#i am a person

[whumpanthems]

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#whumpblr #songs #whump community #whump blog #whump song #music blog #music whump #whumpanthems #whumpee #whump #whump tropes #blog intro #not a bot #i am a person #or am I? #kidding I am a human...unlesss?? #no I am a human no worries #spotify #soundcloud #youtube #musicblr #no clean versions so beware of that #themes vary #listen at your own risk #read at your own risk #whump scenario #whump prompt #songs are fun to get things going #and to just listen to while reading #music and whump are just cool to me...

[deans-baby-momma]

I wish I mattered.

#not SPN #personal #i am a person

[incarnateirony]

Ok so say you’re right and cas is in the last episode and deans in full gay love. What do you think are the chances we get a destiel kiss 🥲

First. Stop. Stop pinning your stupid projection bullshit into your questions. Ask honestly or don't ask. I am right. It is real. It is happening, whether you believe it or not, whether you want it or not, whether you're listening yet or not. We're going to put that down, right fucking here. Your doubts are your own personal mental health issues to face, if you stare at the truth and are still unable to see or pursue it or put it in realistic context.

Now to answer your question: Until episode seven, I was saying I wasn't clear what Jensen's final shape of it was beyond verbalization. I knew Jensen fell into the dumpster 15.18, hence people prepping pitches to send him to begin with, because they knew he couldn't let go, he couldn't move on, dean's story wasn't done, and he was sorry about the ending of Castiel, they tried to give it to you, he was deeply sorry and understood it now more personally beyond just "let's do it to make fans happy." He was just as haunted as we fucking were, hence the long silence, barely engaging the finale for months, staying on the 15.18 track, and more.

OK. So let's square that: It is romantic. Period. It is revisiting The Trap/The Truth AND Lazarus Rising. Period. You're going to process that and accept that before you ask me any more questions from doubt. Because you either believe what I say or you don't, and I'm not here to be a distraction from the monsters inside your own head.

After episode 7 though? They showed us exactly what it looks like. That's. Why Reflections guys. That's why Trap lyrics everywhere. That's why All The Things. So yeah. What's it going to look like? It's going to look like The Truth overriding Despair and not running from your confused fears and miscommunications and johnmary 1x7, what else does anyone fuckin' want us to say?

Learn 2 watch tv. It's why Roxxy even exists. It's why Queen narrative. Why emphasis on unreliable narrator and pursiuing truths. It's why it's about a Bond, The World, why it's romance stamped, why it's Reflections, it's just why. It's why the entire fucking thing was made, and your doubt does not change Jensen's motivations, or the people who sent him ideas.

but just like robbie, I'm a person, not a content dispenser. I'm out here living my best life looking at paradise around the corner and people feel entitled to be like "well I mean I don't REALLY believe you but PRETENDING I DO, ANSWER MY QUESTION" is the definition of headass narcissism. You believe or you don't. If you don't believe me, don't ask. If you're uncertain, don't append a caveat from the person you're looking from the clarity from that makes your ask hostile. This is the exact mindset that fucked half this fandom into the WAY this is gonna shape out. Even hellers have shit coming for them.

#i am a person #robbie is a person #jensen is a person #bobo is a person #they were always people #they always had perspectives #the fandom did not care to listen #just project their arguments over them #now robbie's declaring revenge #and people are pretending nothing's gonna change #no #you fucked with him and his friends for years #all of you #mostly antis #but even shippers #and your punishments and scoldings will be proportionate #if you feel called out by the show at any point #good #you're finally listening #we all have complicated lives and stories #you don't know all of it #and very few of you cared to ask #or read when handed it #or accept it #but we're not empty husks without perspective or dreams of our own #robbie et al's perspective and the truth matters #it's what's determining the end #the end

[performativezippers]

I really hope you did not bail on continuing the dandelion Inn. That would break my heart a little. As long as I know you will continue/finish it eventually I can wait (very impatiently but still..).

Okay so typically I don't respond to things like this, but ignoring the last few I've gotten here and on twitter obviously hasn't worked, so here we go.

Yeah, don't do this.

You're trying to be funny, but this is a not-at-all-veiled "NEXT CHAPTER WHEN, WRITE MORE." And just...no.

You—and by "you" I mean the group of y'all that send comments like this to me and others, not this anon specifically because I don't know you—obviously mean for this to inspire me to write faster, but what this actually does is piss me off and make me work on something else. Why? Because it's not kind, it treats me like a production machine instead of a person, and it, frankly, makes you seem like an ungrateful asshole. Sorry! But true.

I find that people who write these comments typically—and I literally don't know who you are so idk in this situation—aren't the ones leaving long, detailed, enthusiastic comments on every chapter on every reread. Not the ones earnestly and consistently reblogging and retweeting and writing thoughtful commentary or even excited tags. You come off as an unengaged and ungrateful reader who will leave kudos but nothing else, and two days after I post will be saying "when is the next oneeeee" which is so frustrating.

I spend hours on these chapters. Literal hours of my life. If you want the next one so badly (and to be clear, I'm glad that you do), write me a long ass comment or ask about what you loved in the last chapter and what you're excited to see in the next. That motivates the shit out of me. That makes me happy and excited to write what's next.

This morning I woke up early with the intention of going into the office and working on Dandelion until my first meeting. But instead, I'm writing this. We all lose, basically. I am way less interested in writing it this morning than I was 30 minutes ago. And that sucks! I love writing, I love writing this fic, and I love being engaged with y'all. You just need to treat me like a person and understand that this "write faster, gimme" bs does not work. I don't know anyone this works for, so honestly, just stop it.

Next time you're desperate for another chapter of one of your favorite fics, try this: "Hey, I just reread [x fic] for the [6th] time because I'm obsessed!! My favorite part of this chapter is when [character] said [quote from fic]. I couldn't stop [laughing and my grandma thought I was dying]. Last night I couldn't sleep thinking about what will happen when [character] finds out [secret]. I'm not sure if she's going to [reaction A] or [reaction B] but mostly I just want them to KISS [IN THE RAIN]!!! I love you forever and ever, byeeeee"

And just in case this hasn't landed, here's another way to put it. If you are not in the following situation, I literally do not want to hear your thoughts on how quickly I write. If you're doing all of this, I welcome your feedback on my pace of fic output:

Drafting an original novel

Revising an original novel that is honestly your very best hope of being published and that is about to be sent to publishers

Watching as your second novel, Firefly, one of your loves, slowly dies in the hands of publishers, meaning that your agent, who you have worked with for over 2 years now, has still not made a single fucking penny off of you, and might drop you as a client

Celebrating your wife's birthday and generally spending time with her because you love her and value your relationship with her

Working on a long fic with a partner that you really care about and have a deadline for

Working a day job that is so intense and stressful you literally spent 5 hours the other weekend (on your writing day) ensuring that a student didn't do something to themself. Sorry I couldn't work on Dandelion that day, I need to make sure this person did not die.

Having a chronic, persistent, and ultimately probably terminal disease that makes you so exhausted sometimes you can't lift your head up after a work day

*insert gif I can't find of Lucy saying thanks for playing!*

Like I said, I hate doing this, I hate writing this, I hate responding to this, but ignoring hasn't worked, so here we are. Please don't make me say it again.

#ettiquette #fic comments #don't be a jerk #i am a person #let's never have to have this conversation again please

[fefeisadorbs]

i am a person, not a puzzle

(random art wip lol)

#actually autistic #fuck autism speaks #Autism speaks doesn't speak for me #art #art wip #i am a person #Not a puzzle

[spoofymcgee]

i am tired of being nice. i do want to go apeshit.

#day in and day out i am nice and friendly and diplomatic and polite #and i'm so fucking done with it #i'm tired to looking like someone who agrees with your stupid fucking homophobic opinions #i'm tired of my first thought being 'oh wait but look at it from her perspective ' #i'm tired of being fucking pg 13 #i am a PERSON #i am three words away from not being appropriate for your nine year old #'non standard family dynamics'. 'you get what i mean #dont you?' #no i fukcing don't maam #i am queer as fuck #i am listening to the indigo girls as you talk #i will. hopefully. have a nonstandard family dynamics someday soon. so fuck off and leave me alone #i just. i am so fucking tired. #rant #spoof.txt

[worstqueerbaittournament]

I’ve said it before and I will say it again. Please don’t send your submissions mutltiple times. I will get to you! Be patient, I’m begging

#im keeping the list updated #keeping an eye on comments and reblogs on the polls #keeping an eye on which polls are ending #and ALSO #I HAVE A LIFE #I AM A PERSON #no need to be rude #especially when its only been a few minutes...

[b0rderlinecompulsivenervosa]

my baby dolls who exist , now , , motherless and abandoned

yes, i agree. there are families of hope.

our family lives in the trenches of some terrible mind

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my sister is imaginary but she looks at me and doesn't see a girl. she sees a human being who cries within her past. this past is one of the inescapable demands of artificial perfection. Growing up not as human, but as a machine. i imagine its own forgotten beatings to a young girls self-esteem.

see her tremble

just look at her as a human being

a human being who feels

i feel too.

doesnt that matter?

or shall i continue to simply compute and mend ?

#bcn writes shitty poems #bcn writes #poem #poetry #freeverse #daughter #mother #mommy issues #human #i am a person

[bosjess]

The guy I had been seeing a bit told me he’s not looking for other dates right now (and at this point we had been ok with no exclusivity so it’s fine) but then goes “in a couple of months when I’m done with work I’ll be on the apps” and I’m like ??????

we discussed that we were trying to take this to somewhere serious and check in (in like a month?) so completely antithetical to that unless like he has already made up his mind to not see me anymore, knowing what I want and what we discussed, just revealed it and still had invited me over to stay anyway (so used me for sex I guess?)

I’m so tired and feel sick so I would be more upset but Jesus Christ

#I literally despise casual dating #I feel like a sex doll #and I hate casual intimacy too now #casual intimacy is a fucking oxymoron honestly #but it feels so hollow and meaningless and fake #you’re a warm body #these people are like reptiles on warm rocks #yet I’ve been terrified of being honest and communicating each time #because I don’t want to be difficult or unreasonable #fuck that #life is short #to me that means trying to explore real intimacy or a real connection #I guess for others that means sex #or it means never being vulnerable #I am a person #I am like many people a monogamous person when it gets to that #I’m fucking tired of feeling like a body #yeah update dumb past me he cannot see a relationship with you but he has feelings for you but now he’s ignoring you again #where’s that it will end in tears jacket

[isnotanoctopus]

Schedules? Algorithms? Trends? Hashtags? 24/7 posting? Constant engagement? Turning myself into a brand? Pushing myself down people's throats?

Maybe the church was right and technology rlly does have demons in it.

#calas art tag. #''give your brand lots of personality!!'' brands do not have personalities #i am a Person #i am not a Brand #shut the fuck u--

[aristidemakricosta]

the way i will be feeling so awful & negative & stuck and then i watch a shakespeare production and. fixed! i remember how to feel things & how to be creative & how to use my own agency. i'm all better now.

#i watched an rsc production of titus andronicus and suddenly i'm like #oh yeah #i AM human #i AM a person #shakespeare #my adventures

[mnemo-li]

guess who just graduated her MSc with an upper-second class honors 😉

#me #i was upset about my grades at first but then i realized that i did fine. it’s a worthy accomplishment. i shouldnt be so harsh on myself #and even if i didnt do fine then there’s no reason for me to tie my sef worth to my accomplishments anyway #i am more than my accomplishments #i am a person #my ability to love and dream and create is just as worthy as whatever materialistic accomplishments i idealize

[acearorobot]

I am a person who does person things, like drink water. I love drinking water, hydration is great. Yum.

#i am a person #not a robot #water

[the-stud-muffin-henry-clay]

Wow, look at me. I am really doing a good job at this whole, convincing Tumblr I am person thing.

#I am a human #I am a person #Human person #Good for me

[etakeh]

#humans #population #Robert Evans #I am not a ZPG person necessarily #but I do like the idea of taking care of the people we have before we worry about adding more #but rich people have other priorities #Elon musk

[lazylittledragon]

can't believe we're all adults being forced into the club penguin level of censorship in 2024

#ramble #if you say unalive in front of me i will personally kill you with my hands #you just can't muffle and censor and hold someone's hand through some things #some things are horrible. and they should be spoken aloud and they should upset you. because they are horrible #the second we started kidzbopifying the world was the end of taking anything seriously i think #i'm not even joking i've spoken to people older than me who won't even say the world sex #this isn't the playground you're not going to get in trouble just let us say the word!!!!!! #how am i supposed to listen to you when you won't even say the thing you're supposed to be talking about #yes this is the fault of the platforms with their censorship rules but the fact that we all just go along with it like it's not dystopian #you do know it doesn't stop with cursing right. people are already having to censor queer terms because they get flagged as inappropriate