#i am. an adult. 18. adult. i have to be

[moenmomentsthemoe-en]

#tomorrow..................... #delete later #vent #more vent in tags (it gets heavy sorry) #it is like 4am and ik theres a rule that you should never trust what you feel about your life after 3am but i feel like this 24/7 WAHA #mann i #im so fucking scared that im not a good person or friend or anything im trying so hard #i dont know why i feel hurt by things i shouldnt feel hurt by and i dont know why i keep failing to do the things i want to do or #god it probably isnt right for me to vent. i think? i dont know honestly i dont know anything #i dont know anything #i have such amazing friends and people around me theyre good people #im so tired and am so very tempted to just delete this blog delete my socials and disappear off earth or just live as a husk by ignoring al #my emotions and incapabilities and stop bothering everyone #everything is so so confusing and everything has gone to shit around me but the people around me arent at fault theyre good people #it has to be that im not trying hard enough #god i have no idea if im a good person. i dont know if a good person has this much trouble and dumbassery #i am. an adult. 18. adult. i have to be #god i wish i could have an adult to help me out but its just. its just me. its a problem i made and surely only i can figure it out

[anotherpapercut]

just had an absolutely sickening conversation with a 20 year old I work with wherein I had to impress upon her that her and her friends need to be extremely cautious going to the gay clubs right now with increasing attacks happening. make sure any very young, very newly adult queer people in your life know that we're a family and community and part of that is being willing to fight for your siblings lives if they're under attack. even if it's a person you despise, you stick up for your family and they will stick up for you. we are all we have. the cops refuse to help, and so do most people outside the community. we cannot survive without each other

#go in groups! leave before closing! bring something that can be thrown at someone! park close! #heart breaking #i dont wanna talk to the 18 year olds coming for the first time excited to have fun about how they have to be on guard at all times #i want kids who are just blossoming into the adults theyre going to be to have a safe place to feel loved and nurtured #im only 23 for christs sake #why am I having to talk to a 20 year old like im their 60 year old grandparent #i just want to feel safe with my community in what is essentially the family home

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

finally at that age where i'm thinking i should get a tattoo. not bc i feel strongly about it, just seems like a waste not to. i've got so much skin i'm not using

#feels so selfish like. all this skin what am i saving it for? #open to design suggestions! (please make me regret this offer) #maybe some deep sea horrors. a pretty watercolor of a gulper eel #once saw a person on the subway with various Skeleton Tattoos on all their limbs #i respected their commitment to the theme #but more than that i respected how all the skeletons were engaged in Activities #dancing in a ballgown. juggling its own (and two other???) skulls. swordfighting. being a mermaid skeleton #ANYWAY. the only reason i haven't already gotten tattoos is i just couldn't be bothered #i'm old enough to know i don't have any strong-but-potentially-temporary feelings driving me towards it #aesthetically i prefer decorated to non-decorated surfaces. but i'm not artistic or thrilled with commitment #honestly it feels like sheer laziness. indecisiveness--nay. immaturity!--that i HAVEN'T gotten a tattoo yet #letting all this blank canvas go to waste. tut tut i need to grow up and be an adult and get a tattoo sleeve already. #really i've put off my responsibilities long enough #(in fairness i DID at one time have 18 different piercings) #(but i took most of them out bc they interfere with wearing headphones and/or shoving my face in my pillow during Sleep Time) #(i only kept the nape piercing bc oddly enough it ended up being the most convenient. and the least painful to get now i think about it.) #(neck piercing? no problem. normal pair of earrings? Tribulations And Suffering. i don't make the rules i just poke them with a stick.)

[spaciebabie]

dawg pls dont interact w/my more explicit posts if you're a kid oh my lord 😭😭 this is your only warning after this imma start blocking

#spacie spoinks #YOU SHOULD KNOW BETTER!!! #IT MAKES ME FEEL STRANGE AND UNCOMFY!! STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #YOU'LL BE ABLE TA DO IT WHEN YOU TURN 18 OKAY WAIT UNTIL THEN LIKE I DID #i really dont care if minors follow me but PLEASE have the awareness that i am an ADULT and will post about ADULT THINGS #that you SHOULDNT INTERACT WITH IF YOU ARE A CHILD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #oye vaye #OYE VAYE.... #YOU CANT HAVE THESE CONVERSATIONS WITH ME. I AM AN ADULT GO HAVE THEM W/YOUR FRIENDS WHO ARE OF THE SAME AGE

[lostmykeysie]

so i disappeared for three months because i was going through a divorce!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my muse up and left me!!!!! i was left with our two kids, the missing link and two knights defence, not to mention our eldest, the horcrux hunt, who despite being complete still needs some help. it was overwhelming and it came out of nowhere and i've now sworn off women, but if you know any hot sexy singles in the area to help me take my mind off it, please send them in my direction and i will make an exception, or possibly many many exceptions, because i love women

in other news, i just posted the final chapter of the missing link

#chimaera & the wolf #the missing link #complete #i'm in shock i can't believe it's finished #except for the two epilogues but they don't officially count #sorry this is three months late lol #i literally haven't written before last week since i last updated #the divorce was real #also i am so behind on messges i am sorry if i have ignored you bear with me #there's a bear with me! #also tumblr got ugly whilst i was away??? wtf is that about #there's probably a million things i've forgotten but #that's a problem for future me #just wanted to celebrate that this is finished my baby is 18 #a legal adult #now i can send them to go buy me fags

[cinnamon-phrog]

I feel too sick to sleep right now, everything's' too cold or too hot and I can't even breathe without thinking I'm gonna throw up

#it's because i've been drinking diluted juice #i swear the shit they put in that makes me delirious with fever #ughhhh so sick wish a nice big strong mechanoid could help me rn :( real shame #gonna drink water till the middle of the night. there goes my plans for a better nights' sleep :< #i do genuinely feel awful and i have been feeling so for a while and it's all my own doing. not eating healthy. stressing out and barely- #-sleeping. i have stretch marks from losing weight and circles under my eyes. everything's fuzzy. i keep forgetting basic things. #i'm worried about my future. i'm too disabled to function with a job but not disabled 'enough' just because i can speak 'clearly' #i've got no irl friends or family to fall back on. i can only travel so far and i get meltdowns far easier now #months ago i was treated like a pet. now i'm an adult before i ever got to be a child. #i want to be held. be loved without even having to say a word to each other. not even by an f//o but by someone who'll be willing to love m #but all i am now is sick and hungry and hot and cold and tired and awake. #i can't imagine how much worse it is for other people though. i've seen awful images and they're not even a taste of how terrible it is #i worry i won't be able to afford food in the future. or have a stable flat or apartment. that social services will let me down again #this year was meant to be a break but i'm constantly worrying about the time i become 18. my autism and lack of any social life- #will impact me and i'll be fucked over easier than ever. and that happens often #college brought me panic attacks where i'd physically harm myself till i got migraines in front of people and they didn't bat an eye #i could be kicking and screaming and begging for help but they'll just ignore me or infantilise me

[sweepy-stringbean]

Ooooo I would love to hear about/see "girlfriendsx3" 👀

Also hi!! I'm glad it didn't bother you too much to be tagged! I absolutely adore your art <3

-Sam

girlfriendsx3 is home to my spicy ronanceden drawings. I posted a few of the finished ones on the +18 tw x art account a little bit ago. But still have a few more drawings I want to do and finish up. I just got tired

Anyway here's some crops that may be familiar to some and a bald Eden 😭😂

#donttellunclesam #lowkey didn't know. that you knew. that I existed. omg hi #ronanceden #ronanceden fanart #having fun with polycules #if any adult wants to know the spicy art account just ask BUT age must be in account bios #minors do not interact with my +18 art account. I am not your parent. But if I see you...instant ban. grounded.

[wolvesbaneandbuttercups]

if syskids can do adult life stuff, that includes consent. Not all syskids are literal children ty

- a syskid (who will always be in the 13-15 range) who can do adult stuff including consent

#this is not tl say ALL syskids can consent #some cant! #and thats okay too but NO ONE acknowledges us who can and its so grr #fursturatinh #im a kid but im also an adult okay?? #bodily i am 18 and i have the life experience of an 18 yr old despite being 13-15!! #Kettu posting #discoursey #syscourse #? #kinda ig #system stuff #did system #traumagenic #endo safe #actually traumagenic #syskid

[venacoeurva]

I've dealt with some real weirdos and especially in the NSFW spaces I've been, people lose a lot of common sense with strangers, but especially when they're horny, or think being in sexual spaces (or other places that are less formal and more open about some things) makes your boundaries nonexistent. People can hardly act normal asking for @ s of accounts for that kind of thing, but y'know it also applies to SFW spaces as well sometimes because the average attitude in some spaces are super goddamn weird and either culty or reinforcing parasocial shit... or just really entitled, need it be access to the creators of something, or towards just other people in the circle making stuff

Remember, if some rando is thinks they're entitled to your art/writing/edits/mods/whatever you post because they like it and act like you're a cold selfish bitch who is suddenly bad at being in [whatever hobby/creative job industry you do if you do that] for having boundaries, rejecting a commission/work from them, sometimes even just telling them requests aren't open, or they violate rules you have established are needed to follow you wherever (such as age), you're allowed to give them the boot because they're annoying, wrong, and are more often then not holding a one way ticket to parasocial town and you do not want that near you.

You owe them nothing, if negative behavior like that towards you is brought on/worsened by their mental health issues/disabilities/so on, it's still not your damn job or obligation to keep them around or help them manage even if you're understanding of it because they aren't your friend or kid. That's an explanation, not excuse or get out of jail free, block em.

#vena vents #things I wish I knew when I was like. 18 #PSA I am mentally ill btw so before anyone starts on that last part. I just don't make it anyone else's problem #they are not obligated to give you a get out of jail free card for experiencing RSD or not noticing their boundaries or something #I just block if someone is giving off vibes that they would be the most annoying person ever if they ever interacted with you #which is to say not the average person in my notifs but there have been some #if you're still here you're not one of them #not art #I delight in blocking people like this unless they're clearly mentally ill bc I Get It Man but I'm not letting you violate my boundaries #Most of them have been just plain entitled teenagers and young adults tho

[spitblaze]

todays award for 'man what the fuck' goes to reddit for making me see pr0/-ship discourse in goddamn 2023. thought we were past that but i guess not

#spitblaze says things #i am once again reminding ppl that media and fan content are not created or consumed in a vacuum #you do not need to whitewash all 'taboo topics' from any work but maybe like. warn people up front. listen to minorities and csa victims #consider if yelling at strangers on the internet is actually helping anybody at all. esp the people you purport to be helping #realize that most people think grown-adult and literal-child pairings are gross for a reason and they arent just pearl clutching prudes #(im talking like 'this character is 10 and this one is 35' not 'this one is 17 and this one is 18'. yes ive seen it. yes i hate it) #idk. have a set of personal values rather than trying to align urself with some movement or group or whatever #also maybe give a little less leeway to ppl making purposefully tittilating csa content? even if it IS fiction??? #at that point its not 'exploring dark subject matter' anymore its just jerkoff material. maybe you can afford to be a bit more discerning #also. learn what a maladaptive coping mechanism is please #thats it i just. dont want to think about this shit ever agaaaaaain

[datexpunged]

extremely self indulgent self-insert x phobos doodle i drew on my phone Um. Everyone please look away im cringe I Know ....

#madness combat #madness project nexus #should i even be tagging this #this is embarrassing #im sorry #im 18 and i have a job and instead of becoming the fitting image of an adult i am doomed to autism and obsessing over phobos

[bookwyrminspiration]

hey I just realized Wylie's only one year out of Foxfire and he's still older than Jolie ever got to be. she was about Rayni's age when she died if my math is right. that's. so young. she was only two years older than Fitz. Jolie was so young. for all of it. to be losing all her friends to be getting married to be part of a rebellion to die. she never even graduated that's how young she was. help

#kotlc #jolie ruewen #tw death #stellarlune spoilers #it is so easy to think of jolie as being a young adult. like in her 20s #but she was a level eight when she died. the age range is 18-19 #she was a teenager just like the rest of the kotlcrew #and she was doing this ALONE #subconsciously I knew all this but i have just now put all the pieces consciously together #jolie was 'deep undercover' she was 19 at MOST #i am unwell

[sunbratz]

no but genuinely where are yall hiding. where are the mtalocalypse discord servers. i have nothing good to contribute but im kind of funny sometimes (i am batting my eyelashes at you) ((yall are all so cool let me be friends with you))

#spongebob about to be crushed by an ice cream truck meme #18+ though please sorry kids i am an adult thanks #im sure yall are all very cool too though #metalocalypse #dethklok #using the main tags bc im desperate #embodying murderface from diversityklok rn i want into the special person invites club please 🤲 #also this is not just a request for discords ik im not a mtl exlcusive blog but #yall should follow me :) or dm me :)) idk could be fun :))) i have fun character thots sometimes #i just want friends and i wanna cry about my hyperfixation to people who get it is that too much to ask #mtl #will probably delete this once i get too embarrassed about it im too out of it to care rn

[lanshappycorner]

Sometimes I look outside my scope of mutuals and I'm like.....I'm glad I'm not them (whole essay in the tags)

#im going to ramble about a very touchy subject here but it pertains to 🐉♠️ which i am very open about shipping #apparently its Problematic or whatever 😭😭???? according to Some People #you know ive been thinking abt this for a while now but people really like spouting rhetoric abt how this or that is problematic without- #-really considering the specifics of why things are bad. things being bad are not the same as things possibly being uncomfortable #like people have an aversion to adult/minor ships or incest ships because these are real and tangible things that happen and are disgusting #i do feel like people have freedom over what they want to consume/create in fiction although those topics are an ick to me and i avoid it #but also you have to understand people dont like it primarily because of the realistic aspect of it and how it connects to reality #not a one to one but because reality already has these preexisting issues we naturally have an aversion to it #you cannot apply the same logic to like a dragon man x human ship because a dragon man is not going to scoop you from the sky #the ramifications of shipping an immortal and human are nonexistant and do not pertain to reality and cannot be judged on the same scale💀 #well beside from the logic 🐉 is old in body but his mind develops in the way a fae would. and he is described to be young in fae #so up until now i assumed the normal assumption was to say that he is around ~18 in fae yrs by how he interacts with others in his yr #🐉 is like old in the way where hes lived for a long time and understands the passage of time #but hes processed it through the lens of a young person hence why he can come off as immature despite how old he physically is💀 #like are we playing the same game?? if he was a well adjusted fully developed adult with a complete understanding of the world and stuff #like idk trein. none of the events in ch 7 would be happening. its kind of like a huge part of his character that despite his physical age #he IS still learning as he IS still young #i could go into a analysis of his character but thats for another time </33 #anyways i see people . primarily young people. telling their mutuals you can or cant ship this and that #and im like its okay to not like ships if you personally find it uncomfortable but to police ur friends...for ships that arent even 'bad' #its insane to me...how do u live like this? #people really need to start thinking about the nuances and why things are the way they are in regards to fiction #instead of buying into that weird pr*ship/ant*ship thing 😭 ive always hated it its so dumb. my university professors wouldve hated it #theres no nuance like...none. personally i also think its why people have low reading comprehension these days too tbh #life is about looking at various viewpoints and coming up with your own opinion #not 'picking a side'💀 learn to form your own opinions. talk to people around you about it. do not constrict your opinions to black/white #its an extremely dangerous mindset to have even outside of literature and it makes you very susceptible to dangerous ideas/propaganda #anyways what im getting at is learn to have educated discussions with others and come up with your own opinions instead of picking a side #btw there is no right/wrong side in literary discussions. there is no good/bad side either. whatever you come up w someone will disagree #thats why its important to just believe what YOU believe in (and not parrot others💀). and also be open to change

[glitchdollmemoria]

tempted to make one of those yourfaveis blogs for sex favorable ace headcanons bc i think it would be fun. what do the people decree

#and for the record it would be an 18+ blog bc it would talk a bit more abt sex than im comfortable having minors looking at #bc i am a grown adult who would like to talk about fictional characters getting some hole asexually #sex favorable #sex favorable asexual #asexual #aspec #acespec

[rotisseries]

it's midnight my time so regardless of what time it is for you HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want to be the first birthday wish am i the first birthday wish. hello. i am the favourite mutual. anyway i know we tease a lot but u are truly one of my favourite people on this godforsaken earth and you make me laugh so much with ur silly whimsical and unsettling ways, a true clown and jester amongst men. i feel like i can start any joke no matter how insane and you won't hesitate to bounce back with it and that's such a fun dynamic to have with someone. i appreciate you and all that. ur an adult now!!!! that's so exciting even if i know ur a lil nervous about it, i promise it's not all doom and gloom and hopefully life's gonna open up a hell of a lot for you now. here's to another year of terrorising each other! love ya bestie, happy happy birthday (even if this is like 7 hours early) xxx

HIIIIII THANK YOUUUUU!! I'm answering this first so you won't get on my ASS even though there are other asks in my inbox now YES YOU WERE THE FIRST MUTUAL. it's only cause you're so impatient though🙄 if everyone waited until it was midnight their time theo would've had you best for sure. for the record you were only 5 hours early though. ANYWAY. THIS IS SO SWEEEEEEETTT WHO KNEW YOU HAD IT IN YOU YOU'RE GONNA MAKE ME CRY. UGH. I LOVE YOU TOO!!💖💖💖💖💖 TOP TEN MUTUAL FOR SURE I LOVE BEING INSANE WITH YOU BESTIE!! MY PERFECT PARTNER IN COMEDIC DUO AGHHH LOVE YOUUU!!

#I am looking forward to being 18 it sounds like such a strange and unusual thing to say. that I'm an adult. (not technically yet. 1 hour) #that's fucking crazy. but I'm hopeful #also I still haven't gotten to reading the tbos fic at the time of answering this btw so I just need you to know I am SO. EXCITED #you're my ride or die. who else would write me a vivisection for my birthday #ask #hella1975 #hi hella!🔪 #you're also one of my favorite people btw. can you believe. best thing about being 18 now my parents won't give a shit #if I have social media #which is GREAT because so often I find myself like wow I wanna tell my parents about my online friends #the things they say and do whatever I just want to tell them like “x said this today” #“I told y about this and they said the funniest thing!” and you are so often one of those people #you are one of my best friends fr UGHH I'M GETTING SAPPY. BUT YOU'RE SO AWESOME. ILY