#have i had a bad night? yes

[eeveekitti]

stress relief turned out pretty good tbh

#no idea what to tag this #so i just wont lmao #followers this is for you and you only #have i had a bad night? yes #is it gonna be okay in the end? i think so #also i havent drawn my sona in ages so this was fun

[khaotunq]

i'm your hell, i'm your dream; i'm nothing in between

#only friends the series #ofts #oftsedit #boston #ofts boston #my gifs #my edits #mine: only friends #mine: boston #yes this was the bad idea i had at like 11pm last night and then fucked off to make #idk if i should tag anyone in this it's. ridiculous #but i may do the stupid other edits i've been considering for weeks #such as the mew wannabe edit #but it will look like this because i'm lazy and i have no caps of mew so i'll have to start from scratch #that could develop into very old rocky country song ray edit #but i'm already beyond burnout atm soo o oo o #who knows! #anyway. here's boston and his theme song #bitch by meredith brooks #seriously. i'll hear no argument. #go and remind yourself of the lyrics they're BOSTON #they went with a bizarre 90's aesthetic for the show and so now i'm assigning them all insane 90's songs actually #i've decided that. right now. #don't @ me about the motherfucker one i made myself laugh okkkkk #i wanted to do the entire song but i guess i'll stick to the chorus lmao #ofs boston

[coolnonsenseworld]

Samurai and Ninja in crappy pics because December here is under a constant cloud and I just want y'all to see them all golden and cute without learning how to take aesthetic pictures 🥴 💙❤️😆🥰

linktr.ee/Mezzy

#klance #can i tell everyone to look away before i write tags to someone privately lmao no? damn #anyway yes i meant music!! and thank you for sharing something!! #baking seems like a hyperfixation #like i know you said you baked once but then look at me #...i was thinking if i could make salads.... i gotta be medicore at least at one food thing #its a joke its a joke #i will one day get used to focusing on more complicated kitchen work than heating up meat or cooking things in salt and water #anyone else had trouble getting out of bed this december? #once i do i try to pick physical activities that dont require creative thinking because man #at the post office i had small talk with a lady waiting in line she didnt speak polish so u know me it happened #and she recommended light therapy lamp #im very tempted to try it becase i had record bad thoughts sleepless nights and jerking awake this month #it might be rooted in economic instability growing inflation costs of living and shitty working conditions while still trying to buy gifts? #but hey there are things we cant have control over and there are things we can #ive got winter wonderland comic coming though #i will try my best to speed-finish it as a christmas gift aight #i hope its going to be a nice thing!! #wow thats a long set of tags

[mattzerella-sticks]

So are the Big Bads of Junior Year going to be the Rat Grinders? AKA kids who leveled up 'the normal way' by doing a bunch of quests, grinding, taking on any enemy to get more powerful, but because of the 'luck' and 'opportunities' given to other kids (ie the Bad Kids) aren't being lauded or appreciated like they expected so they're taking it out on the Bad Kids, have taken advantage of it the summer they were gone, and are doing what they can to punish them for 'being rewarded despite failing at what's expected of them, despite actually saving the world'.

I wonder if all the members of Rat Grinders have classes that reflect those of the Bad Kids? We already know they have a rogue and a bard...

#d20 #dimension 20 #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #this makes perfect sense to me story wise in terms of the past 2 seasons we had heightened tension and drama in the villains faced #from kalvaxas to the nightmare king to the night yorb at the beginning of this season #some pvp (even if the other ps is the dm) makes sense for a stripped back season focused more on relationship building #plus we've been missing the high school rival aspect of fantasy high this is a good focus for junior year #when you are now realizing you are in direct 'competition' with other kids for opps and positions in colleges and unis #and the rat grinders probably see the bad kids as having a leg up on everyone because they were able to save the world multiple times #and could parlay that into bright futures in any college they want like brennan hinted at in ep 3 #this season the rat grinders will try and separate the bad kids and put ultimate stress on them to break them apart or get them kicked out #getting rid of gilear to install a principal more aligned with their views #and yes i absolutely think those four yorkshire terriers in a sweatervest made it so gilear won a cruise #it's a very tracey glick thing to do

[compacflt]

If you want, and only if you want to, could you explain about making Logistics a big part of Ice's career path? Not only did fit so well with your Ice's characterization, it was just so neat I've made it my HC for Ice's career path.

yes!

I got REALLy deep into the defense policy weeds in this post so I’m putting a cut to save people’s dashboards

1. when i was rewriting chapters 8 &9 last winter i did literally the bare minimum of research about the current set of high-level officers. the commander of the pacific fleet at the time had previously been the director of pacific fleet logistics ordnance & supply. So that was easy to yoink. a proven chain of succession.

2. but also: it fit ice’s (or his alter ego admiral Kazansky’s) neat, orderly, effective, collected, strategic characterization. And as professional tactics go, there would be no better promotion for a high-level officer looking to take over the fleet than DFLOS. understand the fleet by the numbers, you comprehensively understand the fleet.

3. In terms of secret-keeping logistics, ice is supposed to be kind of the best. like, because of his logistical thinking, he & maverick get away with it. Or that’s how I would’ve written it if I were a little smarter. Obviously in practice a bunch of people find out so it’s not great. but the navy AS A WHOLE doesn’t find out.

4. The field of military logistics is rigorously bureaucratic, boring, soulsucking, selfdefeating, notoriously corrupt, and yet entirely necessary for the military to succeed at any level (in the very first draft of WWGATTAI i included a famous US marine corps maxim that most people have heard at some point: “amateurs talk tactics. professionals talk logistics.” but that was literally the only good thing about the original chapter 6 which got entirely rewritten a month after i published it). So logistics as a field of specialization fit in perfectly with my secondary character thesis that rising through the boring bureaucratic ranks of the Navy sucked all the humanity & will to live out of ice one day at a time.

a couple related interesting things that I’ve never talked about on this blog & might never get the chance to again:

a) ice canonically joins the navy as a fighter pilot & ends his career as a glorified bureaucrat. that sucks. obviously the struggle to rise in the ranks is a notoriously cutthroat, political, sleazy business (you do not get to the top of the United States Navy by being nice to people), but i would also not be the first person to say that—for exemplary officers—leadership is an EXPECTATION that can counterbalance someone’s natural drive to excel, if that makes sense. You get promoted because you’re good at something (flying), but you get promoted away from the thing you were good at. There is an extent to which you have to fight for a promotion—but there is also an extent to which commanders above you pick you for the job, suck you up along the pipeline. Loss of agency—a major major component of joining the military—does still apply to upper-level officers.

B) to that end, i am reminded of one quote from Todd Schmidt’s 2023 book “Silent Coup of the Guardians: US Military Elite Influence on National Security.” This is an Army training & doctrine commander speaking: “the military has a lot of two- and three-star senior leaders that were confident, charismatic commanders at the O-6 level. But that’s the end of the story. One in fifty, maybe one in a hundred, truly have what it takes to operate successfully at the strategic level and make a real difference for their service. The problem is that they all tend to think that, since they have stars on their shoulders, they’re the one.” —I’ve been writing ice as “The Chosen One,” the officer unicorn, for two reasons: one, it provides him cover for his illegal relationship (and also asks an interesting chicken-egg question: does he get away with his rlnship because he’s so good, or is he so good JUST to get away with his relationship?); and two, he’s “the chosen one” in canon, i.e. he already has four stars in canon: canonically he is not a mediocre officer. But most officers (cough cough maverick) are not cut out for high-level leadership.

C.) in Thomas E. Ricks’ book “The Generals,” Ricks argues that (at least in the Army) mediocrity in the general/flag officer ranks is unfortunately by design. In WWII, if you were a mediocre officer, you got relieved! You got fired! It’s part of why we won: merciless culling of the general officer ranks! But between WWII and Korea, officer relief began to be associated with shame & wasted resources. Mediocre officers got promoted anyways. The military elite pipeline sucks mediocrity up the chain of command. Ricks blames this issue for (at least the Army’s) shit leadership in every post-WWII war, including but most especially Iraq and Afghanistan. There’s no penalty for mediocrity. That in turn reflects on military strategy (mediocre strategists at the helm) & the outcome of every military foray (mediocre outcomes).

D) additionally. There’s a whole neverending debate in the field of civil-military relations (an extremely interesting field of study btw) about the corporatization of the military—lots of high-level talk over the years of “running the military like a business.” If you get kinda into defense policy like me (am i still antimilitary? Idk! but i CAN easily tell you i am against the navy’s littoral combat ship program! It sucks!) then you will know that the navy is struggling right now on a lot of different fronts (procurement [shipbuilding esp. is a disaster—ford-class carriers are under budget though 👍🏽], recruitment, theatre prioritization, general preparedness, readiness against major adversaries [China in particular]). Simply, the navy is pretty mediocre at the minute. I talk a big game about ice being COMPACFLT & SECNAV, but if those are true, & if he “exists” in our current timeline, or even canon timeline (COMPACFLT in 2020), then he’s complicit in a lot of why the navy is sucking ass right now. He didn’t do his job very well. LOL. So, because I love (especially my version of) ice too much to see his legacy suffer, I am stating for the record that my timeline is a different timeline where ice saves the navy from itself and fixes all its issues & solves all its problems & makes it the pride of the armed forces & the tip of the spear of American defense :) because I said so

E.) unrelated but important. It sounds obvious but it must be said. Ice dies on the job in TGM canon. To the extent that in earlier drafts of the script, not-his-sister-Sarah even points out to maverick that ice is still active duty, in the same breath as she tells him ice is sick again. (A wise move to remove that line.) ice does not resign his commission. Ice does not retire to spend time with his family at the end of his life. Ice dies as commander of the pacific fleet. He dies on the job; he dies FOR the job, bureaucratic as it is. If you were wondering why I wrote ice so dormantly suicidal, it’s because canon (i argue) has made it clear that—since the second ice signed up to be a fighter pilot during the Cold War to the second he died active duty—ice has ALWAYS been ready and willing to die for his honorable Navy career.

#so imagine what would have happened had he been publicly dishonored 😶 #It’s also why i interrupted his SECNAV tenure with his cancer #to pay respects to compacflt Ice having the same thing happen to him #my Ice is built different tho. it doesn’t kill him #he retires to spend time with his family ☺️ #unlike selfish asshole canon ice ‼️🤬 #/s #this post gets DEEP into it but i find this stuff sooo interesting #got really into defense policy & missing the forest for the trees #i will admit that #military bad? yes but. #but defense policy so interesting anyway. #tom iceman kazansky #top gun #top gun maverick #icemav #edts notes #asks #last post of the night

[obsob]

yes i am getting emails 

#dracula daily #mine #lov that this means absolutely nothing to people not reading ksjfksl #i love jonathan hes gay and autistic cant wait to see him get eaten or smth #im back from a 2 week work break now! i was very burnt out i feel a lot better >:) drawing time #these images came to me in a vision yesterday evening but i was too tired to draw them #im sleepy now....sleepy baby...... #i slept so bad last night my tummy hurt so bad!!! idk why!!! i had a lot of carbs w dinner so maybe that was it #i still havent figured out what it is my stomach doesnt like. durham wheat i think is oneof them but ??? dfdsfj #whatever. my fault for not drinking more peppermint tea #i didnt like wake up wake up last night but i kept like. coming to a little bit n shifting abt until i found a more comfy position #utmmy ouchy.......hopefully will be less so tonight heh!! #i idid yoga this morning i forgot how much i lov it #also ive been reading captive prince again. is this series a lil problematic? yes. thats why the gods gave us critical thinking #i need a break from stone earth trilogy im on to the last book now....ouhghg...... #have a new book arriving tomorrow yes yes yes yes

[natroze]

wow netherdeep party finally has villains! unfortunately for us it's.... our cool flirty rivals, who betrayed us! and also a lady who has absolutely committed arson and grand theft book from our bard, and seems to be behind our rivals turning on us...

also re: mom--when your mother is an archduke of hell, that's a pretty valid reason to be concerned. Hang in there buddy...

#call of the netherdeep #netherdeep spoilers #netherdeep campaign #nat's art #nat's fanart #was zariel ACTUALLY in bazzoxan? I don't think so #was the entirety of bazzoxan having a really bad night regardless? YES #this session had EVERYTHING #we had moonlit dances we had betrayal we had the cops get called on our cleric we had NPC marriage proposal we had giant skeleton illusion #most importantly we broke into a temple of the betrayer gods so that's horrifying!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

if i had a genie lamp id wish for Three Things: 1) spiders stay the fuck away from me & out of my spaces. 2) infinite moneys. 3) draw quickly.

#mainly the Draw Quickly one #i scribble so so so so slow #i could share So Much More if i could do more than one full doodle per night #like that one butterfly!howdy thing where he jumped off the roof? took me all fucking night #im not even exaggerating lmfao it took Hours #i looks at people cranking out a+ doodle posts and im sadly gazing from behind my rain-streaked window a la kermit #except its not rain streaked. i havent seen rain in months i think #absolutely unprompted #oh while im here lemme give a spider update No One asked for #yeah so yesterday the Biggest wolf spider i have Ever seen decided to set up camp in my bathroom. bc of course it did. #i mean that thing was. disturbingly big. freakazoid city. #i had to chase it into the bathtub with my spider-fighting broom #and then i uhhhhhh febreezed it until it couldnt move. #then i washed it down the drain with a high powered jet of shower water #do i feel bad? yes of course. but there was no other way that i could handle. #im assuming that when i go get a Snack right after posting this another spider will be in the hallway or in my bathroom #its summer. unfortunately. there will only be more and more crawling inside #edit: my cat magically Appeared in my room. i stg both of them were out when i closed the door

[morewyckedthanyou]

anyways idk what is happening, maybe i'm just coming down with a bad flu or something, but i have been SO tired for no reason for several days now and today at work i also felt really ill. i drive around in a car about 6-7 hours a day at work these days and today i had to pull up two times on the side of the road because it felt like i was going to throw up. i didn't, it went away, but it was a close call.

#and yes i felt nauseous the whole damn day #i also developed a bad headache and it still hasn't gone away really #and i'm just so. fucking. tired. #after work i've really just been lying in bed mostly in this kind of a trance #not really asleep but not really fully awake either #i don't have enough energy for anything i usually even enjoy right now #ok i'll shut up now #just had to vent a bit #and now i'll head back to bed #i think i'll actually take a sleeping pill tonight maybe knocking myself out totally for a night will help some #personal

[kirby-the-gorb]

#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #it seems our gas furnace was contributing to my flare up so my wife went out and bought a space heater. #(mcas is an illness that can react to literally anything regardless of how safe a thing probably is for most people) #(and yes I am vaguely aware twitter was arguing about natural gas but I've never liked it personally) #(it smells bad which usually means that it's bad for me) #(which like convenient that that one single safety system works! glad things I find unpleasant turn out to be things I should avoid) #(cuz I know that's not the case for everyone) #(and like growing up undiagnosed autistic I was really pushed to just put up with unpleasant sensations) #(so it's good to have double justification for not forcing myself to eat foods I know I don't like and so on) #(but I'd turned it off yesterday cuz I had a hunch) #(and I turned it back on this morning cuz I didn't want the cat to be cold) #(and I hadn't had a flare last night) #(but I started feeling worse whenever it kicked on.) #(so.) #(pretty straightforward answer there.) #(whoops left half of the thought shared with twitter in the post body -n-)

[brittlebutch]

a lot of people seem to use Entry #60 as 'proof' for the crux of the "Brian didn't care about Tim, he was Taking Advantage of Tim's conditions and Forcing him to work as part of totheark" thing, but honestly when you think about it there's no possible way Brian could have possibly orchestrated that series of events, like you almost have to interpret that as a baffling group of coincidences

#N posts stuff #mh lb #it's not like Brian has loads of mutual friends that he could ask to call Tim out one night; Tim's departure right as Brian showed up #just has to be a coincidence ; second yes. Brian does steal Tim's meds & that's a dick move but it's almost safe to assume #that Tim and Brian had been sharing prescriptions back in S1 - that's why the pills were at Brian's house that time Jay broke in #even if Tim no longer remembers that agreement it's not like Brian is brimming with other options so i can see the throughline of it #but there's NO way that Brian knew that 1) Tim was going to immediately turn around and come back home OR #2) be in the throes of an attack when he did so ; there's no Possible way he planned for that -- even if you Could assume that like. what #Brian 'knows' the operator is following him & Somehow orchestrated an encounter 1) no that doesn't make any sense and #2) that Still doesn't make any sense bc Tim has been Plenty Close to the Operator before w/ almost no negative effects (like in #Entry 17 when it's Right behind him) so there's no possible way Brian could have predicted that would unfold this way #sure it's weird he sets up the camera in the closet before Tim comes back but that Could Have been something unrelated #after all sometimes Brian DOES deliberately put himself on camera so someone knows he's responsible for something #or maybe he even planned to leave the camera there for later but it doesn't make Sense to interpret that as him Knowing what would happen #like don't get me wrong i'm not trying to say Brian is a pinnacle of ethics and moral behavior lmfao but also it's like #a kind of incomprehensible argument to make that he was Responsible for Triggering Tim's seizure that night when for all the #information Brian had on hand when he broke in he'd think Tim probably wouldn't be back home until much later #(''but the Creators Clearly intended'' yeah sure but since the creators also failed to establish a coherent series of events that SHOW #it then like. the intent doesn't matter anymore; sure they scripted the events in close succession but that doesn't mean they #scripted Intent & if they meant to then they did a bad job portraying it to the point the supposed intent is meaningless sorry lmao) #and EVEN IF you get this far and you're Still like 'but tim went after Jay and Brian would've Known he'd do that' like. no he wouldn't #because in Entry 18 when we see Tim have a seizure the first thing he does when jay approaches him after it is Run Away #so Again there's no consistent throughline of behaviors that Brian could have Possibly known about to orchestrate jack shit

[quinn-pop]

Mayta Knight 14-16

14 - Fancy

this came out awkward but see. kirby’s imitating dedede. mk’s surprised to realize he’s been thought of (“what do you mean people care about my feelings lol”)

15 - Wings

had no ideas for this but i really like using wings as body language and all that so. wing hug it is

16 - Desserts

#text in notes !! #mayta knight #i actually kinda like these ones even if i wish i had actually scripted them instead of winging it #no pun intended lol.. #can you tell i like drawing him maskless #I hate the little pointy things they never look right lol #i definitely like the idea of him using it less and less the more comfortable he gets with like #being himself. And being loved. et cetera #and i like to draw him doing that so! …yeah #why am i talking about this #anyway #eating frosting by itself is kind of awful but i regret to inform you that yes #this is because i have done it #and late at night no less #awful as in tastes bad i mean. you’re not a bad person for eating frosting. quote of the year there /s #yeah ill stop now #kirby #kirbyposting #meta knight #prince fluff cameo woahhh #bandanna waddle dee #bandee #this was supposed to be implied metadede and metadad but idk if it really shows? help i don’t know how to tag things #oh i guess. he literally calls him his son nvm i should go to bed

[cryptidm0ths]

the timeline of the himerus: 2 years earlier, present, and 3 years later, otherwise know as dumping a few headcanons down on a page

#HiMERU #kaname tojou #enstars #ensemble stars #kaname tojo #oops idk which is the main tag for him #can you tell which where drawn at unholy hours of the night and which where not #ye #moth draws #id in alt text #ignores all the parts of obbligato that say that they look identical to focus on the fact that they re the same height #bc HE didnt want to make separate sprites for meru but shhhhh they had a growth spurt at 20 ish trust me #setting the last one 3 years post canon bc it takes them atleast one year to have a normal interaction post kaname waking up #oh yea the ages are 20 and 15 in the first sketch 22 and 17 in the second and 25 and 20 in the final sketch #ummm yea i feel like imight start over explaining things and feel bad about the sketches if i stay here longer #but hey now i have a solid ref for kaname

[thatcritterthatskitter]

so a friend is reminiscing with me about shadowbringers but also???? i honestly can't tell if they're misremembering some of the plot or if there's some dialouge options that I've never thought to press or maybe they're just messing with me

#shadowbringers spoilers #endwalker spoilers #i think its because they did take a break after they completed shadowbringers?? #wild to me.. idk.. #but huh??? Yes we were supposed to restore the night and destroy the lightwardens (light-aligned guys that enforces the everlasting light) #but they said specifically that: “Oh yeah in Shadowbringers we were fighting Hydalean to bring back the night because she caused it. #[...] so it's a full circle on your growing distrust that started in Shadowbringers and you killing her with your friends in Endwalker.“ #but like im pretty sure that's not the case because we had a full raid series where we get to learn HOW the light had gotten so bad there #and it was not Hydalean?? #idk i guess i'll have to check over some cutscenes for some of those dialouge options they were talking about beacuse huh?????

[dyketubbo]

its such a pain trying to navigate being critical of the psychiatric field as it is today because ill nod along to a post talking about how psych wards are horrible and so many therapists and mental health professionals are actually just downright awful and make their patients mental health works and then ill look in the notes and see people go like yesssss and medication is terrible and we should just get help Instead like. um. in an ideal world youd get both buddy. im sorry but even in a better world where society doesnt make you want to kill yourself all the time and your therapist actually listens to you you will also likely still have to take that medication

#not that medication is a fix all #because 1. it is an excruciating process to find out which meds work for you #and 2. some peoples lives just suck so fucking bad theyll still want to die regardless of meds #but like.. that doesnt mean we need to Replace medication. medication should still exist you cant seriously be anti-medicine #yes i stopped wanting to kill myself when my life got better not just when i got on medication that actually helped #but also that medication actually helped me go to sleep at night and i had less urge to actually Act on any suicidal thoughts that i had #when i was on meds while still having a terrible life #and now i havent been on meds for a while and even though my life is better now and i have proper support #i still struggle. i cant go to sleep at a normal time. my memory is failing me. i struggle w hygiene #no medication didnt magically make me better. but it helped. and i dont like the trains of thought #that can come from 'medicine bad actually you Just need support from people' #like hey.... hey thats not a good way to think actually.. you need both #mask mews #also like. some people struggle with shit that they cannot fucking live with when they arent medicated #like. some people have vivid horrible hallucinations. lol. #do you really think that a life without medication is good or are you bitter and misdirecting your anger

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#love that when ur stressed and having a bad time it makes ur menstrual pain worse so you feel even more awful #like. yes. id love to get things done but unfortunately i need to go home immediately at 2pm bc i feel physically ill. vibes wretched. #im considering sleep here at 6pm but 2 b fair i think i only slept 4hrs last night. woof. tomorrow is gonna b interesting #i think the allergic reacting is abt over now tho. like im not really itchy anymore. the rash is still visible but i think its just dry now #bc of the cold. so was i ever reacting to the tatto0? or was it all the medication? im so interesting in what happened #would i not have had a reaction if i hadn't got a bunch of holes poked in my skin? or was it just a coincidence #that the rash started on that arm? ugh. so frustrating. and i think the psychiatrist forgot to actually book my appointment from when we #last talked so idk. maybe if i watch t4skmaster over and over it will heal my soul #ay. its all very frustrating. and i still dont have fucking autoclave access. fuck off. just give me the fucking key code #i just wanna pour plates 🫗 lol that actually looks a lot like pouring solid media. i dont wanna have to steal someone else's card to open #the door. who even locks up an autoclave??? they didnt at my old school and u could wheel a body into that thing. im pretty sure it was #bigger than this one. also there's another unlocked on on campus. why?! i ask ppl and fucking no one knows. that's just how it is #ugh. i should go to sleep. my tummy hurt #unrelated