#halo of hurt

[delugingmind]

“I don't belong here was all that I said Spiraling downward, I was out of my head I'd never hurt you if left with a choice But something's been aching for most of my life“ Seahaven - I Don’t belong here

#Seahaven #I don't belong here #lyrics #Halo of hurt

[on-this-day-mcr]

On this day, July 23

In 2002: My Chemical Romance released their first studio album, "I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love", with producer Geoff Rickly. (🖤)

Stream "I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love" here!

#another one for the where it all began compilation boys #“with producer geoff rickly” sentences that hurt my heart to type :') #sometimes it still blows my mind that this was their very first album #like you're telling me they produced vampires?? demo lovers?? halos?? SORROWS????? as some of their very first songs??????????????????????? #wild #july 23 #2002 #bullets era #album release

[canisalbus]

Hello I made you some more art!! IDK Why your little guys have just stuck in my brain as of late but yeah I'm just on a roll I guess!

This piece was inspired by wondering who was present around Machete's assassination, and how people around him would react to his downfall. So I had the idea for a portrait of a final lover's embrace, as Vasco holds his dying beloved in bloodsoaked arms.

I tried my best with the clothing -- especially the shoes -- and I think I did a pretty good job but BOY were they hard! XD Anyways, I hope you like this one, it was a blast to draw! I love machete sm istg <3

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#Machete #Vasco #own characters #coldandfoggy #gift art #hhhhadgasjgdshad??? #THIS #¿¿¿¿¿ #congratulations you've managed to deliver some immense mental damage through the ethers #and I mean that as a compliment I live for the moments when art just really Hits You Where It Hurts #loving the way the scarlet red of Machete's cassock blends seamlessly with the pool of blood #Vasco's expression speaks volumes #he was always a very touchy feely person so thinking of their final embrace just puts a pit in your stomach #poses like this are tricky but Machete looks appropriately limp and lifeless and at peace in a way that's cruelly ironic #the halo is a nice touch it kind of evokes pietà imagery #the clothing and the shoes look fine I wouldn't have guessed you had issues with them if you hadn't mentioned it #just a grand old liver punch this one #damn son #thank you for drawing the sad dog guys I'm very flattered they've made an impression! I know I'll be agonizing over this piece for a while #some potentially upsetting lore musings!! violence and tragedy and stuff: #I haven't cemented the chain of events yet but I believe he was ambushed by a single assailant when he was alone #either early in the morning or late evening #he didn't manage to put up much of a fight that time the first stab punctured a lung and the second nicked a carotid artery #I believe you lose consciousness in a minute or so and generally bleed out in less than three #Vasco wouldn't have been informed of the murder because why would he be and even if he somehow found out very quickly #the distance between Rome and Florence is roughly 250 km don't quote me on this but it looks like it'd take at least 4 days on horseback? #I think but I don't know how horses work to be honest #maybe they had some sneaky correspondence going on but if there was a pause in communications it wouldn't have been a cause for concern #so it's highly likely he'd only find out when he rolled in town for another business trip #and Machete had been buried weeks or months ago

[sysig]

uuuumm for the request thing maybe pastel gaster? maybe with the evil goatparents or evil alphys, haha. or maybe even evil temmie lol.

Day 29 - He's studying you with a smile...

#My art #Requestober #UT #Handplates #Fellplates #Gaster #Fellplates!Gaster is weird :) I like that about him #Man it's been a heck-while since I've draw him!! He's still heckin' cute - I will always be biased towards wings haha #Didn't have any hair to shade this time so had to give them a little extra attention hehe ♪ #The whole shading everything - I've just been really into backlighting lately haha #The halo is a great excuse ♫ #I also like how in searching for his refs they were paired to the note of ''Don't think about it for too long it all comes crumbling down'' #But now I'm thinking about it!! Oh no!! Lol #Like for example I know there are Mercyplates iterations where the Skelebros never get the plates #But the intention was still there at some point (maybe? It's been a while lol) #Basically my point is - I think Gaster's two hand hole-punches would garner the attention of Someone #Since they were brought up how about Alphys or the Goatparents' - and he gets some accessories to cover up with ♪ #Anyway that's all just errant-thought fun to think about Gaster getting hurt lol - even this Gaster? #:3c Maybe #I trust him about as far as I can throw him as much as I thoroughly enjoy him hehe ♪ #It was tempting to do something with Alphys and the others as well - the image of him picking up Fell!Temmie and resting her on his lap lol #But I've never drawn any of them and I couldn't find any agreed-upon references so I opted for He Alone #It would be fun to see him interacting with others tho :) #Hardly topical but I think my favourite iteration of AU Alphys is SwapFell?? She's very cool in Swap but hnnrh the armour is so cool #Anyway lol ♪

[acasualcrossfade]

Pillows on the Floor

Sicktember Day 25:  Confused/Disoriented

Stranger Things: Steve Harrington/ Eddie Munson

Words: 500 | Rating: M | CW: mild cursing, mentions of violent nightmares, effects of violent nightmares, mentions of blood and physical harm

@sicktember

Summary: Steve is wary of sleeping next to Eddie again after Steve’s nightmare hurts the both of them.

Find me on Ao3!

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Eddie was already in bed when Steve exited the bathroom. In the soft lamp light of the bedroom, Steve could make out the healing scratches criss-crossed over Eddie’s arms. 

“You comin’ to bed?” Eddie asked. His brown eyes were filled with concern. 

“Not tonight.”

Eddie’s shoulders sagged. “Can you at least talk to me?”

Steve paused. He’d given Eddie the silent treatment for the past few days; all he could see when he looked at Eddie was how he’d hurt him. It’d been three nights of Steve sleeping downstairs.

Steve remembered the entire ordeal. He remembered the dream and how he’d been tied down, the buzzing of a bone saw in his ears. He remembered snapping awake screaming hoarsely, then arms around him, holding him. Steve was confined again, trapped again, and he thrashed to get away, to escape. Steve clawed at what held him, fighting against Eddie’s arms.

It wasn’t until Steve fell against the cold hardwood gasping in deep breaths that he heard Eddie’s pained moans from the bed. 

It wasn’t until Eddie clicked on the bedside lamp that Steve saw what he’d done.

“Steve?”

Eddie’s voice pulled Steve from the memory.

“It’s okay, they’re healing,” Eddie’s voice said gently.

“S’not that.” Steve’s voice was low, but he carefully sat on the edge of the bed next to Eddie. 

“Then what is it?”

Steve kept his gaze on the floor. “I freaked out, Eddie. I freaked and I hurt you.”

“I was the one that grabbed you,” Eddie admitted. “Stupid move, but I didn’t want you to fall head first off the bed. Wasn’t thinking.”

“You were trying to help, and I hurt you instead.”

Eddie reached his hand across the blanket, but paused halfway to Steve’s.

Steve glanced at Eddie’s hand and then slowly closed the distance between them as he poked Eddie’s hand with his own. 

They clasped their hands together, fingers intertwining and winding together. For a moment, Steve relished in Eddie’s presence.

Then, Steve spoke the words that kept fear cemented in his heart.

“It could be worse next time.” 

Eddie’s hand squeezed his hand in response and traced Steve’s knuckles gently. “We saw some dark shit over there. You more than me,” Eddie said. “And next time, maybe there’ll be pillows on the floor instead.”

Steve looked up suddenly in surprised confusion.  “Pillows on the floor?” “Yeah, if you’re going to be falling out of bed, you’ll at least land on something soft.”

Steve blinked. He’d never thought of that. “Like the couch cushions?” 

 “Actually, that would work. Want to try it?”

Steve nodded and so it was set up. As Steve carried a cushion and set it by the bed, he felt a weight shift and lift from him. 

He’d have something to catch him. 

The thought brought comfort, and it was easier to crawl into bed next to Eddie. It was easier to nudge into Eddie’s embrace.

In Eddie’s arms, Steve found sleep easier than he had in a long time.

#sicktember 2023 #sicktember day 25 #confused/disoriented #steddie #steddie fic #steddie ficlet #hurt/comfort #steve harrington #eddie munson #hurt steve harrington #hurt eddie munson #acasualcrossfade writes #thuderously halo writes

[goldensunset]

aqua for @star-sworn! thanks for the request!

i think this is my first real attempt at a lineless/paint-like style and it was fun! love this queen so much she deserves the world

#bet you thought i forgot about the requests. bet you also forgot. sike #kingdom hearts #kh #aqua #kh aqua #kingdom hearts aqua #aqua kh #aqua kingdom hearts #wow i love drawing aqua in blue voids apparently fgdhxhcj #i would’ve done like a frame or halo to make it more interesting but i wanted to keep the smooth painting feel to it #it’s ok to be simple sometimes #mine: kh #my art #i’m still kinda conflicted on this but i’m probably judging myself too harshly #like it’s literally fine i don’t have to take things so seriously #blending is a nightmare i gave up in some places i’m sure none of you will mind right #hey look! i got something done after weeks!!!! #arm still hurts but not quite as bad anymore

[bechloesupercorp]

bea having an irrational fear of the dark at night but bc theyre so in-tune w each other's emotions, everytime bea gets scared, the halo starts to glow, even if ava's asleep.

one night, bea wakes up from a bad dream and is staring at the ceiling in stilted silence -- the fact that ava wasn't asleep in her arms is already a bit of a shock -- and the halo starts glowing faintly, fighting off the darkness just enough. ava sleepily rolls over onto her front, half draped over bea and bea let's herself relax under her weight.

nothing can get her when ava's here. no monsters, no nightmares, no memories.

the ghosts are at bay.

#aka bea using ava as a weighted blanket™️ #and the halo as a nightlight #also i really like the idea that beas parents were the type to leave her alone in the dark at night so theres a bit of hurt!bea in there <3 #warrior nun #avatrice #sister beatrice #ava silva #hcs #boink scribbles

[empresskadia]

I quite seriously despise drawing armor :’) and people who do have my respect. It took me hours looking at reference photos for this. But I said, ODST Raya will be started

My girl likes her sniper rifle, bang bang

I still have some details to add on but I’m also working on a new sketch for her Spartan armor, I changed it up a bit.

#halo #halo series #my art #halo oc #Raya muse #Raya #spartan muse #odst muse #odst #my hand hurts #I like the details armor has but holy crap #doing it is confusing #idk how people do comic #and I’m trying to at least get the first page of her comic done #it’s not going well #AND #I actually need to do a character sheet for her to commission people #I kinda wanna work on people ocs #and some of the halo characters #Naomi has been put on pause until further notice

[siofra-river]

Ok i feel like i don’t explain the valentine lore enough so here it is.

THE Valentine-056 post!

She was born on November 1st, 2510 (Age 50 as of the year halo infinite takes place) on the planet Jericho VII. She was kidnapped by ONI and placed into the Spartan 2 when she was 7. She’s 7’ft 2” (218.44 cm) outside the armor and 7’5” (226.06 cm) inside the armor.

She’s been in many battles, including the battle against the Insurrection group Freedom League who had set up resistance on her homeplanet, which at the time the visit was…bittersweet. During the fall of Reach, she was with the Red team splinter group Team Delta as they secured CASTLE base. She helped with Operation First Strike, after Master Chief returned to Reach to find any survivors. After that, she returned to Earth to help fight off the Covenant invasion. During the invasion of Earth she was sent to Sydney, Australia to help fight covenant forces and to keep important members of the UEG. She was almost sent to Africa, until they started glassing it. Post Covenant war, she is in charge of a Fireteam working with ONI sector 3 Beta-3 division and Delta-6 division to find and recover alien technologies and occasionally capture of eliminate important targets. Her team , Fireteam Vaquero consists of her, a Swords of Sanghelios member named Rusa ‘Sura, a Spartan IV named Oscar Meer, a Spartan III Gamma Named Esmeralda Miro, A pilot Named Lee Brady and his ship’s smart AI Frank (FRK-1259-4), and the teams medic & xenobiologist Anya Fung. While on a mission to recover old covenant technologies, she found a Huragok named Lingers Above, which has become an unofficial member of her team as well, refusing the leave her side for long when she’s not in a mission.

As she’s began the interact with more people outside of a very stressful war zone she’s realized how strange and unhealthy some of her upbringing was. Not the full extent of it all, but a degree of it. The reason why she wears all her piercings is as a small form of self representation and to help her form a bit of identity outside being a Spartan, she’s experimented with different piercings and haircuts before, including dyeing her hair which went gray early as a result of both stress and family genetics(she started going gray around 25). She is a gay man, and after the war had toyed around with the idea of a relationship, but unlimitedly decided herself too busy and too inexperienced, the only relationship she had was a short unnamed fling with Jorge-052, a few years before he died on reach, she still silently mourns for him.

While not a natural born leader, through the Spartan II training and Human-Covenant war she was taught how to assume that position. She has the outward disposition of a cool and collected head but be riled up somewhat easily compared to other Spartans. She’s very stubborn and has a strong will but has begrudgingly learned how to be flexible, no matter how much it may annoy her. A trait she has that sets her apart from the other Spartan II is the frequency in which she takes off her helmet and how much she talks, she uses that to help bond with her teammates. She doesn’t really care about how the people at ONI perceive her, but to the UNSC personnel she works with and alongside, she doesn’t want to be seen as just a large killing machine. The weapon she has the most interest in using during something like a wargame is the Gravity Hammer, but the weapon she ends up using the most is the DMR.

#halo #halo oc #valentine-056 #my ocs #idk what else I have to say my head hurts rly bad atm soooo take this? #be niceys to me abt this im nervous . the intimacy of ocs ok? also if the lore isn’t 100% right idc ok i spent too long going thru halopedia

[girlandherfandom]

In celebration of I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love's 20th birthday, here are some two-pixels Headfirst for Halos for Halos gifset. (X) (X)

#I Brought You My Bullets You Brought Me Your Love #Bullets #Bullets Era #My Chemical Romance #My Chem #MCR #Romance #Honey This Mirror Isn't Big Enough for the Two of Us #Vampires Will Never Hurt You #Drowning Lessons #Our Lady of Sorrows #Headfirst for Halos #Skylines and Turnstiles #Early Sunsets Over Monroeville #This Is the Best Day Ever #Cubicles #Demolition Lovers #Gerard Way #Ray Toro #Mikey Way #Frank Iero #MCR 2002 #MCR Archive #MCR gifs #I am sorry it is 2 pixels only

[switchytransboy]

everybody fucking leaves

#crying rn trying not to wake halo #that friend i had a gut feeling about it was over w #it is #i was right #just got dropped #all bc i chose to hear a potential SA victims side #over my friends friend who i don’t know well at all #when this story was brought to me #not to mention the victim is trans #so there’s sm to this #but none of this is my fucking fault #i just try and do the right things #support people who need it #this is no friend tbh if i can be dumped like this #over literally me trying to do the morally correct thing?? #and NOT silence potential victims?? #like wtf #WTFFFFF #i’m so sad and angry and hurt

[random-french-girl]

When Ava falls from a great height (which happens more often than you'd think)

Beatrice: crying, begging her to be okay, rushing to Ava's body, cradling Ava to her chest

Mary and Lilith: are the ones who pushed and/or dropped Ava in the first place

#two kinds of sister warriors... #i'm rewatching wn s2 #which means i just got to the scene where lilith drops ava from the sky slkjhdslh LILITH NO #in fairness mary and lilith know that the halo is working so they aren't worried about hurting ava #whereas obvs bea knows the halo is dysfunctional and can see that ava is legit hurt/dying... #still funny imo #warrior nun

[dupliciti]

#im just curious bc it sounds as if most people use classic and im the odd man out #it's kinda lol because thruout the day my eyes hurt less from using dark mode... but at the same time because of my astigmatism #the halo effect is so v obvious at the end of the day when i see light text on dark backgrounds ajkshdg #( ◇ ᵐʸ ᵈᵉᵃʳ ᵃᵘᵈⁱᵉⁿᶜᵉ┊ ooc; ) #( poll; ) #( tbd; )

[pollyna]

Our love is six feet under and I can't help but wonder.

Penny is gorgeous and her perfume fills his nose most of the time when she is around. He likes that of her, too. He likes that she asks him out, after the fourth time they sleep together after the mission. They're eating breakfast and Amelia is complaining about school and Bradley is texting because he forgot his keys and now he can't get back home and he's a little sweaty so can I come over dad? Please, if I go out like this Nat will kill me, we have a brunch with Halo!

Penny passes him coffee and we should go out on a date and Pete smiles at her and kiss her cheek before leaving for work. Let's go to see a movie, maybe tonight? he proposes and Just if you can find a babysitter for Amelia! The kid screams the most indignant Mom!, but the rest of the conversation is lost in the rumble of his bike.

It takes a while, but than the realisation hits him in the chest, six months after they start going out. They're waiting for their order in a restaurant he doesn't remember the name but Penny loves and she is talking about Amelia, the bar, her boat and the trip they should take once Pete has leave. Than she says something funny about Pete learning to drive a boat and hoping he's going to treat it gentler than he does with jets and a younger version of Tom is sitting in front of him. It's a diner, not a fancy restaurant, and the place doesn't even have tablecloths, just napkins and menus. Tom is talking about Bradley, about his new work and the jet they're building. Pete is thirty five and he just proposed to see a movie after. And he's going to ask Ice to move for the weekend to help with Bradley and he will say yes, soft smiles and an hand on his shoulder. Mav is going to lie on the his bed, that night and every night after that, his heart lighter than it was before.

Then it never stops: he takes Penny out to do something and he realises he asked Tom to do that before and they weren't even dating. Pete never even considered dating Tom. Until he does and it's devastating because he can't stop thinking about it. He is in the office, in his house, at Penny's and at Bradley's and Tom is there and he's there too, younger, stupider, happier and they're together, hands almost touching and heads always searching the other. His heart aches for all the empty spaces Ice used to fill, with his laugh, his voice, his presence. Over a beer he realises he never took away Tom's dogtags from around his neck and before falling asleep, after a dinner with all the squadron, he realises that he was blind for so so long and now Tom is gone and he has all this love to give to him and he can't. He doesn't say it out loud the next morning but on a Saturday afternoon he falls on his knees in front of Tom's tombstone and whispers I love you and it's a choked sound, a desperate empty scream that won't leave his throat because they're empty world and no ears will catch them. I love you, he repeats, I loved you for so long and I will love you until I stop breathing. I'm sorry To-I'm so fucking sorry.

He stumbles over Tom's house and in his bedroom and probably Sarah helped him there but all around him is fuzzy and he wants just ti wake up back in the ninetees and hug Tom once more, wants to hear his voice and his heart beating under his ear. He wants him to be alive because life can't be that cruel, not again. He dreams of strong arms around his waist and sleepy talks before breakfast and of a promise no one of them respected.

I will always be on your wing, Mav. Until death does us apart and even after, Iceman.

#feeling realisation #or mav realises he and ice were in a commited relationship for years but he didn't know and now that tom is dead he's catching up #pete maverick mitchell #penny benjamin #amelia benjamin (mentioned) #bradley rooster bradshaw (mention) #natasha phoenix trace (mentioned) #callie halo shen (mentioned) #hint halix #pennymav #of sort #not actually unrequited love #icemav #hurt no comfort #MCD #tom iceman kazansky (mentioned) #top gun: maverick #post movie #otp: i heard from the heaven that clouds have been grey #(it's not as angst as i wanted it to be dhdhdj)

[mannyblacque]

30th anniversary of this masterpiece. I love it so much I have three different versions of it.

#the downward spiral #nin #nine inch nails #trent reznor #tds era #cds #compact disc #goths of tumblr #industrial rock #90's alternative #1994 #march of the pigs #hurt #closer #reptile #ruiner #halo eight #halo 8

[authortobenamedlater]

Would you ever make a favorite character of yours suffer for character development.

Bonus question: If so, for how long and how badly?

(From this ask game)

Are there fanfic writers who don’t do this? 🤣 I’ll answer both questions at once.

Yes, I have. But usually not too badly or for long. I will read and think about heavy angst, but writing it tends to wear me out.

My heaviest hitters for the Halo show are:

Only Human. John & Cortana; John does all the suffering. The suffering in the fic isn’t too bad but John has been hurting for an unspecified amount of time before.

Angel-117 series/Vital Record AU. John suffers and suffers, but not without some happiness.

And for the games:

Survivor. Audrey and Tom both suffer, but mostly Audrey.

Lost and Found: More like “canon made Lasky suffer for character development and I’m making it better” 😂

If I can ever get it out of WIP hell, my story of how Tom and Chyler allllllmost got divorced would be hardcore suffering but some pretty great character development.

#halo #halo tv show #fanfiction #character development #hurt comfort