#he is not aware of my existence

[felizusnavidad]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LIN!!!!! 🎁💐🎉🎂🎊🎁🍰🎂💖🎁

thank you, i will definitely tell him-

#oh wait i won't #he is not aware of my existence #i forgot #😭😭 #can you tell i'm suffering today #jkjk #thank you edith that means a lot! #lmm #lin manuel miranda #i saved every letter you wrote me*

[bastardlybonkers]

blond

#hlvrai #half live vr but the ai is self aware #benry #benrey #gordon freeman #gordon feetman #frenrey #i guess? #i think frenrey is funny but exactly how they are in the series #fun fact at first i was gonna make the hair lucious and long but then i was like #thats antithetical to the point #the whole nightmare is that benrey is blond #making it nice blond hair ruins it #but in my mind there exists a version of this comic where he takes off the helmet and its fuckin #finns hair in that one ep #you know the one #also if ur wondering why gordon looks different in the last panel its cause thats The Player not gordon #this is the players nightmare #god dammit long ass tags again

[nofacednerd]

since Jimmy is canonically a streamer and also a ghost/alien/cryptid/monster conspiracy theorist, consider: AU where he drags Clark out to go ghost/alien/ect hunting with him on stream. Clark is there to convince him aliens aren’t real so that no one figures out his secret, but gets bullied by chat for being the ‘skeptic’

#my adventures with superman #my art #doodles #clark leans into the skeptic role sometimes but also hes fully aware that aliens exist so whenever they get involved with ghosts he's like #'??????????? are... are they real too???' and gets freaked out at the possibility #clark kent #jimmy olsen

[thekittyokat]

you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again #the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys #saw #well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand #know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows #your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman. #there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn #thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down #something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness #the transformation of a man into a monster #and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption #sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this #do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind. #the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore #it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating #fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn #i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him #until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else #well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God #where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium #anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus #maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man #i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed #if only he hadn't been weaponized first #god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already #but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there #rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts #ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly #cat chat

[cherry-bomb1985]

I feel like The Father and Hell both understand and experience love in all the worst ways.

The Father sought to create a life form that would follow and love him unconditionally. It wasn't enough that he had a great cosmic kingdom of angels who are unquestioningly loyal, no, he needed something that knew suffering and mortality and the threat of oblivion, and would still find love at the end; love for him above all else. But after numerous implied failures at that, in his desperation, he instead created the threat of eternal damnation to force them to love him in order avert that fate. Lucifer's words must have been like a splash of cold water, but by the time he realized sheer magnitude of suffering he had unintentionally set into motion, it was too late. He could not destroy Hell; he could not stop the cycle of violence.

That guilt drove him to seek a death that, from the looks of it, eluded him in spite of the hollowness consuming him. And now he is... somewhere, helpless to stop his experiments from consuming one another and themselves in a glorious show of blood and violence.

And then there's Hell itself, who seems to recognize love as an act of violence and cruelty. It is something that derives joy only from the suffering of other living creatures. God gave it so many toys to hurt and break and reform, and Mankind gave it new ones. Why would it understand love as anything but? It gave Minos a facsimile of the son he is most ashamed of, and delighted when he cast it, once more, into a labyrinth. Gabriel flattened all the souls within it's confines beneath his heel and gave those that did bend false hopes.

Now there's V1, tearing its way through the remaining layers and creating a spectacle of violence like nothing Hell has ever witnessed before. How could it not love them all for all the entertainment they've provided?

But deep within its recesses, hidden away from the eyes of Heaven, there was a Gutterman. A machine built for war, who eventually came to love that which it gave it life at the cost of their own. Enough to give the human welded within their coffin the mercy that both Heaven and Hell had denied them; enough to write a single love letter to them, even knowing that it would never be read by its intended recipient.

So, as things turn out, you /can/ teach a machine to love. And they will understand and experience it more sincerely than God or Hell ever could.

#ULTRAKILL #ULTRAKILL spoilers #Mind you this is all just speculation #We still don't know if Hell is aware that the machines will inevitably try to consume it too once the souls and demons run dry #and if it is then whether or not it has a plan to stop that from happening or if it actually /wants/ to be destroyed #or perhaps--like Father like creation--it simply thinks it /cannot/ be destroyed #and we certainly still don't know where God fucked off to after his suicide attempt or why #If he left to seek the end of his days elsewhere #Or--as the first testament might imply--if he's got a new angle #Sorry 7-S got my brain buzzing and there's not a whole lot of game left to get the answers to those particular questions #If they are intended to be answered at all or simply left unknown by the blank slate boomer shooter protagonist #through which we all experience this wild ride #Anyways not a lot of this fandom talks about the Testaments effectively being God's vent posts #and I find both amusement and mild horror at their very existence

[solargeist]

I think Xelqua genuinely does care abt Grian but there are moments where he calls him Sunset and it’s laced with bitterness

#context: Sunset is the nickname (my) Watchers gave Grian. a pet name ! #he’s aware that grian is the reason he exists #(reason he has no friends. no family. nothing. he can only exist.) #they have suchhhh Siffrin and Loop energy ..................... #<- (​why do you get the happy ending !!!!! after all my hard work !! why are you happy !!!!! it’s not fair !!)

[writer-room]

I've decided the only reason Lloyd, known descendant of dragons, didn't tell this to Egalt, who refuses to train non-dragons, is for the same reason he never mentioned he's the First Spinjitsu Master's grandson. It just never came up. Nobody asked him directly about it. And besides, he's only like, one-fourth dragon, so does it really count? He doesn't look like a dragon, and he has never in his life considered himself a dragon. Mentioning his ancestry to Egalt probably would've just made him look like some hotshot, or make him more annoyed. There's no need to bring up such a silly little fact. He's sure it won't be important later.

#ninjago #ninjago dragons rising #lego ninjago #dragons rising #lloyd garmadon #first spinjitsu master #egalt #text post #talk #dragon lloyd garmadon #the real likelihood is that the writers just quietly brushed that little fact aside (im so sad abt it) #but i think its infinietly funnier that lloyd went down the spinjitsu master route #it just never came up. no one asked. and hes not a COMPLETE dragon so like. why bother telling egalt #the whole time i was waiting for egalt & rontu to b like 'WHO in their SPINJITSUDAMED MIND trained you' #and theyre just like 'oh this guy named sensei wu hes lloyds uncle hes like a master' & egalt is like 'sounds like bs' #then arin as a huge nerd pipes up like 'AND HES THE FSM'S GRANDSON :D' #to which rontu and egalt break their necks whirling around like 'THIS SCRAWNY LITTLE PUNK IS W H A T' #egalt straight up refuses to believe it. rontu is very quickly doing the math & freaking out abt it #wherever these guys are from it might not even be ninjago so like they might not even know the fsm had sons #rontu: im sorry. so youre the grandson. you are aware your grandfather was half dragon half oni. right? #egalt in the background 'THAT BOY IS N O T A DRAOGN I REFUSE TO BELIEVE IT' #lloyd blinking owlishly like 'oh yeah i guess so. im only like 1/4th tho' #'BOY YOU ARE 1/4 OF ONE OF THE MOST POWERFUL DRAGONS IN FCKING EXISTANCE' #'YOU ARE THE GRANDSON OF MY GREAT-GREAT GRANDMASTER' #the midlife crisis these dragons would have. the crisis the kids would have realizing this #lloyd now cannot go 3 minutes without someone asking 'is there any world-shattering fun facts abt yrself you wanna share' #the fun part is that lloyd forgets all of those informations bc its like. a normal day for him #no one tell wyldfyre she'll flip

[thegreateggbandit]

HAPPY ACE AWARENESS WEEK!!!

even if i'm a bit late

And yes, Perry is canonically asexual!!! (Good for him!)

#perry the platypus #asexual #ace awareness week #ace awareness #i luv this boi sooo much! #he was my favourite character #and he's ace!!!! #art #GreatEggBanditArt #my art #artists of tumblr #phineas and ferb #i didnt know ace week existed until a couple days ago #its nice to know its a real life thing! #okie enjoy ur day and buh bye!

[purplink8]

Can I be real for a second? I don't think L giving a foot massage to Light was very in-character of him. Like manga!L would've totally scoffed at how pathetic anime!L appeared when he did that.

I like the rain scene bc it's really pretty (also Light MOANS bc of L? *sighs* yeah i ship lawlight) but I'm always so ?? at anime!L's behavior? The anime made L way too melancholic and y'know self-deprecating kinda guy. In contrast, manga!L (whom I love to death) is so so confident in doing what he's doing and has the time of his life during the Kira case as he's intellectually challenged (by Light) as he figures out the case little by little.

I don't get where the anime creators got the idea that L is a very sad character who cares about justice so much so that he's actually Justice itself? Manga!L enjoys solving cases. I'm not saying that L doesn't care about justice at all- just that he cares more about winning.

So, the anime creators looked at a character who cares about winning (& his own ego) than everything else and decided to... make him give a foot massage to his nemesis (surprise surprise bible symbolism featuring L as Jesus *🤮* coming up) apparently due to accepting Light's (boy's first debut as Judas) 'betrayal' how can there be betrayal when there was no trust between them in the first place and saying "It is the least I can do to atone for my sins"...

The only way I could've made a little sense of this is if L was mocking Kira with that line but the anime just had to go above & beyond to make it (L's actions) seem too genuine for that to be true. which is. so. FRUSTRATING

Manga!L wouldn't have done anything like that. Not even ironically (he'd have thought it to be below him for pretending to be accepting his defeat mockingly to Kira). Even Manga!L's not enough of a bastard to try to compare himself with Jesus (and just after knowing (god knows how) that he's going to die)- like that's too stupid omg: even for a mockery.

Does he actually think that Light would pick up on the (him as Jesus) symbolism and be like 'oh no! L is too noble like Jesus to die by my betrayal i'm such a bad judas how come i NEVER NOTICED THIS BEFORE'... and decide to spare L's life? Or embrace his inner Judas like the bad bitch he is and finish L for that godawful mockery of Jesus?

Whenever I think about Anime!Light's in-character reaction I crack up as it would be smth like 'wow this guy who graduated summa cum laude from torture university is pretending to be Jesus? lol what a real piece of work. would've expected better from you L: so pathetic lmao i hope rem kills you soon i'm so done with you rn- rip 💀'

Manga!L (if he knew he were going to die (don't know how that's possible in the anime; still we're talking about how the anime creators seem to see L as Jesus so ~anything is possible~) that is) would never go 'guess i'll die' accept his defeat offering a foot massage to his enemy and inwardly throw a pity party being all "… It'll be lonely, won't it?" GIRL you were the one going on & about how you'd EXECUTE Kira once you catch him on live tv (also saying that you'd bring Kira's head to the task force) I REALLY doubt you'd feel lonely if either one of you were to die- that (killing each other) was the point!!

Manga!L is a selfish character: he values his victory above all else so the anime making him accept defeat that easily + gracefully doesn't sit well with me.

#death note #l lawliet #light yagami #manga vs anime #manga!L #anime!L #anime!Light #the rain scene #the foot massage scene #yes i ship lawlight; no i don't think the rain scene was very faithful to L's character in the manga; yes we exist #as you can see i rlly RLLY don't like anime's take on L: i prefer the og manga!L :) #anime!L just isn't my cup of tea #manga!L's confidence in his assholery is much rather appreciated #i keep thinking about how i don't like certain parts of dn anime: the first of which being this rain scene #the second being how the anime handles Sayu's kidnapping and Light's reaction to it #but that's a can of worms i'll open later #i can't shut up apparently so here's a teaser: Light wouldn't have MURDERED Sayu OH MY GOD READ THE GODDAMN MANGA #in which he bends over backwards to protect her! and succeeds!! (at the cost of losing the death note to Mello) would you look at that?? #yeah i'm aware anime!Light doesn't kill Sayu but the way he's shown seriously considering it #(and choosing to let her live only so as to not increase suspicion) #leaves me so ANGRY #SAYU MEANS A LOT TO LIGHT OK? #he would not fucking do that #aaaaand....end rant #p #my meta #sorta #100

[popping-greenbean]

purrpurrpur??

#was a wind down doodle before bed and so ive been sitting here for an hour not moving #poppy playtime #catnap #man when is chapter 3 coming out so i can see the sweet purple kitty cat #like i only have a general appreciation of poppy playtime overall but my brain has latched onto this one guy and its only bc hes cute #nobody i know is even aware of the existence of this game im like going nuts on my own #greenbeans art!!

[lvstharmony]

you can say or do whatever you want, i will never let this dunya and the people within it harden my heart.

#and i’m beyond sick of people calling it naive foolish and or careless #i am AWARE of it all #i KNOW the risk of being like that #i KNOW what the world and it’s people is like #so what makes you so sure that i’ll break down to the point my heart turns to stone? #wallahi i will never despair #my pain my suffering that i carry around with me will never have been in vain as long as Allah exists and He always will exist #because time is a creation of Allah nothing came before Him and there will be nothing after Him #i know that my suffering has a specific reason and will never go unheard

[fairyroses]

When did you get to be so wise?

— SMALLVILLE, “Obscura” (1.20)

#'head of the lex luthor defense squad' clark is the best clark kent actually #smallville #smallvilleedit #svedit #clark kent #jonathan kent #lex luthor #clex #sv 1x20 #dcmultiverse #my gifs #ughhh everything about the way jonathan treated lex was such a bad attempt at foreshadowing #the writers clearly want us to be like 'ohohoh IF ONLY THEY KNEW that jonathan is ACTUALLY RIGHT and lex is gonna be EVIL someday!!' #but that completely ignores that there's no in-universe logic to jonathan's behavior because he's reacting to a lex that doesn't exist yet #so to the characters in the show (who don't actually know the future) he's just acting like a judgmental asshole towards lex for no reason #which frankly is a horrible look for a character who's supposed to be Good™ #this convo is actually the closest the show ever gets to being self-aware about this IMO b/c clark is right and jonathan seems to hear him #but the problem (like always) is that it produces no actual change or character development #because jonathan backtracks the instant lex does something he can read bad intentions into. he never cuts him an ounce of slack or grace #(and then clark apparently forgot his own lesson in the later seasons because he started acting just like jonathan used to 🙃) #...anyway viewed in a vacuum this is actually a really good scene but with the rest of the series in mind it makes me wanna scream

[battlecriesandroses]

linus posting part two

#are we liking the linus saga btw #i love linus he is my meow meow #linus haters dni (truly wasn't aware linus haters existed/j) #uh yeah that's all #goodnight everyone #linus baker #the house in the cerulean sea #thitcs #jaye's originals ig

[fiapple]

i'm getting towards the end of the skypeia arc, & i'd like to say just how much i adore the way the female strawhats have been treated.

just... every aspect of how the way their characters have been previously contextualized influences the story-line is treated with a masterful amount of consideration. we're given so many layers to both of them that enrich not only their characters specifically, but the arc, and the one piece world as a whole. without nami & robin having their specific skills, and their specific values, without those being built upon, the story would have come to a halt.

you could not have skypeia without nami & robin being who they are as individuals. not just because they never would've gotten there without nami, but also because the way these women think is itself foundational to the machinations of the arc as a whole.

to be totally upfront, if you think any other strawhats were more central to the skypeia arc than nami & robin were you are full-on fucking lying to yourself.

#obligatory disclaimer that i’m aware luffy is the protagonist & a lot of interesting stuff is explored w him. this isn’t abt him though. #part of me wonders if this is an aspect of why people will write off this arc sometimes tbh... like that & the political themes. #but yeah anyway i get why people say that for all there are 100% misogynistic tendencies in oda's writing & character design #it is very very hard to say that he as an individual is an ideological misogynist. like the level of care he puts into his female cast mem #-ers generally speaking & how he approaches what existing as a multi-dimensional individual would look like in their specific contexts is #like... in a lot of ways still something that is unprecedented across all forms of media. #but also not the point but anyone who says nami in particular doesnt get real fights/is unskilled um... no you're wrong read her fight in #alabasta & then all of skypeia. #like in alabasta she takes on arguably a stronger opponent than sanji when considering the structuring of BW. not only that but she does s #with a weapon she has never used before while actively reading the instruction manual. and she WINS. she wins based on sheer intellect & #the ability to utilize skills the audience already knows she has. the pre-existing basic fighting skills she's introduced with are elabora #-ed upon by incorporating her skill w navigation. same with the way her cunning is used in skypeia to cover her lack of sheer brute. & #the best part about it is she's fucking tough in a way that makes sense! she isn't strong/weak just for the sake of positioning her as such #it is thoughtful & it strengthens her as a character rather than just like giving the power-scaler types smth to mindlessly chew on. #like do i wish nami got to fight more & take a more active role in that regard even if i don't think she needs to be a fighter in the same #sense as the monster trio? yes absolutely. i'm guessing this is going to be smth that bothers me potentially even more with robin. #but that does not mean her fights are not masterfully written when she gets them or that she isn't tough as a bag of nails. #respect my darling woman or die. #skypeia #nico robin #nami #grey's one piece tag

[haleelah]

Jason : I can't fix him.

Jason : But I can sure as hell marry him and pull him away from the influence of his demanding father. Maybe then that would finally calm him, and I'm sure as fuck It will do wonders for his frayed self worth.

#jaydick #jason would definitely be that kind of spouse who would pulle their partner from toxic family members #he would be like 'i went through that shit with my biological dad' ' ain't no way i'm doing it again with my in-law!' #and as much as i love the relationship between bruce and jason pre death they just will never see eye to eye again #love is not enough anymore when real understanding and acceptance( not tolerance!!) cease to exist between family members #that's when the most healthy choice to all parties involved will be distancing from each other #and if jason is as emotionally mature as i headcanon him(unlike the shit show they try to push on us in canon) #then he will pack himself and his husband up and off of gotham and the influences of their domineering and stifling father figure!! #رضا بروس وايين غاية لا تدرك!! #like jason still loves bruce he is just aware that their relationship cannot really recover what they had been through

[mediapen]

for anon: carlos, with his life split into two halves. how life feels cut when a major event occurs — before and after — maybe before and after silverstone ‘22?

[x] // richard siken, ‘straw house, straw dog’ // richard siken, ‘unfinished duet’ // [x] // jenefer shute, life-size // [x] // liz bowen, sugarblood // ethel cain, ‘strangers’ // warsan shire, ‘to swim with god' // the smiths, ‘paint a vulgar picture’ // richard siken, ‘saying your names’ // [x] // [x] // [x] // rainer maria rilke in a letter to lou andreas-salomé // phoebe bridgers, ‘garden song’ // [x] // [x] // r/Games // bhanu kapil, the vertical interrogation of strangers // [x] // [x] // [x] // [x] // cota, 2022 // [x] // clementine von radics, 'the fear.’

#carlos sainz jr #web weaving #cs55 #cs #m #i hope... this fills the prompt. #wanted to explore like. fulfilling the highest-stakes dream imaginable which you've worked towards for literally your whole life. ofc theres #a bigger dream still unachieved (wdc) but how do you handle it when the weight of your most realistic achievable dream is lifted #do you try to let it carry you? do you let yourself live in it for a little while? what if there's nowhere to go from here? #... what if you never get to feel like this again? #and THEN you immediately have the. like. most horrendous dnf a string of shit races ANOTHER horrendous dnf a FRUSTRATING dnf... #like how much do you want it now. what even is *it* any more. do you know. do you let yourself ask. #carlos is fascinating to me in ways i cannot will not speak on but i think like. he has an Awareness that he is willing to speak on that #nobody else is. and *i* wont speak on it because its real life but. anyway. #z #sorry for using the titsphoto in my defence. the concept of motorboating exists and we're clear on my feelings on it