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strawglicks · 6 months

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GRAHAM PAYSER IS INSECURE AS HELL

So ive been thinking abt this for some time and i decided i needed to make a post about it bc people were SHOCKED when i pointed it out and like. Is this new???? I thought it was obvious . But if its not, thats what this post is for <3

heres why grahams super insecure actually

Need for Validation

So graham needs attention and validation from other people NONSTOP.

from asking flint to validate everything he just said

to waking up cathal so they'll agree with him

to just seeking people's attention in general.

He cannot just be content with himself on his own, he needs other people to constantly reassure him that he’s right. He claims to be confident but isn’t satisfied with just himself, he needs other people to fill that void

Projecting

The ending cutscene is the biggest case of Graham projecting onto other people AND one of the biggest points where his insecurity shows.

He is EXHAUSTED from his own fight but he can't handle the failure, so he flips everything he's feeling onto the toons instead.

He spends this whole cutscene realizing he's lost and DESPERATELY trying to cover it up because he can't admit defeat, which reeks of insecurity by itself.

It opens with him realizing he's lost and immediately trying to cover up the fact he's upset about it.

He tries to flip the situation and make it seem like the toons lost the fight and puts them down for it because he doesn't want to put HIMSELF down. He doesn't even allow himself to fail, he has to be perfect.

He also straight up lies here. Graham was putting his ALL into this fight, proven by how he collapses from exhaustion at the end. There are no other forms, he wasn't getting started. He was trying his very best and still failed and that destroys him. Again, he can't handle the failure so he just. Lies at this part.

More projecting and trying to make it out as if the toons lost . He himself desperately needs a breather because he burned himself out, but again, he can't handle that fact because he's desperate to be perfect.

Not the ending cutscene but another point worth mentioning in terms of projecting. He brags about burning out the toons yet has a habit of burning HIMSELF out.

The fact he collapses at the end of his fight means he overworks himself to the absolute limits in desperation to be the best. If he's really so great, he shouldn't have to try so hard to prove it. Which brings me to the next point

Trying Too Hard

Someone who is genuinely content with themselves shouldn’t feel like they have to PROVE they are content, yet that’s what Graham constantly does. He is always trying so hard and putting on a show for the people around him to PROVE that he’s confident.

Someone who feels good about themselves shouldn’t have to shove that fact down everyone’s throats. This drives back to the validation point in which he needs people to pay attention to and validate him.

Fantasizing About Success

Graham obsesses over a better version of himself despite claiming to be so confident with who he is currently.

He's not satisfied with where he currently stands. He craves more power, attention and success because he is insecure with where he is now. There's no reason for someone so supposedly confident and perfect to be chasing after a better version of themselves.

Can't Admit Failures

Touched on this earlier with the projecting. Graham insists he's perfect and anytime he fails it immediately makes him panic. Someone who's happy and content with themselves should also be able to accept their flaws, but that's not what Graham does.

When his position for the job is threatened, he immediately loses it.

When he loses his fight, he immediately scrambles for excuses and some way to put himself back on top.

Graham may have a huge ego, but it's a fragile one at that.

Graham’s confidence is a facade. This isn't to say he's doing it intentionally; I honestly think he isn't even aware of his insecurity and genuinely believes he is confident and above others. But people like Graham will often obsess over the IDEA of being confident and above others because they lack it in reality. It’s not just a facade to convince others he’s on top, it’s also to convince HIMSELF he’s on top.

TLDR; oh hes a little fucked up actually.

To finish this off u can have this image i made the other day featuring one of my fav Grahams ive ever drawn LMAO

It pretty much repeats what’s already been said

#toontown #ttcc #toontown corporate clash #graham payser #graham ness payser #toontown pacesetter #my big juicy brain in full effect #thats the tag i came up with just now for my analysis tag.#anywya hopefully this MAKES SENSE and isnt too wordy ?!#its something thats rlly on my mind lately #i knew graham was insecure from the second he opened his mouth #i see confident narcissistic characters and i IMMEDIATELY search for their insecurities.#theres always something hiding there.#anyway i hope to make more analysis posts..they are fun

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imaginethezeldaverse · 10 months

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heyy, i saw all your posts and i just love your content! could you perhaps write something nsfw-ish with revali? like maybe what he’d be like during intimacy?^ ^

(english isnt my first language so i hope this makes sense)))

Your english is just fine, dear! I'd be happy to write some Revali for you, sure. Since you said nsfw-ish, I won't go too far into the nitty gritty details.

"That should satiate you for some time," purred the Rito champion, his beak nudging into the crook of your neck. Your breath was slowly dwindling down from harsh pants and the hoarseness of your crying out just moments ago. Revali was a ruthless lover when given the opportunity, but only in a sense that he was frantic about pleasing you. His goal: to make his favorite songbird sing the praises of what a champion like himself could truly make your body feel. Yet when all was said and done, he melted into something far more gentle. Almost unlike the smug, conspicuous personality he wore on a daily basis. No, Revali, when he was like this, was attentive. His wings blanketed you, caressing your body with placid warmth. He held you close, pecking kisses into whatever bits of your skin he could reach. Though he was not particularly wordy post-coitus, his actions were rather loud. This overly affectionate behavior was saved only for this time and space - where his instincts guided him to remind you of his protection, his loyalty, his love. Those sharp green eyes of his, trained to shoot for the kill, were softened by your sleepy form and quiet words of adoration. It made him feel the need to puff out his chest with pride. Instead, he merely pulled your face closer to him, evading your gaze from his slightly flushed cheeks.

#asks #Oh Revaliiiiii #tloz #the legend of zelda #tloz: botw #the legend of zelda: breath of the wild #botw #revali #champion revali #rito champion #revali x reader #n$fwish #n$fw implied #breath of the wild

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garglyswoof · 7 months

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Tagged by @jinxedwood and @austennerdita2533 for my fave books, I'm going with the wordy jinxedwood version bc yes, friends, you know me by now. I am what one calls a verbose bitch.

IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER and this list may not be accurate but it's accurate tonight.

East of Eden - John Steinbeck The humanity of this book is what got to me. I couldn't imagine reading another book when I finished this one, I felt bereft and that odd sense of loss that comes at the conclusion of a story with characters you deeply love. Not to mention that the Kathy angle made sections feel straight out of a modern day thriller.

H is for Hawk - Helen MacDonald.. to intertwine a memoir of grief and loss with a th white biography and a large measure of birding knowledge is quite the feat. But that sounds too pat an answer. I'll quote my goodreads review for this: This book felt like me sharing something that lurks so deep inside my heart, so carefully protected, so strewn with feelings like vines and bits of moss that shake off as I hold it out. It felt like sharing that something and absolutely, 100%, knowing that the recipient understood, with every fiber of their being.

Survival in Auschwitz - Primo Levi. Please, this isnt just what you think it is. It is that and more. Levi's words will leave you spellbound and aching and hopeful and everything in between.

Dandelion Wine - Ray Bradbury. As with most of my favorites, this is sublime writing that makes me long for a time i am too young to have experienced. Utterly gorgeous.

Provinces of Night - William Gay. This was my first William Gay novel and I am slowly making through them all. Southern Gothic with such elegant prose. I want to write like him. A negative review called Gay's work "novels with poems scattered about weak plots" and frankly? that's what i love? so good job you sold me

Microserfs - Douglas Coupland The author of my 20s. His stuff opened me up to fiction about real people with real feelings thinking the things you do in your head. The unbearable loneliness of the human condition and the wondrousness that is friendship. I am not a rereader but ive read this book at least five times. I have no idea if it has aged well, i do not care.

The Chronicles of Amber - Roger Zelazny. Something about this urban? fantasy grabbed me in a chokehold and never let go. I first read this at the beach, paging through dog-eared paperbacks a friend urged me to read. I barely left the deck that week. The traveling into Amber, the walking of the Pattern - these things will never leave me.

Lonesome Dove - Larry McMurtry Look yes it's a western but it's The Western for a reason. Characters that seep into your bones. The image of lightning dancing across a steer's horns remains as vivid as when i read the book 3+ years ago.

Station Eleven - Emily St. John Mandel Something about how this post-pandemic story is paced, something about the stakes of it and how they will differ from any other post-apocalyptic book you've ever read, stuck with me. There was a simple beauty here that I never want to let go of.

Honorable mentions Les Mis, War and Peace, To be Taught if Fortunate, and i feel like i need a separate list for fave fun books? like romance and paranormal romance and ya that i love but dont come close to the above's impact

tagging @purplesigebert im curious! @ninzied cmon wax poetic with me about books @carry-the-sky i almost put the things they carried on here bc you made me read it but i can only do 9 @it-may-be-dull-but-im-determined i just feel like you'd have some cool thoughts and books to share

ok im tagged out

#tag games #fave books

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marcellebelle · 6 months

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20 questions for writers

I was tagged to do this by @isnt-it-pretty , so thank you for that!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

I think 16

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

535,969. Most of that is from my longest fic tbh.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

I actively write for BHNA and FMA. I also have a crossover with Death Note, and have written for Les Mis (crossover) and Naruto too. When I was younger I wrote a fic for Undertale and a couple for Avengers which I've now orphaned since I know I won't be continuing with those fandoms or fics.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Eraserhead - 8153 (BNHA fic)

the tin can man - 3124 (BNHA and FMA crossover/fusion fic)

not the first time (but hopefully the last) - 985 (BNHA fic)

When The Rain Falls - 834 (FMAB fic)

Izuku has a guardian... something and his name is Light Yagami - 810 (Death Note and BNHA crossover)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I do my best to within a couple of days on my actively updating long fic. I try to respond on my other fics too but because those fics aren't at the forefront of my mind sometimes it takes me until the next update to get around to responding.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I would say not the first time (but hopefully the last) since even though the ending is sort of hopeful, it's definitely still angsty.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Probably Eraserhead? It's a crack fic but like All For One retires to become a botanist by the end so I'd say that's a plus.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I actually have done before. When I was eleven on ff.net I wrote a twilight fic and decided that speech marks were too much effort to bother with. Definitely regretted that choice and received some pretty cruel feedback for it. Eleven year old me definitely learned a lesson that day.

Since then I've not really gotten hate hate, but there have definitely been a few comments that have been a little negative about my choice of plot device or something like that which is okay. It's not something I take to heart (and sometimes the advice is good.)

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I've never written smut and tbh I probably never will because I find romantic relationships the hardest to write!

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I write quite a lot of crossovers. In terms of craziest it would have to be the tin can man because that's just become a thing unto it's own.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Same as above!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Never! I'd like to say I'd be open to the idea but tbh I'd probably have a lot of trouble sticking with it as my schedule is all over the place.

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

I think Erasermic just for the comfort.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

When The Rain Falls. I've got so many other projects going on its just fully on the back burner at this point. I would like to finish it so I might just devote a month to writing solely that and get it to some sort of conclusion, but we'll see.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I would probably say characterisation and plotting/world building. I do think my dialogue can be quite good but it depends how invested in the scene I am. I'm definitely better at writing angst than regular conversation.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I don't have a beta reader and I have a tendency to skim read so I know I post chapters with mistakes even after combing through them. Plus I'm impatient, so it'll be little things like words missed out of a sentence that my brain has automatically filled in, in my rush to get it published! I think also I make my sentences too wordy and quite often can't seem to find the right structure. Like I know what I want to say but I can't get it onto the page in the right order.

Also I think my plots can become a bit too unwieldy meaning I have to work very hard to keep up with all my odds and ends of character arcs and plot devices etc. which is also fun!

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I personally wouldn't as I don't want to make a fic less accessible and I don't trust myself to get it right. French is the only other language I have enough understanding in that I probably could muddle my way through finding the correct grammar etc but I don't want my readers having to break out google translate for my fics.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

That would have to be Twilight when I was eleven.

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

the tin can man - a BNHA and FMA crossover. It's everything to me and I've put so much of myself into it. I know I'm going to finish it, even though it is a huge project. I have adhd and anxiety and so projects for me are difficult and even just finishing it would be amazing so I can prove to myself that I can do it!

I'm tagging @alighted-willow @aobawilliams @dumbassrasure @shadowwolfsworld

no pressure to do this! :-)

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ineffable-gallimaufry · 11 months

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Hi there, ive just seen your post about tagging superstition posts (reblog or else it means you must believe this thing, or reblog or this will happen kind of posts) and i hope its alright i have a few questions about that topic, you absolutely do not have to answer if you dont want to though!

Firstly, im sorry to hear that you feel compelled to reblog even when you dont actually want to, i can see how that would be annoying and ive never considered the ocd side of it before like that. I dont have ocd myself, i used to feel a need to reblog some of those posts but not all but i definitely see how the language can be more guilting or persuasive for someone with ocd

My questions are this: i personally view those posts as the tumblr version of chainmail, obviously stupid and just written by the poster to try and get as many shares as possible. What makes it harder for you to seperate the knowledge that if you dont reblog nothing will happen and its just a silly internet post and that its just a scare tactic for more shares, from the feelings of guilt or shame or whatever that makes you feel the need to reblog? What is it about the language thats used in them that can make it harder for you to distinguish logically "this post is dumb written by an internet idiot and means nothing realistically" and "this bad thing will happen to me or be true about me if i dont engage with this post"?

I also wanted to ask, the thing that stopped me feeling bad about some of the times i personally didnt reblog that stuff was an old post that was something along the lines of "this is the dog of protection, you are safe from all of those 'reblog or this' posts forever and are no longer effected by them". I dont remember the exact post but basically another (logically) silly post that did nothing, but gave me internal permission to not feel so guilty about not reblogging. Do you think posts like that would help for you/others with ocd? It really helped me to realise that its all internet nonsense and when i do stumble across a 'reblog or this' type post and feel bad for a moment about not reblogging, i remember the dog post and go 'oh thats right. It does not matter even one bit and isnt even true or real.' and helps me not feel so bad. Im not trying to suggest this as a cure for the guilt of those posts im just wondering if something like that in your opinion would sort of 'unlock' a part of your brain that doesnt care if you dont reblog, and make you feel ok with not reblogging?

Sorry this is very wordy and long, and im sorry too if this is too private of a question for you, as i said you absolutely do not have to answer if you dont want to or dont have the energy to. Ive just never considered the ocd aspect to those type of posts and how they could be recieved but your post about it was very interesting to think about!

Have an awesome day whether you answer this or not i hope something good happens to you today 😊

to answer your first question, a lot of the time there is no logical reasoning behind it for my, it becomes a compulsion. like if i try to scroll past it or anything of the sort, it's like my mind will be convinced that whatever the thing is threatening might actually happen, so i have to reblog it before my family gets cursed/everyone stops being my friend/i lose my chance to be lucky/etc. like i think for a neurotypical person or a person without ocd it may be easy to take a step back and think of it that way, and if you can that's great, but for someone like me it is very hard to rationalize that and even if i could that wouldn't necessarily stop the compulsion

and as for the dog of protection idea, while yet again that could probably work for some it to me is just a) another form of reblog bait that i will end up feeling bad about and also b) something i will probably forget realistically. like i have adhd and i cannot always remember that i have protective things or whatever

so yeah, hope that answered your questions!

#asks answered

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dayurno · 2 years

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okay so listen. about my taylor angst kandreil au. this isn't posted anywhere? i literally only write this for my friend and then we scream about each other's writing in our whatsapp chat. also, and that might be the more pressing issue, it's entirely in german cause, you know, i am german. i only started writing in english when i started writing smut cause ew, can't do that in german, but taylor came before that so. there's that. i am sorry, i would definitely let you read it!!

ALSO thank you SOSOSOSOSO much for those new years day snippets i am going to COMBUST????? this is. so them i wanna SCREAM AND DESTROY SOMETHING preferably myself

on reputation kandrew: i just wrote an entire thing about king of my heart kandrew cause

your love is a secret i'm hoping dreaming dying to keep???

the end of all the endings, my broken bones are mending???

i totally agree on your dress agenda, i have been listening to it nonstop these past few days and this is SO kandrew. may i offer you call it what you want kandrew as well? because:

my castle crumbled over night, i brought a knife to a gunfight, they took the crown but it's alright

loves me like i'm brand new

he built a fire just to keep me warm

all the jokers dressing up as kings, they fade to nothing when i look at him

OKAY this ask got way too long already, so i am stopping now, but i think you get what i mean. my kandrew brainrot is bad, and i adore it.

(one last thing.

my reputation's never been worse so you must like me for me)

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, time to learn german i guess ........... even though i am fundamentally against european languages on every aspect. "dont you speak portuguese" yes, BRAZILIAN portuguese, do not compete where u cant compare!

REPUTATION IS SOOOOOOSOOOSOOOO KANDREW ESP PRE-CANON ive been playing with the idea of a pre-canon long fic for a while now and i was just thinking abt how much reputation would Fit. i feel like it has such a slow romantic pace and has all that tension of liking someone a Lot but not it just being a very chaotic moment all around............ call it what you want specifically imo is just. LIKE IT DESCRIBES KEVINS FALL FROM GRACE SO WELL.. my castle crumbled overnight / i brought a knife to a gun fight / they took the crown but its alright? AND LIKE. AND!!! and i dont know maybe i just got issues but i have a thing about kevin praising andrew. i feel like he is a person whos as quick to scold as he is to praise (seen in: everything he does with neil) but with andrew specifically, when kevin thinks hes done good, andrew will know bc kevin isnt shy about it! so when she says shit like "my baby's fit like a daydream" its like. I DONT KNOWWW HONESTLY but something just clicks in my brain at the thought of kevin feeling that way abt andrew

also i know i know i know..... I want to wear his initial / On a chain round my neck, chain round my neck is not the most healthy thing to say about a man but. i think something i hold dearest to me is the idea that under deals and promises, after all is said and done, what andrew most wants is that the people he puts so much effort into choose to stay with him Willingly u know? not because of coercion or fear or necessity but because they really want to stay w him. and i feel like, for kandrew specifically............... isnt that the biggest thing? kevin being his because he really really really wants to be, and not bc he needs to be. (nicki minaj voice) i got issues yeah bitch i got issues

anyway hehe ahem. my apologies for the just as wordy reply

#kandrew #asks #i could write an essay abt this i fear im insane

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vortexmortis · 6 years

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@livinginghosttown

Abraxas pinpoints the location detailed in Styx’s coordinates and settles into his ships navigation throne. he focuses on the veil separating the two realities and with a single thought, pulls the ship through, leaving nothing but a small distortion in the light of the stars to denote its presence.

he arrives in the orbit of the targeted instance of earth, his ship appearing behind the moon to mask its presence from planet-side onlookers. Once the warp distortion clears, he puts the ship into standby mode and exits through one of the airlocks, opting for a simple subluminal drop to Styx’s location.

#livinginghosttown #action post #(( I hope this isnt too wordy I can get like that sometimes ))

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ask-october-fox · 3 years

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Well well well.. if it isnt the consequences of my own actions. More under the cut!

This is going to be very long so I apologize. So uh...I think its about time I say something about this.. I really thought I wouldnt have to but it seems its about time I come clean about why there is a major lack of ‘actual’ updates from me this year. NGL I thought I could just ignore this and get through this month without much fuss but as the past few days have proven anything, that would be a lie. So to put this bluntly. I am in a lot of pain. And I have been for a while now but its only gotten really bad in the last month. Like everyone else in the world, I have a lot of wrist/hand problems due to my job. About 2 years ago I had gotten a real bad pain in my left elbow and went to the doctor after a couple months to see if something was wrong. The Doctor couldnt really find anything wrong, and sent me home with some meds that really didnt help. Over time the pain came and went and I worked with it, just powering through and getting over it. I have tried just about everything: meds, warm water, cold water, massages, resting, creams/lotions and anything else I could think of. Over time that pain spread to my shoulder and to my wrist and hand. Again, some days werent so bad so I just continued on as normal. This past September was.... rough. After being hit head on by Hurricane Ida and losing power for about a week and pretty much melting in my own house, already killed a lot of my motivation for this blog, but it was when I tried to get back to work things got bad. The pain in my left arm is.... almost unbearable some days. I can usually get about 2-4 hours of work time in before it starts to hurt and anything after that becomes far too distracting and I cant focus. I went to the Doctor on the 2nd of this month and even she seemed confused on what the actual problem might be, so she is sending me to a specialist but the earliest they can see me isnt until the 20th. This has become very... very frustrating. I want to do this blog, I want to answer your questions, but I physically cant. And it pains me more to know that I cant bc this blog ONLY runs for this month, I feel like there isnt much of an excuse for me to not have content for you all. Hence why most of my stuff has been pictures or misc things. The “quick replies” arent too bad since I can usually doodle up a little reaction image in about 10-15 min or reuse past ones, but to do my longer replies it starts to be a little much. Now I also wasnt kidding when I said I was busy too, that part is very true, but this is actually the main reason why there hasnt been a lot of art this year and may not be. Im at my wits end, im not too sure what else to do, and at this point im more just mad at myself for not being better prepared. I DO have things to post and I have some great stuff im excited to share with you all but as far as replies go.. I might be able to do like...1 a week or something. You all come back here each year and I feel so awful to have so little to show you this time around. I know this cant be helped and im sure that people are much more understanding than I keep thinking they are. But its just been weighing on me more and more and just needed to be open about this. I am hoping that next year will be better and that I will be more prepared, but for now... this may be the best I can do. I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for still coming here and keeping me company and enjoying my short time here. You all are the reason I keep coming back too after all! Well this ended up being a bit wordy, huh? Haha~ If you read through all of that, I appreciate it greatly! 🦊🕯

#october #the mod talks

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smol-inventor-bby · 3 years

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the blog is @lavender-lass09 if you want to look at it first. I rp as Yuri in a non-game world with no dating sim existing. It’s a casual rp where Yuri talks about her life and thoughts, and learns about herself. She isn’t obsessed with knives or anything, she just has mental health issues and is undiagnosed (as of now). She does hint at self-harming but is too anxious to say it straight-up, so the subject can be avoided.

It could just be a casual conversation about what Miu does or something. There is more personal info about her on the carrd in the pinned post if you need anything else.

Thanks, I hope this isnt too wordy or long

Nah, it’s all good. I gotta think about it though ^^ Just shoot me an ask every now and then to check in? - Mod Bee

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chatxkilluaxnoir · 4 years

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I Finally Finished My TAU’s 6th Year Tauathon Fic, Yay! I’m So Tired Now. I’m Gonna Take A Break now, after...

I finish proofreading and editing that fic I have been working on for the Transcendence Zine here on tumblr. I hope they are still taking it, I have been working on it periodically while also writing at the Tauathon fic that I have been working on at the same time.

And funnily enough, I actually got that tauathon fic done first. To be fair, my tauathon fic was shorter. It is over 8, 000 words which isn't short, but it still shorter than that other fic I have been working on for the zine. Which I hope isn't too long for a zine. I haven't really participated in a zine before this. I haven't done or/& bought much zine stuff before this.

In my free time, I am for sure gonna be participating in more zines like this, not for just Gravity Falls and TAU, but other fandoms I’m in like HxH/Hunter x Hunter and Undertale to name some (some other favorite things of mine). I'm also gonna be starting to buy some more zines, probably physical, because I prefer I that. Will try being the key word, because of money, but I really want to do that.

But yeah, I haven’t really entered a zine before, so I hope my fic isn't too long for it, and that they are still taking entries. I told them I was entering, but I don't know. I have been busy writing posts, comments, replies, and most importantly fics lately that I haven't really been using tumblr and etc. a lot lately. Including going on the TAU zine’s tumblr.

Mainly in order to not get distracted and get those things done. Including the 2 TAU fics I have been working on. One for the Tauathon and one for the TAU zine. I really wanted to get those 2 fics done before going on tumblr more. And with one of the done (tauathon one), and the other in major editing/proofreading stage (the TAU zine), I have a bit more time to post and do stuff on tumblr and other places. Not much since I have a lot of posts, comments, replies, and etc. to get done, some I have delated too long, eiter out of shyness or being busy that I need to get done as well. And the TAU zine fic that needs finishing and polishing.

The funny thing is that I started that fic before the tauathon zine by quite a bit. But with actually knowing the (kinda) due date of the tauathon fic unlike the zine one (at least last time I checked. Which has been a bit. Crossing my fingers' that my fic isnt too long, and too late to enter into it. I have worked just as hard if not harder on that zine fic as the tauathon one. Which is a lot), and haven't had finished and posted it yet a few days or so that date (Oct. 5th), pushed me to get it done quicker and first. Even though I started it second.

Though, It is also taking me longer to do the zine fic, because it is longer (not by a lot, but it still is), somehow even more complicated (I will admit, both these fics are a bit convoluted. I like my complex stuff. Even though I'm also super insecure if my writing is good enough to handle want to do and write. Its fricken great.), and needs a lot of proof reading and editing to do.

Something that usually takes me just as long as writing the actual fic, if not longer. Since I’m the type of person who just plans and writes in rushes, then edits an grammar, better flow, person and pov, and etc. stuff later on. And the zine fic has a lot more weird, different formatting, povs and 1st/2nd/and/or 3rd person stuff than the tauathon, and all of those things some of the things Im most worried about getting right, consistent, or at least making sense (and being as as readable and well-written as possible).

Honestly, I would probably post more fics, if wasn't for me thinking that I really need to work on those things (as well as sometimes getting too wordy, a bit convoluted, and expositiony/explanationy with stuff. I need to be/do better with that. Need to also work on being even more natural, and also not hurting my readers brains too much or confusing them), and being more nervous about posting stuff partially because of that.

Really, I would have gotten a beta for both my fics, because I would really love the help. But the tauathon fic I just really wanted to get posted for the tauathon, and the fic for the zine, I didn't know if was allowed to let other people look it, even for beta’ing, so yeah. Plus, I didn't really know how to get a beta, at least not as quick as would like for these fics.

Anyways, maybe I should finally check out the TAU discord(s) in general, but also for getting some help and betas, because I would love such things. Also, been meaning to check out TAU discord, but I haven't been able to really use discord for awhile. But yeah, Im for sure gonna be checking it/them/TAU discord(s) out soon, because it will be great. And just want to stuff on discord in general, its been awhile.

Saying all this, Im happy I got the Tauathon fic done. I have a post down below linking it to where I posted it on AO3 if anyone wants to read it. I don’t if I shared that post and my story the right way. I see a lot of people, both posting the fic and liking other places like AO3 or/& Wattpad. But I didn't know if I should do that, or if my fic was too long to do that. So I just shared my AO3 fic here. If you think I should also post the whole fic here, and just link other places instead of (or maybe even as well) doing what I did, please tell me, I would love to know? And it wouldn't even be just for that fic though, it will be for future ones as well.

If you think I should do post the whole fic here and then link it, I will probably make another post then. Probably wont delete the original post though, because that will probably be the easier way for people to just read on AO3, plus I like that post and tags I did for it. Wish me luck on finishing that other TAU fic (for the zine) I have been working on, it is even longer and harder to do than my 1st one. The idea, format, and concept itself is just for the most part my complex, then when you the other stuff, it is even trickier.

I'm also gonna finally be checking out that TAU zine tumblr again to see if I'm not pass the due date. I admit another reason I'm putting that off, is because I feel really nervous if am actually, since I have worked on the fic for it, and think its quite good. This always happens when replying and checking out stuff for me, I sometimes get very nervous, then I feel bad because I sometimes take awhile to do such things, I have kept people waiting for awhile, which I'm definitely not doing on purpose, but I still do. Though, stuff also takes me awhile, usually because it is long and want to be really good, but still.

So yeah, I should take a break after finishing that fic, and posting something on AO3 for the 1st time, but Im not since I still have that other TAU fic to finish, which I am gonna finish, it has already been long enough. Once I'm done with it though, I'm finally taking a break, because I am really tired. This has taken a lot of energy out of me, esp. with my need to do always do stuff long and try to do it as good as possible at the time.

Alright done posting for awhile, at least until I finish my other fic, and take a break. Though, I might do some reblogs, likes, and etc. in the meantime while finishing up that fic. Though, when I say no breaks and other stuff till I get that fic done, I will probably still read some fics, watch some videos, and make some other comments/replies, because I need more variety, and I need some breaks intermittently, even if not full-on ones, because I need some kind of small breaks.

I will probably keep on writing that fic while doing most of those things, because I like to do things in long bursts, because if I don't it can be hard to finish stuff even if I want to, so yeah. Anyways, see you everyone, this was a nice and like most of all my stuff long, talk!

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don't you think you could find some sexy problematic characters somewhere else though instead of indirectly condoning and supporting Said Fetish Game? like okay yeah, i understand why you draw it now but.. um. the source material doesn't change. it's still a literal uwu thats sexy game about r/pe and abuse. it's mad disrespectful to survivors & just victims of shit like that in general. and if you can't realize that, then that's YOUR problem. and the only reason i'm saying anything, to clarify, is because i had started looking up to you. as a minor to an adult i thought you were really cool & damn you hated tbatf too but liked tomtord and didn't portray it in an abusive light, yk? and i talked to you and you were really nice. but im literally guffawed and disgusted rn. it's not.. okay? you're a wholeass /adult./ shouldn't you know better than like.. indirectly supporting a fetish game that is making a kink out of something that fucks people up.

Okay I'm putting this under a read more bc I get wordy

Also hoping this posts bc I'm at work,,,,, and if it doesn't post I'm tossing my phone into the deepfryer

(and late responses bc again I'm at work I'm sorry)

Okay double edit I don't know how to use tumblr mobile so I can't put a read more, I'm illiterate and I'm sorry, I'll fix it when I'm home

Ok anon I see where you're coming from and I get why you're upset

But like I'm not sitting well with the fact that you're just sort of assuming the kind of person I am/my status as a victim

I could understand the outrage if i were super into it/put a bunch btd on main but like,,,,, that's one piece of fanart (and I think I reblogged smth somewhere but that's buried by now)

Another thing is that the source material itself isnt directly romanticized/fetishized, that's the just the vast majority of people who consume whether the games were made for them or not

I mean I'm pretty obviously one of those people who like the thrill/shock factor and not the idea of having those things done to me/others but I digress

But what it comes down to is your comfort

Btd probably isnt going to be something on this blog again minus that goretober prompt, if I wanted to post more on it I'd make a side blog and moderate who follows it

If its affecting you that you need to unfollow me I get it

I'm not gonna chastise or witch hunt someone bc they unfollow me for something justified

#anon #asks #long post

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Glitchedpuppet/Glip/Purplekecleon and Lexy Eevee are on Mastodon

https://awoo.space/@glip // screenshot

https://mastodon.social/@eevee // screenshot

Warnings for child sexual abuse, CSA, pedophilia

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its time for me to talk about these people. eevee has been on mastodon.social for awhile now and glip just joined awoo.space. i thought for awhile people were not aware of any sort of claims against eevee or who they were affiliated with, but ive begun to realize that in fact no. people are actually aware of the claims, theyre just only hearing eevee's side of it because of his place in the tech community. im fed up fediverse. ive lost countless friends and communities for this, so even though i hate having to be the one to do it, here it comes regardless.

this thread will compile verifiable evidence (aka "not screenshots"). i am not going to speak on the current legal allegations which may never be confirmed/denied, only actions which are archived and shouldnt be overlooked when considering their involvement in our community. i will not be speaking on the issue with marl. marl stayed behind the scenes, i suspect theres a reason for it but that can only be speculation on my part. marl is not on mastodon so im focusing on eevee and glip right now.

to preface this i feel the need to remind everyone that these people have following and support. this is probably self evident but im not just trying to throw anyone under the bus because i dont like them. eevee is a moderately well known programmer/website host and glip is a successful artist. both of them have been around online for a long time, so personally im not gonna hear that theyre the sole victims of 4chan smear campaign. this is the result of long term bad behaviour.

im not here to laugh at these people. i dont think theres anything funny about this situation. i am being as wordy as possible because i see these people being wordy as hell to cover it up too. if youre willing to read their paragraph long posts on patreon pleading for acceptance on behalf of their "poor cute oddball family," you can read this too.

im a completely uninvolved party, but i think they pose a real threat. the extent of my involvement is that i was a fan of glip when they were known as PK (okay bear with me i am bad at numbers/time but i think i was aged 14-15 or something probably), i was not involved in PMD-E and i didnt go to their servers. later i found their porn blog, by then i was around 18-19 at the time i think, so i just wrote it off as "gross," because while im not a fan of porn in the first place i especially think its uncomfortable to see it with childhood based characters. its one of those things i wouldnt have thought about as a minor but i began to realize as i aged. whatever, anyways.

it was only after i stopped following them that i discovered what was going on. so this isnt any kind of grudge, i assure you. i will refer the kiwifarms thread but i took no part in it. ive never met or talked to these people and i never will. also before you suggest it, no im really not going to try to talk to them. countless people have tried to talk to them. i have read many of their posts and claims. i do not trust them. i am staying the fuck away from them.

i know people are invariably going to say to me "well kiwifarms dug this up so you cant trust it!" and to a degree i get it. i do not support kiwifarms for their harassment and mob mentality in general. they are hugely homophobic/transphobic and if it were not for the "funny drama" i think they would have ignored the fact that glip drew child porn as well because they dont give a fuck about lolicon/shotacon.

but i am not going to throw information under the bus just because of where it came from, these people are riding on the hope that people wont be willing to dig through tons of information from kiwifarms to uncover what theyve done. people NEED to pay attention to this if theyre going to have these people in their circles. the admins of awoo.space and mastodon.social are to be held responsible for giving these people platform. these people cannot undo the harm which they've willfully perpetuated, no amount of apologies can ever make up for this. get them out of our spaces.

this thread will not be a complete example of their behaviours by any means and i do believe the kiwifarms thread has a lot of it which should be looked at and accounted for when judging this. i believe they have been a danger to children on the internet for a long time in more ways than one. i think it started as smug/dramatic deviantArt personalities and grew into something hideous. there are accounts of them harassing and making fun of other artists and children (and i still see them doing it), but i am focusing on the more immediately harmful stuff.

finally i would like to remind people that this entire group of people has stuck together through these allegations, for that reason i feel we shouldnt overlook eevee’s actions for glip’s, or glip’s actions for marl’s. theyre all aware of whats going on and this is only going to give them more leeway when being faced with these serious problems. they’re going to rely on each other for as long as they can slide by doing that.

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eevee defending ownership of child porn- SCREENSHOT (including just because its easier to read): https://kiwifarms.net/attachments/eevee-defend-jpg.38156/

ARCHIVES (for confirmation): http://tweetsave.com/eevee/status/244965411521708032 http://tweetsave.com/eevee/status/244966006211092480 http://tweetsave.com/eevee/status/244976970209837056 http://tweetsave.com/eevee/status/244978882191695872 http://tweetsave.com/eevee/status/244985791657426946 http://tweetsave.com/eevee/status/244990121911414784 http://tweetsave.com/eevee/status/244993723384078336

eevee in response to someone talking about their actual, real CSA says he wishes that was him (its 10 years old but shouldnt be thrown aside)- ARCHIVES: https://archive.is/5JTEL#selection-2833.0-2833.57

glip's collection of child porn which she drew herself of her own characters (yes these ones are screenshots hosted on kiwifarms but you cant fake that much art)- THREAD LINK: https://kiwifarms.is/threads/melanie-herring-purplekecleon-pk-papayakitty-glitchedpuppet-floraverse-forbidden-flora.5567/page-514#post-2411146

ARCHIVES: http://oresund4.rssing.com/chan-3345726/all_p11.html

glip includes a ball gag as an accessory in a deviantArt roleplay game (PMD-E) she and the group hosted which was knowingly comprised of mostly children- ARCHIVE: https://comments.deviantart.com/1/290954538/2461459333?offset=0#comments // archive

glip also then took the ideas of that project and turned it into a physical doujin to sell, note some of these are the same characters those children interacted with in the ARPG and she still continues to include children in the stories themselves: ARCHIVE (page is SFW but comes from a doujin she published): https://archive.is/3ObC1#selection-435.8-435.19

here's her character from PMD-E having sex with a child- ARCHIVE !!!VIEW WITH EXTREME CAUTION!!!: https://archive.is/YlCzT

more "dubious age" character porn LINK WITH ARCHIVES INSIDE !!!VIEW WITH EXTREME CAUTION!!!: https://kiwifarms.is/threads/melanie-herring-purplekecleon-pk-papayakitty-glitchedpuppet-floraverse-forbidden-flora.5567/page-515#post-2411705

she tags her own porn with shotacon- LINK WITH ARCHIVES INSIDE: https://kiwifarms.is/threads/melanie-herring-purplekecleon-pk-papayakitty-glitchedpuppet-floraverse-forbidden-flora.5567/page-515#post-2411899

she even contributes to a cub porn/shotacon magazine, credited as 'papaya kitty': ARCHIVES !!!VIEW WITH EXTREME CAUTION!!!: https://archive.fo/jaHzt https://archive.fo/IczP7

HERES ANOTHER POST I FOUND WHICH OUTLINES SOME MORE QUESTIONABLE SHIT AS WELL:

https://bestofglitchedpuppet.tumblr.com/post/162852252909/callout-glitchedpuppet

#purplekecleon #glitchedpuppet #glip #eevee #floraverse

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lordkassgnome · 6 years

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oh wow! quite few people have asked to hear more about my untitled meridell plot sequel (im working on a name i cant just keep calling it ‘kass redemption arc’ bc its lisha’s story too!) thank you guys so much ;_>;

unfortunately the sketchbook i have all my concepts/roughs in is back in my hometown LOL.... T_>T if i had it with me i’d share the whole thing but... i have a few doodle tidbits i can post in a couple days (ive been busy, parents visiting this week!) and until then i can shove the general gist under a cut here, haha:

so the major key points i had figured out were:

the plot existed as a counterpoint to the Battle for Meridell plot. it gave us insight on lisha’s perspective, who was a neutral party to the politics involved in the conflict, and it dealt with her coming to grips with the reality of what started out as a fantasy-come-true for her. it’s told mainly through kass’s PoV, though. he is Very Tired.

from here, we get a view of the Meridell-Darigan conflict that is much more skewed towards the cidadel: rather than Kass being just a power-hungry tyrant on a war path, it paints him as a flawed but righteous-intentioned radical-leaning leader who feared aggression from the much bigger and well-off kingdom of Meridell. the actions we viewed in the initial Battle plot are kind of a “history as told by the victors” lens.

god, im sorry, my tastes are so longwinded and boring LOL. here is my fantasy political novel as told through neopets NPCs, hope you didnt expect anything fun.

well at any rate--lisha’s impetus at the beginning of the plot is a little mysterious. obviously, she is a bright girl with a strong sense of justice, so it isnt out of character for her to have realized that Meridell is not as pure as it seems, but as we progress it becomes clear that she has a strong personal stake in the outside of that. she of course doesnt trust kass enough to tell him at first, but it’s there.

about halfway through, as the two build up a fairly mutual relationship (kass lowkey adores lisha as he gets to know her. shes young and smart and full of drive, he wants only the best for her. fierce protectiveness.) she confides something big to him:

skarrl wants jeran to be the one who executes kass. it was never a fair trial to begin with.

this is getting long, but the idea is that jeran has kind of just become a symbol for meridell at this point. lisha’s lost her brother as he’s been turned into a ‘hero for the kingdom.’ and that, in itself, is a little symbolic for her relationship with meridell entirely.

this is so wordy and i am so sorry to everyone. thank you for reading thus far.

#neopets #neotag #lord kass #lisha (neopets)#im thinking of calling it #battle for darigan au #to properly set it up as a mirror for the other plot #mostly the whole thing takes place in court and in between court sessions. fun.#i think too much about games for children on the internet 2k18

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