#he reads a fuck ton

[fleurladari]

lysandre's hobbies range from frankly just fiddling with machinery to occasionally dance.

#study ;; noblesse flamboyante #--over time he's done dance significantly less on the side because frankly it's harder when it's not the *focus* #but he still does it nonetheless on the side. #he also plays chess occasionally--he plays it with xerosic when they're having discussions actually #he reads a fuck ton

[bamsara]

being an adult means we can buy or make as much self-indulgent shit (as we can afford) and unironically have trinkets of our fave things cause our teen years was bullied for liking things and hiding/denying we were ever neurodivergent to the point of suicide. sucks for anyone that thinks its weird cringe but I'm going to try and allow myself to love myself in little ways now

#wish i could tell younger me that i wasnt fucked up i was just autistic #even if youre not nd i still think having things you enjoy around you is important especially for your space #so i make a notable effort to get fandom stuff for my younger siblings now #like my lil sister thinks getting demon slayer stuff is cringe cause anime and what not (havent read it sorry) #but her face still lights up when i get her a pin for her #or a blind bag with a character keychain #and very slowly the self hatred and whatever it feels like that youre not allowed to like anything and that anything you like is bad #starts to diminish #my qpp is obsessed with birds and chickens and has so many trinkets around the house for it #or my friend who loves how pretty stained glass looks that his walls are covered in thrifted stain glass pieces #i know an elderly couple who are obsessed with star trek and they have a room in the house purely for shelves stacked with collectables #my friend's dad is so obsessed with spiderman that he has 3 walls full of figurines and posters and collectables that prob amoutn to tons #like i dont get it but i get it #maybe its because im sick rn but im in my head tonight about human loving things and stories and cocepts to the point of comfort #sara shush #ramble

[lotus-pear]

bsd fic authors i understand yalls pain SO well right now why is it so fucking HARD to write dazai. like i have a whole fucking spreadsheet dedicated to tireless analysis i have done on my part so i can accurately characterize him but he is such an unpredictable and morally gray character that it's hard knowing his limits and boundaries and where he draws the line for himself.

#i hate when ppl make him out to be a sadistic villain with no remorse. like did we read the same manga 💀 #but at the same time he is NOT crying abt all the ppl he sent to the grave. he sleeps just fine at night knowing he committed atrocities #yes he feels remorse? but he isn't like kunikida to weep at someone's grave for failing to save them #and then we have his emotions themselves #dazai isn't emotionless. far from it. he has difficulty expressing affection but yk he finds someone endearing when he trusts them #trust is very important to dazai and is one of the aspects of human emotion that he can fully grasp #but like everything else is in a hazy gray area that he does not feel like exploring. he feels alienated from his humanity bc of this #AUUUGHH can someone help me with character analysis PLEASE #I WASNT PAYING ATTENTION TO THIS MF UNTIL RECENTLY SO I MISSED OUT ON A LOT OF IMPORTANT DETAILS #see i would go and reread a few light novels but like i don't have time for that #and this is for dazai specifically. i am very well versed on his relationships w other charcaters #but just like asigiri himself said: it's very difficult to write dazai and write him WELL #so yeaaa i have a lot of smart ppl following me pls help #bsd #ALSO MY FRIEND STILL HAS NO LONGER HUMAN UUUUGHHHHHH I NEED THAT BACK BC I TABBED IT A SHIT TON #FOR LIKE CONNECTIONS TO YOZO AND BSD DAZAI AND WHERE ASIGIRI DREW INSPIRATION FROM YOZOS CHARACTER FOR DAZAI #THAT WOULD BE SUCH A VALUABLE FUCKING RESOURCE BC I DID SOME ANNOTATIONS IN THEM TOO BUT MY BOOK IS ANOTHER FUCKING STATE #I HATE IT HERE FML

[jenna-louise-jamie]

thinking about yassen gregorovich instead of sleeping (because i love him) and how he is a catalyst. yassen stabbs ash -> ash kills john rider -> ian rider raises alex -> yassen kills ian rider -> mi6 blackmails alex into becoming a teenage spy.

i have so many thoughts that i can't properly articulate. obviously this is a simplified chain of events, but yassen and his choices set off a chain reaction of the world's most unfortunate dominos. especially when you read russian roulette. to be clear im not necessarily trying to blame him for everything because that feels very mean. he was also just a 14 year old kid when everything in his life went wrong, just like alex. only difference being yassen literally had no one.

i think i should write an essay about this because i haven't even gotten into my thoughts about what yassen and alex's dynamic would look like past eagle strike. i would imagine it'd be similar to ellie and joel from the last of us part 2.

where obviously yassen loves alex and alex on some level cares for yassen back but struggles to reconcile that with the fact that yassen is responsible for his uncle's death. a very unforgivable act. it would be so messy and complicated and angsty, because on one hand here is an adult who truly cares about him and has a connection with him through his father. yassen could tell alex about john, and trust that yassen truly wants whats best for him. but he killed ian, and he cannot take that back.

while alex reels from those feelings, yassen is also trying to reconcile his love of alex with the knowledge that he on some level is responsible for the suffering alex endured at the hands of mi6. and possibly even the fact that alex's godfather is the one who killed john and helen.

#btw i think anthony horowitz killed yassen off so he wouldnt have to deal with this lmao #and sidenote ash is responsible for his own shitty choices but i think itd be difficult for yassen to cope with the fact that stabbing ash #led to some very bad consequences for literally everyone #are there any fics that are similar to what im describing?? ? #i read a ton of alex rider fics but i mostly read fluff because im actually too emotionally fragile to handle angst #i cried while reading stormbreaker and that book wasnt even supposed to be sad #if this is doesnt make any sense its because i woke up at 2 am and wrote this #its just word vomit; pure not proofread thoughts directly from my fucked up little brain #idk maybe someone will enjoy reading this #alex rider #yassen gregorovich #alex rider books #ian rider #john rider #chaotic ramblings #and final note i do not ship yalex #i was thinking of this more in terms of yassen having a weird guardian/parental relationship with alex #if it wasnt clear from my ellie and joel reference from the last of us #anyways im gonna go back to making shitposts and memes so i never have to feel anything again thank you goodnight <3

[parkercore-69]

thank you J.R.R. Tolkien for writing the most devastating romantic subplot in your lotr books without even realising it

#im talking about sam and frodo sorry everyone #guess who like watched all the extended films and cried #whether you intepret sam and frodo’s love platonically or romantically you have to understand that they are so entwined that it is #devastating nonetheless #the forehead kiss #im on the ground sobbing #dawgs it was such a real depiction of how trauma is irreversible and will change you entirely #frodo baggins #i love him so fucking much guys #i love those little hobbits #samwise gamgee #lord of the rings #i could and most likely will write an essay on this #samfro #dawg sometimes love can be both platonic and romantic as queer love is not to be constrained by heteronormative values #sorry did i read too far into the little fantasy story #dude i was not expecting a story about the horrific effects of war racism and power corrupt addiction when i sat down in front of the telly #jokes on the side frodo looking absolutely miserable at sam’s wedding is so fucking real #i get it’s because he knows he cant move on and he is forever changed by his trauma but also that hobbit gay #his wound from the witch king never healing being a symbolic representation of his trauma FUCKS ME UP #frodo you may have been a whiny bitch at times but like yeah that ring probably did weigh a fuck ton and i was worse on my dofe expedition #i may be fucking too hard with lotr #lotr #teehee

[deaddofnightt]

something i feel like a lot of people get wrong about dean's characterization is that deep down he really isn't some hard ass. he's soft. he wants the comforts and pleasantries of life. like. dean takes creamer in his coffee instead of drinking it black, he likes a good homecooked meal, he wants to be held and loved on. i feel like people get too caught up in the image he pushes rather than who he really is

#maybe i'm stupid and this is obvious to a lot of you i don't read a ton of fic i'll admit #but hell that man just wants a soft happy life and i will be damned if yall are trying to suggest otherwise #spn #supernatural #dean winchester #mine #i'm buzzed and emotional about that stupid man so forgive me GOD #he's not some fucking dom that has no cares for the simple things that man is SOFT

[coldlikethestars]

#he called him beloved!!! if you even fucking CARE!!!! #im a little drunk rn and i thought of this and it hit me like a ton of bricks #ok im gonna go finish this chapter bc i fell asleep while reading it last night

[lliminall]

*crawls in here* do you .. have any thoughts on yan Phinks.. any general headcanons or anything of the sort 😶‍🌫️

oh phinks. in my head he is so whipped for his darling. thinks they’re just the neatest thing and kind of wonders if they’re maybe out of his league, which is part of the reason I imagine he goes yandere for them to begin with. can’t have them finding someone better and realizing they could raise their standards after all, lmao. he is like a sopping wet towel to me

@isaut put me onto the idea of him and yung gravy being sort of alike, so now I always think of him as dollar store yung gravy. he’d like to believe he’s the type to fuck milfs and ooze this suave, machismo kind of charm. slaying all the ladies but can’t be tied down to any of them. he’s not, but this becomes especially apparent when darling comes along and suddenly he’s tripping over himself for slivers of their attention.

in my mind it’s almost comical, because he’s not some sweetheart or even particularly endearing. he’s just like. this scowling, intimidating presence following you around trying to be boyfriend material. and he really does try. takes you out on dates (and doesn’t notice how nervous you are when he offers to choke slam some poor fool who spilt their drink on you), brings you food, buys you shit. in his head the “good boyfriend” formula is a simple one to follow: be man, provide for partner, beat shit out of anyone who threaten them :) he’s a protector and a provider! what more could you want lmao

his desperation for your approval could be cute — if you weren’t so aware that there’s just something wrong with him, and that he doesn’t seem to know how to hide it

#hm I’m realizing I’ve never actually written anything for him #even though he’s one of my faves #perhaps I will read a fuck ton of phinks fics tonight and see what inspiration strikes #phinks x reader #yandere phinks x reader #hxh.ll #phinks.ll #asks.ll

[spiritofjustice]

#psy's no punctuation posts #history tag #and yes for our viewers at home: I’m pretty sure Stonewall Jackson had autism. we’ll never know for sure but after reading about him. #he displays a fuck ton of autistic behaviors / symptoms #been reading Rebel Yell slowly and this guy is a fuckin trip to read about #i think the author works too hard to justify Jackson’s pro-confederate stance and that rly annoys me but the book is well written otherwise #so I’m still reading it. but I notice that and it’s a little annoying #i don’t mind the book discussing his complexities because that’s just necessary but something about it feels off yknow #I don’t like this guy but he is very interesting to read about at least

[aza-trash-can]

It's fun to think of Neuvillette being young for an immortal being (~400-500 years old) and that's why he's so clumsy socially

But it's also fun to imagine that he's actually kinda old (~2,000-3,000) and just sucks at talking to people cause he thought reading about people would be enough to understand them and got a rude awakening when he decided to finally try talking to a human for the first time

#aza's trash #neuvillette #i totally imagine that he just holed up somewhere with a metric fuck ton of books and just spents decades reading #it's relatively new to him to think about actually interacting with people #this is probably just me projecting but i like the thought regardless #headcanons

[catastrxblues]

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#okay i actually want to rant a bit 😭 - not advised to read this because then you might get brain damage #because oh my god??????? weird #(was going to write an entire diary but nvm here’s the gist of it) #basically i was coming home from this chem thing right #i used the train as i always do when it comes to this. and because the new station just got a shiny renovation it is now connected to the #new mall in front of it (we have two now it’s an addition to the first one). and guess what 😭 #i had to go in and get to the first mall because my dad said he’d just pick me up at the lobby instead of the bus stop in front of #the station entrance right. #and when i was on the elevator going up on a call with my mom about food orders 😭 #the guy i used to have a very very VERY heavy crush on in middle grade got to the elevator leading down just as i was on the landing 😭😭 #and i had to make sure i wasn’t hallucinating so as he was descending and his back turned to me i examined the back of his head and i’m #pretty sure it was him. curiosity killed the cat i should’ve remembered that shit because you know what my stupid ass did?? #i was already walking away on my way to cross to the first mall but then that curiosity got the better off me and i steppedonto the elevato #leading down 😭 and followed him out into (apparently) the fucking bus stop #oh my goddd I JUST REALIZED this is my the one moment help #except i don’t think he recognized me because i was never even friends with him lmao. wrote tons of poetry about him ✅ #actually had one proper conversation with him ❌ #i was delusional and kept alone with my thoughts living in my head do not judge me #but seriously even though i don’t really care about him anymore this would’ve been (unfortunately) SUPER important to middle grade me #she would’ve taken it as a sign or something and write like five pages about it #and i just keep thinking about that #funny how things change because IF YOU KNEW how many credits and exaggerated compliments i gave him in my old journal #oh you would’ve laugheddd #like i used to SPEND SO MUCH TIME pondering over him it’s so 😭 #i used to have an oc and i think i based it on my idea of him and then i think that idea of him was even the reason i started to TRY to #write poetically. and i used to relate every taylor swift love songs to him (esp the ones in debut lover and rep and fearless) IT WAS SO #FUNNY LOOKING BACK AT IT NOW #i think he did see me though. i put on this act as if i was searching for someone confused and then (my go to) pretended someone called me #and then i whisked off as if to find that someone #i’d like to think i look pretty cool though. not because of anything (def not my looks because i was SO TIRED from that extra chem lessons

[clamsjams]

usopp meeting the kid his dad hung out with instead of parenting him:

#very conflicted feelings on yassop tbh #bc like on the one hand he’s not rlly a bad guy and i think it’s shown that he cares for ussop? #but like on the other hand: ur son??? #and wife??? #like it’s been ages since i read it #but iirc he didn’t even know banchina died #like i don’t think he’s enough of a shithead to not like go back for her funeral #and to arrange things for his son so ussop wasn’t like completely on his own?? #but he didn’t know?? ur telling me there was absolutely no way to send a letter or snail call or whatever?? #and none of the other ppl in the village saw this basically orphaned boy and tried to find yassop somehow? #and he couldn’t fucking visit either?? #like yeah taking the kid on a pirate ship is an incredibly stupid idea #but clearly shanks had no fucking issue just dropping in to visit his special little boy #they literally could’ve just swung by syrup on the way #i am so fucking mad #also i started making this post b4 class but then i had to go so that’s why this is later #clam piece irl #posts from the ocean #edit: i’ve spelled yasopp and usopp wrong a ton of times but im not retyping those tags #usopp op

[nakitengoku]

Trying to rewatch the Constantine show but I'm forever plagued with the knowledge that should Constantine have the chance, he would 100% fuck another version of himself, without a doubt. If he had more time, he would've canonically done so.

#<- the man who became briefly obsessed with John and read a shit ton of comics and who knows probably more than he should #LISTEN. I cant list the comic or the issue BUT TRUST ME HE MAKES OUT WITH ANOTHER VERSION OF HIMSELF #AND WOES ABOUT HOW HE ALWAYS WONDERED WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE TO FUCK HIMSELF #quinn talks #hes my type (pathetic bisexual man) and i know it okay. id say hes the blueprint but he wasnt the first

[go-bonkers-go-foolish]

shoutout to naomi misora who met L and then immediately threw him down a flight of stairs with capoeira

#death note #naomi misora #l lawliet #labb murder cases #death note another note #no i will not give context go read the book #it’s hysterical #i straight up laughed out loud in a public space while reading it #also shoutout to beyond birthday (i still do not believe that is a real name someone gave a guy) #who hid under a bed for presumably multiple hours to scuttle out from under it like a little freak #and thought ‘oh this is gonna be a great first impression’ #also? he fully knew that whoever L’s new assistant was wouldn’t know what L looked like #so the full L cosplay (including a fuck ton of makeup) was just for funsies #also (last thing) #shoutout to light yagami for reading the name Beyond Birthday in a prison register or some shit #and thinking ‘yeah I’m gonna give this guy the death penalty’

[catgirljaneway]

everytime i see something about tuvix i am filled with inhumane rage ngl

#trek thoughts #shut the fuck UP about tuvix #i'm unconvinced anyone genuinely cared about him or wanted him to live #my conspiracy theory is that the “janeway bad because she killed tuvix” thing was started by weak little men who didn't like there being #a female captain #i can't prove this but i believe it firmly and i if someone brings up tuvix to me i will kill them with the same amount of hesitation with #which janeway killed tuvix #Read: none #so what if she killed him? if my best friend was fused into a different entity and I had to choose between her or stupid smug little tuvix #creature i'd take the creature out back and shoot it with not a moment to spare #also tuvix is fucking annoying i'm not sorry #he's a smug little bastard and I hate him and want to bite him so bad #i hate him so much and i am a lover at heart it is rare for me to hate but i hate that bastard #star trek captains have done FAR worse than this but will people shut the fuck up about him? NO #he's been dead for years get over it losers #remember when janeway made a deal with the borg? now THAT was fucked up (love her for it tho) if you're going to critizise my wife at least #do it for the actual crimes she comitted #she was right to kill tuvix #but seriously i had heard tons about tuvix before watching the episode and when i finally did i was like ??? this is what people were cryin #about??? thought it would be a bigger deal lmao

[calamitydaze]

long tag ramble below u have been warned

#ok i feel like i should say Something before i start being active again #but i dont want it to be a Statement which is why i’m putting it in the tags #(also bc i procrastinated doing this for weeks so i know this is a very stale topic by now #but i also haven’t been on tumblr literally at all so this is 100% my organic authentic opinion lmao) #so read if you gaf and ignore if you don’t #anyway: george def could’ve done more to ensure she was comfortable #and as someone who has also gotten in over my head with older men and regretted it #her hurt is valid and i’m deeply sorry she feels the way she does about that night #but with that said i see no reason to believe george Should have known how she really felt #or that he deliberately took advantage of either her youth/inexperience or her discomfort #and that’s the most important thing for me— he fucked up and misread a situation but that doesn’t make him an evil person #and i hope they can both move on and grow and heal #as for my future in the fandom: i honestly dunno how active i’ll be going forward #i was already becoming pretty disconnected so this might’ve just sped up the process? i’m tired of being put through the wringer #but i also don’t really have a fandom to replace this so i might just continue casually participating in the way i have been #either way rest assured i will never become a rabid anti. that shits embarrassing #i got HORRIBLE drolo rsd the other day when tommy’s mom needed clout and vagued him so like if nothing else. droloisms are forever #also as a last thing— this feels kinda silly and self centered to say but i will anyway #sorry for not opening up my blog as a forum for discussion again the way i did with the drituation #i know i helped a lot of people sort out their feelings and that was (and is) really really important to me #but it also tanked my mental health (mostly as a result of the fallout and not the act itself but still) #plus my life irl was pretty stressful at the time when everything was first going down #so i just didn’t feel up to putting myself through that again #but i’m sorry if anyone wanted to discuss w me but wasn’t able to #anyway. i think that’s all i have to say! #i don’t want to turn this into a capital D discussion but as always my askbox and dms are open #love you all tons! i hope you’re having a good day 🫂🫶 #bella talks