#felt similar about 'dark'

[museofvoid]

just finished watching 1899 and i did really enjoy it in the beginning, but not sure i like where it ended.... not saying it was bad necessarily, i just don’t care for that kind of story

#some spoilers in the tags #beginning was like 'cool period setting ship mystery!' #really enjoy that nothing scarier than the open sea in that time! #and even when the 'it's actually all a dream' plot started unraveling #i didn't really mind it #cause there were hints from the start #but then you start to queston if anything is real at all #even people's memories #which to be fair we also knew maura had fake memories from early on #so why not others #but idk #i just preferred the spooky ship mystery #over the -spoilers- 'where actually all in space and sleeping rn' #felt similar about 'dark' #which had the same writer and director #really liked the beginning #and then it kinda lost me when the explanations got too complicated #kinda disappointed really #but that's just me #1899 #1899 netflix

[druidonity2]

2021 Shadowlands fanart.

#world of warcraft #anduin wrynn #Garrosh follows this with something like 'yeah your not but maybe i am' so i sorta take the quote out of context but #I remember Anduin being very upset about the mere idea hes compaired to Arthas #Its always seemed to me that his similarities with arthas are something that lowkey bothers him because so many only see that in him #Of course people hurt by Arthas will be a bit weary of a human boy with blonde hair who claims to champion the light and justice #Especially one who is a prince of an important human kingdom #So its something hes self-conscious of and is keen to prove people he's not destine to fail #Which is why #even if he didn't become another Arthas entirely #what happens in SLs is so much more traumatic to him #He hurt people he cared about #he hurt innocent souls #((and his situation of mind control is more akin to sylvanas' then arthas but does he see that that way? Or do his fears blind his view?)) #And blizz didnt go into detail what this meant but Arthas was used against him literally #My headcanon is that Anduin knew and could feel it and hear arthas in the sword #but in the cinematic anduin is surprised by arthas' soul appearing so canon says anduin didnt know #He dissappers because he is unsure if the bad feelings he felt orignated from him or zovaal or arthas so #prehaps he is afraid that everyone was right to be weary of him #Maybe he didnt end up as arthas at the end of shadowlands but that doesnt mean he can't still go down a dark path #he is afraid he is more capable of becoming an unjust and cruel leader then he thought he could #His people have every right to be upset that he abandoned them #but they dont know that he left because he was afraid he could hurt them and feel joy from it

[thatswhatsushesaid]

the fool 🤝 jin guangyao being easily the most dynamic and compelling characters in their respective canons, likely for reasons that were substantially if not entirely unintentional on the part of their respective authors

#this thought brought to u by a conversation i had earlier today with confusion-and-more about all the different reasons jgy compels us #and remembering exactly how i felt when i first developed beloved brainrot back in the late 90s/early 00s #did robin hobb intend to write such an iconic queer deuteragonist when she first wrote assassin's apprentice? #just based on the panels i've attended while listening to her talk (and she is a very thoughtful and engaging speaker) #i truthfully don't think so since iirc she didn't intend for the fool to become as integral to the six duchies novels as he became #now try to imagine the six duchies books without him as the fulcrum that balances the weight of the whole narrative #now try to imagine mdzs without jin guangyao and his capacity for tremendous visionary change and also his darkness #also quick note don't read this post and think i'm trying to assert that they're similar characters because i am not #beyond the fact that i do not think that what makes them both so compelling to me #is what either author had in mind (at least consciously) while writing them #that said i'm so glad that they did. bless u robin bless u mxtx #thank you for the gift of the fool and jin guangyao #i don't think i'll ever get over the terminal case of brainrot i have about both of them and i'm fine with that #the fool #jin guangyao #he did crimes??? good for him 😌

[milkweedman]

Genuinely spending 2 hours a day just prepping the fiber, RIP

To be fair at least a third of that time is pushing the executive function button so I can start the next nest. They're unfortunately one of those activities that has enough steps that each one feels like it's own separate thing, so I have to Start Task each damn time. So there's a 5-10 minute cooldown between them.

Got 9 nests, I think (on top), middle is some fleece that's already had a lot of locks picked out so it's kind of jumbled, bottom is combing waste.

#That's how all fiber prep is for me... I bet if I was actually medicated it'd go faster #but what can you do. #anyway ive done similar things. 2021 tdf i was carding rolags as i went #but those are so much faster !!! like 2 minutes at most and usually closer to 30 seconds for a rolag that takes #around the same amount of time to spin as a nest of top #meanwhile the nests are 10 minutes each IF i have already picked the locks. which ive started doing bc it feels a little faster #and earlier this year i was spending an hour to an hour and a half before work every day combing southdown babydoll for sock yarn #but i was also spinning that up on supported spindles (i spin 3x slower on those than on my wheel) and over the course #of like a 10+ hour shift #so it felt a lot more reasonable #im combing more of this shetland per day than i was the southdown for sure #but yeah it spins up so much faster that its like. whole morning: combing #tiny but nice part of afternoon: actually spinning the top #idk a ton about how ancient people prepared their wool... definitely need to find some info bc it would be fascinating to know #but carding cloth is a pretty recent development in the grand scale of how long humans have kept sheep #so.... yeah i can imagine youd need like 4 kids combing the wool just to keep up with one experienced spinner #or else that one spinner is spending all damn morning prepping wool #its not a great nighttime activity bc if you cant see real well then your prep really suffers #easier to spin in the near dark than prep in the near dark by a long shot #idk ! cool to think about #im rly intruiged by sally pointers video on that blackthorn hand hackle thing (i cant remember the name RIP) #feels like it could comb wool too ? or at least you could try and then make something better when that failed #but a comb of some kind is just gonna be the easiest thing to make if nothing else ... #palm comb #tour de fleece #tour de fleece 2023 #wool prep

[sonknuxadow]

What if Werehog Sonic got infected with the metal virus and Metal Sonic got hit with Dark Gaia energy? 2 metal werehogs but of a different kind.

hmmmm i think that the effects dark gaia would have on metal sonic would be very different than the effects it had on sonic i feel like it would be more like possession than a physical transformation. because theyre a robot . and if they were to get a proper werehog form it would be something that eggman designed for them or something

#what if i started calling sonic flesh sonic or something when talking about sonic and metal at the same time. that would be funny i think #anyway as for werehog and metal virus i think i takled about that already like very recently . maybe thats what prompted this idk #i remember some people suggestiong that hes like #immune. to it #the metal virus #because dark gaia energy being from a literal god and all would be protecting him from it #but idk if thats what i personally think would happen #also i remember . at the start of the arc. when he first got infected #there was a panel where he was like ''im not used to being a liability but ive dealt with similar things before #so hopefully ill be fine'' and werehog was shown as an example. of him being a liability before. bestie what did you mean by that #are you implying you felt like you were a dnager to your friends or that you felt useless like that or something . please elaborate . #so anyway just based on that one scene alone i think combining werehog and the metal virus stuff could be really interesting #asks

[lightandfellowship]

Vor and Kairi are both like "Okay, change is really scary and tbh I'd prefer things to just stay the same, but! I acknowledge that change is inevitable and so I will confront my fears head-on and adapt!" and then they each choose a course of action that falls on an opposite extreme.

Vor leaves her friends (potentially with the intention of it being a permanent separation based on Eraqus' comments), realizing that she won't ever grow as a person as long as she's over-reliant on her friends for comfort, and also realizing that trying to stay by their side forever is a futile effort anyway that'll just cause her pain. To her, "adapting to change" means being willing to change her circumstances, and then hopefully she, too, will change as a result. Vor is prioritizing her personal feelings, desires, and identity at the cost of her relationships, when perhaps a balance would be more ideal.

So Vor's approach is thus: (1. Leaves her friends (2. Changes her circumstances in order to change herself (3. Prioritizes herself over her friends.

Kairi, on the other hand, chases after her friends relentlessly, forever trying to catch up to them, convinced that if she just "gets strong like them", wields a Keyblade like them, fights like them, that she'll no longer be left behind and exploited by the villains all the time. To her, "adapting to change" means being willing to change herself, and then hopefully her circumstances, too, will change as a result. Kairi is prioritizing her relationships (her worth relative to her friends, and her worth to her friends) at the cost of her personal feelings, desires, and identity, when--again--perhaps a balance would be more ideal.

So Kairi's approach is thus: (1. Stays with her friends (2. Changes herself in order to change her circumstances (3. Prioritizes her friends over herself.

Maybe if Vor and Kairi had met (in a theoretical AU scenario, of course) they could have learned something from each other, and found that balance sooner.

#khdr #kingdom hearts dark road #kh vor #rambling about dim path #ch tag: vo #Also it's implied that Vo only became a wielder to follow her friends just like Kai #(Because she seemingly doesn't have a reason for why she became one) #So another similarity between them there #I know Kai wanting to 'get stronger' and fight better could qualify as personal desires but #I don't think fighting was ever something she truly wanted. She just felt like she had to. #In KH 2 one of her NPC dialogs is like (paraphrased) 'It's not fair that you guys get hurt and I don't' #IMO it's a 'wanting to do the right thing' sort of thing #Also feeling like it's the only way forward. The only way to stay with her friends. #If given the choice I think she'd much prefer that they all just went home and got to /stay/ home #And in any case I think she swallows a lot of her true feelings to be 'strong' and not be a burden to her friends #So yeah. Either way. Prioritizing her friends over herself I think! #khdr spoilers

[usersukuna]

queer culture is being obsessed and attracted to a fictional character but not being able to decide if you want to fuck them or want their gender

#this post is about taika waititi as blackbeard #in case you were wondering #i've never felt like this before #jfc #i wanna fuck him but also be just like him #i want his hair #i want his fucking dark brown eyes #i want to cover my body with tattoos #i wish i were a man and could grow a beard and dress up just like That #and tie my hair just like That #but i also WANT HIM y'know what i mean #babygirl i wanna pull your hair and do unspeakable things to you but i also wish i were you. #personal #txt post #i saw someone write a tag or a post similar to this one #but i COULDN'T FIND IT ANYWHERE #if anyone knows what post i'm talking about send me the link please i beg

[caffeinatedopossum]

Suddenly realizing I've had seizures before :0 but this was just the first one where someone who knew what it was was there to witness it (my girlfriend)

That's so cool and definitely not terrifying /s

#for context i dont spasm uncontrollably like people imagine seizures #i think from the outside it probably just looks like im having a bunch of tics and staring intently and being unresponsive #but then afterwards i end up being really confused and disoriented and forgetful #so its been very easy to forget about the seizures i had in the past because i didnt remember them #until just recently when i was like 'huh that felt familiar-' #from my perspective though its like uh idk its really weird #its a bit different every time but just in general #i tend to be unresponsive even if i can tell whats happening around me #i cant talk or control what my body is doing but i know what part is moving (usually jerkinv my head or arms) #my muscles feel either really rigid or really lax #and then my vision gets so weird #everything is sparkly like colorful static and the edges of my vision gets really dark #and there's intermittent flashes of lights or floating shadows #it feels like im extremely focused and very spaced out at the same time #i keep describing it like my brain is smashing all the buttons at once cause thats what it feels like #its also kinda similar to the feeling of being electrocuted? but i dont think many of you will know what that feels like #hopefully you wont at least #i just happen to #its like a weird buzzing just under your skin that doesnt exactly hurt but doesnt exactly not hurt either #it would be like the pain of a constantly tightened muscle- not painful at first but like strenuous to endure ? #and thdn painful if it stays like that or gets worse #i feel like im not allowed to say i had a seizure because i cant go to doctors about it so i cant get diagnosed >_< #but the thing is not bei g diagnosed isnt gonna stop me from having them #yay denial /j #im hoping theyre just dissociative seizures because god i cannot deal with epilepsy on top of everything else rn #and also because i cant see doctors right now sooo #god im exhausted and scared but i feel like those words dont even measure up to how im doing right now #i dont know. im just enduring #thats all i can really do i think #but i hope i dont have to much longer...

[eldritch-elrics]

the thing about dark souls is. like. it's hard to articulate but man that game makes me feel like i'm discovering the joy of video games for the first time. i keep getting this feeling like "this game was made for me" and "this is what video games should be" - is that just because hollow knight was such a formative experience for me? or is dark souls really that good/unique? it's certainly rough around the edges: i've played many games i think are "better," but dark souls evokes the feeling of existing in a world in a certain way i don't think i've ever gotten from anything else.

i'm also coming at it from the really weird perspective of someone who could only play 2D games (and games without intensive graphics) for the longest time. so i've had this sort of backwards development where i started out playing exclusively indie games and now i'm discovering that actually, there's a lot of extremely good AAA stuff! it's really exciting to have this whole new world opened up. (though i hope it won't skew my expectations for indies too much lol.) and crazy too... 2 years ago i never would have thought i'd be capable of playing dark souls (because it's hard and i've not been a "gamer" for as long as my peers have, because simulation sickness made all 3D games hard for me for a while, because at times it has this weird dudebro culture around it) ! and yet!!! what the fuck!! screw gatekeeping; this game was made for me!

#my post #video games #dark souls #4am ramblings #i just like. i picked up the game and instantly i could 'read' it #not like i was good at it. not like it didn't surprise me. but it feels like we are speaking the same language #for contrast: nier automata is an amazing game that i felt a lot of similar things about #but it did not feel like we were speaking the same language

[waluigisgaybf]

Me and my brother grew up playing Baldurs Gate Dark Alliance 1 and 2 together over and over- and its funny because despite how often we played them both I remember jack fucking shit from them

#we both wanna play them again soon #still have them and our old ps2 #we replayed the first and half the second one a few years ago #for the first time since we had since we were TINY #so I can KIND OF remember stuff #Id actually remembered Drizzit ever since the first time wed played those games #but like nothing about ANY of his story stuff lmao #he was just a character you could play with a cheat #and we knew he was other games we didnt have #But ALSO #Elfsong tavern #I was actually so fucking pumped in BG3 when I realized Id get to go to elfsong #The cellar full of rats was an absolutely beautiful lil homage 😭👌💖 #Also felt cool literally just because I knew why Elfsong was called elfsong #ngl I like Dark Alliances take on the elfsong better 😳 #ALSO WAIT #I THINK ITS THE SECOND GAME #THERES A DROW NECROMANCER I LIKED TO PLAY #AND I FEEL LIKE I REMEMBER HIS STORY BEING VERY SIMILAR TO THE DARK URGE IN BG3 #THE BIGGEST DIFFERENCE IS JUST CULT AND BAAHL VS A DROW KINDGDOM AND JUST BEING EVIL CAUSE #Memory loss and having a past as a big time evil murderer tho #and regaining memories through the game while also having a chance to be a better dude #He like #did or tried to commit mass geneocide in some kingdom or city #and got exiled and shit #I dont know why he lost his memory #or what his name even was lmao

[sashimiyas]

wishing i had the bravery to write for other fandoms

#reinas.inretrograde #i don’t know anyone #i don’t even know myself #but i want to write a miserable and dark ex-husband fic with sukuna #and single! dad fic with natsuo where i put that poor man through miseries and self pitiful scenarios #bc he has so many repressed emotions and is quite similar to his father. a rude awakening #it ends happy bc that’s what he deserves! eventually #but i literally look at them and i’m like idk who you even are #but i guess that’s how i felt about sakusa at one point. literally freaking out about my first little drabble of him but got some confidence #bc tee showed up and tee’s praise means a lot <3 #BUT I DONT KNOW THEM #shinsou too. shinsou who is so alone in the world. who’s never had a sincere touch in his life and you show him light #circling back to sukuna i want it to have gone girl vibes but that’s beyond my comfort zone #bye i’ve rambled enough! but it’s on you if you made it this far!! #it literally asked you to see all of whatever so!! #kiss kiss! have a good day? #good day!!!!!!!

[deepwoundsandfadedscars]

.

#i am just. so emotionally exhausted about this friend group implosion and i haven't even talked to the person who it all started with #those of us who are sticking together were talking about it and how our formerly mutual friend used to handle certain topics yesterday #and then today that whole thing with the fic theft (I think i've mentioned that here before but whatever) was still tickling my brain #as it has literally every day since it happened #I was like 'yo fam can i rant about something else that [name] did that i'm upset about but can't talk to them about' #and they're all like fuck yeah spill it #so i explained what happened with that fic #AND THEY ALL CHIMED IN THAT HE DID IT TO THEM TOO #they all had very similar experiences with him that eventually led to not sharing new fics with him #or even talking about characters with him cause he thought he knew better for the characters #even though us writers found the subject matter to be cathartic; like hurt/comfort or angst- that sort of stuff #but he'd be like 'oh that's so dark i'm adopting this character and i'll give them a better life' #he actually said that to one of my friends #and yeah he rewrote one of my fics and then posted it on ao3 without asking me #so now i'm even more upset about this #he hasn't talked to me about this whole situation yet and i don't really want to be the one to bring it up first #i dread the day he decides to talk to me #but for now i'm just. not talking in his discord server #those of us that sided with the guy he blocked and publicly declared they weren't friends anymore have started a new server #and it feels much more chill. i never really realized how much it felt like walking on eggshells around him trying not to upset him #hell i didn't even know to what degree of atheism many of the other server members had been until we got out of there #another person is even in the same boat as me where we were both raised christian but dumped that when we figured out we were queer #and yet this former friend is self described as queer and all but still works for a christian organization who is very vocally anti-lgbt #he never wanted to talk about where he worked and now i know why 🙄 #and then he would post religious guilt tripping stuff too and that was extremely triggering #that was over a year ago but it still bothers me #whatever. washing my hands of him; don't want to talk to him again if i can get away with it #at least i don't live in the same country as him; let alone the same town like some of the others who've unfriended him #i'm glad others understand how i feel about what he did with my fic but it sucks that he did it to so many people #kee speaks

[ectoplasmer]

I don’t think I’ve ever truly articulated just how special these characters are to me. I’ve never stayed this interested and invested in a piece of media before, at least within recent memory

#i’m always talking about how the way i feel towards my f/os is ‘different’ but like #i don’t think i’ve ever really explained why it’s different?? #with my past f/os even though i would insert them into my life *occasionally* everything i did with them was mostly contained to an s/i- #-that i just projected heavily on #most of the time i wouldn’t even imagine them in my house or with me unless i was having a really hard time #my love for them was still there of course but it wasn’t as nearly direct as it is for my current f/os #with my current f/os something was just… different. that’s what i keep saying #the way i felt towards them was different. the way i approached calling them an f/o was different #i didn’t look at them and immediately go ‘yeah that’s gonna be my favorite character’ like i did for most of my other f/os #this was… different. it felt almost more personal somehow #heck i think the whole reason i got so attached to ryou was because i played nightmare troubadour and got him onto my friends list #maybe it’s because they might’ve played a role in my childhood maybe it was because there was more about them to learn about #the way my love grew for them was just… that. it grew. it wasn’t there from the start but it’s definitely there now #most of my other fictional crushes didn’t work that way. is that weird? #it felt more personal because it took longer for me to feel what i feel for them now. there’s also something about them that just felt more #i almost want to say ‘real’? something sbout them felt more real to me than my other f/os were #even though my f/os face ‘shadow games’ and dark ancient egyptian magic on a daily basis… they felt more relatable somehow #when you really get down to it they’re just… teenagers. teenagers that are lowkey messed up and probably need help #and y’know what? on a much smaller scale i might be exactly that too. and maybe that’s why they felt much more real and understandable to me #any ‘issues’ or similar problems i share with them are obviously much more smaller when compared to their versions of it but #seeing someone else face those issues (even on a much larger scale) makes me feel less isolated in it. less like no one could understand #because i see that *they* can understand how i feel. *they* can feel just as alone as me with a problem despite the both of us sharing it #i can understand them and why they do things because we’re both just. absurd teenagers. and that gives us familiarity #my feelings towards my f/os are ‘different’ because they’re different. they’re more real and feel more familiar than any of my other f/os #and in someway… i think my love for them feels more real too. #quartzshipping #anyway it is absolutely horrific yet amazing that i have been interested in this series for a year and (almost) five months now #i’m happy regardless that it’s gone on this long. sometimes i worry that maybe it’ll end at some point but #i think i need to stop worrying about it and just enjoy it as it is now #it’ll fall off when it falls off. all that matters right now is that it makes me and others happy and that i feel something towards it

[gyudons]

despicable

updates as of 22 oct

Travis Dermott knew that he would draw attention with his actions in the Coyotes’ home opener against the Anaheim Ducks at Mullett Arena on Saturday. The Arizona defenseman just hoped that the spotlight might shine on the issue that he was addressing, not on him.

“You don’t really want to go against rules that are put in place by your employer, but there’s some people who took some positive things from it,” Dermott said. “That’s kind of what I’m looking to impact.

“You want to have everyone feel included and that’s something that I have felt passionate about for a long time in my career. It’s not like I just just jumped on this train. It’s something that I’ve felt has been lacking in the hockey community for a while. I feel like we need supporters of a movement like this; to have everyone feel included and really to beat home the idea that hockey is for everyone.”

“I won’t lie,” said Dermott, who is playing on a one-year, two-way contract. “From the outside, it’s easy to see that I’m putting my career on the line for something. I definitely went through some emotional ups and downs that night, not regretting anything by any means, but I’d love to have maybe done a couple of steps a little different by making sure that everyone was aware of what was going on before I did it.

“I don’t want to put my teammates or my coaches or my GMs or the equipment managers in any kind of bad light when it’s their job to kind of look out for something like this happening. It was definitely something that I did just by myself and was prepared to kind of deal with whatever repercussions the league decides to push towards that. I’m not going to back off and say that this battle is won, but we’re going to find better ways to do it.”

As Dermott noted, LGBTQ+ inclusion is an issue that he has supported for a long time. Without getting into specifics, Dermott said the issue is personal for him because it impacts people close to him.

“I’d be lying if I said I haven’t shed tears about this on multiple occasions,” he said. “So yeah, it’s something I’m definitely very passionate about.

“I’ve met a lot of people that from the outside, it looks like they have everything going right in their life and they have a smile on their face every time they talk to you. But sometimes when we get closer to people and get comfortable enough for them to open up to you, you can see that there’s some pretty dark stuff happening to some good people. It doesn’t take too many times encountering something like that for it to really change someone.

“I’ve been blessed to have some of those opportunities put in front of me to really change my view of what being a good person means; what being a good father and a good example and role model means going forward. You really see how people are hurting and it’s because of a system that maybe no one’s intentionally trying to be malicious about, but until you’ve really had that first-person experience seeing people hurting from it right in front of you, it’s tough to kind of take steps.”

It would be a surprise if the league handed down any sort of punishment. The optics alone would add to the public relations damage that the original ban created. Even so, Dermott reiterated his desire to bring the entire franchise into the fold before he takes similar actions in the future, but he also made it clear that he will not be silenced on the topic.

“It’s not like I’m shutting up and going away,” he said. “I know more questions are going to be coming. We’re just going to be as prepared as we can be to just spread love. That’s the thing. It’s gay pride that we’re talking about, but it could be men’s health. It could be any war. It’s just wanting world peace. Everyone’s got to love each other a little bit more.

“Like my parents said growing up, ‘How awesome would it be to be the guy that people look up to?’ That’s what really hit home when I was a kid, especially from my mom. You want to grow up and be that guy. You want to be the guy that’s having the impact on kids like NHL players had on you. If they had been racist or bigoted, that’s going to have an effect on you.

“With how many eyes are on us, especially with the young kids coming up in the new generation, you want to put as much positive love into their brain as you can. You want them to see that it’s not just being taught or coming from maybe their parents at home. They need to see it in the public eye for it to really make an effect.”

#nhl #pride #lgbt #gay #queer #hockey

[infizero]

also having now actually seen the whole thing adventure time has skyrocketed into one of my favorite shows ever. like for real i liked it as a kid and have always had a fondness for it ever since but rewatching it now has made me realize Just how fucking good it is and how unlike anything else it is. its so good and appeals to ME specifically in so many ways please for the love of god if you haven't watched adventure time WATCH IT. WATCH IT RIGHT NOW

#ALSO. i think i may have mentioned this before but i really do think AT has one of the best senses of worldbuilding and continuity #i've seen in a cartoon. other than like steven universe maybe (gee i wonder how that happened) #but seriously like the fact that its able to be so goofy and weird a lot of the time while still constantly keeping in mind all these thing #and having them inform the story and world in realistic ways is so good it has really blown my mind #nothing is ever retconned nothing is ever forgotten about. even the seemingly most meaningless things will still be remembered #and referenced by the characters because thats how people are!! they dont just have stuff happen to and around them and then never #bring it up again!! but they also dont constantly go ''remember when we did xyz?'' stuff just comes up naturally if it makes sense #for it to do so. and i think thats so fucking incredible and admirable #AT's flavor of weirdness and comedy and raw emotion is something so wonderful and perfectly aligned with how i like my stories #and it really does have a vibe that is unlike anything else. i am going to cry thinking about it #like the closest thing i can think of. and lord forgive me but im being genuine in terms of vibes closest thing i can think of that #i've experienced at least is dsmp. in the way that there are things that are so fucking dumb and strange and things that are so gut #wrenchingly emotional and beautiful and simple and often those things are intertwined. its stupid and weird and funny and sad #its silly its dark its fun its tragic #something about both of them just feels like a representation of the human spirit in its purest form to me. they impact me the most #because they represent all sides and experiences of existing #idk. but ive always felt like this even before i got into AT again. i said a while ago if dsmp was made into a show it would HAVE to #be an adventure time style cartoon. and every time i see fanart drawn in the AT style or whatever it makes me so happy even now #ANYWAYS. sorry to derail but i really have missed the vibes of the dsmp and in a weird way AT felt a lot similar and i really love that #FUCKKKK not me getting emotional over the indominable human spirit. im gonna go saw my legs off BYE I LOVE ADVENTURE TIME #serena.txt

[cordeliawhohung]

consider this short drabble a thank you gift for 1.5k followers!

mafia!141 masterlist

mafia!Simon x shy!fem!Reader: smut, oral (m receiving), brief p in v

"Can I suck your dick?"

Simon had just lined himself up at your entrance when those words left your mouth and he became as still as a statue when they registered in his mind. Positioned underneath him on the bed, you looked up at him with slightly wide eyes as if your request shocked even yourself. It was something you had thought about for quite some time; how Simon always seemed to give and yet rarely ask for anything in return, and you wanted to change that.

You just didn't think you'd blurt your thoughts out so suddenly like that.

Surprised, Simon leaned back to look at you while his hand still gripped his hardened cock. Shifting under his gaze, you propped yourself up on your elbows as you waited for his answer. You wished you hadn't said it so suddenly like you did, but the thought most likely would have never passed your lips if you had attempted to do it any other way.

"That what you want?" he asked.

Though he questioned you to ensure that was something you wanted of your own accord, you could see the dark glint of want in his eyes. Saw the way his tongue lightly wet his lips and how his hand squeezed the tip of his cock like he already imagined your mouth around him. Eagerly, you nodded as you pushed yourself up into a sitting position, mind already racing about how you were supposed to do it properly.

"Yes... please."

After placing a short and heavy kiss on your lips, Simon slipped to the side, reversing your positions. He propped himself up on the plush pillows near the headboard while you sat between his legs where his thick and powerful thighs kept your corralled like an animal. With one hand still holding himself, Simon reached for your face with the other as he caressed your cheek with his thumb.

"Take your time, yeah?" he prompted. His dark eyes looked at you adoringly while his hips impatiently bucked under his own stimulation. "You can stop whenever you want."

Once again you nodded as you breathed out a simple confirmation before your hand replaced his. While you settled between his legs, you slowly stroked at him as you thumbed over the smooth jewelry of his piercings. Eventually your lips brushed against the warm tip of his cock, wetting your mouth with his precum.

As your mouth gently dropped open, you tried not to think too hard about everything. Simon always told you that type of stuff was supposed to come easy and natural, to not force it and just let your desires take control. So you did just that as you slowly lowered yourself onto him, mouth opening impossibly wide in order to accommodate the sheer girth of him.

He tasted salty, almost refreshingly so, and you couldn't help but swirl your tongue around his glands in an attempt to soak up more of that flavor. Simon's thighs tensed on either side of you, and his breathy sigh didn't go unnoticed by you. You wanted more, to draw out more of those pitchy moans, to make him feel just as good as he always made you, so you pressed forward to take more of him into your mouth. He brushed against your soft palate similar to how he always pressed against your cervix, and the unfamiliar feeling made you gag.

"Easy sweetheart," he warned as he gently pushed you back. "Go slower... yes, fuck just like that..."

Eventually you found your rhythm. Whatever you couldn't take in your mouth you used your hands to make up for as you bobbed your head along his length. Simon's breathing became strained like he had to hold himself back from fucking up into your mouth like a madman, but you noticed that every time your swirled your tongue around the piercings on his glands, it forced his hips to buck ever so slightly.

A tingling sensation settled over your lips the longer you worked at him and your jaw began to ache from the awkward position but you pushed forward. You felt his hand rest gently on the back of your head, carefully guiding you along him as he aided you in setting a pace that felt good but wasn't too much for you. His quieted moans eventually transformed into unrestrained grunts as you brought him closer to the edge. The warmth of your mouth and soft lips around him was enough to drive him to insanity, and just as his stomach tensed, just as he was about to spill into your mouth, he gently pulled you off of him.

Panting, you sat back on your haunches as you gave Simon a glazed yet confused look. A long stream of spit dribbled down your chin and you quickly wiped it away on the back of your hand as you tried to catch your breath in order to ask him what was wrong. His cock glistened with your saliva and it seemed to twitch in frustration at the sudden absence of pleasure.

"C'mere," he said, his voice dark and husky. His hands were already on your waist where he excitedly pulled you closer to him, forcing you to straddle his hips.

"But I wasn't done," you attempted to retort.

Simon chuckled at you as he once more lined his cock up against your heat, drawing a sharp gasp out of you. In an attempt to keep yourself steady, your hands came up to rest on his shoulders as he ever so slowly lowered you onto him, sliding into you with ease due to how well you slicked him up.

"You can suck me off properly another time, sweetheart," he said with a tight jaw. He hissed as your cunt began to swallow him, tight muscles pulling him into you like he never belonged anywhere else. "Did you really think you could make me feel that good and get nothin' in return?"

Your head fell forward and into his shoulder with a soft gasp as he bottomed out, filling you with ease and to the brim. As he began to gently move you up and down, his hips bucked up to meet you halfway where he kissed your cervix with each thrust.

"Fuck... no, no. I reward my girl for bein' good, yeah?"

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