#getting WAY ahead of myself here

[sunnibits]

not me literally daydreaming about creating a drag persona as if I’m not freshly high school graduated and too anxious to even make a phone call let alone perform in front of dozens of people

#aughhhh I have this newfound fantasy of being like a drag king tho…. a drag monarch if you will. a drag princet. a drag courtier. #BUT I CANT FUCKING DANCE HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO- sigh. #getting WAY ahead of myself here

[sysig]

2023 Art Purge

Original edition! Ended up having to split the doodles into two parts, I didn’t mean to end up with so many left over but oops - onto the commentary!

Remember crayon Edgar? I drew this one at the same time! Loosely based off Circus Baby but really just more of a general cutesy look - layering with colours is fun :)

Eyes, every year. Two general eyes, and two characters! Bottom left is Souichi, and bottom right is Vivian :) Vivian always gets a spare eye haha

Some concept art for a false backpack I still kinda wanna make - it’d be a prop for a game I made earlier this year, as the prize container! It’s meant to be kind of like a pop-up shop that can fold away fairly small and hold a bunch of small items safely and inconspicuously, though it wouldn’t actually work as a real backpack lol

Some Cherubsona concept art, thinking about their hair and the light rays - I considered having a single asymmetrical hair tuft, I think while I was still on the fence about having asymmetrical wings as well - I’m happy with the final design :)

And some baby angels! Based on my DQIX/AGE headcanons/actual canon lol, took a few tries to get a design I was happy with before settling on the bottom-most one with the fuzzed ears, lolling about haha. Cute!

Also thinking about “Fallen” designs, since my cherubsona is meant to be a fallen angel - or even just biblically accurate angels! Maybe they became more normal-looking after falling haha

More Charm doodles based on the Hungry idea - neither Frankenstein nor Zombies were quite what I was looking for, but they were close! Poor Charm, even if it is a Look

More eyes! Concept sketches of the Yanderapy boys :D Mitsu’s swirls and Ishida’s sleepy ♥ eye expression haha

An alternate panel of Mitsu being shy to admit his love language haha, I wanted his expression to be a little more visible but him hiding in the book is also very cute haha

Little doodle of Ishida singing Daisy Bell! He’s half-crazy all for the love of Mitsu after all

Technically these are from later in the year but I was really hoping to have the set up for a silly concept rolling - Ishida wants to play a game! The game would allow each of them to take a turn, with the goal of the game to be to sneak a gift into the other’s bag or pocket when he’s not looking. A cute and silly and fun concept to reverse pick-pocket the other and give a little treat! Totally harmless and not at all strange or weird or with any kind of underlying sinister vibes!

The punchline of course was that since they’re both yanderes that it basically turns into stalking each other, which as featured here, Mitsu is very into, who could have guess lol. The double punchline is that they’re both so aware of/obsessed with each other that they notice each other right away, but play along because it’s obvious that they’re both enjoying it haha It’s yandere enrichment! Ishida would also get a real rush from “hunting” Mitsu, as would Mitsu enjoy being “hunted” - yet more twisted love languages ♥

Random deer :) Actually one of the animals I considered for Dahlia early on but decided to scrap, because I don’t know how to draw deer lol

Also went through a couple scrapped designs for her artist friend, just to make sure I explored all my options thoroughly! I’m glad I did, but I’m happiest with the one I decided on, of course

Brief Dahlia and Tala meeting. They’re unsure of each other! Squirrels and dogs don’t have the best track record admittedly

Bit of vent :( Bar’s always good for it ♥

Bucket! :D Been a bit since I drew anyone from that cast, though I somehow made him on-model by accident lol, and of course he’s still cute! That’s the important part really

Eyesssssssss <3 <3 On the left were some quick comparisons between dot/filled-in eyes and eyes with a differentiated pupil and iris, since I’ve been defaulting to dark eyes a lot lately (it’s the Vargas influence lol); and on the right were a bunch of Cure eyes! I think at least partially studied off of some character creators? Lots of eye styles to choose from, which one suits her the best hmm. She has very sparkly eyes

And another sort-of study off a character creator haha, it’s very cute! Not very Cure, though

One of the early ideas that made me want to dig her out of storage was actually an animation idea that was maybe a liiiiiittle ambitious to go about making without her having a fixed design lol - I’ve always been a fan of magical girl transformations that completely glow-blot out the body and then they explode into frills and bows and fluff at the end haha. I would still like to come back to the idea at some point!

Ended up with a good handful of muscle studies, even after the ones I already posted - a lot of the poses ended up silly haha

And a lot of skull/face/neck studies as well, with mixed success :P

I’ll get it figured out eventually!

Sometimes it’s fun to just doodle around, shapes :) My own original human style feels so constantly in flux with the fanart I like to make and having so many non-human characters haha, probably doesn’t help that I prefer high stylism

A trio! They look kinda familiar, hmmm....

Yet more eyes lol, the first trying to figure shines. You can really see what a lack of editing does to the implied shapes pfft ♪

Always trying to figure out how to dragons! Another one I’ll have to get to Someday. There’s gotta be a trick to them >:0

Out of general studies and tests - hey I thought Just Desserts already had a sona??? And that she was like the most important and best and all that?? I got curious what my sona might be in the JD universe without being the villain haha, and I came up with a Chocolate-Chip Brioche Bun lad! :D I’ve always had something of an affinity for brioche, also somewhat inspired by Edgeworth’s cravat haha. But would Charm still exist and be wreaking havoc, or would this be the alternate universe Charm equivalent?? ‘Cause they’re definitely not “Charm”

Speaking of Charm tho! She’s holding a tooth lol - something something, candy people mining teeth? Because cavities? I dunno lol, but she’s certainly not all that much bigger than a tooth so that’s some fun scale for you :)

And finishing off with some cutesie little chibis :) I made the first as a reference for proportions, and the second to show how my holosona would look in that style haha, what a cute evil computer

#Doodles #Original #Long post #Extreme link-out edition lol #Multiple editions! #Had to be working on this one up to the last minute since y'know - still making even up to the end of the year! #Luckily this one was very well-behaved and didn't break even a little bit :) Very polite! Very appreciated haha #I have to admit I'm a little nervous about the fanart one on that front #But for now! Mostly silly sona stuff and OCs and the like :D Some concept art here and there #I'm gonna try harder in 2024 to have fewer leftovers - I like all of these! I want to show them off in their good timing! #I had fewer mixed salad greens in one post this year :0 That's on me #It's tough when I only end up with a small handful of doodles leftover to any given subject! But it's fine if some sets are smaller haha #I think the eyes will always have a spot in the end-of-year roundups tho haha #As always there'll be more 2023 doodles on the way! More than the previous years actually since I've gotten these roundups done early #Cuts both ways haha - queues still absolutely kill me |P But they do give me a cushion to work on bigger projects! #Just need the focus and energy for them lol #Anyway I'm getting ahead of myself a bit lol - there's still a whole 'nother one of these coming up sheesh lol #And I doubt that one will be as polite XP Even more reason to like this one! Haha #I'll letcha know when 2024 is ''officially'' here art-wise - I can tell you it won't be for a while haha

[madhushala]

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#this girl was joking about another girl in my batch fasting on karvachauth for her boyfriend and it was the light jokes so it was okay #but then she said why is she doing it her caste is completely different from his her parents would kill her #and that how college relationships are only for time being until you're in college and you're there for each other's support #and that nothing in college couples is that serious and they may turn out just good friends in future #and there's no reason to worship your love because it's just 'casual'??!! #ive so many feelings and a little heartbreak #ive already tried thinking about future but you know it 2ould just spiral me and thinking tha ahead doesn't make sense know #logically speaking she's right that we can go through SO MANY changes during the college years and no one knows anything ahead #but idk like i love him its not just oh im in college and ive got a boyfriend to get my nights busier and go on silly pretend dates #i didn't date anyone for nineteen years because i just wouldn't date anyone #its just surprising me as well how i came here so clueless and how everything led to each other and then into us #and i don't say stuff like marriage and kids because that's too huge. just too huge right now to think off #and that's also a way of keeping myself humble #and i would love love love to think about a future too not just yet it's too quick and im okay understanding everything rather than diving #but what she said. is so um its messing with my brain #ofc im not letting it over weigh me not at least from a person who's with multiple seniors #sends all her money to her so called youtuber bf #and goes to private places with some other guy #who's in everything for casual #but i don't know what im supposed to do with it right now #playing around my head #or maybe i should just trust the process

[gentlethorns]

hmmm getting in my head a little bit about some issues i'm already seeing in my first draft that ik i'll need to confront in my second draft. but i genuinely just have to be like *sprays my overcritical mind w a spray bottle* no!!!!! let me finish the first draft first!!!!!!

#she bork #idk i think i'm getting ahead of myself bc again. work that is this consistent and like structurally solid is new and scary to me bc like #the greater the potential for a payoff the greater the potential for a fumble. the stakes are higher. while never being able to finish #anything was torturous in its own way it was easy in the sense that i never had to confront the idea of like 'what if i finish it and polish #the fuck out of it to the absolute furthest extent of my experience and ability . .. and it's still not good enough.' it was always just #like 'aw shucks! i've run out of steam once again. if only i could see something through to the end i could write the next great american #novel i just know it :/ ah well. try again next week!' but now nothing is in my way whatsoever so i'm like aw fuck that is so scary like if #nothing comes of this project it will be My Fault. also sorry this is all i have spoken about on here for like a month but i'm STILL not #done yapping about it and you all are my captive audience and WILL be forced to listen to each and every thought i have about this wip. #sorry but too bad #anyway once again offering that if anyone is curious about this wip i am open to questions or discussion. one thing about me (which i'm sure #y'all know by now) is that i LOVE. to yap #novel 2024

[l1ghtn1ngstr1kez]

holy shit

i just got to spiral hill and decided to look around for a bit before all the shops closed and stuff and...

everything's ME sized!!! not human sized!!! what!!!

all of the buildings are small!! the stores, the food stands, the houses, everything!! even the clothes in the boutique are all small!! not just the kid's clothes!!

and there's mobians everywhere!! people don't have to look down at me to talk to me!! this is awesome!!

#⚡️.txt #literally the first thing i noticed is the fact that everything is so much smaller #i'm loving it here already #also everyone has been really nice it's kinda weird #humans usually just kinda overlook me. or give me weird looks #everyone here is another mobian and is like. normal #it's so weird?? but also so so refreshing like wow #// #sonic the hedgehog #sonic oc #sonicsona #rp #finding a place where they fit in and belong :) sure hope no future revelations ruin that :) #(I'm getting way ahead of myself lol) -mod

[magnusbae]

I confess, I am... kinda excited ; w ;

#sometimes i feel like all i do is just work and survive #once in a while get myself a takeout #i work so much and what for #i never buy anything it's so depressing to think about #since bookdepository closed even my occasional 'buy a book i'd never read' shenanigans stopped #i was lately contemplating buying a new pc‚ and while that's undoubtedly a treat‚ it does fall within my very strict: #'a useful electronic' category of allowed expenses #like i was wondering between ps5 / pc but again those are planned for for years now‚ and hardly can be called 'indulgence' given how #one is for work and the other is years overdue since i was waiting for it to be less expensive.. #ah‚ i babble 🙈 #i did decided i will not share this irl though #i figure‚ i want it to be my private little positive treat #without the unnecessary opinions about how a 'book is not worth that much' #i mean i agree but did you see the book #it's the sexiest book i've ever seen in my life #i am not sure if i'll go ahead and get oathbringer in a few years #but wok-wor are literally the two books i love the most #my most beloved #my light in the dark #-coughs- ok ok. #yeah. #this is the most you heard me babble here in a while -laughs- #i've had a rather rough few weeks and has not been present the way i wanted to be-- those i have not yet answered to-- i will-- soon. #buns.txt

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

This is the most expensive paint I own now

#it was 18.99 #i had a michaels gift card and they didnt have the thing i was actually there for so i got myself a lil treat #most of my paints are walmart paints cuz theyre the best cheap paint (and also the cheapest acrylics ive found) #but i have some liquitex basics that i also bought with a gift card #those were my most expensive paints #i also got myself some teeny detail brushes cuz ive been wanting some that i didnt get in a paint by number set lol #ALSO #my replacement light curtain got here today #unfortunately one of the thumbtacks holding them up broke and i cant reach it without a ladder to replace it #and moving my bed out of the way is way too much effort so i guess ill just suffer that part of the curtain drooping down farther #than the rest #its a lot brighter than the other one #which. that one was 3....? years old. so that checks out #honestly im impressed it still turned on but it was having enough issues i went ahead and got a new one #same brand #hopefully it lasts as long #cuz most reviews i read of other ones thought them lasting for more than 4 months was impressive #so clearly them lasting 3 years of constant use is unusual for these types of lights #i had to go to 4 stores today #i was just gonna go to michaels and target. but then dillons sent me a text reminding me to pick up my prescription (it auto refills) #and walmart had colanders and mixing bowls cheaper than target ($2 each instead of $4 each) #so since i was gonna be over there for my meds anyway i decided to stop at walmart for those things since theyre for rinsing my rocks off #so id rather just go with the cheapest options #but i still had to go to target cuz its the only place that has my favorite granola #BUT the granola was on sale today so thats good #.......gift cards dont expire right? i have a hobby lobby gift card from last Christmas that i havent used cuz i dont go to hobby lobby #but i need to check if they have a jar lid with a soap dispenser on it cuz michaels didnt have any and i have a skull jar i wanna turn into #a soap dispenser cuz my current skull soap dispenser is a cheap plastic one i got at walmart and it sucks

[dylanconrique]

i love how tim just sounds like a dad whenever he complains about his wife's.. i mean lucy's puppy lol

tim can deny it all he wants but i know he sees tamara as his own daughter. he especially gave it away in 4x11 when him and lucy were racing to get to her after they learned that her friend becca was killed by her other friend declan.

now maybe i'm delusional, but to me, this is the clear look of a dad going through every worst case scenario knowing that their baby girl is in danger. he's trying to be so stoic, but you can see it in his eyes that there's a nasty pit in his stomach at the possibility of not getting to tamara in time. and you can't tell from the image, but he has a bit of a white knuckled grip on the steering wheel. this is the closest he's come to ever having a child of his own (so far 😏), and i got the impression from tim when him and lucy first talked about having children s4 that although he wants kids of his own, he thinks that window has probably closed on him already.

but tamara is his. tamara somehow gradually became his, and he's going to walk her down the aisle at her wedding one day, cause of course who else would be the one to give her away? 🥺🤧💗💗

#anon #answered #the rookie #chenford #see this is exactly what i mean when i say i get way ahead of myself and start spiraling #THIS RIGHT HERE ☝️☝️☝️ #i can't just respond with a short simple message???? #must i always word vomit about my blorbos??? #tamara collins #tim bradford

[volfoss]

find the good deed/misdeed system in volfoss so funny. youd think that when the "good deed" quests are like hey. this guys being attacked please help or hey we are paying you like 2 dollars please help. that the misdeeds wouldnt be too bad, like its all low stakes right. and then you look at the misdeeds and its like hey. i dont like my sisters boyfriend. kill him. or like hey im a trader and pissed off at my coworker. go scare him (you have to literally destroy all his cargo). and its so fucking funny because well. as a guy making the guide i have to go the evil route technically twice (the ending system is weird) and its just gonna be 60 hours of shalvas wouldnt do that :( but i guess i have to go kill this guy now

#twist rambles #♟ #like umm it branches into 2 questlines into act 2 and then the evil questline branches into 2 endings. so i have to go evil mode twice. #its very bad for me as a guy who like. i will play video games and get really into the characters head. i played tw3 solely by being like o #well in the books peepaw did this. so he would make this decision here <- would have full convos w myself on would he do this. and so this #is hell. mistos is just like watching shalvas kill people and is like hey. i think this guy might be a smuggler but sure go ahead and help #im. like hes soooo mad about it and its kind of funny to me. like shalvas is enough of a blank slate (in some ways) that u COULD project #evil onto him but like. im super curious on his interactions w dajece when theyre BOTH evil. its so nice also to not have to censor names i #the tags bc no one fucking cares abt this game lmao.

[thetnth]

real question — who's gonna make a master blog? tennant and simm were fucking iconic. the dr x master relationship in this run was so complicated, and toxic and !!! the need to save vs the need to destroy and !!! they loved each other in such broken & twisted ways and I just ??

I'm having feelings.

#it absolutely wasn't healthy at all #but 10 did love him in a way #a sort of desperate way. #and also a tad selfishly - he cared about him. yes. but also. the master was the only other timelord left. 10 didn't want to be alone #hiding all this in the tags. lol #im getting way ahead of myself here #still just on s2 of my rewatch #wishlist. #ooc.

[ultimateaclrecovery]

Just had a thirty min good-bye kiss with one of frisbee teammates 👀

It had been building for a while and then he finally asked me out after leiout two weeks ago. We got dinner last week, and then went to meow wolf a weird interactive art experience. He had picked me up so then he walked me to the door after and then well…..

We made out on my porch for awhile and then I finally offered to show him my house and then we made out in my living room for a good while before I finally said I had to go to bed.

Okay but also what do normal people think about when they kiss someone because y’all my mind fucking wanders. I think I’ve mostly kissed people I don’t know very well or when really drunk so I’m normally stressed about if they like me or like what will happen, but because I’ve known him for so long it was more comfy so my mind aimlessly wandered. I felt like a 12 year old in one of those cheesy ya books having their first kiss and wondering if they’re doing it right. Like is this what it’s supposed to feel like? Or am I doing this wrong somehow? Particularly because I’ve had so much musings on what even is my sexuality between straight, gay, asexual, and never really making any progress towards any one direction. Because it mostly feels like I like him but then I’m also thinking about how weird it is that people have noses or that I have to laundry tomorrow or weird meta feeling like a ya character (specifically a tomboy who was previously uninterested in boys) or thinking that it’s weird that I’m thinking this much or wondering how one transitions out of it.

But overall it feels like I like him and that’s probably good enough.

But then me and my inexperienced never had a relationship virgin self am also real nervous about like how this progresses from here. Because I like idk how any of this works but it feels like I should. And it feels like I should know what pace I want to go, but like I really don’t. I don’t really know where I want to put my lines or when I want to put them or how or like anything. And despite knowing for several years really all I know about his dating history is that he had his first kiss with his college girlfriend and that he hasn’t dated anyone seriously since I’ve known but has gone in like hinge dates ect.

And the problem with dating your friends is that it feels like there’s so much more at stake. Like he’s very much already a large part of main social circle and if things go sideways they will go real sideways. Like at one point half way thru making out I just got this giant pit in my stomach that I’m going to fuck this up and It’s going bad and it’s going to be me that makes it bad. But he is so nice and he is so fun but I’m just feeling on edge. But I think in a good way. A healthy mix between excited and nervous and a lot of anxious.

It is funny tho because I’m not sure I’dve ever ended up dating him off of an app. He can be a wee bit pretentious at times and that’s like my biggest dating app turn off 😂 but like because I know that it’s just in like a superficial way and that he’s actually a really good person and really fun to be around it doesn’t matter so much. (Although it is probably my biggest like reservation of dating him(outside of general dating anxiety that is) but like I also know how much he just goes with the flow and the way he sees everybody’s individual strengths and like respects other peoples opinions). He is also not a tall man. I think he says he’s five seven but he is only just barely tall than me. But he is taller and it’s not like it really matters anyone. But he’s fun and easy to talk to and it feels like our lives would mesh really well in terms of what we’d want to and how we’d like to live and how’d we’d have fun. And in terms of like between being nerdy and staying and reading and like going out dancing or shutting down every sweet action party we’ve been to together.

Okay I’ve rambled enough on my excited but nervous night. Goodnight

#too many mixed emotions #mostly happy excited #at least until I started over thinking #because I do love to over think #I’m pretty sure that’s a tumblr requirement #you don’t stay on tumblr for ten years if you don’t love some rambling overthinking late night blogging #so here we are #I’ll be 30 in a six months #now we see if Emma will finally be in a relationship and buy a horse before 30 or not #golden birthday golden year? #I am getting way ahead of myself #another golden tumblr trait #as is this tag addendum #wish me luck

[ganondoodle]

(warning, near panic attack vent post)

i will spare you the details but my lil borther is moving out tomorrow and now its all crashing down on me, been in denial too long, i dont want to be alone here with my 60+ year old parents with health issues, i can barely take care of myself, how am i supposed to take care of them

i have like 1-2 online friends that live oversea, most of my immediate family i have barely contact with and i dont do well with them either, hes the only one i know that isnt exhausting to be around, and understands me .. and is queer

i feel like im losing my only support, the only anchor i had in life

ever since he got his current bf we have been drifiting apart too despite him still living here atm

im so afraid of everything, of being alone and forgotten, what if sth happens to my parents and i dont notice it in this big house

i dont want him to leave

i hate everything, im afraid of everything

im never gonna find anyone i can trust that would want to live here with me

i dont want any of this

#ganondoodles talks #vent #im only gonna talk here about it bc he doesnt have a tumblr acc #i dont want to be alone here #i dont want to be alone #i feel way more attached to him than he feels about me #i feel so childish #why am i like this #its all my fault too #if i was better at keeping the few irl freindships i have had #maybe i wouldnt be alone #but i will be #i will be alone #i am alone #you may laugh at this #go right ahead #get it out of the way #hes not gonna be far away #but i know my family #and myself #its gonna be like he disappeared #i just want a friend to live with #but im not gonna find one #especially not in a rural german village #bc i dont want to leave #i love this house and the garden and each tree #how each stone is arranged #... #i love it here #and i hate it here

[dirt-str1der]

I literally had a dream about reading the worst fan fiction like fucking ever kiryu was just randomly a yandere and nishiki was trying his best to survive also kiryu turned into a dragon (deez nuts) halfway and let nishiki kill him for being a bad boy but he was so upset about having to kill his bro that he just lay in the corpse for a bit and thats when i decided to stop reading and i literally opened tumblr in my dream to complain about how bad it was like the writing went back and forth from being terrible to incredible and i found myself enjoying some parts and despising others. I skipped the first few chapters so i had to tab back out and read the summary like why are they in a beach resort and the summary didnt just tell me nothing but it was also double spaced between each line and very fucking irritating and while reading it i kept thinking this is extremely ooc and boring like they would not fucking say that

#Listen to my problems #i cant stress enough that i dont even ship them why did i read a sex fic about kiryu and nishikiyamer #like i believe they are the bestest of friends forever and ever and like as hotblooded young men growing up together they must have tried a #few sex moves on each other at least once but i dont think they see each other as romantic prospects. like unlike majima and saejima #(seajima) who are literally together all the time and will never travel anywhere without the other unless its to prison. kiryu and nishiki #have this understanding that eventually theyll have to part ways and find their own path. while they would always remain in each others #hearts and thoughts they knew that they couldnt be holding hands forever and besides they have to focus on getting kazama to the top not #each other !! so nishiki was very happy that kiryu was getting his own family soon even if it meant that kiryu was getting ‘ahead’ of him #and kiryu who can accept consequences for himself but no one else was just like um ... well nishiki please give me the gun and take yumi #your sister needs you or whatever <3 i am definitely expendble and prison life is for me yayy yayyyy i love going to jail so nobody can talk #to me ever again. i keep asking myself how difficult it would have been for kiryu to just pop in by the hospital every now and then to check #in on nishikis sister. its not like he cant take care of her. its not like he doesnt know how to earn money. he just straight up thinks that #nishiki is better than him so he should be the one to get locked up ... because nishiki can take care of yumi and i straigh up forgot his si #sisters name and reina and kazama without him. and nishikis like damn i wish kiryu was here so bad (looks at his wwkd bracelet) hm think ill #go insane. i literally forgot what my original point was but that fic was so bad guys im so glad it doesnt exist #in it kiryu was trying his best to keep nishiki in one place and he kept being very. well kiryu was just kiryu but he kept apologising #saying things like you cant leave yet ... and looking at him with his big sad eyes and nishiki would always be like f-fine ... (he doesnt #like it here) also nishiki was one hell of a princess type and had a nurse costume on at some point which means the yakuza server nishiki #propoganda is working on me. very weird. love the part when kiryu was randomly a big dragon because he utterly filled the hallways of their #little beach shack and his scales were nice and soft and he was lovely. little guy

[tempest-toss]

((Current polycule members and plans for future members:

Ten

Four

Kondraki

Dr. Willaim Wondertainment

??? (Upcoming plot point)

King Bee (West Virginia Bug Committee)

Slime King

Neko thats a member of the Snapdragon Smugglers?

More!?

I toyed around on the server an idea that Four will elevate his loves to Embodiment status and together they'll replace (in Four's case return to) the pantheon. So the things I need to think of are how many pantheon seats, how many total members of the polycule, and what Embodiments would they...well..embody.))

#i just need a note here #mun muses #Even as I was writing this i was thinking about a merman being added #But im getting way too ahead of myself. I need to focus on more relevant and necessary things first #hopefully i can focus on plot than Four's love life))

[carryingthebanner]

So fansies, how are we feeling about the new cast announcement?

#tbh a lot of them look older than teenagers #and also where is spot??? #they brought back splasher (who ngl i forgot existed) but where is spot conlon- #if they cut out brooklyn’s here im rioting /j #ALSO BLACK JACK KELLY LETS GO IM SO HAPPY AHHHHHHHH #anyway congrats to the cast #i cant wait for someone to bootleg this since im across the pond and won’t be able to see it unless i rob a bank- #I CANT WAIT TO HEAR LETTER FROM THE REFUGE ON A CAST RECORDING INDTEAD OF HAVING TO GO TO YOUTUBE OR DISNEY+ OR A TOURSIES BOOTLEG #imagine if this got a proshot too- #it looks like such a different production than the og so it deserves it #(im getting way ahead of myself and rambling now 💀) #fansies #newsies #newsies uk #west endsies #britsies #west end #my ramblings

[starbuck]

ordered a new medical alert bracelet for myself that’s less feminine and i actually like the look of after YEARS of being bitter about having No Choice but to wear the one my Mom-mom got me years ago… it’s incredible how your brain can make you forget that some things actually ARE within your power to change because it prefers to wallow in self-pity…

#like. preferably i wouldn’t wear one at all… my conditions aren’t that serious and i don’t think it’s necessary #but my mom-mom would give me shit if i stopped #so for the moment i have no choice #and like. why not have it be something i like and that doesn’t get in the way of my passing? #i have ALWAYS wanted a gold-tone one… like. ALWAYS. #so i went ahead and got myself one! :)) #which is the LAST thing i intend to buy for awhile - but it’s important to me #gotta make my body my own over here #it also has my proper name on it since i’ll be legally changing it soon #right after i get my driver’s license #which should ALSO be soon!! :)) #lots of exciting things to look forward to!