#i feel personally attacked by this one

[captainfightingflower]

Dodo Re Mi’s entire presentation just looks like a mobile game that forces an unhealthy amount of microtransactions on you.

#Jackbox games #the jackbox party pack 10 #Dodo Re Mi #safe to say: this pack is making me hate party games #i want to set this pack on fire so badly #i hate the plant inclusion particularly #i feel personally attacked by this one #and i do mean PERSONALLY attacked by this one....fucking god #i would've enjoyed feeding a ferocious plant as a concept if they did it 5 years ago #now it just...it just feels....it just feels terrible. i feel terrible. i feel like i'm being targeted with this one and i hate it #also first musical type game my ass. Earwax is the TRUE first music type game #AND is probably better! Play Earwax. It's really good!

[ourfavoritetorturedwriter]

#alan wake 2 #alan wake #alex casey #ilkka villi #sam lake #i am not immune to beautiful finnish men #my adventures with photo mode #virtual photography #THE GODDAMN COLORING #i am. going. insane. #i feel personally attacked by the color yellow #i swear both of these shots looked good at one point #just...don't look at them for too long #originally i didn't even try to color correct these but y'all were so nice on the other post so i gave it another try :3 #i kinda gave up on the alan shot though #i tried #but it's not getting any better #i'm over it honestly #enjoy

[thedisablednaturalist]

If I ever went scuba diving I would probably drown due to the fact I would start screaming in pure ecstasy the second I saw 1 crab

#wrenfea.exe #i have to be careful how much invertebrate content i digest at once #bc i will have a fucking heart attack from how much pure adrenaline and dopamine surge through my veins when I see one #literally i get so happy i start feeling dizzy and faint #i also become the most annoying person in the world #marine biology #fishblr #invertebrates #scuba diving #i have screamed out loud when watching my friends scuba videos #i stood up and starting whooping and hollering when a baracuda swam by #she was not amused

[larphis]

Sometimes I think “God, I am just like Ed” and then I start putting him on a pedestal and make big paragraphs to say that he never did anything wrong in his life and how he’s actually just a very soft person that is hurting deep inside and needs a forehead kiss and then I look in the mirror and realize that I am in fact Stede Bonnet.

#ofmd #our flag means death #stede bonnet #Edward teach #ofmd fandom #I feel like deep down every ‘he’s just like me’-Ed apologist is just a Stede Bonnet in disguise #because let’s be real this is such Stede behavior #I am in fact such a soft person but I always wanna appear tough and cool #I have an avoidant attachment style and am dating the man of my dreams but am rarely spending time with him #because my instinct is to run away once something good starts happening to me #I am such a Stede and honestly perhaps that is one of the many reason why I relate to this show so much #like yes babe I wanna kiss Taika Waititi too only to get a panic attack and run back to the life I hate #sigh

[antihibikase-archive]

It is incredibly isolating to navigate through fandom as an aromantic person. Aro experiences are so varied, and there is no definite aro experience that encapsulates the alienation that fandom spaces cause for certain people.

Fandom is mostly built and structured on shipping. And if not, the blorbofication of characters, which tends to go down the shipping pipeline; where does that leave the romance repulsed aro person who genuinely does not want to see any form of shipping? Platonic dynamics, right?

Yeah, sure. But by platonic dynamics, it's only "best friends" or "family" right? Where does that leave the aro folks with undefined labels? No, qprs aren't a get-out-of-jail card.

And qprs- they have no rules or standards set upon them by society, not even having a clear definition for what it is, because not all qprs are the same. Yet, for some reason, it ended up becoming the "nonbinary" option to a lot of people- not romantic or "regular" platonic? Qpr it is, right?

But where does that leave the aro folk who don't want a qpr? Who don't wish to see characters depicted in pairs or trios or so forth- who embrace the lack of a partner?

And these concepts presented; when aro folk talk about them, do you care? And if you do, do you understand? Do you try to?

If you aren't aro, but wish to be supportive, are you a genuine ally? Do you raise the concerns of aro folk you share the space with?

Or do you take a look at these concepts- and decide you understand them "well" enough? Do you decide to speak for aro folks instead?

Do you depict relationships outside of romance because you believe in the importance of platonic relationships? Will you accept the fact that not all platonic interactions will be familial or "best friends"?

Can you accept depictions of qprs outside of "more than friends, less than lovers"? Are you willing to accept it is not just "best friends" or "romance lite"? Will you accept that nothing is inherently romantic- and characters in a qpr may fall under your standards of lovers?

Can you resist the urge to put every character in a pair or trio or group? Are you comfortable with the notion of characters finding more joy in being by themselves, outside of all those lenses you see them in?

It's good if you can.

And if you can't, at the very least, do you understand why some aro folk in your space are upset? Embittered by your favorite ships? Starving for representation?

Did you depict these characters with these concepts with the knowledge that aromanticism is fluid?

#antihibikase.txt #Long Post #((I'm sorry. I have been thinking about this for weeks and I am unhappy.)) #((Honestly? I have been feeling more and more isolated in fandom recently.)) #((It hurts. I know non aro folks are trying.)) #((And its hard to describe. It's alienating.)) #((And the typical fandom response is more representation- which is well-meaning.)) #((But. Specifically to non aro folk. When you depict these aro concepts are you normal about them.)) #((Do you do so respectfully.)) #((Reminder that qprs are not restricted to aro folks btw.)) #((I'm so so tired. It's easy to say you care but then completely miss the mark.)) #((And just in case- this is NOT alluding to anyone. Please allow me to let my rage be my own.)) #((Or to share this with those who understand.)) #((And if you as a non aro person feel attacked by this- sorry.)) #((I did my best to word this as firmly as possible without sounding angry because I am aware that-)) #((-many will read this in bad faith.)) #((Okay to reblog btw.)) #((This isn't one of my usual rambles despite it being under my txt tag.))

[moeblob]

AU where Brent is a drone to help out at crime scenes and offer input after Right finds the drone. And basically he befriends the really weird guy possibly controlling the drone but has his doubts as to how human the drone's source can be. So Right and Brent just go around trying to solve crimes while Right just calls the drone "Fuckwad (affectionate)".

#my characters #i love right so much and i think he would actually do pretty dang well with a lil assistant drone because not a person #which means not liable to get hurt with a bit of contact so he can just #tap the lil drone or poke it to push it away a little #anyway hi i had a very VERY bad morning and im not gonna lie #i was genuinely at one point thinking huh what if i get hospitalized that sure would suck #and i was thinking huh maybe i should think of how to instruct my mom on how to post on tumblr to tell you guys im hospitalized #which in my defense i had to bother my mom at 2am bc i went down to get pain meds and couldnt make it upstairs #and was breathing so intensely on the stairs hunched over i was like hmmmm not the usual panic attack feelings #and she immediately asked me if i wanted to go to the hospital #so im like cool not gonna let that outta my mind thats fine surely no problem #just gonna fixate on being hospitalized #anyway i finally got helped upstairs and was in incredible pain and couldnt breathe v easily #and it was leading to a bit of a panic attack because i was in so much pain simply trying to inhale and #my breathing was so shallow and sharp and my arms were just having bad circulation and shaking and hm #yeah it was p bad #anyway as a treat to myself not being in a hospital i drew my beloved raccoon son right

[supercalime]

I’ve been lurking in the 911 tags for only a week and I’m already exhausted of most b*ddie shippers holy shit

#the annoying ones know who they are #this isn’t a personal attack #I truly don’t want them to become canon out of spite #why even tag your hate in the goddam tag dedicated to another ship #Tommy’s tag has a lot of hate and people talking about eddie how there’s clues etc etc #I haven’t been deeply involved in fandoms in the last few years for this exact reason #when it becomes too meta it kinda ruins it for me #people digging through interviews and trying to find evidence in situations that weren’t intended that way in the writing drains you #sorry to break it to you #but Bucky is into tommy and was since the beginning of meeting him #yall going #well actually #he’s in love with eddie but doesn’t know and misplaces it with Tommy #is tiring #I don’t know if b*ddie will be canon but not everything has to be about romance with them #they seem to have a connection that goes even deeper than romance #having them be a couple just kinda irks me #they don’t need to be two bros sitting in a bathtub five feet apart but they seem like soulmates in a way that I don’t see as romantic #I say as an aromantic person too #deep connections can be just as intense and interesting if even more than coupling up #obviously not tagging the ship name cause I’d be lynched if I do #and again this isn’t about the actual ship it’s more about the fandom and how they feel entitled to claim theories as facts #lety rambles #tommy kinard #tevan #tuck #911 #911 abc #911 show #bucktommy

[overtake]

admitting ur a larrie and saying it brought you to your current ship is such a brave personal choice. this comment should be an official diagnosis in the dsm-5.

#ive had this in my drafts for ages but ppl are being weird so im here to be a hater sorry #and this just feels timely with people being attacked for telling people to get reading comprehension #like if ur ever comparing ur ship to larry then plz do some personal reflection #larries are fucking batshit off the wall out of this world unhinged #ships are supposed to be lighthearted and fun and something that makes you happy #i have plenty of fun w max and daniel content #but i cannot keep reading the unhinged levels some people are reaching w l*stappen #it’s transitioning from ‘i like the content and their interactions and ao3!’ #into ‘i am inventing evidence and connecting dots and genuinely believe these two men are fucking’ like i fear its not fun and games anymore #this is nothing against l*stappenies themselves at all. keep on keeping on #this is all about the weird ones #theres weirdos in any ship but the number of them keeps increasing w this particular one so i just wanted to say. plz do not be larries. #(sorry for the asterisks like l*stappen is a slur i just dont want it to show up in the tag lol)

[camgoloud]

one small detail that stood out to me about this latest episode that i haven’t seen anyone else talking about yet is that when the commentators are calling colin “inspiring” and the “man of the match,” they are celebrating him not for actually scoring the goals himself, but for providing the crucial assists to make both of them happen. and i really love that because for me it’s the absolute perfect wrap to his character arc across all three seasons!

like, we know that colin’s job on this team has never been to score goals. in fact i’m pretty sure we’ve never heard about a single goal that he has scored. colin is and always has been a team player, not a star—and we’ve seen that crop up over and over. notably, we’ve seen the fact that he’s not entirely at peace with that crop up over and over: see the way he was affected by nate’s entire holidy-inn-painting monologue, being benched to make room for zava, etc.—like, this is the thing he’s sensitive about! this is where all of his insecurities come from!

but at the SAME TIME it’s also tied very intimately with all his struggles re: hiding his sexuality— “colin’s a chameleon,” etc. it’s fascinating because there’s SO much tension there between colin 1. feeling bad about the fact that he never stands out on the pitch the way some of his teammates do, because of who he is on the team, and 2. feeling like he CAN’T stand out, ever, because of Who He Is As A Person. etc. it’s like. he’s filling this role in the background. he’s afraid he’s not doing it well enough. he’s afraid that what and who he is isn’t good enough and isn’t worthy of recognition. he wishes he were someone different. trying to be someone different in the locker room is clearly making him so unhappy and stressed out. it is All Connected and my thoughts have been doing laps around it at an ever-increasing rate since i watched episode 2.07 ‘headspace’ if not before!

and all of this is why it’s so incredible to me that in the end, colin’s big moment comes from making assists and not goals! because on the one hand i understand the fandom desire for the colin post-coming out glowup that we all knew was coming—to see him, like, ~prove everybody wrong about him~ and inspire people by suddenly becoming a standout player and scoring goals left and right, even though that never used to be his role on the team before. and don’t get me wrong, i was 100% on board that train, and would have loved it for him if that was how it went down in the end, also. i think he should get to score here and there! as a treat! especially now that richmond are playing total football and there’s been so much emphasis placed on how it’s not just jamie/dani/occasionally sam who are making all the goals anymore!

but i don’t know! especially after the events of the last few episodes, there’s something very special to me about getting to see a colin who, rather than becoming someone entirely new in the moments right after coming out, just feels free to become, and be at peace with, the best version of the same self he’s always been. he’s still a team player first and foremost, but now that he’s not as weighed down by the need to chameleon/hide/pretend to be someone he’s not, he’s so much better at it. and everyone sees this! he gets to be celebrated for his contributions within the role he’s always played! he (and everybody else!) finally recognizes the value that he adds to the team just by being himself—fully himself! it resolves all the tension and insecurity that we’ve seen him struggling with this whole time, on every level. and so this moment was genuinely the perfect ending for his journey in my opinion—i’m so so happy that we were tall enough to join him on the ride here, and so excited to see what he does going forward these last few episodes now that some of that pressure is off him <3

#it's like. he doesn't want to be a spokesperson! he shouldn't have to End Homophobia by becoming zava 2.0! in fact it would not be possible #for him to do this even if he DID come out publicly and then became the best goal-scorer the league has ever seen because the people who are #the problem will ALWAYS manage to find something to attack him for no matter what he does #what's important to me and i think to him as well is that he has the confidence in himself that he needs to perform at his own personal best #and that his teammates recognize this and support him the same way he has always supported them both on and off the pitch #and while a part of me would have liked to see a public coming-out arc i completely get why they're not going there. it would be a lot to #tackle and this season is already getting justified criticism for spreading itself too thin #i think it would have been POSSIBLE to do and do well but. it would place a LOT of constraints on the entire rest of the plot #and i do recognize somewhere in the back of my brain that colin is not ACTUALLY the protagonist of this show for most people #so them choosing to take the character in the ‘i don’t want to be a spokesperson’ direction instead makes sense and was handled very well #anyway. one other reason i’m pleased about all of this is that while most of my recent tl fic is no longer canon-compliant as of this week. #i sure did NAIL the happy ending being an assist and not a scored goal. have been thinking these thoughts for WEEKS and i feel so vindicated #ted lasso #ted lasso spoilers #colin hughes

[mejomonster]

I need to find someone who worded this better but. This is your friendly reminder that a woman can be as masculine as she wants. A man can be as feminine as he wants. A nonbinary person can be feminine and masculine and androgynous and whatever they want: everyone can! Your expression and appearance and hobbies etc do not have to conform within a box to be allowed to exist, do not have to match those rigid lines of societys expectation of gender roles in any way at all for you to Be the Gender you Are. You are the gender you feel you are. Your expression can be and is whatever you want, and does not have to match up to expectations.

#rant #gender #by this i mean: a woman can never want to have a baby. a man can love childcare #a woman can be butch and LOVE being a woman. a man can be feminine and love makeup and dresses and LOVE being a man #a nonbinary person can LOVE their beard and their suits and HATE #dresses and STILL BE NONBINARY #changing ones expression of masculinity and femininity to make yourself feel more awesome and happy? YAY #but also. many people have to be a certain amount masc or fem for societal pressures. #how many people wear makeup (a feminine expected activity) out of pressure and not joy #how many people NEVER wear a dress cause it will get them attacked or arrested in some places (even if they LOVE DRESSES) #their choice to wear makeup or to avoid dresses may not be THEIR preferred life. it may be the choice they make to fit in and avoid attack #if a trans person is not being respected at work pre hormones? is misgendered constantly? is disrespected? #then yes. hormones and gtowing a beard might finally get fucked up strangers to shut the fuck up #(also for many people the physical changes are cool and awesome! but its also like #a person should and does not Have to change anything physically or lifestyle wise for YOU to #believe them when they say im X gender. period) #i am a huge believer in people not needing to conform to stupid gender role boxes if they dont ficling want

[itspileofgoodthings]

my life is a very slow process of everyone around me telling me not to be anxious and me fighting them all tooth and nail while inching towards more stable mental health.

#I know it’s not true but sometimes I feel like if I didn’t have anxiety I would not suffer at all #which. again. is false #but there’s a lot of things I don’t want in this life and a lot of things I am not scared of and a lot of things I just accept #and like. It’s FINE #but all my suffering from anxiety stays in one fixed flame of sheer agony #and it’s hard because I don’t shake like a chihuahua in the corner of my bedroom #unable to move or function #I’m always doing things and functioning and joking at parties and (generally) saying the right thing #but it’s all located in one corner in the middle of my mind attacking my ability to make judgments and live with my decisions peacefully #like an unseen wound #and the distance i feel it puts between me and other people #is one of the most painful things #just several sheets of frosted glass between me and them #and sometimes the worst it gets is when I can bear it without breaking down and so I just do and I just keep functioning #and the cold just creeps in and everything goes kind of numb! #tbh now that I think about it this might be why I often think of myself as a person with no desires or ambitions or dreams #or impetus or forward motion or anything #because I DO want things and have opinions and the exist in flashes. But also they’re buried deep under several layers of protective apathy #so they’re not stable. I drop them many times. forget them ignore them imagine that they aren’t there. I’m sorry I’m rambling I’m FINE #actually when I talk about it that’s how you know I’m doing okay with it #when I can’t talk about it and am half-heartedly going through the motions #that’s the problem #anyway whew. thanks for listening sorry for all the self-reflection etc. etc. etc.

[royalberryriku]

Thinking about how "self defence" is considered okay until a country the west is not allied with does it.

#yes this is about iran #israel attacked first and then they responded and now everyone is like “wait wait they can't do that!” #and I'm just sitting here looking at Palestine like ??? #And look I'm not saying I condone any violence esp against civilians #but I am saying it's bery ironic and telling #when Israel fucks around and finds out #I am kind of here like damn finally tasting the taste of your own spit that you spat at another #must feel like throwing stones in a glass house eh Israel is kinda the feel I'm feeling rn #but anyway #also a note while I say I'm generally against violence I do think resistence is expected and deserved when colonial powers oppress people #I'm specifically talking about how I'm not condoning any attacks on civilians #BUT resistance is justified while Palestine is occupied #and long live the Antifada #both are two things that coexist for me here #and things I think are being honoured in the resistence the more I hear of personal accounts of said civilians #*civilians #When one military side says “oh this happened!” only to be proven as liars over and over again #then the hostages themselves say “no we were attacked with friendly fire from israel” #and for that to be proved?? #Then hearing how said hostages say “Hamas put their bodies on the line to cover us from said friendly fire” like?? #maybe Hamas aren't the aggressors when they treat their hostages like this and israel has killed their own just to get at Hamas and civ- #-illians alike #tag comments are a mess and probably don't accurately portray feelings fully but long live the antifada and down with colonialist lies

[greenclouds]

sorry but I’ll be on my deathbed defending roman for the comment about kendall’s kids. obviously saying someone’s adopted/non-bio kids aren’t really theirs is a horrible thing to say. but he’s not saying it, logan did. roman is just using it as a pointed example of why the conversation was so ludicrous in the first place. this is who our father was. this is the kind of thing he believed. none of this matters.

and kendall fucking deserved it

#succession #succession hbo #I have personal experience with that extremely hurtful viewpoint on adopted children #but I really feel roman was using it as an attack on kendall’s logic rather than on his kids #oh dad wanted to keep the company in the bloodline? that’s your big argument? well dad also thought you didn’t have one #if anything the fact that he literally didn’t raise them makes them not his #roman roy #kendall roy

[victorie552]

You know, I wonder how Fingolfin's people were holding on while on Ice, like, spiritually. (not the royal family, their people) I think that, after few years, at least some of them were treating the Ice as a Valar punishment for Alqualonde.

When they came to Beleriand, the Moon rised for the first time, not to mention the Sun. They could see it as being forgiven. And of course there was Fingon rescuing Maedhros with eagle's help, which solidified the belief for them.

it suprisingly didn't make things between Feanorian and Fingolfin's people worse during Long Peace. It absolutely broke the Noldor after Nirnaeth, when everyone blamed Feanorians lack of repenting to the Valar for losing the battle.

#silm #silmarillion #not my best post but I think it's an interesting worldbuiding concept #there would be a lot of 'why me?' and 'why did it happen to us?" on the Ice #and sure the main problem is always Feanor #but unless you're Fingolfin you can't plan to personally beat him up to make you feel better about your situation #and there would be a lot of guilt about Alqualonde at least in Fingon's group who actively helped with kinslaying #a lot of rationalizations and redirections would happen #I'm just saying it's a potent ground for some religious feelings to emerge #tolkien didn't put religion as an institution in his works #one of his best ideas #but everyone seems to agree that religion as in spirit of catholicism is very much there #so. one more difference between Noldor fractions that was hush hush hushed during the Long Peace #but exploded in everyone's faces when Morgoth attacked for real this time #anyway #have a nice day everyone

[kaldurcalm]

Someone shared a post about the pear of anguish, saying it was used to torture slaves, and I thought its design was interesting but something felt slightly off, so I looked it up.

The first thing you see when you look this thing up is that its usage is disputed.

Apparently the mechanism doesn't seem to work the way it's said to work? It's said that people would slowly enlarge the opening in order to spread an orifice wider and wider, and that it could even break jaws.

The thing is, this device does not seem to open in this way. It seems to spring open. The screw mechanism is for closing it.

I relayed this information, thinking this was someone who would actually care about fact checking. "It might not actually have worked in this way. Its usage is disputed."

For some fucking dadblamed reason, they took this as me... questioning the existence of racism? And denying the suffering of black people?

I do a little more digging, and it's basically the same thing over and over. One guy insists that it's totally a torture device, because why else would it be in torture chamber museums?

I don't know, buddy, maybe because people like to make up stories and scare others.

That's one running theory for the existence of this thing: people wanted a good story. They wanted to be able to sell that story in order to make money. So they made elaborate devices and charged people to see them, or displayed them in order to scare their guests.

This part of the speculation, by the way, is from medieval times. There are no modern accounts of this item's usage.

We have so many accounts of slavery. We have so many ways to spread information. We're still able to converse with some of the children of the people who are still alive. We can still see the documents they left during that time.

Why would they leave this out? If it were actually in use, why would they relay the whippings, the confinement, the rape, the starvation, the harsh working conditions, the lynchings, the forced assimilation, and just... not mention this part?

Their friend piled on. I told him my statement was based on the way the device functions, and not "white people wouldn't do that." I told them that I didn't expect better from him, because I didn't know him, but I did expect better from them.

Apparently this was me making assumptions.

Gonna be honest, I didn't read the entirety of their responses, because this sort of thing is maddeningly upsetting to me. I thought I was safe to say something because, when I accidentally sent them a video by Alexis Nelson, they called it funny and informative. I know that doesn't seem like much, but... honestly, Alexis isn't going to be up everyone's alley, and sometimes that's due to bigotry. So I thought they would actually care, and not be mad about being checked. I've been in that situation plenty of times, and I normally don't say anything if I don't think I'm going to get through. I only say something if I have hope for that person.

I thought I might actually have a potential friend, and said person responded to "Hey this information might not be accurate" with... honestly, I can barely even parse the way they worded things? Something about slavery happening whether it was disputed or not.

I just wanted to fact check an unsourced facebook post.

#this has contributed to me feeling like no one wants to listen to anything i have to say and every relationship i have is doomed to fail!! #which I recognize is unhealthy!! #fellas is it splitting to get mad and unfriend someone for this nonsense #hm. maybe not what splitting is. #it's just so frustrating when someone is self righteous about their victim mentality #and every additional 'I'm not attacking you actually!' statement is perceived as an additional attack #I know I've done that but I'm WORKING ON IT #so it's frustrating to encounter in the wild and it sends me into the stratosphere #the fuck do you MEAN 'slavery happened even if it was disputed' i meant the SPECIFIC DEVICE YOU'RE MAKING CLAIMS ABOUT #I'm wildly oversimplifying. it was one hell of a sentence. #WHY DO YOU WANT MORE PAIN #THERE'S ENOUGH AS IT IS #WHY IS BAD IF I SAY THIS MIGHT NOT HAVE ACTUALLY BEEN USED TO HURT PEOPLE #WHY AM I THE ENEMY #WHY AM I THE ONE MAKING ASSUMPTIONS #I THOUGHT WE COULD BE FRIENDS #sorry I'll go try to forget about this now #between this and someone saying she needs ai because commissions are too expensive and free images aren't good enough i just... #don't feel like saying anything to anyone anymore #and I missed my window for productivity today. I should have sat down to write and I didn't #and now I'm tired and frustrated because bg3 glitched wyll's cape away and i don't know which save to load to get it back #or if it's my compute #it already ate my opportunity to get everything from dammon #i might need to reinstall #personal #why did i even try. i was shaking so bad. why does it hurt this much. #torture device

[cakebatteronabrickwall]

Sure, “the cycle is cycling” is a fun and cute thing to say but in all honesty? To me, the succession ending sort of accidentally broke that logic. Can you really draw the logical conclusion that the siblings end up like Ewan and Logan? No, because what was the reason for their estrangement? Ultimately, Ewan resents Logan for letting himself become the person he died as. Why was Logan like that? Because of the company (very simplisitc, there is more here obviously). Shiv literally takes that possibility away from Kendall by voting against him.

Does that mean being “out” magically fixes their shit? Of course not. Here is the thing. Kendall will always be trapped in the cycle of thinking he was meant to be CEO, it was instilled into him as a child! Part of him will always resent Shiv for her vote and will always come back to this formative moment. But. Does that mean he can never care about anything else, doomed to wander around as an empty shell? I don’t think so, we’ve been through the epic highs and lows of corporate fuckery with Ken, he somehow always returns to himself in the end, partially because of his siblings.

Shiv will always be stuck knowing that her being a woman plays a major part in the way her father and every other man in her life treats her. That resentment won’t go away either, it may even take a new shape with motherhood mixed in. But also, she is probably working a new angle with Tom as we speak. Maybe she’ll return to her political roots, who knows, she certainly will do everything to not become her mother even if she jokes about the opposite at the funeral. But the most important thing to me is the fact that, even in her resentment towards Ken, she tells him “I love you, but I can’t fucking stomach you”. The first part did not need to be there. And yet.

And Roman (always hardest to talk about for me, lol). Well, he will always look for guidance outside of himself, he will always need his family. His ending is lonely on one side, but there is a quiet beauty in it as well. After everything, there is a moment of solitude and being able to breathe, even reminisce. He just started really grieving and wherever the path leads, it will never lead back to Logan. It can’t. He will always love his father (and I need to take the moment to say- that is totally fine, we as observers have a different view on their relationship than him), but his father will never be able to abuse that or hold it against him again. The wheels have come off the cycle and the engine is dead. The entire fourth season can be seen as an attempt to keep the cycle alive, because it is comforting in a way. But it doesn’t work, because, I repeat, THE ENGINE IS LITERALLY DEAD.

See, succession clearly has shown that whereas Logan and Ewan had no desire to be a family, the sibs always find their way back to each other. After Ken’s season 1 bullshit. After Ken’s press conference. After the confrontation with Logan. Ewan tells people at the funeral “I loved him I suppose, but-” but none of them would ever say that. The love is so clearly, inarguably there and maybe that is the real tragedy; that in another world it could have been a much easier kind of love (but it rarely is, for most of us anyways).

#i guess you could say i have a personal gripe with the logan-ewan-rose kendall-shiv-roman allignment so what? #i also have a gripe with being needlessly melodramatic but don't feel to attacked by that i get it #it makes for poetic analysis #not gonna lie i have like two more posts about this in the drafts #both different flavors #because i will tell you one thing i had a gut reaction to all three sibling's endings and none of them were what you might expect #and i keep returning to them so those really inform my reading and rejection of certain theories #succession #succession season 4 #kendall roy #shiv roy #roman roy #logan roy