#i feel like im drowning

[gworlinterrupted]

genuinely how are ppl balancing school and work and occasionally sleeping and exercising and seeing friends

#i feel like im drowning #and like im neglecting all my friends and have no time for hobbies #and like im barely keeping my head above water w the workload #thought i would have a nice break taking some gen eds but i forgot that 101 level profs like to work their students like dogs and #act like their class is the most important thing in the world

[butterflies-and-bumble-bees]

Prayer Request Update: My Grandfather is getting worse, we don't think he's got more than a week or two.

#Thursday is also the anniversary of my Dad's death #This is really hitting me hard. #i feel like Im drowning #prayer request #prayer request update

[madame-mongoose]

i wish they sold over the counter anti depressants

#its getting so bad #idk if i can deal with this anymore #im trying i really am #but #its so hard #its so fuckinh hard #im sorry #i want to be good enough for all of you #for all the people i love #im just struggling so much #i feel like im drowning #monnie rambles

[lilylovelyxo]

“If you saw Atlas, the giant who holds the world on his shoulders, if you saw that he stood, blood running down his chest, his knees buckling, his arms trembling but still trying to hold the world aloft with the last of his strength, and the greater his effort the heavier the world bore down upon his shoulders - What would you tell him?"

"I…don't know. What…could he do? What would you tell him?"

"To shrug.”

- Ayn Rand

#i feel like im drowning #i bear the weight of my own world on my shoulders and i simply want to shrug #ancient greek #atlas

[lovecatsys]

why are 90% of my mental breakdowns just this intense Need for something i cant figure out and a continued agony that i cannot get what i need but what i need is something thats impossible or something that i cannot figure out

#god i dont know what i neeed right now #but i need it so badly #i feel like im drowning #i feel like im going to die if i dont get it #dear god

[theclosetisglassyouqueer]

I heard of a torture device someone made for war.

Benign it seems, really. -drip-

A drop of water. Continuously, falling. -drip-

On the head. Just going and -drip-

going. Suffering through war. Can you -drip-

imagine. Captured. And they torture you with water.

drip-

Drowning would've been better. -drip-

it drives them crazy. it is not the one singular drop -drip-

that drove me crazy. Not the first drop, -drip-

not the last. It's not the amount of water either. -drip-

A drop too small to be important. -drip-

on his own he is too little -drip-

"I only did so once" he says. -drip-

he did not see the many that came before -drip-

nor those that will follow. All together, -drip-

it hurts -drip-

I'll go crazy if it happens one more time!! -drip-

-"she" - -"deadname"- -"young lady" - -drip-

is it just so hard to remember? -drip-

you aren't the first -drip- -drip- -drip....

#so i made a poem #im in my feels #i feel like im drowning #poem #insert well thought out metaphor comparing it to Lokis punishment in norse mythology of being tied down with snakepoison dripping in his eye #trans #transmasc #deadnaming #sad poem #non binary #transgender #anyway... here you go

[purple-falls]

Does it ever actually feel better after someone has betrayed your trust but is genuinely trying to prove themselves? Asking for a friend 🙃

#it's been over a year #I still get sick to my stomach #Is this feeling ever going away? #i feel like im drowning #Or suffocating #which is worse

[ofhouseadama]

I know there's a lot of awful stuff happening in the world and it's all very heavy but I really did not need the one-two punch of the Club Q shooting immediately followed by having to come to grips with the fact that we will likely have to put one of our dogs to sleep in the coming weeks

#i feel like im drowning #i want to ignore it but i cant ignore it #im her mom and she needs me to be able to make this decision for her #shes dying and she doesnt know why

[xx-poetry-witch-xx]

I have one day off and suddenly my brain is like oh yeah all that pent up anxiety youve been having all week that you've been actively trying to ignore and push away? Yeah well now you can feel it all at once have fun.

#i feel like im drowning

[sideblogoftruth]

I have made it too deep into Anti-Racist tiktok.

either I am not in a strong mindset of understanding to take in what I'm trying to be told about how my existence intersects with racism, negligence and upholding white social constructs.

OR some rude ass bastards are using the goal of being a better ally as bait to deny parts of mine and others existence, tell me the only good ally is one who gets shot, and then mock those who get mad about it.

I honestly can't tell the difference. and its kinda hurts either way.

#anti racist tiktok #tiktok #allyship #being a good person is hard #and i know its supposed to be #but i also know there needs to be a better way to get these message through #i cant tell the real from the bullshit #and neither can their comment sections #please send help #i feel like im drowning

[urboymutual]

hi, a veteran of parental deterfifying process. rule number one is that you've got to be patient - and not in a way that you've got to put up with your mom's bs, but in a way that you've got to brace yourself for something that might take a while. small steps are good here, as well as systematic exposure. don't flood with information - sneak it in, then sneak it in more often. don't give up. you deserve to be understood. good luck & stay safe

hi anon thanks for actually like . replying to the point of the original post 😭💗

um im gonna explain my situation more under the read more because it may be triggering tw transphobia tw csa mention tw suicide mention

so ive been out since i was 14 years old so its been about 6 years i wanna say. but lord knows ive been patient 😭😭 i think in the beginning it was kinda a battle we would constantly argue but i never really felt like. she would get to be this bad? like its like her brain is rotting by t/rf and anti trans rhetoric

like when i came out i was already in therapy and all the therapist i went to diagnosed me with gender dysphoria 😭 like every single one and she still couldnt believe it and i guess she was in the denial stage and what shes doing now is anger?

idk both my parents have the belief im doing it to make my mom made because i was a rebellious child and shit. but like it was really ur typical religious bigotry and i think thats why it hurts now :/

like ive begged her to go to pflag to talk to other parents of trans people i begged her to talk to trans people besides me ive begged her to listen to my point of view so many times but now shes like a full on t/rf conspiracy theorist

she claims theres a trans agenda, that doctors have initiative to "turn people trans" for money, that "sickos" took transgender out of the dsm because "men have a sick fetish for humiliating other men and making them into women" like this is full on like ur crazy trumper uncle who doesnt believe in vaccines type shit. and when i offer her scientific research its considered "bias" and everything i try to show her is bias.

but its worse because she now sends me videos in my fucking email of "feminist" lawyers talking about how we are "losing women" to the "transgender agenda" and how "men are trying to be women to hurt women" like ur typical t/rf bullshit and its like a mixed fucked up concoction of anti science t/rf christian ideology and it hurts so much 🫠 (she also sends me de transitioning videos that neither here nor there but cis people who claimed to be trans and now are de transitioning and are transphobic as fuck can die by my blade)

but its like . she is serious brainwashed and i think it might be this new church shes going to thats making her even worse and im like. i literally cried myself to sleep last night because like i just want her to love me and she yells at me on the phone saying im butchering my body and like she also says i need more therapy (i go to therapy every month) bc i "was molested as a kid so now i think im trans" and that i "just need to love my body" and it hurts because like. shes literally hitting every single transphobic point and wont listen to me ever

i try listening to her now to understand and to try to see where she is coming from but its ruining my mental health a lot like getting top surgery is the only thing keeping me from suicide to be blunt :/ and now i might not even have that because she's threatening to cut me off and i live in expensive ass california and am in college 😭 like i do not know how to keep going

im just a child on the inside begging for my moms love and shes so brainwashed and it hurts. but yeah i guess shes "so based" when she also threatens me on the phone. idk t/rf much rather see a dead trans kid than care abt women

anyways sorry this is so long it kinda became a vent which was like half the original point of my post in the first place 😭😭 ur advice is good anon but i dont know how much i can keep hanging on 🫠🫠

#tw suicide mention #tw transphobia #tw csa mention #sorry about the long post #im just so #i feel like im drowning

[dogrotpdf]

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#its too much #everything is too fucking much #i feel like im drowning #i cant fucking do this anymore

[tsaun]

This is why I say I'm probably gonna stay single, for the times like this where my anxiety and depression gets the best of me, and makes the people I'm closest too feel uncomfortable. I've been unmedicated for two years now, and I feel like I've gotten worse. I hate myself. I have no where to go for help anymore, I feel like I'm drowning.

#im tired #everything sucks #life #depression #tw depressing thoughts #why #i hate this #i feel alone #i feel like im drowning

[gibbearish]

love when ppl defend the aggressive monetization of the internet with "what, do you just expect it to be free and them not make a profit???" like. yeah that would be really nice actually i would love that:)! thanks for asking

#yes i want things to be free like ??? that is not a weird desire #'but but it costs money to keep up' ok and? how is that my problem #the government has plenty of murder dollars they could reallocate a few to make internet services universal if they wanted #also these companies were perfectly capable of supporting themselves before the internet got drowned with ads so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #edit: muting notifs on this post bc new additions have kind of petered out #so no one feel bad about adding something someone else has said‚ it is not bothering me im just trying to keep my #notifs page cleanish lol #also since i saw some people are being redirected to read my tags: firstly hiiiiii this is a special secret message for you:3 #secondly i have learned since making this that the reason they were able to support themselves previously was because #of investors bankrolling everything #and theyre now finally realizing that theyre never going to actually make a profit and arent as willing to invest #however thats just a minor correction and doesnt change my overall point #once again. so many murder dollars #so thats why im just adding it here in the tags rather than making an actual correction #anyways . love yall 💕 #origibberish #bigger gibbers

[davidtheguy]

why me

people really dont understand how lucky they are to have a citizenship/green card. they dont understand how much easier it gets for them to continue on.

its not easy for me tho. i have to live in the constant fear of being deported for something, or just my visa expiring or even my dad having to move back becasue they dont need him for work here anymore.

people dont get it how hard it is without citizenship or green card. i really wanted to audition for the all state choir here, but looking at things, i dont know if i will be able to. i didnt audition last year either becasue of this. i am so tired. im so exhusted

things are not looking good for my family right now and if we ever have to go back i dont know if i will be able to live anymore. i left everything behind in my homeland in the hopes of starting new and doing more and having more opportunities. but....i just dont know anymore.

#green card #citizensh #usa #i havent been sleeping because of this #i feel like im drowning #i really needed to get this off my chest

[groovetrill]

You're so plastic and that's tragic

Just for you

I don't know what the hell you gonna do

When your looks start depleting

And your friends all start leaving

You're so plastic and that's tragic

Just for you

I feel like I'm drowning

I'm drowning

You're holding me down and

Holding me down

You're killing me slow

So slow, oh-no

I feel like I'm drowning

I'm drowning

My life's okay

Yeah, just when you're not around me

My life's okay

Just when you're not around me

My life's okay

Just when you're not around me

My life's okay

#two feet #i feel like im drowning #a 20 something fuck #groovetrill #Spotify