#i am so in love with how nostalgic this feels!!!

[coldshrugs]

goddamn, you look holy hit from behind with light you're a painting of a saint and i'm nervous, stumbling over my lines

@sunshinemage causes me yet another cardiac arrest with smoochy io and estinien. thank you rory, i'm never getting over this!! ♥♥♥

#io/estinien #io laithe #i am so in love with how nostalgic this feels!!! #the colors!!! like a well-loved photograph T^T #esti's lil smile is taking me out #and him holding her glasses!!! #so thoughtful to make sure they don't get smudged :> much :> #their hair is so gorgeous too!!! rory you always kill it with the hair T^T #i love this messy falling-out-of-the-ponytail look you give estinien so much #the shading on io is beautiful too. i'm. not speechless because i can't shut up but AAAAAAAAAA #her hair her earring her NOSE!!!! #okay i'll just be. thinking about them forever. what's new? BYEEEEEE

[kayascodelorio]

kayascodelorio's 3.5k celebration 💌 for @kadygrants

#*3.5k #all for the game #aftgedit #neil josten #* #the foxhole court #tfc #tfcedit #litedit #so excited about this one i had a lot of fun making it!! #i was going for a whole neil and keys themed gifset #sometimes i think about how neil went from being on the run with no roots to having the foxes as his family and andrew as his home and i wa #neil josten my babygirl ALWAYS #nothing makes me as nostalgic and emotional as aftg #also i am loving making book gifs pls feel free to request some hehe

[pokimoko]

Listening to instrumentals from the silly doo-wee-ooo show is actually something that can be so painful.

#doctor who #doctor who music #murray gold #segun akinola #musings about music #this is specifically about 10's theme in vale decem. the long song in 11's regen piece. and clara's theme in face the raven / clara's diner #i get psychic damage everytime i simply hear the use of the motifs elsewhere because of the tragic associations those sadder renditions hav #obviously these songs aren't the only examples in doctor who but they are by far the most emotionally devastating ones for me personally #and obviously it isn't just leitmotifs either. basically hearing any piece that played during a sad scene gets to me. #how are you supposed to explain to your coworkers that you're tearing up because of instrumental sound association? #'yeah sorry these violins and humming sounds summoned vivid images of my favourite character dying/leaving and it made me sad' #love that composers can just straight up pavlov bell your emotions by getting you to associate a melody with a sad scene #an addition to this is doctor who instrumentals that make me nostalgic because I associate them with my own past #like 'this is gallifrey: our childhood. our home'. that song was one of my alarms for a good long while back when i was 15ish #so it kinda transports me back to that time in my life whenever i hear it. music really is its own little kind of time travel #i am very much looking forward to the continuing psychological damage murray gold will inflict upon me in the new season #and to have previously uplifting character leitmotifs used against me and forever be contaminated with sad feelings. love to see it #(also: not a instrumental but damn 'the stowaway' has no right being as good as it is. who knew a christmas sea shanty could sound so great #apologies for this probably niche-ish post (is it niche to know ost title's by heart? asking for friend). just feeling things about music

[saulgoodmanofficial]

fart

#ooc feeling nostalgic for the glory days of the gimmick blogs #like all of those cute little events all of our characters woukd organise and go to #ive been busy and i know a lot of the other blog admins have too #but i just wanted to say how fun it was doing that #and how grateful i am to have met all of you guys #it’s crazy to think gander gang started off as a place for the brba gimmick blog admins to hang out #absolutely insane to think that like over half of my internet friends I met via breaking bad tumblr roleplay #anyway i don’t know where I’m going with this #i just appreciate you all so so much #i made this blog as a stand-alone joke #and im so glad i did and im so glad other people started making their own #genuinely was such a cool experience waking up and seeing a new ‘character official’ blog pop up in my notifs #anyway love u all love the gimmickverse even if it’s dead in the water LOL

[astrxealis]

dear gods i adore horror tbh but i am way too sensitive to it

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #idk how to describe 'sensitive' rn i'm dying in the head i should be asleep but Man!!!!! #i search up tons of horror stuff for funsies. movies uhh creepypastas stories real life events etc. fun! #BUT it freaks me out wayyy too much. bcs i really don't deal well w Those feelings of paranoia. #my imagination too good i was scared at night going to sleep bcs i'd imagine what to do if an intruder came in from the bedroom door #or bathroom door and think of how i'd escape Death......... #Did Not Help my area before was kinda yk. chillax. chillax meaning grassy tree-sy backyard overgrown trees #old-ish in a filipino chill neighborhood that isn't very fancy ?????? idk. #and the fact one time my dad almost died and someone standing close to him Did die so. haha. traumatized from that. #I WASN'T THERE..... but i rmbr my dad coming home and the news absolutely terrified me. anyway! #wow... rambling on tumblr at 3 and a half am... Nostalgic. #anyway yeah i love love love horror stuff but i am !!! so bad w them !!! like jesus christ i adore resident evil and bloodborne #is my whole bloodline. or something. but i can't even watch my twin kill 1 zombie in a re game Demo (she can't do it either) #and i can only make it to killing the first monster in bloodborne and explore a tiny bit where there are still no enemies. god. #AAAGGGGHHHhhhh ... and the first point of horror in omori then i stop playing for months...... even tho i rlly wna play more :(( #2024 ........ cmon... i will try to overcome my fears more. #i've improved somewhat at least! ...from when i was younger. like. man. i could never stay in night-time in games ever. #ffxv? nah i always have to travel at morning. only when i got strong enough that daemons were nothing to me did i stop #getting scared. ouuughhh... and i always try to be stealthy in games........... for many reasons ofc but 1. Scared #okay i shut up now. apollo rambles of tonight: done and over!

[caernua]

girl help i started pillars of eternity and i feel another hyperfixation coming

#listenlistenlisten i wanna play bg3 but i can't for some time but like. the videos made me really miss a story heavy rpg #and i was getting nostalgic for dao but i did not want to deal with origin again fuck that #so i was like. let's give poe a try again. and now bc i'm really in the mood to pay attention and enjoy the story #BC I'M JUST. CRAVING FANTASY RN GIVE ME ALL THE LORE #and i really love it so far and i love that we are ALL obsessed with the godlikes #esp death and moon. yes. yes #idk what happened i always loved fantasy but rn i feel the need to have it shoved down my THROAT #give me taverns. give me armors. give me invented religions and languages and culture #INJECT ITTTT 💉💉💉💉💉💉 #.txt #but do i understand what's happening and how to play? absolutely not. i am stupid but i am free

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ugh. i have such specific desires its impossible #like how am i supposed to find movies that r kinda pretentious and fucked up and sad with like layer upon layer of symbolism? like what is #that. just like best pretentious films??? #or like i want music thats like. ugh how do i describe. like mostly instrumental but with people talking #so it sounds like youre listening to old home videos. its sad and nostalgic #or i dont even kno how to describe it #just listen to zammuto. my dog's eyes or it can feel so good #songs that make me wanna weep bc theyre like so. so like grounding? like there r good things in the world. value the simple things #these r the children who havent yet lost their sense of wonder. makes me so sad and happy #ugh. i should just rewatch sunshine #i just want media thats so gut wrenchingly tragic and so full to the brim of beauty #is that so much to ask? is it #idk. i feel ill. probably lack of sleep #if u have movie recs id love to hear them #unrelated

[coffin-flop]

i know my cat knows i love him but does he know how much?

#this question haunts me #I'm literally cryinc bc it's a 'holiday' (but also fuck thanksgiving it really is and should be a national day of mourning for indigenous #communities to honor the genocide and the continued violence they face bc of american white supremacy and colonialism) #but like i do have nostalgic ties frkm childhood and im thinking abt how weird life has been #since my mom and I REALLY started growing apart (bc i started to understand things and she started spiraling) #but how none of my holidays feel lonely even whem i mostly spend then alone bc my cat almost always snuggles with me the whole time #like okay yeah this is what its all for in the end #this is what i live for lol #anyway that holiday talk sounded sad but actually it's really happy #when i tried to do holidays w the immediate fam i used to stress a lot and usually experienced something traumatic #so like it's so nice to have quiet peaceful holidays with my angel of a cat who's been here thru it all #the first time he headbutted me was when i came home from my mom's on Thanksgiving the last year i spent it with hwr #idk i just love this lil dude. hes neen a constant for almost 7 years now like wow #also sometimes i hang out w friends or facetime friends after their fam gatherings or friends who also dont celebrate #i was interested in going to an indigenous day of mourning march however i am still feeling pretty awful after my root canal 2 days ago #so i will try to go next year

[astralcurses]

it is 6:45 am and the sun is shining. everything seems to be aligned exactly like it was one mundane spring day when i was 14. its amazing that the littlest things in the atmosphere can feel so familiar. and its amazing how much beauty there is in the mundane. nothing special happened that day, nothing to set it apart from the rest, but i can remember it clear as day now. i dont remember much very clearly, so thats saying something. i miss it. i miss the mundane. i dont miss anything grandiose, but the loss of the little things are what hurt the most. its 6:45 am and the sun is shining and i feel it in my soul

#aster.txt #aster writes #sorta #im a nostalgic son of a bitch this morning it would seem #being 14 was a nightmare but i look at them fondly and i wish they knew how much they are loved #poetry #to me #this is a real half scrabbled together thing but in my defense #its 6:45 am #and im sleepy but i have so many feelings

[curioscurio]

I don't know if I really can pick a favorite Undertale song since I love them all but every single boss theme goes so hard... Death by Glamour is definitely up there though. Also this post was supposed to end here but I started infodumping in the tags and reached tag limit AHAHAHA

#i cant listen to Undertale the song because it makes me cry i get so emotional AHAHA #its a special game to me. same with deltarune but undertale came first #being able to experience the undertale to deltarune development in real time has been such a special experience #like when toby fox released chapter one on halloween and i just remember playing it with my friends in college #and then chapter 2 last year #i love finding new secrets in the game and in the code its so fun and i love the characters and everything #and yeah maybe some of the fandom is cringe but god tge normal people about it are so fun to be around and talk with #the fucking orchestral concert !!!!! #also seeing temmie change start streaming on twitch and her own gorgeous game #im just so excited for whatever toby fox does next. i will always be nostalgic for undertale but deltarune is so!! #like i love seeing the new stuff. i love that deltarune is a different game than undertale with new characters. like we get cameos of old #ones and a mysterious connection to the other game but its still its own thing and really is starting to find itself as something uniquely #separate from undertale and earthbound and tobys halloween hack and other pixel games #also unsaid but its funny as all shit #not to mention how the guy puts his whole tobussy into musical motifs #every note and harmony of every song feels intentional like one big song split into different parts #not to idolize the guy like hes still a guy and these games were undoubtedly supported by amazing creators and artists like temmie and patr #patrons #i do highly respect his anonymity though #gosh i try not to be all (foams at the mouth) parasocial relationship whatever with microcelebrities etc etc but i really am just a big fan #for all my shitposting about undertale haha #its the simple things in life. cassie is allowed to be buckwild about undertale and come up with the silliest game theories as a treat #also i just like papyrus . what a guy #sans too #like i obviously goob on him whenever i possibly can but my favorite character is without a doubt papyrus #also since im going insane in these tags can i just say that on youtube The Second Narrator composes some of the most amazing . amazing. #AMAZING orchestral covers of undertale and deltarune music. megalovania is so good but my current fav is his comp of smart race #its like a remix of smart race and berdlys theme and queens stuff but fuck fuck fuck its so good its so good it has ACCORDIAN #the composer adds in little flares of ? idk the music term for it maybe meleodies but theyre new strings of melody in the songs that fit #fit so well imo like they have a specific style that you can hear in every cover

[winterf4iryy]

i’m actually so happy i’m back in my kpop phase

#i mean ive been listening to it since 2020 #but like #maybe a year ago i stopped paying close attention to my favourite groups and news and comebacks and stuff #and also i stopped watching their content on youtube and all that #i thought it was really over #which was really sad to me because it was so short lived #and i remember being such a huge fan in quarantine #like it’s all i listened to #it’s all i watched #it got to a point where i didn’t even remember what other entertainment i consumed before kpop 😔 #and all the groups i was a fan of really helped me through quarantine and my junior year #but i guess that period when i grew out of it was character growth?? yay we love that #but now it’s back and i actually am so happy bc it’s so nostalgic :’) and i remember how comforting kpop is to me #and also just how gooooood the music is #idk im just happy! #im listening to it more #and im watching content on youtube (it’s not the only thing though😭 i made sure to not do that again) #but yeah #i had a theory that i just rotate through my comfort media and i feel like this is proving it #i think my maze runner phase is coming back #everything is so full circle #anyways #˚｡ ⋆୨୧˚ dear diary… 💌

[zhuzhee]

every now and then i watch a late august animatic to feel something

#sadist wolfy and LA were the ones that really got me going ooooh art because what the fuck was that #its not even been that long ago #it feels like it though #but i wish i can bottle up the feeling of watching their animatics for the first time #i think they changed the wirings of my brain tbh #my resting state is oh yeah i love d/smp but after rewatching its liks YEEEAH I WAS AND AM OBSESSED WITH IT #i love art so fucking much and how it captured little moments in time. trends. current stories. its insane. every time i sketch something #im like Wow. i can do that?? on my own? fr??? god im sorry im feeling so nostalgic today. i can never leave this fandom because it was my #first one. and ive discovered so many firsts in this place like the Ability to Go Insane over Characters. call that suppressed cringe #anyway. im procrastinating a project. so. that's why im rambling here hdjsosk

[cornerihaunt]

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#like. i had a moment of sudden clarity. a vision of future me who’s nostalgic for the moment i am in right now. like i will listen to noah- #-kahan someday or reading ****** fics and being just. so nostalgic for this sweet lil moment im in rn #idk i love this moment in my life #rambles #also it’s not the first time this happens it’s so funny how i cannot be actually in the moment because i’m already thinking of when i’ll - #lose it and be nostalgic of that one moment so i cannot like. be in the moment you know #god this feels like talking to a therapist

[eijiroukiriot]

first sentence game!

rules: list the first lines of your last 20 stories (if you have fewer than 20, just list them all!) from oldest first. see if there are any patterns. choose your favourite opening line.

@hiuythn tagged me in this a million years ago!! and i’m just getting to it now as a way to procrastinate/ease into writing for the day!! but ty much love! 

starting with - 1. fly me to the moon

Some people say that Bakugou has no filter.

2. Sympathy Flowers

The hardest part, for Eijirou, is that he had to hear it from the news.

3. Middle School Nickname

It’s a miracle that the diner hasn’t banned them by now.

4. Navillera

Kyouka always claimed her car was a junker, mostly citing the engine that never stopped rattling, but Mina doesn’t truly believe her until she sees a cassette player where the radio should be.

5. it’s really good to hear your voice

Every night when they go to sleep, the bedroom is dark.

6. the after

Tsubomi doesn’t remember how many times she died, but her bones do.

7. once for me

Everything that’s happening is happening in the middle of the room - the talking, the laughing, the exchanging of gifts and singing of Christmas carols.

8. lightning in a bottle

Eijirou hears the host call out his name and for half a second he mistakes the ringing in his ears for his morning alarm.

9. every little bit (helps the fire burn) 

Katsuki has a problem, and it’s not that a man with bulls’ horns tried to pick him up from kindergarten the other day.

10. and then he kissed me! 

i. “You got a change of clothes?” 

ii. “Don layf.”

iii. In Katsuki’s mind, most things are black and white. 

iv.  “Katsuki.” 

v. The thought’s been rolling around in Eijirou’s mind for weeks, maybe months, but it’s Kaminari who first says, “Man, Bakugou’s really opened up, huh?” 

vi. There are, and Eijirou has counted, a grand total of only so many times a guy can watch the same four action movie reruns on cable before it gets to you. 

16. Easy as 1-2-3

If you were to ask Izuku what sets his kindergarten class apart from the rest of the elementary schoolers, even the first-graders, his answer would be simple, but sure: their unpredictability. 

and to bring us up to 20, a few opening sentences from wips that have not (yet) seen the light! 

17. Above the couch hangs Katsuki’s least favorite picture.

18. Long before they start dating, Katsuki knows Kirishima is weird.

19. Suzuko knew that Kirishima kid last year, but this year, he’s in her class.

20. Eijirou drives the whole way. 

patterns: i love a simple statement opener!! i feel like 9 times out of 10 when i go to start a story or chapter (or even a scene after a break) i default to “simple statement or two, and then dialogue.” i just like the rhythm of it! funnily enough when i was younger i think i started every single thing i wrote with dialogue, which i think can be really effective if you want the scene to hit the ground running, but i think it reminds me of my old writing too much to usually go for it 

favorite(s): probably 6, 8, and 19!! (19 i like for how it sets up the tone of the scene. i swear it’s better with context) 

this was fun so if you want to try it out consider yourself tagged :)

#i wish i had gotten back into fic earlier so i had like a longer time span progression to look at #but definitely revisiting some of these was enough to already feel nostalgic #especially bc sympathy flowers has a different (and imo more effective) opening line now that i stared at a lot when i was actively working #on it #but yeah i love a statement #lol this is kind of a silly thing to post instead of actual content but now looking at these wips i am. having trouble picking which to work #on today #one of these is technically done but very very rough and rushed #and definitely not communicating the things i wanted to communicate w it #so it'd probably be the quickest to finish up but i'm the most reluctant to look at it #funny how that works #ask game

[capricornies]

shit feeling like a comical book shit feeling UNREAL

#went to a a bookstore the other day nd saw a book i used to LOVE. i read the first pages nd it was very cringey but i still loved it dearly #made me feel rlly nostalgic. also grown. the book was part of a series of books nd in that one the main character was #going to unind confronting all these new things. i remember i used to read it nd giggle but now i am at uni and i am confronting new things #anyways i think it was rlly funny i guess how i used to read and fantasize abt all of these things and #now they r actually happening and it seems so normal. but at the same time i am freaking out all the time bc this feels like a dream. #tlk.

[sluthut6000]

sometimes I think about the parts of ourselves that we shrug off for others and then i miss me and who I was. but who are we without others? is it an act of love, for them? is it an act of hurt to the self? have we as people not been doing this for tens of thousands of years, or were we always meant to be loved unconditionally and simply exist around the wrong people?

I want the people around me to live easier lives, is leaving oneself behind, the difficult or harder parts that hurt, not an act of compassion for them? or really am I accepted as I am and just can't.. comprehend it... is it a disservice to those around me? is it better to be true and disliked??

regardless, I am human, and all ways I act have been acted before, I'm sure. it's just finding the right balance. we are herd animals at heart.

#a lot of people find the way i engage with others socially to be stressful (my family mostly) #and ive always wanted .. to be loved (im like a dog) #so i stopped doing it of course #but uh ... i miss it #i feel a little lost sometimes #or like my personality is intagible to myself because i change myself so often #like at this point who even am i #and i miss the surety #im not even certain im more loved than before #but . maybe i just grew up. #at what point am i just more mature now and learning how to cooperate better with others #UGH #i always have to remember theres no right answer to this #any standard about human morality and sociability is made up by other people and permeated throughout a culture #that isnt to say thats anyone is WRONG #but it is to say that i am an adult who can grapple with morality and social expectations just like anyone else #and learn what i want and reflect that in my own actions #me #ranting #im just feeling nostalgic for myself i suppose #journal