#god i knew it i shouldnt have fucking said it

[babyisa1]

⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ jealousy/TOM

warnings: smut, blowjob, p in v, singular mention of „slut“, unprotected sex, overall a little rough but fluffy ending!

„im going to get a drink, do you want one?“ you ask, the both of you sitting on the corner couch in a club downtown. „no thanks baby“ tom replies, sending you a soft smile as you get up and walk towards the bar. the place was pretty crowded, and the beat of the music vibrated off of the walls as the colourful flashing lights illuminated off of your figure.

you sat on a bar stool after ordering your favorite cocktail, sex on the beach, when you feel someone tap on your shoulder. „hey y/n, god i havent seen you in years!“ a familiar voice exclaims, as they sit on the stool beside you. your face lights up when you see ethan, an old school friend. „ethan?? what are you doing here!“ you reply, pulling him into a warm hug.

time passes, and the two of you have been catching up for about 20 minutes, completely unaware of tom eyes piercing through both of you from the other side of the club. his jaw clenched and the sunglasses in his hand almost snapped at the sight of you and how close you were with the stranger, trying his best to keep calm. any sense of control he had completely dissapears when he catches the man whispering things in your ear while placing his hand on yours, making you giggle.

he storms towards you both, pure rage flowing through him. „who the fuck is this?“ he exclaims, making you jump. „fucking hell tom you scared me“ you remark, taking another sip of your drink. „answer my question!“ tom almost shouts, becoming impatient. „calm down! this is ethan, just an old school friend. we were just catching up“ you reply, a concerned look on your face.

tom sighs out, still not satisfied. he grabs your hand, pulling you towards him. „cmon lets go“ he mumbles, attempting to take you with him as he walks away. to his dismay, you pull back, not wanting to leave. „we only just got here tom! whats gotten into you?“ you respond, trying to escape from his strong grip which just tightens. „i said lets go“ he demands, sending you a look that told you that you werent going to be able to walk for a good couple of days.

you sigh out, grabbing your purse as you wave goodbye to ethan, who has a „good luck with him“ expression on his face. tom drags you through the crowd of people, out of the busy club and onto the path outside, the cold night air hitting you both.

wasting no time, he rushes over to his cadillac, rummaging in his pockets for the keys. „get in“ he mutters coldly, as you open the passenger seat door and sit down, closing it behind you. tom slams his door shut, making the whole car shake. you didnt dare to say anything in an attempt to not worsen the situation. he let out a frustrated sigh as he started the car, turning out of the parking spot.

tom speeds down the highway, driving 20mph over the speed limit. he wasnt stupid though, he took a route that he knew didnt have any speed cameras. „tom, slow down! do you want to get us fucking kille-” „shut up, we will talk when we get home“ he cuts you off, his hand tightening on the gear stick as he pushes it forward.

about 10 minutes later, he pulls into the driveway, silence filling the car as he turns off the motor. he gets out, walking over to your side and opening your door. you take his arm as you both walk towards the front door, opening it.

he swiftly pulls you into his embrace, pushing you against the door which slams in shut in the process. he crashes his lips on to yours, darting his tounge into your mouth and lapping his wetness around yours. „mm..you shouldnt have flirted with that fucker“ he muffles in between kisses, his hand snaking behind your neck to deepen it. you kiss him back, struggling to keep up with the fast and rough pace of it.

he breaks the kiss, catching his breath as he bends down and picks you up, throwing you over his shoulder. he slaps your ass harshly as he walks over to the couch, causing you to hiss in pain. „you obviously haven’t learnt your lesson from last time liebe“ tom mutters, before letting go of you on the couch as you bounce slightly from the drop.

you gaze up at him with doe eyes, faking your innocence when tom knows you are anything but that. „msorry.. he was just a friend i promise baby“ you reassure tom, however he doesnt seem convinced. he grabs your chin, squishing your cheeks slightly but not enough to hurt you.

„no other guy gets to talk to you like that, get it?“ he snaps, letting go of your face. you glup, nodding as his hands reach for his belt. „youre gonna be a good girl and let me use that pretty mouth of yours?“ he taunts, his belt already clanking as it hits the floor along with his jeans. „yes tommy“ you respond obediantly, nodding eagerly as his clothed cock just centimetres away from your face.

he swiftly pulls down his boxers, as his cock springs free and slightly hits his abdomen. god, he was massive. his tip was red and nerdy, pre cum leaking out of it. the enticing smell of his sex lingered in the air, increasing the growing heat between your legs. he groans in satisfaction following the release of his cock, gazing down at you to see it covered the whole length of your face.

he pumped his dick a few times, his hand sneaking behind your head as he pushes your closer. he rubs his tip against your pink lips, smearing the pre cum over them. „open“ he demands, as you quickly oblige, wrapping your soft lips around the crown of his cock. you swirl your tounge around it, causing tom to let out a low grown, before flattening your tounge on his shaft and sinking your head down it. you hollow your cheeks, gagging slightly as his tip nudges the back of your throat.

„fuckk.. such a pretty slut, taking me so well..“ tom mewls, his head lolling back as your warm mouth engulfs him. you moan at his praises, bobbing your head up and down slowly. he grips your hair, forming two messy pigtails as he uses them to guide you. he forces himself into your mouth faster, forming a rough pace as a mixture of your saliva and his pre cum escaping and dripping down the corners of your lips.

you place both of your hands on toms thighs, bracing yourself with each harsh thrust. your eyes pricked with salty tears as you felt the oxygen quickly slip away, smudging your mascara. „mm fuck- m‘close!“ he moans, his thrusting becoming sloppy. you help him chase his orgasm through massaging the underside of his dick with your tounge, causing loud squelching noises.

tom lets out a prolonged groan, holding your head in place as he coats your throat white in his hot cum. he pulls his cock out of your mouth, causing you to gasp for air. „shit- you okay baby?“ he breaths out, chuckling. you nod, smirking playfully as your eyes glint in lust.

his loving expression soon turns back to a merciless one, his tounge sneaking out to play with his lipring. he picks you up effortlessly, walking you over to the back of the couch before putting you back down and bending you over. with your ass rubbing against his cock, he hurriedly lifts your dress over your head before quickly unclipping your bra with ease. your tits fall free, and his hands fly to play with your nipples. you gasp, and he uses this as an opportunity to turn your head towards his and slip his tounge in your mouth. your back was flush against his chest as he rolled and pinched your nipples, leaving you a whimpering mess.

you were squirming in his hands, your panties probably soaked by now. you grind yourself against his cock out of impatience, before feeling a strong stinging on your right ass cheek. tom slapped your behind harshly, an annoyed expression on his face. „dont be s’fucking needy, this is a punishment for your behaviour earlier remember?“ tom hisses, his hot breath on your ear spreading goosebumps all over you.

you let out a sigh of relief as tom yanks your panties down, revealing your dripping cunt, his mouth watering at the sight. he rubs his cock between your warm folds, gliding effortlessly before nudging your sensitive clit with his tip. „mm..“ you moan, finally feeling some type of friction.

without warning, tom slams his length into you, a buldge forming in your stomach. „jesu- fuck!“ you almost shout, almost falling forward as tom quickly gathers your hair in a makeshift ponytail and pulls you back towards him. „god- so fucking tight“ tom breaths out, forming a rough pace.

your ass jiggles with each thrust, as toms cock deliciously rams against that gummy spot inside you. tom yanks your hair to the side to gain more access to to your neck, before planting sloppy open mouthed kisses up and down it. „only i can fuck you this good.. shit- isnt that right?“ he growls, drilling himself into you.

you can do nothing but nod, the intense pleasure preventing you from forming proper words. both of your bodies were coated in a thin sheen of sweat as he fucked you relentlessly, one of his hands gripping on your hip so tightly it would for sure leave marks.

„you“ thrust „are“ thrust „mine“ thrust tom breaths out between each harsh snap of his hips, making his possessivness very clear. your moans mirror each slam of his cock, your hair becoming messy and sticking to your face from the sweat.

„mhmm.. fuck- tom!“ you reply, struggling to form words as the tip of his length keeps abusing your favorite spot. his hands graze over your skin from your hips and spread your ass, pushing himself deeper in you. you clench around him in response, earning a loud groan from him.

„fuck baby- do that again“ tom mewls, the sudden tightness clearly having an effect on him. you somehow find the energy to repeat what you did, causing his pace to become inconsistent and sloppy. you grip tightly on the leather couch, feeling your high approach.

„shit m‘gonna cum!“ you manage to blur out, the pleasure slowly building up by the second. tom angles his hips upwards, hitting your g spot juusstt right. „cmon baby.. cum all over my cock“ he groans and he finally sees white, his orgasm washing over him as he shoots ropes of his hot cum into you.

you let out a high pitched moan, sounding almost pornographic as your orgasm hits you like a truck, falling forwards as your knees buckle. tom exhales sharply through his teeth, his movements coming to a halt. „shittt“ he breaths out, watching his cum spill out of your cunt as he slips out, a ring of cum appearing on his cock.

you both chuckle as you gain your breath again, relishing the pleasure. tom walks a few steps to the open kitchen, grabbing a paper towel before coming back and wiping you. you whimper slightly, feeling slightly overstimulated. „sorry baby“ he giggles, turning you around and pulling you into a gentle hug.

he rubs up and down your sides lovingly, pressing soft kisses in your hair. moments later he pulls away, stroking you hair out of your face and gazing into your droopy eyes and fucked out face. „you okay? did i go to rough?“ he asks while planting a warm kiss on your nose.

„not at all.. i have to talk to other guys more often if it means you’ll fuck me this good“ you whisper, smiling brightly. he chuckles, taking your hand and leading you upstairs.

„cmon, lets get cleaned up sweetheart“

.·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·.

i realised i kinda use clubs as a setting pretty often ;-; i will lit marry u if u like or reblog, this is only my 5th post i think :)

#tokio hotel #tom kaulitz #bill kaulitz #2000s #georg listing #gustav schäfer #smut #tom kaulitz smut #fanfiction

[skyeateyourdonuts]

UURURGRHRJRHRRJRHRHRHRRHHR

#feral mode #im mad :) #its about a thing i never talk to anyone about but #i sure as fuck am constantly calming myself down from!!!! #some friends can be consistent w shit thats uncomfy and it sucks!!! #simply sucks lmao #im not doing anything that (a) i can control or (b) is wrong #so why!!!!!! ARE U BEING UNNECESSARY FOCUSING ON THAT #I CANT CHANGE IT #god i knew it i shouldnt have fucking said it #i just hadnt talked to anyone in so many hours and :( i just!!! i wanted to be heard for once!!! #but again a fucking gain im not heard im just trwated like im being ridiculous #am i even ur friend??? bc im p sure friends fucking care about others friends feelings #god i am. i am so alone!!!

[pankomako]

sometimes i think about interactions boat and i have had and things he's said to/about me over the years and it makes me feel as though i must occupy some little space in his heart. like i live in his mind rent-free the way he does for me, although not nearly to the same extent lmao.

speak of the goddamn devil i just got a steam notification he's playing tf2

anyway i never thought i'd have that kind of effect on a person, much less my favorite content creator. but it sure appears to be that way, and idk. it makes me feel special. warms my heart n all that :)

#was one of two people to give me their phone number when i had to drop off of discord 2 years ago #never took advantage of it though (shy (also we have different brands of phones so texting probably wouldnt work right #other person was an irl friend (never contacted them either #i remember one time YEARS ago when he was wanting to read jjba on stream or smth like that #him: it's like REALLY not family friendly me: well i shouldnt watch bc i am a Child him: no its ok you dont have to skip It's very dirty th #like guy clearly just wanted me there bc he enjoys my company And he's said he does! i remember him saying he likes seeing me in chat #and once again he was the one that wanted me on the staff team when usually the staff pick new recruits and boat has final say #and apparently he's talked about me to his other friends. that's kinda where the old Time to Mod in-joke started #he was using voice to text to talk to whoever and said my username but the thing misinterpreted it #that coupled with the meme drawing i did that he edited so it's him just saying 'pain'. eventually that dumb fucking image spawned #and then there was the night he spammed it and spam mentioned me in chat when he was streaming while i was ASLEEP #once we were in a vc and he was like 'wow i'd forgotten what your voice sounded like' NEVER heard him say that to anyone else. What #dont even get me started with him and my artwork (man would probably flip tf out seeing what i can do now LOL) #guy literally wanted ME to design an official tff logo but at that point they were kinda slowing down so it never happened #but yeahno i just. ugh. our friendship means a lot to me. i am ITCHING to speak to him again you have no idea #and to just give him a big ol hug. been wanting that for such a long time #quite frankly a friendship dynamic like no other ive seen #dont mind me REMINISCING. im sooo sappy about him he's the most important guy in the world to me #if god exists he knew we'd be too powerful if we grew up together

[roseband]

whelp.....EDS is on my medical chart now *barfs*

#personal #im calling mild bs on some of the ppl online saying diagnosis was the hardest thing ever to get cuz this is w/ my medicaid doctor LMAO #HAHAHAHAAAA oh my god remember last year when i was shitting on simon martina fans who were claiming 'caregiver fatigue' for simon #during the divorce and i was like... dude martinas got similar disability presentation to me hes not her caregiver lolol #OOPS i guess its *same* disability presentation #its cause the rheum autoimmune factors all came back negative other than one that can also be associated with hashimotos :/ #ALSO its noted that there's definitely some sort of cardiac involvement so thats just FUCKING GREAT amazing #if i ever run into the doctor who said me fainting in high school was cause of me being underweight ill KILL HIM im gonna kill him #cause he was the same doctor signing off my 504 forms in junior high so DIE???? #also if i run into Michaels ex gf who tried to use me fainting and having to be picked up to get a gaggle of devilish incel girls #to say i had thin privilege from ANOREXIA ill punch her im gonna fucking punch her #i already tried to stab one of them when i ran into her in the street cuz that was the 'interracial couples are grooooosss' girl...so #ill just fucking STAB any of them #i dont wanna end up on a med i cant eat grapefruit on lol :/ all the heart meds prevent u from grapefruit :(((( #like actually @ my high school doctor tho wtf..... like i know id only had one joint dislocation at that point and it was an actual #*traumatic...ish* injury (fell on thumb in capoeira class lol.. thumb popped out) #but also he was signing off on my school disability forms and knew i was fainting so ???? BROOOOO #then again he was a twatwaffle about my moms medical retirement after booby #we stopped seeing him like after he said i was a 'strong young lady' uh bro you'd signed off on like 5 years worth of school physio/ot #forms and then also hed also said that my moms reconstruction shouldnt give her aby more pain than his wifes boobjob #like wtf ..... she had a horrible time with her mastectomy and reconstruction and reduction cuz nothing healed normal #and she had a drain collapse and was in physio to get movement back in her arm for months ugh what a dumbass #but he retired two years later so i guess it was rlly him being a lazy fuck

[whoevengaf]

Thinking about my old internet friends from a year/two years ago and i might start crying... Ffs

#God it was such a nice friendship and i blew it #This one person i was never there for #This girl i told off for OPing herself on an mc server and she deleted all her messages and ghosted me #These other two people are still besties and i rarely rarely talk w them.... #I miss it so much #But instagram is such an ugly fucking app.... #I miss the one who ghosted me the most :( she was so important to #ME #I just shouldnt have said anything i KNEW she was in a bad spot and just left this long a bit mean message.... #God fucking damnit #And another person im still in their discord and see their new friends and i loved them sm too #GOD #Sorry #Maybe ill slowly try to reconnect

[chrissturniolosbitch]

Dark Confessions

warnings- SMUTTY SMUT!!!, jerking off, sexual thoughts, swearing. idk what else.

summary- chris and y/n both have feeling for each other, but wont confess, untill y/n catches chris touching himself to the thought of her.

a/n- i wish this was real, i actually think my obsession is getting out of hand...

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Chris and i have always been close. As much as i loved the other two there was something about chris that just gravitated me twards him.

The only bad thing is that i started having feelings for chris the past summer.

His eyes, his hair, the way he sqeezes his eyes shut when he laugh, his lips, his teeth, his hands, and how slender his fingers were.

The way his body looked, and how perfect his smile was. The way he would tease me, but always knew how to comfort me.

I always wonder the things he would do to me if he knew how much i truly loved him.

How his fingers would feel on me, or the way his body would feel touching me skin to skin.

Or how his dick would feel twitching inside of me.

what if he doesnt feel the same?

what if he thinks im weird?

what if he stops being my friend?

fuck it.

I got up from the couch, and started walking downstairs too chris' room, turing the lights, and TV off on my way.

I stopped infront of his door before knocking, "hey chris can i come in?" I wisper, yelled.

no response?

i was about to knock again when suddenly i heard soft wimpers coming from his room.

Is he okay?

Is he hurt, should i help him?

I cracked open the door to see what was wrong when suddenly my body froze in place.

Christopher Sturniolo.

His hand squeezed beautifully over his dick, and his damp hair stuck perfectly on his forehead.

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(Chris' POV)

y/n my bestfriend for God knows how long, the most beautiful girl ive ever layed eyes on.

The way her hips swayed when she danced, the way he lipgloss stuck perfectly to her lips, and how plump her butt looked in my favorite shorts of hers.

The thought of her made me hard.

should i think this way of my bestfriend?

is this wrong?

but oh how beautiful she was...

I felt my hands favoring over the waistband of my sweats. I lowered them to my ankles, my boxers following.

I squeezed the head of my dick, pumping my palm up and down.

The thought of y/n roaming my mind. The thought of how good she would feel clenching around me, and how bad i needed her.

The thought of her touching me had me whimpering her name.

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(Y/n's POV)

abruptly chris cocked his head twards my direction, looking me dead in my eyes when he threw the covers over his body, "what the fuck are you doing in here? please leave oh my fucking gosh." He said practically yelling at me.

"its okay chris..." i said unaware of my sudden confidence boost, "w-what do you m-mean y/n.. im s-so fucking sorry. I shouldnt have been doing t-that with y-" he was about to finish his sentence when i placed a kiss on his lips.

His eyes went wide as i sat kn the edge of the bed, "Do you think of me everytime you touch yourself?" I said abruptly, "I- y/n please.." Chris said giving me puppy eyes.

"Please what christopher?" i said knowing exactly what he wanted, "please touch me ma"

With a tic of approval i grabbed the covers, and threw them off the bed, looking at chris' throbbing dick that was already leaking loads of precum

I put his tip in my mouth, and immediately started deepthroating him.

He got a fist of my hair, and started moaning my name, "fuck y/n please dont stop" i looked up at chris, his eyes rolled to the back of his head, and his mouth slightly agape.

I hummed over his dick in response which must have set him off because within a instant chris jolted his hips up, twitching in my mouth letting ropes off his cum stream down my throat.

He let go of my hair, and i got up starting to strip naked. Chris groaned at the sight of my body.

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(Chris' POV)

The thoughts of y/n, and all my dreams were coming true.

i watched as she stripped naked infront of my face.

The way her boobs sat perfectly on her chest, and he hips.

her. mother. fucking. hips.

She walked over to me, and kissed me, i immediately kissed her back.

She straddled me while we were still kissing. God i never wanted this to end.

I grabbed her hips a lifted them, pulling my lips away from hers, "i need you y/n please" all she did was nod, "use your words baby."

"fuck yes chris, please fuck me."

thats all i needed to hear before i dropped her hips the whole way down, bottoming out.

I started thrusting up into her, as she held my biceps trying to match my pace.

I grabbed her waist, and started helping her bounce up, and down on my dick, "fuck im gonna cu-" i started when i suddenly felt myself twitching inside of her.

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(Y/n's POV)

I was determined on finishing, no matter how overwhelming, or overstimulated chris got.

I arched back, and grabbed chris' hand placing it over my clit, motioning him to help me cum.

He started rubbing fast circles over my clit, as i moaned.

I felt a familiar knot form in my stomach, when suddenly it snapped. I came.

Chris looked up at me grinning, i could tell he was overstimulated, but loved it.

I slowly pulled off of chris, and fell beside him, "was that okay? did i do good for you?" i said wanting to know if i made him feel good.

"thats the best sex ive ever had y/n" Chris said giggling, "Good me too" i said leaning in for another kiss.

"You know... well.. ive liked you for a while now y/n/n." chris siad starting to get shy, "me too chrissy, and im sorry i didnt tell you sooner." i looked over at chris face, the way the moonlight shines down his naked body perfectly.

"Well, what does this mean now?" chris said waiting for my response, "I dont know chris you tell me." i said tilting my head at him, starting to smile, "i want you to be mine. I need you y/n" He said sighing.

"I want you to chris, i am yours." I stated placing one last kiss to his nose, then lips before we drifted off to sleep.

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THAT SHOULD BE ME💔

anyways, i need chris in me, on me, and with me... like now.

#🪐 #chris sturniolo #christopher sturniolo #matt sturniolo #nick sturniolo #nicolas sturniolo #sturniolo #sturniolo edit #sturniolo fanfic #sturniolo smut #sturniolo x reader #Spotify

[ganondoodle]

more thoughts

big part of why i loathe what totk did with its story and lore is that it tremendously hurts botw in retrospect

i said that before and mentioned all of these points before as well but i just have to mention it again; how totk did away with all the little mysteries in botw, like the ancient hero looking kinda strange leading to lots of interesting theories- WHOOP its a sonau mix guy revealed through a collectable and its straight up said by purah/impa that that is the ancient hero .. like it was an always known fact ......

the sonau ruins in botw of a long gone group of people that lived in the forest of phirone - WHOOP those are just monuments built by hylians in memory of the sonau and actually their real architecure isnt rare and few but everywhere en masse and doesnt resemble the ones from botw at all, aside from some vague dragon motive; theres more stuff of the oh so sadly gone and not at all mysterious anymore sonau left than there was of the ancient shiekah in botw (and now it doesnt exist at all anymore, who cares about them, how important they were, or this worlds history, especially zelda, she never cared about shiekah or history that wasnt about sonau :)))) )

one of the biggest crimes, to me, personally, is what totk did with the dragons not actively mind you, but still changed my view of them and i hate it; i always saw them as these ethereal otherwordly spirits older than time itself (i liked the idea of them being like a final evolution of the dragons from skyward sword, tho of course i dont need that to be canon lol) and then totk comes along and .. the newly revealed -always been there super cool- race of people from the sky is heavily based on their designs ... and they have armor sets imitating the dragons ... and have ... magical never heard of before stones that turn people into .... dragons .... i get how that can be an interesting thing for people to connect but for me personally ... its a mystery that REALLY shouldnt have been solved, at all, or even touched, the fact that you knew nothing about the dragons other than they are here was what made them feel so much more divine and awe inspiring (i know you could try to think of it being the other way around, the sonau worshipping the dragons so much they dedicated all of their cultur around them ((but then again were is that anywhere, if they worshipped them so much then they sure didnt matter in any of what we say of them in memories..)) ... but the sonau designs, the armor ... the stones ... its all such an obvious connection ...) and its really hard for me to ignore it, i actively have to work now to keep seeing the dragons as these untouchable ethereal spirits instead of some sonau guy eating a fucking stone

and yet again its like .. can you really blame me for feeling weird about the sonau/dislike them when ... theres nothing that WASNT touched by the sonau, they already had tech way above the level of the shiekah, they were in the sky, the surface AND the underground all along, theirs is the actually important influence on the history of the world, they have been in every place that was once important, hell they were in every place were a settlement of people is EVEN THE FEW YEARS OLD TABURASA (tarrey town), their buildings look like they were abandoned 10 years ago, all their shit is still working, they founded (this) hyrule, they are the royals, they are the gods, they are the dragons, the ancient hero was a sonau mix clad in waht totk made out to be their signature design elements-

we had recordings from that time (tapestry) and even PEOPLE (the monks) and yet the sonau were a total mystery? even though their culture was literally still there when the shiekah built their tech?

what gets me escpeially is how .. they didnt NEED to erase anything shiekah, they didnt need to act like they never existed, they didnt need to make the sonau be the coolest guys ever and were so desperate to get that into your thinking everyone in the game is obsessed with them and tells you why you should be obsessed too

like am i just insane or is it a rather .. obvious connection to make that the shiekah found the tech of the sonau and built theirs inspired by what they could find, it was so old at that point that its non functional or even recognizable in the present, but when the shiekah found it they could still research it; given how the shiekah built multiple shrines and puzzles to them WITHTIN ruins that, in botw, were sonau ruins, i thought that was the logical line to draw and a good way to connect them while still leaving the sonau to be a mysterious ... mystery (this is what im going for in my rewrite btw)

also another thought, if the ancient shiekah could see the future to a degree they built stuff to prepare the next hero for the next calamity that would happen in thousands of years .. how did they never find out about gan? i know they were more about the future than the past but like ... were they really so stupid to see that the calamity will come back just the same from the same place and NOT investigate?? ESPECIALLY considering that the weird half sonau ancient hero was literally THERE when they saw the furture and built all of that for it???? the sonau werent gone gone in any sense and you CANNOT tell me that the shiekah jsut ignored this weird half whatever looking guy outfitted in an aesthetic and culture that wasnt obviously present anymore and clearly connected to somethign else, with probably clear scars were whatever buildings were lifted into the skies- SOMEHOW- and monoments LITERALLY STILL READABLE IN THE PRESENT that tells you about all theshit that went down?? even if you hid them with some weird mechanisms, are you realyl not gonen investigate?? also why hide it anyway?? if its supposed to be a monument to the sonau why the fuck would you built stuff to HIDE the information from it?? gan cant reach it anyway bc hes KINDA STUCK you are telling me the group of people with a vision of the future and high tech stuff that are famously obsessed with the stars and sky didnt see any of the sonau shit floating around there?? ohoho but it was hidden by magic uwu WHY bc you wanted to wait thousands of years for the "right" link to come around?? so you let thousands of people suffer and die just bc you wanted a specific guy? why not the ancient hero instead?? and solve the problem right then and there?? or would that mess too much with the history all of the sudden, you didnt care about messing anythign else up before either

its all just so messy if you start to think even a little bit about whatever the fuck happened in totk and i ahte it, it solves stuff that didnt need solving, ignores or even erases stuff that didnt need erasing and was all ready to go and be more explored, its infuriating

(also additional thought about the previous rant where i mentioned how characters, esepcially zelda, regress HARD in chaarcter development) someone mentioend this about link and ... YEAH, in botw the main thing was the connection between link and zelda, how they didnt like each other at first and at the end were THE brotp; in totk, aside from zelda mentioning how strong link is, theres nothing, the link that was revealed in botw to only be so silent and expressionless (not fully but like supressing everythign rly) bc of the immense pressure that was put on him is now just the most importanest sword guy who didnt even shed a tear when you get the memories of zelda basically killing herself; or did he know she will just be returned to normal with no harm or memory done no problemo in the end?? i dont WANT link to talk mind you, i never want to hear him talk tbh, i like him being mostly silent aside from his grunts when he climbs a cliff or soothes a horse (i go non verbal in high stress situations too) but you could have shown him be affected by it at all, or idk DO ANYTHIGN WITH THEIR RELATIONSHIP they are best friends whod die for each other but that doesnt actually matter in anything bc he just do what sword man does-

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #totk #ganondoodles rants #it really is a replacement for botw isnt it #might as well not have happened

[stainedstardom]

BROO IM BEGGING PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS

SAM x FEM!READER

Okay so like the reader and Sam get into a big argument you can choose about what. And then they don’t end up speaking for like a week or so and the reader can’t help but to feel so bad and blame them self because they miss Sam so idk one day everyone’s at Sam’s apartment and they decide to have a movie night. Anika. Mindy Tara and everyone else knew what was going on so after the movie they left the reader and Sam alone to work things out let’s say it got quiet so Sam gets up to leave but the reader tells her to stay and tells Sam how sorry she is and how she felt bad but Sam also says sorry and stuff. So they end up forgiving each other and kiss the end !! 🤭

sorry it’s a lot but PLSSSSSSSS

I’m begging on my knees for u to do this because ur a rlly good writer but PLSSSSSSS I want this so bad. Thank u sm luv u

no need to beg ml of course i’ll do it.

GET OVER IT

sam carpenter x fem! reader

"i can't believe you" sam yelled at you and you scoffed as you turned to her. chad, mindy and tara stood far behind as they watched the two of you

"me? oh my god sam , you were flirting with your fucking neighbor. you were giving him fuck me eyes and youre mad at me?" you asked and she shook her head

"youre fucking crazy" sam stated and you nodded

"right? yeah ill get over it, im leaving" you said and you stormed off as she stood and watched you walk away

"sam what the fuck? go after her" tara said and she shook her head with a laugh

"no fucking way, she put herself in this position" sam exclaimed and you kept walking. that was a week ago, you had stayed in your apartment, went to your job, to your classes, cleaned your apartment, went along with your life without sam and the others but nothing could feel the void.

sam called you crazy and maybe she was right. you shouldnt have though that she wanted her neighbor because she was nice to him. it was confusing after everything in woodsboro, you thought she would be closed off but this proved otherwise.

and tara as well as the twins were getting mad at you two for not talking. sam was being unruly and they missed the way you looked after them and took care of them so they did something.

chad called you and invited you to a movie night but you hesitated

"does sam want me there?" you remembered asking, you didnt want to invade her space no matter how much the others wanted you to. it was her space and you didn't want her to feel uncomfortable

"of course she does, she even told me to invite you" chad lied to you right through his teeth and thats how you ended up here. in sams apartment, sitting on the other end of the couch away from her because she was clearly uncomfortable with your presence

"chad can i talk to you?" you asked and he nodded as you led him to the kitchen and smacked his arm

"you told me she wanted me here" you stated

"ow! she does" he tried

"really? because it looks like my presence repulses her, i told you i wouldnt come if she would be uncomfortable" you said

"i know, im sorry, i just want you to fix this" he stated and you nodded

"i know and i do too but its not going to get fixed if she doesnt want to see me" you exclaimed and he nodded

"im sorry" he spoke and then someone else did too

"im sorry too" sam exclaimed and chad looked at you with a wide smile

"im going to let you two talk" he said and he walked out as sam walked in and sat down.

"im sor-" you said together and you laughed.

"you go" she spoke

"im sorry, i was mad for no reason. i just didnt know what to say or think so i said the first thing that came to my mind which was not a good idea" you stated and she nodded.

"im sorry too, calling you crazy was wrong, you have every right to be confused and annoyed with me" she said and she grabbed your hands as she looked in your eyes and you looked in hers.

"do you forgive me?" she asked

"of course i do, do you forgive me?" you questioned

"i couldnt stay mad at you forever" she said and you smiled as you leaned in and kissed her making her kiss you back and then you heard it

"YES! FINALLY" chad yelled and you laughed as you shook your head and smiled before you continued to kiss her.

you got over it

A/N: so i know its not entirely like the request but i think scolding chad wouldve been more angsty and cute! so i hope you enjoyed

#sam carpenter #sam carpenter x y/n #sam carpenter x you #sam carpenter x reader #melissa barrera #scream fanfic #scream 6 x reader #scream #scream 5 #scream 5 x reader #scream 6 imagines #scream 5 imagine #scream 6

[podcastenthusiast]

First part of a Astarion/Karlach thing I'm writing. Basically a little rewrite of some Act 3 scenes. Could become something bigger, who knows.

--

"Well, at least you've met my family now," Astarion says. "Pity. You and Violet would get on quite well. Haha."

His tone is light and dismissive, especially for a midnight familial attempted kidnapping. But there's a desperate edge to it, too, like he's worried she might finally see sense and run for the hills.

Karlach's never been accused of being sensible. If Astarion burning his brother in a sunbeam while his sister screamed didn't scare her off, this little evening interruption sure won't.

Karlach does hope she will have a chance to meet his siblings properly, once they're all free.

"I wouldn't've let them take you anywhere," she vows, chest heaving, still very much caught up in protective Mama K mode.

"I know. Deep breaths, darling."

Astarion still looks wary, as if he's expecting the other shoe to drop. She can't cool down, she realizes, not yet, because she's still angry.

Angry at him.

"You lied to them. About the ritual. Like it was easy."

He scoffs. "It was easy. They aren't exactly the brightest candles in the chandelier, you know."

"You're really gonna sacrifice your own brothers and sisters? Betray their trust in you like--like they're nothing." Like Gortash did, she thinks but doesn't say. There are some words you can't take back. She loves this pasty bastard too much to actually believe he'd go through with it, anyway.

"What does it matter? They're just my...colleagues in suffering. Expendable. Pathetic." Oh, Astarion's giving her the old monster routine, one of his thinner disguises. She can see the aelf-loathing clesrly beneath without even really trying. "And let's not forget they are vampire spawn. Hardly innocent."

"Fuck, Astarion, none of us are! You only give a shit about yourself, huh?"

"Why not? No one ever looked out for me. No one ever said a kind thing to me. You're the only one," he insists, getting a bit heated himself now. "Other people don't have a heart like you."

"Damn right, soldier," she replies quietly, tapping a fist against her engine as it ticks and whirs her numbered days away. The rage fades. "Sort of the problem, isn't it."

"I-- shit, Karlach, I didn't mean--"

There he is.

"Hey. It's all right."

It isn't, not really. Nothing is all right anymore. But they will be.

Karlach just can't be the only good thing he sees in this world. It's not fair to either of them. Gods only know how much more time she even has left, besides; Astarion shouldnt be alone, not after everything he's been through. She needs him to be okay without her, selfish as it is.

"Scares me when you talk like that," she admits. "Like other people are just things to you."

"I'm sorry, Karlach," he says, miserably. "I don't know if I can be anything else, here."

Karlach's mother always told her to never go to bed angry. After ten years in the Hells, it felt pointless and silly, but tonight with his siblings' blood staining the floor, she thinks she might understand the wisdom in that advice.

"C'mere, Fangs."

She opens her arms. Always gives him a choice; touch is complicated for both of them in a lot of ways. And, yeah, there's her cuddly Astarion after all. Must be exhausting pretending to something he's not all the time. Thought so since she met him that day by the river. All those masks and yet none seems to fit quite right. She knows the feeling, more or less.

"You're loved, you hear me?" she tells him. "So fucking loved."

His skin is a pleasant balm; hers is still smoldering a little. They don't let go.

"You make things so difficult," he complains softly against her collarbone, affectionate despite the actual words.

"Knew this wasn't gonna be easy. But I swear, tomorrow we'll kick Cazador's ass," she murmurs, holding him tighter. "I've got you."

"Ugh. Get a room, you two," Shadowheart grumbles from her bed.

They have a room, though. This room. The others will simply have to deal with that.

It's gonna be okay.

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #astarion x karlach #astarion #karlach #a bg3 fic from me that's not second person?? i know wild. karlach didn't want to do that i guess #bg3 fanfiction #baldur's gate iii

[yourtouchismidas]

Could you write one where Mattys brother Louis meets Gigi for the first time and banters with Matty over how soft he’s gone because of her?

I literally could not stop thinking about this when I read ruins.

(little disclaimer, i dont know much about louis, so sorry if this is way off)

you and gigi are still in the hospital when louis comes to visit. he is the last one of matty's friends and family to meet her, as he is off working in london when she is born. in fact, he didnt even find out he was having a niece until tiktok found out, and he was aimlessly scrolling one day, skipping past the ones of his brother his damn algorithm was serving up, until he saw a picture of you and the caption over it, matty healy's baby mama. he dropped the phone and rang matty immediately.

"sup?" matty had answered.

"erm, do you have something to tell me?"

"you're a twat?" matty said, lazily scrolling through his own phone while they talked.

"the baby?!" louis said, incredulously. he was used to the news and the fans making up rumours about his brother so maybe, he thought now, this was another one, until matty answered.

"oh," he said, "yeah. i'm having a baby"

"and you didnt think to mention it?!" louis cried.

"meh," matty said, "dunno why. i thought you knew."

so louis made the trek up from london on his day off, arriving at the front of the hospital, where his mum met him and led him to the room where you were resting with his new niece.

you'd never met him, and you were still sleepy, so when the boy who looked uncannily like matty walked in, you gave him a small smile and a weak wave.

"sorry to be meeting you like this," you said. louis chuckled.

matty was in the corner, looking over the crib at gigi, staring. he got up and wrapped louis in a big hug.

"glad you could come," he said. "look at my kid."

he pulled louis over to the crib, where gigi was sleeping, all black hair and wrinkly skin, in a tight swaddle.

louis looked at her for a while, smiling a soft smile, "she's so cute," he said.

"innit!' matty said.

"you shouldnt have a kid," louis said, teasing.

"erm, this is my destiny actually. look at her. look at my destiny."

"fucking hell. i didnt think you could get any softer," louis said.

usually, that kind of jab would've continued to rile matty up. they were grown now, both of them, but they could still bother each other like school boys, occasionally even shoving each other until denise had to roll her eyes and says "boys stop it for gods sake you're adults."

instead matty just scooped his baby daughter up, looked into her eyes as she opened them, and then softly said "hi," to her. then he kissed her gently on the nose and said "i don't care what she makes me. i'll be it. i'll be anything for her."

louis came alongside matty to look at her too, watching her blink open her huge eyes.

"yeah you know what she's alright, isn't she?"

#ruins #ruins behind the scenes #matty healy #matty healy x reader #matty healy x you #matty healy x y/n #the 1975 fanfic #matty healy fanfiction #dad!matty

[neon-atrocities]

I literally cannot shut up, it is just not possible, so I wanted to talk about the Wilbur Soot allegations, and how i personally feel about them. I tend to have slightly varying opinions, so don’t expect to much from me.

If you all are familiar with Wilbur Soot, then you know he admitted to abusing his GF in the form of biting.

In addition clips are resurfacing of him showing clear signs if extreme anger at Tommy who seemed to have taken his things without asking though I didn’t fact check that.

More instances, such as Techno’s parents persisting that Wilbur had “pelted” (idk what that means) his bad arm while he was alive. Supposedly, Techno had said it was fine. This was not fact checked by me either.

Now to preface this, HIS ASS IS GUILTY!! I don’t want anyone thinking I think otherwise. But where things cannot be excused (bcs they shouldnt), there is room for explanation.

I honest to god think his autism, while NOT an excuse, is a huge part. A mixture of not respecting other boundaries and not having his boundaries respected is the likely result of a lot of this.

Wilbur isn’t a child. Clearly, as he felt the need to apologize, he knew what he did was wrong at some point.

I’m going to be disgustingly honest and say I too have hurt people without realizing it. I was horribly unsocialized and also bit my first boyfriend too. It was like every time I was “playing” I was blind for a moment, just happy and smiling. In fact, it was this whole abuse allegation that made me realize what I’d done was wrong and I am nineteen fucking years old.

I have already written myself as a bad person, as Wilbur has had done to him too.

I’d playfully hit and wouldn’t realize people didn’t like it until they screamed at me.

And god help anyone I felt wasn’t respecting me. I was, and still am, the most enraged person on this planet.

But as I said, I know I am quite bad. But i wouldn’t have EVER improved if I didn’t have the time to heal by myself.

If I had people whispering and yelling down my back everyday talking about how horrible I am with no way to explain or show how I felt at the time or how that came to be, I’d have continuously pushed the idea that I didnt do enough wrong to deserve it.

All of this to say, Wilbur did wrong, he needs to figure out how to make it right, and we need to stop pushing such concentrated hate onto him. Telling him he’s wrong or bad is one thing but I’ve seen paragraphs about how he should end it and that is actually insane.

On the other hand, Shelby has done very good and been very brave. I am very proud of her!! It must’ve very scary going against someone with so much support.

It is never the responsibility of the abused to protect their abuser, regardless of how they function. Even if everything I’ve said applies perfectly to Wilbur, Shelby has always been in her right to do what she did.

I’m likely going to delete this at some point, as it’s embarrassing, but I wanted to be fair and honest on how I felt personally on the situation.

Thank you for reading! 🤍

#wilbur soot #wilbur allegations #wilbur soot allegations

[nightlilly0110]

Oh my god if I see season 6 come out and I see people be like “poor hawks he wants to join the villains but he has to do what the commission says uwu” I’m gonna fucking lose it.

Not once does this dude actually express the fact that he cares for the villains. “Oh but he was nice to them” ITS CALLED ACTING. HE WAS UNDERCOVER. IF YOU BELIEVED HE WAS ON THE SIDE OF THE LEAGUE GUESS WHAT - YOU BOUGHT IT. YOURE GULLIBLE. THE WHOLE POINT OF HIS MISSION WAS TO MAKE THEM TRUST HIM.

I literally saw someone say recently that Hawks loved Twice. LOVED HIM AND THAT HE WAS A FUCKING TRAGIC HERO FOR HAVING TO KILL HIM!!!! Do you know how fucking stupid that sounds?!

“But he was offering to help rehabilitate them! Twice instigated the fight!” Twice didn’t fight back. Twice also knew that the “rehabilitation” Hawks had in mind was just throwing them all into Tartarus. There is no rehabilitation in the BNHA universe. That’s fanon. I should know because I fucking MADE a rehabilitation au.

“Twice’s quirk was dangerous! He had to get rid of him!” Again. Twice wasn’t fighting back. He tried to run and was LITERALLY STABBED IN THE BACK. He was escaping. He was trying to get away.

“But if he’s a dangerous criminal! Hawks had to protect himself and others!” POLICE/HEROES SHOULDNT SHOOT UNARMED PEOPLE! POLICE/HEROES SHOULDN’T SHOOT GUILTY PEOPLE EITHER! POLICE/HEROES SHOULDNT SHOOT ANYONE! AND IF YOU TRULY WANTED TO REHABILITATE THIS PERSON YOU WOULDNT FUCKING KILL THEM!

“Hawks had no other choice. The Commission-” Hey. Hey. Look at me. If someone tells you to do something, you don’t have to do it. It’s called free will. I will admit he was probably abused and brainwashed by the Commission. But like. This dude does not change his tune. He does not want to break free of the Commission. He doesn’t struggle with following his orders. We’re talking about the dude who said that he’d “corrupt himself” for the good of the mission. He’s fine where he is. He’s a goddamn lapdog. He’s a huge contrast to Lady Nagant, who was actually remorseful at what the Commission made her do and tried to quit (and was punished for it).

“Dabi just let Twice die!” Dabi attacked Hawks to help Twice escape but failed. It was not his intention to let Twice die.

“But he was filming it to frame Hawks!” He wanted footage to prove Hawks was a bad person in general. That was the footage he happened to get.

“Dabi abused Hawks.” Just attacking someone is not abuse. Abuse occurs when one party has a position of power over the other. Dabi was just attacking him. And if you have a problem with him attacking people, I hate to break it to you - it’s a shonen manga. With people literally labelled as heroes and villains. There has to be conflict and Hawks literally just killed a man. I think Dabi can attack people if he wants to.

“Dabi was happy Twice died! He was laughing!” Dabi says with his own damned mouth that he can’t cry. He’s also been shown to, even before he was Dabi and when he was Touya, smile when being hurt. Touya, you know, the kid with an abusive father. The kid that wanted so much attention from his abusive father that he repeatedly hurt himself to “make him stronger” and would then smile to hide his pain. Dabi smiling at Twice’s death isn’t because he’s happy. He’s grieving and he can’t cry. (Side note: Shigaraki also smiles when in pain.)

Enough about Hawks.

(Also can we talk about the fact that Dabi called out Endeavour for his behaviour and Best Jeanist told him to shut up and keep “personal matters” off of tv and when Endeavour admitted to the child abuse Burnin basically said there’s no proof?)

#long post #crow grumbles #rant #salt #bnha salt #anti hawks #bnha spoilers #mha spoilers #I’ll keep the comments active on this post for now #I’ll probably have to turn them off #can’t wait for the hate on this one

[kindnessisweakness2]

Delusional - Part 24

Jax's eyes widened in shock as he watched Delaney Grab the barrell of the gun. Lunging forward, taking Alex down to the floor as 3 shots of the gun fired, Jax screamed as he watched Delaney fly backwards. Smashing his fist into Alex face twice, Jax threw the gun away from him. He couldnt explain the relief he felt at the sound of the door flying open and the guys rushing in. Happy was the first to Jax's side. "Take this piece of shit to the warehouse. I want him alive Hap!" Jax barked orders he knew the Tacoma Killer would be glad to Obey. Juice, Tig and bobby followed behind Happy, there was no way that slimy fucker was running away now. Chibs and Gemma were all over Delaney. Jax stood next to Opie, gripping is hair in frustration as tears fell. "She grabbed the gun Ope. H-he said she had to choose. She grabbed the fucking gun!" Opie did his best to comfort his best friend. They'd grew up together, and he'd never seen Jax like this. Not even when Tara left. Jax always jumped to Anger first. Never let emotions get in the way. Fuck, he'd only seen him cry once and that was when he got the news his dad died. After that it was all fighting and drinking the pain away. "She's gonna be okay. She's a fighter. Shes survived the worst. It's gonna be alright man." And as Opie patted his best friends back, he hoped with everything he was right.

Chibs worked fast. Faster than he ever had. Cutting Jax's hoodie away, revealing the once white vest top underneath, he packed gauze into the open wound in her shoulder. "Its still in there. Im gonna have to pull the bullet out." He looked at Gemma as he spoke, unable to keep the worry from his face. He'd never had to work on an old lady before, let alone his VPS. "Shouldnt we get her to the hospital? Shes pregnant for god sakes!" Gemma questioned. Clay and Chibs shook their heads at the same time. "No. It raises too many questions. Shes been in and out of hospital too much recently. I can handle this Gem. Shes gonna be fine." Gemma shook her head, hoping what he was saying was true. Jax leaned over his girl, kissing her forehead. "Shes got a shoulder wound. The other two bullets missed her. Shes very lucky lad, but shes gonna have to rest after this. The doctor said no stress and i dont know what effect this would have had on the baby." Jax nodded at chibs, not being able to manage words. He stayed there, leaning over the love of his life as she lay unconscious on their living room floor. He begged whoever was up there, God, his Dad, Thomas, that both her and their baby would be okay. She didnt deserve this. She didnt deserve any of it. Him? He was far from perfect. Maybe this was Karma for everything he had done wrong in his life. The best thing that ever happened to him was going to be ripped away.

White hot pain. Thats what Delaney felt when she opened her eyes. "Fuck" She groaned as she tried to sit up, but a hand flew out to stop her moving. "Dont." Jax spoke softly as he sat on the side of their bed. "Alex.." He cut her off. "Happy has him up at the warehouse on the Wahiwah. He's not getting away this time, im gonna make sure of it." Delaney sighed, "I was so scared he was gonna hurt you." Jax cupped her face and kissed her gently. "I cant believe you grabbed the gun. You idiot! You couldve been killed, Our baby..." It was Delaneys turn to cut him off. "I wasnt going to let you get hurt because of me. Yes im an idiot, but your important Jax. Your needed." Tears fell from Jax's eyes as he kissed her again. "Your needed. I need you" Delaney wrapped her arms around him, hissing at the pain and trying to be gentle because of the stitches. "I love you Teller" Jax smiled at her . "I love you too you idiot." Gemma, Chibs and Clay made their way into the bedroom at that point. Each of them wanting to check on her and Chibs handing her much needed painkillers."Now we know your both okay. I have halfsack fixing the bullet holes in your living room and Happy's getting antsy. He needs to know what to do with the scumbag." Clay questioned Jax. "I want to see him." Delaney stated to the shock of everyone in the room. "It's my turn to get answers. Also i have a question, has anyone else noticed this fucker only re surfaces after Tara rears her ugly head and causes an argument?" She could see everyone thinking it over. "Think about it, both times hes come back and attacked me its been when Tara has managed to seperate me and Jax." Chibs and Gemma nodded. "The bitch has to be involved some how." Delaney stood from the bed, "We'll im gonna find out." Jax tried to stop her but it was no use.

Delaney was determined to find out Tara's involvement in all of this.

She wanted Answers and she didnt care who she was going to have to go through to get them.

#jax teller x reader #sons of anarchy #jax teller #jax teller imagine #jax teller x oc #sons of anarchy imagine #sons of anarchy fanfiction

[butchdykekondraki]

i mean. surely god wouldnt punish you for doing something a liar told you to do. right. like im trustworthy. we're just having a good apple.

well you are. im not. it would be kind of awkward if i was- anyway i probably shouldnt talk about my eating habits. oh thats how you eat. um.

i knew that.

see. yeah. i told you itd be fine. you've passed the trial. im sure god is going to come over anytime now to congratulate you and tell you that you've done good. so uhhh.

hm. i didnt think id get this far. okay well. i think you should be feeling and having some new thoughts. anything rattling in there you want to tell me

rattling. like. a snake. well im not a rattlesnake i think im supposed to be... i dont actually know. maybe a species of viper... oops lets get back to you. anything feeling anything

um. yeah im. i dont feel good about this. like this feels Bad. my head kind of hurts. this is a lot to process at once. um. so like. do you know what sinning is. because this kind of feels like one- or like what one is supposed to feel like. my skin feels crawly. also i kind of know what snakes are now. you kind of look like one. can't tell which one you are but you look really similar. like. kind of unnaturally similar. my head hurts. did i mention how much my head hurts? i- oh shit is that god over there oh fuck oh shit dude what the fuck. dude you said he wouldn't get mad!! what the fuck!!

#[ren]

[bugboysgf]

Find Our Way pt3

Summary: Jack ended things in high school between you to but now you're older and things start to get complicated.

Couple years later

“Holy shit.” Jade got up from the bed in the hotel room. You guys were in a hotel because you were going to a premiere later that day.

“What?” you asked looking up from your phone

“Jack he released a song with lil naz x-””

“I don't wanna hear about jack. You know this already.” you cut jade off.

“But look.” she shoved the phone in your face. You look at a guy with a white tank top on and pink pants.

“Okay? What am I looking at?”

“That's jack.” you furrowed your eyes and grabbed the phone out of her hand.

“Holy fucking shit thats jack.” you looked at her with your mouth opened wide

“Damn, that's crazy when he gets so hot.”

“He was always hot.” you said still looking at the video.

“The vmas.” “What about it?” you asked.

“There tomorrow and you're nominated and he's nominated, so you guys are going to see each other for the first time in years.”

“He's nominated for what?” you started to panic. You could barely talk to Jack when you were in high school with him so what were you going to do now?

“His song is  whats poppin.”

“Shit i'm dead.”

—

The vmas went smoothly with no sign of jack. You only saw him when he won his awards and that's it. You're so glad you didnt  see him on the red carpet. Now you were at the after party talking when some of your music friends. You decided you wanted another drink so you excused yourself. You walked up to the bar and asked for water since you already had been drinking.

“y/n?” you heard a familiar voice. You turn around shit.shit. Shit. It's urban.

“Urban hi.” you gave him a smile.

“You look so different… in a good way. How are you.”

“I'm good.” you nodded your head.

“Jack-” “Nope” you stopped him right there.

“Come on y/n that was years ago. He's not even signed with drama anymore.”

“What does drama have to do with me and jack.”

“Oh shit” you can tell he just said something he shouldnt have.

“Anyways do you want-” “y/n?” oh my god this time you knew exactly who it was. Jack. you turn around and give him a smile

“Hey.” you tried to act normal as possible meanwhile urban was backing away trying to leave the situation.

“It's been forever, how have you been?” “Umm good ..i've been good.” you nodded your head. Silence filled the space between you too.

“I have to go.” you said trying to get out of the conversation.

“No” was all he said

“What?”

“I said no, I need to talk to you.. Well, apologize.”

“There's no need.” you cut him off.

“Yes there is.” “Nope, I've moved on, you moved on. We're good.” you tried to tell him but he shook his head.

“You moved on, I haven't. I want to be friends again.”

“What?” you had to make sure you were hearing him right because there is no way he said that.

“I wanted to be friends again.” you looked him in his blue eyes and shook your head. “Look it was a mistake y/n, i didn't want to end things.”

“But you did.” memories of him calling you that night came into your mind. You remember sitting on the bed crying all night because he broke things off.

“I had to hear me out. Please.” he begged.

“Fine.”

“Drama made me  i choose you or him and if I choose you I was done for. I need him for my career. You have to understand you always wanted similar things. You got your dream, I got mine.”

“Yea jack but i didn't hurt people in the process.” you said turning around to walk away.

“If you make it any better, drama knew I liked you that why i had to end things.”

That's when your heart dropped. Jack liked me back this whole time

#jackman #jack harlow #jack harlow fanfic #jack harlow x reader #jackman thomas harlow #fanfic