#i hate it here! i hate living in my head

[sneez]

palace storage rooms

[id: a digital drawing in a painterly style of an interior scene showing a wall hung with paintings. on the far left is a fraction of a portrait in a gold frame showing a man in a red doublet posing with a sword. the next painting is a smaller portrait in a lopsided wooden frame of a thin-faced man with long dark hair and a serious expression. the next painting shows the same man, now older and with a beard and moustache, dressed in black and standing with his hands behind his back; there is a spiderweb festooning the corner of the frame. the final painting is obscured by same man, older again and with grey in his hair, walking in front of it so he is framed within the picture. the scene is lit by a single shaft of sunlight which stops short of the figure. end id.]

#discworld #havelock vetinari #artwork #idk what im trying to say here but the image appeared in my head in perfect clarity so i had to materialise it. excise it if you will #i am happy with how it turned out too which is nice :D i normally hate my art by the time im finished but i still like this one #2024 achievements #i hope you are all having a wonderful start to the year my friends!!! i love you kiss you #^ this guy lives in my brain btw. walking around in there. cane tap tap tapping

[sunnysssol]

Happy birthday guys 🥰

[ comms open | do not repost ] please don't tag as ship!

#hetalia #aph canada #aph america #hws canada #hws america #sol's art #alfred f jones #matthew williams #i hate them fr if they wanna live in my head forever so bad they need to start paying some bills around here or somethin !!!!!

[brother-emperors]

you're SO right, how is it that the best portrayal of many italian renaissance figures comes from a bad videogame from the 2010s

wheezing I’m torn between going truly this is the best portrayal of Leonardo da Vinci we may ever get, and defending AC2 even though I’m a full time Ezio Saga Hater

#I’m a Desmond Era + Origins fan in a ride or die kind of way but the Ezio games suck ass compared to 1 and 3 #however AC2 is miles above the European Era games and Odyssey butchers the use of Ezio’s theme so bad I will never forgive them #also Odyssey is legitimately bad. AC2’s biggest problem is that the story is narratively weak and holds it’s punches #I mostly hate the Ezio saga because the fandom was really fucking racist (still is!) and it could’ve been good!!! #but I have a deep seated fondness for the parts of it that were good. the game after all is still asking you to live even when it’s hard #the opening and the music are unparalleled and legendary. I just wish it kept that up throughout the story instead of #trying for a wider appeal but the story fucks up it’s own themes and bc the simplicity of it’s assassin/templar line up is baffling #there is also an AC2 that exists in my head that takes place in Venice lmao but that’s much more spy thriller #also did anyone here read the novelizations. Ezio and Machiavelli are so fucking married. 10/10 no notes #Ascanio is also mentioned in the brotherhood novelization iirc so. we stay winning!!

[cheriboms]

doctober day 18: letter

idk about you but if i thought id failed to save my friends life, stressed myself out about it for like an hour, and mourned their death for the second time, JUST to find out that they DID in fact take my advice... id have a couple words. thats all ill say

#back to the future #bttf #doc brown #emmett brown #marty mcfly #christopher lloyd #michael j fox #doctober #doctober 2023 #my arts #my sketchy wip arts #heres to hoping this actually shows up in the tag. tumblr hates my videos :( #also i had this ready like 3 hours ago and forgot to post it O_O; but im technically not late so uh ye #also also this audio lives in my head rent free LOL #(it is from the movie mrs doubtfire :])

[soldier-poet-king]

I once again have a sore throat and fatigue and I am once again like is this genuine illness or is this the fun 24-36 hr game my body has started to play without warning on and off since I had covid

Like there is Definitely Something Wrong given the recurring frequency but doctors just ???? Bc it never lasts and rarely manifests into smthn more serious

#LITERALLY. HATE IT HERE #how can i live laugh love in these conditions #the duality of fran #highkey debating going home Early my head is so fuzzy and i want to sleep #but then the whole convo with my boss. upcoming resignation bc new job. etc #i am trying to not burn bridges

[piningprecussionist]

Template by @juni38

Im going to be completely frank with you all... and admit that I read these options and wasn't sure how to take this chart,,, so uh. Under the cut is Another Version. I'd apologize but I've given you the option to keep scrolling ¯\_(･･)_/¯

(If you notice characters missing on Kim's side, I probably figured she doesn't know who they are lol)

For the record,,, if they *wanted* me to pull their hair-- *is shot several times before I can continue*

Uhh Matthew is here because I have been converted fully on he/him or enby lesbian Matthew I think. He lives in my brain rent free now, very gender. I'd pull his hair but also I think he mostly just deserves to have it played with nicely.

And Scott's here because 1) I enjoy trans Scott, 2) Kim Pine Brain Rot possibly, 3) idk he's like,, the exception. God damnit, I've fallen for the inexplicable Scott Pilgrim Effect. What the fuck--

I did think about doing this chart like everyone was actually applicable to my tastes, but even if they were I think the ones I didn't put up would have to fall on the caress side bc I just don't feel that way abt them lol.

Again, not to say that's the case for the gals over on that side,,, I just think I would want to be gentle w them shxkdjsdhbd with the exception for Lynette who probably deserves to have her hair pulled, but again I fear she would Hurt Me,,, but maybe in a fun way,,,

Anyway No One Look At Me....

(,, also,,, Ramona is so far over bc I think she would enjoy it,, otherwise she'd be closer to Kim in that section. Same thing w Roxie)

If anyone actually looks at this version, I'm not opposed to doing a version like this for Kim btw! Just ask for it so I feel like I'm not just Dropping This and scurrying away

#sp comic #meme #kim pine #id tag more people but i Do Not Have The Strength.... #also i like Living and I think the idea of more people seeing the suggestively taken one makes me want to Die a little #(not to say you cant reblog this or whatever im just being dramatic shdjejsdhdhgdd I am generally a fairly Reserved person) #for the kim chart- i based my other scott placement on the interaction theyve had here! i think if they interacted for real or more often + #+ he'd end up definitively in the Pull Roughly suggestion with most people #ooc #he maybe if i finish edits for everyone i could try this w the au stuff. kit's thoughts might be different here... #hey* #also let me know if i forgot anyone??? i thought abt including the robots but. no hair. and gideon the cat has Fur so. on technicality- #but like barring parents and peter i think i got most people #i guess if lainey was here she'd go somewhere in the middle or right? w/out knowing what she'd be like #FUCK I DIDNT MEAN TO POST THIS. I MEAN IT'S HERE NOW SO IM NOT REMOVING IT BUT I AM S C R E A M I N G I WASNT READY #ah i forgot crash and the boys actually. thats why i wasnt supposed to post this yet #uhhhh Pull Roughly for like all of them. except trasha. trasha gets head pats and a juice box #except for on Kim's chart. on Kim's chart she's in the pull roughly section I can't lie to myself. she hates that kid 😭 also on that note + #+ knives should probably be in the middle section. like she wants to pull it for her having copped her style and being stupid abt scott. #but I didn't put her there bc I feel like even if she wants to she wouldn't ya know? knives is a Precious Angel after all

[hamartia-grander]

Jesus fucking christ I hate the US south

#Cw gun mention I guess #I was feeling super nauseous so I went into the kitchen to get ritz crackers #And we're at my grandma's rn for Christmas and she has windows in the kitchen that look out at the road/other houses #And NO curtains or blinds because she's old #And anyway I turned a small light on so I could see the crackers and I hear a fucking man outside shout “WHO'S OUT THERE” #In the heaviest southern accent. Mind you every fucking person in this area has a gun bc there's lots of trees with squirreld they shoot #And logically now that I am calming down I know it was just a bad coincidence and he was probably yelling at smthn in his yard #But jesus fucking christ I felt such immediate intense fear my head went cold #Ran to my baby brother's room bc I was certain someone was gonna come kill us #Then the rationality took over and I just told my mom about it. But now I'm sitting outside his room eating crackers bc I'm fucking paranoid #It is almost 4am and I haven't slept a wink I cannot do this rn #But literally the last time I went for a walk around here my dad told me not to go alone and also not to say anything stupid #And also stay far away from houses bc I could get myself shot #Literally what the fuck is this. #“Afearican” except I'm still very much in the US #Not to mention almost every fucking house has a blue lives matter flag and some have isr*el flags now too like #I fuuuuucking hate it here

[chimerahyperfix]

accidental child acquisition (plasma brought them into the dastardly sitcom house)

#the dastardly bombers 100% all live together and it’s like a sitcom #that’s it. that’s my major head canon #this looks shit because I didn’t want to do actual line art. I’m too eepy for accuracy #‘oooh I love drawing for my hyperfixation!’ vs ‘I have to draw. the world is ending and I hate it here’ #it’s hard for me to draw these guys lmao I’m a big expression person and they like! dont facially emote! #im LOOSING! the curse of expression drawing #chimera draws #bomberman #plasma bomber #phantom bomber #the kid doesn’t have a tag BUT I call them clementine. orange little fellow #<- at least that I know of. I didn’t look lmaoooo

[ardennesroan]

been thinking a lot about little jack marston lately

#jack marston #red dead redemption #red dead redemption fanart #art #rdr fanart #got a voiceline in rdr2 where arthur said 'dont end up like me jack' and ive NOT known peace since #also for the record this is NOT how i think jack ends up. in my head he gets away and lives a life but not like the popular reddit theories #which i HATE btw #anyway. here's jackie :') #also new blog hi lol my main is @dostoevsky

[ticklepinions]

Gonna start watching heartstopper. I am so upset

#i cannot describe this sensation #I love the babies but watching the new season means I have to see them in different situations #why do that when they can live happily ever after in my head #haha #i am so normal #its just a show. why am I mildly anxious #hate it here

[that-was-anticlimactic]

apparently weather is supposed to be really bad here tomorrow afternoon :) like tornado bad :) anxiety is. here :)

#i HATE tornados and natural disasters they FREAK me out #and i’m on the second floor of an apt complex and there’s no basement and grace isn’t back yet so imma be by myself so that’s #going to be Freaky and gently terrifying :) #just a warning i may be super annoying on here tomorrow depending on how bad it is #got a heads up from my coworkers and my dad (and he doesn’t live here) so. panic is setting in ahhhhhh #they were like ‘make sure to keep your phone charged during work’ and now i’m paranoid that the power will go out and my phone will die and #i’ll be alone in the dark with no way to contact people while i’m panickinv #oh boy this is definitely a sign that i should go to sleep and stop thinking about what could happen #weather just freaks me out #okay done for now #will be back to complain and flip out tomorrow prolly lol #sorry for the breakdown😅 #corey talks:)

[spookyc]

Having watched Nimona recently, I feel it's important for me, as a trans person, to discuss a certain criticism I've seen regarding the movie. A criticism I take great issue with, and one that I think needs to be addressed. And that is the supposed issue of Nimona being "too blatant" about its queerness, that its message is "ham-fisted" in nature. And that bothers me. It bothers me that people think that something that is blatant is inherently bad. It bothers me that people think its message is ham-fisted simply because you don't have to go searching for it. Something being obvious isn't inherently negative and I'm tired of that sentiment being thrown around like it's fact. Because subtlety isn't an inherent good either, neither are good or bad entirely. And frankly, when it comes to queerness in media, the only way it will have an impact is if it's blatant. Especially regarding transness.

Because, if you'll allow me to be completely blunt and candid, we don't live in a society where subtle queerness can be appreciated. We live in a society that wants people like me eradicated for simply existing. Laws are being passed continously that discriminate against us and prevent us from living comfortably. We live in a world rn where we either have to suffer in silence or fucking die. That is the reality trans people live in. So if those that hate us are given any indication that they can disregard us, ignore us, pretend we don't exist, they will take that opportunity everytime. We've seen this with Across the Spiderverse, where even trans flags and trans colors splashed across Gwen will still lead to people denying her transness.

Because at the end of the day, Spiderverse is still about Miles Morales, and it's still about Spiderman, and Spiderman's story isn't inherently queer. So they'll make every excuse to ignore Gwen's transness, or they'll simply ignore her story to focus on the rest of what ATSV has to offer. Ultimately, it can still be overlooked and enjoyed without acknowledging that aspect. But that isn't the case for Nimona. Nimona is a queer story with queer themes and queer characters, queerness is baked into the very core of what Nimona is. To not acknowledge those aspects is to blatantly misinterpret the movie, you cannot divorce Nimona from being gay, and trans, and nonbinary, and genderfluid and everything that falls in between. It is blatant, and really, I think that's what we need rn. We need something so unapolegetically queer that people can't ignore it, they can't disregard it, and they can't look away from it. Because then that means they have to acknowledge us, that they can't wipe us out, that we are here and we are loud and we WILL make our voices known. Being quiet helps no one, but being loud is what inspires change, it's what makes people uncomfortable, and I say we make them as uncomfortable as possible.

For every bigot that wants us dead, that thinks we're monsters and unfit for society, you will have the bigots who understand that they're wrong. You will have the bigots who change the way they see us, and might even recognize how harmful they were being. You don't get that by keeping your head down and hinting towards a vague metaphor that a character might be trans, because with how things are right now, it won't be enough to make an impact. You do that by making a metaphor so obvious it bypasses subtext and becomes the text, you do that by having characters like Nimona, who simply wish to exist without everyone pestering her about who she is, she's Nimona, and that's the only answer she or anyone should have to give. You do that by intiating a rallying cry, to inspire trans people, kids or otherwise, and to state plain and clearly that we see you, and that you aren't alone.

So yeah Nimona is very blatant in its queerness, and I wouldn't have it any other way.

#nimona #spiderverse #across the spiderverse #discussion #queer discussion #gwen stacy #miles morales #the movie itself commentates on this by having ballister and nimona be the sides of new age queers and old age queers respectively #ballister wants to lay low and not make a scene and encourages nimona to not shapeshift in order to be more discreet #while nimona simply wants to exist as herself and why should she bother hiding from people who will hate her either way? #who is that helping? #i think the same applies here to #stonewall started as a riot and it is the reason we have pride #bowing our heads to people who want us dead no matter what we do will not save us #so fuck subtlety #ill take subtlety when we live in a world where i can live freely and not worry for my life

[umber-cinders]

Your a blkwriter with a popular dark story: do you have to deal with haters? :/ when I tried writing darker stories people made rude comments

Hey 💗I'm sorry people were rude to you on your story anon, that's definitely not cool. Dark Fics and Dead Dove Do Not Eat stories are labelled the way they are for a reason and if people don't want to interact with that content, they should honestly just fuck off and read something else.

I definitely have gotten hate comments lol Someone once went through Winter Moon to comment on multiple chapters about how much they hate the story. I told them that anyone who reads a fanfic and leaves paragraph-long detailed comments on why it sucks is a just a fan in disguise 💀 They never commented again but I hope they enjoy secretly hate-reading the rest of the story.

I don't take shit from randoms on the internet and I never really gaf about who dislikes me or my content. I firmly believe in letting people stay bothered and mad. I know that's hard to achieve for some people in this age of fast-paced, self-centered internet fandoms, but carving out your own space with like-minded people you enjoy talking to will always be more satisfying than trying to please others 💕

#Take care of your brain anon #People be pussy af and hating from afar on what they can never achieve #They'll bring you down with them if they can lol #I've been here for a while and to this day I live in people's head rent free #ao3 writer #writeblr #Ask Umber #Bipoc writers #ao3 #Anonymous #Ask #My Askhole

[torsamors]

-Dalton Day, @tinyghosthands

[Image IDs: five images with text placed on top, described as follows. (1) Spock crying in the TOS episode The Naked Time, with text that reads 'I am carrying a dog in my hands,' and an image of Spock smiling at Kirk with text that says ' & every time I think of you / another dog appears in my hands.' (2) Spock from the motion picture film with text that says 'I always think I won't be able to carry any more dogs / & then I think of you' followed by an image of Spock and Kirk holding hands, while Spock lays down with the text '& another dog appears / & it look like I can do what I thought I couldn't do' (3) Kirk, looking at a dying Spock while they are separated by glass with the text 'I know how this is going to end / I will die surrounded by the ones / I love' and an image of the crew, minus Spock, watching as Spock's casket is launched into space with the text '& the ones I love will be / all the dogs I carried & still will / be carrying.' (4) Kirk, hurt, holding Spock tightly with the text '& you will be there / & I will die' and an image of the crew all smiling at Spock, after his resurrection with the text '& the dogs will not die' (5) Spock Prime, from the first reboot film, looking at Kirk with the text '& every thought I have ever had of you / will go running into the world' and Spock from the new films holding a photo of the original crew, with the text '& the world will know / how close I carried you.' /End ID]

#spock #spock prime #star trek #i know i posted one yesterday but hes in my head. hes living her #*here #also like. does this make sense. maybe only to me but it does. #god this made me so emotional to make like i love spock sm #mine #** #spirk #<- kinda. also i hate that ship name. #can u guys imagine how insane this couldve been if they had kept the pendant scene in aos

[soldier-poet-king]

Two chapters into this is how you lose the time war and I already can feel that I am going to be SO normal about this (a threat & a promise)

#fran reads #anyway it took me eons to read this #bc i have an insane guilt complex and a homophobic trad living in my brain rent free #for the longest time teen me was like NO i cant read queer stuff. i shant. /dramatic sigh/ #and then obvs i got my head out of my ass #but for years it was just. idk. much more comfortable with m/m then f/f in fiction #idk if its just bc its so much more prevalent. or bc my brain hates Gender #(or realistically. its bc there's a degree of separation and i cant let myself PINE about WOMEN holding HANDS god forbid) #anyway. we have broken this barrier. i am here like #oh man i love me my lesbians. insane women in love fr. #it just HITS DIFFERENT #anyway. ANYWAY. i can already see how this book is going to end in tragedy. i am biting and eating glass #(also ofc always just thinking abd wizard gfs like #pf brainrot is real i am thinking abt THEM 24/7)

[tiredguyswag]

shut up about the ram mandir im genuinely gonna start crying

#lamp.txt #will it be over tomorrow? will i still have to put up with this? #and im in a privileged position here. im not under the threat of any violence #and i live in a non bjp state (which has still been covered head to toe in saffron) #all i have to do is just shut up and smile when it comes to discussions about the ram mandir to stay safe #but what about everyone else? what about the violence and lynchings which i am sure have spiked today? #what about the muslims who have to put up with this? who have to put up with threats to their safety? #what about the dalits and christians and ANY OTHER NON HINDU GROUP IM JUST #i feel bad for complaining when i have it good but it sucks so much #the ram bhajans are non stop #my family knows its a tactic to get more votes but they still support bjp #i hate this i hate this i hate this