#feels nice to paint though

[r0b0t1me]

FORGIVE ME FATHER, I HAVE SINNED

#my art #rottmnt #rottmnt movie #the rest of the song barely even fits i just heard this line #and i was like yeeeup thats leo #i said id give myself a break but i just #was not feeling the animation groove #feels nice to paint though #im sorry i cant stop drawing future leo its not my fault (it totally is)

[a-sketchy]

fine, i’ll will her into existence myself

psst, full version here

#hamuko arisato #kotone shiomi #wip #my art #uh. i guess? i’m painting directly over the p3r minato battle outfit art #so it feels weird taking credit for it #but on the other hand i’ve spent like 6 hours on this so far #rendering is soooo fucking hard. not having to vibe out the forms of an anime face is nice though #i should do paintovers more often they’re real fun #god i don’t wanna do her fucking bow and hands. and legs and skirt. and naginata #fuck. pray for me #p3r

[tazmiilly]

2 goth fords. one older one younger

#both with different outlooks on life I'm pretty sure #i havent painted in ages it feels nice to again..... #ALSO with thr first one i was scrolling through a font like ohhh bubble letter cursive cursive and then it hit me like a brick that #ford writes IN cursive. so i though well why not #just make it his handwriting #scribbles #gravity falls #ford pines #really wanted to make his tattoo visible somewhere but it just wasnt happening

[naiart-i]

There's a secret hidden inside the window of my soul

______________🦚

#Kaeya #Kaeya fanart #Kaeya Alberich #Kaeya genshin impact #Kaeya genshin #Kaeya genshin fanart #illustration #fanart #genshin impact #digital painting #genshin impact fanart #genshin fanart #I drew our Cavalry Captain for one of my friends birthday #but ended up pushing the process way too far haha #it feels nice to be able to post again though~ 🥹🌟

[youremployer]

>Hey, Boss!

>Do you have any hobbies?

-🎶Song Anon

Hm, hobbies?

If you'd consider it one, I do love to organize paperwork, it can be pretty relaxing.

But to be quite honest, I don't really get up to any extra activities or hobbies outside of work. I'm simply too focused on what I do already.

#elevator hitch #normal guy #normal guy elevator hitch #asks #🎶 song anon #{I said this in another ask but its like borderline impossible for me to imagine him doing Normal Human things out of work} #{Though I feel like if he would... it'd be something like... crocheting orrr hm.. diy? kinda?} #{I feel like his hobbies would be pretty laid back and not chaotic. Like.. he likes to have things nice and organized :)} #{So maybe something like making little things: crocheting like I said. orrr.. I could see him being a casual artist *maybe.*} #{Maybe painting or something?? I dunno I'm rambling but do you see my vision.}

[sophieswundergarten]

More Stickyposting, but I really want him to become a lepidopterist purely so he can name some random moth from the middle of nowhere "Lepidoptera curtain" or something

#A lepidopterist is someone who studies moths/butterflies in case anyone was wondering #I love the idea of Sticky just being able to sit peacefully with bugs #And while he may never be super comfortable with worms or carrion beetles or roly-polies again #Butterflies are pretty neat though #And I think their light little feet would feel nice and different from the other bugs #And their bright colours would be so soothing and wonderful #And maybe SQ would come sit with him and paint them #They make a fun little art book together #With illustrations by SQ and short descriptions and fun facts by Sticky #the mysterious benedict society #mbs #sticky washington

[chronodia]

love wins

#casey art #kill the past #the silver case #grasshopper manufacture #tokio morishima #the silver case akira #tokira tag #another grayscale painting after I said I would never do it again….. #this looks nice though I think.. feels more natural than my other tries

[running-in-the-dark]

I know I've thought about this plenty of times before, but it really sucks being someone who likes things very intensely and defines themselves by their interests a lot, when you were/are always surrounded by people who do nothing but make fun of everything you like.

#just... man it fucked me up #all I want to do is talk about what I like but I can't because I 'know' everyone will make fun of me #my mother my father my brothers every other relative except my grandma #and of course everyone in school including the teachers #like fuck man I still don't know how to get over it #this comes back to me not being able to let people see my art #though in a weird way. because that was always the only #thing I ever got compliments for. even the people who bullied me liked my drawings. #so it became this Thing #this super mega important thing I NEEDED to be good at so that anyone would ever say anything nice to me #like it's all I am and all I ever was #and I'm objectively not that good at it!!! I have this horrendous inescapable fear that paralyses me when I'm drawing or painting #because it matters too much. my entire worth as a person is this because I have nothing else #idk I'm way overthinking this but it just feels really frustrating #it's literally just some silly doodles in a sketchbook why can't I let people see. I've never thought anything bad about anyone else's art #so why do *I* have to be perfect?? when that doesn't even exist?! #I hate myself so much

[yohankang]

i'm making a list of things i want to do when this semester is over... i'm basically daydreaming about my hobbies lmao

#my summer list includes: trying out painting #joining some ngo as a volunteer. this or joining a party 🤡 depends on how pissed at our government i'll be at that stage #increasing japanese study time #finding a cool place for saturday breakfasts #or at least a nice bakery #and reading!!! i have 20 unread books on my shelf rn..... #watching dramas :) as soon as my finals finish i'm going to bingewatch at least 3 #i can't wait for summer #increased pay + free weekends? i'm going to treat myself #god knows i deserve it #and i want to make so many gifsets #even though i'm so anxious and stressed rn i feel so creative. i can't wait for my finals to end #this summer will be good to me. i'm not even manifesting i FEEL it ok #k.txt

[dykesbat]

I feel like the only art I’ve posted that feels like my current art is the bruce painting overlooking gotham which makes sense bc it’s also the first time I used the method I’ve been using more recently

#the only thing is that I painted that on in monochrome grey and altered the colors later #this time I’m just going straight w colors #art stuff tag #and I think my colors are getting a lot better #like a year ago I think I’d have a lot more trouble w not using multiply layers n stuff #and color picking from those #instead of just using the color wheel #also realizing the only art you guys have seen (exception of like. 3?) #has been the one w the two people fkbsjdn #the thing is. while I do think that’s one of my stronger uses of color bc I started off only using red for it I feel like the skin is #lacking the quality it could’ve had #so I like my use of color in my most recent work a lot more :P #idk it’s like! even though I don’t necessarily want to be industry! #and like my inconsistencies! #the fact that I’m getting better or closer to where I want to be w my art #is so nice

[dutybcrne]

Love the idea of Kaeya and Albedo hooking up precisely (1) time, no strings attached or anything, bc Bedo wanted to try out sex for the sake of EXP points and he knew that not only would Kaeya be absolutely THRILLED to indulge but also be 10/10 down to try out damn near anything Bedo would be curious about, too

#☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//I also chuckle at the idea of Bedo pausing Everything every few minutes to take notes #//Could be fuckin Kae to screaming then abruptly Stop; like ‘Hn; not only do people have a high pain tolerance but it feels good for them-‘ #//& Kae’s just ‘To this extent? No sweetie; just me. Also unlike most people I also have a higher tolerance for your BULLSH—‘ #//Gets wrecked within an inch of his life for talkin’ smack #suggestive #//Do still like the idea of Bedo being appreciative of the learnings he got out of this; but not finding it his cup of tea even still #//Like ‘hn; this felt kinda nice; but is a lot more underwhelming than expected-‘ #//Kaeya; faced smushed against the sheets and shaking from fucken EVERYTHING: Am I a fucken Joke to you- #//Nah; he’d prolly be laughing his ass off. Respect that; but still just LAUGHING at how funny it is to him specifically. Like #//Bedo putting him through the most INSANE things & not really getting his rocks off would be funny to him bc he himself would be QUAKING #//And prolly need Days to fully recover from it all #//Would deffo ask if Bedo is down to paint his favorite moment; as a memento. or take photo; since that can double as data to collect #//Bedo’s favorite moment prolly ends up being Kae blowing him. bc not only can he shut him up for a lil bit #//But the resulting facefucking leaving Kae unable to talk much/too loudly after; both during sex AND days after is a plus #//Kae WILL pout if Bedo jokes about it #//Bedo could want to experiment most any kink & Kae would be happy to comply. for research & as thanks for asking him to partake #//It’s a once-in-a-lifetime chance; after all. AND an experiment; so OFC Kae’d want to do whatevers and indulge him #//Plus he might learn smth new about himself he wouldn’t be able to with most anybody else #//Though Bedo might ruin sex for him with anybody else BC of how much he put him through & how damn GOOD Kae found it lmao #//He’d really let Bedo do damn near anything to him in the name of SCIENCE. no matter how overwhelming/overstimulating #//Mans gotta get his data; after all

[steakout-05]

barry casually having the prettiest fucking eyelashes of all halfbrick characters

(source: 'The Art Of Halfbrick' book, Barry's concept art)

#i feel like actually tagging this one properly #barry steakfries #concept art #his fucking eyelashes though!!! they're so pretty!!!! #there's no way this man can be so goddamn attractive for no reason #also his eyes are blue #even though they're actually brown #but his blue eyes look very nice on him :) #i like how they put all this detailing on his face and then his body's just a rough painted sketch #beautiful beautiful man

[chocobox]

Didn't post when i found out but i freaked out SO MUCH last night when i saw this in my mfc notifs. DECENT AVDOL FIGURE. FINALLY.

#sparkletwinkles #they made him so pretty 😭 the avdol figure scene has been soooooo bleak #i only have his sas and even that i'm not huge on #UGGGHHHHHHH #Looking at his face makes me feel sooooo UGHBBBGGG HE LOOKS SO CUTE AND PRETTY IM GOING TO UTHHHGHBB #ITS ESPECIALLY SMTH BECAUSE THEYVE BEEN SO. BAD. AT DOING HIS FACE #it's just a prize figure but the prototype looks really nice i hope the finished product doesn't stray too far #the paint is very simplistic though #LOVE THE STYLE BTW i love how these figures look more like sculptures than usual figures #jojo figures look really nice like that #my god i'm so excitedddd #ah um. and . um. Looks at his bust. Looks away

[icewindandboringhorror]

Daily Log 2

Trying out (probably just temporarily) making short daily-ish notes about things, in an attempt to see if it helps me be more reflective or productive lol.

Activities: Much less than yesterday, felt sick and sleepy so barely got anything done. It was also warmer inside today.. Very much dreading summer. I still feel like the people who ~~ love warm weather sooo much~~ must also have central heating and air and are able to escape the warmth, or at least have cool airy houses where they can get cross breezes or something.. I just fail to see how ANYONE could enjoy sweating all day because it's like 75F indoors, etc. grrbb,,, the headaches, sleepless sweaty nights, constant physical discomfort, etc. The next few days look cloudy and rainy though so.. yEs.. haha HA

Got a new charger for my old 2004 nokia phone so it actually turns on now, and recorded myself going through the ringtones and games. I might add the footage to a currently not fully edited video of me also looking through other electronics (old phones, turbo twist math, etc.). I love old ringtones actually and if I were rich, I would love to collect old phones specifically just to have a catalogue of what they're like and all of the sounds they contain.

Managed to have a tiny burst of energy and take photos of 3 outfits before my arms and shoulder started hurting and I got too warm.

Sent email to one doctor.

Translated like 3 words for the Avirrekava poem thing I mentioned yesterday. My language document is not organized very well at all so I've kind of lost my flow of working on it. I've heard about people making searchable dictionary type things for their conlangs, so I'd like to look more into that maybe. As well as making a custom font, though I don't know if that's more difficult for syllabaries (so wouldn't be directly linkable to a plain english alphabet keyboard?? eh?). Anyway, I need to finish the tapestry/painting thing/etc. soon though since I have no good place to put it. The canvas is warping a little just laying haphazardly on my closet floor lol.

Made one quick mspaint background image for the next batch of song snippet things for my jokey music youtube.

Edited like 10 minutes of the Giant Worldbuilding Slideshow Project.. couldn't focus on that either since being at the computer today irritated my shoulders and arms.

Notable sights: Saw 6 baby ducks and their parents swimming in a nearby pond!! It's interesting how their colors seem to change so much, and the young ones have the little spots on their back. Not much else, I was not very active lol..

Goals moving forward: Still working on consistent sleep schedule. Focus on social activities, finding new friends in the places I want to move, communicating with ones I have. Physical therapy exercises. Plant nasturtiums. Finish and upload videos, edit pictures, post the poll adventure thing that has been sitting in a draft for weeks (I thought I would get it done today, but alas.. I don't even have to do much, just proofread and post it, I just keep having no energy/being preoccupied with other things/hurts to be on computer.. grrr.. I want to continue the story lol >:T).

Notable foods: HAD ASPARAGUS YEaaaaaghhhHHHH!!!!!!!!! Asparagus SQUAD!!!!!!!!!! ... Also a few pieces of smoked gouda with lunch, one of my favorite cheeses.

#just posting these publicly since it feels more like I'm doing something or easier to hold yourself accountable if you make public #declarations of goals and progress or etc. .. perhaps.. for now.. #I'm just curious to see if it helps. I know some poeple do diary style stuff or etc. on social media to help with productivity so #worth trying for like a week at least lol #tired and sleepy of being tired and sleepy though. Every day that stuff like chronic health problems or weather or etc. #interfere with me getting stuff done and it's all stuff that I've also had on my todo list for like.. weeks at this point it's like.. oughh #insurmountable tasks ever looming piling upon my shoulderes... #I've been 'supposed to call a lab to shedule blood work' for like a week and a half now and everyday I get the number #out and look at it and just go 'hmm.... sooon...' and then suddenly it's 10pm and I didn't #You Know How It Is Folks. I'm going to write myself a script of exactly what to say and also tape it to my computer screen #Sometimes that helps. lol #I dont' feel like I need a full on caretaker or something at this point but someitmes I do think like.. in a few years with my various #physical and mental issues it would be nice to have a Person Who Functions Normally Socially come visit me like once #every two weeks to help me plan things and make phone calls. Same with creative stuff too though. I bet I'd be doing something creative as #a career by now if I had like. an Assigned Neurotypical Extrovert to network for me and help me navigate things like that bjhbhj #hashtag hermit problems. etc. etc. (not just like 'a little weird and asocial' but like.. 'near complete inability to function in society' #type hermit problems lol.. #ANYWAY.. .. #Also fighting the urge to have another personality typing phase. I can feel it creeping up. My 'once every 3 months when I get very #interested in the enneagram and other stuff again' type of thing. distracting myself with worldbuilding paintings instead ghgj #why don't you do a phone call for your blood work first maybe then you can spend 3 hours reading about tritypes or whatever #I have so many interests and hobbies but a handful of Main Ones and they never go away I just seem to take turns with them #Except worldbuilding I think that's always there. Genuinely again.. wish I could find some way to work that into a career. that is the only #thing I could to 1000 hours straight at any time of day under any circumstance. Kidnap me and lock me in a basement and I will be passing #my time thinking about what type of cheese elves make and all the things I'm going to write once I escape captivity ghjhj #EVEYRHTING else though lol.. kind of comes and goes. but can be annoying when it's suddenly the only thing my mind #wants to focus on. BUT yeagh.. ANYWAY... rambling again #daily log

[ankhisms]

feeling the sad little pathetic creature emotions this evening suddenly. i dont really want to dwell in feeling bad but it is a familiar deep sad feeling u know. itll be ok i just have to let it out

#to the tune of ghengis khan dont wanna feel like nooo one believes in meeeeeeee im experiencing like. something thats #akin to my very specific paranoia of being paranoid of everyone secretly hating me and talking badly about me or thinking im horrible #secretly where its like my brain is telling me that no one believes in me including my friends and logically i know this isnt true. i have #so many people in my life who i love and appreciate and who have supported me through hardships and who i want to support #in turn. but thats the thing with my paranoia and delusions yknow i can be at least somewhat aware that im being irrational but in the end #that doesnt make it go away. and my brain is just like. no one believes in you when it comes to the creative things you want to do #like my art and acting and poetry. and then my brain tells me that the people around me just pity me and dont want to outright #say that everything i make or try to create sucks because they feel bad for me. and again i KNOW this isnt true. and i #feel bad and feel like im being unfair to my friends bc if this paranoia so i dony want to bring it up to anyone beyond venting like this #and also i feel scared that somehow bringing this specific paranoia up would be like guilt tripping people into like being nice to me or #somethimg my words are weird but my braim very much is like you are not allowed to ask for support or tell people about being insecure #and i do think this overall has something to do with my deep issues of completely lacking any confidence in myself or my abilities #which is due to a life time of abuse etc etc and its hard to build up any confidence in myself when i am still stuck in #my toxic home with no real options to get out at this point for various reasons. but its like #what if i just suck at the things i love to do? what if my art is just bad or mediocre even? what if im a bad actor or a bad poet? what id #even though i feel a deep calling within my soul to create and do these things what if even though i only ever feel truly alive #when i am acting or painting. what if none of it is any good. and no one wants to tell me that because they pity me #again. on a certain level i know this is all just my paranoia and is unreasonable. but its a feeling thats really hard to shake off yknow #anyway. thank u if you read this all i prommy ill be ok i just had to get it out 💖

[executionersghost]

Feeling a bit better now, but this weekend’s convention has me under Cosplay CrunchTM

Cause my 4AM insomnia-addled brain went “You have a 3D printer and a whole sewing room: last minute Varre cosplay. Right now.”

So I can at least hope whatever weird burst of energy these past couple days have been stays with me after all this is over. I’d v much like to come back and write what I owe.

#I usually don’t do whole cosplays last minute but this idea fuckin Posessed Me #gonna be splattering red paint on everything tomorrow #and finish sewing the Augur for my choir cosplay #lots of other misc things to repair #but I haven’t felt as tired #I kinda slowed down today though urgh #it’s been nice though. feeling awake again. hope it lasts after all the stimulation is over hmmm :1