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reptil-enjoyer · 8 months

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Cherry explanation pt. 2

I like to talk about this guy so, yeah what can i say

So, you all know this, probably, he's at the tf2 oc tournament and i talk about him from time to time, but maybe you dont know that he actually comes from a personal AU of mine! And he being a freak is way more recent stuff

Why does he even look like this? Respawn malfunction. In my hc i like to think that the respawn machine works with two things, basic information of the person they respawn (what class they are, RED or BLU team, and the basic body shape and uniform they have) and the soul of the person does the rest (brings back memories, personality, morals, all the stuff that makes you your own person)

And the malfunction in itself? Scout (Jeremy, at that time) completly lost his soul, and not in the sense of someone else having it (Medic), but in the sense of the soul completly getting erased from existance

Next time he respawned the machine worked with the only information it had

So you may ask, wait, theres a difference between canon and freak? And to that i answer you with this!

The most clear distinction he has its the gradient in the legs, his canon version having the earpiece as part of his design

Then why the freak version doesnt wear it?

His canon version is still directly working for RED/Mann. Co. Hes out in the battlefield actually using it

His freak version is completly jobless, getting fired from Red after he respawned like that, since he could actually be replaced by another Scout they just fired him in the few hours after he respawned like that.

And the gradient? This is directly formed because his freak version its tied to the respawn machines of MvM, this meaning that he cant directly die because he just respawns on the same spot after some time

(Those things)

Most of the differences with the freak version dont make too much sense, since its changing constantly and adding new things because if the interaction with the rest of the community

Ask anything if interested!!

Idea of the mvm respawn by @monopururu

The melting thing was thanks to @scutherfunkyman

Ft. Scuther ( same as above ) Bucky ( @inthemadnessandthesoil ) and Argen Soldier (pururu again)

Sorry for the tags!

#remd original #tf2 #tf2 ocs #cherry

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slimy-vore-bog · 11 months

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WARNING: groomer in the SFW vore community (serious)

Content/Trigger warning: discussions of grooming, mention of incest, and sexual and fatal vore

I am posting to tags to try to keep people safe!

This specifically occured in the Owl House corner of this community, but everyone should be warned

I will put the rest of the post below keep reading, but for now the person I'm accussing is known as "les-the-mess" on here and "LesTheMessy" on DeviantArt (I do not remember the discord name) and she is 23/24 years of age

And lastly that a real minor has been contacted by said person and made very uncomfortable (url will not be stated for their safety)

Remember to check everything I say for yourself, if you don't believe me; I would not accuse this person publicly if I didn't consider them a real threat All except the minor's statement are available online

I am feeling sick to my stomach that this happened and I don't know how to handle this. I'm going to tell this a bit more like a story so I can get it out easier

I was on DA (DeviantArt) when I saw something odd pop up; a vore edit of Catra and Adora with Luz and Amity as prey. I looked at it, because I am always up to find more sfw safe vore creators, but it was neither safe or non-sexual

There were clearly comments engaging with the art in a sexual way and the creator didn't discourage or delete said comments and the description itself mentioned how the vore was going to end with both prey characters dying.

This person had an identical avatar and near identical username to their URL here on tumblr and I was horrified as I knew that this person had interacted with a minor despite having "minors DNI" and that already gave me a slight prickling suspicion something was wrong (later learned she has even DMed them on discord...)

They had both minors and NSFW in her DNI so I didn't have anything to go after, as they didn't have any post with suspicious stuff here or followed any weird blogs and I brushed it off initially

Her posts on DA however... Very fucking damning: almost all their edits are of minors and adults in vore or of the character The Collector (Which is a child who is also a god; he is immortal, but at the point we last see them is mentally an 8-10 year old)

Now I didn't pick the most damning thing to screenshot, as it was too gross (unbirth incest between Luz the main character, her girlfriend and Luz's mother Camila) but here is one example of one of their posts:

Odalia/nickname Mamadalia is an antagonist of the show and an adult woman

Here is a screenshot of her account on tumblr:

Very lousily taken, but I was too distraught to care

I contacted the minor (who I am already friendly with, since I wanted to support the growth of their blog) as soon as I deemed this person to be a threat and the minor has told me that she has indeed acted weird towards them, but it only clicked now after I shared what I did...

The minors own words when I asked for details:

"I can't remeber what we talked about exactly since I deleted my discord in a panic-

But it was first of with the collector, at first it seemed harmless, but I started getting uncomfortable when it entered into the vore Stuff, like, I dont why but it rubbed me the wrong way but I didnt say anything since it sorta felt…uneasy to say the least, and i feel stupid because i never said anything about it

She also talked a lot about digestion aswell, and when I brought up the no minors thing- she said it was because she managed and 18+ discord server and it was okay for us to talk, and I feel this is extremely important to mention- she reposted your art to me without credit, I cant remeber everything but i hope this is enough"

Now the last thing I will say I don't have much of an opinion on, because of how severe the situation is, but I wanted to include the full message (Split up into paragraphs for easier reading)

I might have forgotten some stuff, but this is all I can think of right now

Please just stay safe, stay away and block/report this person!

#important #safe vore #toh vore #sfw vore #soft vore #gt vore #extreme cuddling #t0h vore

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antiradqueer · 5 months

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Trigger warning for mentions of fetishization, pro-c for non-con stuff,paras, and like very little of cult tactics, nothing with much detail I believe. Sorry if i tagged these wrongly, I'm not really good at putting trigger warnings.

Lol, im in the rq community but its like really confusing, i dont agree with some terms that fetishize people and invalidate others but some parts are i agree with too so its weird.

Im not sure if i should leave and even if i do where do i exactly go i dont really know, also some of these terms really help me to explain and express my non-human identity better, and stuff like that. (i only have id with transbody terms that go like 'wanting to have more eyes' or 'wanting to be taller' due to non-humanity, im not sure if that is wrong. Because these terms really would be okay and very nice in my eyes if they werent soo,, interwined with pro-c for non-con paras and actual fucked up shit.)

Also the community is meant to be anti-harasment, which is what i am, knowing that harassment on the internet wont really work in anyway. Though the community is extreme (this goes for antis too, both sides are very extreme which sometimes wants me to just stay in the middle of it.) And people in the rq tend to ignore the pro-harassment rq's by saying stuff like 'oh theyre not actually rq' and that on itself sounds like very problematical to me. Maybe not just me, i have no idea.

I also thought of id as transabled due to my heavy signs of BIID, (though i am not diagnosed so it might be something else, so i wont self diagnose for now since it might be a placebo effect due to my legs not functioning well in the first place) but the things it implied was just,, not something i would like to be associated with. So idk if that makes me unvalid or anything of that.

Im so fucking confused and i dont really like the fact i am so confused and kind of not fitting for both sides and being neutral seems,, y'know,, ignorant to me because both sides have their extremes and problems, so god i have no idea.

Also i did notice rq community using ways that are like,, weird, and i have experienced cult tactics and when i noticed it literally didnt go away so yeah. And that certainly something I don't want to be associated with and harms me too.

Its weird, i have no idea, wa.

Also i quite literally dont care whos origin is what, i used to be heavily endogenic but after a while i was like,, 'dude i cant change these people nor should i can encourage possible harmful things to them and the plural community' and decided to be neutral especially because i have a traumagenic system of 750+ with some alters still heavily anti-endo and some pro-endo. Which again makes me feel like i will not be welcomed elsewhere.

I have talked to a few anti-rqs about my experience but idk

Also i have multiple paraphilic disorders and Paraphilias without disorders, so im not sure if i will be affected in the other communities since of my paraphilic disorders.

So sorry this is like very long, i apologize if i made y'all uncomfortable,, it was not what i intended.

first of all, I will just repeat what I tell every radqueer that comes into our inbox: think about if you really want to be part of and support a movement that inherently supports pro-c paraphiles of all kinds, is racist, ableist and whatnot. you simply can't on one hand call yourself radqueer and on the other hand pick and choose the parts of the community you like. if you use that label, you are supporting the WHOLE community, end of the story. of course there are disgusting people in every community, but it's different with radqueers - for example, there are quite a lot if pro-c zoophiles who are also therians and claim to be part of the therian community. BUT the therian label in itself is strictly against that and will never ever accept those people. the radqueer label however is inherently supportive of and welcoming to pro-c zoos, pedos and necros. and that's the difference. that's why you are still supporting those people even if you only use the term radqueer. please realize there are alternative terms you can use for the same experiences, which are not associated with radqueers and/or are coined by folk who are openly anti radqueer and anti transid.

aside from that, being neutral or unaligned is 100% a path you can choose! always put your own comfort and safety first and if the discourse stresses you out too much, you can always just back off.

I don't have too much to add honestly, to me it seems like you are THIS close to truly realizing how horrible the radqueer community actually is - I mean, you even noticed the cult tactics. but it is on you to take the final step and get out and I promise you, if you do, you will be welcomed by us antis and other communities!

[I won't comment on the endo system part, since we don't do syscourse topics here]

#mod luna 🌙#anti radqueer

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doukeshi-kun · 11 months

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honestly, imo, the BSD fandom needs more dark content. Like, the premise itself is basically a seinen, and all the characters (with the exception of about 2-3 characters) are all extremely mentally ill or really messed up in the head. The fandom always waters down the characters into either "uwu shy soft boy who can't do anything by themselves", or "sad boi who had sad past :(", and it's kind of a. what. moment. I mean, I understand the appeal, but maybe it's because I like reading fics (and writing for that matter) where the character is as close as it can be to the cannonical character, so usually its kinda a pet peeve of mine esp in the bsd community when everyone hates that kind of content. cause like. the characters themselves are dark. they're not light-hearted characters, they're fucked up for a reason.

so tldr; thank you for giving us the dark content that was very lacking

i think nowadays the fandom doesn't really reduce the characters to one characterization only (except for mori. poor that guy). or maybe it's just me blocking and muting accounts hdgshshs my bsdtwt is quite centred on japanese fanartists and jujutsu kaisen. i don't really find bsdtwt in my timeline unless i follow one or two.

i understand well about your opinion. i think dark content in this fandom are still going around and there are a lot of people who enjoy it. in tumblr and ao3, at least. let's not talk about bsdtwt or bsdtok lol

idk whether dark content in bsd fandom is lacking or not, but probably.. they are? i rarely see dark content fic nowadays here in bsdxreader tumblr. and i dont really go that tag so much anyway😶but here's the thing, some people here are quick to police someone who likes to write or read dark content, going as far to report the fic. you can't even thirst for mori w/o being called a pedo apologist. when yk, block button is there for a function. do these trolls never block people? yall never get followed and bombarded by pornbots? must be so nice bcs there's a lot of pretty ladies liking my posts😔👎

i've seen a few trolls policing writers on what they could write or not. to the point of harassing them in their inbox. like, if you (in general. not YOU as in you, anon. you get me yeh👏) prefer dubcon than noncon, then it's fine! it's your cup of tea. it's your tea, so put and control how many sugar and milk you want in your tea. but that doesn't mean you can police and control and tell people what they should write. if you want to control how much the writer can write, maybe, pay them???💀 the fact that majority of darkcon writers are tagging their fics as 'dark content' or 'dead dove' is already showing that they know the thing they write is very not right/good in real life.

tldr; don't be an idiot and use the block button instead of harassing people

#tw long ass discussion #道化師-says❃ུ۪

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beannary · 3 months

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hey abt your tags on the DID survey

I would say we were a little thrown off by them? The tone just came across as talking about systems like theyre some weird misunderstood creature that needs to be experimented on, and not you know, people with thoughts and feelings.

Being interested and having an open mind is good! I'm not saying it isn't, and I know this probably comes off as being very policing

Its just important to be careful how you talk about other people, especially when we have a history of being the "other"

We're genuinely not mad because I'm pretty sure this came from a super good place, I just thought I'd let you know!

Thank you!!

Thank you for sending me this! I did not consider how the tone of my comments could come across but I also think you are misunderstanding what an anthropology study would be but also

1. that is super understandable because anthropology is not super well understood by non anthropologists

2. anthropology has such a bad history when it comes to studying marginalized communities

3. i am so entrenched in the anthropology community so i definitely did not consider how what i said would come across to people who dont have the same set of knowledge that i do and

4.i did not like proofread my comments so i totally get that i may have written my thoughts in a way that was othering which I really didn't intend! so I am sorry for that

im including like a bunch of information about my like thought process and like a further explanation of what i mean under the cut my thoughts just ended up getting super long so i didnt want to like clog up peoples dashes

TLDR: I totally understand how the term anthropology study comes across as othering and seems as if i am reducing people with DID to some sort of oddity that needs to be studied, and I am sorry for that, I should have considered how it would be understood. What an actual anthropology study would entail (or at least a good anthropology study) is just asking people with DID questions about their lives and whatever other topics they want to talk about with the end goal of giving the people who were apart of the research as much control and say over the research questions and study itself if that makes sense.

when i say anthropology study i mean that in the sense that anthropology is the study of communities and culture. anthropology has been used in the past as a tool to oppress people of color, women, people with mental illnesses, and pretty much every other community that is not straight and white and male, but that is slowly but surely changing!

I'm currently doing a masters degree in anthropology so I have read a lot of academic anthropology literature and I have read studies on people with mental illnesses and psychiatric disorders but I haven't read anything about people with DID and so i think that is an area of research that could be expanded on

when i say it would be interesting to do an anthropology study on people with DID what I sort of have in mind is basically it would just consist of asking people with DID questions about literally whatever. anthropology is meant to be a study that at the end of the day helps the study group in whatever way they want or need, it isn't (or at least it shouldn't) be entirely motivated for academic achievements if that makes sense

if I were to do a hypothetical anthropology study on people with DID my first step to begin that research would be to reach out to people who have DID and 1. ask if they want me to do a study at all (if they don't then there's no point in me pushing for it because the end goal of my study should be to help them in whatever way they want), 2. explain to them the ways anthropology could help them if they want a study to be done at all and figure out if what they want is compatible with the discipline of anthropology

just thinking of some like research topics off the top of my head (and mind you this is just me spitballing without going through the actual research process which would be much more intensive and would involve me you know actually talking with people with DID to figure out what they want specifically so this actual research question would not be applied in an actual study but im just giving you this as a rough example of what I mean) but a research question could be how are people with DID living in the modern 21st century world? I would then ask them questions about how they live their life, what they feel about the way they live their lives, what struggles they face, what would make life easier for them, and essentially literally whatever else they want to talk about.

I literally cannot stress enough how whatever research I would hypothetically do would be entirely up to the people I'm interviewing they would literally be entirely in control of the entire thing. And also any hypothetical research would only be conducted if people with DID wanted me to, it would be entirely dependent on their wants and needs, my job as the anthropologist would just be to document what they are saying and helping them navigate the world of academia to help them achieve whatever goals they want

If you do end up reading all of this I hope this was all understandable and straightforward! If it isn't then that's on me and I will rewrite it to be easier to understand. But I really do hope this makes sense and if you have any more questions for me or really anything else to say to me about things I could have said better or with more consideration my ask box is always open and also im pretty sure my dms are open too so you can always message me there!

#bean babbles #answered asks #anonymous asks #i really hope this makes sense #i dont have to spoons to look over it because im in so much pain rn #but also if it doesnt make sense please let me know and i will do a better job explaining and also apologizing

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trashsketch · 10 months

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tropes game

tagged by @hxhhasmysoul thank you!!! I saw this making the rounds on twitter and i'm excited to do it here too

How much do these tropes affect your decision to click on a fic?

-10 -> very dissuaded

0 -> don’t care either way

10 -> very enticed

nope -> if it’s a hard no and you’d never click on a fic with that tag or or you even have the tag blocked or you’d insta click out of the fic if it wasn’t tagged

__________

Bonus points for explaining the rating and whether it’s conditional… There are no points, you’re not marked on this, don’t worry :3

Add tropes that you think I missed XD

Tag others if you’re nosy like I am :D

Have fun!

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Trope List

age gap -2/10

ultimately to me it only depends on the ship dynamic itself? I enjoyed the ship in Canis: Dear Hatter, but it's not because of the age gap. I also will get kinda dissuaded if one of them isnt an adult but the other is when they first meet

codependency 9/10

oh boy me and my gf for real. we met through killugon and codependency really is killugon. It can be extremely cathartic to see it in fiction to me

enemies to lovers 8/10

it really depends on who handles it. i dont like how reylo does it, but man, This Is How You Lose the Time War is like a masterclass in how to do it. I rate it more favourably cause I think I enjoy the slight forbidden aspect to it? And I can immediately think of more stories that do this well (in the sense that, "enemies" are more like two rival factions and both sides are like equally grey, and your rival just so happens to be your equal, you hold no grudge besides what your faction has told you to believe)

enemies with benefits 10/10

now THIS has a nice flavour. I love it when it fulfills that meme "you wanna fuck me so bad you look stupid". Bonus points if the benefits begin when A is injured and goes to B's place for shelter (it was great watching this happening in zoolander)

fake dating/relationship 9/10

I've been won over by my friends, i love the awkwardness that comes with fake dating for meeting a mutual need that is essentially kinda stupid (like impressing grandma or to spite your ex)

found family 9/10

it's hxh in a nutshell

friends to lovers 10/10

GOD help me i love this a lot. it's my fave fic trope and it was literally my life experience

friends with benefits 10/10

my god. top tier. I love it so much it's good good mess

hurt/comfort 10/10

the comfort comforts better after the hurt has hurted real good :)

love triangle 5/10

I would love to see different ways of it being handled than anything from old and tired cishet dramas, so any queer spin on it kinda makes me go insane. Also bonus points if everyone can talk through it as sanely as they can while still feeling like their world is crumbling. It can be such good angst. Bonus bonus points if they can all agree on some level of poly

mistaken/hidden identity 10/10

very delicious in like, spy or superhero stories (and also what brought me on board with miraculous ladybug to begin with)

monster fu… relationship 10/10

I feel like most of us monster relationship enjoyers had an awakening after watching a Guillermo del Toro movie. For me it was the Shape of Water, and afterwards a wlw beauty and the beast drawing i did that really won me over. I have a monster AU thingy over on my danganronpa account that I love to bits.

obsession, possessiveness, etc 7/10

can be handled so well or SO BADLY. it helps when any act of possessiveness isn't too serious but is also laced with the real angst, the good shit, the flavour of insecurity. it helps even more if the couple knows how to communicate through this rather than lashing out at each other with passive aggressive arguments, which I hate to see :)

opposites (like grumpy×sunshine, etc) 10/10

LITERALLY KILLUGON. literally all of our preteen angel/devil OC obsession coming back as a popular trope. what's not to love about opposites being together and balancing each other out!

poly 10/10

So a poly ship took over my brain for a good 2 years. I'm in the middle of writing a fic about how three people get together, and even researching by picking up The Ethical Slut (which btw is a great read on how to have healthy relationships in general too, it has so much good advice)

pregnancy -9/10

It's a personal choice, only because i'm scared of conceiving so i really prefer not to see it in fic. Giving it a -9 cause I do have exceptions in fic (being whether it was recommended to me or whether it's from authors whose work I enjoy)

second chance 5/10

Again it’s really down to the characters and how it’s handled. I enjoyed it in some fics I’ve read long ago, but I won’t go out of my way to find it

sex to feelings 10/10

the one thing i love about friends with benefits is exactly this. the potential for MESS

slowburn 9/10

It can be so so good. A kagehina fic once destroyed me with how slow the burn was but it was so neat to see it growing slowly but surely. I think it can only work if you and the author agree on the eventual endgame ship

soulmates 7/10

it can be a bit tired, but I still personally like reading it! I like any soulmates au with a good spin on it though, like a potential fear behind not liking your destined partner or liking someone else who isnt your soulmate

thanks for letting me ramble LMAO

i’m gonna tag @xyliane @thehuntyhunties @icefeather112 @murderkitten666 @loudpartythumpingmusic (no pressure though!)

#text #big long opinions on tropes that mostly boils down to uh #Please Put A Nice Spin On Things or make it Gayer

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glitxhwayventeen · 2 years

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The Taken One

Joshua

Characters: Joshua x female reader

Warnings: swearing, cultural adjustment issues, angst, two timing…? If you can call it that i dont know, soon to be sad Shua days

Author’s Note: So this chapter isn’t a whole lot of reader/Shua interaction. But the next chapter will be. And it’ll be more angsty and sad so sorry for that. Let me know what you think! Shits about to go down friends. Don’t forget to check out Kun’s The Taken One Part One after you read this one! Their parts go together

Please remember that all of these chapters and the content within them are a work of fiction! They’re just for fun/entertainment!

🥀

Paved With Good Intentions Masterlist

The Taken One: Part 2 & Part 3

Kun’s The Taken One: Part 1 & 2

Bold- Korean Dialogue Italics- Thoughts Orange- Mandarin/Cantonese

Tag List- @babyminghao

Usually after a long day full of classes, the stable minded boy would’ve just cemented down in his room. He would’ve wanted to mind his own business while doing his seemingly endless homework his teachers just kept assigning him undisturbed and undistracted. That was his usual routine. Usually.

But today, he felt an overwhelming need to head downstairs. It almost felt like his body would’ve just… shut down if he refused it’s urge. So, he made the unbelievably unprecedented decision to head down to the kitchen, where the very hungry energetic pack spent most of their time, to see what was going on. And boy, was he in for the surprise of his life.

——

You originally didn’t plan on spending the day at your home after your classes ended.

Training to be a translator was absolutely exhausting. It was one of the most sought after careers in korea due to the western influence becoming more and more popular by the day. People wanted to gain a job translating anything and anywhere they could. From YouTube videos to tour guides to teachers, translators were everywhere.

It was a bit of a culture shock in realizing translating in the countries native language for foreigners was a common practice. Back in your home country, there wasn’t much interest in speaking different languages. The main concern was getting a stable and profitable job you could grow to feed your family and allow them to move up in society. Jobs such as CEO or biochemist were the normal desired target for everyone your age. But you never did care about any of that.

Money, position, power. None of it interested you in the slightest. You just wanted to find a way to be useful and contribute what you could to make society a little bit better and easier for everyone.

So when the opportunity presented itself for you to become not just a translator for some random YouTuber, but the main translator for a foreign embassy, you jumped at the chance. You were a polyglot as it was because of your family background, so speaking several different languages a day was nothing new to you. Why not make it your calling in life?

You knew the schooling would be grueling and back breaking, but you figured it would be worth it if you could help people from different places communicate enough to create friendships and bonds that could be of use, something you never saw happen growing up because of the atrocities of war. You just had to get through it all in one piece.

So you had a full set of classes and because you were on a fast track program to quicken your results as per your future employer’s request, you got no rests. No spring, winter, or summer breaks. Just constant studying and memorization.

Despite that, you were doing very well grade wise and you had actually managed to keep up pretty well with the difficult material being thrown at you, unlike some of your classmates who you knew were just hoping to pass the classes with at least a D. Because you were already ahead, and because of your constant hard work and dedication to your future career, you saw no need to head to the quiet library to study. So you opted to go home.

It wasn’t until your former Korean language teacher stopped you as you began to walk out the glass push doors that you realized your new hopeful plans of a quiet night in would come crashing down to a screeching halt.

“_____!” She called just as you managed to guide one foot out towards freedom, causing you to stop to greet her on instinct.

“I need to ask a favor of you.” She panted once she got close enough to you to hold a proper conversation.

Internally, you wanted to scream because you just wanted to relax at home in your nice comfortable bed after having been at the university all day. You wanted to pull your hair out at the thought of having to do one more school related thing.

But you actually quite liked your old language teacher. She was a native of your home country and made adjusting to new classes in a different language easier for you, sometimes even staying far passed her scheduled working hours to work with you so you could nail your Korean tests. So you decided to comply. You always wanted to return the kindness she had showed you when you and your make shift family came to Korea as political refugees anyways.

You gave her as happy a smile as you could and opened your mouth to speak, “Of course Ms. Cai. What is it I can help you with?” You gripped the text books planted firmly in your hand a little harder to your chest.

“One of my exchange students from our neck of the woods is really falling behind and is struggling to grasp the Korean language properly. She really needs to pass the class and it would be such a shame to see her fail,” Ms. Cai solemnly replied, the worry on her face evident.

She always really did care about her students with all her heart. Especially the ones who came from a background similar to her own. Ones like you. Ones probably like the exchange student she was talking about.

You lightly cleared your throat to gain her attention and to get your voice started, “And I assume since you’re bringing her up to me that you’d like me to tutor her?” You replied sweetly, letting your tired heart and persona fade as you saw the sincerity pour out through her souled eyes.

She already knew how packed your schedule was and how hard what you were trying to do was to achieve. You knew she wouldn’t have bothered you if she didn’t think it was urgent. You knew she never would’ve even brought the idea up if she wasn’t completely desperate for your help.

She hurriedly nodded her head, eyes lighting up the second the words left your mouth, “Yes! Yes I would very much like you to! Would you be so kind?”

Between your school and family obligations, you were pretty packed when it came to timing. As much as you wanted to help your favorite teacher keep another one of her beloved students from slipping through the cracks, you just weren’t sure you had the ability to do such a thing. You were already spread paper thin as it was. How were you going to explain to your family you’d be away even more than you already were?

Noticing your hesitation, Ms. Cai spoke up again, “Please _____? For me? You were and still are my best student, if anyone can keep that poor girl from failing my class it’s you!” She pleaded, making it just about impossible to say no.

She had helped you through so much. Sure, moving to South Korea was hard for most people when they weren’t natively Korean but for you, it seemed damn near impossible. Your whole life had been turned upside down when you had to run with your family to safety.

Connecting to a new life that you had previously had no intention of having while dealing with the trauma of being on the run all but broke you. You had to be strong to keep your family together. You couldn’t show any of your pain to those you held most dear because you knew if they thought you could do it, they could too. But even marble had it’s breaking point.

And that’s when Ms. Cai was there for you. She was there for you as your teacher. She was there for you as your friend. She saw you struggling to gain the confidence to go on yet she pushed you everyday to make sure you felt as if you could actually do it.

She cheered you on through every test. She made sure you ate through every study session. She went with you to meet your counselors and advisors to be sure you’d be treated fairly and that you understood all the information given to you.

Hell, she was how you found out about the interpreting job at the embassy in the first place. How were you supposed to deny her a favor when she had all but kept you alive when you needed it most?

And besides, the whole reason you wanted to be an interpreter was to help people. How could you say no to someone clearly struggling to understand what was happening around her same as you had not too long ago?

“Oh you know i could never say no to you Ms. Cai!” You exclaimed, a half proud and half stressed smiled laced on your face as you announced your answer.

Your possibly too caring teacher nearly jumped in excitement at your declaration, “Oh thank you thank you thank you _____!” She cheered while pulling you into a quick rub crushing hug in celebration.

“I promise you, you won’t regret it! She’s a fast learner and she’s a really bright and smart girl. She just struggles with her Korean too much.” Ms. Cai babbled, trying her best to hide her previous enthusiasm.

Bowing your body slightly, you chuckled, “I’m sure she’ll make an excellent student Ms. Cai. I swear to do my best in teaching her so that she can pass your class.”

After Ms. Cai went on with another round of thank yous, promising to arrange and get everything set up for the both of you to converse, you bowed goodbye to the older woman and began to head out the front door of the school one more time as your teacher waved you out.

But as if a lightbulb appeared in your head, you stopped your movements once more to ask Ms. Cai a question that you had neglected to ask before you bud her farewell for the night, “Oh, Ms. Cai? What’s the student’s name so I can greet her properly when we meet?”

“It’s Genji, Xiao Genji.” She smiled, having no idea what that connection would later mean.

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Bing Bing. Bing Bing.

You groaned, quickly smashing your alarm clock off. The thought of getting up and leaving your wonderfully welcoming bed was almost too much for you to bear.

But you promised you would do your best to help a drowning student. And you always kept your promises.

Letting out a defeated sigh, you managed to roll yourself off of your mattress and trotted out of your master bedroom to get ready.

Ms. Cai managed to get the girl and you on an email chain so you could speak to each other about meeting up. You both met at the school’s library that weekend to get the few meetings over with.

And they all went fairly well. You thought she was a nice, no nonsense person who, though you admittedly realized she could be rather pessimistic, was also thoughtful and understanding.

But, as your midterms were coming up, you started to increase your tutoring sessions as she really needed to catch up. And since the library was closed for some club event that weekend, you had to find another place to meet.

She offered to meet you at your place, but give your… current living circumstances, you quickly shut that idea down and asked to meet at her’s instead. She seemed rather hesitant to agree as well, something you found rather odd as you were certain no one else would have the same issues with others coming over to their homes the way you would. Though she eventually said she’d speak with her roommate and make it happen since she apparently really needed the extra help.

However, the night before the meeting was supposed to take place at her dorm, she messaged you saying a water pipe burst in the building she lived in and that she was now staying with her boyfriend and his friends for a few days while they did repairs. You offered to cancel and reschedule when she had her apartment back for her own sake, but she insisted that all his friends said it would be fine for you to come over to their place for your little tutoring session.

That’s how you found yourself standing in front of a rather nice house not too far from the campus. From the looks of the outside, you naturally assumed many people lived there as it was even bigger than your own home. And your own home was nothing to snooze at thanks to your newest little brother. You figured whoever lived at her boyfriends house must’ve just had a lot of family money or something and paid it no real mind.

But before you could even ring the front door bell, you heard a loud, deep growl emit from the door, causing you to take a few steps back. Genji hadn’t mentioned any about any dogs living on the premises. You started to second guess how well the session would go. Because actual dogs tended not to like you for… reasons you’d rather not bring up unless you absolutely had to.

When you managed to gain the courage to go back to the door and knock, you were met with an open door that Genji awkwardly stood in front of to greet you, “H-Hi _____!”

From when you spoke with her, she seemed relatively calm mannered and certain so the demeanor in which she had portrayed herself right off the bat had you confused.

But you just brushed it off yet again thinking that everyone sounded different over the phone than in real life. Not to mention you figured she must’ve been nervous having you come over to her boyfriends house rather than her own apartment, somewhere she no doubt would’ve been more at ease.

“Um Hi!” You uncomfortably swayed on your heels, gripping your books tighter in your hand by the second when thinking about a dog potentially coming out from behind the girl to attack you. Wouldn’t be the first time it happened.

After a what seemed like eternity of you both just staring blankly at one another, you cleared your throat, “Is it okay if- I mean, can I come in?”

Like she had just been sprayed with a bucket of cold water, Genji jumped at your question, “Oh yes of course! Please!”

You gave her a small bow as a thank you and she stepped aside to let you through the doorway, giving you a strange look when you were probably a little too cautious in your steps in heading inside. But in your defense, if you came home covered in dog bites and scratches, your family would be completely livid. You just wanted to play it safe.

Taking your surroundings in, you noticed just how spacious the inside of the home truly was, “I’m so sorry about that! I’m just not used to having people over here!” Genji admitted, snapping you out of your daze as she brushed passed you and pointed to the small rack against the wall that was about up to your neck in height.

“You can take off and leave your shoes here. They said we can use the kitchen. Most of everybody’s out of the house. The ones still here shouldn’t be too much trouble though! They’re the quiet ones. Mostly anyways.” She joked, giving you a half smile and a playful eye roll.

You returned the gestured and hurriedly started taking off your wedged heels. Genji seemed to be a few inches taller than you now that you were both on leveled feet, not that you were considered tall by any means yourself. In fact, by Chinese standards you were about average height, maybe a little bit shorter for your age. Genji was clearly above average height for your genetic class, not that it mattered to you. You just found the new height difference rather awkward. You were older than her yet your distance made it look as though she was an adult and you were just a child.

Grabbing the shoes you had just slipped off, she opened up a spot you could reach with ease for you to put your shoes in. You noticed immediately just how many pairs were already consuming the rack. Your guess about there being many people living in the home must’ve been correct. But you did wonder just how many people had to live there to fill up such a huge rack so easily…

Once the usual pleasantries/customary tasks were done, she lead you through the house to the kitchen. Truthfully, you could tell boys had cleaned the place up.

Things were wiped down but not in depth, stuff was folded but not neatly, pillows were fluffed but not fixed in place. You thought it was rather funny seeing how made up Genji and her perfectly styled hair and clothes were compared to the living room and kitchen.

Nevertheless, you appreciated the dedication grown men put into fixing up their house for their guests. Your own brothers would’ve only done cleaning as much as they had only if you forced them to.

“-And this is my boyfriend Junhui!” She beamed, going up and giving the very tall, lanky, and… familiar looking boy in the kitchen a kiss on the cheek.

Junhui, while returning the sweet sentiments of his girlfriend, was noticeably staring at you. And not just in an ‘oh hello you’re new’ type of way.

No, his eyes were deadlocked to yours in a way that’s only happened a handful of times when meeting people that you could count. You knew immediately what was going on. And based on his mannerisms and house size, your brain automatically recognized who he was. Or rather what he was.

You had heard about him specifically through your student multiple times. She never shut up about him actually, which should’ve been your first clue as you thought for a normal person she borderline had an obsession with him. But you had never actually seen him formally until you met him at the house.

Though as you took closer notice of his pointed features and height, you quickly realized you had actually already met him. More than once in fact.

He was an unofficial regular visitor of your home who always seemed to be eating your food and making weird jokes to your housemates that you didn’t always understand. You were usually too busy with homework, too scattered cooking dinner, or too wrapped up in keeping the others from fighting to actually have a proper conversation with him when he was over.

But you knew he was a pretty close friend of some of your brothers. He was from China same as you all were, though you knew they latched onto him like bees to honey for another particular similarity they all shared together. You were totally fucked.

Genji sensed the odd tension in the air and nudged her clueless partner in the side as a cue to say something or introduce himself by himself.

Yet all the boy could say was a small, “Hi” in your shared native language of Cantonese and continued with the staring.

You remembered some of the stories your brothers had told you and how the older boy acted in your home. So you were quite shocked the two paired together as they were practically polar opposites: Genji was stoic and stern, Junhui was sensitive and silly.

“Okay am I like… i dont know- missing something- or something here? Cause you’re both being really really weird.” She asked with her arms folded over her chest in a more confused notion than anything else.

That’s one of the things you did find that you liked about Genji, she always said what was on her mind. No matter how awkward or uncomfortable things seemed to get/could get from doing so. She didn’t seem to care about what anyone else thought. Whereas you on the other hand had practically been hardwired at birth to care what people thought of you.

You gulped quietly, unsure of how to answer your newfound friend without actually answering her out loud in case you read Junhui’s actions wrong. You assumed she knew what you knew based on how she spoke of her relationship.

But you couldn’t take the chance that Genji wasn’t clued in yet on the lifestyle you and her boyfriend shared. It could end up being a death sentence for your family if you did and ended up being wrong.

Finally, after realizing you weren’t going to, Jun managed to speak up, “Well… that’s just because she’s a friend Ji.” He deadpanned, probably hoping she’d catch up on her own. Which of course she didn’t.

She made a sound between a scoff and a snort, “Of course she’s a friend Jun. She’s my friend. I mean why are you two acting so… weird?” Genji scrunched her nose cutely up at her boyfriend.

He leaned down and kissed his naive girlfriend’s forehead sweetly, “Because she’s more of a friend to us than you realize baby.”

She tilted her head to him in confusion, but went on rambling about how he needed to learn how to properly interact with people and speak to them if he ever wanted to make friends with others. It was gonna be a long day for you

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Aside from the strange encounter, the rest of the tutoring session went just fine. Well, as fine as you could be when your nerves were firing rapidly in every direction as each second passed.

But from Genji’s end, things seemed to be going well. You were having her practice her dictation and pronunciation more in depth this time as her upcoming exams was an oral rather than a written one and she was doing rather well. At least, for someone who hadn’t been in Korea for too long. You were happy with her progress anyways.

Junhui stuck around to watch his girlfriend work on her Korean, something he apparently from time to time also still struggled with. Every so often he would find her mispronouncing a certain word funny and he would giggle, but for the most part he stayed silent.

He did look to you every now and then when he thought you weren’t looking, probably due to your familiar background, but he still said nothing.

You were thankful Genji let the subject of your awkward first meet with her boyfriend go rather quickly, but you were even more grateful Jun didn’t voice what he meant fully out loud about you being more of a friend than she realized once he realized the reason for your hesitation. It meant you didn’t have to have that conversation yet.

You did have a feeling that it wasn’t the last of the conversation as you remembered the people in your house talking about how resilient on certain topics he could be when he wanted to be, but you were hoping to put it off as much as you could.

After everything you had been through and were still dealing with, you really didn’t need the headache of explaining it all and your life story to anybody in depth. Let alone someone who you had just become acquainted with.

Though, him knowing who you were gave you an idea of where that growl from earlier came from. He must’ve sensed someone, or something, foreign and potentially a threat and reacted instantaneously. You couldn’t be mad at him for it, you knew it wasn’t always something he could control.

“So _____, you’ve been teaching my Ji for a little while now and she considers you a friend.” Jun evidently pointed out to your amusement.

You found it cute that Genji thought of you as a friend already. It meant that she took to you easily and that you were doing your job right as a teacher. It wasn’t that you found her thinking of you as such as funny, you were actually glad she liked you as much as she did.

It was just funny that Junhui decided to break through the silence he had created around himself with such a random statement.

You laughed at the boy’s sudden outburst, “Yes I suppose I have. What’s your point?”

“No point really. I mean, she says you’re super smart and all-” He confessed, your cheeks lightening up a shade of pink knowing your level of knowledge had become a topic for them to discuss, to which you gave a polite smile and bowed your head to your student in thanks.

You always tried very hard in school as you wanted to be the top in your career field once you graduated. But sudden compliments weren’t something you were used to getting from anyone other than your family. You were rather used to handing them out to others. So it was a little bracing for you.

“-But she hasn’t mentioned a whole lot else.” He finished, illuminating the thought of him wanting the conversation to start picking up where he wanted it to.

“That’s because she really hasn’t told me anything else.” Genji mumbled in the conversation, throwing a playful glare your way.

While you were slightly annoyed that she was calling you out, you also knew it was semi justified. You weren’t one to make many friends outside of the small circle of friends you already had. You’d just told her the basics like where you were from, that you were in a long term relationship, and how long you had been in Korea for. But she had to practically pry that out of you with a crowbar.

She’d been trying to get more information out of you since you’d met her. It wasn’t that you didn’t want to tell her or that you didn’t trust her with the information. There were just some things you wouldn’t, or rather couldn’t, say to her. Only you couldn’t explain that to her without raising suspicions.

You sighed in frustration as you finally looked up from your paperwork to face the couple, “Well that’s just because I’m not all that interesting.” You informed them both, taking the mug of tea that had been given to you from the counter and bringing it to your lips as a distraction.

Jun laughed dryly, “Oh come on- We both know that’s not true,” He raised his brow at you.

Genji also raised her brow at you, not that she even knew why she was doing it to begin with. She just did it to play along, and you were starting to regret saying yes to tutoring your favorite teacher’s new student.

“I’m just saying, you’ve been at the school for sometime now but I’ve haven’t actually seen you all that much even though we run in the same circles. I just wonder why that is. ”

You knew what he was getting at. You knew. You figured he’d eventually try to get you to admit it. From what you’d been told, the tall boy was as stubborn as a mule at times and also couldn’t really keep secrets. Though you were slightly annoyed at him for it, you were at least grateful he wouldn’t outright say the words himself and that he’d rather have you confess it all out loud.

While setting your tea back down, you shrugged, “Like I said, I’m just not all that interesting to talk about. So it makes sense that you haven��t heard much of or seen much of me before.”

Junhui chuckled lightly, “Oh I’ve heard of you before. Just haven’t actually seen you so up close before.”

Bringing the subject back to where she was interested, your friend continued the conversation, “Well being here as long as you have you must’ve made friends with people no?” Genji innocently tilted her head in wonder.

She still was obviously not catching on to why her boyfriend really even cared about such things but, as she was just as curious as him, she figured she’d piggyback in on the ‘getting to know you’ talk.

“Not with anyone that didn’t come here with me no.” You answered honestly while playing with your mug.

You mostly kept to yourself. Aside from those you came from China with and a select few teachers, you really didn’t speak with many others. Communication wasn’t the problem, your Korean was near perfect. You made sure it was so that you and your family could understand more about the culture you had been thrown into to survive.

You just preferred to not go out so you wouldn’t have to deal with possibly meeting certain groups you had been warned about. You didn’t want to risk running into specific complications and refusing to meet people when you could cut them out.

Plus, your housemates had… certain rules you all had to abide by. One of the most important ones was that no one could go anywhere without one of the males living there for protection. You were even nearly forced to bring one of them along with you to your tutoring sessions. But you finally managed to have them reel in their overprotectiveness by bringing up the fact that the girl you were tutoring was also from your homeland and that she couldn’t hurt a fly. So they reluctantly let you leave the house without a guard dog.

And just like that, Jun found his opening to ask questions that went along with what he really wanted to know, “Oh you came here with people? Who might they be? We might know them since they’re probably all Chinese too.”

There it was. You had thoughtlessly brought the questions you so dreaded into easy conversation with one simple sentence while you were too busy trying to distract yourself from being uncomfortable. Well played.

For a minute, you thought maybe you should create some sort of emergency reason for you to leave in a hurry. You thought maybe you could’ve faked a message notification saying that you were needed back home. But realistically, you knew the truth was bound to come out one way or another.

Since you could already see there was no way out of your situation, you decided it was just best to steer into the skid. Junhui already knew. And if he hadn’t told his girlfriend yet and still wanted you to admit it all out loud and risk her freaking out, that was on him.

“Okay you want the truth?” You questioned them for once, wanting to just get it all out in the open quickly so you would just be done with the topic.

After they both shook their head yes, with Jun giving you an evil smirk to go along with his like the asshole you knew he was trying to play, you rose from your seat and continued, “Fine. If you must know, I came here from China with another wolf pack to escape the escalating war we found ourselves in. That’s all I’m gonna say about that part for now.” You declared with a humph, sitting back down and fixing your outfit.

There was a silence so thick you swore you could cut it with the knife. Jun already knew you lived around wolves. That was something he figured out from his constant visits to his friends at your home. But it was news to Genji.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” She quietly quizzed, her voice barely above a whisper as she tried to concentrate on the Hangul ridden paperwork in front of her instead.

“I didn’t even know your own situation until I saw your boyfriend today. It’s not like we just tell people about it if we aren’t required to tell them. So i didn’t.”

It was another pack rule: don’t talk about wolves or their existence to outsiders. People didn’t take too kindly to them, which was why hunters also existed in secret to kill them off.

And since you didn’t want word to spread to them and potentially have them come after your family, you hadn’t ever told anyone about the boys being wolves. Other outsiders you knew who knew about them knew because they were either related to them themselves or romantically involved with them.

“I get that,” she nodded in understanding before looking at you in the eye, “I mean why didn’t you just both tell me when you walked in and figured it out?”

Once again, the silence could make a pin dropping to the floor a loud noise. You felt bad for seeming like you were hiding it from her. Even for that little bit you were there. But it was what it was. You couldn’t turn back time. Besides, it wasn’t like you were the only one hiding it and beating around the bush.

Jun cleared his throat causing her to give him her attention while he gave his mate a guilty look, “Well even though I knew, it didn’t mean it was my place to tell. It’s not like she’s a threat to you or anything. So I just figured I’d bring it out into conversation to make it more natural. Though, based on her smell, word of mouth, and the fact that I’ve been to her place before, I know already know exactly who ___ came to Korea with.”

After about a minute of direct eye contact with him, she turned her gaze back to you with an expectant face. You wanted to say something. You knew you had to say something.

Though instead, you bit your bottom lip in nervousness and felt butterflies erupt in your stomach. Your heart was beating so fast you felt like you were gonna pass out from sheer anxiety, or at least what you could only pin point as anxiety. You didn’t even know why you felt that way. It wasn’t that you didn’t want to tell her. It wasn’t that you were ashamed of anything either. You guess you just… didn’t see the need to tell people anymore about your pack than you had to.

When you opened your mouth to say something back to them, nothing came out. Instead, you heard something small that resembled a squeak emit into the room at the same time. Only it didn’t come from you. It came from behind you.

Turning yourself over in your chair, you noticed a toned boy only a bit shorter than Jun with a glittering gaze staring directly at you in shock.

He had stepped on an older floor board causing it to make a noise that alerted you to his presence. And boy, what a presence it was.

His piercing eyes, plump lips, and perfect nose were enough to make a grown man weep. He was just so pretty. In fact, he might’ve been the most attractive boy you had ever seen in your whole life.

Being in the same vicinity as him made it feel as though time had stopped moving. It made you feel nervous and excited all at once. He made you feel like you and him were the only people in the room…

While you were both too busy taking in each other’s appearance, time had actually still been moving forward for the other two people left in the room.

“God damn it Shua Hyung. What did you do?” You heard Junhui rhetorically mumble under his breath in Mandarin, much to the confusion of his mate, who had still yet to figure out what was happening.

But you knew. You knew all too well what was happening. You had known since you were young what the feelings you were having were….

“H-Hi.” He stuttered to you.

The sudden volcanic eruption of fluttering in your stomach. The enchanted stare the beautiful boy was giving you as he spoke in his stuttering tone. The speed of your heart beating. It all added up easily.

There was just one problem…

“H-Hello.” You wearily responded back to him.

You had already felt the feelings you were feeling before. And the bite mark on the apex of your neck was an all too painful reminder of it as you stared the beautiful boy in the eyes, unsure of what you were supposed to do next.

(Edited 3/18/2023)

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noxiatoxia · 7 months

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since u asked i think ur ouranposting is indeed #based as hell (literally what im here for but also i dont get the memes u reblog from anyone else either) and honestly the world needs more twincestmaxxing, i hate how this stuff got so discouraged like i used to be one of the big elricest posters literally ten years ago and now tags are dead. i like it when ppl tag even their short text posts ("guys imagine they did xyz" and im like yeah man im imaging that now. hits the like button) bc its SOMETHING for the other ppl to see and laugh at and enjoy. i appreciate that about the hikakao ppl on here a lot, you included.

THANK YOU MY HIKAKAO POSTER IN CHRIST. also yeah sorry all my other reblogs are literal nonsense im going through it (psychosis)

well anywayzz, i totally agree with you there. i was also pretty online during the "anything goes" era of the internet, and so modern landscapes of culture around shipping and shit is pretty dumb to me. In most aspects, really. I don't get the whole "us vs them" mentality of proshippers/anti-shippers or whatever, i'm pretty individualistic in the sense that i feel this shouldn't be a group thing and it should just be "post whatever u feel like and if u see smth u dont like block and move on, that easy". also cuz overall the whole shipping morality thing in and of itself ties back to morality in what fiction is and isnt okay and that is a HUUUGELY nuanced discussion that CANNOT be boiled down to just 2 sides......so i very much disagree with that approach. i know i have people on "either" side following me, ppl who identify as proshippers or antis, n just to clarify i have nothing against either "side", u do u, not my business, i just personally don't agree with the idea of whittling it down to something so anti-nuanced. but hey again this is why i don't rlly discuss this sort of thing on here bcuz it's a biiig biig serious topic and brotha im on tumblr dot com posting about twincest from a 2000s anime does it look like im taking myself very seriously here...

ANYWHO! ouran is a very small fandom at this point in time so hikakao even more so. but im glad i've found a niche community and i appreciate all my fellow posters :] whether u are a lurker or on that #grind making art, i love u.

#;noxiatalks2ya

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xxswag-daddy-69xx · 8 months

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Witchy Questions Tag...Thing?

Came across this in my scrolling and thought it looked fun! I know I reblog a lot of stuff related to witchcraft and have briefly talked about my practice, but if anyone is curious to learn more, this is the place for it!

Here's the link if anyone wants to do it too!

Do you use runes as a written language? - No I don't. I do use runes on occasion for spellwork, but not as a written language.

2. Do you feel you have natural gifts such as (premonitions, hearing spirits) and if so do you think this is what led you to this path? - I've found that I'm rather good at sensing different energies (whether physical or emotional) and I can read people incredibly well. That in of itself isn't what led me down this path, but these skills have certainly come in handy during my practice.

3. What deity do you work with if any and why?- I currently am working with Apollo, Cerridwen, Hades, and Oonagh. Apollo has been helping me a lot with self-care and self-esteem and generally helping me rediscover a zest for life I thought I'd lost. He kindled a love for Divination I haven't let go of too and is a big help when it comes to my creative work! Cerridwen has been helping me better connect with my heritage and has been a beacon of inspiration as I delve further into my craft and into who I truly am as a person. Hades has been helping me manage my money a bit better and has been a very calming presence while I’ve begun processing my own mental health battles and trauma (he and Apollo are preparing me to do a LOT of Shadow Work.) Oonagh is the most recent deity to reach out to me, and she intends to assist me with building a better relationship with exercise and my own self-image as I begin to take steps into a transitional period of my life. She’s hoping to help me reconnect and heal my inner-child as well.

4. Have you always worked with this same deity? - I’ve only really begun deity work this year, so all the deities I’ve listed are the only ones I’ve worked with so far and are the same ones I work with right now.

5. Do you use any personal items in your practice, (blood, semen, tears, urine, etc)? - No, I haven’t used anything like that. Maybe fingernail clippings or hair in the future, but nothing further than that.

6. Do you do past life readings or have ever had one done; who where you or how did you die? - I haven’t, but I’m interested in it!

7. What is your favorite magical tool? - My tarot cards! I absolutely adore them and I get in such a good mood whenever I get to use them.

8. What is a song or type of music that gets you into a witchy mood? - Anything by Celtic Woman, Fish In A Birdcage, and/or Poor Man’s Poison.

9. Where is the most magical place you have ever been? - There is this foresty area my parents used to take me to a lot when I was a kid that honestly felt like stepping into a fairytale whenever we arrived.

10. What animal is your familiar if any? - I currently don’t have a familiar.

11. If you have a familiar, did you choose them or did they choose you? - As previously mentioned, I don’t have a familiar as of right now.

12. What in the craft are you best at (tarot, spells, ritual,) etc? - I’ve done a lot of divination work, mainly with tarot and pendulums, and I’ve found I’m the best at that.

13. What in the craft would you say you are weaker at? - I’m not very good at astral projection, but I’d love to get better.

14. What is your most favorite part of your craft (spell writing, divination, etc)? - Divination for sure! I also love the deity work that I do and the bits of dabbling that I can do into kitchen witchcraft.

15. What was the first tool you ever purchased? - My first tarot deck! Was only of the major arcana and it was themed around cryptids. It's now my main way to communicate with Hades. He really likes it. ^^

16. What was your first homemade tool for your practice? - My first physical book of shadows. I use a digital one a lot more now, but I hope to transfer everything into a proper physical form one of these days.

17. What are your feelings on raising kids in the craft? - If I were to have kids, I would be open about my craft, observe Wiccan holidays, and answer any questions they’d have, but ultimately leave whatever spiritual path they wish to go down up to them.

18. If you were a goddess or god, who would you be? - Honestly, I’m not sure. I’m quite content in my mortal coil and enjoying the relationship I have with the divine as of right now. ^^;

19. Do you use astrology in your practice? In what ways? - I’ve always loved astrology and try to work moon phases into when I do spellwork and star signs into my divination work when I do readings for other people.

20. What if any ways could you practice dark magic and still respect the beliefs of Wicca? - I’m a firm believer in not harming others when it comes to my craft. If it were in self-defense it would be one thing, but I won’t be practicing anything that could violate the natural law and morals I’ve come to know for so long.

21. Do you have any witches in your family? - My mother and my younger sibling! My father and stepmother are also spiritually inclined, but I don’t believe they consider themselves witches.

22. What item can you not witch without? - My pocket sack of crystals and oils! Never leave home without them.

23. What is your favorite sabbat or time of year ritual? - I’d say Samhain and Yule are my favorites!

24. Have you ever had a YouTube burn out? - Occasionally, but nothing that pulls me away for too long. It's a big part of my job after all!

25. What is your fav witchy shop, and do they have an online store? - Blodforlog on Etsy! Their stuff is extremely well made and the owner is so kind!

26. When buying witchy items, do they choose you or do you choose them? - Depends on what I’m looking for! When it comes to things like herbs or crystals, I tend to choose them. Anything else tho, I either feel pulled to them personally, or one of my deities draw me to them.

27. How do you organize your herbs/ingredients? - I organize everything into labeled jars and bottles that I either line on my windowsill or keep in a designated box.

28. Do you have interest in other deities that you don’t work with; if so, which ones? - I currently don’t work with Loki or Dionysus, but their mythology interests me a lot!

29. Do you have a favorite time of day to do spell work; if so, why? - I prefer to do spellwork whenever I need to throughout the day. No real designated time.

30. Are you solitary or do you work with a coven? - Currently a solitary practitioner. If a coven ever came my way that seemed like a good fit for me tho, I might consider it.

31. If you could pick a certain witchcraft tradition that fits your practice most what would it be (Druid, Celtic, Wicca etc)? - I’d consider myself a Wiccan, though I hope to research further into Celtic practices given my Celtic heritage.

32. What was the most creative spell you have ever done. What did you use? - I came up with a long-distance protection spell to help keep my partner in good health and spirits while his state was being overrun by smoke. It mostly consisted of spoken word and runes as well as some protection oils and black salt that I had on hand (I was staying with my family for a holiday and didn't have all my usual tools and materials on me).

33. What do you prefer for divination (tarot, oracle, runes ,etc, and why?) - Tarot cards and pendulums are my go-to items for divination.

34. What are some ways you keep yourself grounded? - I have a pouch of protection/grounding stones and oils that I keep on me at all times. I also wear a lot of grounding-based jewelry and have different playlists prepared for me to listen to if I feel myself spiraling or getting anxious or overwhelmed.

35. Have you ever had a spell go horribly wrong? - Not yet, as far as I can tell.

36. What are your opinions on initiation rituals? - I honestly don’t know a lot about them, so I don’t really have an opinion. ^^;

37. Have you ever had full contact with your deity; if so, what happened? - I’ve mostly heard their voices in the back of my head and catch glimpses of them when I’m really tired and a bit more “floaty” if that makes sense? I have a good idea of what they look like and what they sound like, but otherwise, divination is really the only way I can communicate with them directly and get a direct answer back. The first time I ever actively communicated with a deity was Apollo. I had asked for a sign that he was present and reaching out to me while I shuffled my tarot deck, and the cards exploded out of my hand and all over the floor. The first card I picked up was the sun card, so that certainly was the sign I was looking for. XD

38. What about you is un witchy? - I’m a giant weeb. ^w^

39. For the dating witch, how do you tell a new love interest that you are a witch? - I’d honestly just be open about it and understand that there may be questions about it. So long as I’m transparent with them, I’ve found they take it best.

40. Who is a past witch that has inspired you ,famous or not? - SpiritualiTea has been a big inspiration to me! Her approach with witchcraft is super grounded and she clearly has a lot of fun with what she does.

41. How do you handle rejection from a fellow witch that refuses to do a reading or spell for you? - That hasn’t happened yet.

42. Do you think it is necessary to cast a circle when you do spell work or any magical working? - I don’t typically cast a circle for typical spellwork, but it is something I recommend of you are calling on other entities for assistance.

43. If Steven Spielberg called and wanted to make a movie of your life, who would you want to play as you? - Uhhhhhh…if it were animated…idk…Ben Schwartz?

44. What is some advice that was given to you that you pass along because it made an impact on your path? - Your path doesn’t have to look like everyone else’s. Do things at your own pace and do what brings you the most happiness. So long as you aren't hurting anyone of course.

45. What is some advice you would give someone who has not found there diety? - Trust your instincts, do your research, and be openminded. The divine may just surprise you.

46. Where do you buy your herbs? - Either online or from whatever grocery store that has what I need.

47. How did you feel casting your first circle (silly, scared, stumbling, etc)? - Very intimidated and like everything I was doing was wrong.

48. What was your first successful spell? - I did a restful sleep spell to help with my insomnia. It’s helped a great deal (tho honestly I’m overdue for replacing the jar ^^;)

49. What is your general practice for meditation? - I have a hard time doing traditional meditation, so I’d consider listening to calming music and taking a walk or laying in bed quietly to be my personal form of meditation.

50. Are you a day walker or a night comer? - I’ve always been more of a night person, tho I do enjoy many aspects of the day!

51. How and when did you know you wanted to be on this path? - I was raised Pagan by my parents and picked up Wicca as I got older. It was made clear to me that I was free to choose my own path, but Paganism and Wicca just resonated with me the most and thus when I was old enough to decide that for myself, I knew that the path of witchcraft was the best path for me. It’s helped me through so much in my life and I want to continue that trend for both myself and those around me.

52. What type of pagan are you (Wiccan, eclectic, hedge, etc)? - I would consider myself Pagan-Wicca that is pretty eclectic in terms of witchcraft practice.

53. What candle color do you use most? - I live in a dormitory that doesn’t allow candles right now, so I haven’t been able to do many candle spells yet. Of the colors I HAVE used tho, yellow and white seem to be my go-tos as of right now.

54. What area would you like to see your craft grow in? - I’d love to look more into medical herbalism! It’s an area I’ve always been really interested in!

55. What is your preference, to buy or make your tools? - If I’m unable to make something myself, I prefer to purchase handmade items from small businesses and show my support to fellow witches.

56. What fictional witch book/screen inspired you the most? - I adored Sabrina The Teenage Witch growing up and The Owl House is one of my current favorites! I have always been drawn to shows and books that featured witchcraft in general, so it's nice to see more witch-themed content being made.

57. With your first spell where you alone or in a coven? - I was alone.

58. What is your favorite candle, incense scent for magical purposes? - I adore the smell of lavender and anything with a bit of a spicy scent to it like cinnamon!

59. Where is your favorite place to go to reconnect with nature? - A park near my family’s house has a hidden clearing that looks over a river. It’s one of my favorite places in the world.

60. Do you believe in fantasy creatures (unicorns, gnomes, elves, fairies, etc)? - Of course! Fairies have been an active part of my life since I was small.

61. Do you believe in ghosts/spirits? - Yep! Have always been surrounded by the supernatural.

62. Would you ever teach the craft? - If I ever became an expert at any specific area of it, I’d consider it!

63. What if any legal herb do you use for moods? - Essential oils are my best friend! I have different ones for every occasion!

64. What is the most recent spell/ritual you have done? (slight detail please) - I have a simple intentions ritual that I do in the morning that involves runes and different oils that help me get in the headspace I need in order to do what I need to do that day. For example, if I know I have a lot of work I need to do that day (I’m a freelance editor), I would do a ritual with Road Opening oil and Divine Blessings so that way I know the flow of creativity I need will be available to me and I’ll be less susceptible to distractions.

65. Do you have a happy place you go to during meditation? - Either my bed or somewhere outside.

66. What is your favorite witchy book? - Nothing specifically witchy itself, but a book that always puts me in a witchy mood is Coraline by Neil Gaiman!

67. Do you have a ritual to get ready before a ritual or spell? (what is it) - Not really. Most smaller spellwork I do is stuff I do as it comes throughout the day. No real need for prep beforehand.

68. Do you always use your own spells or do you tweak others? - I tend to take inspiration from other spells and make them my own to suit what I need them to do.

69. Do you prefer spells/ritual inside or outside? - They’re typically done as I need them, so whether that’s indoors or outdoors is left up to circumstance.

70. If you are coming from a Christian/catholic background. Did you find the transition hard with family and the whole going to Hell thing? Basically leaving all you been told was right? - As I said before, I was raised Pagan, so I never had that issue with my family. The last two partners I had came from VERY strict Catholic and Christian upbringings, however, so explaining my background to their parents was always…interesting. My current partner’s family is very open to Paganism thankfully, so haven’t run into issues there yet.

71. What are your totem animals? - I don’t believe I have any yet, if I’m understanding the question properly.

72. What are some things you reuse after spells/ritual work? - Mostly jars and containers if I clean and cleanse them first.

73. Who helped you most when you starting on your path? - A lot of resources in the form of online creators that I found online and from my own family has been extremely helpful.

74. Do you know any good witchy phone apps (like moon phases)? - I’ve used a moon phase app and a stone identification app in the past, but the names aren’t coming to mind atm. ^^;

75. What is your favorite magical study? - Honestly, anything I can find! I’ve been enjoying learning divination and kitchen witchcraft the most tho!

76. Outside of the YouTube and Facebook community, do you have a lot of witchy friends in the physical world? - I have a handful, but we all haven’t talked in a bit due to life stuff. ^^;

77. Do you feel that the deities we work with are a force from one higher power and that all beliefs and religions are from the same one God/place? - I’m more of an Omnist and believe that all deities from all cultures are real, even if I myself don’t work with all of them.

If you have any questions regarding any of my answers, feel free to let me know! Otherwise, here it be! Hope you all enjoy! Blessed be!

#witchcraft #witch questions #witch questions tag #Pagan #spellwork #witchblr

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fragmented-light-sys · 1 year

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guess i should make a pinned post at some point.. didnt want to do one at first because we still have a rather vague understanding of our system and are still working on communication..

hello we're the confusion collective!

the name is going to change at some point.

we're probably an osdd/did system going by they/them respectively.

(just as a headsup, we're syscourse neutral, we dont want anything to do with it so please don't start it. as much as we seek confrontation sometimes, it's a huge trigger for us and we really dont intentionally go into confrontations or arguments. we hate them.)

also please be aware that we're occasionally venting but do use trigger warnings.

currently its still hard to say who's fronting at most times but as communication increases with time, we'll be able to tell you more and change this pinned post.

we're presumed 8 people right now (theres probably more?), sometimes its blurry or hard to say whos fronting. everyone who's fronting is supposed to tag who posted what (either in tags or in the post itself) but sometimes it can get overlooked or we just forget.

Known Fronting Alters:

deleted because of privacy reasons, also we want to have a more.. discovered version of this list before posting it here and just want to live for now.

DNI:

if youre actively interacting with syscourse (if you see me following or liking something syscourse-y then its because thats the most i will do and can take at the time)

assholes (anti-LGBTQ+, LGB without the T idiots, transmeds, truscum, TERFS, Karens, anti-psychology, people who think they know us better than us, against neopronouns, pro-zoo, pro-map)

if youre against OSDD/DID systems

if youre against occasional venting

if youre against swearing/cursing (atleast slight cursing is somewhat expected here)

if youre against me not knowing everyone i follow/like posts from, 1000%

if youre against me actively using trigger warnings (if you get annoyed at me/us using them to make sure everyone is safe, then please DNI)

if youre against mixed grammar/typing quirks (IE: sometimes its "dont", sometimes its "don't"; "n" instead of "and") and us interchangeably using we/us and i/me

if youre against introjects/factives/fictives

if youre against being syscourse-neutral/unaligned

this can change anytime and i hope i added everything i wanted.

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spnshameblog · 1 year

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Ich habe 8.718 Mal im Jahr 2022 etwas gepostet

384 Einträge erstellt (4%)

8.334 Einträge gerebloggt (96%)

Blogs, die ich am häufigsten gerebloggt habe:

@spnshameblog

@castiellesbian

@xofemeraldstars

@ladsofsorrow24

@ledzeppelinmixtape

Ich habe 2.890 meiner Einträge im Jahr 2022 getaggt

#castiel – 705 Einträge

#m – 522 Einträge

#ask – 40 Einträge

#spn – 35 Einträge

#anon – 33 Einträge

#supernatural – 30 Einträge

#jary prequel – 26 Einträge

#jary prequel hate – 25 Einträge

#minors dni – 19 Einträge

#dean winchester – 18 Einträge

Longest Tag: 136 characters

#beloved mutual. unfollowed. blocked. has me blocked. beloved mutual. who tf is that. blocked. wow your opinion on that sure has changed.

Meine Top-Einträge im Jahr 2022:

Hes tiny

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Literally me looking at castiel

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I like imagining dean going "43 huh? I really am an old man now :)" and he means it in a positive way, bc he never expected to live past 30, but cas gets so OFFENDED on his behalf like "dean you are NOT old, the average life expectancy is around 80, you are barely half that age!"

And dean finds it hilariously funny so he decides to egg cas on like "no but cas, cant you see these crows feet? Also i swear i found a grey hair yesterday and my stamina isnt what it used to be..."

"Dean if this is about your sexual prowess, i can assure you-"

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Personally, im fond of "dean thinks he already confessed and cas doesnt return his feelings" truthing, bc it makes both of them look like dumbasses.

Dean thinks his feelings were obvious since almost saying "i love you" in the crypt, but he thinks cas DEFINITELY knows after his prayer in the trap, so cas not saying anything back must mean hes trying to let him down easy, right? He doesnt need to explicitly state his feelings and intentions, because they must be embarrassingly obvious. Cas has to know he is loved, forgiven and wanted, the fact that he doesnt reciprocate and keeps leaving is a clear enough answer in itself.

Except, cas is kind of a tunnel visioned autism boy and he NEEDS stuff spelled out for him at least once.

So while dean is over there being an emotionally repressed bag of "if i never talk about my humiliatingly soft feelings out loud, i cant ever be rejected out loud. people just have to KNOW", we have cas going "too bad my embarrassingly soft feelings obviously arent returned, i better keep them to myself so i dont ruin the friendship i have by being greedy" and theyre both wrong and most other people can easily see that.

Cas NEEDS it said out loud, thats why his verbal confession made him so happy, the words had been choking him for ages. Meanwhile dean is visibly confused bc why now and why is cas acting like his feelings arent returned when he KNOWS that dean.... and by the time dean has processed all of it, its too late.

Them overcoming their trust issues, low self esteem and bad communication skills together is essential to me in any post-canon fix it. Dean needs to know that its ok to talk about feelings and that cas deserves the security of an actual confession and cas needs to learn that not everything has to be explicitly spelled out for it to be true and he can just trust deans love for him.

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Meine #1 des Jahres 2022

I think cas is so cute like teethclenching, stomachache, squeeze, cry cute, like i cant fucking handle it cute and idk why???

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Hol dir deinen Tumblr-Jahresrückblick 2022 →

#tumblr2022 #Jahresrückblick #Mein Tumblr-Jahresrückblick 2022 #Dein Tumblr-Jahresrückblick #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review

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lordiavolo22 · 1 year

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do you think the modern coquette/girl interrupted/girlblogher types have any roots in a particular "old tumblr" (up to 2016 in my opinion) aesthetic? i mean there's the lana del rey listening but do u think there's like. more. sry idk if i worded this well at all i'm on the last few mins of my break lol

DW at all i believe i understand!! i DEFINITELY believe so. to me, its sort of those girls "growing up". i personally associate modern girl interrupted / girlbloggers as twenty somethings to early thirties, who used tumblr during the early 10s. these are girls who are lost in their early adulthood and feeling as though theyre wasting their youth, compounded with being unable to move on from high school life, and stuck in "nostalgia". a perfect example is teen idle, a popular song then for sad girl teens, who now are living themselves that regret marina expressed in its writing, no longer the character of teen idle, but a representative of the song itself.

and on coquette as a synonym for girlbloggers... i think coquette is really its own thing, although i know it gets cross tagged. to me coquette is like the midway point between crybaby (not supporting melanie martinez, but just using it as an aesthetic example) to electra heart, if you look at them as a three part series. huge tw here for well like everything to do w/ lolita (the book)

none of this is meant to endorse OR condem those who use the coquette aesthetic, i am not a member of this community and while i do think it is honestly more harmful than good for victims, i also dont want to police victims of anything in their ways to cope. i am just a "historian" (cant think of a better word) here, trying to detail what the aesthetic itself is.

basically, to me, coquette is a take on the lolita character, but it is a wealthy teenage girl, with vintage (60s) vibes often using pink, who is """"""preying""""""" < --- obviously in air quotes, on an older man. which is how (ive read anyways) victims try to cope and "take back" that power that that was taken from them.

if we look at these three aesthetics as a story (crybaby, coquette, and electra heart) you can see a young child who is abused, to a teen trying to gain back her power by "intentionally" putting herself into abuse, by becoming a tramuatized housewife and still perpetrating toxic behavior in adulthood. all three of these share these themes, just at different points in life, and all three reflect the same """"pastel vintage"""" (which is itself a completely different aesthetic) vibes.

and on another note, nymphet, another similar aesthetic, is more white trash/rv park tween to teen victim, which focuses more on red and white, and lack of a safe/comfortable home, than on pink and excess/luxury.

#answered #THANK YOU FINN FOR THIS!!!

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elytrafemme · 1 year

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Hey. Ive been following you for a while and yk just friendly neighborhood kid trying to get a following

I try and write, but i was wondering how to start bringing up my account as to how to get my writing up and about, as well as like what formatting i should try out first in the begining (like blurbs, 1 para descriptives, one shots) (i dont do x yn it unnerves me)

... Honestly im a bit confused and lost and ur a huge deal to me so some advice to the fan if you will :>

hey hey! keep in mind that i'm just one person out there who writes, so take everything i say with a grain of salt, but i will do my best to give advice :]

i think the absolute main thing when it comes to writing is that you HAVE to write things that you yourself enjoy writing. a while ago, there was a fic i started for a fandom, and it got the attention of a pretty popular person in the fandom space, who was super super excited for me to continue it. it ended up never getting a second chapter, because while that external support was nice, i was never truly in love with the concept of the fic and honestly found myself more and more stressed at the prospect of working on something i didn't care about.

getting support for the things you create is amazing-- everyone loves validation and getting to have a community of readers is so so nice-- but you have to love what you're creating, not just go after what you think people might want. and it took me personally a while to learn that but once i did, i started enjoying the things i wrote way way more, and i think people who read the works i made could tell that.

in terms of the /kind/ of writing you put out there, i haven't noticed one type of piece getting more attention than another. i recommend that if you post a piece, you give some kind of header with the title of it, if it involves characters list the main characters involved (if it involves OCs you could describe them briefly but i am not experienced in posting original works on tumblr so i can't really speak to that), list off any major content warnings (i.e. death, core, etc.), and give an approximate word count. that way, especially with one shots, people know the length of what they're about to read and can set aside time accordingly for it.

when you do that, also, you can then tag for those things! I'm not the best at tagging my writing in all honesty, so I'm not sure of all the tips and tricks there, but I think you can get a lot out of tagging the main characters involved (if a character only shows up as a brief reference in 1 line, i don't recommend tagging them). past that, you can always look in the tumblr writing tag and see how other people tag their things; that might give you a better idea than i can.

also, if you do start to get people reading and enjoying your writing, you can make a tag list! i'm ... also notoriously bad at using mine, but basically if you get a few works up you can ask if people want to be tagged any time you post a new piece of writing. that's a good way to have people consistently look at things!

last tip i'll give is that you should absolutely reblog the FUCK out of your own writing, because that seriously does help. a lot of people also tag on "reblogs are appreciated" or "reblogs > likes" to encourage other people to share their writing. don't go up to someone directly and ask them to reblog something/why they haven't, since that is a pretty uncomfortable experience, but on the actual post itself i think it's fine to say that you would appreciate people who like the post to also reblog it! just a gentle nudge y'know.

also this is super minor but one of the good things about reblogging your own writing is that you can queue things (albeit i have never used tumblr's queue system so again, grain of salt), and hit different timezones! 4-6 PM EST is the time range i usually shot for with posting anything i wanted people to see, but i have no idea if that's actually the best time, so you can use self reblogs to experiment

i don't know if this is what you wanted me to answer for you; truth be told i was a little confused at your intiial question haha, but i hope that this is somewhat helpful! best of luck with writing :]

#nightmare.ask #again i have not posted my writing in forever and i never really went after maximizing notes so i can't rly speak #the biggest thing i'll advocate for is to WRITE WHAT YOU ENJOY #because Jesus Christ i lost a lot of time trying to appeal to people with my writing #that it almost ruined the craft for me before i started CS #and rediscovered that ppl can genuinely love your writing but also respect you #and that you need to love your writing and respect yourself

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legend-tripper · 2 years

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You don’t have to answer this but I read your tags and was super interested in the blood magic you mentioned on a post. I was wondering if you could tell me about that please? Thanks anyways (:

yeah absolutely, but let me preface this by saying i am in no way qualified to give spiritual advice lmao. my approach to spirituality and magic has been very "dive in and see what happens," which i REALLY dont recommend. its important to make informed decisions and take measures to protect yourself with anything, spirituality included - im just irresponsible and dont follow my own advice most of the time lmao.

also, this is gonna be a long one, so sorry in advance lol.

but uh yeah, i started getting into blood magic a few months after i started praying to the moon. i was sort of in a weird place with spirituality where i had left christianity a few years prior and wasnt sure what i believed or if i even believed anything, but the moon was always sort of there. like, the actual moon itself - not its energy or any associated deity, but like the actual moon. i always sort of felt grateful that it was such a beautiful natural constant, so i just sort of said fuck it, might as well just say thank you when i see it, y'know? from there, i sort of got more into mindfulness and meditation, and within a few months, my period had regulated and aligned with the full moon. it really caught me off guard, to be honest - just to recap those tags, my periods have always been majorly irregular for uh medical reasons, and nothing i ever did even came close to regulating my cycle until then.

so, long story short, i spent a few years researching and exploring different aspects of spirituality, but eventually, i started working with norse deities - namely odin, thor, and loki, but mostly odin. i researched the runes and found a lot of different stuff regarding the use of blood on the runes and giving blood as an offering, and it sort of resonated with my experience with the moon, so i started using blood in my spiritual practice.

uh, i feel like its worth mentioning here that theres a lot of information about the runes and blood magic that doesnt have any basis in historical paganism - which is fine, im not gonna sit here and tell anyone that their pagan/neo pagan practices are wrong, and frankly i dont know enough about them to really speak on them. unfortunately, most of the information we have about ancient pagan practices has been lost, and its hard to say how blood was actually used in traditional magic. i dont think that invalidates any modern blood-related practices, but i do think its important to just be aware that there is no "historical right way" to practice. just consume information with a critical eye and use your better judgement when researching, especially when it comes to norse traditions. lots of nazis out there will present "historical facts" about paganism that are just blatantly wrong, not to mention harmful and deeply entrenched in hatred, racism, and bigotry.

anyway, for me personally, blood has always held a certain level of importance both physically and spiritually. without diving too deep into my medical history on an already-too-personal tumblr post (lol), ive always had to work with and be very aware of my own blood as part of my health care. blood is also one of those things that i always associated with "magic" before i really understood what that meant for me. it was sort of the same as staring at the moon or looking out at the ocean and feeling a power or significance to it that was - and still is - inexplicable. i always got the sense that these things were alive, perhaps not in the same way that we are alive, but alive in and of themselves nonetheless. regardless of what they are and what we are in a magical, spiritual, cosmic, or whatever type of sense, we are all "alive" in this world. to me, that simply means that we have the potential to communicate with one another in some way shape or form.

so, for me, offering blood is a means of communication. i see my blood as the sort of vessel for my life force, in both a physical and spiritual sense. my spiritual practice sort of relies on honoring the fact that the physical and the spiritual are not separate, and using blood is a big part of that. my blood carries oxygen, iron, water, salt, sugar, and a million other chemicals through my body to keep me alive. to me, that in and of itself is inherently magical. assuming that what we believe about the universe is correct, those same chemicals have been part of reality for as long as it has existed, simply transformed and converted between energy and matter and who knows what else. to me, offering my own blood, which is so intensely connected to my life and existence as i currently am in this universe, is a way to express a desire to connect with and learn from other forces of nature.

uh, as far as actual practices go though, im pretty lax about making offerings lmao. mostly, i'll put a few drops of blood in a wine offering for odin, put blood on the runes as an offering to them, or put blood on candles, crystals, or other spiritual tools to strengthen our connection or express gratitude. i dont really do a lot of "magic" in the sense of enacting change in my life, so i cant really speak on a majority of blood practices or rituals, to be honest. i mostly do divination, and i use blood as a means to express that sense of connection between myself and the universe in order to learn whatever its willing to show me as a result, if anything. really, i just use blood when it feels right to do so, so i dont have a consistent practice or ritual for using blood spiritually.

since im posting this on a public blog, i do want to make a note about health and safety when it comes to blood. aside from the health and sanitation aspects (make sure you clean any wounds, dont mix your blood with other peoples, etc), its important to take care of yourself mentally when engaging in blood practices. theres a difference between offering blood and self harm, and its important to be aware of that distinction, especially if you have a history of self harm or related mental health issues. no entity, deity, spiritual or religious group, or any other party in spiritual/metaphysical practice should ever demand blood or require you to hurt yourself in order to practice, either. it should be a choice made with mutual trust, desire, and respect on both sides.

anyway, sorry that was such a long-winded response, but i hope i answered your question!

#long post #blood magic #tw blood #tw self harm #blood #ask #ty for asking!#arexhere #also thanks for reading my tags lmao as per my bio im giving you a big ol kiss

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delicatetaylorsversion · 2 years

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Hey I know that the us is fucked and headlines about shootings are always difficult to process or address but the post you made about the most recent one in highland comes across as grossly insensitive. as an american watching ppl from other countries talk about my community dying with such throw away lines as “happy freedom day to you americans” just shows how much of a superiority complex everyone has over us. That’s fine most of the time but maybe think a little more about when the appropriate time is to show it. It’s not when ppl are dead and dying. The post wasn’t constructive or sympathetic. You dont post a lot of political stuff so to have that come from you out of the blue came across as really unkind and uncaring and just like here’s a thing that happened again sucks to sucks if you’re there ig. If you want acknowledge these types of things in the future I just ask that you take more care with your words when doing so

Hey, i agree that the comment in the tags was very cynical. i definitely didn't want to downplay these events. but it feels hard to remain nuanced when this is happening so often over there, without any change in sight. it is numbing, and that is exactly what the linked Onion article/series addresses.

also i don't think everything on the internet has to be constructive, especially not posts by a random user on tumblr. take the "No Way To Prevent This" Onion articles for example, they don't really add anything constructive to the gun control debate, but express the helplessness the us wages itself in. to quote the New York Times:

The headline [...] has, with each use, seemed to turn from cheeky political commentary on gun control into a reverberation of despair.

i really wish that something would change in the us, even as a non-american. but until then you'll have to sustain my (very rare) cynical political posts. i'm sorry if my post was too insensitive. i'll try to take more care in the future with these kind of posts.

to come to a close, i want to appreciate that you took the time to write this message in a confronting, but still polite manner, i'm not taking that for granted on the internet.

i hope i could clear things up.

#anon #ask #off topic

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