across the world (in sixteen hours or less)
you know how you know nothing's gonna be okay again?
you lose your page again and again
you can't find your shoes
you pick up the phone even though you know you should stop
the happiest thing you can find is in a sad movie
and nothing changes
it's not English homework poetry where everything has to rhyme
you've got room now and it doesn't change a thing
your whole world is still your bedroom and some rock CDs
just like it was when you were five and ten and sixteen
there's no relief in the weather
because your weather's all the way across the world
(your brother's all the way across the world)
the rain is all the way across the world
the mountains you grew up with are outside your reach
the fog is still on that beach full of rocks
you still feel trapped
and you're never gonna see them again
xoxo.
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Went on a trail ride with another girl I haven’t ridden with in a while l and said “hey let’s try this trail!” and then I nearly got us stuck in a fucking swamp
I literally said “haha, come on Bertie (my horse) it’s not like it’s quicksand” and then boom! it kind of WAS though and my pony is fat but she is small, so she got stuck up to her knees a few times but oh my god, poor Buster is a normal sized thick ol halter hog quarter horse boy and he almost went down. he sunk in on the left side up to his stifle. that’s like his hip man that’s like. Almost the butt. that was high-as-a-horse’s-hips mud. That was horse-thigh-gap-height mud. Oh my god.
This obviously scared the horse so then he scrambled out as best he could and he took his mom into a bank full of many sharp little trees and she almost came off and then had to get down and back him back into the mud to get him out and around the trees again
Was my horse as affected? No. Was I hit so hard in the face by tree branches that I bit my lip? No, but her horse reenacted the neverending fucking story for a minute there and she got pistol whipped by branches and I felt so bad 😭 in fairness, she never objected to exploring. not in fairness, it was absolutely my dumbass idea
This is why no one wants to ride with us, even when I try to have a chill walk-only lazy little trail ride I still manage to get us into some kind of chaos, because my riding style can only be described as Quaintly Unhinged™️
As pet tax, here’s my pony and her stupid stray dog she adopted, brave survivors of the sticky icky swamp
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Rewatching DS9 and VOY has just made me want to do episode rewrites but with the TOS crew. So what about Voyager s2 e25 Resolutions but with TOS mckirk or AOS spones. This is a kinda long post and just my random thoughts so heres a keep reading
So Jim and Bones are stuck on a planet while infected with some virus that doesn't effect them while on the surface. And the Enterprise then has to leave because of some reason. So Spock is left in charge like Tuvok was and has to deal with the fact that the Captain and CMO have been left behind and with the growing resentment towards him even though Kirk ordered them to leave.
Also like the idea of Bones being busy researching how to cure them while Jim quickly grows to enjoy the easy living and maybe for once in his life the ship isn't a burden on him. While bones is losing his mind because being stuck on a planet with nothing but researching this one cure is like Bones' worse nightmare. (like i know most people would think Bones would be like Chakotay but its my episode rewrite and i can do what i want). Also the idea of Jim wanting to build them a log cabin extension is very fun. Also since neither of them have any romantic attachments they actually do something about the romantic tension and then have to deal with that when they get back on the ship.
Though I'm not sure if they would have to ask for help from some enemy or Bones would just figure out a cure. Maybe Bones finds a cure and then isn't sure what to do since Jim seems so happy and he doesn't want to ruin that or maybe he thinks if they go back to the ship Jim will just pretend what happened on the planet didn't. And then a day later the ship comes back with a cure and he has to deal with the fact that he didn't instantly tell Jim about it. And of course Jim finds out and hes conflicted because he wants to be angry at Bones for not telling him right away but hes also angry that the cure was found at all so its a whole mess.
Or if it was AOS it would be Bones and Spock who are left behind mainly so it would mirror the fact that Janeway has a partner back home so spones just have awkward weird romantic tension. (not sure if this would have mckirk as well or just spuhura) Though in this version nothing would actually happen on the planet cos no cheating thanks, also not enough time would have past where they actually think theres no going back. Not sure either Spock or Bones would be like Chakotay, they'd both be super focused on finding a cure. They would also have to deal with this fallout on the ship but it would be in a very different way than TOS mckirk. Maybe if theres no mckirk it would end up with mccoy/spock/uhura in some configuration. Though if mckirk was already a couple it would stay the two different couples. lmao or maybe mckirk comes out of it since jim realised how much he actually missed Bones. i dont know this is post is turning into a mess
So its Jim and Nyota who have to deal with leaving the people they care most about behind. As i think there would be less resentment from the crew to deal with. I'm sure the med crew would miss their boss but they would have less power to make a fuss about it.
But theres still the fact that they're not as far away from starfleet as Voyager was and why the ship would leave but like why should that stop me?
I mean it could also just be AOS mckirk on the planet but for some reason i'm more drawn to the TOS version in this instance
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When he starts volunteering at an animal shelter (at Mike's insistence), Evan does end up making a friend there. His first friend post-Capture is a girl his age named Valerie, though she also goes by Val and Valley.
Evan likely spent several weeks not saying much at the shelter; he would only answer direct questions about the animals there and how to take care of them, if he knew what he was doing, etc etc. Social anxiety and the belief that they would eventually throw him out kept him from saying too much about himself, and that plus his scars made everyone think of him as a bit of an oddball.
Valerie lives on a farm of some kind, and even if he never said much, he liked listening to her talk about farming stuff, especially about the animals she and her family takes care of, whether she was talking directly to him or he was just eavesdropping on her talking to other people (Ev does a lot of eavesdropping. not that he thinks of it as eavesdropping when people are talking nearby where he just happens to be able to hear them; call that quiet kid syndrome).
After a few weeks, Evan works up the courage and curiosity to ask her a bit about the Farming Life. After that, their topics of conversation slowly branch out and get more and more personal. Ev practically loses his mind the first time she says he's free to come take a tour of the farm any time he wants (both from excitement and from the utter terror of how REAL this is now; gaining a friend also means gaining the ability to LOSE said friend, which is scarier to Ev than just never having a friend in the first place).
When Ev goes to Valerie's for the first time, he finds that Valerie, a handful of older siblings and niblings in their late 20s and early thirties, her grandparents, her parents, a couple aunts and uncles, and her younger brother all live there. Evan's a bit awestruck at that; he never realized that a family could be so big. Val's family also think that Evan is an oddball, for similar reasons that the other workers at the shelter think he is.
Valerie has at least one little sibling: a brother named Lucas. If Ev and Val are both 16/17 when they meet, then Lucas is ~12.
As a little brother himself, Evan goes out of way to tell Val that he doesn't mind when Val apologizes for Lucas getting curious and trying to tag along in everything Val and Evan do. Evan probably specifically asks Val if it's okay if they do things that Lucas can tag along in, because Evan doesn't want to put any kind of rift between Lucas and Val, and he definitely doesn't want to come between them.
(Valerie ofc doesn't hate Lucas, but getting embarrassed when your several-years-younger sibling keeps butting in between you and your friend is just Standard Older Sibling behaviour; Val stops getting embarrassed when she realizes Evan isn't annoyed by Lucas at all).
If Val ever found out about Evan's past, she'd be disturbed, yeah, but she'd also have a hard time reconciling the atrocities she hears about with the shy kid who went so far out of his way to treat her younger bro with such kindness, not to mention how gentle he is at the shelter and with the farm animals.
I'm debating whether Val might have any other younger siblings, but I think having a sibling younger than 12 around would be too big of a trigger for Evan tbh.
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I need all the good vibes / prayers / etc I can get right now.
I am "probably" the person who's gonna get the cabin at work.
If I do, I'd be able to live walking distance to work, technically rent free, and I'd be able to take in my parents' dog who they're trying to pts because they can't handle him. I'd have to work all but one weekend per month as my rent, but that's SO MUCH MONEY I'd be saving, and I'd still have the evenings free, so I could easily make that work.
I just... I really need this. My alternative would be living in a camper trailer at an RV park with three dogs. Again, I could make it work, but I wouldn't be saving much money at all.
So, yeah... whatever you believe in, send that good energy my way if you have any to spare.
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