#i am impatient i want to work on them now! i dont need to do mods on them and they have simpler clothes than moshang!

[quilleth]

I need to look into how difficult hybriding sooms are with their weird neck parts because I saw a couple old heads for sale that I think could work for Faolan (if I dyed them a light tan, which honestly I like dying things. The closest I get to being a mad scientist after soap making xD). I hadn't really looked into soom too much because most of the ones I've seen second hand are full dolls and the bodies don't really work for him/ the scale I want for Vanora (also I'm cheap and don't want to pay that much for a second hand doll lol). But the head sculpts I think have a similar sort of aesthetic to dream valley compared to some of the other companies I've been looking at.

That would mean possibly breaking my "wait until her head gets here in case you decide it won't work" self imposed buying ban, buuut...I already paid her head off. I might as well try my best to make it work. Which I guess means I'm just going to end up with a collection of 1/3 scale dolls, whoops

#quill's bjd adventures #i could wait and just watch the listings. one of them has been up for a while at least #but her head probably won't be here until may or june :/ so like...i could get his now. or wait and hope its still there #and if not try to figure something else out :/ #i am impatient i want to work on them now! i dont need to do mods on them and they have simpler clothes than moshang! #but nooo i am doomed to wait because of pesky things like production times for pre-orders lol #im going to try to figure out some kind of face up mock up for vanora in csp at least #maybe that will help #once i figure out blending mods and what brushes to use

[writingzen]

Can you do headcannon of the type of boyfriend yunho ateez is

Like what type of kisser

Type of bf

Type of hugger

Type of comfort

YUNHO BOYFRIEND HC ♡‧ ⁺彡

✧ Summary- just some hc about Yunho in a relationship

✧ Warnings- nothing really suggestive stuff, stuff about crying, arguing

✧ A/N- Hope you enjoy! :) I am also working on a beach jaehyun writing from a request as well so look forward to that one !💕 (not really proof read)

Type of hugger- definitely a bear hug type of person. Like fully embraces you in his arms. Even if it’s supposed to be a quick hug, though it’s never just a quick hug. Hugging yunho means sitting in his arms for a while, obviously not all the times, but he loves those moment, where you just sit in silence in his arms. He loves hugs, especially back hugs. He might get shy in front of his members, but expect a lot when alone.

Arguments- he hates arguing with you, espeically because everything about you brings him comfort so when an argument happens he wants to fix it as soon as possible. He does tend to get petty but hes careful. He knows when to not take it too far, even if you do. If it’s a huge argument, he’ll need some time and after some thinking he’ll talk. You guys will talk out your problems and he’ll be understanding of both sides. He’ll most likely apologize first, even if its not his fault. (Esp if you are crying. He absolutly hates seeing you cry. He softens and tries to apologize almost immediately) and then you’ll apologize and problem solved. You’ll cuddle, maybe watch a movie and he’ll remind you how much he loves you.

Type of comfort- I feel like when comforting you, he’ll let you feel the emotions you are feeling. He hates when you hide and bottle up your emotions. So instead of “don’t cry its okay” hes more of a “its okay, cry it out. Im right here” he’ll hold you and every now and then wipe your cheeks while just letting you rant. Yes he doesn’t understand a word thats coming from your mouth, but he’ll hear it later. And if explaining makes it worse he’ll pull you closer and softly whisper “shhh, its okay, don’t explain” and with no judgement, just let’s you cry your heart out. Then when you’re ready, he’ll listen. And if you dont want to talk about it, as long as you don’t bottle up your feelings, you don’t have to say a word. “I love you okay. As long as you are okay, then I am too” and cuddle you as long as you want :)

Type of kisser- it kind of depends on his mood honestly, but I see him as a slow passionate kisser. Taking it slowly and feeling everything. Feeling the warm feeling that connects your lips and the way you sit on his lap while his hands roam your body. He loves everything about those slow kisses. He’s a big fan of those lazy kisses in the morning too. He likes to savor those moments. But when he’s in the mood he can quickly get Into those quick sloppy kisses, still liking the feeling of kissing but more impatient. It’s addicting either way. (He can also be a pecker but a pecker that keeps it there for more then a second or two)

HCS-

-he’s the type to love everything about you

-like your a goddess to him

-he’ll have those time where he just stares at you wondering how did he get so lucky

-and when you catch him staring at you, he just smile or smirk

-he’ll literally worship the group you walk on

-compliments and praise always leave his mouth when you’re around

-always keeping an eye on you

-always wanting to keep you safe-protective yunho is hot!

-he’s the type that would keep a hand on your lower back

-I also see him as the type to always kiss your hands and hold them 24/7

-I feel like he also doesn’t know his own strength

-like he’ll accidentally manhandle you

-moving you around and sitting you on his lap ;)

-he loves the fact that he’s taller and bigger then you. He’ll compare hand sizes, pat your head, put stuff on the top shelf so he can get it for you, etc. He just loves everything about it

-because of the fact that he loves everything about you, he knows you like the back of his hand.

-he knows all your likes and dislikes, how to treat you when you are sick, when you’re sad, habits you have etc

-at the end of the day YUNHO IS THE BEST

#ateez reactions #ateez smut #ateez reaction #ateez au #ateez smau #ateez headcanons #ateez soft hours #ateez hard hours #ateez yunho #jeong yunho smut #yunho imagines #yunho x reader #yunho smut #yunho headcanon #yunho fanfic #choi san smut #wooyoung smut #hoongjoong

[wildcatfourteen]

how do you come up with such interesting composition? your pieces are always so captivating 💗

thank youuuuuuuuuu <33 and the truth is. idk. i am kinda just winging it and making a lot of adjustments as i go.... im not very orderly about it and have my thoughts kinda all over the place. heres some examples under the cut w what process pics i could find

direction process goes >>>

first did a pencil sketch for big shapes. was just placing stuff down. i wanted to make ref sheets for an art trade but didnt want to make a traditional type bc i hate drawing ppl standing full body (bc im bad at it 👍) also i did not have specific outfits in mind and was going more for a reference of the general vibe of the characters, so i just wanted a full body pose + face close up. to avoid having to show specific details. bc i was cheating. was originally going to have multiple text bubbles around for the character facts

did like two sketches digitally. messed around a LOT with placement. the little emote heads came out of me feeling like it was empty and boring on its own and they are fun to draw so why not include them. the multiple text bubbles seemed like a bad idea now so i took them out and just did one text wall.

i actually dont like the text wall now and think breaking it up wouldve been more fun visually but that would've required effort i didnt wanna put in LOL

^ i lost the pencil sketch for this one (i always do a pencil sketch) but it was actually just the two half body drawings at first with none of that shit at the bottom or the close ups until i was like fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk i gotta add smth around to make this look like theres stuff happening..... the idea was to draw the two main characters of the labb novel in some kinda comic format w panels around and i then. kept adding things until it seemed like i was getting somewhere. thats kind of my process for everything TT i think it helps to stay in a workshopping stage for longer if needed to get somewhere but i often get impatient LOL

im putting a stupid note abt this here bc im still annoyed at myself but in this novel, there was a bit about a crossword puzzle related to a murder case and i only thought of it afterwards that it would be kinda cool to put the sugar cubes in like a crossword puzzle formation....... why didnt i do that......

^ and heres some of the process for this one, but i lost a LOT of the steps for this. the beginning was totally different. the character wasnt as pathetic and scared looking at first but then i was like uhhhhh lets draw him that way :)

the first pencil draft was from a different perspective and it was gonna have a mirror composition to it kinda? but i wasn't able to make that look appealing so i deleted it. it still had the curtains tho but then i also included stuff with framed mirrors + other frames around

i decided to instead make the curtains be the focus of the whole piece to not make it so cluttered. character's pose was so different at first it was so bad i dont even wanna remember it. i took out the frames entirely bc i didnt think they added much to the piece in terms of the atmosphere. since like. the more i worked on it w the character's + the goat's expressions the more it gave a 'being hunted' feeling to it and portrait frames dont fit that vibe. which feels funny bc u look at it and thats all u can think abt but i wasnt even gunning for that when starting out. BE FLEXIBLE. TRUST THE PROCESS.

#asks

[sanzuballs]

getting needy/teasing when hes around a friend

ft: law, luffy, zoro, sanji || fluffy suggestiveness

hi im back again! i am on wc island, heartbreaking. idk how tumblr works but i would love to recieve requests and everything! i also apologize for any grammar or spelling errors. i barely proofread and my autocorrect is always off lol n i do shit LATE at night. anyways time to get into it! ALSO (late) HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

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law :

nahh he dont put up with that. while him and a one of his crewmates talked, you decided to cause some michief. you sat next to him and tugged on his shirt, kissed his cheek, and even pouted and whined. he ignored you. he wasnt going to let you have your way. the only thing he could think about is how annoyingly needy you are and how wet you probably were right now. but once his crewmate started giving glances to your short skirt that started riding up your thighs, he picked you up bridal style. he carried you to his bedroom. you whined as he started to take your clothes off.

“lawww, why did you have to ignore me?” you whine as your tits were on display.

“i dont tolerate dumb sluts that just wann get fucked all the time,” he takes your panties off and watches as your slick sticked to your tiny panties. “this is gonna teach you a lesson dumb baby. dont hold back your moans, i want everyone to know just how much of a slut you are for me, and me only.”

luffy :

its a beautiful day on the thousand sunny, ussop and luffy were out trying to catch some fish but ussop was slowly falling asleep. sadly, theres a heat between your legs that only your boyfriend could put out. he has been catching sea kings all day so he was a bit exhausted. you first decided to sit on his lap.

“ha, whats this about y/n?” he smiles at you. ussop bats a eye to you and luffy’s convo.

“i need you luffy.”you whisper into his ear. you pout at him and you press your heat on his thigh. he could feel the slick of your pussy through your panties. he wraps hims noodly arms around you.

“alright then. goodbye ussop!” he grabs you and gives you a piggyback ride to his room.

“im sorry i didnt mean to interrupt you.” you said as he pulled your panties off and flipped up the skirt you had on.

“‘s okay baby.” he smiles as he trails wet kisses up your thighs.

zoro:

god bless his impatient heart. and god bless your bratty heart…

it was probably the most boring day ever on earth for the straw hat pirates. you were drifting on sea to the next island but it was a long wait. zoro decided to snag some booze from the fridge and sanji was there, sharping his knives. but ofcourse you had to follow your boyfriend into the kitchen. while riding on his back, ofcourse.

“y/n! do you want something, ive got some time on my hands!” sanji says. zoro doesnt really mind because he knows how sanji is. and he knows your his. you smile at sanji.

“a martini please! thanks sanji!” you say. he whips one right up and zoro waits patiently to drink with you. them sanji hands you a beautiful martini.

“ro’ i want you to pour it in my mouth.” you look up at him and you mix your drink around and suck the straw.

“y/n,” he says sternly. “why are you like this.”

“c’mon please!?” sanji takes a quick glance and eyebrow bat to zoro.

“a lady should get what she wants.” sanji says.

“im glad someone in this room knows how to treat a woman.” you taunt your boyfriend. he obviously knew you to treat you well but seeing him mad is too good to miss. zoro takes the martini.

“open up.” zoro says. he then pours the liquid all over your thin shirt, revealing your lacy bra.

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i was gonna write for ace too BUT IDK BRO I DONT THINK I PHYSICALLY CAN BC I DONT THINK HES ALL THAT.

#one piece x you #zoro roronoa x you #smut oneshot #law x you #law smut #sanji vinsmoke smut #zoro smut #trafalgar one piece #trafalgar law #anime #luffy fluff #luffy x you #zoro fluff #sanji fluff

[chaosofmanyfandoms]

Hi could you do Tyler galpin x reader x Wednesday Addams where they both have a crush on the reader so it’s just them fighting for the readers love

Fighting Over You | Tyler Galpin x gn reader x Wednesday Addams

It was obvious to everyone that Tyler and Wednesday didn't like eachother, but nobody knew the reason why. There were rumors, of course, but none of them were the truth. They both liked you, and would do just about anything to keep the other away from you.

You knew this of course, it was getting pretty obvious. Whenever you were in Jericho Wednesday tried to keep you as far from the Weathervane as possible. If you had somehow ran into Tyler, the two of them would glare at eachother the entire time.

One day Enid drug Wednesday off somewhere, so you took the chance to go to the Weathervane.

"The usual?" Tyler asked as you stepped up to the counter.

"Yes please." You said, digging in your pocket for your wallet.

"It's on me today, you can go sit down and I'll bring it to you in just a minute." Tyler said, shaking his head as you tried to give him the money.

"Tyler, you don't have to-"

"But I am, go sit down." He laughed, shooing you away.

You rolled your eyes at him, going to sit at your regular booth in the corner. Moments later Tyler brought your coffee, sliding into the booth across from you.

"How did you finally get away from Wednesday?" He asked as you took a sip of coffee.

"Enid forced her to go shopping." You smiled, glancing out the window to see Enid dragging Wednesday into another store across the street.

"I was wondering, maybe we could go out sometime?" Tyler asked nervously, hoping that you would say yes.

"Like a date?" You asked, knowing fully well that is exactly what he had meant.

"If that's okay." He said, not wanting to push you.

"Yes, I'd love to go on a date with you." You said, smiling.

"I have my lunch break in half an hour, if you want to go then. Or else we can do it some other time." Tyler said, standing up when a customer walked through the door.

"Half an hour sounds great. I better go now, so you can get back to work." You said, finishing your coffee.

"Great, I'll see you then." Tyler grinned, not hearing the customer ring the bell on the counter.

"Now get to work, I'll be back soon." You said, kissing him on the cheek before leaving.

As soon as you had left, Tyler hurried to get the now impatient customer's order.

When you stepped outside Enid and Wednesday were waiting for you.

"What was that?" Wednesday asked, having been watching you and Tyler through the window.

"What was what?" You asked, playing dumb as you started walking.

"You kissed him!" Enid exclaimed excitedly.

"On the cheek." You said.

"But why?" Wednesday asked, disgusted.

"He asked me on a date." You said, knowing that didn't really clear it up.

"Did you say yes?" Enid asked.

"Yeah, I did." You replied with a smile, making Enid squeal.

"When? And where?" She asked.

"In half an hour, and I'm going to meet him back there." You said.

"You two are going to be so cute! I can't wait to post this on my blog." Enid said, already planning her new post.

"Enid, we haven't even gone on a date yet. Please don't post anything, I dont need the whole school knowing about my love life." You said.

"Fine, but you better tell me everything." Enid said.

"If he hurts you, I'll kill him." Wednesday said, not at all happy that you were going on a date with Tyler Galpin of all people.

"I'll tell you everything, and no killing." You said, rolling your eyes at Wednesday.

"No promises."

#tyler galpin x reader #wednesday addams x reader #enid sinclair #gn reader #wednesday

[actualbird]

regarding puppy luke in the Actualbird Cinematic Universe™️ …

MC/Rosa - Discipline

Marius - trying out puppy play/rewarding

Vyn - clicker training

If you ever write puppy Luke and Artem i think a neat idea would be fetch!! Like Luke’s gotta fetch all the props/stuff for their play session (from… a toy box…) and artem gets to sit back and watch bc wow, what a view right? that’s just my incoherent ramblings 🌚

But a related question for you, how do you think luke even realised he has this kink?

irt this idea i had about vyn clicker training luke for puppy play sexytimes

"the Actualbird Cinematic Universe™️" JVSKJFHSDFHJVJ!!!! anyhoo, i love your arteluke idea SO MUCH, i might incorporate that into whatever my luketem fic for this series will be because now i will take this time to shamelessly promo my luke puppy play fic series, with the fics that currently exist and the ones im planning on writing in the future

series on ao3: "do you need a dog, he can bark (luke puppy play extravaganza)"

mariluke (trying out puppy play and rewarding, my Very First luke puppy play fic): "sit, stay, (obey)"

lukerosa (discipline, she puts him in a muzzle): "learn to behave"

vynluke (The Clicker Training Idea): no fic yet! but god i wanna write it

mariluke again because i love them (M rated nonsexual BDSM fic where marius and luke just shop around for puppy play gear because marius wants to get luke the Best toys and puppy ears and tail plug, the BEST that money can buy, and then when luke tries it on he goes so dazed in subspace that he just falls asleep with marius petting him and it's great): no fic yet! but god i wanna write it

arteluke (I LOVE UR IDEA I MIGHT ADD IT IN SOMEHOW WITH MY PRIOR IDEA where training again but artem makes luke kneel at his feet sinking down on a dildo while artem works and when artem works he ACTUALLY WORKS and luke gets so impatient and pouty and wanting the real thing that artem eventually relents): no fic yet etc etc

ALL TOGETHER NOW? (i dont have an idea for this yet but i do want luke the goodest puppy serving the entire team all at once...)

NOW FOR UR QUESTION!!! (sorry it took me a while to get here JHVSJKDFHSD)

i actually think luke has enough self awareness to at least know that hes got an...obedience kink, praise kink, serving people kink, and all that. like he knows hes into that, thanks to porn and his Imagination and then thanks to experiences once he gets with the nxx polycule. but he only puts all those kinks together with the label "PUPPY PLAY" probably when marius jokingly starts calling him puppy as a nickname

and luke

likes it

wAYYYY TOO MUCH

in a VERY MUCH NOT INNOCENT WAY

basically

marius, teasing: youre such a puppy sometimes!

luke, genuine: am......i a good puppy? 🥺

marius: uh. yes? hey is there something you wanna tell me or

luke: yeah, can i suck you off right now, im really horny all of a sudden for some reason

marius: I THINK I KNOW THE REASON BUT IT CAN WAIT AFTER THE BLOWJOB

and then luke researches about puppy play kink stuff and suitably informs the polycule and they all start experimenting with it because theyre all very much into it too, bless

#n/s//f///w text #asks #anon #I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS OF PUPPY PLAY LUKEY....SO MANY IDEAS....

[mangoposts]

i literally love you so much😭🤍 it feels a lot better finally getting that off my chest. idk you give such a comforting, nonjudgmental vibe and it just made me feel safe telling you especially since im anonymous. but your advice helps a lot, deep down i know a man who really loves me won't care how inexperienced i am or what's been done to me in the past. but the fear of being judged by a man is just constantly in the back of my mind so every little thing scares me LMFAO. i think my current problem is that now that i've gotten over what happened and im ready, im READY. i mean impatient as fuck and want to jump the first attractive man i see like a feral animal LMAOOOOO because bitch ive been putting up w my own hands for YEARS NOW my 1 1/2 inch fingers arent cutting it no more. i need a MAN up in there ykwim😭 (preferably matt/chris' long veiny hands🤭)

but i also dont wanna hook up w anyone, im not that type of person (clearly since im 20 and haven't even seen a dick in person) i definitely wanna wait until im at LEAST a month or two into a good healthy relationship to have sex w them. but then part of me is like bitch you need dick this has gone on for too long just fuck somebody😔😔😔 IDKKKK maybe i just need to buy a dildo to A) prepare myself for when i actually do have sex and B) fill this void of wanting to be dicked down but not wanting to hookup with a random.

BUT TOYS ARE SO FUCKING EXPENSIVE TOO I CANT WIN IM LITERALLY JUST A (horny) GIRL🫤🫤🫤🫤🫤🫤🫤🫤🫤🫤sigh

- 🌙

Omg you’re making me laugh 😭😭😭😭 YOU SOUND LIKE ME TALKING TO MY FRIENDSLMFAOOO

Girl literally just buy a dildo or any sex toy i promise you ITS THE GIFT THAT KEEPS ON GIVING and some aren’t that expensive i’ll literally like link toy websites rn Lmfaooaooooo they work better than men

I love u so much too and i’m glad it made you feel better 🤍 Yall can tell me anythinngggggggg

#🌙

[theravencawsatmidnight]

I loved your fortnite one! May I request?

(The best place to get the lore is to look it up on the fortnite wiki, but heres a summary of Agent Jones lol)

Agent Jones works for the (now defunct) Imagined Order, the company that oversees the Zero point/loop. Jones betrayed the IO when they didn't try and save the Zero point, instead choosing to flee.

The reason that Jones joined the IO was to protect his family, nobody knows what planet / reality he's from. If he leaves the IO, his family will die without the protection.

Anyone who works in Island Loop control (like Jones) doesn't just get full medical care, they get given immortality.

So Jones would slave forever to protect his bloodline. If it wasn't for the Zero point trying to explode that is.

I did not mean to write that lot!

I was wondering do you have any yandere headcannons for him? If not then that's fine :)

TYSM FOR THE RQ AND INFO !!!! Ill do my best ^^ hope u enjoy.

Forever Mine…

🌹 Agent Jonsey was immortal like everyone else. It was boring to him, no death, nothing to look forward too , not that death was something to look forward too. But he was bored. Some days he just wanted to loosen his tie and.. have fun

🌹When Jonsey learned you were joining his team he was interested. Friendly chit chatting in the beginning , he would help with whatever you needed, it was nice at first. Until it got out of hand .

🌹little notes, lunches, personal space.. Jonesy sometimes would brush against you when he walked by , just to hear that little surprised yelp you did, the way you jumped just enough to get a little bounce from your chest. He loved it.

🌹whenever you mentioned his family he would wave his hands in the air shooing the question away like a annoying fly. “They are fine” he told you over and over. “Lets talk about you” he instead , “i wanna know all about you ya know?” He was persistent …sometimes not taking no for an answer.

🌹Jonesy started to corner you now when it was just you and him. His broad shoulders and tense arms made it hard to sneak away. “Bunny…” he would say under hitched breath, “i dont know what it is, about you. I cant explain it” Jonesy was a family man, he loved them… but all he wanted now was you

🌹He had grown impatient now, watching you rush away from him after work was completed , he had to take you while he had the chance. So he made up a story that someone had gotten hurt from the storm, and just like the good bunny you were you ran to help them. Thats when everything went dark

🌹He had pictures up in the room you found yourself in. His family. You tried to stand up but the heavy chains around your wrists made it hard. You were chained to the floor in this empty cold room.

🌹He told you it was to remind himself of his real life, his happy life . “Dont get confused bunny , im just as happy with them as i am with you, but i have to return to them too. They already love me. And soon you will too”

🌹His dull dull life was over, immortality was not so bad now. He finally had a reason. .. to loosen that tired tie.

#agent jones x reader #fortnite x reader #fortnite agent jones #.Fortnite #plaguebb!

[definitelynotshouting]

i would draw to motivate you but. i cant. draw. instead, i can ask you: what has been you least favourite segment to write/worldbuild for the hunger au? either because it just wasnt working like you wanted it to, or you were struggling for ideas, or something completely different, what about the hunger au kicked your ass the most?

-🔋

Honestly i feel like this scene with Tango im trying to write for chap 4 is being the biggest ass-kicker rn 😭😭😭💀💀💀💀 i have been stuck on this for AGES and its not even because i dont know what to do-- i have the whole chapter mapped out, i know what i want. Its just the physical act of writing has been super tough for me lately, and whenever i do find the time + motivation + mental coherency to make the words go, i end up getting interrupted by something WHEEEEZE

The good news is, i am still making progress, its just very.... slow 💀 but its progress, so im trying to be mindful of that despite my own impatience

Also, coming up with the Seekers was a complete pain in my behind i spent SO LONG trying to figure out what the fuck their deal was. Went through multiple ideas on what to mix and match their potential biology with-- i was considering sea turtles, jellyfish, whales, squid... nothing really stuck out to me as something i wanted to use until i realized what i was going to call them, and then everything fell into place all at once. I remember yelling across the room to @/corvidaearts (whom i was visiting during my vacation) "THEYRE CALLED SEEKERS AND THEYRE TOTALLY BLIND AND THEY CAN SENSE VIBRATIONS THROUGH THEIR WHISKERS" apropos of absolutely nothing. And now we have giant malignant catfish<3 sometimes ye olde percolator just needs a lot of time to marinate on an idea before the inspiration hits LMAO

#shouting speaks #asks #hunger au #you are INCREDIBLY sweet to think about drawing to motivate me cjsndjdndj im always so blown away by how much ppl like this story #txt

[ignitesthestxrs]

your nails look fantastic!!

but tbh i'm kinda more intrigued by the keyboard in the background? I didn't expect you to be like a fancy keyboard nerd?

but the nails are really great! just less surprising to me because i'd seen you do nail witchcraftery before already lol

thank you!! they are so much fun to do lolol and i am Slowly getting better at not like, trapping hair in the gel lolol

re: keyboards LOL i would not say i have risen to the level of Keyboard Nerd (as in person who knows the lingo and has opinions on it), but i definitely have Keybord Preferences. Like i'm at the level where i know there's stuff that i don't know, you know?

the keyboard in the bg of the nail photo is the Glorious Gaming GMMK 1 which i was previously using for my personal pc! but after munting the second wireless dongle for my work keyboard i finally decided to give up on wireless keyboards for my work station because the laptop travels fro my home work station to like, actual work with me and i keep kinda dropping the it places and fucking up the dongle. which then renders the whole keyboard + mouse combo useless! so now i have this wired keyboard that plugs into my work station and nothing that plugs into work laptop

the only customisation i did for this one was switching out the keycaps from plain white to the ones u can see below. the GMMK1 has some like, minor customisation software available, but it mostly only affects the LEDs in the bg. i REALLY like the sound it makes tho, it's very satisfyingly clicky without being too obnoxiously loud

and then for my personal pc i am using the Glorious Gaming GMMK2, because i liked the v1 enough that i could not be bothered to do further research on other brands. i ended up 'building' this one, insofar as 'building' means 'i purchased all the parts separately because they were on sale and cheaper to buy separately than it was to buy the whole keyboard pre-built', but there are like. three parts. keyboard base, switches, keycaps. it's more like putting together simply 3d puzzle than building anything.

i don't actually know much about switches - the ones i got for the GMMK2 were chosen solely because i needed a new keyboard and these were the cheapest available on the website i was buying them from. they are less clacky than the ones on the GMMK1, which i dont like as much, but they have a little more resistance when u press them, which i do like!

i also prefer the full layout on the GMMK1 with space in between the numpad and arrows and stuff. the GMMK2 is a 96% layout, wehich is like,,,fine, in that it has all of the buttons i prefer to press, but i don't like how cramped it was. unfortunately, the GMMK2 only comes in 96% or Tenkeyless (without the numpad) form, and bc i live in NZ and am very impatient, i could not be bothered doing further work to find a Perfect solution when i wanted to get the keyboard together like, That Day LOL.

the thing that IS very cool about the GMMK2 is that it has the level of keybinding customisation that i wanted, so i have been able to map some specific keys that i wanted but can't do on the 1.

i realise that this is a long post for a bitch who claimed she wasnt a keyboard nerd but like. idk what a macro is and can't imagine having a use for one u know, like there are things mx GMMK2 is capable of that i do not understand and don't have a call for. the Real Nerds are out there, and they have opinions on whether or not your switches need to be Lubed.

#does this count as #femme shit #sometimes it's just very important to you that your keyboards fit your vibes #it's also important to note tht both of these desks are kind of fucked #because they're where i also do my nails LOL #the pink keyboard is stationed directly over some kind of nail chemical stain #that i dont actually understand how it was made

[dream-this-nightmare-over]

my friend lives in deep forest

Our family friend's friend had a son who ran to forest

Surprise was a word of a day as the word got out 

Bruised and blue unbudging gem of most crystal truth before gathered excuses at the wake all dressed in drought

Forgotten were the screams given as answer to heart begging to be listened

Wind rippled through his clothes shadows ran ahead of him before tree line closed 

They said there was snow on his soles

I imagine he outrun his demons and held victory ball in snow covered grove

My friend goes to party of some friend who is not my friend 

I text 'have fun' then wonder how to make new friends if you are never invited anywhere 

My friend talks about birthday dinner he is taking his friends to while I am waiting behind glass for irony to be acknowledge

He played it cool said he doesnt like mixing his friend groups

There are crumbs of cake for me if i wish to come day after at tea time

We are so polite makes me want to throw up aren't we supposed to be having fun before they come with chains cause we failed to do a runner while jury was out

I would say it's karma that coincidences aligned making him revoke his invite if i weren't taught to be polite and not this spiteful monster that resides behind my smile behind all my carefully crafted lies

Bluest eyes i have ever seen outside my mind 

How did it feel when your plans fell out

Did you think of loneliness between my cracks 

Did my words come back in sinister echo from place of regret

Taking red slip out of wallet like you could ever forget what you wanted from night out

Isnt it tragic to know love is conditioned paradox: made to be loved, unable to love 

You have so much to learn

I hope you will be free one day just like birds in your inked prayer

Blame it all on the date on calendar 

Ignorance has nothing to do with supernatural 

I have always wanted to find the culprit

Why does it matter if someone doesnt care 

We will all be oblivion one day

I wonder did son of woods keep a diary 

Did he write his thoughts hoping poison will get out 

Did the realization that hopelessness has no way of getting eradicated once it takes root made his handwriting messy and impatient 

Did he break his own heart during sleepless nights that became only respite from world that only knows how to shout

Did the daydreams fail him miserably did the dreams gave up on him 

Did he hold on till winter as last hope someone would follow the foot marks and stop him 

I hope he found freedom

I hope he howls with wolves

i hope he haunts nightmares of every soul that made him feel unreasonable and fragile

I wonder did they throw away the diary 

Did they burry the guilt to survive cause that's what this is all about

Survival of cruelest.

It's never no one's fault but your own for believing someone cares how you wish to live your life 

People will do everything to kill your will to live 

Build piers for your dreams then warm their socks on ashes of your descend now that you cant fly away 

Release arsenic if needed in air you breath  to kill whats left alive

People will rather kill the good that try to give advice in good nature mistake of putting themselves on line for someone who will never change when told their behaviour hurts those around them 

Snow melted three times over since lives faded into names parents are afraid to mention in front of those that stayed

Like escaping the doom of drowning in bilge of your burned ruined silenced potential is not the bravest con 

For someone who i never really knew outside birthday parties when we were still kids when we were still all invited,

His ghost sure does work overtime to haunt my words like we have shared history unfinished business cautionary tale keeping me alert never to drop my guard keep writing poison will only get blacker but dont you let it stain your heart 

Perhaps the dead get transcript of souls similar  to avert them from going over percipice before it's too late

How long were we fighting same war unknowingly on same sides different frontlines

Who counts fallen and lost 

Who reads anymore poems of the disturbed 

Run uncorrupted child, run away dont look behind 

There is nothing here worth saving 

All the good ones are dead or snuffed out anyway.

#poetry #poem #my poem #sad #depressed #pain #trauma #hoplessness #hopless #love #party #friends #i know no one cares #but people write poetry to feel better #maybe one day someone will see my words #and say 'this is how i feel' #at that would mean a lot #cause we all deep inside feel the same #lonely and broken #forest #suicide #why is life such a sad thing #guess sometimes all we have is art #winter #hanging tree #i didnt know you that good #but i hope you know i wished you stayed

[ashren]

hhhhng I want answers to all of them for everyone BUT, how about:

Why did you give them the name they have? What is the in-universe reason for their name?

What inspired you to create your oc?

Does your oc have any notable skills or good personality traits? Why did you give them those traits? Why do they exist in-universe?

Which canon characters (if any) do the oc have bad relationships with? Why those characters?

Share a random piece of trivia about the creation of your oc. Examples: scrapped ideas or changes you didn't expect to make.

For Peter and Ren? No pressure to do 'em all, I'll be excited for any combination :)

AHHH thank you!!! I will absolutely Ramble on about my ocs so don't u worry heheh 💞

Why did you give them the name they have? What is the in-universe reason for their name?

Ren: I think I've actually answered this some time, a LONG time ago, but dont @ me i answer differently now LOL. In universe, he picked the name Ren because it's a shortening of Loren, the name of his Uncle who had the farm. The IRL reason for the name is because I see a lot of cool names at work and I write down my favs hahaaaa ((side note, i forgot until way after i created him, but the first guy i kissed at college was named Wren. I did not go anywhere.))

Peter: SOOO you get some bonus Calvin facts here too! Oringally Peter and Calvin were kind of the same character that I turned into two different guys. I had called them Peter kind of as a place holder bc I was reading a lot of Spideypool at the time, and well. You know what happens with placeholder names. Then I redesigned them both, and the demon felt more like a Calvin to me, so vampire boy got to keep the Peter name! In universe, Peter's original last name was something generic like Brown or Smith idk but once he was bit and Maggie started calling him Peter V. Pyre as a joke, it kinda stuck. (Later on, Florence ends up taking the name Pyre as well. Makes things a lot easier for everyone, and she says it feels more 'her')

Ok this is already long so I'm gonna put the rest under a cut!

What inspired you to create your oc?

Ren: My baby boy was my Outer World's Captain! That's how he started, my first play through was as "Ash" but only in name really. Then I finished the game and was like must consume fanfic, which then lead to me developing Ren as his own Boy. I had been working on a lot of lore for Ash and my Fallout 4 OCs! Then I was like "Ohhhhhh no,,,,, sorry my children Ren's my fav right now"

Peter: Cowboy Vampire. Needed one. Also a lot my ocs starts as loosely veiled self inserts so they tend to all be a little similar in like,,, body shape and size so I was like... Beefy cowboy vampire???

Does your oc have any notable skills or good personality traits? Why did you give them those traits? Why do they exist in-universe?

Ren: He's really good at like, being stealthy, because that's how I TRIED to play TOW the first time. I am impatient, so Ren get all the patience I don't have LOL. In Universe I ended incorporating it into his backstory- he's got a bit of a criminal background and learned how to get around unseen and unheard during that time. It helps that he's a small boy :3

Peter: He's got some fun Vampire ~abilities~ that probs vary from story to story bc im too lazy to stick a set of rules. Stuff like being able to see in the dark, and like, idk he's got some good reflexes. Also a heightened sense of smell. Bc of reasons. All of those are just cuz its fun tbh! I also have him being a really good shot with a pistol BEFORE his transformation, so with his reflexes as a vamp he's near unmatched.

Which canon characters (if any) do the oc have bad relationships with? Why those characters?

Ren: In TOW Canon, aside from the obvious, he's got a rough relationship with Max for... most of the story lol. For a while he'd ONLY travel with Max if Parvati was with them as well. She's the only one he wasn't constantly arguing with. Max's "violence is the immediate answer to everything" attitude reminds Ren of some not so great ppl in his past, and after Fallbrook, Max is on Ren's shit list. Max becomes more tolerable to him after Scylla, but Ren still never gets as close to Max as he does the other crew.

Also Lilya Hagen specifically bc she tried to "poison" him once.

Peter: I haven't really figured out a lot of details, but at least in the beginning, he and Calvin have a... tense relationship. Peter wouldn't consider them friends for a while, a work partner maybe. Calvin likes to push Peter's buttons and Peter doesn't really understand at first that Calvin is just having fun. Calvin IS a demon, though, so they know exactly what they're doing. ((Bonus fun fact: Peter is actually legitimately older than Calvin. Peter was born in uhh some time in the 1790s? and Calvin was born in 1933))

Share a random piece of trivia about the creation of your oc. Examples: scrapped ideas or changes you didn't expect to make.

Ren: Ren was supposed to be a lot younger at first! Originally I had him ~25 during the games events, but then as I developed him more i was like.... what if.... older??? A lot of that was inspired by my need to give Felix someone older than him that WOULDN'T fucking betray him in some way. So, you have my love for Felix to thank for Ren's age In turn, because I made him older, I ended up having a lot more time to play with in Ren's pre Halcyon life, which created Johnny.

Peter: Peter's still pretty new so there's not too much I haven't already talked about BUTTT a little peek into the future of Peter's story, I did end up expanding on the Maggie/Peter relationship, and it's part of Peter's eh origin story now~

#heheh thank you!!! feel free to ask for more if u want i genuinely love these #i might double dip for u too haha #ask game #orignial character #the outer worlds

[fleastinger]

I dont think you realize how hard this is going for me.

Its like picking at a burn that desperately needs to be left alone, risking infection every pull. Like my eyebrows. Like my ingrowns. It's not good for me, even now, when all I could think of is letter every day from the past week.

If I doing good, I think of you, and wonder if you're thinking of me. Unblock on soundcloud, search you on twitter, then block again. I wonder if you knew I kept looking at your music even after you messaged me. The moment you hid your likes is when I realized how bad I was getting.

And If I feel bad..... I think of you, and compare. I would miss how I would cry in front of you, but get sad imagining how you would respond. I think this wouldve been worse for you, since I was so quick to play victim and not own up to how I needed help.

I thought about it. I really did. I accidentally hit follow at work once, when I was thinking of you. I freaked out. I was scared to acknowledge how much you kept reaching out , and scared that I lead you on for my mistake. But i thought about it. I kept acknowledged how I felt through my reposts. Listening to pink reminded me of you so much. But it was too late for us.

I think if I had waited, and broke up with R , I wouldve been with you. I wouldve been mad, but i wouldve accepted the fact that you called the last day of the ultimatum.

But what happened shattered me. You have to understand. I always saw myself as a loyal person. R was someone I really considered kids with, until I realized I wouldn't be happy so young with them. I was ready to break up with him for you. I just got impatient, too comfortable. I got self destructive. I lost my mind the night we fucked. I was so depressed when we were together, guilty over how I handled myself. I feel like, no matter how depressed and hopeless I feel right now, at least I am not always smoking away my responsibilities and being stressed about you. Being mad, distrustful, exhausted, bitter. We had more people rooting for us than we realized on my families side. But neither of us were able to anymore. I truly feel that you are free of me now that you've let go first. And I only wish the best for you, hate that we werent the best for one another, and hope that you would understand if I let go too.

I think its scary for me to write that. But its an inevitable fall. I think of someone else now when I say baby. I really found enjoyment in cooking again, something I had a hard time doing without you. And I can't go back.

And it feels weird to start falling in love again. The beginnings of it, how he makes me feel like I can really keep going. how I want to encourage him and be there for him as he goes through decision making through life atm. I felt helpless, asking him for help, but I know he has my back, and all I want to do is return the favor and be there for him. To be better with him, for myself and for him.

And just.... i get mad, but not the same kind of mad. I can calm myself down and not yell . I can cry it out and be patient. I think that you and I had too much trauma, acting out the way we were yelled at to each other as kids through our fights.

I was scared of being like your mom. I knew my depression was getting worse, fueled by my anxiety. I felt like I was becoming a worse version of myself and hated how I treated you. And when you messaged me on tumblr, pleading to reach out, I felt so fucking sad. I wish I could reach out to you, sometimes, and just tell you how much ive been struggling. How sucidal i feel, how scared I was over getting evicted. How it scares me to be so depressed, to feel like it doesnt matter if I'm here.

But i knew if I reached out everything would fall apart. No one would support me anymore. I wouldve accepted losing my apartment and let my job fall into jepoardy. And none of my friends or family would support me again.

And i know for certain I would not be here, with my cat, saved from eviction.

You wouldve hated my cat. I really do think that. You wouldve loved petting and playing with her, but you wouldve smoked in here with me , and hated how i would run home to take care of her instead of cuddle you and harley. I think harley would stress her out and scare her, and i probably wouldve been alone for her (or worse, not home if she was in labor).

I'm sorry, Zach. Its over. And you were right. I wish i wasn't a coward when i broke up with you that final time and did it in person. Your last words haunted me. You still loved me until the end. And I wish things were better. Maybe I wouldnt have been so hung up on you so msny times if we split in person.

Please.....I wish you get help and live a long, wonderful life, full of happiness. I hope you find love again and do better for her.

[liminalnafaza]

life seems so dull, and pointless. my demons are my biggest obstacles. i cant get over myself, and im sabotaging my own life experience

i just wonder how much longer i can bear to exist, if it means to live without passion and happiness. i feel like i watch the world go by, without relating or understanding it. the want to do anything is so little. i do the bare minimum, to survive. what i dislike the most is the awareness of my own potential and power, and the fear which keeps me away from myself. im held back by an ocean of anxieties, and i feel like by the time i learn how to swim and gain strenght to cross the waters, i will be old and weak, and it wont matter no more

i wonder how long it will take...im getting impatient, im getting bored, im getting tired of pretending that i want to live- when all i do is just pretend, sometimes to the point where i cant tell it apart from being authentic

i dont know who i am and noone can tell me but me. god seems far away, and unwilling to help me- at least directly.

i reread old messages where i felt passion and love. i get even more confused about my path. my shadow made me lose people i love, and made me lose the love inside of myself in the first place. now i feel like i cant even access it, i cant get excited about anything, everything seems lived-through enough times already. is there anything left to impress me?

my body is getting weak, both from my mental and physical illnesses.

it seems like i always lived for others, and i found the motivation through them. especially through romantic partners. they were a motivation for me to live. now i see that im the only one who can save myself, as the infatuation phase wont last forever, and as living for others is no option neither. i dont think that i could have been kept alive through that relationship forever, right? its still haunting me, and i feel so alone in all of it. i try to carefully construct my life into pieces, like a puzzle, and i feel like its too vast for me to keep it together- yet if it falls to the ground, it needs to be assembled anew again. i feel like this is what awaits me, a tabula rasa, and i am here: bed ridden, weak, depressed, with no will or idea who i am and who i want to be. im molded of guilt for hurting others, for the mistakes i did, for the fact that i cannot stand up for myself, for all the fear that i live with, all the anxiety. and i am to reconstruct an entire puzzle? i am tired, and yet i am pushed to act as if im not. i feel like im living such a normal life, but theres little to identify with. at least its making me look like a put together person, to some degree. if it were up to me, id be doing nothing all day long- as im doing now. shadow and spiritual work also seems too demanding, and i fear that i cannot grow if i dont continue it.

i wonder if ill ever feel found and okay, if ill ever feel like this life of mine makes sense, and if ill find at least one thing to do which i actually want to do.

[mojavepumpkin]

4/17?/24

i haven’t written in a while. i’m quitting at work- bittersweet feelings ensue. prom is this saturday, only sweetness for that one. pretty much only sweetness.

i feel to busy to think sometimes, or maybe too busy to think deliberately. i wish i had more time inbetween moments. this kind of thing helps me slow down. but the faster i go the harder it is to do- that’s the paradox. i don’t even really remember what i did today. i worked, i remember that. i wished it had rained. sometimes i never want it to stop raining- it’s the nicest kind of weather. just before it rains is the second nicest. but that has some kind of expectation to it, it’s the same reason why nobody’s favorite star wars movie is a new hope, because you know the empire strikes back is next.

i was behind an impatient driver, well. i was behind a tractor and a truck. the truck was impatient, and i couldn’t decide how the tractor was. all i knew was that the tractor was moving at a pace that one could describe as “leisurely”, the truck did not agree with this outlook on life. i however, accepted it. i listened to a song, during all this and it said a lyric that i think is applicable

“wherever i’m going is the same place ive been”

why are you in such a rush to go some place? it’s all the same anyway, the place you want to be is no different then the place you are right now. i don’t understand impatient drivers, im never in a hurry. i drive fast not to arrive quickly but to leave quickly, if that makes sense. but i never drive impatiently.

i’ve been reading a catcher in the rye, i’m thinking mr. salinger must have been a genius. it’s very good, or maybe it isn’t, but whether it is or isn’t is irrelevant, i like it anyway.

a friend told me that i pay too much attention to the critical reception of things. but maybe i just like things that smart professional thing likers like, and maybe that makes me better than you.

it makes me better than them too. because i’m an amateur thing liker, and im on the level of the professionals, I DONT EVEN GET PAID TO LIKE THINGS. i should be in the olympics of opinions. amateur opinion-haver.

i am tired. i need a break. dinner was good tonight. i was very hungry. i wish i talked to my mom more. she might still be in there, whenever i walk in there expecting her to be there and she isn’t a kind of hole opens up in me.

i’m excited for prom, i’ve always been a fiend for a shin dig, i can’t dance, though. the dancing is not the important part, not for me, anyway.

[b0mblover]

Snowflakes and drugs dont mix (that) well

By: J

(im not even kidding while writing this i got such bad eye pain, i stg lopt is just tormenting me anytime i do anything related to jirou without him in it)

(also this is prob extremely ooc bc im basically describing/romantasiing my own life :,) yes my life sucks dont remind me)

(again, im very muchly not a writer, i was bored and decied to make the probably first jirocrown fic of life 🙂 im genuinely sorry to anyone who reads this shit)

(anon on twt, gfys, and no this isnt supposed to be taken that damn seriously, ik theres an asston of mistakes, but its almost 3 am and i need to sleep!! alr alr u can read it now chill)

-5° (c 23°f) -5° it was cold out, extremely cold. Jirou was walking on a backroad, he didnt know what it was called, even though he had been down it hundreds of times. Around 1 (am) Crown said hed pay him for a drug run, which was rather normal, go on a drug run, hang out with crown, sleep, go home. The only issue was that it took around 30 minutes or so to get there, also normally okay, in the summer. Where he lived, got extremely cold in the winter months, in a “im going to call off of work today because ill get frostbite if i try to go outside” way. This wouldnt be an issue if there was public transport, but of course, the world apparently hated jirou. Jirou was half way there, hands almost shaking because of the temperature, he dealt with the cold ironically well, the reason it didnt bother him as much as normal people was unimportant to him. (reason is because he used to sit on the porch to not hear his parents fight, though it never really worked that well) Maybe it was a fragile ego, maybe he was just broke, but hed never wear gloves, even with the possibility of frostbite taking his hands. He knocked on Crowns door, though he had a key, he felt like he could barely move any joints in his hand to grab them. After a 3 rough minutes, Crown answered the door letting him in. “Ah th thanks, ‘preciate ya getting the shit” Crown handed him  about ¥14000 “This is too much crown” “nah its freezing out plus ive been meaning to pay ya back anyways” “I, if you say so” he was hesitant to take it, but ultimately decided that, crown, a literal serial killer, wouldnt decide to screw him over, at least not like that. 

As normal, they both walked over to the (admittedly dirty) couch, crown, in a pose that was slightly… provocative, jirou sitting normally (as normal as a gay man can). Crown sat a powder on to the table, “uh you gotta card or somethin dude?” jirou handed him a razor blade, “uh vaguely concerned as to why you carry that but thanks either way, uh youre not gonna like use that now though right?” “nnah, dumbass i know what youre doing im staring right at you, why would i hand you something that i was gonna use” “i mean look, you made paintings out of your own blood, for no real reason either! youre not as predictable as you think” “whatever ya say just hurry up” “damn why you say impatient huh?” crown brought his face down to the table after making the powder into a mostly straight line. “Cause i want my share already and you take too long” Crown tossed him the razor blade, jirou aligned the powder into a straighter line than crowns, and snorted it as well. “Yeayea whatever man, the hell should we do any ways, too cold to go out, any ideas?” “sure i have several but the last time we did any of my ideas someone had to be killed cause they were a witness” “ah right, well uh, wanna play uno?” “gonna be real with ya c, the joints in my fingers feel like the are fucking screwed shut at the moment so I’m gonna have to pass” “your joints where what” “*sighs* (bc how do u write a sigh phonetically) fingers too cold, fingers barely move because cold” “oh, what nah lemme feel bro” “fine fine whatever” crown moved his hands onto Jirous, and, of course, they were extremely cold. “Damn dude what the hell, how long where you outside for?” “uh i mean i was smoking when you texted so at least like i dunno 15 minutes more than normal?” “man the hell, cmere” crown had gotten closer and brought Jirou into a hug, granted it didn’t do much, the heating and cooling had been busted for months, crown was surviving on 15 blankets, but it felt nice. Jirou was aware that hugging someone, at least in the position they were in, wouldn’t do much, but he let crown anyways, for a drug addicted serial killer, he always felt at home with Crown, wanted. “Ugh alright alright c i get it okay? i love you too chill” “if i were to chill at the moment id freeze to death jirou” “yea yea i get it kay? I’m gonna go lay down” “right behind ya” Crown followed Jirou into the one bedroom that was there, it was noticeably colder than other rooms such as the living room, but it was much more “lively” or “lived in” plus the mattress on the ground that they insisted on calling a bed with 15 blankets kinda made up for it too. Jirou fell onto the mattress, groaning out a tiny bit before going quite again. Crown sat himself down on the opposite side, pulling two of the blankets off where they were stacked before getting under the one that was already on the bed. Jirou did the same after taking his socks off, he recalled how when this first started, how crown and him would fight about if he should take his jacket off before laying down. back then he’d say it was because he was cold, maybe it was slightly true, or the fact he didn’t want him to see his cuts and scars. After a particularly awful trip Jirou experienced after taking way too much of god knows what and almost having to go to the er, crown was, for lack of a better term in his eyes, well aware, of Jirous life, he broke down to him. After that he was careful with what he said before Jirou called him out for walking on eggshells around him, annoyed that crown was essentially “babying him”, granted unknown if it was on purpose or not. Jirou after laying down, staring at the ceiling, got closer to crown, almost suffocating him with his (fucking gigantic) oversized jacket. Crown moved what he assumed was the hood of the jacket so he could breath and brought Jirou into a tight hug. Jirou accepted, pushing into it instead of pulling away like usual. Crown could feel how cold his skin was, and how warm he felt inwardly.

#j writes badly #im so sorry to everyone who reads this #no beta we die like jirou