why does he have to hide behind her? he hides behind her when the monsters come crawling back, and he hides behind her when he can't bring himself to say what he really means—even after getting on her case about it.

he spent so much time on that painting. he didn't let anyone see it—it was that special to him. why couldn't he own up to that? there's no monster in the van with him; it's just him and mike and this painting of the party, nothing inherently incriminating or romantic, and still—he can't help himself. he retreats back into the shadow, shrinks into himself, and tells lie after lie to the person that he never lies to, that he knows doesn't fucking deserve that, just because he's too scared.

of course he'd feel like a mistake sometimes. of course he'd hate who he is (if That script is to be believed), when he can't even talk to the one person that would understand without lying straight to his face, over and over again, like a fucking hypocrite. of course he'd feel so lost without the person that tells him it's okay to be this way and shows him that there is indeed strength in it. of course he'd hate who he is when he's encouraging someone to be true and speaking about their courage, all while being incapable of taking his own advice, and giving the credit for all of his love and efforts and emotions to someone else.

so many people died to bring him back, so many people died just because he didn't stay dead when maybe he should have, and for what? so that he can continue to hide rather than live his life? so that he can turn into a "worse" version of himself? so that he can live in fear? so that he can continue to ache for a past that he can never return to, while everyone else moves forward and berates him for not doing the same? time stopped in the upside down when will went missing, and he's been stuck there ever since, too. too much has happened for him to move on from. too much has changed—he's changed. he's too different now, in every way, and the older he gets the more clear it becomes.

of course he'd feel like a mistake. of course he'd hate who he is. he's the common denominator here: in his loneliness and in this war. the boy who came back to life when others didn't. the boy that got possessed and couldn't fight it. the boy that turned into a liar and a coward and must learn to live with it, even if it's at his own expense. the boy that can't let go of the past and whom the past won't let go of either, because even after everything, he's still connected to this great evil that won't let him go. they got it out of him, and yet the tether remains, because of-fucking-course it would.

just—why? why him? why can't anything ever go right with him? why is he always the outlier? i think that overwhelming amount of fear, shame, grief, guilt, exhaustion, and loneliness would wear anyone down, let alone a teenager that never asked for any of it and has experiences so unfathomably unique that the only other people that could have possibly understood are literally dead.

#will byers #byler #mine #long post #will #anyway. this is how i always interpreted the i hate WHO i am line especially in conjunction with the word ''mistake'' + being different #within the context of EVERYTHING that's happened to will and continues to happen to him and how unique it is to him in this narrative #bc rly. if you were will.... wouldn't you feel like a mistake? even outside of that outside of the supernatural i'm speaking to my #friends that have ''Something Wrong'' with them. when something happens to you and you're not the same after and you're surrounded #by people who are able to move on and be normal—don't you ever have those moments where you feel like a mistake? when you're #growing up and still interested in your same old interests but your friends start moving on and then you see that they went back to #those interests in your absence—don't you feel like you were the problem then? when people are able to be brave and you can't #find it within yourself to overcome your fear—don't you hate that feeling? don't you feel that negativity towards yourself when you #know that you SHOULD do something but you can't bring yourself to and it works against yourself? like. everything that has happened #to will E V E R Y T H I N G !!!!!!!!!!!!! can easily make anyone no matter what part of him you relate to the most understand that #u kno wht i mean? anyway. i jus wanted to bring this up bc his life is a fucking tragedy even without the gay stuff n his current pov on th #and the way that That conversation always centers on fear and bravery it's like. obviously being gay is not easy in that era but i don't #think that line is ''i hate being gay'' with no factoring in of the great many things that have happened to him which alienate him further #as well as with how he does want mike to know and his alan turing poster and his talk with jonathan etc etc #his conflict has always centered around how other people treat him and his issue with that bc that's what makes him feel bad #that just because he's different that doesn't mean that he's Different and must be treated as such #he's different and has people that make him feel BETTER for it like look at s2 for example all of those talks abt using what he perceives #as a weakness abt himself as a strength that no one else can bring to the table. and in s3 when he still believed in being a nerd #and never getting girlfriends etc but when it came from mike thts when he called himself stupid n started down this path bc now #there's that sprinkle of doubt. n tht doubt is the scariest thing in the world—understandably so #also. he literally has an evil monster in his brain like bdkfjhsbkdjhfbskj IT'S JUST A LOT. #he is different for many reasons and has even more reasons to hate Who he is the kind of person that he is #jus my take 😁👍

[ofmdee]

celebrating 1k on twitter today with some extra gifsets 👀🔞

#mine #ts4 #sims 4 #the sims 4 #simblr #sims #ofmd #gentlebeard #ofmd sims #sim spice #is it normally one word or two? sim spice? simspice??? #idk i just dont wanna have the n and s and f and w in there together because Fear #i say this on twitter all the time and now u get to hear it here too but pls ignore any clipping! 🤣

[xx-rememberthepast-xx]

note: i get all of these images that you'll see from google images. if any of these are yours please let me know so i can give proper credit! ^^

#aesthetic #nostalgia #nostalgic #nostalgiacore #mall #edit #dark #edgy #liminal space #fear #scared #afraid of the future #scared to grow up #yknow this one's about the economy #also lgbtiaq+ rights and ab//rti//n rights #i'm not sure whether that word in a tag is considered mat//re content by the tumblr guidelines #and i'd like people to see this post #so apologies that it's censored!

[homophyte]

thank you for the long & thought out response. while i do fully agree with you on stances like prison abolition & the myth of the stranger pedophile scapegoat, my question and discomfort with jimmy’s actions comes not so much from a political/philosophical standpoint but from a very human emphatic one. i put myself in the shoes of the girl he groomed and abused and imagine people listening to and enjoying the music of my abuser and it makes me sick to my stomach. so thats more where my guilt and discomfort comes from. that said i can’t say that their music doesn’t have an impact or isn’t enjoyable. i also agree with you that this mass outrage and very public renunciation and demand for punishment is very much a social mechanism and automatic reaction that quite simplifies a complex situation. however these mechanisms exist for a certain evolutionary purpose after all (sorry my background is psychology) but thats sort of besides the point because im also not a fan of how these things get handled with zero nuance. 

its also true what you said that me or you or anyone deciding to disengage with this band or their music changes nothing in the grand scheme of things, so doing it as some sort of Noble Cause against abuse is useless. so in this case i feel it’s up to personal preference and whether or not i can swallow the cognitive dissonance and discomfort this information arises in me whenever i listen to their music from now on. 

thanks again for the insightful response, i’m glad we can have this sort of discussion because i also think this topic is extremely important but people often shy away from it because it’s so heavy. 

im glad you asked me to share! like i said ive spent a lot of time thinking abt this specifically so its very much like years worth of mishmash thoughts kinda strung together only by me experiencing them over time in succession lol. but i agree its important to talk about it especially within a culture so ensnared in the logic of the prison and particularly how effectively thats been exported into like 'mob justice' for lack of a better word.

re: the emotive aspect im not sure i have much to say other than like Yeah its a very strong one and i dont think its a bad thing at all to have. i got the impression from ur ask--and idk how true this is--that you were wrestling between a desire to return to the music bc you enjoyed it and that response preventing you and feeling a sort of obligation to do one over the other n struggling with that. so i think i approached it as like 'heres ways you can reason w that emotional response and grapple w it if its smth ur agonizing over' or something like that. im also a firm believer in the ways politics shapes the ways we think n feel so my instinct was to tease out some of the structures that may be shaping ur thought processes--which of course i nor anyone but you can fully know. but i dont get that same sense from how u describe it here and either way i think whatever feeling ur having about it is like...i dont want to say its 'valid' but ur allowed to have that and do whatever you want pretty much lol. i cant and am not going to force anyone to engage w the band and theres probably more reasons than i could think to list why its not for everyone even without the sordidness of abuse hanging over it.

without getting into a much much broader discussion i would gently push back on the idea of a biologically innate reason for the existence of carceral/punitive logics (and frankly psychology more broadly), if only bc it does a lot of the work of justifying them. keep in mind that these are concepts ideas and patterns of thought that exist because they serve systems of power and particularly the state. we did not have to have a society which created them, we only happen to--which is to say theyre not innate in this way and i disagree that they have an 'evolutionary' purpose bc it fails to properly historicize them. but thats me coming from an antipsych position lol

#asks #frankly for me its like....sometimes we do feel that emotional reaction n sometimes we dont #and im interested in where the difference is or where the line is drawn #some things are considered 'too big to fail' theres plenty of other much more influential musicians that have equal or worse allegations #but nowhere near the same response #and part of this is just 'size' its much more effective to do this to a smaller artist n a smaller community than like potential millions #of say michael jackson fans right. so part of this for me is yeah why does jimmy urine make ppl feel so strongly #and again part of it is 'size' msi is smaller its like 'cult classic' music for lack of a better word and its obviously evidently queer #so u can weaponize that extant fear of queer ppl and within the queer community of people fearing us #thats not to like diagnose that as something going on w u just that like....the emotional response itself is politically complicated #is what im going for here #so sorry i gave u a bunch a lot of stuff that may not have had anything to do with how ur feeling . i was thinking about other shit #im glad u appreciated though lol!

[arcadequeerz]

the fact that people in power in this country care more about acting as if queer people are any risk at all to kids, instead of how often school shootings happen- makes me sick.

#the fact that kids can be scared to go to school because of: some random person coming with a gun #or that kids are scared to go to school for being bullied for who they are- #or scared of the adults that run it- #byt yeah lets go after the queer people who are just fighting to fucking live. who just want kids to know #that its ok to be who they are n its ok to be proud about it. #lets take resources away from kids who need it. #i'm so fucking tired of this country man. they dont care how many queer kids die- they dont care how many suffer #they dont give a shit about any child queer or not #this country fails us time n time again n then people act like we need to be so grateful for it #idk if i worded this well. rbs off because im just mad. and upset. #i want queer kids to be able to find joy in who they are with out fear. i want there to be places they can find #answers- i want them to be fucking safe.

[raiiny-bay]

slowly building the monster boys' cabin in blender :-)

#blood tw #i have no reason to be doing this other than i just feel like it #& i have severe mb brainrot #this AU is so fun #like it's literally taking all of my restraint not to make 10 million posts rambling about it #i think it's fun bc like. all of my characters' worst features & fears are exaggerated in this universe #bc yk nuclear apocalypse & all that #i think i'm gonna write some actual story scenes from kel's perspective today #kel is fun bc like. as a monster he is incredibly apathetic & experiences zero feelings (for Reasons tm) until he meets dhes #& meeting dhes changes him in ways he does not fully understand or have the words for #like kel was straight up gonna kill dhes but obviously didn't bc. soulmates #n e way #rainyrambles #dl maybe

[jlf23tumble]

i don’t fully understand why, but people thirsting over harry in a similar way that we see people thirsting over louis doesn’t feel the same to me? like i don’t know if you’ll get me but if i see someone thirsting over harry, calling him boyfriend, saying they want him to fuck them and etc i definitely wouldn’t follow them. but if it was about louis it wouldn’t be a problem. i don’t if i can call it protectiveness over harry or smthn like that? because he’s been oversexualized ever since he was a teenager. i don’t know i don’t fully get it myself, hence why i’m here babbling in hopes you’ll understand what i mean and give me some clarity abxbdbsb

Eh, I disagree on the whole "but he was oversexualized ever since he was a teenager!!!!" pearl-clutching that ebbs and flows in this fandom--you know who was literally oversexualized as a teenager? Britney Spears, Xtina, Miley, Taylor, every other teen girl singer undressed and turned out to sell records (that open note Sinead O'Connor wrote to Miley, YEAH). The idea of Harry being linked in shitty UK tabloids to an older woman that he was "dating," even though they were never really seen together, isn't the same thing, and it makes me sad that people seemingly don't get that. His archetype was the cute "slow" one, not the crass "down to fuck" one--ALL of them were put forward as boyfriend material, and people lusted after each of them accordingly. I think Harry's case is fascinating because the way he maintains his closet is fairly obvious in that he's seen to be publicly dating different women. (Louis's has changed a bit, and it's perceived differently accordingly, but I have no doubts that perception would change on a fucking DIME if he dated different women every year or two.) Anyway, I'm wandering away from the question, but I think the difference in thirst is probably because there's anxiety around women thirsting after Harry and it being "real", these presumably heterosexual women are seriously into him, and from what I've seen of Louis thirst, it's definitely NOT heterosexual women, but I could be wrong (I'm just talking about the people I follow who indulge). Some of the low-thrumming anxiety might be because there's a teeny tiny doubt on just how NOT into women Harry might be, whereas Louis seems VERY not into them, hence no fear...these are just my own ramblings, though. DM me for more, lmao

#harry styles #i always find it funny when people will say all kinds of shit about caroline flack #yet not one word about louis tomlinson (especially if said people get all worked up about harry's age) #there's also a lot of oversexualizationTM of Harry Styles in the fanart and fanfic world that goes unmentioned--no straight women to fear! #but at the end of the day #it's wilde to me that anyone supports a closeted person #and then gets mad at that closet being performed #i personally think that the louis thirst is funnier because it is SO over the top #if i found a harry thirster doing something similar i'd definitely follow it #but from what i've seen those ones are more focused on a real y/n self-insert fic vibe that's just not as funny

[iobartach]

man out of time

universe: marvel [Earth-616]

verse name: fear as am

Description: Miguel is stranded in present day New York!

"Seriously?! After everything I've gone through, this is how I die? A lucky shot from a sniper in the middle of nowhere?"

#verse definition #verse; fear as am #aka the verse where migs is stuck in 616 and has the white armour #probably gonna set this before atsv too #my reference materials was saying to translate out of time as out of tune #but me with my c+ in pass level irish; n a h lemme use as few words as possible #and yes fear is as gaeilge for man #and no i can never stop chuckling over it lmao #also pls never call it gaelic i beg of u #gaelic is a bunch of languages that also includes scottish and i think manx? #it's either irish or gaeilge #like spanish or español #ty for coming to my ted talk

[rosesocietyy]

#my biggest fear if they get back together in the present isn't louis' wellbeing #it's the prospect of them making tiktok interracial couple content #hi guys today I'll be doing my BLACK husband's hair 😝 #wow i so pale and french but me understand aave #does 30+ years of marriage grant me the n word pass? 🤔 #interview with the vampire #iwtv