#he just lays on me to get around that

[crnl-chicken-tots]

Please take a moment to read this, if you have that moment.

TW for animal death

Things can change so fast, in a matter of mere seconds. I was reminded of that very harshly this Saturday.

One of my two dogs, Popper, was struck in a hit and run. We took him to the ER as fast as we could, but to no avail. For nearly a year, I worked as a veterinary assistant. Death was common, and a friend to those who had lived their time, or to those who had suffered. Death embraced all of them peacefully, and our sweet boy crossed the veil on the 17th of June. He was my little brother's dog.

For all of the horrid, mentally scarring encounters I faced daily working that job, I became emotionally numb in the face of death. But, of course, that isn't the same for your own kin.

His leg was shattered, and he suffered fatal internal damage. His lungs were punctured, and filled with blood faster than they could stop it. That is what took him out.

My family is devistated. My sweet girl, Honey, continues to sit at our front door, waiting and wondering why her brother has yet to come back. She won't ever know. They were littermates.

It has been ages since I have faced such lose. He was my baby, my best friend, my favorite cuddle buddy. I will never get to see his sweet face again, or hear his high pitched bark, or get to smoother him with forehead kisses, or tell him to stop messing my bedding up, among thousands of other little things. I know he has left, but accepting it is the hardest part. Not only for our sakes, but for his dear sister's sake.

So please, PLEASE, when you read this. Do me a favor.

If you have companions, whether they are furry, or slimy, or scaly, maybe feathery, or however you choose to describe them:

Go give them copious amounts of love.

We are always reminded to never take things for granted, and I couldn't agree more.

So go stare them in the eye, until they think you're nuts. Tell them how much they mean to you, even if you sound insane. Pet them, play with them, care for them unconditionally, until they are fed up with you.

They won't always be there. But while they are here with us, let's make sure they are surrounded by our love for them. Many things do not come free, but expressing how much you care for them in those little ways, does indeed come free.

I will never get over how everything happened, and the fact that he truly is gone. There is no magic to bring him back, even though I spend my days lost in thoughts that are overflowing with possibilities like that. It's unfortunate, it's devestating, it's reality.

I'm always going to love him unconditionally, with every fiber of my being, even beyond the veil that seperates us. And I'm glad that I was able to say what I wanted to say before his departure - some are not as fortunate.

Love them. Telll them that I love them, every single one of them, even if I don't know you or them. Nothing would make me happier.

Thank you for everything, Popper. You will always be the best boy, even in death. I await the day that we may cross paths above yet again.

09/26/18 - 06/17/23

#serious talk #tw animal death #hit and run #death #reality sucks #please read this #never take anything for granted #you might end up with heavy regrets #love your companions unconditionally #my art #his name is Popper #and he was THE best #Popper and I cuddling on a space too small for us #Its okay though #he just lays on me to get around that #I'll miss being crushed like that

[myrkulitescourge]

the way that one line from the new epilogue in an astarion romance is going to HAUNT me

just. what a profoundly intense thing to confess to someone.

like, just these six months of newfound happiness with you exerts a force on his heart equal and in direct opposition to two centuries of endless torment, the gnawing hunger and exploitation. this flashbulb-bright fraction of his long life holds the same gravity to him as years upon years of darkness and suffering.

in all likelihood, he hasn’t even known his lover for as long as his worst memory lasted, that year sealed away to go mad from starvation and sensory deprivation, yet he still tells them this brief time has been so fundamentally and powerfully important that the weight of even that unimaginable hell is vanishingly small compared to this present he has now and the future ahead of them both.

how am i supposed to act normal about this.

#i need to lay down #just drop this in there right at the beginning why not! #that’s INTENSE. and completely sincere considering his demeanor at the party. god #he’s so… nice. in the romanced epilogue. i expected him to be a little smug and jokey #if tav told him the others weren’t doing so hot without the two of them around #but he takes it so genuinely and with visible disappointment?? literally shocked me #i thought he would say oh of course their lives have taken a turn without our impressive leadership lol! #and then redirect into something a little less flippant #but man. he just gets sad. astarion six months into a loving relationship is like a stray cat that instantly gets cuddly when you adopt it #dude went cotton candy marshmallow saccharine sweet in a HEARTBEAT #bless the others with your presence he says. i’ll always be here he says. we have forever after all he says. #head in my hands. how could they do this to me #astarion ancunin #astarion bg3 #astarion #bg3 epilogue spoilers #bg3 spoilers #baldur’s gate 3 spoilers #bg3

[ryllen]

Was giving these analysis a read [ x , x , x , x ]

#twisted wonderland #twst #trey clover #jamil viper #kalim al asim #jade leech #and then i gave his mentioned vignettes a read #it's true #he has a back street way to get stuff he wants #but thankfully the things he wants always borderline normal #the best thing about him laying low is to strike when people are totally off guard around him #which is what happened to riddle #fsdshd i guess if he did turn someone's bone into a jelly he would overblot in an instant fhsdhs #that sounds just as scary as avatar's blood bending #i was focusing more on his wanting to be normal side bcs i was not through yet with all stories involving him #but i'm not sure if i could be sly enough to write him as clever as he should be #somehow reading him being described as clever makes me a bit happy #like woah he really is! #fsdhsdh but he can really be a henchman of mafia group if he really wants to; this trey #fshdshdshdsdh OH no now i'm imagining the leech's mafia family #but i think leech's dad would respect trey's choice not to get his hands on any of these shady business #but it's assuring to know trey might have something up in his sleeves if anything ever happen to his son #anyway happy birthday trey! #also this doujinshi strips where trey doing a back street way of casting his nets over jade #https://twitter.com/CfEo95iwr/status/1715992373686362213 #i like to think he is confident he could do it without such a thing #but that sly way i understand now it's totally him

[astral-schools]

bro that really haunts my narrative

#w101 #w101 fandom #wizard101 #wizard101 fandom #the old one #sal art #desperately need to sit down and lay out my feelings abt how much the old one's presence is utterly crucial to arc 4 despite the fact #that (spoilers) he dies like 20 minutes into it #like obviously its most strongly felt in lemuria he is haunting that shit like a ghost in a house #but even up to (BIG SPOILERS) the end of wallaru and everything that happens there #w101 spoilers #just in case #love when media hypes a guy up and then they immediately get murked #working caption was 'haha noo dont haunt the narrative ur so sexy' based on that one meme #mostly this was just me fuckin around w divide layers. fun effect #oh yeah world icons courtesy of the wiki. i was not redrawing those things

[an-au-blog]

Oh, your love is sunlight

Happy (late) Valentine's Day (version without text ↓ +description in tags)

#east blue asylum wing au #zosan #zoro x sanji #zs #first off if its bad quality - it's a huge canvas and it's more pixelated if i try to export the picture than if I screenshot so... :/ #I sometimes like assigning songs to different dynamics and or characters I play around with and I've been recently listening to #a lot of Hozier again and I'd like to think that Sunlight is how Zoro sees Sanji - he is Icarus flying to the sun and he is willing to get #burned if only to reach the sunlight - it's a deathtrap... because of course it is... all attachments are but Sanji's love is the death tra #that he welcomes like a moth to a flame because even Icarus felt the bliss and freedom before his wax melted #I haven't depicted it here but Sanji's Hozier song for Zoro would probably be NFWMB because in his eyes Zoro is this untouchable force #that would watch the world go up in flames and when the time Sanji wouldn't mind being a tree just to fuel his fire (im well aware how #cheesy that sounds just bare with me... or better yet listen to the song its really good trust me ok?) #the world starts and ends with him and where they lay #and their shared Hozier song is Francesca because if anything in this au zosan are two lovers stuck in Dante's inferno and sprinting back i #only for the chance to get back to their lover and if that meant going back into hell to look for each other then so be it #there's a part of the song that goes “My life was a storm / Since I was born / How could I fear any hurricane?” which is pretty fitting imo #op #fan art #my art

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i turn 27 tomorrow and i feel like my life is collapsing in around me #i officially made the decision to take the summer off. which i hate. which means i have to get a summer job #when ive only ever had jobs in academia so my resume looks insane if im applying to work in a bakery or whatever #im just so tired. everything makes me so tired and sad. i still dont kno what im gonna do #im glad my dad is here bc he gets it more than most ppl bc hes also dyslexic and like everyone assumes im fine bc ive got this far #but like at what cost? im doing a job where im set up to suffer. and for what? im doing something so niche and weird #all i can do is more academia. but what if i cant cut it? what if i would b better off getting a epa job or something where i can do my job #and then go home and stop thinking abt it. how do i apply the stupid bullshit i decided to study? i should have done Ecosystem restoration #or something. its just that my dream was to study weird things in weird places and now it feels like that dream is collapsing #which is devastating. im gonna try to come back in the fall and give it a go but like i dunno it feels so hopeless rn #im just so tired. i have no joy. i just want to lay on the floor #unrelated

[musubiki]

the other beta version of mochi and limes post-timeskip reunion is that he actually does find her on his own. after years of taking witch-related missions, tracking down leads, investigating new developments and hints that came up, etc

where one day, wherever mochi is hiding at the time, pom becomes alert all of a sudden, and goes "...the m34th is here."

#did pom know it was him? probably #uniformed-up lime standing at the gate to her little hideaway hat in hand #imagine that sight #i think about this route because one side of me doesnt want all his hard work to be in vain. part of me wants his struggles to pay off #but on the other hand if i go the original route i can lay foundations for a potention subplot of #the m34th(of course we knew where she was. why would we let you in on that when we can use you how we want so long as youre apart from her? #anyway this version would develop as (i know you dont want anyone around but i dont care im not leaving) #and pom being like (actually she just stabilized last week so she should go get her guild again for the new mission(s)) #anyway. rambles #bonus points if getting the cat witch was a joint mission and he straight up backstabs all his coworkers once they get to her location #diggity doosh your memory is now mush

[zappedbyzabka]

#Makes me think of broken down vulnerable Johnny who’d been swept up by Silver after the tournament and corrupted damn near sympathy-less #spoiled by that richie #(and a lot more than that.) Johnny gets bored and goes after Daniel. starts purposely being a tempting brat to piss him off and get pushed #around. ‘I don’t know how to karate anymore Danny :( will you come to my place and teach me?🥺 Will you throw me around and try out this pu—‘ #bc we know i love that au #Flirty af with that russian damn #Will have more gifs of him because I didn’t realize how sassy and flirty he was in this #EVERY single time a man got angry/demanding with him he went: :) :) :) Oh yeah? #He was just there to get manhandled and that BAG #that shmoney #That angry railing that leaves him limping #He makes them work for it despite his interest though. It’s funner that way and by no means is he an easy lay #You gotta do the time for that pussay or you gotta have a big dick #*Rojack. getting called out for being a liar and manipulative bitch* Mhmmm and what else? :^) #humanweapon #william zabka

[sankttealeaf]

climbing aboard the 'little spoon gortash' ship and setting sail if anyone wants to join me on it. i have a vision

#look at that man. hold him. #easy access to his throat too if u wish to strangle him #im just thinking thats all #bg3 #enver gortash #stupid man stupid man stupid stupid #imagine spending all day being a control freak to then get held by your murder loving partner #what a life #this comes from me writing + every time he and rue get into bed he's immediately laying on her and pulling her arms around him #she doesnt mind. hes warm.

[sturmhondsdemjin]

Steve spinning that nail bat is actually something that can be so personal. And sexy.

#an eddie munson ghost tweet #stranger things #eddie munson #steve harrington #steddie #eddie laying across the hood of steve’s car kicking his legs behind him and twirling his hair with stars in his eyes like #‘spin me next big boy’ and steve’s just standing there with his jaw on the ground like WHAT THE FUCK because his brain has malfunctioned #twenty different ways to sunday … and eddie ABSOLUTELY KNOWS what he’s doing and just reaches out to squeeze steve’s forearm … the arm that #holds the bat and gives a little ‘tch’ and a wink and WALKS AWAY leaving steve utterly baffled with his brain scrambling desperately trying #to catch up to what the hell just happened … THEY ARE IN PUBLIC!! EDDIE CAN’T JUST SAY THOSE THINGS!! but he did and he means it … and #steve just flexes his fingers around the bat and gives it another little twirl once his brain comes back down to earth. meanwhile eddie is #already halfway across the parking lot with his head tossed back and his face toward the sun and those rich brown eyes closed right as he #howls with laughter because he KNOWS he’s got steve right where he wants him … #[steve’s bat twirling becomes a subconscious habit … and not just the nail bat … it’s ANYTHING remotely twirling size. because eddie loves #it and steve really fucking loves eddie] #here’s a short story nobody asked for but everybody gets to see

[quietwingsinthesky]

im just saying that a guy whose worldview is inflexibly based on the idea that the only two groups of people in the universe are the controlled and the ones who have the power to control them, and that there is no other way to exist, and who has done everything in his power to make sure he’s always in the latter group. i’m just saying that it’s possible this is not unrelated to. that time when he was used as a child by rassilon himself. its possible.

#and i want to be even more clear that this is not me trying to woobify him. you would know if it was because i would be much more annoying #about it. im not trying to lay this out as ‘the drums mean that the master’s actions are excusable actually. all those times he killed So #Many People was fine because he was hurt as a kid.’ #im trying to point out like. now that this is canon. now that this is a part of him. that it is foundational to why he would build up that #worldview at all. yeah? #i keep coming back to the powerlessness of that moment. of the drums. he can’t *do* anything about it. #but he *can* be the master and never be one of the weak people in the universe who ‘allow’ themselves to be controlled #he knows he’s being used in EoT and still expects the time lords to take him with them. because he’s on their side isn’t he? he gets to #ascend too doesn’t he? he gets to be as powerful as they do right? #but. that’s not what’s happening here. it’s what he’s built up in his head but the minute rassilon hits him with the truth. that they have #abused and used him and will now destroy him. just. augh. #a whole world under his heel and its not enough. it will never be enough. he has separated the universe into two parts and neglected to #realize that just because he can put himself in control of some of it doesn’t mean there aren’t other people who have a hand around his #throat still. and it drives me insane #the master #doctor who

[elegyofthemoon]

i think the scariest thing of getting friends into stuff i like is when they connect the dots on why i like a character and they go 'oh. so you just have the same taste in character. always.'

like.....yes but dont look at me.

#avil speaks #im waiting for when my friend connects the dots but also im scared LMAO #its rare for me to get outliers i think...... #this isnt about any specific characters #but my friend did choke me the other day when he was like #'wait..... ur new guy has the same vibes as ur other fave guy' #oKAY 😭😭😭😭😭😭 SHUT UP OK 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #tuesday does this to me all the time so it scares me whenever we overlap in interests and she just Clocks me #sighsssss #anyways if you see me around within the hour hit me with a bat i need to go lay down (genuinely) #headache Bad

[worstloki]

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#Loki will be aroace and miss that his brother is courting like 5 midgardians and that the entire team he's living with are together #nat and clint making out in the kitchen and loki walks past them to the pantry to grab some chocolate sprinkles #like yeah yeah okay everyone has needs of course Steve and Bruce are cuddling but can they not take up the entire couch i need to sit down #Loki like hey Thor where'd u get those suspicious markings do you need me to heal you and Thor says Clint holds New York against him too #Loki is like ah yes. sparring. #Loki like I don't understand why we already have game night on fridays why does the team leave me alone on saturdays too #do they not like me :( #they're always making excuses to leave the room discretely when I'm around :( #Loki hanging out with Jane who also doesn't know about the Avengers she just knows that she and Thor didn't work out #btw this has happened twice Thor and the warriors 4 were totally together #Loki just doesn't find this out until after the AVengers thing gets out at which point Thor is like uhhh Loki how did u not know im poly #Loki isn't even reacting at this point he's just like numb inside like oh. okay then. thanks for telling me. i need to lay down for a while

[honeybunluna]

This right here is the worlds pickiest bunny. He won’t eat any veggies besides cilantro and the dark green parts of romaine. He won’t even eat banana, or watermelon. Only god damn cilantro.

#he also doesn’t play #I’ve tried everything to get him to play or chew or something #but he just wants to lay around and groom his girlfriend #occasionally he gets the zoomies but that’s rare #in contrast his girlfriend Willow is a ferocious eater who will try just about anything (except watermelon also?) #he’s also still incredibly shy around people #though he’s gotten more comfortable with me since I bring him food #his name is Ash Sterling btw #luna rambles #my bunnies #bunnies #rabbits #lionhead rabbit #pets #my pets #Ash Sterling #Sterling

[joelletwo]

"i know i have to face him sooner or later" takasugi to gintoki is THE falsest he would not fucking say that on the planet tho. its takasugi if u dont understand that takasugi has to intentionally build up his hunger for fighting gintoki again which he couldve done at any point by doing so much evil shit that gintoki (also building up his hunger for fighting takasugi which he couldve done at literally any point in his coup d'etat career) (doesn't give a shit abt politics) (isnt doing this to protect anything) has to come hunt him down personally (takasugi hunts him down) in the stupidest most destructive (edo) (themselves) (each other) foreplay in the universe (utsuro and umibozu didnt do foreplay)

#sopping wet gintoki posting #as many times as they cross paths and very on purpose DO NOT engage each other. well if gintama wasnt 4 billion hours long id #do a takagin reread matonato reread style about what makes rakuyo different #(as good a place as any to say the thought bouncing around my head for days and days) u know like the. throughline posting of. #takasugi so unprepared to see gintokis blood HE drew in the festival he lets himself get punched out of the episode. #takasugi so unprepared for katsura to draw HIS blood he just lays bonelessly on the floor for a whole scene despite being uninjured #takasugi so [vocab] that mutually beating the shit out of gintoki sends him straight into a month long coma for as far as i know!!! #no actual reason!!! from which he awakens freshly laundered and deep conditioned for the first time in a decade #WHICH THROUGHLINES TO -> takasugi so [sweetly fucked] on that boat (hes always on that fucking boat) that hes drawn well rested #for the first time literally ever in canon kjsdfg well whatever send post #this is a post just for that one reader (me i dont have eyes i havae a headache)

[anyoldfandom]

"You better get some control of yourself, mijo."

"Or what? You'll use that thing on me?"

#genrex #generator rex #Had this screenshot laying around for a while decided to redraw #Never liked how Caesar was looking away....this moment is SO good though OUGH #I wish I wish they really hammed it up with this ep afterwards I understand Rex will always forgive Caesar bc he's Rex but GOD #I wish I wish I wish there was more drama. I wish more people pointed out to Rex his bro tried to mind control him #I wish we saw more of Caesar dying inside remembering the look of pain and rage on his mijo's face #Thinking what he was doing was for the greater good and knowing that any pain Rex felt in the moment was better than him being killed. #But still feeling that guilt on his shoulders. #Like we get that it happens but I wish we had SCENES of that. Of Caesar alone in his lab distraught. Remembering that look Rex gave him. #Bc from Rex's perspective he didn't just hurt Rex. He's hurting innocent people LIKE Rex. #He's acting the same as everyone else when Rex was so sure he was different. #Do you get me. Do you get me tumblr.